#that it changes like 5 times lol 🤪

[kuiinncedes]

thank you for tagging meeeee @flaine & @md-drawz (on my main but i'm just gonna do it here hehe :)) 🥰🥰🥰🥰

last song: all too well ten minute version 🤩

last tv show: heartstoppepepeppperrrrrrrrrrr

currently watching: nothing but u bet it's gonna be heartstopper again soon XD actually also like at the end of a jatp rewatch from idk when sometime this year lol :')

currently reading: nothing ;-; hopefully will read something this summer djhgkfhghd

tagging @neversatisfiedwithlife @hopefulobjectmiracle @homosandhomies @gorgxoxus @peetaparkker if you want !! :)) and anyone else who wants to 💖

[fayes-fics]

20 Questions for Fic Writers!

I was tagged by @suspendingtime. Thanks my dear. 🫶🫶 Apologies I'm a little tipsy right now haha. 🤪

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

155. Ahem, hush you. I started writing 18 months ago. When I get a new hobby, I REALLY lean into it.

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

481,485. Yup, almost half a million. Again, shhhh.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Only Bridgerton. Look, I have my hyperfixations, ok?

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

On AO3:

In His Lap (Short Fic) 181 

Temptation 177 

The Lesson 155 

Insatiable 149 

Are We Friends? 148

Tumblr notes:

Second Son 3,436

Sonnet #29 2,199

Rescue & Ruin 1,841

Awakening 1,827

Temptation 1,788

Wattpad readers:

Innocence, 30,600

Benedict Bridgerton Regency One Shots 23,000

Kinktober 2022 collection 16,300

Anthony Bridgerton Regency One Shots 10,400

Moments 5,800

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yes. Always. It's just wonderful to get feedback. I read and respond to every single comment. They mean the world to me, truly.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably No Good Advice. I ended up writing Moments multi-chapter as I (and a friend) couldn't bear the idea they didn't end up together lolol.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

All of them, tbh. I can't write an unhappy ending. Maybe the mushiest is Second Son, Moments, or It Had To Be You.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Luckily not much yet. I did get one hate anon early on. It wasn't about a specific fic, though. It said they didn't know why I had a 'please don't steal my work' disclaimer (the standard one that most writers here use) cos I was delusional that my work was worth stealing. 🤷‍♀️

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Yes, it's my trademark. It's rare when I don't write smut. 😬 I'm not sure what is meant by kind of smut. I've written it all, from vanilla romantic sex to kink threesomes with harnesses and double penetration lol. I haven't had a request yet that I've turned down due to sexual content.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

Not yet. The closest I've gotten is It Had To Be You, which is based on When Harry Met Sally.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Yes, sadly, it has happened quite a few times now. I was so fed up with filing copyright takedown notices that I set up a Wattpad account to try to counter it.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No. I've been offered but have turned it down. I have no way to check that any translation would get across the nuance I aim for. So I know that may be anglo-centric, but its how I feel for now.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Not yet, but I am always threatening to lolol.

14. What’s your all-time favourite ship?

Hmm, tough one. I do love Kanthony tbh.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Benedict as a virgin. I just urghhh.... it's been a WIP for 17 months now. I just dunno why I won't finish it; I just get the feeling I won't.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I have no bloody idea. I'd prefer readers answer that tbh lol. My inclination is to say I don't have one, except perhaps a willingness to describe sex in ridiculous levels of detail? Is that a strength?

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

World building. I will do anything to shortcut it. I'll find an economical way to describe a situation e.g. she's a widow; they're old friends. Got it? Good! Let's get down to business.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I've done a smidgeon of French as I studied it for ten years. But I doubt I'd do another language tbh.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Only Bridgerton so far.

20. Favourite fic you’ve written?

Bloody hell, I have no fucking idea. It literally changes depending on my mood. But I don't really care for my own writing that much, all I see is flaws lol. I guess the universe I would most like to write more for one day is Mrs Bridgerton and its sequel. Does that count?

No Pressure Tagging: A couple of my talented writing moots were tagged along with me on this (the lovelies @colettebronte and @eleanor-bradstreet). So lets go: @thebabblingbrookenook @fiction-is-life @ferns-fics @silverhallow @mothdruid @queen-of-the-misfit-toys @urchintoast 😁🧡🧡

[nalyra-dreaming]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Thanks for the tag @o0anapher0o!! This was such a fun thing to do, thank you so much!!

How many works do you have on ao3? 113

What’s your total ao3 word count? 1,860,349 ... 👀

What fandoms do you write for? Hannibal, IWTV, Naruto

Top 5 fics by kudos A change of color (Naruto) Divination (Hannibal (TV)) A twist of fate, forcing our hands (Hannibal (TV)) Blood in my veins (Naruto) Baptism (Hannibal (TV))

Do you respond to comments? I do, sometimes it takes a moment (like right now, sorry guys), but yes, I do.

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Oof... I think that might be "A void for my heart"

What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Errrrrrr.... maybe "Oh hey, you're mine (sweetheart)"

Do you get hate on fics? Yes. Only in IWTV though, lol

Do you write smut? Yes. :)

Craziest crossover I was challenged to a "Valhalla Rising/Jagten" crossover, both in which Mads Mikkelsen plays the main part, it resulted in "Two sides of the same coin"

Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not that I'm aware of

Have you ever had a fic translated? Yes. "A blackish red hue" (the series which started with "Baptism" and which I put into a book) was translated at some point. Though I'm not sure where I have the link 🤪

Have you ever co-written a fic before? No.

All time favourite ship? Loustat, bc of the dynamic. Looking at my other favorite ships that... shows (lol 🙈)

What’s a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will? "The teeth that ache". Original vampire lore Hannibal rewrite. I... lost the energy for it at some point, halfway through, unfortunately.

What are your writing strengths? I think I can evoke emotions quite well. Also, I almost never go back and edit, for me it... is just word by word clicking into place.

What are your writing weaknesses? I need to have absolute peace and quiet for writing or else it's not happening. I also rely on the reader's knowledge of the world for my fics, sometimes maybe too much.

Thoughts on dialogue in another language? Mhhhh depends. I like to include snippets if I know that what I write there is correct *laughs*

First fandom you wrote in? Forever Knight. AGES ago.

Favourite fic you’ve written? "Flowers, fangs and kisses", maybe, followed by "A change of color". The former was just so fun to write, while the other... saved my sanity through covid.

This was so fun! Tagging @cbrownjc, @faerywhimsy, @angstosaur, @suikamelon6, @riley-beautrelle, @virginiaisforvampires and whoever wants to :)

[dayseternal-blog]

One your asks inspired this thought of out me.

Idk if Icebergs are still popular, but does a NaruHina Fic Iceberg post sound fun to you?

Basically, there's like 5 or 6 tiers (there should be a template readily available in google images) and you assign specific media (in this case, NH fics) to each tier, descending from tame tho troubling to 'stare into the abyss'-level awful. 😅

I'm just super curious now, haha. 🤪 Baiee~

I worked on this for a couple of days! Fun~

uhhh click for hopefully better quality?

The order of the fics within each category sorta matters to me, but if I thought about it harder, I'd probably change things around, so the order's not that important. And in general, the categories go from NaruHina getting hurt, to NaruHina hurting others, to NaruHina hurting each other. With a few exceptions! But if someone else were to rank this, they might categorize things differently.

It's all just my feeling. As you can see. By the category titles.

Congratulations to Sessakag, Sadistic One, BlackMajjicDuchess, and DemonOfTheFridge for scaring me the most hahahahahaha 💀

Looking at this and one would think I love freaky stories lol

I read it for the curious cat to be killed.

I have all the stories linked below :)

Darkly Mysterious, Worrying 😥

“White Kunai” by @magmawrites - Rated E, Canon-Divergent AU, Multi-chapter, Complete. A series of violent rapes and murders targeting long, dark haired, young women have caught the attention of the Hokage. Her plan? Use a qualified, long, dark haired kunoichi as bait. The only one that fits the criteria? Hinata.

“a home is a dream” by bluebeardsbrides - Rated M, Modern AU, One-shot. Naruto Uzumaki returns home with all the force maelstrom, three days after her husband’s disappearance and six years since she went and stumbled on Neji’s body floating in the creek downtown.

"Dark Shift" by brown phantom - Rated M, Canon-Divergent AU, Multi-chapter, Incomplete. After a solo mission goes horribly wrong, something happens to Naruto. His mask of happiness turns dark and cruel, and he turns against the village he had sworn to protect. Can he be returned to normal before it's too late?

