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the-ships-to-rule-them-all · 8 months

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the level at which people are misusing the term "Never Again" in the far left absolutely infuriates me.

"Never Again" doesn't refer to the idea of no more genocides -- unfortunately people are evil and corrupt and seek scapegoats and destruction, there were genocides in the years following the Holocaust, there were genocides 10 years ago, there are multiple genocides going on as we speak

"Never Again" means we as Jews will pay attention to the warning signs, will not mindlessly allow antisemitism to fester and take over our communities, we will fight back. it means we will be proud. it means we will not let you hate us without a word of refusal.

"Never Again" is a warning for us, it is a reminder that what happened then can happen now -- is happening now. The Far Left doesn't get to use it against us. You don't get to turn our tragedies into hate-speech and antisemitic rhetoric.

Am Yisrael Chai

#abby speaks #that fucking NYT article made me rage so much #needed to get this out #if this somehow makes you pissed at me go ahead the unfollow button is right there #I have always said that Palestinians deserve a state and I have always believed that Israel has a right to exist #the lack of knowledge at these “protests” shocks me - people don't know which river or which sea; they don't know about the hostages #free gaza from hamas #we are allowed to mourn the “protests” started before we'd even had a chance to.#I will never ever forgive or forget the people that have made mourning still feel impossible #I am not about to sit here and say that the Israeli government is blameless #however if you didn't know that 1000s of Israeli have spent the past year protesting against Netenyahu's right wing government shut up #we need actual solutions; neither Israelis nor Palestinians are going anywhere #and you guys need to start calling out the antisemitism in your movement #I have my doubts on that actually happening and you'll never see me donate to a lot of these causes again #the goy left has lost my respect and my trust and now it only has my side-eye #sorry for the rant in the tags it's been an exhausting few months

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rosekasa · 1 year

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does your body ever do a series of concerning things and you're just like interesting. im gonna pretend that didnt just happen

#that's been my life for the past few months HFHFJFJSK #gonna pretend im not losing hair nor that im getting winded walking up the stairs in my house nor that i cant lie down during the day #without feeling sleepy nor that i could literally take a nap during the day and still feel exhausted at 9pm #nope nope not my business #i do have an appt with a doctor soon though so maybe that's why im not as anxious bc it's like ahdjsk until a professional says something #not my business 🤧#THIS i can stay calm about but the prospect of not being able to finish a drawing by the time i told myself i would? immediate anxiety #♡alizeh talks♡

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armenelols · 4 months

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Yeah I've just realised it's been months since I posted or reblogged or replied to anything on here, so. Yeah. Obligatory announcement that I am still alive and well. My mind got wiped midway through exam season at the end of january and since they then I've been vibing in a stress free world where I am not worried about anything or doing anything

#no kidding #it's like someone pressed a turn off button on me #and it got stuck and you cant turn me back on #i feel like ive been floating through life in a bubble for the past few months #like #hell #since this started in the middle of exam season that would be a good example #1st half of the season: worried #2nd half of the exam season: i am gonna read an entire semester's worth of notes (several hunreds pf slides) the night before the exam and #not be worried in the slightest about passing despite not knowing anything and my brain being scrambled #currently entering exam season yet again and i literally STILL don't feel anything #no stress #no pressure #it's kinda annoying because stress and pressure are my only way of avoiding procrastination lol #but yeah ive been kinda out of it for thr last few months #same with tumblr #i lurked here at least once or twice a week but just #nope #pressing a reblog button? replying to anything or anyone? posting anything? exhausting #i dont think ive actually checked my notifications and messages in months?#sincere apologies if ive been ignoring anyone for months XD #idk how active i am gonna be in the near future but hey i am here #for the record i don't think this is burnout or anything like that? and i am not in a bad mood or anything #i am pretty good actually XD i am just not doing... literally anything unless i absolutely have to #at the last possible second because procrastination my behated #ema rambles

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pink-lemonadefairy · 1 month

