#there’s something wrong with me

[rancidsugar]

[ghuleh-recs]

“This ghoul,”

“—will tickle you,”

“—internally.”

he knows asl? amazing.

[ozzyeelz]

Gay catboys call that nyaoi

[levmada]

fav Levis from s2

[wrenwinchester]

Poem three from Lazarus Rises (amongst other things) by Berklie Novak-Stolz (@icaruspendragon)

These words have been stuck in my head the past couple days. And I hadn’t read this poem in a while. I keep the book on my nightstand, a comfort that it’s there, but most of the time it goes untouched, not because I don’t love it, I have it highlighted and marked up the wazoo. But it’s so much easier to spend my time scrolling than to do other things I really want to do.

But anyway, I’m getting off track. This poem came back to me a couple days ago when I reblogged the post about which person in tfw 2.0 would be most likely to keep a diary. (X) and I used Berks words specifically for my analysis on Dean, because they felt right. And since then these words have been floating around my brain.

I have so much to say, so much I want or need to say, but in order to do so, I would have to pry myself open, lay myself bare in front of the people I care about most. And that’s. One of if not the most scary things I can imagine. Because the fear of being rejected for opening up. For saying what I feel and being shut down or told I’m not important. Or being made to feel like I’m not important again.

Emotions are hard, and finding words to explain them is even harder for me. It should be easy to explain that I’m happy or sad or why I’m feeling how i am but they all just get stuck in my throat. Clinging to my teeth and cutting my gums and my tongue. Choking me and taking over every ounce of entire being and it’s killing me.

I can’t get the words out, and I can’t pry them from my teeth. And I don’t even know what I would say if I could. I don’t know the words hiding behind my teeth. Hidden away from the world, and if I started talking I wouldn’t be able to stop. But I can’t start.

[kocicko]

Watched Phantom Menace for the first time in a while..

I will not be perceived for the next 10 - 15 business days.

Kthx

[xxalphaclownxx]

let's commit to the mpreg bit and go full omegaverse.

fuck it, i’m already known as the mpreg guy on the intern discord, might as well dip into the omegaverse

[2high4xi]

To all my castlevania fan fiction writers…..

where.is.the,drolta.fanfiction.

WHERE IS IT?!

I swear I’m going through 5 stages of grief rn:

*enter sad alpha music*

denial:

anger:

bargaining:

depression:

acceptance:

NAH FUCK THAT. ON MY MOMMA YALL GOT ME FUCKED UP.

YOU SEE THAT WOMAN? OFC U DO.

SO WHERE.IS.THE.FANFICTION? HUH?

don’t get me wrong y’all are doing GREAT with the fan art, ok. *smooches to the artists.*

but tell me please. where is the fanfic babes?

Me onw to rizz up castlevania fanfic writers to give me some drolta headcanons or sum shit:

[kukos-satellite]

I was giggling at my silly gay men last night if you wanted to know. I was just finding some posts that were funny to have a little giggle at 🤭

[artfartt]

(Most) all the drawing requests/ideas I took from last night/today (1:00 am)

Drawing idea/request by (I put them in rows so it would be easier to look at): @oswaldepic (I kinda combined their idea with @luzzyluz’s) @ sammvnmak (on twitter) @max-the-lagomorph @parasocial-hermit (3) @mack-timelines (2) @silverlizard012 (last 2)

[nogenderonlychair]

If I had a nickel for how many times I’ve gotten obsessed with a very fruity show with not enough seasons where one of the love interests is a blond and fancy person who loves reading and usually wears a shade of yellow and/or blue and the other love interest is seen as evil and bad but is actually quite sweet and is almost always wearing black entirely, I’d have two nickels. But it’s a little weird it happened twice.

[endlessthxxghts]

Imagine if you were seeing both Javi & Joel without them knowing, but then they find out one day and decide that they need to teach you a lesson…

…Yeah…expect that some time in November…🫣

It’s already in my master list waiting to be hyperlinked for your enjoyment teheheheh..

Let’s thank @katiexpunk for planting the thought in my brain & now it’s taking over me like it’s cordyceps fr…¿por qué no los dos? 🥴

I’m also dedicating this fic when it comes out to the sluttiest person ever for Mr. Javier Peña and his yummy stache, @javierpena-inatacvest 🤭🥵

[levmada]

my favorite moments from the latter half ish of season 1 of the meow meow

[oasisofgalaxies]

Me:

Me: I miss rt :(

My brain: ???? YOU’VE BEEN WATCHING HIM NON STOP FOR A WEEK AND A HALF ?????

Me: :(

[mistymonster]

when I’ve got too many fic ideas bouncing around in my head and can’t decide which to start writing so I just sit there all night like this

[doom-bomb]

I watch this match at least 10 times a month, I love them so much