“Distorted Minds” by Cheating Death - Rated E for graphic violence, Canon-Divergent, Multi-chapter, Complete. Her lavender eyes slowly opened, her vision blurry and distorted for a few moments as she tried to look around. It was then that she realized that she was suspended a few inches off the ground, her wrists cuffed in cold, metal shackles that hung from the ceiling.

Disturbing, Unsettling, Cursed 😶

“Asylum AU” from “Tales of Two Ninjas” by magmawrites - Rated M, Modern AU, One-shot. What’s to say what’s real and what isn’t? The only thing that’s valid and true in all universes is their love for one another.

“Burn The House Down” by @secrettastemakerland - Rated G, Canon-Divergent, One-shot. Naruto shrugged, not really having an answer. He had tried to tell her they had bigger problems.

"Go Home, Start Again" by @bunny-hoodlum - Rated E, Canon-Divergent, One-shot. My submission for NH2020 February's theme "Time Loop".

"Stay" by @nightowl27-writer - Rated E, Modern AU, Multi-chapter, Complete. The basement holds much more than ashes and secrets. As urban legends come to life, people begin to disappear, and a city sits on the brink of disaster. When everything seems to be falling apart, will Hinata find the answer to the question she is terrified to ask?

Weird, Shocking, & Crazy 🤪

“His obsession” by agitosgirl - Rated M, Canon-Divergent, Multi-chapter, Incomplete. Naruto loved her, he loved her with everything he had and more. And when he gets back from his training trip, he’s going to show her how much he cherishes her. And she is going to be with him. Whether she wants to be or not isn’t really her choice.

"Qui Laudavit" by Avelona-and-Sally - Rated M, Canon-Divergent, Multi-chapter, Incomplete. One side-effect of having a demon sealed in you is a taste for blood. Another is the ability to make living and dead alike do your bidding. Which comes in handy when your girlfriend keeps dying.

“October - Horror” by @chloelapomme - Rated T, High School AU, Multi-chapter, Complete. When despair turns into a feeling of love so intense that obsession is the only thing that can help you protect the one you love.

“Her” by browniefic - Rated E, Modern AU, Multi-chapter, Incomplete. Naruto’s had a lot of obsessions in his life. But he knows she’s different.

"A Woman's Heart" by Ookami88 - Rated E, Canon-Divergent, One-shot. Naruto lies in hospital in coma. Sasuke is locked in prison for his crimes. Hinata comes up with a plan that will ensure her beloved man's happiness, no matter how much it'll cost her.

“A Love Never Seen” by HoneyWriter78 - Rated E and has rape/non-con, High School AU, Multi-chapter, Complete. Hinata Hyuga attend Konoha High she is part of the athletics group. She is friends with Ino and Shikamaru but is secretly in love with Shikamaru who is oblivious and loves someone else. She tried to fight her feelings not noticing that a certain senpai has had his eyes on her…

“There’s a new psycho on the block” by agitosgirl - Rated M for mentions of sex, Canon-Divergent, Multi-chapter, Complete/Inconclusive Ending. What happens when it’s Hinata who’ goes crazy? Years of torment and abuse by her family’s hand have caused this young girl to lose her mind, and to top it off, her mother left her a gift that will make her enemies, or just anyone she chooses to target, regret meeting her.

"Lost Souls" from "NaruHina Month December 2022" by @sessakag - Rated M, Canon-Divergent, One-shot. They set off on a journey that’d one day bring them back to their place of birth, and on that day, they’d enact the plan that had given them a sense of purpose.

"Ravenous" from "NaruHina Month December 2022" by sessakag - Rated E, Modern AU, One-shot. “Hinataaaa,” Naruto pouted, leaning inside the open bathroom door, “you ready yet? I’m starving!”

Explicitly Appalling 😨

“Side Effects” by Cheating Death - Rated E for smut, dub-con, & non-con, Modern AU, Multi-chapter, Complete.  You can easily skip the rape and non-con without compromising the plot, the author warns you before it happens. When Naruto and Hinata decide to participate in a high-paying clinical study, they wind up signing up for much more than they bargained for.

“Serial Killer” by Raven Young - Rated M, Modern AU, Multi-chapter, Incomplete. She’s a Sociopath. She’s a Supermodel. She’s a serial killer. She’s a girl in love. She is Hinata Hyuga. And he is her undoing.

“I want you to cry” and its sequel “I want you” by Devahhole - Rated E for graphic murder (character death), dub-con/non-con, and smut, High School AU, Multi-chapter, Ongoing. A sociopath blinded by revenge runs into his greatest opponent.

"Naruto: The Mating" by SeventhShinobi - Rated E, Canon-Divergent, Multi-chapter, Incomplete. Now, Naruto has discovered the an ability called "The Mating." Come see what he'll do with his new found power

Seriously Distressing 😰

“Powerless” by bunny-hoodlum - Rated E for a lot of things, like depictions of violence and character death. Multi-chapter, Incomplete. His family’s past can’t be taken at face-value, and it comes clawing back to hurt him in ways that are out of his control.  DELETED FIC.

“Listen To Me” by SullyR - Rated E and includes domestic abuse & non-con, Modern AU, Multi-chapter, Complete. Hinata is terrified out of her mind. She has no choice but to listen to him or else he gets physical, and by physical, she means fast!

“Nightmare” from “Nice Legs, Daisy Dukes” by Star-Child-Yeci - Rated M, Canon-Divergent AU, One-shot. “Why do you got that in your hand, huh, pet?” The words slid off his tongue, and she shivered.

Chapter 6 from “Naruhina Oneshots” by @powerful-niya - Rated E, College AU, One-shot. A new college student finally enrolls into her new school, with the help of a handsome blonde male. He helps her and cares for her which she appreciates very much. But bad rumors about him break out and eventually reaches the midnight blue-haired woman making her feel skeptical about their friendship. But cutting ties is hard, especially with a guy who already has you, under his boot.

Wtf Horrifying 😱

“Monster” by Sessakag - Rated E, Canon-Divergent, Multi-chapter, Ongoing. Naruto, a celebrated war hero, finds himself, once again at the forefront of the fight, but which side is he on this time? Love. Tragedy. Happiness. Heartache. The growing pains of becoming a man, have molded, shaped and brought forth a new Naruto Uzumaki.

“Insanity” by Sadistic One - Rated E for GRAPHIC MURDER, College AU, Multi-chapter, Ongoing. The smell of his cologne and slight musk was the first thing that caught Hyuga Hinata’s attention. She eventually found out that smell belonged to a young man named Uzumaki Naruto. Ever since that encounter, she couldn’t stop following him and watching his every move. She needed to know who he hanged out with, his hobbies likes and dislikes. She even transferred to his school to study him more closely. But as those months went on, she discovered Naruto was not who he portrayed to be to his peers, but a cold-blooded murderer. Is this enough to put a stop to Hinata’s obsession or will it draw her closer to her own insanity?

“Breeding Season” by BlackMajjicDuchess - Rated E and has rape/non-con, Canon-Divergent, Multi-chapter, Complete. Completely out of pattern, Kyuubi leaks free and causes terrible destruction that Naruto cannot suppress. There is a solution, but it comes at a terrible price.

“Honeymoon” by DemonOfTheFridge - Rated E and has rape/non-con, Canon-Divergent, Multi-chapter, Complete. Naruto always left on a secret mission once a year for a whole month. A curious Hinata finally had enough and followed him to an underground house. A house she finds herself trapped in, with a dark Naruto. Curiosity Killed the Cat.

This was so entertaining! If anyone agrees or would order things differently, let me know~

[leqclerc]

I always rooted for charles to stay at ferrari, because I wanted him to win with them. But seeing the way everyone is reacting after this race. . . He's starting to get the vettel treatment and I don't think it's going to get better. It's the first time I'm starting to think he should leave.

Yeah, I agree. It's the infamous Ferrari Number 1 Driver Affliction™. Ferrari might not publicly acknowledge Charles as such, but by all other metrics that's exactly what he is.

The prevalent narrative that it's his own frustrations/uncontrolled emotions that are the root cause of his troubles is very similar to what was being said about Seb. I mean, to this day you still get people parroting the claim that "he was never the same after Hockenheim 2018" which is........ just not true? lol Hockenheim 2019 has entered the chat 🤪 It was basically the ideal redemption drive after the events of 2018 and I barely see it mentioned. He can't even catch a break in retirement with all the "well Seb couldn't extract the full potential out of the Aston like Alonso does" takes. Like he's not single-handedly responsible for Aston's highest podium finish to date in a car that had maybe a fraction of the pace that this year's car does. Jfc.