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#the weather is so lovely today. it’s breezy and cool but the sun is warm so it’s not too cold or too hot out.#i wish it was like this forever.#ive been feeling so tired lately. physically n mentally & idk if its an underlying health issue or bc i haven’t been sleeping super well #the past few days i wake up in the middle of the night but im able to go back to sleep fairly quickly. but i STILL feel exhausted.#im supposed to talk about my lab results w my doc tmrw on the phone so. i hope everything is okay but tbh i wouldn’t be surprised if #something wasn’t optimal. my iron was okay last time i checked it though. sigh i just idefk anymore.#im sick of everything. im irritable for no reason. i don’t wanna do anything. like anything. i just want to rot in my bed #and even my interests are slowly slipping away from me. writing? couldn’t care less if i don’t write anything for the rest of the year tbh.#reading? i couldn’t even care to browse the shelves when we went to the bookstore the other day and it scared the shit out of me #kpop? meh.#i have a massive to do list and uni starts in a month and i have no energy. + dealing with my own brain and nonsensical thoughts on top #of that. overthinking anxiety all that super great stuff.#im also sick of putting in 110% into my relationships and getting half of it back. family friends whoever. and it makes me so sad. +#i feel like nobody even understands me. or even tries to or wants to.#im just tired #sick and tiredddddd #actually a bit sick too my throat hurts #anyways whatever #it’ll be fine i guess #i don’t want to give up but i don’t have any desire to push through im sort of just. floating. ill deal with it when i deal with it #♡ dear diary…

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natjennie · 12 days

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that's so annoying :(

#I took a gummy because I've felt like shit the past few days #my head hurts and I'm so tired #and I was really looking forward to being high #but then I just threw up #and I'm pretty sure I could taste the gummy #so I can't take a second one just in case. so I just have to wait #for it to probably not work. and now I'm nauseous and my stomach hurts #everything is pissing me off #I feel like I've been back in middle school for like the past month #everything makes me so angry and frustrated and sad all the time #I don't know what's wrong #I'm such a fuck up like. I genuinely do nothing all day #and I'm still exhausted and incapable #and fucking crying at nothing. it's so frustrating #there's only so much mindful breathing I can do before it drives me crazy too

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palamedeeznuts · 3 months

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Eyyy good luck on your thesis! Just finished mine a few weeks ago so know the struggle — you can get through this!!

Aww thank you thank you that's so sweet! I'm nearly done, last big feedback meeting this week, and after that it's finishing up the introduction and conclusion. And I guess maybe read the whole thing all in one go for the first time and fix all the glaring continuity errors!

Hope you passed! but most importantly I hope you survived the process and get to relax a bit now <3 :)

#asks #i've done SO much reading on medieval courtly sexuality in the past few months #i feel like i've been personally having sex with the knights myself #but you know they're all obsessed with my hair for some reason?#and like five different counts are coming onto me so it's all been a little exhausting #got locked up in a foreign kingdom for a while but they still got me the best window seat for the duel #and then i got to have sex right next to my slumbering and severely injured seneschal #so yknow #you win some you lose some #not a bad time altogether #can you tell im drained :)

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faaun · 9 months

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3 2 1 let's go

#ive been kinda demotivating myself from studying and stuff over the past few days bc ive just been coding and i dont rly understand my own #code or how to fix it rn so it takes hours . anyway ive been neglecting my actual uni work etc etc like bitch u have a lott of stuff to do #so many modules all in one term like get it together u cannot be slacking rn !#anyway lets do that today. i like all my modules (even the ones i didnt get to pick/cores) so its hard to focus on just 1...#ok i used an rng it came to 2 so lets do neural networks #announcing to internet so i feel more accountable. i rotted for 2 months its exhausting i need + want to do things again. esp when this ter #the modules r cute..

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antisocialxconstruct · 10 months

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#auuuughhghghg I am thinking about. The Hustle™#I understand why people gravitate toward stickers and pins and charms and zines and such #I've been mildly successful with commissions in the past but right now I'm really in the headspace of like #I can NOT be giving that much time to other people just for the added income. I'll never finish a single personal project that way :/#I would much rather dedicate a chunk of time to designing something and making it available #and just letting people have it whenever they want. and maybe the most ongoing work I need to do is weekly post office trips :|#I am serious about re-launching my enamel pins next year but I have to remake all the templates 😭#bc the original AI files are all on my old nearly-dead imac...#but also stickers. low manufacture cost low resale so maybe they move faster?#also toying with the idea of selling some of my cross stitch patterns 🤔 NOT the pomegranates.#that's probably not gonna have super wide appeal but like. I made them for myself anyway might as well let other people have em for a few $#all this because my dad may not be able to help me cover therapy costs next year :||| so that extra $500 a month has to come from SOMEWHERE #I hate capitalism I hate having to exist!! exhausting!!!!!!

