#the audhd coded ever

[stormcloudsandshadows]

Having so many thoughts about papyrus and how the fandom at large doesn’t get him. If you even care

[anachilles]

so glad someone else is onboard with the (i surely must assume) autistic buck cleven grindset ive been too afraid to post about it but it lives in my brain. something about the way he processes emotions is so intrinsically autistic to me its insane. im certain it was not intended that way but my god its there when you look for it. the toothpicks. the way he's misaligned with conventional society because he doesnt like 'normal' things like drinking and dancing. hes so inexplicably autism coded and its going to kill me

[ref: this post here]

oh, i’ve been on board, baby! and i’ll stay on board! i’m captianing the ship if needs be!

totally agree with everything you’ve said. when i find myself identifying in some way with a character and how they process/deal with emotions and how they conduct themselves in the world they live in, i feel like that automatically raises question marks in my mind lmao.

cool catch on the toothpick thing tho! i so see that now that you’ve brought it up.

[fushiglow]

i know everyone else has moved on but i just wanna say that 236 was huge for those of us who headcanon autistic gojo

[lee-the-yeen]

EDIT: I have been informed that Piraka was just a cuss word, not a slur, whoopsie daisy

[punkeropercyjackson]

An aspect of Hobie as an afropunk character that isn't talked about and appreciated enough(or ever really)is how humanized he is.So often punk male characters are stuckup white boys with consent issues and no real street cred due to whitewashing of punk culture as an inherently black scene per our history but Hobie's afropunk and he ain't no oreo.He's darkskin,his nose and lips are so big,his eyes are far apart,his brow is strong,he has wicks which are one of the most frowned upon hairstyles on black folks despite how nice they are,he's 6'5,he's ACTUALLY tall dark and handsome and they went nuts with him and i'm eternally impressed with how beautiful he is not 'inspite' of his blackness like is often potrayed but because of his blackness

Hobie is so open and softhearted and fun and he plays it into his beliefs and actions,not contradicting them as a sort of gag,he's multifaced and his personality traits overlap and contrast all at once.That's what people are like in real life but very rarely is that nuanse allowed to exist in black people as we aren't seen as,well,people.Hobie isn't demonized or made it to need to be put on a leash for hating authority and beating up bigots and even killing a cop.He's light as a role model for it.He's cringe sometimes,he does underaged drinking,he makes ridicilous facial expressions nonstop,he's got a big ego even if it's justified,he's a dad friend,he's an adultified black kids allegory,his personal(official)playlist is all actual punk songs,not Avril or Fob or P!atd,he loves the sea enough as a jamaican-english kid he choose a houseboat as his residense back when he was homeless,a concept art had him have a cat charm on his Watch,he plays guitar and uses it as a weapon,he's trans unlabeled and a black femme,he's definitely ptsd and audhd and never learned how to mask as so many black autistics people don't

And this is gonna be controversial but the implied romance with Gwen was a wonderful addition to his character.Gwen is punk too,she's canonically pastel punk and a trans girl and as trauma induced mentally ill and no masking game audhd-coded as Hobie is and their dynamic is symbolism for the intertwienment between blackness and transfeminism in punk history and a show of solidarity between different yet fundamentally similar aspects of punk and they get to bond over being troubled but good kids and punks and Gwen is so enamored with Hobie she can't help but yap about him to Miles and steal his clothes in a classic girlfriend move and flirt back when he initiates it despite how flustered she gets and the non-sexual intimacy of her living with him part time just the two of them and we know it's the non-sexual kind since them hooking up is what society expects of teenagers in love but punks don't care about conforming for normies and Hobie went out of his way to make reverse racism real on Gwen's abusive dad's ass and even forced him to leave her his love note.They're so important to eachother and the only thing stopping Ghostpunk from being the absolute perfect ship is the Spiderverse crew dropping the ball by not making Gwen a half white afrolatina(she is to me though.imma do my own thing)