Not to mention that the weight of a failed title challenge doesn't rest solely on the shoulders of the driver - there's many factors at play and in both 2018 and 2022 Ferrari just couldn't keep up with their rivals and threw away too many points by tripping over their own feet.

What's also frustrating about the Charles situation in particular is that... it's the Italian media who gassed him up in the first place, who boxed him into this Il Predestinato moniker when he himself never put himself on that pedestal, never claimed to be Ferrari's salvation. He can do a lot but there are things that are beyond even him. Drivers and team principals come and go but the title drought remains and no amount of Charles slander will change that 🤷🏻‍♀️

I know winning at Ferrari is his dream and he's 110% invested in this team but my god... he's on year 4/5 of his contract and what does he have to show for it? After last year's fight ended prematurely they've now taken a step back again and have been leapfrogged by Aston and are either on par with or perhaps even slower than Merc. There's still a lack of clarity and firmness leading to messy unnecessary situations like the qualy in Melbourne. Don't think anyone would blame him if he started shopping around for alternative opportunities elsewhere at this point.

[hawkzeyes]

why is everyone against bernard being the question guy wouldn’t it bring more to berdnard anyways

Mmm there are a lot of reasons personally for me! I’m gonna go ahead and say I’m incredibly biased and DC’s recent choices have my eye twitching.

1. Renee deserves to continue as The Question. DC has done this thing again, where an effective and exciting woman hero gets shifted backwards and we just lose all character development for no reason at all. This isn’t the first time DC has done this and it certainly won’t be the last time unfortunately. I’d like to see it fixed tbh and I’d like to see her back in the mask!

2. The Question seems to get just the title of a “conspiracy theorist” which is what I see B*tfam Stans using as a reason as apparently Bernard has had this trait, but that’s a huge misconception (mostly because of JLU love it though) sure he works with conspiracies but mostly because they are linked to corruption, which is really what he actually handles most of the time. Along with Renee! He just happens to be really cryptic about it, giving him that mysterious ‘crack pot’ vibe. That’s the purpose of The Question though. To go where the person behind the mask can’t, to stop the corruption at its core.

3. The DC comic verse has done enough sacrificing other characters for the b*tfam honest to god. Ppl are getting really tired of it. There has been plenty of this talk outside of the b*tfamily circle but it’s generally missed by them because they tend to stay in their circle. Which is totally fine! That’s their space, but the rest of the families/fandoms are irked. The way multiple characters have been altered and changed just to fit along that family is A LOT in the N52/Rebirth situation. The rest of the characters in DC are not responsible for Bernard being more interesting. If writers want him to be interesting they ought to just develop him as a person? Renee doesn’t deserve to lose the mantle because y’all want Tim’s boyfriend to be a cool conspiracy guy

4. If y’all want to see this, write fanfiction about it? That’s what fanfiction is for. What I don’t want is it being pushed at DC because A LOT of writers right now are waaaay too involved in fandom spaces rn (which I find highly unprofessional. Like I’m not saying you can’t be a fan, obviously I would prefer that, but starting fights with fans, beefing over Twitter, and using your power in these comic companies to run over others opinions and or steal ideas from fans is weird) and they do take from it. T*m T*ylor.

5. I think it would actually crush me to see Renee lose the mantle because of fandom space after Vic (who is one of my favorite characters) trusted her with it. The person who has it now respects Vic and the meaning behind the mask, because that very much matters when it comes to The Question, instead of just “lol conspiracies 🤪🤪”

6. If I remember correctly isn’t Vic back confusingly? With the whole Manhattan Flashpoint mess (please don’t ask me to explain I literally never understand the flashpoint LMFAOOO) So if Renee really is done with the mask… and Vic Sage is literally right there (I think) and about a million times better than Bernard would ever be at being The Question since he is literally the original, why should he? Bernard has literally done nothing to prove he would be better than either of these characters or has really done anything to show he deserves the mantle.

[rosiethals]

twenty questions for fic writers

tagged by the lovely and talented Liz @oatflatwhite 🫶

1. how many works do you have on ao3?

8, with three blank drafts ready and waiting to go 🫣

2. what's your total ao3 word count?

275,173. somehow.

3. what fandoms do you write for?

historically, The Vampire Diaries, Justified and Top Gun: Maverick. lately, and for the foreseeable future, Masters of the Air 🥰

4. top five fics by kudos

like, what up, I got a big cock (Top Gun: Maverick)

imagine being loved by me (Top Gun: Maverick)

good wood (Top Gun: Maverick)

get into it (yuh) (Top Gun: Maverick)

spend it like it's gold (Top Gun: Maverick)

5. do you respond to comments?

I haven't in the past, but I'm trying to get into the habit!

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I really don't do angsty endings, honestly! I'm happy to write angst but my fics don't end that way.

7. what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

definitely IBLBM!

8. do you get hate on fics?

I got hate on the original iteration of spend it like it's gold, where Bradley referred to Bob as kid. I took out all mentions/changed it to baby and I really wish I hadn't lol... otherwise, no! which I'm grateful for.

9. do you write smut?

[violent coughing] I dabble...

10. craziest crossover:

crossovers aren't my bag!

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

not to my knowledge!

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

I have, yes - I'm always super flattered that someone wants to translate anything I've written!

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

co-writing a fic/anything for me would be speed-running the end of a friendship, I think 🤪

14. all time favorite ship?

consider that I have a gemini venus and can't possibly answer this question

15. what's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I'm that girl who inevitably deletes WIPs off of my account rip but I wish I had been in my planning era where I was writing my TVD Damon/Enzo/Bonnie fic because she could have been so great...

16. what are your writing strengths?

[waves hands vaguely] I honestly couldn't tell you? I think I'm decent at making scenes feel grounded and realistic.....

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

brevity <3

18. thoughts on dialogue in another language?

I've considered doing it in the past but ultimately haven't... I'm not against it, I'd just prefer to have someone who's a native speaker looking over it to make sure I'm not making a fool out of myself!

19. first fandom you wrote in?

hockey rpf. as god intended

20. favorite fic you've written?

it varies, but lately it's if you're looking for absolution (well get on your knees)

these were fun questions!!! tagging my beloveds @dogmetaphors and @paulmezcal <3

[buniyaad]

20 Questions for Writers

i was tagged by cousin @radioactive-earthshine

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

175 published works! I do not count any WIPs, outlines, notes scratched longhand, or random shitposts I make on the tunglr because that's another 1700+ 😂😂😂

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

According to my stats page.... 1,218,398. So 1.2 million+ words published since maybe 2010. Everything prior to 2010 was deleted because I was super embarrassed of what I used to write 😭

3. What fandoms do you write for?

I follow my heart so my AO3 is basically my fixation chart in real-time. Way too many specific fandoms to count, but in terms of medium: I write for a lot of manga fandoms, used to write kpop fanfiction as a kid, still write kdrama fanfiction whenever something catches my eye, and of course comic books and wrestling. I also have a handful of fanfics for books.

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Shadow Dance (Captain America/Avengers movies) Sometimes Love Starts in the Bed [Or that One Week Kamui Tried His Parents' Approach at Romance] (Gintama manga) To the Rhythm of His Love (Black Clover manga) Tere Liye, Hum Hain Jiye (Black Clover manga) Red Bangles, Black Anklets (Naruto manga)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I love responding to comments!! It makes me feel special lmao 😂

6. What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Ephemeral (Hunter x Hunter manga). I basically wrote the ending for the Dark Continent arc (since it's unlikely it'll ever get finished), and sank the boat and all its passengers while making my OTP end up together in heaven after they both died 😂😂😂

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Leoht Unfæger (Beyond Evil kdrama). Basically wrote a novella repairing my ship's relationship that the kdrama had done serious damage to. They got married in the end even though one half went to jail for contributing to the other half's sister's demise. Oh, and the same guy who went to jail also used to bang the sister 😂😂😂

8. Do you get hate on your fic?

Regularly! I'm pretty vocal about my likes and dislikes, and many times, by behavior has invited demons into me house. During my Black Clover fandumbing days, a crackhead used to make it their mission to leave hateful comments on my fics. I don't delete them however. Most of the time it makes me laugh bc you can figure out the speech patterns and tag exactly who it is that wrote it. I like to think ten years down the line, they'll look back on their clownery and let the shame eat them alive.

9. Do you write smut?

Yes!

