#that one is...really complicated
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you're in the habit of denying yourself things.
if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.
but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?
what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.
and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.
you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.
so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.
it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.
sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.
oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.
#warm up#this isn't good#writeblr#this is complicated by the fact i can't stand up too long or i fuckken pass out and <3 hit my damn head <3#but i did take a deep breath and buy myself the stupid rice cooker#and!!! a very cheap sushi kit!!! i have been wanting to try making sushi for literally YEARS#the kit was only like 15 dollars!!!! and i haven't purchased it bc?!!??!?!?!?!!?#..... i didn't get the mixer tho that felt. like a lot. like too much.#on my list is a kitchenaid. one day when i get a check and i have paid off my student debt#and medical debt#i will put that first little bit of cash#into a kitchenaid 5qt stand mixer (with attachments)#i really do just go into their refurbished section and stare lustily at each option#but yeah i feel guilty about the rice cooker even tho i know for a fact this damn thing is gonna be a lifesaver#oh shit also fuck i forgot to mention . poached eggs
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My understanding of evil, age 0-10: MY NAME IS SMOG SMOKESLY AND I RUN THE POLLUTION FACTORY, IT PRODUCES POLLUTION!!! MUWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
My understanding of evil, in my teens: You can't really boil things down to good and evil. People are complicated. Everyone is the hero of their own story, and someone who seems evil to you is actually doing their best from their own perspective. If you could walk a mile in their shoes, you'd understand. There is no such thing as evil.
My understanding of evil, in my twenties: Look, it's basically just tribalism. We are all necessarily thrust into competition with one another. There are always going to be winners and losers. Whining about evil is just being upset that you lost the game.
My understanding of evil, in my thirties: MY NAME IS SMOG SMOKESLY AND I RUN THE POLLUTION FACTORY, IT PRODUCES POLLUTION!!! MUWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
#one of the hardest pills to swallow growing up#was understanding that the world actually isn't that complicated#it really is just greed#power-lust#cruelty#and hate#that are ruining society#people are making the world worse out of spite#not because they get something out of it#but because they get off on seeing you lose something#evil really is uncomplicated and simple like a saturday morning cartoon#it has been all along#it only pretends to have nuance#because the illusion of complexity makes it marketable to new suckers
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Happy Chinese New Year! 🐍🧧
祝大家蛇年大吉,万事如意!
#my art#twisted wonderland#twst#jamil viper#twst oc#oc#shiokawa mayu#jamimayu#tiiiny bit late but i made it!#thank you anon from a while ago for suggesting that i do this#tried to match the style as closely as possible to my new years art#so itd look like a series 😤#mayu has a snack in each hand she is winning#jamil you look really good in chinese style can i dress you in it more /j#although itd be nice if you could smile a bit for new years smh#finding the right refs for this one was a challenge#and the pattern on the shirt i picked for jamil was too complicated so i threw together something myself#but im really liking how it turned out ww
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@aphantomdweeb
#p5r#my art#doodle#doodles#persona 5 protagonist#akechi goro#shuake#persona 5#(Insert a rlly gay caption)#I just wanted to draw a really standard red blue yin yang pose shuake…#anyway um fuck akechi why do u have such complicated guns the toy ray one and now this
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heiress eternal
#so many thoughts about her#the handmaid#the handmaid homestuck#homestuck ancestors#damara megido#homestuck#egg art#according to hussies book aradia was in contact with the handmaid to receive game instructions#which is interesting considering megidos can speak to the dead and the handmaid is one of the few ancestors alive#so either handmaid channeled a dead aradia or future aradia channeled a dead handmaid#handmaid could of also just manipulated the timeline to make sure aradia was the catalyst for the game being played#or something less more or equally complicated#and without this we just have to assume its maid powers allowing aradia to have flawless instruction of what to do or shes just a#level 3000 gigabrain girl genius at 13 years old#and instead of putting that interaction in the story we got. the dancestor flashes#so im a little miffed about it really
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FORGETTABLE-AU (Page 53-56)
DELIVERED.
[BEGINNING] [PREVIOUS] [CONTINUE]
#Yayyy pages are back#I am still not good at drawing objects....#But I'm getting there....#Oh my#what is going on??#I don't have much else to add aakjdkf#UHMM#I love how Wingdings looks in these pages he's had such a glow up#like...I really really don't like how he looks in the first page of chapter one....#ough...nooo....#But I'm getting more used to drawing him!!#It's complicated adding the eyelights without making him look creepy#forgettable-au#forgettable-au-pages#alphys#gaster#papyrus is gaster#wd gaster#undertale#undertale au#undertale comic
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I am actually a Native person who has always gone by animal names, both my deadname and every name I've used as a trans person, and I think if you have a Native character who you feel would have a nature name (because of hippy parents or because they're trans or whatever), then you can avoid stereotypes by having ~more than one Native character~
I know, it's a shocking concept, but it's actually pretty easy to avoid contributing to stereotypes in your works when you remember that you are allowed to have more than one character from the same ethnic and/or racial group. Just have a different Native character with a "normal" name. Problem solved. Have fun.