Hobie Browns exists all over our existense and always have.He's the black punk kids from the 1970s,he's the black punk kids of today,he's the black punk kids i'm friends with and have pseudo-adopted as my younger siblings/kids as an older afrosolarpunk and them lacking positive adult figures in their lives so i do my best to give them what they need and want,he's ME when i was 17 and we're still so alike.I don't give two shits if i sound like a fucking geek,he genuinely means so much to me and i love him with my entire heart and soul and he would've changed my life as a lonely anarchistic afro-caribbean kid who felt like the bad guy no matter what i did or how hard i tried to be good and i'm so happy i can be what i didn't get to have to my honorary younger siblings/kids and help strangers and do all i can to fight to change the system,that i can be like Hobie and that Hobie is like Hobie instead of palpable to nonblacks

[siffrin-enthusiast]

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more information (including about the music) is below the cut but. the tldr is that i'm a happily taken bodily white 19 year old, auDHD disabled transmasc traumagenic DID system currently fixated on in stars and time, ultrakill, and nbc’s hannibal. word salad i know /silly. i go by kuiper and he/they pronouns :)

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[trash-and-trash-accessories]

I know for a fact Dale Gribble is nurodivergant (I personally beleive autism and adhd), but I also know for certain that Hank Hill has undiagnosed autism. Just look at the man, his love for propane is a special interest if I ever saw one. There are more reasons I believe this, but I don't want to type all that so I'm gonna ask you to take my word as a autistic, and fellow King of the Hill enjoyer.

Hi. Yes, Dale Gribble has AuDHD FOR SURE. He is also asexual or at least mostly asexual in my opinion and fine with his marriage arrangement with Nancy in which there is little, if any, sex.

Hank is like, a typical presentation of autism. He has a rigid moral code, doesn't understand a lot of social nuances, and has a long-term special interest. He is an autistic icon.

The show demonstrates a wide variety of neurotypes. We have Hank and Dale, autistic icons. There's Kahn, who is canonical bipolar, Bill who frankly should just transition already, and the show even explores PTSD through Cotton.

[bettathanyou]

Presenting...‼️‼️

Bettathanyou's

Cedric The Sorcerer Masterlist!!✨🔮🪄

It's been looooong overdue, y'all. Let's not waste any more time, shall we?

The masterlist will be organized from the most recent fics to my oldest! (so forgive the horrid formatting/dips in writing quality towards the bottom ^^;)

Edit: hey y'all! Gonna be coding fics/headcanons with sensitive content in red! All trigger Warnings will be listed on the post itself! Take care friends <33

Edit two: hey again! I will be coding all headcanon posts in green!

Edit Three: Wow, so many edits! All sexual/NSFW five will be coded in purple!

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🔮Checkmate: Roland and Cedric (platonic) play chess together, a short drabble.

🔮 Take a Hint: (Oblivious) Cedric x Y/N Reader fic, who has a crush!

🔮The Aftermath of Being A Hero- Cedric X Reader fic, taking place after the events of @shychick-52's fic on AO3 called "The Master Wand." Taking care of Cedric and his injuries trope!

🔮AuDHD Cedric Headcanon/Analysis List, With Autistic S/O- my headcanons of audhd Cedric behaviors as well as him witn an autistic s/o!

🔮The Choices That Make Us: Part One, Part Two, Final Part- A collection of short drabbles that delve into the darker parts of Cedric's psyche, with him contemplating whether his life is worth living.

🔮Come To My Senses- Cedric x Reader Hurt/Comfort

🔮An Absurd Idea, Isn't It?- Cedric x Fem!Reader talk about having children

🔮Show Me How To Live With You (Part 1; pt 2 discontinued) - Cedric x Dragon!Shapeshifter Reader

🔮Raspberry Tea And You- Cedric x AFAB!Reader with period cramps

🔮Nightmares And Late Night Talks- Cedric x Reader who has a nightmare

🔮Dance With Me- Cedric x Reader Attend The Wassalia ball together

🔮Cedric Means, "Loved"- Cedric x Reader Meeting His Parents (for the first time, actually wholesome I promise lol)

🔮Old Books, A New Face- Cedric x Shy Librarian Reader

🔮Cedric, The Doctor- Cedric x Reader Who Gets Injured

🔮An Old Friend, A New Lover- Cedric x Sorceress Reader From Another Kingdom

🔮Babysitter Blues, Part 1 Part 2 Part 3- Cedric x Reader who babysits Calista, but things get... complicated, once calista turns herself into a baby by accident.