10. Do you write crossovers?

It depends! During my kpoppie days, I did a crossover of my favorite band and one of my favorite kdramas, and never finished it (even though I have the ending outlined on paper). It really depends on the fandoms and if I find synergy between them.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Probably lol, but not that I know of. I grew up during the asianfanfics days, and used to post fanfiction on other sites before I got an AO3 account. It was not uncommon to see fanfiction stolen from LJ and other sites that were then posted to asianfanfics, which had a notorious plagiarism issue.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! I have three in circulation in the Russian language, and one that was translated into Chinese!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic?

Nope, unless RPing during the third grade on Naruto forums counts as collaborating on fanfic 😂😂😂

14. What‘s your all-time favourite ship?

It changes every day bc I am dynamic and go with me heart. But also note, for some of my favorite ships, I've either never written fanfiction for, or it's no longer available cuz I done deleted it, so I'll just note my CURRENT haunts (which may or may not be decades old... sad 😂).

Comic books: Jon Kent/Jay Nakamura, Bart Allen/Kon El

Manga: Asta/Liebe, Jack the Ripper/Yami Sukehiro

Who knows what I will like tomorrow.... I certainly don't 🤪

15. What’s the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I have a Smallville Earth 2 post-canon fic outline I've had sitting in my drafts for over ten years....... Inshallah one of these days, but I sincerely doubt it 😂😂😂

16. What’s your writing strengths?

Building dread, purple prosing, and writing the saddest sadz before giving folks the happy ending. I'm also a slowburn maestro. Love horror, but usually end up writing more romance than plain horror LOL 👽

17. What’s your writing weaknesses?

I be overthinking shit, or I be outlining something and saying I'm finna write it but then I don't because I end up getting distracted by something else. I have a Prison Playbook kdrama fic outline that's nineteen pages long that I will never write out bc I got distracted by ANOTHER kdrama. I have OCD but that shit apparently has no impact on my publication goals 😭

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Love it! I'm fluent in multiple languages, so I love peppering in different languages in my fanfics, and regularly borrow from Hindi and Arabic language songs, poems, and other media to title fics. Maybe 30% of my fanfiction is inspired by Rahat Fateh Ali Khan songs. It do be like that sometimes djhfgdfgdf

19. First fandom you wrote for?

I genuinely don't remember anymore, it has been SO long. All I DO know is that I deleted it all because I was an embarrassed baby and really wish I hadn't. It can be anything between the following fandoms: Yugioh, X-Men comics, Bleach, Smallville, some variant of old teen movies, etc. I seriously don't remember which one, but ONE of them. lol.

20. Favourite fic you’ve ever written?

All of them. I bleed words. I be rereading my own fanfiction like they're the hottest novels on the stands. I try to read other fanfiction when the mood strikes, but I myself am my target audience, so I be writing things that I know I'm gonna reread years down the line. For example, my HxH fanfics are still my favorite fanfics from the fandom cuz nobody else was writing Hisoka/true!form!Bisky, and few people were dedicated to Melody/Kurapika. I'm a narcissist 👽👽👽

[crsentfairy]

Odds foe Llyod plz 🤪

LMAO (i am going to jump off of a cliff oh dear god)

1.) What memory would your OC rather just forget?

lloyd would rather forget.. the bat incident. its like everyone who's ever gone to school with him make it their life's mission to highlight that situation as lloyd's entire character or lack thereof. it kills him, because he's better than that now.

3.) What is your OC's fatal flaw? Are they aware of this flaw?

his impulsiveness and lack of emotional control. oh and trust me honey, he knows.

5.) How far is your OC willing to go to get what they want?

its less a matter of how far lloyd's willing to go for what he wants for himself, but rather for who he's doing it for instead. when you add that crucial varible to the equation well... its limitless.

7.) What's one way your OC has changed since you first came up with them?

i would say he's grown to be more vulnerable and willing to back down from a fight once and a while, when critical thinking's used. and i say this sparingly considering last week he grabbed the guy by the neck and sent him flying into a wall at Marshall's.

9.) Do you have a specific lyric or quote which you associate with your OC?

Too many times, I've been wrong I guess being right takes too long.

(Find Your Love- Drake)

11.) What is your OC's weapon of choice? Have they ever actually used it?

his hands. and the occasional nearest-object-he-can-get-his-hands-on. lol

13.) If you met your OC, would the two of you get along?

aahh geez. well, under the right circumstances we'd be pretty cool with each other. but if one of us is having a bad day, we're basically beefing for life. funny thing is, it wouldn't be over something crazy or grave, but we'd just have a scuffle and stay enemies because we're BOTH prideful and too childish to take initiative to apologize first! LMAOO (i'd like to think the hate sex would be insane)

15.) Does your OC have a faceclaim? If so, who?

a blend of august alsina and ludacris! (who're both virgos as well might i add. funny to think about)

17.) What is the worst thing you have put your OC through story-wise?

cherish's disapperence. teehee :3

19.) How does your OC behave when enraged?

haha...

21.) Does your OC have any illnesses or disorders? How do they handle it?

he has anger issues as a result of his general anxiety disorder (GAD). he also has other (undiagnosed) disorders that contribute to lack of impulse control and irrational thoughts/behaviors/outbursts-- all are direct components of his trauma. his way of "handling" it all kinda makes him a familiar face at the police station. other than that.. weed. lots of weed.

23.) What emotion is the hardest for your OC to process? How about express?

grief. definitely grief. "i can take it. i deserve it. nothing's wrong!" you'll hear that from him til' you're tired. but he'll never get tired of it, because he believes it.

25.) What is your favorite thing about your OC?

his unhealthy levels of selflessness. he's like an old loyal dog barking at nothing, because he's trained to bite something. something evil. he will turn to bite himself if he's the evil that must be vanquished.

[newhope8]

Hello everyone. 🥰💕 I hope this finds you doing well. 🦋🙏🏻

I was recently inspired by @its-hannjisung’s New Years Eve 2024 post to tell my journey into the land of K-pop thus far. (Incidentally, do you write K-pop with or without a hyphen? I personally alternate between with & without, lol. 😄🙌🏻) I happily re-blogged her original post (my only item on my page thus far); it’s the one with the animated gif photo of Jisungie waving happily at the camera - & he’s got a light pink-colored scarf draped loosely around his neck. Perfect choice for a photo banner, btw. ☺️ I love it so much. 💗

Briefly about myself … I am Jordan2delta, 33 years old, born a female 🚺, identifying with she/her/hers, M/F with relationships irl (tho Minsung has a soft spot in my heart for some reason). 💃🏻👩🏻🙋🏼‍♀️ You can call me Jordan for short; not my real name irl, yet it’s one I like to use on social media. I just like the sound of it. 🙂

A year & ½ ago is when K-pop first found me … mid-June, beginning of July 2022 to be precise. I should say a year & ¾ ago now, lol … since it is now 2024. Where does time go?

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The first group I found was Stray Kids & it was with one music video of theirs in particular that I felt a new spark of hope flicker alive in my heart. (The MV was God’s Menu.) I was randomly scrolling around on YouTube late one night, watching another channel and trying to get my brain to go into numb survival mode in order to cope.

A few months prior, my parents and I relocated from our hometown to a different city in another state due to my dad’s work changing (he is the primary income provider/ “breadwinner” for our family at present). I had a full-time job of my own, with a good salary and excellent company benefits … yet sadly, I did not earn enough to stay behind on my own so I had to move with my folks. I was heartbroken, for I had lost my friends/ co-workers, my source of income (some of the best I’ve ever earned), & the remaining ½ a semblance of a normal life. Natural joy started to flicker and stutter out in the deepest part of myself and some days, I felt so desolate that it was as if my heart was being squeezed internally by an invisible, evil hand … and the liquid weeping from my soul was a thick, black & foul-smelling poison - grief. No one in my family nor other loved ones had passed away, yet I think you can see where I’m coming from. I recall going to bed one night in our new apartment in this new city and feeling my chest being tight … yet it wasn’t actual chest pains. It was hopelessness at our current family situation (which is still continuing to this day). 💔

So, it’s the middle of June 2022 & I’m watching a few videos on a channel I’d recently found. That channel was called Jin & Hattie. Go check them out, btw. They’re adorable. He’s Korean 🇰🇷 she’s British 🇬🇧. They’re also recently married (sometime in 2022 or early 2023, I don’t recall which). No, not the Jin from BTS, haha. 🤪😄💜 I glanced at the sidebar of video recommendations and my eyes strayed to one of SKZ’ videos that randomly appeared there. I may have even clicked on Maniac first, I don’t remember. The point is, God’s Menu caught my eye. I was captivated by the sound and beat of Changbin’s opening rapid-fire rap lines. The next thing that caused my heart to wake up was Felix’s deep baritone, of course. Everyone (& I mean anyone who’s even remotely heard of Stray Kids) knows what part of the MV I am talking about. Does Michelin 5 star ring any bells? 😏🔥 I don’t know what came after God’s Menu to be honest with you & the rest as they say “is history”. I recall reaching for my phone, which was resting on my bedside table next to my bed. I tapped into Apple Music as fast as I could and IMMEDIATELY began building a Kpop playlist. As I bunny-hopped from song to song of theirs, I would add it to my music playlist. Before the night was over, I’m fairly certain I had 20+ songs on that list. And oh, what a glorious list it is. (Flash-forward ⏭️ to the present day {January 2024, as I’m drafting this post in a Google Doc on my tablet} & there are now 141 songs on this playlist, totaling one minute shy under 8 hours … 7 hrs & 59 minutes, according to Apple Music, haha. The last 30-odd songs or so are ones I’ve heard on TikTok on various fan-made edits, so those naturally {to me…} MUST go at the bottom of my main Kpop list. Does that make sense?)

