#that's what my song TPWK is all about <3

[goongiveusnothing]

[foxes-that-run]

Boyfriends

A self aware take on Boyfriends, including Harry and boyfriends of those he cares for. The lyric video features a lone swan, a symbol of commitment. Harry was with a swan in every image for his May 20 2019 Gucci Campaign, released the week Boyfriends was first written. Harry and Taylor were pictured with a Swan on her birthday when they went to The Lakes. Harry who has spoken about the song with pride and deference. Let's start with the gorgeous first take:

Harry said to Zane Lowe it was written at the end of Fine Line:

"There was an extra week where we wrote some stuff, wrote Adore you, TPWK and we were recording Lights Up. [...] At the end of that session everyone left and I started writing Boyfriends and it almost felt like OK there is a version where we get this ready to put on this album, and I think there was something about it where it felt like it's going to have it's time. [...] I am learning so much by saying it [...] It is both acknowledging my own behaviour, looking at behaviour I have witnessed and looking at I grew up with a sister, so it's like watching her date people and watching friends date people and you know people don't treat each other nicely sometimes. And it turned out about boyfriends because I started paying it and saying boyfriends. [...]Just say what you think of boyfriends.

Harry was in the studio from 15 May 2019, the Swan Gucci Campaign was released on he and Taylors anniversary that week. It was also 2 weeks after Me! Was released. When speaking about Boyfriends Harry constantly mentions these other songs. They have a common theme about the impact of the behaviour of others on his relationships and self, true his nature it is subtle and gentle:

Adore you's video asks fans to respect the partner(s) of his choosing, in contrast to fan reaction who he dates.

TPWK, as the title says, Harry told Rolling Stone " It made me uncomfortable at first, [...] I feel like that song opened something that’s been in my core.”

Lights Up - to Rolling Stone Harry spoke about stepping out from 1D on his own, the lyrics of "I'm not ever going back" and "All the lights couldn't put out the dark running through my heart", link the experience of the band and fandom to mental health and knowing who he is, rather than who others want him to be.

To me, coming at the end of that session adds to Harry taking ownership his role in failed relationships in that time by being unaware of the impact his 1D persona. fan treatment of his partner(s) and emotional unavailability. Taylor has also described her anxiety dating him in Slut! and Gold Rush. However, as Harry said, it is not limited to himself. On its release at Coachella, (3 years after it was written) "To Boyfriends Everywhere, F*** you". This was weeks after Taylor wrote You're Losing Me about Joe. His face to the end of this is everything:

Setlist and Tracklisting

Harry placed Boyfriends on HH between Satellite and LOML. Harry stopped playing Boyfriends after November 15 2022, when he played it live with Ben Harper at the end of the L.A. Forum residency. It was only played once in 2023, at Wembley June 16. The next night was the only time he played Sweet Creature since 2018. When it was on the setlist it proceeded LOML or Lights Up.

Ben Harper

To Variety Ben Harper said: "It was a wonderful recording session — one of the most memorable and most musical I’ve ever been a part of. [...] Harry invited me to stick around because he wanted to finish the song right then and there. To get to watch Harry in his process was eye-opening, and I learned a lot. [...] Yeah, I mean, he orchestrated the vocal harmonies like a classical composer, spot on, note for note. He just stacked them perfectly in pitch, one better than the next, and it was really eye-opening to see somebody step on the mic and have the parts orchestrated in his head. I’ve never seen anything like it actually."

Lyrics

Hoo Niaga ti ta kcab er'uoy, loof Boyfriends They think you're so easy They take you for granted They don't know they're just misunderstanding you You, you're back at it again

The opening is Backwards 'Ooh Fool, you’re back at it again'. Sunflower Vol 6 also opens with 'Sunflower' backwards. I think of this as about a backwards life, success followed by a normal life.

The first verse describes how boyfriends take their partner for granted and misunderstand.

Weakened When you get deep in He starts secretly drinking It gets hard to know what he's thinking You love a fool who knows just how to get under your skin You, you, you still open the door

The second verse describes where partner has met their guard down some boyfriends withdraw, and start drinking. Harry has sung of this before in Half the world away “I’ve started drinking”. Harry has mentioned drinking in other songs, but HTWA has a similar meaning, of drinking in secret to cope.

Harry touches on common themes in his discography:

Not communicating, similar to MMIH “we don’t talk about it”

Not getting over this person - Getting under you skin is a reference to Taylor’s The Lakes: “What should be over burrowed under my skin in heart-stopping waves of hurt” and IWYW “You always knew how to push my buttons”

Doors - here Harry's muse is opening the door, Harry has 7 songs that refer to knocking, opening or not opening doors. Taylor also has 13 songs about Harry and doors.

You're no closer to him Now you're halfway home Only calling you when Don't wanna be alone Oh, and you go Why? You don't know

While the first 2 verses the Boyfriend was uncommunicative, emotionally unavailable and didn't consider their partner. In the third verse the boyfriend and partner are learning from failed relationships, but still no closer. Now the boyfriend is only calling when they want company, rather than to be there for their partner.

Halfway home: The X Account 'I am Halfway Home' was started to promote HH. The term could have several meanings:

a Halfway house is a place to reintegrate into society from an institution.

The song is a play on words of having no more emotional closeness despite being physically halfway home, and

Halfway home is the name of a documentary about the toll war takes on veterans and their families.

Home is an important theme to Harry's work, Home meaning being with the right person rather than a physical place. To me, this lyric is Harry is saying that despite his growth since leaving the band and break down of this relationship they are still not emotionally closer.

Boyfriends Are they just pretending? They don't tell you where it's heading And you know the game's never ending You, you lay with him as you stay in the daydream You feel a fool You're back at it again

The closing of the song is a sense that the boyfriend is being a player, not communicating.

But Harry's muse gives in, wanting to stay in a dream. Slut! has a similar idea of choosing to stay in a love haze when you know it's not going to last "Got lovestruck, went straight to my head / Got lovesick, all over my bed / Love to think you'll never forget / Handprints in wet cement". Harry also says this in Daydreaming: "Livin' in a daydream"

Harry and Taylor have both used 'fool' in reference to their relationship before (in Fools Gold, Cardigan, Illicit Affairs, Joker and the Queen and in Long Pond Taylor said it 7 times about James in Betty.)

Finally, it refers to the cyclical nature of their relationship with 'back at it again' as OOTW 'built to fall apart and back together' and Style "when we go crashing down we come back every time' and many other songs.

[this-daydream-is-dangerous-13]

What are your thoughts on Endlessly and Something I've Been Waiting For?

Two more leaks I have not yet mentioned!

Something I’ve Been Waiting For leaked March 28, 2023. (How curious - 2-3 days after *someone* ended things with YB and 3 days before The 1 replaced Invisible String in the folklore set for n1 Arlington)

Endlessly leaked July 1 or 2, 2023, right around the time Harry was solo at his cousin’s wedding in England while Blondie was playing IOMWIWY and evermore, then the 3 night with ivy and Gracie’s IMYIS and CIWYWT.

And I will say this up front: other than 4 songs—3 of which name or directly reference other women, and on being TPWK—I think ALL of his songs are in part or in full about Blondie.

So - on to analysis.

Something I’ve Been Waiting For - super hard to find audio, lyrics below:

[Verse 1]

Gonna turn the light on to see something new

Can’t always rely on what we thought was true

Baby, don’t you know I’ve been waiting for you

Now that I have found you, got something to lose

[Pre-Chorus]

This might sound crazy

'Cause I just lost my mind, mind, mind

[Chorus]

You’re something I’ve been waiting for

You’re something I’ve been waiting for

You’re something I’ve been waiting for

[Verse 2]

I’ve been here for years wasting love, wasting time

Those days were a blur and the nights passed me by

Baby, don’t you know that I’d wait all my life

Now that I am sure that you’re real it’s alright

[Pre-Chorus]

This might sound crazy

'Cause I just lost my mind, mind, mind

[Chorus]

You’re something I’ve been waiting for

You’re something I’vе been waiting for

You’re something I’ve been waiting for

You’rе something I’ve been waiting for

You’re everything I need and more

You’re something I’ve been waiting for

[Outro]

Won’t let go, won’t let you go

Won’t let go, won’t let you go

Won’t let go, won’t let you go, won’t let go, won’t let go

You’re something I’ve been waiting for

You’re something I’ve been waiting for

You’re something I’ve been waiting for

You’re everything I need and more

You’re something I’ve been waiting for

**he’s used these lyrical callbacks since They Don’t Know About Us, written in May 2012.

Endlessly vocals were recorded by Gary Go.

It is hard to find lyrics, but here is a video with them.

Some key points:

- just like in Him (unreleased), he references “The Outside”, a CH-Ellie Golding hit that talks about love gone wrong

- he uses common motifs for his love with Blondie saying “will you let me fall asleep inside your dreams?” and “will you let me call and beg on my knees?”

- he calls back to Strong (though he is not as strong as her) and how important it is to put in the work

- and Happily and Endlessly were co-written with members of Snow Patrol; they’re sister songs!

What do you think? What have I overlooked?

[boots-and-dagger]

Hii! Can you please tell more about your experience from the show? I see lots of posts saying it was differenf and I’d like to hear a bit more about it if it’s okay! I hope you had fun!!💕

Hi darling!

So I’ll start by saying I’ve been seeing one direction shows since the Up All Night tour in the US, so I’ve been to a lot of shows involving Harry. I’m very very lucky that this was my 12 time seeing him in person, and while each show has its own vibe (especially between solo harry shows/1d obviously), there is always a sense of community you feel as soon as you walk in. That felt different last night.

Rainbows have been a part of Harry’s and fans’ show experiences since Rainbow Direction started projects and they have become essential in welcoming members of the queer community including Harry himself. When I walking in, I saw maybe two girls with anything rainbow, one was a jacket and one was a boa, but other than that there was an extreme lack of color, which was odd to me, especially considering I was at MSG night 3 for LOT21 and there were a lot more rainbows in general. Allegedly MSG has recently banned flags, because at every single MSG show for LOT21 including Harryween, there were flags. I did not see a single flag in that pit and Harry even noticed. You could see him circling the stage during TPWK and searching. I mean tons of louis shows “banned flags” but you were sure as hell people were getting them in there come hell or high water. There was a rainbow project with lights, but there was not a lot of communication or organization because hardly anyone held up their lights with stick notes.

I literally have made friends at every concert I’ve been to because people are so nice and complimenting each other on their outfits and chatting about Harry/the boys. However, at this show, after trying to strike up conversations, people were pretty dismissive. The pit looked dead and you could feel it from where I was in the 200s. There wasn’t a conga line from what I could see and only a SMALL group was doing the line dance and it was lead by the toxic friend group, so I’m pretty sure they were just trying to get Ol*via or Jeff’s attention. It seemed like the show had many tiktok fans and the people sitting next to me literally did not know any of the words to a single song except as it was and watermelon sugar. No one in my section was jumping during TPWK or WMYB, me and my friend were the only ones. People started chanting for medicine like every time it went quiet. I think that overall, the crowd was just not what I’m used to or have come to expect from a Harry show.

