#therapy tomorrow is gonna be so...fun

[boonasaurusrex]

I feel like the fucking Patrick meme

"Your Specific Acronym is defined by wild swings from extreme highs to very low lows"

"Yes."

"You were diagnosed because you exhibit these behaviors."

"Yep."

"The medication you've been prescribed helps to level those swings"

"Absolutely."

"The medication has been having less of an effect recently."

"Yeah, I made an appointment to get them readjusted"

"That means the old behaviors are coming back."

"Yep, on it"

"You've been riding a strong high for the past several days"

"Uh huh"

"Which means a low is coming and is simply a symtom of The Illness"

"No actually I'm just physically repulsive and incapable of love and all of my coworkers (not friends because I can't make friends) hate me and are mocking me at every turn and I'll never make a human connection again in my life because I'm so repulsive and weird and isolated. These are intrinsic truths that have nothing to do with current events :)))))))))"

[gently-decaying-flowers]

i am going to deeply regret not eating much tomorrow

but for some reason the thought of packing my lunch makes me want to rip my skin off so i’d rather not

[orcelito]

God I don't wanna go to therapy tomorrow. Sick of talking about my feelings in a clinical setting. I do enough psychoanalysis just by myself, and now I gotta sit through it with someone else??? Come on.

[thedevotionaltour]

man. thinking about how my insurance is out of network i feel so fucked i have so much money owed in therapy bills. literally over 1k bc of my weird insurance happenings and also bc idk if insurance was even doing its thing before i dont know and just other various things im sure i've forgotten. man.

[lyriumsings]

two more sleeps until i see spiderverse

[castielafflicted]

love having triggers that deviate from the shit everyone tags for. like no theres no specific reason for this to be tagged but god i wish it was

[g0nta-g0kuhara]

Day 3 in kokichi cosplay has concluded. Tide pens are a life saver

[greppelheks]

exciting week ahead!!!!!!💖🥰🌺🌱✨

[tinypuppysoul]

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[the-acid-pear]

Phone buying update 👍 gonna have to take a fucking, moment LMAO. I have seen so many beautiful phones to buy. And I will. But I am not that fucking rich. I've been spending a lot of money lately. This is good for my health tho. I'm really excited to, actually do something with my bedroom.

One thing I kinda super want to buy despite being as expensive as a phone is this little... Phone shaped ceramic thing for rings. But I'd focus less on accessories for now more on the real thing.

I'm torn in which model to buy first. My options are that 500 model looking beauty or the baquelita model. I'm more leaning for the type 500 looking cutie. Bc he's stupid cheap. 7500 bc of a dent. There's a fixed one at 15k but do I look like a collectionist? I'm just a faggot. I don't discriminate.

I'm also gonna be wasting money tomorrow. Gotta buy silly things. (Pens, paper. Gonna start journaling).

Excited for my FETAP on Thursday tho. We opening the only fans boys /J

[steampoweredskeleton]

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Ignore

[outerspacedunce]

legitimately feel like i could disappear and it wouldn't matter much to anyone and i am tired of these feelings

[foxgirlbutt]

I think that smashing all of the bones in my leg would fix me

[alasy]

she has good intentions I know it. but it's 10pm now and although I know I didn't have a bad day, im anxious and holding back tears as if my life depends on it and i feel like i cant breathe all because of a conversation that lasted about 10 minutes on our way back home. being alive is super fun

[foolishjellyfish]

brain been through a lot lately. most recent therapy = difficult truths. important blah blah blah but I’m in that processing state and it’s lots of grumpy grump moments

[autistic-earth-genasi]

I’m doing my therapy intake this week and I don’t really know how this works but I’m thinking more and more that I should probably mention that I want to be tested for autism. I also need therapy for anxiety and depression so that’s what I was going to start with and bring up the autism later but now I’m thinking I should mention that now too because they’re probably going to end up sending me somewhere else for therapy and so it might be more complicated to get tested if I wait to bring it up. I remember watching a video of a woman explaining her diagnosis process and she said she had made this super detailed document explaining why she thought she was autistic and describing all her traits and everything and I thought that’s a good idea because I love lists and I’m really bad at explaining things when I’m nervous. So I spent the last few hours creating a list and one of the things I did was list out every special interest I’ve had through my life because they’re a huge part of my life and super intense and let me tell you taking 2 hours to make an analytical (and maybe a bit info-dump-y) list of my special interests is both the most autistic and the most fun thing I’ve ever done.