Here’s a brief look at my playlist (& yes, this is what the Apple Music playlist interface can look like). Obviously, this isn’t all of it … just a mere sample. ⬇️ (I need to update this photo of Jisungie as my playlist thumbnail. He’s my ult chief bias OF ALL TIME, btw. Any recommendations for a good photo of Quokka I could use? 🥰🐿️) Yes, I am a proud multistan. 🙌🏻 My irl name I have blurred out with purple-pink. ⬇️ In case you’re curious, yes … you can add whatever photo you want as your playlist’s thumbnail & create a custom catchphrase, just below the Play & Shuffle options. ☺️

After I gave new life to this list of joy ⬆️🇰🇷, I was again randomly scrolling around on social media one day. This next step in my journey was on Facebook, a platform I’ve been on for the past 13 years. I’d clicked around and began “follow/ liking👍🏻” any Stray Kids-themed page I could find, both official & unofficial accounts. A post caught my eye & I stopped long enough to read it. It was talking about how the members enjoyed communicating with STAY on the bubble 🫧 app, both reading messages of support and sending out notes of their own. I remember thinking, what in the world is BUBBLE, so I went over to the App Store and downloaded it to my phone. 2 seconds later, I had an account created and soon discovered the public chat room feature. (This has been discontinued for some time now, unfortunately, due to harassment & bullying allegations between toxic fans and non-toxic individuals.) Had I not randomly [again with RANDOM, I know, haha…] got on bubble when I did and entered the first chat room, I would not have begun my online friendship journey with several different Stays.

I remember feeling a sense of connection to 3 people in particular at first, among the many I was talking with at the time on 🫧. One was a school girl, in her early teens; another was a young single mother in her early 20s; the third person was another young lady in her late teens, about to graduate from high school. The school girl was from the United States. The single mom was from a country in South America; (I am not going to say which country she lives in, to protect her privacy). The late teen was from a European country. It was not long before my new friends and I moved our conversations over to other social media platforms, where we could talk more easily. The girl, single mom and I began talking on WhatsApp. The late teen & I began chatting via private messaging on Instagram. It was only several weeks after the “conversation migration” between me and these people took place that JYP disabled the public chat room feature entirely. I distinctly recall saying to the school-girl friend that I’m glad I found the app when I did; otherwise, I would not have “met” them at all, nor had the blessing of their friendship in my life.

It was when I began texting back & forth with the single mom ⬆️ that I was first introduced to the lovely world of fan fiction (“fanfic” for short). She was writing a multi-chapter story that she was releasing to her Wattpad account, a few chapters at a time. Her native language was not English, so every 2-3 weeks or so, she would text me and the school girl 2 chapters to read and get feedback on, in English using Google Translate. (Single Mom did speak some English, to clarify.) Yes, her fanfic was Stray Kids-themed and it was beautiful. 🥰 I would read her chapter installments and write back what I thought was happening in each one; in essence I was loosely paraphrasing, NOT NOT plagiarizing her work, I hasten to add. ☝🏻 She was thrilled at these summaries, as I came to call them. She told me many times in our conversations that it was a joy to read her own story from another’s point of view. I assured her I was not re-writing or copying her ideas, merely paraphrasing and putting into English grammar/ punctuation what she’d already written … i.e. using her original “manuscripts” as a guide. This went on for the rest of 2022 & part-way into 2023. The school girl would text back when she could, having begun her freshman year of high school (or secondary school if you live OCONUS {outside the continental United States}/ means overseas).

The Late Teen was close to finishing her high school years, not beginning them. My interactions with her lasted only a few more months. I remember she was saving up for a new laptop computer & did indeed buy one. I know this because she proudly sent me photos of her new computer. 📸💻 I began interacting with her only several weeks before School Girl & Single Mom. It was around the time of the Maxident comeback (October 2022) that my conversations with Late Teen began to slowly trickle to a stop. This was a natural progression, neither of us ended communication, it just simply stopped on its own. And that’s the way life is - some people are in your life for only a short time & then they go away for whatever reason. I wished her well in one of my last messages to her & haven’t had contact with her since. We’re still “friends” on Instagram, but we do not talk anymore. And I am ok with that. 🙂 I hope she’s doing well and has enjoyed all the comeback albums since then.

My conversations with School Girl and Single Mom lasted longer than that & were frequent in nature. I still have individual chats with each of these young ladies on WhatsApp, plus the group chat I created on there between the 3 of us 🍜🍜🍜… yet it has been 3-4 months at least, if not longer, since I’ve had more than a few words in reply from either of them. That is totally ok with me too: the girl is now in her second ½ of 10th grade in high school & the single mom’s young toddler has begun a Kindergarten daycare class. I will always be there for them, any time, should they still wish to communicate with me.

As you may have noticed, there is a definite theme of randomness to all of my Kpop experiences thus far. This continues, as you will see. 😄

My next “online Kpop friend” I recall making on a Stray Kids STAY fandom chat room on the Discord app. And again, if it wasn’t for some more random scrolling around on Facebook & commenting on 1 post, the admin of that SKZ fan Facebook page would never have known to add me to her Discord chat room. This next friend I will name Flight Attendant, for that was her job. And again, to protect a friend’s privacy, I will not say what airline company she works for. We began talking just over a year ago, in mid-December 2022. After texting back & forth on Discord for a short while, I again found myself moving a conversation over to dm (direct message) on Instagram. It was a particular joy for me in chatting with this individual, as we were the same age (she’d come to tell me later on when her birthday was; she was only a few months older than me). Do not misunderstand that the previous 3 individuals (School Girl, Single Mom & Late Teen) meant any less to me, they did not. Everyone knows how fun it is to interact with someone your own age (or in your own age group), is all I am saying here.

I do not know if Flight Attendant still works for the same airline, has switched companies entirely or is even in the aviation industry at all anymore. The last we talked was around mid-August 2023, as she was planning to attend KCON 2023 in L.A. with her 2 sisters. ATEEZ and Stray Kids were both slated to appear in concert shows there, plus give fan-meet events as well. For the ½ a year (give/ take a few months in between) she kept in touch, she confided some very personal things to me … of which I always kept her confidence. I was honored & very humbled that she felt safe enough talking to me through our chat to share what she did. She had some very hard ongoing family dynamics she was trying to navigate, on top of maintaining a semblance of a normal life for herself in between working back-to-back 16+ hour shifts with little to no sleep, depending on her flight schedules. Everyone, the next time you take a flight somewhere, anywhere … please PLEASE PLEASE be kind & courteous to the cabin crew, particularly the flight attendants {both male & female}. They work very hard to make your travel as easy as they can. Some aren’t as nice as others, of course, yet I’d like to think the majority of them are decent enough folk. I think you get what I’m trying to say here. They deal with some very nasty passengers (“pax” for short) & giving your hard-working and under-appreciated flight crew even a little amount of kindness in return goes a very long way. They may not ever remember your name or your face after you leave their aircraft & the current flight trip, yet they will always recall the kindness of your soul in reaching out to them with a smile.