Harry was incredible as always and he sounded amazing. His outfit was cute and he was super excited to be back at MSG. His performance had nothing to do with the vibe at all. I had fun because I was experiencing harry again and I’m sure that I’ll end up going to another night, so it will be interesting to see how everything compares. If you’re going to a show, you make your own fun, so don’t worry about everyone around you and have the best time. Be the best vibe in your section💕

[imaginesandbandfiction]

Harry Styles — Canyon Moon

Fine Line Series Part 4

Okay, I am a dumbass because this was supposed to be posted before To Be So Lonely. Not that it matters much, it can stand alone, but timeline-wise it takes place between Sunflower and To Be So Lonely. Whoops. I am also adding Instagram blurbs to each story! I posted the one for She yesterday and the one for TPWK will be up tomorrow so get excited!

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Masterlist

Sky Never Looked so Blue

After a month and a half of nonstop travel and late nights, everyone was looking forward to a few days off before setting off to Paris for the European leg of the tour. Having grown up in Chula Vista, you were no stranger to Arizona, and were excited for the Phoenix show, but even more excited about what came after.

During a conversation with some of the crew, you had casually mentioned that you had never been to the Grand Canyon. You then promptly forgot about the conversation until Harry brought up the idea of renting a car and taking a road trip back to LA.

He rented a cabin in the North Rim for three days and had it stocked with groceries so it would be all ready when you arrived, and you set out in a rented Jeep Cherokee the day after the show. Harry insisted on driving while you were in charge of navigation and choosing the music. You played oldies music, singing along with the windows down, the cool autumn breeze whipping your hair around. You were on a mission to find a song that he didn’t already know, and were finally successful with the song Sea of Love by The Honeydrippers, an old 80’s band that only released one short album of covers from the 50’s. Growing up, your dad had an old cassette tape of theirs that he would play in the car.

“You got me on this one,” Harry said, glancing over at you with a smile. “Who is it? It sounds familiar.”

“The Honeydrippers. It was a side project with Robert Plant on vocals, where a bunch of rock stars in the 80’s re-recorded songs from the 50's. My dad played their album a lot when I was a kid, and I’ve always loved this song in particular; he would always sing it to my mom,” you explained, a nostalgic smile on your face.

Harry reached over and grabbed your hand in his, bringing it up to his lips and kissing it lightly. It was different, being completely alone with him somewhere other than a hotel room or his dressing room. Good different. He listened to the song with a quiet intensity while you sang along, swinging his hand in yours along to the beat.

After almost 6 hours of driving, the two of you finally pulled into the driveway of the little cabin Harry had rented. It felt nice to trade in the heat of the city for the cooler desert air and the golden-hour lighting peeking through the trees. The front of the cabin was secluded by trees, while the back overlooked the canyon.

All the driving, coupled with the exhaustion from the show the night before, had the two of you in bed fast asleep by 8:30pm. You woke up the next morning to the sun shining in through the gauzy curtains, illuminating the room with a soft glow, and Harry’s arm draped across your waist. His hair was sticking up at odd angles and he was snoring lightly, no doubt catching up on sleep from all of the late nights on tour. You smiled and snuggled closer to him, feeling his arm tighten around your waist, letting your eyes flutter closed again. This was the first time you had spent the entire night together and you wanted to savor every moment.

An hour later, Harry started to stir beside you, waking you from your dozing.

“Mornin’,” he mumbled into your hair, sleep weighing down his voice.

“Good morning,” you replied, leaning in to kiss him on the cheek. He smiled, eyes still closed, when your lips touched his skin. You spent some time luxuriating in each other’s bodies, taking things slow and letting the anticipation build up until you hit your peak, coming down together in a mess of tangled limbs. While you cleaned up in the bathroom, Harry headed into the kitchen to put the kettle on.

You could get used to lazy mornings like this, you thought, as he returned with two cups of tea.

___

Even with just three days in the cabin, you fell into a little routine together. Doing little domestic things with Harry, like cooking and doing the dishes felt novel in comparison to stolen moments backstage and in hotel rooms. Simple things like reading your books side by side on the little patio out back or curling up on the couch to watch a movie were a luxury you were only beginning to experience together.

While most people were up at the crack of dawn to hike, the two of you preferred to spend all morning in bed, followed by a late breakfast out on the patio overlooking the canyon. Afternoons were for reading or cuddling up on the couch watching old rom-coms, taking turns choosing your favorites.

But the evenings were your favorite part. There was an overlook about a mile away from the cabin with a great view of the sunset, and the two of you made the hike there every night after dinner with blankets and a bottle of wine in hand. On your last night, you brought snacks, chocolate-covered strawberries and macarons, to have a mini-picnic.

The two of you set out a little earlier and took it slow, wanting to make each moment last as long as possible before heading back to real life tomorrow. Harry carried everything in a backpack and you led the way, holding his hand and swinging it between the two of you.

“The sky is so much bluer out here,” you commented, pointing out towards the horizon.

“Probably because the land is so much redder,” Harry responded with a laugh.

“Doesn’t change the fact that it’s true, though.” You fell into a comfortable silence as you continued the walk, both lost in your own thoughts. In moments like these, you wished you could read Harry’s mind, pulling all of the words out of his brain and into the air between you. Unfortunately, you’re not Edward Cullen, and you had to settle for your own thoughts, instead.

You dreaded leaving the privacy of your little cabin, and you were more anxious about the first international leg of the tour than you let on. The tour had just begun, really, and you hoped that your relationship with Harry was strong enough to handle whatever eight more months of touring may bring.

Shaking your head to clear those thoughts, you turned your gaze to Harry, admiring the way the sunlight brought out the lighter tones in his hair. As much as you loved your job, you had to admit that the slower pace of life you had enjoyed the past few days was intoxicating -- part of you wished you could stay forever, wrapped up in your own cozy little bubble.

When you reached the overlook, Harry shooed you away from helping and set up the little picnic all by himself. The two of you sat on the blanket, glasses of wine in hand, to watch the sun that was just beginning to set.

Harry held a chocolate-covered strawberry up to your lips, nudging them open gently.

“Good?” he asked, eyes bright, eager for your response.You bit into it slowly, letting your eyes flutter closed as you savored the sweet flavor.

“The best,” you answered, opening your mouth for another one. He obliged, feeding you another.

Once the sun had slid below the horizon, Harry laid back and motioned for you to join him. You settled in next to him, with your head on his chest. His body was warm, practically radiating heat, in comparison to the rapidly cooling air around you. You were content; the quiet of the desert was peaceful, and the glow of the moon provided just enough light to illuminate Harry’s face.

You stayed out later than usual, neither one of you wanting to break the spell. Dusk faded to dark, revealing the moon and the stars. Harry pointed out made-up constellations to you, coming up with silly names for shapes he saw in the stars.

“That one’s the Teletubby Galaxy,” he said, gesturing to a clump of stars to the right of you. “See, there’s Tinky Winky, and Po, and the other ones.” He traced his finger around in a shape that made sense only to him. You giggled along, occasionally pointing out your own formations.

The conversation ebbed and flowed, with periods of silence growing larger the later it got. After a prolonged period of silence, you propped your head up on your chin to look up at Harry./

“I don’t want to go home,” you said, sighing. “I wanna stay out here forever.” Harry chuckled as he tightened his grip on your waist.

“I can make a few phone calls, extend our stay until the last possible second,” Harry offered. You shook your head, a small smile on your lips.

“As much as I would love that, I promised my parents I’d be home for a few days before we leave for Paris, and they would kill me if I backed out now.”

“Yeah, Jeff would probably drive out here and drag me back to LA if we stayed.” Disappointment filled his voice, but that was the reality of being on tour.

Harry trailed his fingers up and down your arm, barely grazing the skin there and yet it sent electricity through your body. You turned your head and tilted it back a little bit to capture his lips with yours, needing an outlet for the excitement that was slowly building inside of you. The kisses were slow and lazy, but passionate, and you could feel your heart rate quickening by the minute.

“Should probably head back,” Harry muttered, pulling back briefly. “Don’t want mosquito bites on my cock.”

You laughed, a head thrown back, full-body laugh, echoing throughout the canyon. Harry’s laugh joined yours, until the two of you were practically in tears, rolling around on the blanket. When one of you would slow down, the other would speed up, causing another laughing fit, the kind found most frequently at childhood sleepovers, when you’re up too late and everything seems hilarious.

An itch on your arm brought you back to reality, and you sobered up quickly.

“They’re attacking!” You squealed, pulling up the sleeve of your sweatshirt to show Harry the small red bump forming there.

“Least it’s not on your -- hey!” He started, but you interrupted him with a nudge, “Okay, okay. Let’s get you back so you can suck me dry before they suck you dry.” You rolled your eyes at his dumb joke, but accepted his extended hand and let him pull you up.

Harry quickly packed everything, and the two of you set off hand in hand back to the little cabin to make the most of your last night.

Part 5 | Part 6

[astranva]

TikTok Compilation (pt.2)

Word Count: 1.8k

Category: Fluff

Warning: Some language, very, very slight implied smut; like, it’s a line.

Summary: Yet another compilation of Y/N and Harry content on TikTok as a couple.

// masterlist //

a/n i’ve been receiving loads of tiktok requests so i combined some here! y’all have been asking for this for so long, sorry it took me long to post! let me know what you think. stay safe, friends!

..

Surely, you had hoped life would have taken a turn a long time ago with the pandemic.

Going outside without masks and crippling fear seemed like a dream, despite it all having been a reality for most of our lives. And while it was cliché, you truly don’t know what you have until it’s gone, like the boring routine you had complained about but now wished to get back.

And in your case, you also didn’t know that one app could have the ability to make things slightly easier during these times – TikTok.

Call it as you may, but quarantine TikTok content was a blessing and while you could swear by that, so could the fans and everyone else on the app since the moment you (and Harry) joined.

Having had tried so many pranks, challenges, and dances, you showed no signs of coming to an end of finding humor and pleasure from the app that Gen Z dominated with the wildest spirits.

With wild spirits, came wild content and for a generation that is openly expressive, there was also wholesome content; all of which Harry’s fans had tagged you to do and try with him.

‘Make your partner impersonate you’

For that one, Harry seemed to be the most excited to do, face beaming with a thousand spiraling ideas of things he could do and say.

The moment the video began, Harry was seen under your white covers, your pink velvet headband that everyone considered iconic rested on his head to show that he was acting like you, pretending to be sleepy as he spoke in a softer voice than his, “Don’t want to get up. More cuddles, please, baby.”

Then video then cut to Harry in the kitchen, you following behind him.

“I wonder where H is, need to pinch his bum.” He said in the same pitch he used for the previous shot.

The video then cut to Harry sitting on the couch beside you, holding his phone, “Baby, look at that!” He showed you his phone, showing you a video on TikTok, “Can we do it?”

‘Wipe your lips after your bf kisses you’

For this, you were picking Harry up from the studio.

Waiting in the parking lot, you had your phone placed behind the box of tissues.

To stay safe, you began recording a normal video for you to edit later as you waited for Harry to show.

When he did, Harry looked right and left as he searched for your car before his eyes fell on you and despite the mask on his face hiding half of it, you could tell that he smiled.

Getting inside the car, Harry took off his mask with a sigh, “First time to actually breathe since morning.” He said before leaning closer to you, pressing his lips against yours.

Doing your part, you looked ahead as you wiped your lips with the back of your hand, noticing Harry’s body stiff as he looked at you.

“Did you just-” He paused, “Did you wipe your lips?”

You hummed in confusion, acting as if you hadn’t heard him as you looked at him.

“Did you-Come here,” he frowned before pulling you close by your hoodie’s drawstrings, pressing his lips against yours in a kiss again.