🔮Cedric The Sorcerer Relationship Headcanons (old list) (includes nsfw)

🔮THE FIRST FIC IVE EVER WROTE (do yourself a favor and don't read this- its bad and the font is hard to read. but I also can't stop you from reading it anyways LOL, but you can't say I didn't warn you.)

🔮Cedric General Headcanons (old list)

🔮Cedric x Siren Reader Headcanons!

🔮Child Cedric After "The Incident"- Headcanon/what if post

[luxwazhere]

Jack Skellington Headcannons

Warnings/Notes :: Y/N parts but mostly just hcs for Jack in general, can technically be read as platonic or romantic but very much implied to be platonic (for the Y/N parts), implied Jack x Sally

• Just. What a silly sweet little fellow he is.

• He's definitely that friend you can always count on for stuff— mentally and physically

• Really protective of his friends— mf literally killed someone to save his wife ?! (...and sandy claws) Good for him (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)♡

• ^ He'd ask "are you ok?" If he sensed the TINNIEST bit of sadness from you (he's just like me fr)

• ^ Probably would ask it too much- like:

Y/N: Oh my lord Jack. So theres this REALLY annoying kid down the street and they-

Jack: "OH NO ARE YOU OKAY?? DID THEY HURT YOU?? I HAVE SKELETON THEMED BAND-AIDS DO YOU NEED ONE?? DID THEY HURT YOU PHYSICALLY? EMOTIONALLY?-

Y/N: I was just gonna say that they took my pack of gum- I left it on a ledge, left for like two seconds, came back and saw them run off with it.

Jack: Oh. Uhhh I'LL GET YOU GUM!!!

*sprints out of the house to the store*

• So, y'know how Jack is heavily AuDhd coded? I feel like at town meetings he'd play with fidget toys to help him actually focus <3 (he's just like me fr part 2)

• His favorite past time is watching movies. (Horror or Disney movies)

• ^ He'd definitely watch them with Sally as a date <3

• ^ Probably would fall asleep halfway through the movie— this usually results in Sally having to carry him to his bed. (Don't worry, he's as light as a feather. I mean, have you SEEN his build?! It looks like I could snap him in half with a quick kick LMFAO)

• Jack would wear pronoun pins and encourage others to do so as well <3

• He'd do Sally's hair for her :(( /pos

• ^ Dude probably knows how to do so many hairstyles because of her

• At the end of the day, he's like the nicest perso- I mean, skeleton- ever <33

[preyduo]

if you like doomed siblings who only have eachother watch/read asoue. rant underneath the cut

- you dont have to wait for it to get good because it immediately gets to the point

- there are books so if you prefer reading over watching theyre fucking amazing, i read the shit out of them when younger and can confirm that they are still the best book series ive ever read

- speaking of which the book covers are beautiful, which obviously isnt mandatory for a good book but just LOOK AT THEM!! (theres more than this but these r my personal favorites..)

- theres not a bunch of romance so if ur romance repulsed or just dont like that stuff u dont have to really worry about that

- kids who are intelligent and not in the stereotypical "oh this guy is annoying" type of way (this was my favorite thing about asoue growing up because im audhd and seeing main characters around my age that were like me made me feel more seen and less alone)

- really funny disguises. not going to spoil it but just really funny disguises

- heavily coded + canon queer characters

- idk if this is the case for everyone, but if ur in an abusive/toxic home it helped/helps me distract myself and focus on the characters problems instead of getting absorbed in mine. also helped me get out of the mindset that i have it worse than everyone else

- banger intro (in my opinion, apparently some people hate it but younger me was singing that shit LOUD)

- MORALLY GREY CHARACTERS!! god i love morally grey characters

its genuinely SOOO good, both the show and books. i dont recommend the movie but some people like it.. if u watch it and enjoy it u should send me an ask about why u liked it because i personally dont see the appeal but im open to opinions!! :3