I messaged Flight Attendant back a few times more on Instagram over the following months (fall/ winter 2023), yet never received a response. After deliberating for some weeks, I deleted our private chat thread entirely (from my end) on Instagram Messenger. Flight Attendant, if you ever read this (this individual knows who she is), it was not intentional. I never heard back from you & only wished to say hello one last time. I hope you’re doing well & a new semblance of peace has re-entered your life after all the hard things you went through. Please reach out to me any time, I am still here. You know where to find me on Instagram, you know my TikTok & you have my personal cell phone number. If you send a regular text though, please identify yourself to me, just in case (I don’t wish to text a weird person or a scammer back…); my phone number has not changed. God bless you & from the bottom of my heart, thank you for being my friend and for the gift of your friendship and all it gave me. 💕🙏🏻

I will forever be grateful to Flight Attendant for the following reasons. ⬇️ If I’d never become friends with this person, I’d have never had these joys otherwise. So, because of her, I …

Discovered the world of spicy, adult only, Kpop-themed fanfic for the very first time … yeah, as in the MDNI (minors, do not interact) variety. 🔞❌‼️⚠️😏🔥 Look up the author “J.S. Lee” & her H3RO and Onyx series. Holy fuck. H3RO has 6 books, Onyx has 5. They can be bought on Amazon Kindle, read for free on Amazon Kindle Unlimited or purchased in regular paperback form (also on Amazon).

Discovered the even more lovely world of 🔞+ Kpop fanfic on the Archive of Our Own (AO3) website - OMG … I will get to more on AO3 shortly.

Found new skincare products & cosmetics… Crème Shop-brand, specifically the BT21 line of products … their face wipes I love, there’s a different scented one featuring each of the 7 characters. I have tried all 7 of them - my personal favs are RJ, Cooky & Chimmy. And they’re SO CHEAP!!!!! Only $5.99/ per package. YES!!!!!!!!!

The next step in my 🇰🇷💜🫰🏻 journey would have to be when I signed up for Felix’s chat ticket on 🫧. As of today (Thursday January 4, 2024), I’ve had his ticket for 352 days. I cannot believe it’s almost been a year already! Again, where does the time go? I couldn’t do all 8’s tickets each month (that’s $30-odd dollars), yet $3.99 for one ticket … more than doable. ☺️ I’d only been chatting with Flight Attendant for about a month when I got Sunshine’s ticket. ☀️🐥 For anyone else who has his ticket (& even if you don’t), you will know that he sometimes sends photos in large batches, often “spamming” STAY with several hundred messages at a time. Most of the texts are 1-2 word notes, while other times he sends several short sentences in one text. It varies. 59 second or shorter audio messages from him also are shared; if he sends one in Korean he’ll usually send 2-3 more in English (or vice versa). I will say that the more days you have a ticket, the longer a reply you can send back to the group member. At first, you will be limited to typing only 2-3 words back. If you’re patient, you’ll be able to type more the longer you have a ticket. 💕🔖

Shortly after this, I began reading some of my first fanfic stories on AO3. You don’t have to have an account to read anything in a web browser; yet if you want to comment, leave kudos for an author or post a work of your own, yes you do have to request to join the waitlist for an account. I only had to wait about a week or so before the website sent me the official “account creation invite” link.

I will say this about fanfic stories on AO3 … no matter the level of spice, fluff, angst & smut (from G-rated to R & beyond), they made me feel less lonely. It was liberating for me to put myself in the Y/N (Your Name) character’s position and transport myself into another world, albeit temporarily. Even if it is a quick re-read of a favorite one-shot story, it’s always a happy journey into Delulu Land I’m pleased to undertake. I still feel this way about the stories at the present time. Don’t misunderstand, I’m not 100% bereft of friendships and human connection irl to survive solely on fanfic smut. I have 2 other newer Kpop friends I have regular conversations with, plus I have my family about me in my home life as well.

This thought brings me to the next individual whose acquaintance I made. She is a very successful fanfic author on AO3, quite steamy 🔞+ stories mainly. Flight Attendant sent me a link to a story called Tangled; it’s written by ThisPeachIsDirty. Yes, the author’s name is all one word together, each word is capitalized. This story of hers is 60 chapters long & part 1 is complete. Part 2 has two chapters thus far, with who knows how many more to come. Peach🍑, as I’ll refer to her, is a very kind & caring individual & after reading my way through 60 chapters of pure bliss, I began chatting with her on Instagram Messenger. After a few messages were exchanged between us, she encouraged me to begin writing a fanfic of my own (therein being my first ever written sex smut scene). I vividly recall writing for a span of 5-6 hours straight one afternoon & happily sending Peach🍑 screenshots of my first feeble attempt at fanfic smut. I recall her complimenting my unique style, which she told me was unlike most of what she’s read & that I had a natural gift for writing. I don’t know about that per say, I’ve only posted a small handful of chapters (& that was back in August of last year, 2023). I’ve not abandoned my stories; I do have plans to continue with them, plus ideas on a spicy one-shot 3some between a made-up female Y/N & 2 male characters. Oh yes. 🔞🔥😈 Anyway, I digress. Please look up ThisPeachIsDirty on AO3 if you haven’t already. Subscribe to/ follow her content on there and leave a comment for her. You will not be disappointed, I can assure you of that.

One month prior to August 2023 (mid-July), I took the plunge and joined the TikTok community. I’d been collecting albums & other Kpop merch for the past year and slowly began making show & tell videos of items in my collection. I’m not after huge numbers, yet I’ve currently amassed 4,517 likes with 143 followers in the span of 5 ½ months. I think that’s a good accomplishment for 100% homemade, beginner-level content. What do you think? 🙂

I would mention my TikTok @ name, yet I wish to keep the more adult side of fanfic (that I’ve seen on Tumbler & AO3) separate from my merch show & tell videos. I do know for a fact that a few of my TikTok followers are minors … one told me in a direct message that she is 14; while another began her 6th grade year last fall/ is a few years younger. So yeah, I don’t want to have to worry about any “oopsey’s” crossover 🫣🫢😬 and a youngster reading something they perhaps shouldn’t … at least until after they’ve turned 18. As I noted in my short bio at the start of this post, I am 33 years old irl.

If you’re interested, my AO3 name's the same as on here - Jordan2delta. I only have 3 posts/ “works”, which are not complete. The longest story I have on there I’ve named Reclaiming a Spark. It’s Stray Kids-themed, yet I do not use the members’ irl names. You’ll see … I wrote detailed character notes at the end of the first chapter. Pay attention to the animal emojis and you’ll be able to figure out who’s who.

I was …maybe… 4 chapters in on my Spark story, as I’ll call it, when I began receiving a few kudos & comments from other fanfic users on the site. One was Peach🍑, from before. Another individual who left me a kind note is a VERY talented AO3 author too; her name is Minnieprincess. Go check out her one-shot stories on the site, if you haven’t already. Like with Peach’s🍑 stories, you will NOT be disappointed. 😏🙏🏻🔥😈🔞 Oh yes. Yes, yes, yes x10. 🔥🥵

My acquaintance with Minnie🐭👑, as I’ll refer to her, brings me to the next step in my Kpop journey. Since August 2023 when she left her first initial comment on Spark for me, we’ve become dear friends. She is an individual who I know I will stay in regular contact with for the rest of my life.

Minnie🐭👑 & I began our friendship through an ongoing “comment conversation”, back & forth, on my Spark story. We exchanged maybe 1-2 very short messages on Wattpad before connecting again on Instagram Messenger. What followed in the months since then has been one of the most beautiful & meaningful instant-instant-connection friendships I’ve ever had in my life … ever. And no, I am not exaggerating in the slightest. I think she would agree with me. She lives overseas (I am in the United States 🇺🇸) & again, like before with Single Mom, Late Teen & Flight Attendant’s details, I won’t say what country Minnie🐭👑 lives in to protect her privacy. That is my preference. If that sounds weird or prickly to someone else, that’s not my problem.

Speaking a bit more on that instant-connection aspect … Minnie🐭👑 just “got” the subconscious portrayal of my main Y/N female character in Spark & left a detailed comment explaining her first impressions of my feeble writing. No, I’m not having false modesty either; that’s just how I feel about my own musings. The closer she & I became in our friendship, to where it is at the present day, was like a band aid of light to my heart. I found a missing piece of my soul in her friendship, plus a new home. It did not take the 2 of us long before we began referring to one another as “soul sisters.” Yes, this is a 100% real thing. We’ve come to trust one another enough to share things about our lives that are very personal & very private. To put this into perspective a bit more, I am only child irl. So, having Minnie🐭👑 as my “sister” is a gift I’m thankful for x10. 🥹❤️‍🩹

My sister ⬆️ & I talked on Instagram Messenger for several months before we moved our conversations over to WhatsApp … where we communicate to this day. Longer messages at last being able to be exchanged without time & message limit constraints, we began confiding things to each other in greater detail that we’ve not been able to tell anyone else ever before (& we never will). I’ve gained new confidence in myself, plus new respect for who I am as an individual … as a mature, adult female with a mind of her own & a heart that is perhaps too big, one that loves to give and share in equal measure.