Again, you wiped your lips.

“Why are you doing that?” He asked, not only confusion being evident in his tone, but hurt, too, “Why are you wiping my ki-Babe, I’m clean.”

“What?” You asked, looking at him as you smiled amusingly, trying to contain your laughter.

“Why are you wiping my kiss?” Harry almost whined, frowning.

“I’m sorry, it’s for TikTok,” you giggled, breaking into laughter when he groaned with a roll of his eyes before he grabbed your jaw, kissing your lips more aggressively.

“Never again.”

‘Let go of your partner’s hand and see what they do’

If there was one thing Harry liked to brag about, it was knowing how to multitask; drive with one hand, hold yours with the other.

It was a natural occurrence for the both of you to hold hands when he drove, no matter what.

Deciding to try that one trend, you took advantage of Harry being focused on the road to film your intertwined hands on your thigh for two seconds before taking your hand out of his.

Instantly, Harry glanced at you, seemingly unaware to you tilting your phone in the other hand to film his face, “Why’d you leave my hand?” He only mumbled before opening his palm towards you once again, smiling when he heard you softly giggle as you put your hand back in his, cooing when he raised it his lips, pressing a soft and gentle kiss on your knuckles, “This stays right here.”

‘Film yourself acting like your partner’

Since the TikTok of Harry acting you like received so many reactions, among them were fans asking you to act like Harry as well, and Harry was down to watch that happen.

Harry recorded you, first shot of video being a little shaky as he couldn’t contain his giggles while watching you in his flared pants, an oversized shirt, his cross pendant on your neck between the valley of your chest, rings on your fingers that showed chipped black polish on your nails.

Your hair was gathered up in a scrunchie, one leg over the other as you sat on a chair, “I’m Harry Styles,” you began, “And like, I never explain my music, I let people interpret it the way they want because music,” you sucked a breath, “Is art. It’s a form of expression that isn’t limited, it’s, like, very open. Like the ocean.” You said slowly, mimicking Harry’s accent and smiling at the end when Harry burst out laughing.

For the next shot, you were in Harry’s white bathrobe, coming out of the bathroom before leaning on the doorframe and looking at Harry as he filmed you, “You sure you’re going to let me shower alone, love?”

Another shot was of you in Harry’s joggers and TPWK black hoodie, sprawled on your couch with the hood on, looking at Harry in disbelief as you still mimicked his accent and deep voice, “Excuse me? Why are you standing there and not cuddling me?”

In a grey tank top of his that you dramatically spilt water on to make it look like sweat and sweat shorts, you had Harry’s boxing gloves on your hands as you bumped your fists together, approaching Harry as he recorded, “God, I’m so sweaty, I have to go hug my girlfriend.”

For the final shot, you had Harry’s guitar in your arms, adjusting the strap as you stood, “I’m going to write a song that is so sexual and record it but I’m not going to release it because I’m a biiiiiitch.” You sang, dramatically strumming the guitar.

‘Pretend to take a mirror selfie with your partner then whisper something dirty in their ear’

You enjoyed the sun; the way it sneaked inside yours and Harry’s room from the sides of your curtains, lit up the room so warmly.

You enjoyed how the natural lighting looked for pictures.

You also enjoyed teasing the shit out of your boyfriend.

“Come here,” you made one grabby hand at Harry who entered the room, scratching his chin, “Let’s take a picture.”

Already used to random pictures being taken together, Harry reached you, standing in front of your vanity mirror as he wrapped his arms around you from behind, pressing a kiss against your temple.

Oblivious to it being a video, Harry leaned his chin on your shoulder, giving his famous smug look to the mirror as you held up your phone.

Turning your head, you made sure your voice was low so that your phone wouldn’t pick what you said;

“Want you to pound me.”

And instantly, Harry’s smug look faltered; his eyes widening, face brightening as he looked at you as you giggled before releasing a squeal once you felt him carry you and move you from where you stood, and to the bed as you laughed.

‘Tell your partner your ex wants to return a hoodie of yours’

Propping your phone up, you made sure it showed Harry as he cooked while you sat on the kitchen stool.

You folded your arms on the table, clearing your throat as you eyed Harry while he was chopping carrots.

“Hey, H,” Harry hummed, stealing a glance at you before looking back at his chore, “My ex called earlier,”

At this, Harry’s eyebrows furrowed before he looked up at you, putting down the knife and leaning his hands on the counter, his arms seeming to look bigger as he tensed, “What did he say?”

Trying not to laugh, you looked down, beginning to play with your fingers before giving him a shrug, “Just that he still has a hoodie of mine at his place,”

“Yeah?”

“And asked if I need it back.”

“What did you say?”

You gave him another shrug, “Said I’ll let him know.”

“Well, do you need it?” He asked, “Like really need it?”

“Yeah, it was my high school’s.”

“But baby, you have a lot of hoodies,” one hand of his reached to his lips, fingers grazing his bottom lip for a moment, “Can get it for you.”

“That’d be so awkward, H,” you sighed.

“Why? I’m your boyfriend.” Harry reasoned, “Maybe I can just come with you,” he said again before his face lit up, “I can have it customized instead. Just tell me how it looked like and-”

“Baby, no,” you chuckled, “It won’t be the same.”

“Come on, love,” he frowned, “He calls you 3 years later to tell you he still has your hoodie. You don’t think that’s suspicious? He knows you’re with m-Everyone knows we’re together.”

“Maybe he forgot,” you shrugged, “Actually, let me call and as-”

“Oh, fuck no!” Harry instantly rushed to you.

‘Aggressively tell your partner you love them’

Chilling on the couch, Harry was watching the TV, unaware of your phone that had been resting on the shelf to record you beforehand.

You stomped where Harry was, whose head snapped to you, his mouth chewing his banana bite slower as he eyed you carefully, taking in your angry state.

You threw your notebook on the couch beside him, “I love you!” You said aggressively, a frown on your face as you pointed at him, “I fucking love you!”

Harry took a moment, his face shifting to one of amusement before he raised his hands up – one holding his banana – before pointing at you, “I fucking love you, too!” He screamed.

“No, no,” you shook your head, still aggressively speaking, “I love you more!”

“I’m so fucking in love with you!” Harry said as aggressively, standing in an instant, towering over you as he pressed himself against you before wrapping one arm around you, “Why are we shouting, you weirdo?”

‘Stick your hand out and see what your partner does’

Harry was sat beside you on his laptop, music blasting from it as he emailed himself some tasks.

Recording him with one hand, you reached your arm out, opening your palm at him.

Harry looked down at your hand, a smile making its way to his face before he looked at you before placing his chin on your hand, closing his eyes as he gave you a dopey smile as you squished his cheeks while giggling, “Hiii.”

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

perfect now - a close reading

only pure and true love for this one. it’s soft and sweet because the one he wrote it for is and needs cheesy uncool romcom soundtrack-worthy affirmations and it’s the most wonderful thing oh my the flurries 

some album booklet art for your viewing pleasure

((just a warning for below: while the lyric analysis was kept fairly neutral and close to the words and their meaning, more and more parallels did ensure me larrying out by the time the analysis kicked off so if you’re not into that, you can skip this one!))

⟼ check out @bluewinnerangel​ ‘s magnificent post with all the parallels to 1d/h&l bc it’s exhaustive and was a source for mine <3 thank you again for your service <3 bc this song really is a fanpiece of every song that has been important to them throughout their career so far, whether they wrote it or not, and it’s honestly kinda impressive

SUMMARY

you’re sad and i love you so much i will do anything to make that undone but while you’re sad know that i sill very much love you and you’re also strong enough to conquer all of this on your own but i’ll be by your side anyway

lyric breakdown ft. the many parallels, incl. little things, through the dark and wmyb

what this says about louis, his partner and the relationship he is in

never gonna dance again frenzy

identity 

louis is a marvellous majestic sonofabitch basically <3

walls, track 10

～ little things “you still have to squeeze into your jeans, but you’re perfect to me”

You don’t feel pretty and it’s hard to miss

You don’t feel pretty and it’s hard to miss

later lyric: “like a neon sign” - i see through you trying to hide away your insecurities

I wish that you could see my point of view As someone staring back at you

“you” is also staring at him, but perhaps is too insecure to realise how mutual the adoration is

i wish i could get you out of your own negative spiral and give you a look at yourself from my perspective

～ wmyb “everyone else in the room can see it, everyone else but you” 

～ wmyb “right now i’m looking at you and i can’t believe you don’t know you’re beautiful”

～ little things “you never love yourself half as much as I love you, and you’ll never treat yourself right darling but I want you to. If I let you know, I’m here for you, maybe you’ll love yourself like I love you”

On Friday night when we’re all out I turn to you and you’re looking down And you don’t wanna dance I know you love to dance You never stop given half the chance

heavy echoes of kmm again, but the opposite: the “nightmare on the dance floor” doesn’t want to dance

when “you” is confident rlly not being subtle with who i think that is, they love to dance <-> tpwk “feeling good in my skin, i just keep on dancing”

“i know you love to dance” = i know what you love bc i love you

“given half the chance” 

～ tpwk “giving/given second chances”

given a chance tattoo, making another appearance (see below for more tattoo meltdowns)

Just keep your head up, love, keep your head up

term of endearment <3 

～ dlibyh

this album is full of encouragement to keep going and as much as it gives me life it ruins me 

Don’t hide away, don’t ever change

“be happy, proud”

～ “just hold on”

“pick someone who’s supportive”

Keep your head up, love, keep your head up Don’t look away, don’t look away

don’t look away from me

～ through the dark “and I can see your head is held in shame”

Cause everybody’s looking at you now, my, oh my

they have the stage to themselves / new career paths they’re doing on their own

could also mean ppl they’re going out with are looking at them, which “you” interprets as sth negative, which makes them self-conscious, while they’re actually admiring them bc they steal the scene

～ wmyb “you’re turning heads when you walk through the door”

I guess some queens don’t need a crown And I know why Even when your tears are falling down Still, somehow, you’re perfect now

“you” is royalty to louis, to put it simply 

they don���t need something on their head to make it known to everyone else - they’re a queen and everyone knows it

gendered: female - also used in drag contexts - the only time L has used any gendered word to identify his partner on the entire album (more on this below)

～ steal my girl "she's been my queen since we were sixteen" can't believe i forgot this one thank you @mortalenemiestolovers for reminding me!!!

～ falling

～ through the dark “you tell me that your tears are here to stay”

You never do, but if you asked me to I’ll tell the truth lying next to you

“you” never asks for affirmations directly, but by saying shit like their pants are too tight make it clear enough to L that they do need to hear once in a while that it’s not true

Cause you’re the only one when it’s said and done You make me feel like being someone 

Good to you even at your worst

～ always you

i love you so much you are a force of life to me, and even when you hate me i want more

～ drag me down “If I didn’t have you there would be nothing left, the shell of a man who could never be his best. If I didn’t have you, I’d never see the sun. You taught me how to be someone” (sung by louis first, harry second) 

～ through the dark “even if you scream and shout, it’ll come back to you and I’ll be here for you

You steal the scene and it’s unrehearsed

reference to working on a stage - their natural presence wins everyone over - that charisma is never manufactured

Don’t you wanna dance? Just a little dance I’ll never stop given half the chance

L keeps encouraging them, will also not pass by any chance to dance with them

Every insecurity, like a neon sign, as bright as day If you knew what you were to me You would never try to hide away

“it’s hard to miss”

L sees through them trying to hide their insecurities, pretend to be strong

～ through the dark “but I know you were only hiding”

SYNTHESIS

Perfect Now is not a fan favorite and I am so not here for that discourse, so please do not pester me with negativity about this chocolate drop of a song. 