[maverick-prime]

watching gravity falls as an adult is a religious experience i swear. so many more jokes land, the foreshadowing is SO clear, every nuance in the characters’ personalities and portrayals is written in bright neon lights

every time i see stan interacting with dipper i can see stan struggling to separate dipper’s obsession with the weirdness of gravity falls from ford’s obsession with it. it becomes so much clearer once you hit season 2 and stan and dipper have established a deeper connection, not to mention finally knowing what stan’s up to under the shack. he sees so much of ford in dipper and wants to protect him the way he never could protect his twin

and dipper and mabel!!!! UGH i’m so obsessed with them. as i kid i adored dipper and i can see as an adult now it’s because he’s so trans and audhd coded… and mabel is also sooo audhd coded too… their bond is also just so special and unique. they would do anything for each other

this show is just so good and i’m so glad it’s experiencing a resurgence. it’s a timeless masterpiece in so many ways and it deserves every ounce of recognition it’s ever gotten. can’t wait to read the book of bill <3

[scarriestmarlowe]

my dndads2 main pcs nd npcs lineup! left to right (mildly obvi) is linc, scary, normal, taylor, hermie, and dood!

zooms as well as minor details and headcanons downstairs.

LINCOLN

bisexual

mozambican

i themed him after purple because i relate grant to red and marco to blue!

i honestly don't quite have a reason for why i made his soccer number 15. i did google it though, and apparently, it indicates a major turn, as well as relationships and love. crazy how that shook out, huh?

he's autistic, special interest in soccer (ofc)

he's got a major crush on taylor!

favorite bands are tv girl, the cranberries, and of course, olivia rodrigo. also maybe taylor swift the woman not taylor swift not that one

SCARY

genderfluid lesbian, she/he/bat pronouns, oscilates wildly between high femme and stone butch in a way i find inspirational!

north indian!

of course themed her pink, it's her favorite color, gotta love it.

adhd girlie <33 as well as HPD. never seen a boy with more hpd than shes got!

cute little crush on erica. erica has one on her as well.

her favorite bands are type o negative, kittie, and evanescence

NORMAL

ambiguosly queer, and transmasc!!

mex/italian/irish, i just forgot to add that hes irish

i themed him brown because i consider his mom like. beige. and i think he takes a lot after his mom just a more saturated, extreme version imo.

of COURSE, hermie and dood crushes. gotta love it. hes polyamorous and disastrous and fighting for his life.

his favorite bands are all obviously, big band and school band versions of any song ever, one i can't write the name of because it's not got any kind of letters.

dependent personality disorder is just. GOD hes so dpd coded.

autistic with a teeny special interest, and adhd.

TAYLOR

intersex, also ambiguosly queer, nebulously trans.

chinese + native hawaiian (on his mum's side)

autistic, anime special interest, adhd and npd coded. my sweet sweet npd boy. its so obvious. hes got it. his dads got it. his granddads got it. his great granddads got it. if youre a streep/close/foster/swift boy then chances are you've got npd

i themed him orange just cause honestly? i was originally gonna go for red but i was gonna theme hermie all red and then i just didnt like that for him. taylor fucking swift (not that one) is orange coded and i cant explain why.

he also has a little nerdboy crush on linc theyre both terrible with it.

shocking nobody, weezer, viagra boys, and system of a down.

HERMIE

also intersex, and omnisexual

half chinese half scam

autistic with a theatre special interest.

crush on normal. hates that hes got it.

i themed him after grey because hes just all things merged to me in my soul. i nearly made him rainbow then almost threw up at the idea of coloring that.

his favorite bands...cor, i think i'd call him a listener of...gosh, david bowie, pansy division, and glass animals. also duh, musical theatre.

DOODLER

pansexual and agender

nebulously eldritch

audhd king

crush on normal...maybe baby platonic crushes on the others as well, but major romantic crush on normal

i themed him after white! i originally planned to build him as purple themed, then black themed, then screwed with him a light more, and ended up going into white and lovin it.

listens to everything, but his favorite bands are laughter, and music, and love

[lady-loveluck]

grace hcs since i’m writing/portraying her:

- despite her love for theology, she has a huge passion for the hatchetfield folklore and paranormal. you are gonna tell me that this girl who knew everything about the waylon place isn’t absolutely in love with it?

- the waylon place, she wanted to be her own place at some point. she was hoping mark ( mr chastity ) never would sell it so she could take it for herself.

- bi!grace and trying to juggle internalized biphobia and also she is demi. i do not care, she is on the aspec, she told me HERSELF!!!!!