One last thing on Minnie🐭👑 … a month ago, I mailed her a Kpop care box. It took 22 days to arrive to her doorstep. I’d bought her 4 different albums and several handfuls of smaller merch items, all of which she heartily adored. 💕🥰 Having the memory of video chatting with her on WhatsApp as we opened up the Rock version of Rock-Star together (we each have a copy) is something I will cherish forever and always think of when I look back through this album’s photo book. 🥹

What may happen next with my journey? I’m not sure, yet I have a few ideas.

Getting my first-ever tattoo (or two or three), Kpop-themed …

Traveling overseas for the first time to visit my sister 🐭👑

Meeting up with Minnie🐭👑 somewhere in the US

Attending my first ever Kpop concert (preferably Stray Kids, tho an ATEEZ event would be awesome too)

Shopping at a Kpop-only stand alone store and buying more albums/ other merch

Beyond these things ⬆️, I have no clue. No matter what happens though, I will raise my hands to the sky regardless in rejoicing at the light and hope of my soul this journey has brought (& continues to bring) me.

If any of the members of Stray Kids, ATEEZ or BTS (my 3 favorite groups) read this Tumblr post of mine — may you know & never forget how much you mean to your fandoms … STAY, ATINY & ARMY. 🥹 I feel if it weren’t for you guys, I would not have ever had all of the beautiful things in my life I’ve written about in this post. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the healing you’ve brought back into mine. ❤️‍🩹☀️

Stray Kids Everywhere All Around the World, You Make Stray Kids Stay

~~Bang Chan🐺, Changbin🐷, Han🐿️, Lee Know🐰, Felix🐥, Seungmin🐶, Hyunjin🦦, I.N🦊~~

8 Makes 1 Team

~~Hongjoong, Seonghwa, Yunho, Jongho, Mingi, Wooyoung, Yeosang, San~~

I Purple You!

~~RM, Jin, Jimin, Suga, j-hope, Taehyung, Jungkook~~

[mestos]

I JUST FINISHED WATCHING M26!

LITERAL CHILLS. My hands are sweating as I'm typing this. Now I can appreciate your art about it even more!

The movie was great but I feel there's something missing but can't point it out. It feels... short?

!!Spoiler for next:

I know it'a fiction but damn, Conan, how could you handle that (probably adrenaline?). And how'd you know it was Haibara who saved you(not that I'm conplaining), it's practically dark under the sea and you have no goggles!

-the fan that's fan-ning

Welcome back anon!!! Sorry this is a bit late, working during holiday season got kinda hectic 😔

Y'know, I get you on the fact that it feels short. I let the movie marinate in my head for a bit, and its been a good couple of weeks now since I've seen it, and I do have to agree that the plot progression from point A to B was kinda disappointingly short.

I think from my POV, as Haibara takes more of a damsel role, it kind of disappoints me that the movie hypes up her kidnapping but she is saved not too long after. I feel this way about the Mystery Train arc too lol that for a Haibara centred movie/arc, she's still treated as a B-plot. And that bothers me a lot.

As a production I get the limits. They can't afford to make too much alterations on the status quo as a long running franchise, which is why they can't quite afford to spend time on already a pretty huge decision (the B.O making direct contact with Haibara after the canon explicitly has moved on since then) so they have to find a way to return back to the floating timeline somehow.

But it's a bit contradictory at the same time, given the fact that they've explicitly established a continuity going on here—Irish & Curacao being explicitly referenced, Akai & Amuro motifs referencing Darkest Nightmare, etc—so at that point, I feel like they could have done much more to adjust the plot with some liberties.

One of the biggest weaknesses about the movies is that they'd market a specific character as a focal point of the movie to grab your attention and make you watch it, only to find out they're actually just the last 5 mins of the movie (The Scarlet Bullet left some scars in me 🥴). This movie surprisingly subverts this where Haibara actually takes a decent amount of screen time and a LOT of plot importance, but it still, mysteriously feels tacked on at the end of the day. I only feel this way because I felt that the movie would jump between intense scenes but not pad it long enough to make lasting impact—Conan & Haibara repeating their iconic glasses exchange was very cute, but the sudden shift between that scene and the next was just off by just a beat imo, for example—and Haibara being saved literally in the first operation Conan goes out to get her felt like the challenge & consequences were a bit too easy. Where was the struggle? Just the suspense? It didn't really feel rewarding to see her get saved, despite the intensity of her kidnapping.

Where I would make the changes? I feel as though the last part of the movie should have interwoven with the rescue in itself. Not that the little coffee exchange wasn't cute, but in the greater picture I feel as though they could've rode on that wave of suspense & thrill and receive a greater payoff than what we had. But, well, that's just me.

Might be asking too much for a detective conan movie 🤪

[leonpob]

~ The Tag Game ~

I was tagged by the bestie @gunsatthaphan Thanks!! This was fun 😍

THREE SHIPS 🚢

This changes like all the time. Are we talking characters or actors? Lol These are two different things 🤷🏻‍♀️ for now I will say, Characters: LeonPob, PuenTaylay, and TinnGun. Actors: Earthmix, Offgun, and PondPhuwin

FIRST SHIP 🚢

Are we talking BL or everything? First otp was definitely Cory and Topanga from Boy Meets World(I just aged myself) 🙈 Bl would have to be Kongpob and Arthit because that was my first show thanks to a Netflix recommendation 🤣 After that my biggest ship is pretty obvious. LeonPob from Don’t Say No. I need Just Say Yes already 😭😭

LAST SONG 🎧

Rock With You by Seventeen

LAST MOVIE 🍿

BTS Yet To Come 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

CURRENTLY READING 📖

Do Tumblr and Weverse count? Lmao I don’t have the attention span to read a book anymore 🤦🏻‍♀️

CURRENTLY WATCHING 👀

The Warp Effect, Never Let Me Go, My Beautiful Man season 2, My School President, History 5, Candy Color Paradox, Moonlight Chicken, and rewatching Not Me 🤪

CURRENTLY CONSUMING 👄

I had some chocolate walnut cookies. If this means food lol. If not then I would say Tomorrow x Together content 😆

CURRENTLY CRAVING 🫦

Not sure if craving is the right word, but definitely missing Vice Versa lately. Luckily, my Not Me boxset just got delivered so I can watch that at least 😍

ONWARD TAGS 🏷️

Thanks for tagging me. I love tag games 😄

passing it on to @laowen @mrsandypants @i-got-the-feels @tachineko @talays-portkey @tinngun @boun-prem @forever-in-phapundao @adraughtofamortentia

Anyone else is welcome to play. Sorry if you were already tagged. You know I’m a tiny blog 🥺

[eoieopda]

Unnie, how long does it typically take you to write? Do you normally do little bits of a story over a few days, or do you hammer it all out at once? I have to put pieces together slowly and I honestly don’t know if that’s normal.

beeb, there is no normal, so don’t worry! the amount of time it takes me to write something depends on a lot of things, tbh. full answer below the cut!

some of them are physical/physiological: how bad is my fibro pain, did i remember to take my adderall or has it worn off, am i too fatigued to expend energy on a lot at once? etc. moooooost of the time (like 98%) i ignore the check engine light and do not stop once i’ve started something (because who tf knows when i’ll pick it back up if i stop, lol.)

these are some things i’ve noticed about myself and my writing habits:

the thing that will be easiest is the emotional stuff, like the inner thoughts or the dialogue. the thing that will always be the hardest is cleaning up once the writing part is over. it takes me FOR👏🏻EV👏🏻ER to try and edit/proofread. with my adhd, i make a lot of careless mistakes — and even if i don’t, i THINK that i have, and i have to check 5 billion times before posting — then i get so sick of looking at the thing that i need to stop. 🥲

i drag my feet with smut because i don’t think i’m good at it. i try really hard to vary descriptions and shit because i don’t want all the smut scenes across my fics to be too similar, then i get mad that i can only think of a few ways to describe a certain sex act, etc. even if the rest of the fic is done, the smut takes twice as long — which is wild because i’m a gd degenerate as an individual, but struggle so badly with WRITING sex 🙃

angst is infinitely faster than fluff because i am a a sad, soft boi with a lot of feelings lmao. lacuna was banged out in, like, 2-3 hours but i’ve had fluff drabbles take twice that long (only to be 1/8th of the length???)

series chapters, even if they’re shorter than my one shots, take longer. this is because i’m bad at planning 🤪 i have general concepts of things i want to maybe have happen, but i do not make detailed outlines of shit. then i change my mind COMPLETELY as i’m writing, and have to figure out what i’m doing/if it makes any sense/if it is in any way consistent with what i previously posted.

idk if any of this answers your question or helps you, but i hope it does???