As others have pointed out, the parallels with other songs written by Louis, Harry or for One Direction are extremely present. Especially Little Things is echoed loudly, but there’s so much more to be read, as you’ve seen. These are songs that are clearly near and dear to Louis, bc he wrote them or bc performing them was special, like with Little Things and What Makes You Beautiful. A lot of the same emotions come back in Louis’s writing, so much so that you can’t help but see the larger story behind it all. Throughout Walls you can hear him singing about not giving up and holding your head high despite hardships, and if you look back at his earlier writing, it’s always been there. Through the Dark is an early and striking example of this style of Louis song: you’re sad and i love you so much i will do anything to make that undone but while you’re sad know that i sill very much love you and you’re also strong enough to conquer all of this on your own but i’ll be by your side anyway 

basically through the dark’s chorus:

Oh, I will carry you over Fire and water for your love And I will hold you closer Hope your heart is strong enough When the night is coming down on you We will find a way Through the dark

It is very clear that Louis is faced with a partner - I can freely say it’s Harry now right? are the antis gone by now? i think so - that struggles with his body, with his identity, with how he wants to present himself vs how opinions on that might push him down and dampen his spirit. Louis, always the supportive boyfriend, then tries his best to make him see the light, while keeping that space for his sadness, his struggles, or their joint struggles. Accept the sadness but don’t lose your heart to it.

I’ve linked @bluewinnerangel​ ‘s post at the start of this post, but I need to stress how good it is once more as I also shamelessly insert a screenshot from it here bc it makes me feel a lot and summarizes perfectly just how deeply Perfect Now is woven into the history of their lives, relationship and especially “you”s/Harry’s personal struggle with their identity/body/confidence...

Because yes, i absolutely think these tattoos are being echoed in the song. “Never gonna dance again” as a lyric and then as a tattoo on Harry’s legs like shackles around his ankles represents the sensation of shame, of being stuck, bc of your desires, bc of your sexuality. Obviously we can never know why Harry got the tattoo, as in what experience pushed him to choose those lyrics or what exactly he recognizes in himself, but it’s safe to say it’s about the struggles of being queer and navigating relationships with that identity and with others.

Most importantly, the sense of shamelessly dancing, dancing like no one’s watching, dancing together with your lover, as a celebration of self, life, love, is the key here. Harry got that tattoo ages ago, at a time when he undoubtedly felt way more stuck. When he couldn’t dance freely the way he wanted to and with whom he wanted to. Perfect Now is a reminder to him, an encouragement to still dance if he wants to, no matter what people say or think. Significantly, then, Harry’s own Treat People With Kindness heavily features that same sentiment, but in an extremely positive light: i have found a place (in life and in myself) where i feel like i have given and was given second chances and now i dance bc i finally feel good in my skin.

Louis has obviously been there from the start, or at least from when or before Harry properly started experimenting with/questioning how he likes to present and how he identifies as. Before he ever dared to consider pulling on a pair of women’s skinny jeans, never mind a ball gown. Louis has seen him limit himself as well as being limited by others ofc and has always seemed to have been there, with a secure hand on Harry’s back, to encourage him. Even at a time when boys wearing nail polish or skirts was unthinkable. Just remember how much encouragement Harry needed when growing out his hair; Louis literally joined him. yes this might make me cry okay i need to stop bc i’m going off track and this is just becoming a larry breakdown while i was trying to hype up this beautiful song. 

What I’m trying to say is: Louis has always seen all of Harry. He’s always had his back, no matter what. He’s loved every part of him. And now, on a completely gender neutral album, in the sweetest, softest song off of the entire thing, Louis puts in the word “queen”, and that is so very deliberate it makes me want to scream. It’s Louis confirming his love again and again while affirming the multitudes contained by Harry, including everything involving his gender journey. brb crying

It’s a raw Louis, an honest, sweet, kind, loving partner, and both of them are fucking lucky to have each other, and I also wish that all of us end up in a caring and wholesome relationship like that. I truly do.

[cantquitu]

Day 3 thoughts on 'Harry's House'

I started jotting down my thoughts in response to this ask, and found I couldn't stop. You didn't ask for this, Anon (or anyone!), so I'll put most of it under a cut.

Here are my day 3 thoughts on Harry's House...

I’m obsessed with the instrumentation on this album. It’s immaculate! In every moment there is something interesting and surprising going on, right where it should be. Not a note out of place, none of it feels indulgent, none of it feels overdone. It’s so crisp yet it never feels sterile, every chord has a warmth to it. I would love, love, love if Harry, Tom & Tyler did a breakdown of the sound … I want to know everything!

God knows I love a guitar, but I don’t miss their prominence on this album because there’s so much going on. It makes me appreciate whenever the guitars do crash into place on Daylight or the Grapejuice intro even more.

I also adore how Harry is using his voice as instrumentation throughout. All those little adlibs and yowls and screams and samples. I thought it was really interesting how Harry spoke to Zane Lowe about not focusing on being ‘a singer’ on this album. It’s true that on most songs his vocals don’t feel like the main event – there’s no vocal grandstanding, no show-off stuff.

The high, light vocals he’s using throughout give me the impression of intimacy, like we’re hearing him the way he might sound when he’s writing the songs. I could be entirely wrong, but I can imagine him singing in this light, under-stated way when he’s noodling a melody in a voice note to himself.

But I wonder if listeners who aren’t familiar with Harry’s singing style would have the same impression. In the Atlantic’s review of the album the writer spoke about him sounding detached and removed throughout, and I can see how some listeners might get that impression.

I also can’t lie, I miss his full-bodied rock-style vocals. I love the moments when he switches it up within a song, like on Satellite or Daydreaming. There are a few moments – like when Keep Driving ends and Satellite begins – when I long for him to sing old-school Harry style. But not enough to want to change the individual songs. They’re perfect as they are.  

And that’s what live shows are for! I hope he switches up his singing style for some of the songs when he plays them live and showcases that gorgeously warm-toned rasp that I love so much. If One Night Only in NY is anything to go by, the crowds at his concerts are so damn loud that this light, delicate style might not always translate.

I also feel so glad for Harry (and proud – is that weird?) that he feels free to experiment with his singing style in this way. Like, he KNOWS he has a gorgeous voice. He’s sung a million times in that full-blooded rock-tinged way. He doesn’t need to prove it to anyone. He’s exploring other ways of singing and it sounds so intuitive.

And those harmonies! I think one of my favourite things is hearing him harmonise with himself on Boyfriends and Little Freak. His understanding of how to create melody is something I’m in awe of, it seems so effortless. Can’t wait to geek out over those harmonies separated from the music if we get acappella sound files.

This is a no-skip record me. Fine Line was cohesive as an album but - and I won’t go on about it! 😊 - it had TPWK. And Canyon Moon always felt like filler to me. This album is such a groove, such a well-balanced journey, that I wouldn’t dream of switching up the order or skipping a song.

After nearly 3 days of listening on a loop, there are two categories of songs that I’m being drawn to more than others. One is the impossible-to-resist trio of bops that is Music For A Sushi Restaurant, Late Night Talking and Daydreaming. They make me so HAPPY! And then the songs that I keep hitting replay on whenever they come ‘round are Little Freak, Keep Driving and Satellite.

I don’t know if I’d say they’re my favourite tracks because I’ve had more time with As It Was and Boyfriends pre-release, so those two tracks are not as impactful now as they may be in the long-term. But these six are the songs that I’m adoring the most right now.

On the other end of the (very short) scale are Grapejuice, Love Of My Life and Cinema. Grapejuice is a lovely little tune and I love the McCartney-esque vibe, but it doesn’t really stick with me or make me want to replay it over and over. Same with Love Of My Life. A nice song, but not outstanding and to me it’s not the best closer (imagine ending on Satellite! Too similar to the ending of Fine Line perhaps?)

I’m curious to know how or if my feelings towards Cinema will change. It’ll either really start to irritate me (that “you pop” section at the end has the potential to be really annoying to me – right now I’m teetering on the edge, and once a tune or sound irritates me there’s no going back), or I’ll come to love it via the live version.

I thought Cinema sounded great at One Night Only NY - such a groove. On the record it feels a bit like, “Do we really need a Harry Styles version of this kind of track?”. Don’t get me wrong, it’s perfectly produced and the guitar is amazing. But I suppose I feel like Harry doesn’t bring anything to a groove like this that hasn’t been done by others over the decades. Also, how can I feel anything but ambivalent about a song that prominently contains the lyric “you pop when we get intimate”? 😁

And that brings me to one of the drawbacks of the album. For an insanely sexy dude, Harry writes some spectacularly unsexy lyrics. “A wet dream just dangling” is something that nobody – NOBODY – ever needs to hear him sing. The mental image it conjures, jesus 🤢 I also find “you’re getting yourself wet for me” so cringy, I just can’t buy it from Harry Styles. Nope.

These awful lyrics are mercifully few, but they are jarring little moments on songs that I otherwise adore. The opening lines of Little Freak feel so out of place to me on such a beautiful song. “Little freak, jezebel” - such an unpleasant way to start the song. I don’t know what Harry’s intention was with those lines – was it intended to be abrupt? Maybe a little risqué, or even jokey? Or was it a direct reference to something personal shared between him and the woman he is singing about? We’ll never know, because Harry will never tell us.

And that’s the thing. Harry doesn’t divulge the intention behind most of his lyrics. And without even the broadest context, we can only take these lyrics as we hear them. And how I hear this particular lyric is Harry introducing this woman, whose 'delicate point of view' he later tenderly pays homage to, as a little freak and a jezebel, ‘a wet dream just dangling’. To me, that’s a shame.

It’s the same in Keep Driving, another of my favourites. I really like this lyric overall, it’s very effective in conjuring up a twisted roadtrip with an increasingly surreal and disorienting litany of things he’s fleetingly experiencing or observing, interspersed with the cozily domestic (I love “Hash brown/egg yolk/I will always love you”). And then he drops “choke her with a sea view” and I’m like – stop right there. No.

I don’t know what compelled Harry to include that lyric but I fucking hate it. I don’t want to hear any man singing about choking a woman in an offhand manner without context. Especially a singer who resolutely leaves his lyrics up to the listener’s interpretation.

Elsewhere, I think his writing has vastly improved from his earlier songs. All that repetition on HS1 and Fine Line is gone. Songs feel fully-formed, ideas are seen through. Even on songs which have relatively minimal lyrics, like Satellite, the atmosphere is evoked in those first few lines and then the music takes over to communicate and escalate the emotion. God, I love it!

And it’s so interesting to see Harry branching out into story-telling like on Matilda. This is a perfectly-formed song, I’m not surprised that it’s resonating so strongly with so many people. In four minutes he sets up a character, develops a story and a point of view, and resolves it beautifully.

These are the types of songs that take on a life outside the songwriter and singer; that connect with listeners without the need for context or setting, that speak to the most painful parts of us and our loved ones, and offer comfort. I’m really excited to know if he’ll do more of this type of songwriting.

So – apparently, I had thoughts. I’m going to post this without re-reading and will see if anything changes in the coming weeks and months of living in Harry’s House.