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alongtidesoflight · 2 months

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#i KNOW my mental health is down the drain because i woke up panicking at 4:30am for seemingly no good reason #and that was half an hour ago and i still can't go back to sleep #and i've been feeling exhausted and on the edge about switching from this dual deal of education and job training #to a full time 8 to 5 deal #for the past 2 months #kept saying that i need a break soon or i'm gonna burn out but also kept pushing myself through daily sensory overload because #i kept telling myself that there are only a couple few weeks left of this and i can do it #and now there's exactly one week left of it all until i finally get a month off and i need to do my best to keep myself from tossing it all #out the window #because i'm worried about not being able to keep up with a full time job i now signed a three year contract for #considering this half time deal already took everything out of me #it's super frustrating because for a while there i really thought i'm on top of my shit but now i'm showing symptoms of an impending #mental breakdown and i have a month to get all of this under control somehow or i'm gonna blow my chance at a job i've been working my ass #off for the past six months to a) get it in the first place and b) earn important certificates for it #and a month is just not enough to get an appointment with a counselor who i can talk to about this #and once i'm working i'll hardly have any time left for appointments considering the insane amount of time i'll be spending commuting #to work every day because i didn't yet receive the bonus payment towards a car i was promised for my efforts here #genuinely wish i had someone i could rely on during times like these but i am basically providing for my entire environment and i just #gotta keep going somehow idk #rant #gonna try to get another half an hour of sleep in now i guess

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just-rogi · 3 months

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#I’ve been so fucking frustrated these past few weeks between insurance not covering my meds and having to jump through hoops to get my #injections and shit #but god ive been having crazy joint issues the past two weeks #yesterday I literally couldn’t get out of bed #I can’t sleep doing laundry is exhausting #I’m taking the max amount of ibuprofen my doctor prescribed and it’s not doing anything #it just hurts all the time #the weather is finally nice and I can’t do anything but lay in bed with the lights off #I had an event I had been planning for for MONTHS for pride #and at one point I had to stop and lock myself in my friends car for a half hour #just to cry because my hips and knees hurt so badly #I couldn’t even enjoy the after party because I just wanted to get home and lay down #I’m so frustrated not being able to do anything #I just want to get some relief from this shit and my meds can take up to 12 weeks to work #they were prescribed eight weeks ago but insurance denied them #because apparently they always deny immune suppressants the first time around and then approve of them to save money #I wouldn’t be in pain right now If my insurance just approved my meds in May #I can’t fucking adjust to this I was a competitive dancer I’m twenty two I don’t understand any of this #the last time I was at the rheumatologists after getting my injections I held the door for an older woman who also had arthritis #and I was all shaken up over my appointment and she was so nice but was in a lot of pain and when I said #‘I understand I’m sorry’ she just looked at me so genuinely sad and said ‘but you are so young?’ YEAH I am too young for this #I’m just so tired and so angry all the time and I’m sick of everything hurting when I’m trying to sleep #my best friend is traveling at

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greaserink · 6 months

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Holy shit, dude. Please get your rest and all that shit. Hope you get to feeling better soon. (Also sorry your boss sounds like a prick.)

Sleep has been what i've been eating, drinking and living the past few days, man. Use the time I got to my full advantage yo

#koffinrott #tom speaks #he is a right old prick #he has drastically changed his behavior towards me once i came out as lgbt to him #and told him that i hope he can forgive my nerves the first months of me working there because past few jobs i've had for being a 'woman'#He CHANGED when I told him of my past negative experiences with male coworkers at my past jobs #he has been NUTS #and has put so much on me to do that i usually have to stay 40 minutes late at work off the clock to make sure it got done #i'm so exhausted ngl #WOW vent in the tags #vent tw

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variksel · 7 months

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i feel like im talking way too much about my broken leg rn (which Is Broken Bee Tee Dubs xoxo) and its prolly annoying but my friends i cant help it i can almost start walking again and every time i think about it i genuinely kinda feel like crying lmao

#by my calculations im like. 5 weeks post surgery #which would mean next weeks physical therapy might mean letting me walk at least a little bit again #im genuinly a bit weepy about it im so fucking exhausted man! its been since the end of january!!#i have a list of things i wanna do when i can walk again man lmao every time i grab my sticks im like a few more weeks just a bit longer #vent ig sorry!#anyway @ anyone whos ever had a broken bone did yall feel the same??? like legit so anxious to get back to using ur limb???#i had a broken wrist awhile back too and idk i feel like it wasnt nearly this bad but a broken ankle feels like. thats just My Existance #for the past 2 months #anyway!#vent #positive vent #broken bone #broken ankle #tw broken bones #tw injury

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catcze · 8 months

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Dont you just. Love. When people tell you “oh I’ll be done at this time can you pick me up then?” And then. And then. They keep you waiting in the parking lot for a whole hour and dont respond to your text. And when they show up they dont even apologize 😀 like. Ha ha. Okay. I totally didnt have plans that i also had to do. I’m totally not exhausted from work. Dont worry. What the fuck.