[feelingsinthedark]

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My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Your icon. Your icon. Your icon.

The first time I saw it I'm like who is this person in my notifs with this bright icon, and guess who! Very fitting, it was a nice little splash of color in my notifications🤪💃

thanks hehe this is like the first colorful icon i can remember having at least in a long time for this blog lmao 🤪🤩

1 note - Posted July 14, 2022

#4

bestie your six gif reblogs are making it real hard for me not to look up a bootleg again

lol i feel that haha sorry 🤪🥰

1 note - Posted March 4, 2022

#3

JEANNE JEANNE JEANNE FORGIVE ME IF IM MISTAKEN BUT I THINK TODAY IS YOUR BIRTHDAY?! pretty sure?? i just kept thinking today july 10th there was something on july 10th and then i remembered? i think? anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND IFITS NOT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ANYWAY YOURE THE BEST ok this is gonna be embarrassing enough if it’s not you’re birthday but I’ve been trying to send you this ask for the past five minutes and every time my tumblr just keeps crashing and I need to reload the page?? anyway I WANTED to send you a taoelle gif with it but since that’s obviously too much for my net. I love you so much okay you were like probably the first friend I made on tumblr and still one of my coolest moots ever 💕

YES IT IS MY BIRTHDAY YOU'RE SO SWEET AHHHH THANK YOU SM KAVYA YOU'RE AMAZING I LOVE YOU 🥰🥰🥰💖💖💖

it actually worked i did get the ones with the taoelle gif we love tumblr being fucked up lmaoo it's a lovely gif i love it sm i love them sm 😭😭😭 i'm gonna keep it there in my inbox for now hehehehe tysm 🥰🥰

3 notes - Posted July 10, 2022

#2

HAPPY MIDNIGHTS JEANNEEEEE I WANTED TO SEND YOU A SCREAMY ASK AN HOUR AGO BUT MY NET DIED HDHJFJDKFK

okay what are your thoughtsss

HAPPY MIDNIGHTS KAVYA HOPE UR HAVING A GOOD TIME :D

alsdhgsldkfjgalfkjghafg thoughts are NO SKIPS NO SKIPS JUST SO MANY VIBES I LOVE HER VOICE ON EVERYTHING SM AND THE PRODUCTION AND EVERYTHING AND I LOVE I LOVE I LOVE

i barely understand shit about any of the songs but its fine lol alsdkfgladfglaiurgarggbibvb

what are some of your thoughtsssss <333

4 notes - Posted October 21, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

all i know is a simple name, everything has changed

12 notes - Posted May 27, 2022

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[hueningkoi]

rules: shuffle your ‘on repeat’ playlist and post the first 10 tracks, then list 10 songs you really like, each by a different artist. then tag 10 people to do the same thing

Tagged by my fav who still sticks wit me thru all my chaotic fixations the one and only amazing @marielle-heller !!!! Take a bow!! Thanks for tagging me when we all know this is going to be all kpop!!! I can't help who I am!!!! Lololol 😂😂😂

1. Good Boy Gone Bad by Tomorrow X Together wow shocking

2. Oh! By Girls' Generation 💖

3. Drunk-Dazed by ENHYPEN

4. LO$ER=L♡VER by Tomorrow X Together aka the song that got me obsessed with them

5. 쏘리 쏘리 Sorry, Sorry by Super Junior

6. Shinunoga E-Wa by Fujii Kaze (dis song slaaaaaps)

7. Forever 1 by Girls' Generation 💓 💖 💕

8. ANTIFRAGILE by LE SSERAFIM

9. Thursday's Child Has Far To Go by Tomorrow X Together YESSSS FUCK YA seeing this song performed live in concert changed my life I got to see Yeonjun 3 ft in front of me his skin was GLOWING

10. Ring by Tomorrow X Together aka MY FAVORITE SONG OF THIS ENTIRE FUCKING YEAR. OBSESSED.

WOW yeah. Every song was 100% not American and I think that's soooo sexy of me now the next 10 my favs

1. Runaway by Tomorrow X Together is one of the best songs of all time I will fight yall about it

2. Bang Bang Bang by BIGBANG is KILLER

3. Candy by H.O.T. was like THE SONG that kinda set kpop off on the track it's on now tbh. Cultural reset. 90s kpop WINNER

4. I Don't Need A Man by Miss A just takes me back. Classic

5. Dirty by Miryo omg Miryo's first solo mini album is sooooo underrated

6. Comeback Home by Seo Taiji and Boys is SO GOOD and they are THE ORIGINAL KPOP GROUP. THE FIRST. RESPECT.

7. I Got A Boy by Girls' Generation because they are my first kpop group and that song goes OFF I know every word

8. History by Exo because it was on autoplay on my tumblr in 2012/13 and I irritated everyone with it

9. Happiness by Red Velvet because it's so good and fun and HAPPY

10. Skimbleshanks The Railway Cat from Cats 2019 because I'm trash and that song is amazing bitch 🫰

I tag @robinruns and I'm trusting you to tag @thewordworrier as well robinnn lol also I tag @the-grand-king-queen @dinisapunk @inqueee @coralereef @bufordtannen @elioshines @gripgrep @gaylonelybitch and woo! Sorry about my kpop bullshit I can't fight it so I roll wit it 🤪

[ashren]

2, 5, 16 for ash?

THANK U FOR ASKING ABOUT ASH !!!! ily

i wasn't sure if u meant for the thematic ask or meta one so u get BOTH 😅

2. Drawing from the language of flowers, what flower would symbolize them?

Petunia - everything ive read has like two meanings, one is Resentment and Anger, but the other is the desire to spend time with your partner. It fits Ash's story arc pretty well :3

5. Which body part are they associated with (Example: hands/arms symbolize strength.)

My brain just goes to arm bc Ash loses one and it's like Part of his Story ™ so i... guess arms! I have no deeper meaning behind this one i'll be honest LOL

16. Breakfast, lunch, dinner, and anything between. What kind of dish are they?

Breakfast. It's his favorite meal after leaving the Empire, and staring a day without being hungry is shockingly good for morale. Ash would be a whole ass breakfast, eggs, pancakes, hash browns, grits, coffee, etc. (or Insert whatever your regional breakfast of choice is 😂) Post Empire he allows himself to indulge more often.

2. Why does your oc look the way they do? What are your reasons for their appearance?

Ash is BLUE bc he's a Chiss! He actually started out as a Mandalorian OC so he was vaguely alien but then i changed his story and liked him being Chiss and in the empire 🤪

He dyes his hair blond for a while after defecting, just because he can. He's got control over his appearance for once so he does the queerest thing u can and fucks up his hair :3

5. What kind of abilities and power level does your oc have? Why did you give them their powers? What's the in-universe reason?

Baby boy is force sensitive and was trained by some Impressive folks in the Empire, and YEAH he's a little op but! that's ok bc i mentally ruined him with trauma :3

Ash actually learned how to use the Force IN the Empire, which was part of the main thing that lead him to defect, so he's actually a little scared of the Force. He's only seen it truly in the context of the Dark side, so he rarely taps into that side of him.

Other than that he's just a really talented Speeder Bike Racer (which he doesn't REALIZE is bc he's force sensitive, but that's ok he's trying his best lmfao) - the reason i worked that into his story is literally because while i was working on Ash, I was like listening to the radios from Nascar races bc i think they're funny

16. What aspect(s) of the universe's lore are they connected to? Do they change/add lore to the universe?

YEAH BC why the fuck not, star wars is a goddamn mess of a universe anyway

yeah so Ash doesn't really interact with the movies much aside from one BIG thing, he defects on the day the first Death Star blows up, but like, before it's blown up. He and his team help revels blow up the Empire Base they were stations on, which was a communications base, that would have been responsible for immediately alerting other imperial ships if the Death Star needed back up. (i just always thought it was like, maybe a little weird that none of those big star destroyers launched an attack immediately on Yavin, It's not like the rebels won with firepower lol they essentially got lucky that the DS had that weakness)

ANYWAY other than that i do have some AUs within the Mandalorian, cuz like, i wanna make Ash and Rylin smooch Din Djarin ¯\_(ツ)_/¯