[hwrryscherry]

The one where Harry and Model Y/N go undercover in the internet

characters: HARRYxMODELY/N

blurb: Harry and Model Y/N go undercover on the internet with fake accounts on TikTok and Instagram for an interview for GQ magazine on a video pre Grammys.

word count: 3.3K

HARRYxMODELY/N masterlist

author's note: HI GUYS! This is a request that I received a while ago but only finished it now because of school and all that stuff that I've told y'all a million times. Anyway, I tried my best on this request cause I think I lost my way of writing a little lol but anyway, I hope you like it and I hope that for the ones who misses Harry and Model Y/N this can be a great gift. Love y'all and thank you for the constant support and love on them💜 Stay Safe and Always remember to tpwk and that you're so golden💜💜💜

It was about 3 pm when you and Harry naturally came into the studio set on the building of GQ magazine with tender smiles on your faces covered by masks as you greeted everybody in the room in which there wasn’t many people in it. Harry was dressed in one of the many Gucci shirts he owned, with freshly washed hair that made you smell his pleasant scent from inches away just because he was wearing your favoured one and you'd always recognize it. You also detected the many rings on his fingers, including the one that you had bought for him as a 27th birthday present and by god, he was so thrilled about the ring and had a big smile on his face all day so he felt like he wanted to use it every day. Oh and how good his birthday was. You weren't able to have a party, obviously, but you still managed to celebrate somehow. In the morning, you gave him his favorite breakfast and then he, Gemma and Anne stayed on a zoom call for about an hour. You bought some yellow balloons to put in the living room just to give that birthday vibe and during the night, you had no more than four friends in your LA house, all properly protected and saved. You just ordered a few pizzas and watched some of Harry's favorite movies. It was simple but with an incredible energy, receiving a tiny group around while doing something y'all liked was everything Harry wanted most, mainly because he would have to wake up early the next day to go to the set of "Don't Worry Darling." as they were about to finish filming.

But today was another day. In earlier Febraury, the GQ magazine team reached out to your businessmen with the proposal that you and Harry would record a video together answering questions about your relationship to be published before the Grammys and after you consider whether it would be the best thing to do or not because of the many reactions you could get from it, you both agreed to do it. You’d always try to consider every little possibility when it comes to your and Harry’s relationship as the media can be very mean and disrepecftul.

Instead of Harry, you had a black miniskirt, long sleeve white blouse and a small black blazer with your Fendi plaid boots, which was Harry's personal choice for today as you’ve told him that he could chose an outfit for you to wear. You two spent a few minutes in the makeup chair doing touch-ups on your hair and makeup right before you were both ready to shoot. You walked from the makeup table to the center of the studio where you could see the crew behind the cameras and the big white background with a table and two black chairs right in the center. The table had a computer upon it only. After sitting down and having the microphones popped at you, you looked up when you heard the directors asking if you were ready and when you nod and the count is over, the camera started recording.

   ‘‘Hi, I'm Harry Styles!'’ You greeted the camera with a big smile on your face, eliciting a laugh from Harry about your unexpected "joke.". Honestly, today was a good day for both of you where you were both in an extremely good mood. Unlike the other days where you were quarantined, you were emotionally untired and in the mood to film and have a small social interaction, which is rare.

   ‘’And I'm Y/N Y/L/N!'’ Harry said joining in the joke with you and then looking at you as he waited for you to say the rest of the introductory phrase but only realizing you were smiling at the camera without saying anything.   '’Y/N!'’  Harry called calmly causing you to turn your head to face him and realize he wanted you to continue instead of continuing himself.

   '’Oh sorry, I thought you were going to continue'’    You whispered conspiratorially to him before taking a deep breath and resting your hands on the table when you returned your gaze to the camera.   ‘’And we’re gonna go undercover on the internet today!!’’

   ‘’Yeah, I'm scared!'’  Harry said when opening the laptop that was over the table and turning it on. You sat back in your chair so that you could see the laptop screen clearly and smirked a little when you heard your boyfriend's words.

   ‘’Hm... Let's do TikTok!'’   Harry said after a few seconds in silence while thinking. Harry's words made you chuckle his words because you knew that Harry doesn't comprehend anything about TikTok and didn't have an account but you both would usually find yourselves in bed watching tiktoks for hours. '’Which username should we put in?'’, Harry asked without taking his eyes off the screen.

   ‘’You should be! I’ll expose all of your deepest secrets in this video'’   You said while raising your eyebrows in a playful way eliciting a laugh from Harry, one by the way, that he tried hard to sound a little desperate for people watching  '’Alright, what should we do first?’’

   ‘’Put ‘’simp4harry’’ !"  You said with a smirk on your lips as Harry let out a nasal laugh but put that username either way.

   ‘’Okay, but how did you think of that username so fast? I think it’s very creative'’  Harry asked as he finished creating the account.

   ‘’It's the username I put on everything!'’  You answered as you ran your right hand through your hair.

   ‘’Oh yes? So is this your Only Fans username?'’  Harry mockingly asked making you laugh and take your eyes off the screen and look at his face.

   ‘’No, I don't even have an account on Only Fans, for God's sake Styles'’. You answered as mockingly as he did, '’Why? You have one?'’  You asked calmly.

   ‘’No, I'm a one-woman man!'’ Harry said to cause you to smile convincingly.

   '’Can someone get me a bottle of water, please?'’ You asked gently for the people who were on the set and smiled thanking the person who brought you.

   ‘’Thank you!'’   You answered sounding a little bit shy, even though you’re a public person and listen to compliments quite often, you still don’t know how to react to them. You took a deep breath and raised your eyebrows before using your finger to point to the laptop screen as he opened your tiktok account,  ‘’I mean, I don’t even know why I’d be one of the best ones to follow since all I post on tiktok is unnecessary and stupid things that goes through my mind during the day.’’

   ‘’So inconvenient!'’  Harry whispered playfully. You two had this habit of being sassy to each other, and everyone around you was used to it. This craze started because the first time you guys hang out together in Shanghai, you just talked like you’ve known each other for years and not just five hours.

   '’I didn't drink water today, do you want me to be thirsty? I thought you loved me!'’   You used a dramatic tone when speaking before drinking a sip of water.

   ‘’I did!'’   Harry replied in a low tone finishing logging in the TikTok feed.

   ‘’What do you mean ''you did''?'’   You answered in a loud tone holding the laugh with Harry.

   ‘’Okay, focus on TikTok! Focus on TikTok!'’  Harry said with a laugh as you now brought his attention to the screen as well,  ‘’Hm, let's look at my girl's account!'’, Harry said as he typed your tiktok username in the search bar. You took a sip of the water in the bottle and put it on the table,  ‘’AND by the way, do you guys know that this woman over here was listed by The Cut as one of the best tiktokers to follow today? And I’m so proud’’

   ‘’Well, I love how you appreciate your talents, love!'’  Harry replied sarcastically with a smirk on his lips making you chuckle. He didn't like it very much when you belittled something you did, even if it was something that was really bad, he didn't like it. Not just with you though, but with all the people in the world. Harry doesn't like it when people don't recognize their worth.

   ‘’Ok, here’s the first one! I’ll be reacting to it!'’   Harry spoke in a playful tone while clicking on the video as he knew very well it was not a react video but to answer questions. Harry clicked on the first video, this time you were propped up with your face close to the camera with folded arms dubbed to the sound that was in the background. You then take the transparent glasses pulled over the beige in a matter of color that was in front of you on the table and put them under your eyes never failing to dub the song. Then you move away from the camera and can see you are wearing leggings and a sweatshirt. And then you take your Louis Vuitton Coussin PM silver bag and place it on your shoulder before the video ends   ‘’Alright, so on this video you don’t do anything else than mimicking to the song.’’

   ‘’No, but like, seriously!'’   You complemented. '’We’ll watch some of them, and you’ll see how silly they are!

   ‘’I know that’s why I said that it stupid!'’   You exclaimed as you crossed your arms on the table. ‘’Let’s see the comments'’   You, yourself clicked on the comments area with your hand before Harry did and observed as comments poped up.

   ‘’Ok so the user @username1 asked ‘’How does it feel being the coolest person ever’’, tell me Y/N, how does it feel like?'’  Harry asked with a smirk to you as he turned his head to encounter your face with raised eyebrows.

   ‘’Oh, it feels so nice!'’ You responded in a playful tone causing both of you to laugh at your conviction, even though you knew it was a teasing tone and not narcissistic  ‘’Everybody knows I’m like, the coolest person alive so...'’  You convincingly said running your hand through a few strands of your hair and then take a deep breath and put a lock of hair behind your ear.   ‘’No, I’m just kidding. I’m not cool everyday, honestly there are days that I’m the most annoying person ever so I definetely have my good and bad days.’’

   ‘’Oh and those annoying moments'’   Harry said in an ironic tone, letting out a dramatic sigh causing you to frown and slightly open your mouth as an offense while holding your laughter as you exclaimed a loud '' excuse me?’‘ as an answer. Harry returned his attention to the comments on the screen again and frowned and brought his face slightly closer to the screen to read   ‘’Okay so @username2 asked ‘’new trend: are you engaged?’’. No guys are not. We’ve never been engaged.’’

   ‘’I feel like we’ve been engaged since 2017!'’   You said sarcastically remembering all the rumors about engagement, babies and dating. Since the first time you has met there were rumors, thousands of them, all the time but you and Harry chose not to comment on them as it would just be a big waste of time.

   ‘’Exactly and we weren’t even dating in 2017!'’  Harry complemented by looking away from the camera at his nodded face. '’But anyway...’’   Harry said taking a deep breath  '’I love how random your tiktok actually is!’’

"I know! I am planning a whole video to film on Grammys day because I'm in love with my outfit and i’m so excited for it!" You said changing the subject but being excited about the idea. After the announcement of nominations and with all the excitement you felt for Harry, you agreed you would attend the Grammys together; it was something important because not only was he running for three awards but also because you never attended any events side by side, except at the 2019 Met Gala. Then the pressures would increase but Harry knew it would be so much easier if he had you there with him. Because whether or not he took the awards home, he knew you were there and he would be grateful for at least being nominated for sure.

"Wait, which outfit did you pick? " Harry asked as he left the tiktok site on the laptop and entered Instagram. Harry selected searched for the hashtag of both of your names as a ship name on the explorer, so it would be easier to find what both of you wanted. "You showed me three different outfits but didn’t told me which one you chose!"

"Oh, I choose the black Prada one!"  You answered calmly. Harry stopped using the laptop and turned his head quickly to face his face causing you to look surprised and confused at him due to your reaction. It was his favorite outfit from the three that you had shown to him. "What?I wanna look great before you win your first award and I start ugly crying."

"Oh my god, you’re probably more excited than me." Harry said turning his attention back to the laptop screen.

"Of course I am, I cannot wait to walk around telling people that my boyfriend is not only a three times grammy nominated but a grammy winner!" You answered as you grabbed the water bottle that you had previously asked and drinking a sip.

"Anyway, let’s see!" Harry said as he started searching through the hashtag posts, also drawing his attention to the same screen. You then see a post that catches your eye and points it so that Harry can click. The post was a picture of Harry on the Met Gala carpet with ‘’Harry pierced his own ear for the Met Gala with a needle’’ written on it. "Ok, that’s true! But, now ask me why I had to pierce my own ear?!"  He asked ironically, as if he were playing a trick on you, because he knew very well you had a mini argument that day since you refused to pierce his ear with the fricking needle.