- her favorite color has always been blue, specifically baby blue. she’s enjoyed it her whole life and as much as she didn’t like the color coded shirts at camp idonwannabang, she wore the pink ones regardless.

- she likes experimenting with hair styles. she has so, so many hairclips because of this.

- she doesn’t like makeup on herself; the most she’s ever done was a glittery clear nailpolish or a faint baby pink polish. she would give lipgloss a try but the texture is GROSS!

- audhd but undiagnosed because the chastity’s believed she didn’t have anything wrong with her.

— 💌🐚

OH I love that she's fan of paranormal stuff here! I can see that, is very her! She tries to justify herself that she likes it in a "for research purposes" way and not a "satanic" way.

I love Grace sm thanks for these hcs

[punkeropercyjackson]

Percy Jackson has tgirl swag

Potrayed as the best hero ever in-universe because she defies traditional manhood and it's just who she is and can't help being which doubles as autistic/audhd with no masking ability coding and irl transfeminism and autism largely overlap

Nonstop abused by men her whole life and a mama's girl who's friends were all girls growing up except an effeminate boy she stood up for against bullies and has a magic mental link with from how close they are in completely platonic friendship and a canon gay boy who had a crush on her until he realized she's not the ideal man he thought she was and she compared her treatment of him to acting like a/her mom and they have the middle brother/eldest daughter dynamic

Wears hoodies all the time

Dad is Poseidon-the sea has a lot of femininity to it and he told her 'the sea does not like to be restrained'

Punk but subculturally instead of an aesthetic poser

Gender envy towards Thalia and Annabeth,who is punk in lifestyle AND aesthetic and who is described as 'like a princess'(Poseidon is the king of Atlantis so Percy is an actual princess)

Thalia has tgirl swag too and Annabeth is played by Leah Jeffries in the show while Book!Percy is black-coded

Dated Rachel,a girlypop neurotic activist artist,but they broke up on good terms and became even closer friends afterwards

Horse girl with a transmasc Horse(Blackjack was a mare in Som but a stallion in TTC)

Her foil,Luke,is a physically abled allistic conventionally attractive blonde blue eyed cishet white man that constantly talked down to her about how he's more of a radicalist than her and had a harder life even though he was sheltered in a literal fantasy land for years where everybody worshipped him while Percy grew up friendless,poor,abused by her stepdad and bullied at her schools to the point she got kicked of 6 at 12 for how much of a bully beater she was and is an anarchist and intersectionalist with an overt sense of community and 11+ books worth of street cred and he was also a serial pedophile and had a lot of subtext of being into her and parallels to his relathionships with his other victims

Her other side of the same coin is Jason,an ex-wolfkid turned dorky team dad who's a paragon of positive and healthy masculininity and his arc is about creating a new self after loosing his old one everybody in his original life knows but he dosen't and they instantly became best friends with romantic chemistry out of being opposites yet the same and their friends poke fun at them for how obvious and quickly they got attached and they're black cat gf x golden retriver bf,Team Parents,hothead gf x chill bf and most popular guy x outcast girl where the girl is actually way cooler and Jason's butch ex-girlfriend said Percy is unimpressive in terms of masculinity compared to him

And Percy's other pseudo-kid(and Jason's)alongside Nico is Hazel,who's got the classic 'ressurection as a metaphor for transition' storyline and her femininity including how she acts alongside the gender presentation part is baby black transfem supreme and her life was basically a 40s version of Percy's earlier life

Loves burgers,skateboarding and cartoons

Obsessed with blue,considered a 'boy' color but it comes from her mom

Would totes have a blahaj and a strong video games interest.You see it too,right?

Men describe her as intimidating and off-putting,women describe her as enchanting and comforting(/ref to that fish meme)

Implied to want to present femininely at multiple points but dosen't reach out of fear of being ridiculed because she's 'supposed' to be male

Is the 'cool hot alt girl with a snarky bitter outside and a soft gooey inside who's the Team Mom and super capable and experienced' trope

But everybody in the fandom turns her into the 'Just Some Boy dumbass boyloser manchild' trope so they can deny she's unconventional and expectional

Named Percy.Percy isn't a greek name or a geek name,it's a girl name

[thirteenemeraldcats]

I come bearing random fic asks! 1) tell us about your current wip(s)! 2) what's your writing process like? 3) I think you mentioned you have a background in psychology — how much does that influence your writing?