#obviously it's more complicated than this in some ways#but a lot of it really does come down to using one character as a representation of an entire ethnic group
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I drew the first image of Link and Bazz drinking and chilling together and then it spiraled
What can I say, I just really like watching these two interact, and I think Bazz is weirdly uniquely qualified to relate to at least some of Link's internal drama.
#loz#botw#zora#bazz#bazzlink#(this time 100% platonic lol)#link#also i love me a good excuse to draw some bazz expressions#halfway through this comics this just became a straight up study of Bazz's mannerisms lol#but yeah bazz relates to link's complicated zelda feelings a lot#he serves the domain out of sense of duty and also it's his job#but also he does love sidon just so much it will destroy him one day in one way or another#and if it was romantic it would probably be easier to rationalize but it's not#great job on having fulfilling relationships and healthy coping mechanisms bazz! a+ gold star as always#but maybe reconnecting with link will make the knighthood angst feel a bit less crushing hmm#also yes bazz chugged a whole bottle of wine and it didn't do much to affect him (meanwhile link is flushed after his one half cup)#he isnt lying here his head really is that strong poor guy#(edited) fixed a few details and clunky dialogue bits that bothered me
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absolutely devastating that i actually have the art skills now to produce the dating sim/visual novel my teenage self dreamed of and the only thing standing in my way is being a very mid storyteller and even worse at coding
#ramble#maybe one day if i can come up with a gimmick akfhddk#12 year old me did not spend hours fighting renpy on the family computer to give up now#it started bc i was obsessed with a game called 'dandelion' which is#uhhhhhh the predecessor to something a lot more popular. that studio makes one (1) kind of game#and also has the best opening theme of anything ever#it can't be THAT hard#it's just a really really long really complicated dialogue tree#i used twine a lot at uni maybe that's something
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because there is nothing to lose the people saying biden should resign now so kamala can still be the first female president are absolutely right but why stop there? inauguration day is 70 days away let's make "president for a day" a real thing. say "fuck it we ARE going to do the arbitrary quota DEI bullshit you accuse us of" and speedrun first [category] presidents. revolving door type thing.
first female president. first openly gay president. first transgender president. first president who has been to space. first president gamer president. first mime president. just play president bingo and hit as many categories as possible while we still can. make all of trump's #47 merch unusable by forcing him to be the 115th president instead. who cares anymore let's peacefully transition power but do it in the most chaotic hot-potato way possible
#us politics#politics tw#election 2024#joe biden#kamala harris#this is how bernie can still win!!!#like fuck it even let hillary have it for a day since she wanted it so freakin bad#each person pardons the one before and half the action is just pardons#if they're gonna dismantle the justice system as well as all the other systems of government just preemptively pardon anyone#if there's a policy that really needs to get passed just do executive order chain where each new person goes 'ditto'#make everything so frickin complicated to untangle that the trump admin has to spend the first 100 days#just sorting through paperwork#maybe malicious compliance and bureaucracy was the answer all along#'i guess you guys wanna do autocracy but we're gonna make it really irritating for you'
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when i first designed erestor 3 years back i wasnt totally aware of his potential half-elf status, and since then ive come across some more fanon interpretations of him being haleth and caranthir's kid which i really liked!!!! so ive decided to rework him a little by combining my original lore for him into this concept 👉👈 i ended up getting carried away on whole different tangent with his backstory which ive summarised down below HAHA
tldr to expand on some key points under the cut:
born in F.A. 371 to haleth and caranthir; his parents' romance is short but passionate, and while many of the haladin are initially unsure about the nature of this union, they dont oppose it. for 4 years they live an unconventional but happy life together
haleth leaves thargelion in F.A. 375 and raises erestor with her people once they resettle. he's too young to remember much about caranthir. throughout his childhood she never tells him who his father is, but he also never really feels the need to ask.
he's captured in F.A. 460 (40 years after his mother's death) and escapes in F.A. 510. two years later, he finally finds refuge in Amon Ereb-- six years after the deaths of caranthir, celegorm and curufin in the 2nd kinslaying.
is tasked by maedhros to assist maglor with elrond and elros' education after they're taken in following the 3rd kinslaying in F.A. 538. he becomes a weird mix of a nanny/older brother/teacher figure to them, and a strange but sweet bond forms between them.