"I told you I wouldn’t do it! Do you even have any idea of how dangerous that was?"  You replied right after rolling your eyes, but your tone of voice remained calm and you didn't get heated when you spoke. "You know you need to sterilize, right? And what if you had caught an infection? Do you really think I was going to do that? You're an adult. I can't stop you, but I wasn't going to pierce your ear."

"Hey, hey, hey!" He said causing you to stop talking and look at him. Harry raised his eyebrows and looked at you with a smirk before speaking. "The thing is: I really wanted to pierce my ear, and we wear finishing getting ready in New York. I asked Y/N if she had a needle. Neither her and Alessandro wanted to do it. Literally no one wanted to do it but I was very much decided so I did it myself and my ear is completely fine by the way" Harry said the last part making you roll your eyes again while looking at the camera and take a deep breath.

"Anyway..." You said as you dived back into the posts. In one of them you read someone saying in a comment that you and Harry would probably never fight. "Here, this one says ‘’I feel like they’re the type of couple that never fights and when they do, the fight lasts for 30 seconds’’".

"Absolutely untrue!" Harry said almost that immidiately while you nodded agreeing with him.

"Guys, every couple in the world argues. It’s natural, it’s not because we don’t have big arguments and talk shit about each other on the internet that we don’t have conflicts or understatement" You explained. You and Harry are really compatible, but you still have your moments and it’s important to recognize it. No relationship is perfect and disagreeing on things is absolutely understandable.

"Yeah, specially ‘cause we’re different people that come from different places and had different experiences. As long as the disagreements are not causing you serious mental and emotional harm is normal" Harry complemented your thought. It’s important to notice when a relationship is not making you feel good anymore. If your unhappy for any reason is important to leave and to search for help if needed. "See, if you could change anything in our relationship, what would it be?" Harry asked making you pay attention to his words and face as you thought attentively in silence for a few seconds.

"I think I would probably change the fact that we’re usually really far away from each other!" You said calmly while looking at him. "Like, you’re always travelling and so I am, so I feel like it can get hard sometimes because of that and I’d definitely would change that if I could do it without like, changing our whole careers and lives."

"Yeah, I’d probably change that as well!" Harry agreed nodding to you as he was thinking as well. "I’m very grateful for quarantine on that point because we could spend more time together without being so long apart from each other. Of course I wish it was on different situations but I’m grateful for that" Harry said and you could understand that completely. You and Harry had been dating since 2018 and had spend months apart from each other and only you both truly knew how hard it could get sometimes, specially when you had the whole world to judge both of you.

"I fully understand it! Sometimes I think about everyone who spent this past year alone, and I’m really grateful for having you with me...LIke, you’re my best friend, you know this" You said looking at Harry’s face. He had a growing tender smile on his face that was starting to make you nervous and emotional on the same time as you remembered the past year. You felt your eyes getting wet and let out a chuckle looking away from his gaze. "I’m getting emotional! It’s all about my cancer rising today!"

"Oh sure, it’s always zodiac’s fault!" Harry said laughing and then looking at the screen and the crew on the backstage while gesturing with his hands. "That’s probably one thing about Y/N that you guys don’t know. She fully believes on zodiac signs and those stuffs. Actually, there was one time when she told me that we couldn’t be together because our signs were incompatible."

"Okay but like, Harry is an Aquarius and I’m a Taurus. We are incompatible when it comes to zodiac signs!" You said between giggles as you tried justifying your point even though Harry knew you were joking when you said that to him. He didn’t know at the time though he was very much surprised and scared when you said it.

"But anyway, I’m glad that we spend this time together. It’s been weird and funny at the same time like the spaghetti day!" Harry said holding his giggles as he watched your eyes widen because you knew exactly what he was talking about.

"NO, we're not talking about this!" You talked fastly while laughing at the same time as Harry as you both remembered that one night in quarantine when a spaghetti night went completely wrong and he came on the kitchen to see you and a kitchen with spaghetti and tomato sauce all over the floor and the walls and how you cried to convince him to clean the whole kitchen alone and failed. "Ok, let's finish the video here before things are leaked!" You said giggling.

"Alright, this was very nice. Thank you GQ for having us and I hope we weren't the worst guests you've ever had!" Harry said joking even though you both knew that it was quite hard to be very open in the media specially about your relationship but you tried your hardest.

"Don't forget to watch Harry peform on Grammys on sunday!" You said.

[shakemyassfortomriddle]

spotify masterlist!!!

requests

UPDATED 11/28 here’s all my spotify playlists that apply to super specific scenarios, organized by folders with basic descriptions:

1. what it feels like to date:

john mulaney: what i think it would be like to be in a somewhat healthy relationship with him while he battles sobriety; soft, chill songs with some angst

bill hader: what i think it would be like to be dating him with a frowned-upon age gap; angsty, yet bad-bitch inducing songs

pete davidson: what i think it would be like to be in a toxic relationship with the king of staten island; angst, angst, and more angst

draco malfoy: what i think it would be like to be in a toxic relationship with our slytherin king; angst, angst, and more angst

andy samberg: what i think it would be like to date nice guy/soft boy samberg; super soft lovey songs mixed with the lonely island ofc

any man over 40: what i think it would be like to date one of the many members of the hot men over 40 club in general; little bit angsty but in a good way

steve harrington: stranger things vibes, pov you’re nancy wheeler

IN PROGRESS edward cullen: what i think it would be like to date a vampire bad boy that hates everyone except you

2. movies/shows:

the perks of being a wallflower plot in songs: if perks had a soundtrack it’d be this; suggestion: listen to this playlist NOT on shuffle

charlie’s mixtape: the mixtape he makes for his friends straight from the book

that 70′s show: POV you’re in the front seat of the vista cruiser (just about all the songs featured in that 70′s show handpicked by yours truly)

IN PROGRESS kinda 10 things I hate about you: kat stratford’s morning commute

IN PROGRESS the good place: what i think eleanor shellstrop was listening to in the series finale of the good place

3. mild angst:

laying in a lawn chair on the moon: songs i listen to when i miss the person i used to be

POV you’re the angsty main character: picture the soundtrack playing on a loop in rue’s head from euphoria

spiraling while driving: songs I blast in my car at 12 am with the windows down when I have a perfect view of the NYC skyline while spiraling

living in a dark academia novel: POV you’re running through a castle at dusk in a dress while searching for your lover

4. very specific hyperfixations

freaking out: based around freaks by surf curse. all have similar guitar/rock-ish vibes

TPWK: based around harry styles songs and the feeling i got when listening to golden for the first time. good enough lyrics  to jam to and good enough music to have as background songs :)

5. don’t think

sing me to sleep: idk how to explain this one but i feel like it’s what’s playing on a loop in charlie’s head from perks

walking on mars: variation of my chill playlist featuring bob dylan, arctic monkeys, etc

march 21st: songs that remind me of the first day of spring

stuck in the elevator for an hour: songs you don’t have to pay attention to to know they’re good

the music in the background feels like winning the lottery: songs i listen to with my eyes closed

5. chill:

3am in an empty airport: listening to your airpods as you’re walking through an empty airport late at night thinking everyone you make eye contact with is in love with you

chaotic neutral: similar to laying in a lawn chair on the moon except now you’re on earth

chill: very basic chill songs

6. misc:

dancing in the kitchen: throwbacks, musicals and jams for dancing in the kitchen in an oversized T-shirt with a mug of wine

driving around in a very specific order: you literally need a map to navigate this. mellow indie - punk pop - 5sos/1d - pitbull - 2000s  r&b - throwbacks - disney - musicals - queen - corpse - bo burnham - arctic monkeys - harry styles - doja cat - euphoria soundtrack - zayn - taylor swift

songs my air band would play: dare i say pretty self explanatory

IN PROGRESS grab me a beer from the garage: songs on a dads playlist

throwback

kid cudi to one direction pipeline: no matter what i WILL turn everything back to one direction

no THIS is the wallow: better than spotify themselves baby

👴🏻👴🏻👴🏻👴🏻👴🏻👴🏻👴🏻👴🏻👴🏻👴🏻👴🏻👴🏻👴🏻👴🏻👴🏻👴🏻👴🏻👴🏻

-follow my spotify for more

-drop your Spotify users if you want to be mutuals!

-let me know if y’all have any requests I’m always down to make some more playlists

P.S. if you think the playlists aren’t long it’s just because i was trying to get a lot out, i will be adding to them semi-consistently

tagging people without their consent based on their response to my last post ;) @levenin-dupapillon @xoxogxmbino @epicemneat @fangirling-throughlife @imcryingbuckets @tiredlegoispansexual (did andy samberg just 4 u) @nesthadevils @hermosawellbeokay @tickety-boo-houseplant @ultimateswag4ever @awkwardprotagonist

[suesheroll]

what you said about fine line already feeling like a concept album, i agree so bad!! I think it just lacked the official designation but... just add Vol. 1, Vol. 2, Vol. 3 etc to every track and you got yourself a cutesie little trip about learning to love yourself and the other until the big TPWK/Fine Line conclusion <3

Ok first of all. AAAAAAAAAAAA MY FIRST ASKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Ok I’m done

no I’m not.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

ok now I’m done

YESSS it doesn’t have the titles but its definitely arranged as one. The stunt song haters are gonna come for me but even Cherry fits so perfectly. When you’re falling in love with someone new, thoughts of your ex dont magically disappear (here the ex could signify anything you’re hung up on even if it isn’t a person and it may well be a person idfk) but what sets those thoughts apart is the level of adoration for the new person. Like in Cherry he says, does he take you walking round his parents gallery but in sunflower vol 6 he goes ive got your face hung up high in the gallery. So you take the ex to art but the new person is art. And all of this is mindless drivel, I will understand if you don’t want to associate with me anymore. 😀

[bluewinnerangel]

Last update: may 14 2021

Edit: So these are pretty much my favorite posts I made from the beginning of 2021 up until then ^ and since I’ve made a ton more but just havent found the will to gather them together with something like this again. Still I’ll keep a link to this one on my page, but it’s not getting updated woop. Anyway:

Favs:

Larry’s Grandpa aesthetic. A large very not serious collection that displays how they’re sharing a very specific vibe. This thing is one big meme but is also important, highly recommend.

Larry Loves Laurels - masterpost/timeline of times laurels (meaning of the name “larry”) showed up in their clothing or elsewhere.

Louis’ synced Walls to Harry’s Lights Up music videos. The parallels are known but lining them up hurts is gonna hurt your brain on a whole new level. Poor editors. 

Body/sign language

Louis and Harry knowing sign language masterpost

Louis’ Nose Tap when he’s not telling the truth masterpost

Larry’s Grandpa aesthetic euh I guess this is a masterpost (it’s just really... unhinged)

Just a few Harry behaviors that look like Louis - let’s add this here too (not mine) - or this

Related to sign language, the theory that Louis’ common hand gesture might mean “H”

Lyric analyses / Song parallels

Masterpost here

Music video parallels

Louis’ Walls + Harry’s Lights Up (literally 2 halves of the same whole)

^ + Harry’s TPWK

^ + Liam Gallagher’s Wall of Glass and/or Oasis (as part of Larry+LG masterpost)

(not larry) Zayn’s Still Got Time + One Direction’s Take Me Home tour intro video

More gayvinci code chaos

Larry Loves Laurels - masterpost

Larry Loves Liam Gallagher - masterpost

Larry Loves Fibonacci

Same old shit, different year - 6 times Louis and/or Harry aggressively larried 1, 2, 3, or even 10 years after some other larrying on that same date.