#cw vent #// delete later #but if the roles were reversed and i was only 5 minutes late i get blown up at.#im.#fuck.#goodness im so tired. i dont care if i have to drink meds i have to have a drink or im gonna be mad the entire evening.#im so mad im not even seething i just dont feel anything right now.#ive had a shitty week. a shitty month. but my goodness this is the last straw im so exhausted.#and it sucks because !!! i judt got my hair done! i cut it short and i was really happy and felt really good.#and! i had this kbbq that ive been craving for a while! and even if i was tired from work it was looking to be okay.#but now all of that is just overshadowed by all the shit of the past few weeks piling up and im so tired and i hate everything.#and i cant feel happy from the little things that i was enjoying earlier today. the things i did to make myself happy.#fuck

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cheollipop · 10 months

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thank you so much to everyone who reblogs and leaves feedback. I'm experiencing things rn don't look at me

#panda.txt #tbh ive been struggling with writing a lot lately. and i havent been happy with how things are turning out #im hoping this is just cause life has been ass to me these past few months bc i have so much i want to write during this break #and just looking at feedback rn made me sobhappy and excited to write more for the people who have continuously shown their support #so thank you so much!!!#(ignore the typos i havent slept well since 2018 and im exhausted gn)

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alcohol-eyes · 1 year

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#2 whole weeks sobeR let’s talk abt it #this the longest I’ve gone without a crumb of weed in my system in 5 yrs and the second longest in 8 yrs #For a long long time I thought I was self medicating the adhd but turns out I was making it Significantly worse #I have an attention span now I can watch tv without scrolling on my phone or playing w fidget toys #My apartment has stayed perfectly clean for the past 2 wks #haven’t rly struggled with eating or sleeping routines are v important wit it tho #been relying heavily on safe foods I’ve eaten the same exact thing every day for 2 weeks but it’s fine #ashwagandha helps me not wanna peel my skin off in rage #time moves INSANELY slower when ur not h*gh every waking second of the day these have been the Longest 2 wks of my life #but also I have So Much more time to do things and SO much more energy to do the things #I thought being anxious and exhausted was just my constant state of being but turns out that was Also just the weed #The insane nightmares have been The hardest part but most of the time my dreams are just weird #Feeling emotions is weird I’ve cried more in the last 2 weeks than I have in the last 2 years #I cry about good things I cry about beautiful things art as a whole is just so moving #self regulating after stressful things like work or staying with my parents is definitely New as w as decompressing after socializing w ppl #I do things like paint and journal and make silly little bracelets now #Idk man it just hasn’t been as hard as I thought it would be #A few months ago me and ******** were talking about how we’d actually k word ourselves without it #turns out the jazz cabb was making my depression and anxiety so much worse than it actually is #shits literally fine #Anyways don’t let ppl tell u u can’t develop an unhealthy relationship w weed I was h*gh every waking second of my day for 5 yrs #Last time I tried this I immediately became an alcoholic instead this time I don’t even feel the desire to have a single little drink #Overall I have A Lot more self control in every single area of my life #I don’t waste my money on dumb shit I can eat normal amount of food like a normal person #The thought of buying my favorite cookies and only having like Two of them used to be such an unreasonable concept to my little brain #I don’t know if this is gonna be a permanent thing I definitely know I can’t do it habitually #just like I learned I can be normal about alcohol if I don’t keep it in my house and only do it when socializing for special occasions #anyways if ur thinking about taking a break from ur favorite substance maybe give it a try #thx for coming 2 my ted talk if u read the whole thing I luv u take care of urself

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afterdeck-ace · 1 year

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That moment when Ace demands to be written.

#they've all been so so quiet the past few months cos I'm exhausted and busy elsewhere but I know they're here they always are #and it's always such a joy when I come across something when I read something or when I have a thought about something and suddenly #there's an echo inside me and they're here and they're talking #that's why I call it #scribe life #I'm just a scribe transcribing what's happening to them #and i'm so happy about it #talking scribe

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