Hello my beautiful friend!!

Thank you so much for sending me these! I have been sitting on this for days because I wanted to banish 'thought that i was young' from my WIPs before answering lol

1.) Now that THAT'S published (and taken most of my WIP wordcount with it *sad violin noises*) there's 3 fics I'm actively poking at, the chunkiest is a Sam-and-Jamie-BFFS-agenda-6-conversations-they-might-have-had-and-one-they-definitely-didn't which I'm pretty sure I've posted a snip of SOMEWHERE before whoops. The working title was too long for me to cope with, to the extent that it managed to override my inability to make my mind up about anything, and is now called 'i said, maybe' - a line I've gleefully pinched from Wonderwall by Oasis! I like it for this fic because *gestures at working title* BUT ALSO Wonderwall is the song Sam sings at karaoke in 1x07 'Make Rebecca Great Again' and the Manchester connection tickles me greatly!

There's a non-angsty, short-ish (I'm honestly shocked) fic that fell out of my brain nearly fully formed a couple of weeks ago (because almost everyone I knew was either talking about or having birthdays) which ALSO has a title 'because he had no say in it (no say in it at all)', which is almost definitely going to be posted next (and hopefully a LOT sooner than the time-space between 'i learned to walk while he was away' and 'thought that i was young').

The only other thing I'm actively poking at right now is in the outline stage, it is also short-ish (please PLEASE stay that way) but is back to the angst-fest that is apparently all my brain wants to spit out. It's Jamie-centric. It involves a cat :)

2.) Honestly at this point my writing process is best described as:

(sound warning)

ANYWAY

(My actual answer about my writing process is that I love planning. Very much. Stretching the dough into spaghetti is where the problem lies 🫠)

3.) I do indeed have a background in Psychology! Like any undiagnosed-in-denial-17-year-old-DUMBASS, I studied Psych right out of high school due to a combined and truly harebrained motivation of 'what IS going on up there' and 'wow I love systematically studying, analysing and mimicking human behaviour [no underlying NOTHING going on up there no siree]' and wound up with a four year degree. NOW, my background is purely theoretical, I have never been registered as/worked as a Psychologist, so I'm not violating any ethical codes by using my knowledge for evil applying my Psych training to fictional stories/characters. Because the answer to 'how much does that influence your writing' is. SO MUCH. Not necessarily intentionally, there's only one fic in the extended-mountainous-WIP-pile that's explicit about Psych stuff (I'm giving Dani Seasonal Affective Disorder whoops), but psychology is one of those fields that once you're trained in it you can't really ever un-know it. Unfortunately for me, and everyone that I meet, there's forever a predisposing/precipitating/perpetuating/protective biopsychosocial model being drawn up in my head whenever someone exhibits any kind of behaviour my forebrain finds moderately interesting. (This doesn't happen with online friends DON'T WORRY [in truth it's only because I can't physically see you all- I AM SO SORRY- I am not in control of this]).

Honestly, I think a big part of it is just that my particular brand of pattern-recognition-AuDHD has been granted auto-inserted citations and gone mad with power.

Take Jamie, beloved stress ball that he is, he has so much psycho-analysis potential that I'm forever torn between wanting to write a dissertation on the various comorbidities that could be floating around in that guy's head, having a Watsonian v Doylist argument with myself about ~artistic intentions~, having to suspend disbelief for the sake of storytelling because I've been cursed with knowledge (gleefully and enthusiastically sought out and paid for knowledge) and just wanting to enjoy the story/character as they're presented/as I'm writing it.

Applying actual Psychology to fictional characters is like trying to tie a balloon to a moving rollercoaster, for the simple fact that they're not real; their actions and motivations and reactions are scripted and rehearsed and performed.

I'm doing it anyway :)

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Saw a post that Loki fits in way better with the TVA than he ever did in Asgard, where he's just tolerated,his illusions power-set sounds a lot like masking, and has that whole reveal about being an alien/changeling. And I think this further promotes my belief that Loki is very ND-coded (strong ADHD/AuDHD vibes), given that there's multiple Loki series characters that are very autism-coded (e.g. OB, Casey, Mobius, Timely).