Louis finding some boss level chaos cap and posting it on instagram

When they just decided to bluegreen at the same time

The Harry’s being geniuses with grammy outfits - How Harry & Harry Lambert might have used inverted colors to create opposite looks

Larry Loves Papillon - links to papillon posts (effectively a masterpost)

Harry loves clothing named Louis/look 28

They both love to oioiii

Debunking 28 sept 2013 - but that doesn’t even matter because harry ran with it anyway

This thing about them using *** **

(mainly 2015) aggressive displays of larry:

Louis subtly shading Taylor in 2015 and Harry treating it like a love letter 

When Louis yelled for help to stop Harry from serenading him during 18 and Liam hilariously obliged (september 28, 2015)

That same day Harry was an unhinged mess including the above and 3 more examples.

Harry definitely saying “Lou” instead of “You”

That time Harry had no control at the 2014 ARIAS - from all angles

That other time Harry had no control during an interview when Louis started mumbling in French

This collective realisation about L acting like a cat on James Corden

Just misc things I guess what is this mess who knows

I I HAVE A HAYLOR MASTER-MASTERPOST

The actual reference painting of Harry’s ship tattoo

Not mine just wanna have a link to this piece of art

Oh just Harry making Louis laugh and then getting all shy about it, or: a real life Jim Halpert.

This thing about the SOTT cover and bjs

Harry said “George Michael” - not much of a post I just feel like this will come back in the faith in the future

This dumbass post about Louis wearing skull shirts that i do have more to say about but.. one day (or not).

What even is this band - 1D chaos gifs

some tags I use (these tags don’t work on mobile and I don’t get why yay): 

gayvinci code - “this lil shit did this on purpose didn’t he” type of mess.

aggressive larrying - literal aggressive displays of affection or very loud larryvinci’ing.

smart things with lyrics

welikeparallels

if only there was a name for them together - just larry being one morphed entity behaving the same

Watermelon sugar WHY - Staring at Louis’ face hours

This is a mermaid - Staring at Harry’s face hours

dancing in the street - them looking like david bowie and/or mick jagger <3

FL - tag for lyric analyses of songs on Fine Line or somehow link to them

/endofmess

[sunflowervolrry]

Traitor

HELLO HOTTIES‼️ I’m sorry I was gone for so long, I’ve been trying to get through school but today was my last day so let’s hope I post more:) anyways this is rushed I was bored and wanted to write, this is about the song traitor off of Olivia rodrigos new album sour. I’ve been listening to this all week it’s so good, so I decided why not use a personal experience to write🕺 so this is about falling in love with your best friend or someone close to you and you both have feelings for each other but never labeled it but the other person ex comes back and ruins it all:) I recommend listening to traitor while reading this and then listing to all of sour if you haven’t. I have read this so if there’s spelling errors I’m sorry, also please be nice I’m still new to this and I don’t usually write. So tpwk and enjoy it, I love you and kiss for you all<3

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This picture has nothing to do with the story he’s just so pretty

Anyways

I sat down at the piano, ready to write about the breakup I just went through. Can you call something a breakup if you weren't even together? I don't know.

I wasn't going to originally write about him, we swore to each other we wouldn't but when he released falling i knew what i had to do. So now I'm at the piano with so many lyrics flying around in my head.

I start humming a tune i like and then i start “Green guilty eyes and little white lies yeah, i played dumb, but i always knew that you talked to her, maybe did even worse” i pause for a second thinking “I kept quiet so i could keep you and ain’t it funny how you ran to her the second we called it quits”

I lay in my bed scrolling through twitter seeing pictures of him and her together, it's been two weeks. How could he do this to me, he promised. I feel my eyes start to burn as I turn off my phone and turn on my back to stare at the ceiling.

I shake the memory away and continue “ and ain't it funny how you said you were friends now it sure as hell don’t look like it” i looked down to stop myself from crying “you betrayed me and i know that you'll never feel sorry for the way i hurt, yeah” how could he? “ you talked to her when we were together loved you at your worst”

I pause my show as i hear knocking from my front door, i get up to open it to see harry standing in the rain crying

“Harry what the hell are you doing?! You're gonna catch a cold, come on ``I pull him inside as he takes off his shoes shaking, I go grab him a towel before putting extra clothes and a blanket in the dryer to warm up for him.

“H, why are you crying? What's wrong bub?” he gently takes the towel from me sending me a small smile “she broke up with me y/n” his voice cracks looking down

I pull him into a hug “oh my god H im so sorry, you don't deserve that” i say softly rubbing his back

“I loved her y/n, why would she do this? What did I do wrong?” he says crying

“You did nothing wrong bub, you couldn't have done anything to stop this. She didn't deserve you ``I tell him, running my hands through his curls “Do you wanna go shower while i make dinner? We can watch friends after” i smile

He smiles against my neck “that would be nice, thank you” he lifts his head kissing my forehead “always know how to make me feel better” i smile softly “i'll always be here H”

He stands there for a second thinking before he leans in and kisses me, i stand there confused for a moment but return the kiss. He pulls away “i've been wanting to do that for a while” he whispers “me too” i smile

I shake my head “but that didn't matter it took you two weeks to go off and date her guess you didn't cheat but you're still a traitor” i wipe a tear away thinking of more to sing

“Now you bring her around just to shut me down show her off like shes a new trophy”

I walk into the studio ready to help write fine line as I turn the corner. I see her sitting in his lap laughing at something he said. I stand there thinking if I should leave. I see Sarah walk in noticing me so I can't leave now. She smiles at me so i walk over to her sitting down before harry starts talking “i was thinking about a song called watermelon sugar, thought about it last night” he smiles as i hear her giggle next to him

“Maybe we could start on canyon moon” i suggest, he doesn't even look at me “I think watermelon sugar is good, canyon moon isn't really that good” she turns to me and smiles “but last week H said we could continue canyon moon” i turn to harry

“I think watermelon sugar would be good” he says looking down as i look at him shocked, did he just ignore me? I feel sarah squeeze my arm “canyon moon is my favorite so far” she whispers smiling “thank you, sarah” i smile

“And i know if you were true there's no damn way that you could fall in love with somebody that quickly ain't it funny all the twisted games all the questions you used to avoid” I stop for a moment thinking “ain't it funny remember when i brought her up and you told me i was paranoid”

“Me too,” I smile “but what about her?” I asked him “what about her?” he says “don't be paranoid, we’re never getting back together” he says rubbing my sides “promise?” i stick my pinky out “i promise” he smiles before locking pinkies with me

“You betrayed me and I know that you'll never feel sorry for the way I hurt, yeah. You talked to her when we were together loved you at your worst but that didn't matter” I wipe my eyes “it took you two weeks to go off and date her guess you didn't cheat but your still a traitor” i play the piano a little before continuing “god, i wish that you had thought this through before i went and fell in love with you, when she’s sleeping in the bed we made don't you dare forget about the way you betrayed me” i look down at my hands moving “cause i know that you'll never feel sorry for the way i hurt, yeah you talked to her when we were together you gave me your word but that didn't matter” i sing repeating some lyrics “it took you two weeks to go off and dater her guess you didn't cheat but you're still” i stopped singing so i wouldn't cry “you're still a traitor yeah, you're still a traitor” i slow down the piano “god, i wish that you had thought this through before i went and fell in love with you” i sing softly before sitting there staring at the keys.

[bxtchforstyles]

She

Harry Styles x doctor!Meredith

(part of the hey doctor mini series)

How Meredith got involved in the writing process of one of the many songs on the Fine Line album

Warning: none

Word count: ~1.1k

gif not mine

“So, you want to hear what I have?”

It was late at night, almost one in the morning. Meredith had just gotten home from work a couple of hours ago after her day at the office had run longer than usual.

Harry waited on her for dinner, and now, ever since they had finished dinner, they have been sitting in the living room. While Meredith watched, Harry sat at the piano.

“Of course.” Meredith responded, looking up from her laptop. Harry was still sitting at the piano hours later, sitting in the living room of his house, where his girlfriend had been listening to him play the same chords over and over again, trying to get it perfect.

Before he played through, he brought his legs to the other side of the piano bench in order to look at her.

“So obviously, this isn’t very good at the moment, but this is sort of the start of a new era for me and my music, and I really want to show that in this album.”

Meredith nodded before smiling, “so there is going to be an album?”

Harry had been battling with the idea of making another album for quite a few months now. Ever since he realized he and Meredith's relationship had gotten fairly serious, he had been rethinking whether he wanted to continue putting new music out or not.

It was clearly difficult for him, because he knew that with making a new album, came lots of questions of said album.

Including who it’s about.

Love songs were his thing, likely many other singer-songwriters, and now that the couple had been dating for almost a year and a half, it was safe to say that he had a fair amount of things to write about.

Their relationship was extremely private to the public, which was mostly because of her job.

Meredith worked as a family physician at a local doctors office, and took her profession very seriously.

If people, especially young teenage girls, found out that she was dating one of the top male singers, it could definitely put a dent in her reputation.

Harry laughed lightly at her question,“Yes, there will be a new album.” Meredith claps in excitement, “But every single song that I put on this album, will be approved by you.”

“Oh, Harry-” she stuttered in return, not really knowing what to say. “You don’t have to do that for me. You know what’s best and I am not going to stop you from releasing what you want.”

“I want to make sure you are comfortable with anything that I say about you and our relationship.”

“Babe, this is your story.” his girlfriend emphasize, “tell it how you want it to be told.”

He grabs her hand, pulling her up from where she was sitting and tugs her onto his lap.

“There would be no story to tell if you weren’t in it.” He says, using this same tone that Meredith had used moments ago.

“Every single second I’m with you feels like I just flipped a page. You have taught me love like no other, and I want everyone to hear that the way I want them to, but also without breaching your privacy.”

The tears that were flooding the girl’s eyes had slowly begun falling down her cheeks as she smiled at him lovingly.

He placed his large palm against her pretty jaw, the pad of his thumb wiping a tear away before he kissed her forehead.

“I love you.” He told her as he pulled his lips away.

He was smiling at Meredith as she choked out, “I love you too.” she then laid her head against his shoulder, “so much.”

“Okay, do you actually want to hear the song now, or not?” He laughed, pushing a piece of hair out of her face.

“Let’s hear what you got.”

His fingers began lightly tracing the keys of the piano before he began singing softly, “nine in the morning, a man drops his kids off at school.”

Meredith scooted off of his lap, opting to sit on the bench next to him instead as he continued. “And he's thinking of you, like all of us do.”

Harry stopped playing, halting what he was singing. “I feel like I need there to be another set of lyrics here, because I already have the chorus written, I just need something to blend it together better.”

“Wait,” Meredith places her hand lightly on one of the keys, “Play the last little set of chords one more time.” He did.

her eyebrows furrow for a moment, trying to think of possibilities for lyrics. “What are you thinking?” Her boyfriend questioned.

“I know I’m not a songwriter or anything,” Harry didn’t care. “But what if you did something like ‘sends his assistant for coffee in the afternoon..’” She trailed off as she stared at the pictures that were sitting on the mantle of the fireplace.