entrusted to protect elrond and elros following the break out of the war of wrath. he leads them to the Host of the Valar, where the twins are given the choice of the half-elven; to his surprise, he's afforded this choice as well, and decides to remain elven out of compassion for elrond after elros chooses mortality.
remains by elrond's side to watch over him for most of the 2nd age. during this time he resides in lindon as a healer, translator and archivist; later joins elrond in imladris, and partakes in the war of the last alliance as a combat medic.
in the 3rd age, is beset with sea-longing after what he regards to be a long and tiresome existence; he's also filled with guilt for being unable to help elrond heal celebrian’s psychological wounds, and contemplates following her back to Valinor. ultimately decides to stay back a bit longer, however, and lingers until after sauron’s defeat when the rest of the elves finally depart for the West.
that's just a very condensed version but one day i hope to explore in some 4th age stuff where he finds out who his dad is...?! or will he?!?! who knows lol
#silmarillion#erestor#caranthir#haleth#maedhros#elrond#maglor#i think i just really like finding excuses to expand the feanorian family tree... its always been a bit stagnant compared to the rest#one big sweet extended family.... as if the finwean family tree wasnt complicated enough LMAO 😭#but i do find the idea of erestor being m2's nephew rather fun?? itd be interesting when maglor finally finds out millenia later in valinor#or maedhros reuniting with his brothers in the halls#caranthir: yeah uhhh that half-elven ex-thrall you took in was my son all along. thanks for looking after him bro#maedhros: your WHAT#celegorm: dude i cant believe moryos a deadbeat dad#celebrimbor: i had a cousin all along...???#ereinion gil galad#amras#elros tar minyatur#elrond and elros#halenthir#is that the ship name? haha#the silmarillion#silm#noldor#silm art#sons of feanor#sakasakart#elves#headcanons#sketch dump
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I love grief-stricken men they should kiss to feel better
#svsss#Mdzs#lan huan#grandmaster of demonic cultivation#scum villain's self saving system#yue qingyuan#Lan Xichen#YueLan#help i dont knwobthe ship name#XiQing#QingXi#???#also yes i spent time effort blood sweat and tears rendering them both to be the most sad looking grief fueling people to ever walk to earth#and then kiss sloppy muppet style in the back#i hope more people of this suip come out because i love this ship a lot#they both lost someone they loved that they know is there fault for the reason the one they love is gone/ wont ever love them#the people they love are complicated people that have a really difficult past and no one understands but them and even then#theyre both kind of left behind as they see others live out a happy ending#it makes me sad for them#so i hope they can find each other somehow#somewhere#my art#nibbelraz
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god Arcane S2 is so good. I love not knowing any of the source material, because I'm just consuming the story as it is - with absolutely exquisite visuals and beautifully orchestrated emotional arcs. The ending had me legit crying and loved every moment of it.
#there is incredible character work throughout but#it struck me multiple times while watching the variety and depth and interest of all the female characters in particular#as something that it is easy for a show to wobble on#but not here like truly bechdel test WHOMST#this show is about messy rich complicated *people*#and i really love the choices they made with the animation in a lot of places - like who says you need to have one style all the way throug#arcane#arcane spoilers#arcane season 2#arcane s2#op
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"I would rather be dead than live life without you by my side." "I can't live life without you by my side."
HELLUVA BOSS 2.11 - Mastermind
#animationedit#helluvabossedit#hbedit#helluva boss#helluva#helluva boss spoilers#helluva spoilers#hb spoilers#mastermind spoilers#stolas goetia#stolas#blitzø#blitzo#blitz#stolitz#hellaverse#gifs#my gifs#my stuff#userkarura#regiffing this part because I wanted to really capture the eye contact moment#also a quick gifset before I start on a more complicated one#(that I hope I can figure out and don't give up halfway through...)
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this is siffrin and this is their boyfriend isabeau and this is isabeaus partner loop and this is loops gossip bestie mirabelle and this is mirabelles qpr siffrin and this is siffrins situationship loop and this is loops qpr odille and this is odilles ???? siffrin and this is all of the past mentioned peoples child; bonnie.
#isat#isat shipping#kinda????#moreso. complex relationships#theyre family#yk?#and that means complicated dynamics with one another that dont really have proper names#but it also means funny posts like these#also means NONE of the lables described are 100% accurate#because everyone is multiple things to everyone else#if i were to name them all we would be here forever#anyways yeah smth smth the complex nature of found family and relationships between the realms of familial platonic and romantic#isafrin#sifdile#loopdile#sifloop#isaloop
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Ange + bobis version that i didn't feel like posting at the time but might release later
#cw nudity#angelina arknights#art#artists on tumblr#my art#arknights#arknights fanart#la ange#bobis#for a really complicated reason i couldn't finish something this week#so have a tetonas version of an old post (it's one of my favorite things i've drawn too!)
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