He sang under his breath softly, “Sends his assistant for coffee in the afternoon,” He paused after repeating her lyrics, then he looked up at the clock, seeing the time. “Around one thirty two.”

Suddenly all of the insecurities hit Meredith at once, “I don’t know, maybe it sounds stupid. You don’t have to use it, I was just throwing around different idea-”

He cut her off, “I like it.” Her eyes shot open and he just chuckled at the expression. “Then the chorus goes, ‘She, she lives in daydreams with me.”

She liked it, a lot.

“It sounds good bub.” Then Meredith began to get up from the bench, “It’s getting a little late though, why don’t we head to bed?”

“No, no, I just want to show you the rest of the chorus really quick,” He swiftly grabbed her hand, pulling her back to her sitting position.

“She's the first one that I see.” He gave me a small smirk, making me blush. “And I don't know why, I don't know who she is.”

When the brown haired boy finally scooted the bench away from the piano, signaling he would be going to bed soon, Y/N was still sitting on the same bench.

“It’s really good, babe.”

He grabbed his phone off of the coffee table before grinning at her. “Thank you, love.”

Thank you for all of the love! Please like and REBLOG if you like this series (more to come) TPWK- xoxo hails<3

[harrysdimples]

I am well aware @hawards and I have long since passed the point of no return in terms of clownery but I trust and believe in our clownery this time because I want to believe it’s true <3

soooo.....kid harpoon, harry’s close friend and main producer on fine line, recently followed real world studios in bath, aka peter gabriel’s studio where tbsl was created and much of where fine line (the album) was recorded, which you can read more about here

now, as some of you may know, kid and tyler johnston (harry’s other main producer and collaborator) were rumoured to be in bath near the real world studios back in 2020 before the filming of dwd began. tyler also previously posted snippets of lights up and the recording process that none of us noticed until the song came out 😭

well, my good friend juls @hawards pointed out that tyler, recently posted about being away from his partner on valentine’s day (lol peep the tpwk merch)

well....we were curious (and yes, this is where it gets a little crackhead and.....yeah 😭) so looked up what real world studios looks like, which you can view here if you want to.

essentially, the blind/shutter thingies are the same, as are these vents within the main studio (which is also featured in the behind the scenes shots in the fine line booklet)

now this could all be a big coincidence and we very well could be clowning, but it is interesting that two of harry’s main producers have interacted with one of the major studios used for fine line recently. this goes alongside harry using the shangri la studio (another prominent studio used for fine line) for his jingle bell ball performance with the free nationals, and the rumours that a new musical project could be coming sooner rather than later. harry has been writing since march 2020 and even before that....makes you think 👀

[blueprint-han]

on top of the world ↠ hhj.

genre: royal au; fluff inspired by a fucking barbie movie leave me alone okay

⇥ warnings: if having a ballroom dance with hyunjin is a warning, then <3, district names are randomly chosen, not meant in reference to SKZ !!

wc: 1.5 K

⇥ disclaimer: this fiction does not aim to represent the activities of the real Hwang Hyunjin, nor does it represent JYPE in any form. Events are pure fiction. ♡

type: drabble.

taglist: @stayverse @districtninewriters @inkidz​ @sunoo-luvs 

part of: the url drabble game; requested by @tpwkjerii​ (requests for this are closed now!)

↯ note: dghwey i had literally no idea what to write for your url, so i searched up the full form of “tpwk” and ended up with “treat people with kindness”. I developed it into an idea i already had. Tell me if you like it <33 ⇥ dawn.☀️

↯ note 2: oh... i cannot... write fantasy for the life in me. ⇥ dawn.☀️

“Ladies, all in line.” The instructor clapped her hand, signaling all the princess and lady royals to line up in front of her. You quickly scrambled out of where you were seated, almost doubling over your heels as you tried to wobble your way to the line. 

Oh curse those heels. They were gonna be the reason you crashed headfirst into the floor one day, you were sure. They were those typical pointy, magenta colored pumps that only an expert in poise could pull of properly. Your uniform didn’t help either, layers and layers of clothing — topped of with a jacket, which meant you would be sweating buckets if it weren’t for the air conditioning.

Gosh, you hated being the princess and heir to the next throne. Why couldn’t you just lounge in the courtroom in your sweats and sneakers? They were more fashionable anyway. When your mom had told you that you were gonna attend “Royal Training School”, you’d pictured horse riding in the lush green stables, elegant dinners with rich silverware, and most of all — just having some time away from the royal castle, just having some time for yourself and having fun in that time.

Well, you were in for a huge mess.

It’d been only a week since you attended this place, and you hated it. The place woke you up at 5 a.m., shoved breakfast (which was mostly a piece of “high gluten” bread) to your hands and then took you ballroom dancing. So your day was terrible from the beginning already. There was no horseback riding, no sword fighting, because according to your parents — “princesses didn’t do fights”. Seemed superstitious to you, someone with a forward thinking mind, but what could you do?

Too dazed in your thoughts, your foot slipped and you lurched forward. You yelped loudly, but before you could catch the attention of the class or feel the polished marble against your face, a hand wrapped around your waist, ceasing your fall and holding you mid-air.

“You okay, princess?”

You snapped back into attention, eyes meeting with your classmates, all of them having a shocked look on their faces, and some of them anger. Turning around, you were surprised to gaze into hazel brown eyes that seemed to draw you in without reserve.

“Um..., princess?”

“Ah, yes!” You snapped out of it once again, straightening up as you smoothened the fabric of your shirt. “T-Thank you.” You took once glance at his face, and... wow. He was absolutely ethereal. His golden locks of hair fell perfectly over his temples, he adorned a majestic black suit and by just looking at him, he exuded confidence.

He giggled. “It’s alright, princess. Glad you aren’t hurt.”

“Oh, that-”

“Ahem!” The both of you looked to the side, noticing now how the entire class, along with the instructor were giving you snobby glares. “If you’re done chit chatting, can we start out class, Princess Y/N and Prince Hyunjin?”

Hyunjin. That was a pretty name.

You noticed that there was another line of men, wearing similar attire like Hyunjin, lined up in front of the princesses. “They must be from another academy,” Silent thoughts flooded your mind as you took your place, and your eyes went wide when you found yourself face to face with the Hyunjin guy again, though there was a reasonable distance between the both of you.

“Now, royals.” The instructor chimed, clacking her heels against the surface as she waltzed to the edge of the room. “You’ve been practicing ballroom dancing with yourselves for a while now, so The Head and me decided that it would be a good idea for you to get a little peek of what the actual thing looks like.” She said uninterestedly, picking at the underside of the nails as she started the music.

Immediately, slow, melodious music flooded through the speakers as you looked at one another. and then at the guy in front of you... err, Hyunjin. “You’ve already been partnered up, so get started.”

Your mouth dropped open a bit when you realised what the instructor’s statement meant, almost panicking when all the girls next to you bowed down gracefully, coaxing you to follow the same. Hyunjin did the signature “bow down and lend a hand” pose like his other classmates, and you hesitantly straightened up, lending a hand to him.

Immediately, just like how confident he looked, he pulled you close to himself, settling his hands on your hips as a smirk graced his features.

Ah... so he’d noticed you blushing.

You didn’t know why you were blushing in the first place. You’d never met this person before, but something about him just made the giddy schoolgirl in you bubble up to the surface. You shyly settled your hands on his shoulders, moving along to the beat with his motions... and silently praying your ant’s worth of dancing knowledge would not fuck this up.

“So, should we do the introductions?”

“What?” You asked, almost stumbling on your feet once again. You made a mental reminder to burn the current pair of heels you were sporting.

“Don’t you introduce yourself to the person you’re dancing with?” he heaved a laugh, almost melting at how adorably bashful you were getting in his hold. You were about to mumble a response, but then stopped, gathered your confidence, and smiled sweetly.

“Oh well then, I’m Princess Y/N from District 8; honor to meet you.” You said in a sing song voice, muffling a laugh as Hyunjin twirled you around in his hold and pulled you back. The velvet coat was soft under your touch, and for some odd reason, you wondered how his soft-lookin hair would feel under your palm.

“I’m Prince Hyunjin from District 10; equally honored to meet you,” He tilted his head to the side and you noticed him bite his lip for a second. Brushing it off, you continued swaying to the music, feeling slightly more at ease now.

“How’s school here, princess Y/N? You enjoying?” His tone was respectful, almost like he was talking to a friend he met after many years,

“Nah,” You rolled your eyes, making Hyunjin look at you like a confused puppy, waiting for you to explain. Hyunjin wasn’t used to someone hearing they disliked royal training, especially when he’d found it nothing but enjoying.

“It’s just the same old. “Oh go to ballroom, learn to balance books on your head, walk with grace, eat your food elegantly, dance again. sleep early!” Your voice was a hushed whisper, yet mocking. “You’d think that’s what I should’ve expected, but I wanted to learn sword fighting, horse riding, that kind of stuff. They barely let us outdoors here.” You tsked, watching as Hyunjin bit his lip again.

“What?” You asked, figuring that Hyunjin knew you’d noticed his action.

He chuckled. “Your stepping on my toes.”

“Oh crap I am?” You looed down, pulling your feet farther away from his as an apology crawled up your tongue, but before you could shoot it out, Hyunjin stopped you. “It’s okay.”

“Maybe I’ll step on yours and we’ll get even?” He winked, a smug look on is face as he waited for your reply. The music was basically forgotten at his point, both f you lost in a world where nobody else existed, just you, your thoughts, your words, and your giggles. You mirrored his playful expression. “I’d like to see you try.”

Hyunjin didn’t break eye contact, and you felt a small flutter in your chest when he did so. He lifted his foot, but you were too quick, you moved your foot away the moment he settled his own down, and then for revenge, you stepped on his foot once again.

“Ouch!” Hyunjin shrieked, and thanks to the loud music. no one could hear him. You hadn’t stomped too hard thankfully, but Hyunjin’s cute expression when he crinkled his nose sent you into a spiral of giggles.

“Hey! You’re supposed to treat people with kindness” He pouted, twirling you around once again as he led you to the next spot in the ballroom. Your feet basically slid around at this point, and you didn’t even mind your heels.

“Yeah? That’s what you get for trying to step on a princess’ toes.” You rested your head against his shoulder, muffling your giggles as well as calming your heart at the sudden sprut of confidence.

Hyunjin’s grip on your waist tightened, making you straighten up, faint heat dusting your cheeks. The dance was almost coming to an end, and you wished it could go on forever. You hadn’t had such fun in a while, but unfortunately, Hyunjin didn’t belong to this academy. Sadly, the dance would come to an end.

“Maybe I can teach you horse riding?” Hyunjin inquired, a curious glint in his eyes as he watched your reaction. You gasped in shock.

“Y-you’d be willing to do that?”

“Of course, if you’re up for it.”

“How will we even do that?”

“I mean, you can’t tell me you haven’t sneaked out of the premises at night.”

You remained silent.

“Thought so.” Hyunjin winked again. “So, what do you say?”

You twirled around one more time, moving slightly closer to him when you came back this time. The next moment, the music stopped, and you murmured to him with a smirk pulled at your lips.

“I’d be on top of the world.”

↯ note: 🕯️ ignore me this is just a small prayer that tumblr doesn’t make me battle the tags yet again 🕯️ may the tumblr gods be in my favor atleast this once ;-; 🕯️ ⇥ dawn.☀️