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misty-missdee · 1 year

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Thinking more on the "was always a woman" trans ideology, which is totally fine, but never fit my view of myself in my personal journey.

My unfortunate truth is that I lived 25 years fully convinced of the idea I was a "man", and I always would be simply because "thats how it is". Perhaps more accurately it never occurred to me i wished to be a woman until it finally did. Looking back with retrospect sure there were plenty of signs and hints I was transgender, but that doesn't change the fact of my history.

I was a boy, and I tried my best to be a "man". When I realized that wasn't what I wanted I then tried my best to distance myself from that entirely, because I was under the impression that thinking too much about the before times was "not doing it right". Since I personally could never feel like I was always a woman.

Once I realized i was trans i tried my best for the first several years to forget my past. Forget everything that he did. Forget everything he was. It didnt feel good or healthy, but I foolishly thought I needed to.

Thankfully I'm in a good place about it now. I am a lovely lady, but I wasn't always. I am a transgender woman. However I can't simply ignore the first quarter century of my human existence anymore. I felt like a boy, and I lived as a man.

He's very special to me now though, very personal. I wouldn't say I'm him anymore, but he is me. We are separate, but still one. He's in my heart. His experiences are mine. We share this body. I love him for everything he did for us. I cannot forget him, and his struggles. He worked far too hard to simply be forgotten. He paved our way for me to become a the woman of both our dreams.

#im feeling pretty thoughtful today #my moot whomst posted something similar defo broke the dam in my brain leading to this #i hope its something #i sometimes feel like perhaps im not as well read as some folks on here #but #these are my feelings on the matter #so #take it as it is #or do not #though do please remember this is my personal feelings about my personal body and my personal life #this wont apply to everyone #im certainly not trying to argue that #moreso echoing some of the sentiment of the other lovely lady's feelings on this matter #though if youre a girlie who feels they werent always like i do i hope that this can be something #anyways

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hinamie · 4 months

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some quick jjk eye paintings

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #megumi fushiguro #yuji itadori #nobara kugisaki #yuta okkotsu #gojo satoru #geto suguru #ryoumen sukuna #fanart #jjk fanart #tagging everyone feels like it took longer than the actual painting my god #i believe ive gone on record waxing poetic about how i love lower eyelids and how i could paint them fr hours #so i put my money where my mouth is and thats what i did today . self care :)#i had a cool idea fr gojo where i wanted to do like an abberated effect to show 2 extra sets of eyes #but god it looked cluttered and awful no matter what layer mode i put it on sdgdgjsdg #settled fr chromatic abberation on th irises :')#quickish painting but i am ! happy !#very proud also of the different eye shapes i ws able to achieve while keeping them consistently sized #was worried abt geto there fr a sec #but tbh he turned out to be one of my favs ????? surprised myself #anyway this is my love letter to eye skin <3 i love u lower eyelid folds mwah <3

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retquits · 4 months

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ms abigail stardew valley 💜

#my art #stardew valley #sdv abigail #sdv fanart #stardew fanart #art #artists on tumblr #for the anon asking abt my abi piercing hcs!!#no matter what i feel like nose piercings suit her!!#but also for ur consideration: angel fangs abi 🤲#MK/RET

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sunfoxfic · 10 months

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We were so close to smoking not being cool anymore. We were so close. Then they flavored it mango and now it's taboo to criticize it anymore. People don't ask if they're allowed to vape indoors, they aren't considerate of people who may have health problems that are triggered by the chemicals or if it just bothers them, people don't care that they're supporting an industry built on corruption and greed, they can't see it draining their pockets and much less their health. We were so close to smoking not being cool anymore.

#i hate hate HATE nicotine after watching my parents smoke when i grew up #its gross and bad for your money and bad for your health #and i get it. theres SO MANY socioeconomic factors that make it a complicated issue.#you CANT blame smokers.#but it feels like people are just accepting the institution for what it is bc now it tastes good #bitch just chew gum jfc #it doesn't matter if its an industry issue. we have seen in the past that making it “uncool” hurts the industry #make nicotine uncool again PLEASE #grumbles

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autismdeathglare · 6 months

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Ya know what shout out to butches who wrestle with our butchness because we don’t fit the mold in some way. Butches who aren’t physically strong or naturally caretaking because of physical disability, who need to be cared for, who can’t hold open the door for a femme. Butches with long hair, butches with big hair, butches who express their culture via their hair. Butches who’s masculinity is shaped by their culture, who’s masculinity doesn’t fit the white eurocentric mold. Fat butches, butches with curves viewed as feminine, butches who don’t have skinny, boyish builds. Butches who don’t want to be sexualized, butches on the ace spectrum. Butches who don’t have traditionally masculine interests or mannerisms or whatever. Effeminate butches. Butches who take inspo from gay men. Butches who like the occasional dress or skirt. TRANSFEM BUTCHES!!!!! And any other butches who don’t fit a certain mold!! All butches are good butches and we are all valid.

#I’ve wrestled with butch identity for a long time #Because I’m physically disabled and I am also Jewish and I love my hair and masculinity is Different in the Jewish community #I relate to how gay men do gender and am not traditionally masculine #I am fat and have a “mom bod” type of build #Etc etc #I have put so many standards on myself but why? I know who I am better than anyone. And I know I’m a butch!#It feels right and comfortable on every level #And that is what matters!!! Send post!#Kitty meows #Butch #Butchness #Butch lesbian #Butch identity #butch positivity

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akanemnon · 18 hours

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I don't like this place. It's turning everyone edgy and sad.

FIRST - PREVIOUS - NEXT

MASTERPOST (for the full series / FAQ / reference sheets)

#undertale #deltarune #crossover #utdr #crossover comic #twin runes comic #twin runes au #my art #art #susie deltarune #chara #this will ignite the “chara did nothing wrong” vs “chara is a murder hobo” debate I just know it #fact is they gave up everything for their plan to succeed and asriel blew it #HOWEVER they were also forced to watch asriel die and they could do nothing about it #so what does a dead child do for who knows how many years all alone with no one else to talk to?#they rethink everthying that went wrong #guilt is a weird thing that lingers and festers in your mind #no matter how much you're actually at fault #I mean come on... they were an abused kid #all they wanted was to not hurt anymore and return the love they were given no matter the cost #but now they are CONVINCED it was their plan that kickstarted this whole mess #and it's eating at them #you can see it because they actually used contractions for once #i love subtle stuff like that #also hey #susie's feeling remorse for her whole “chara offed asriel” comment #the two are more alike than she thought and now she feels bad #out of all people she should know what it's like to be falsely accused

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vintrage · 2 months

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motherless, friendless, and damned

#jon snow #game of thrones #a song of ice and fire #asoiaf #got #mine.png #in the depths of my robb feelings another very connected matter came up: jon feelings #ADDING THESE TAGS BC IM HAVIGN JON FEELINGS AGAIN!!!!!!!#specifically about the line i used for the caption bc ooooobh #jon is such a tragic boy he’s marked for death he doesn’t know who he is he doesn’t feel as though he has any true place #motherless friendless and damned oh my GOD!!!!!!!!#he wants a son named robb :-(

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meatiors · 3 months

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Proof of existence

#idk what came over me #i feel such PAIN over them #he will find him no matter what #song to listen to for this is battle in the city of shattered glass by azali #meaty art #andreil #all for the game #aftg #neil josten #andrew minyard #digital art #my art #artists on tumblr #fanart #clip studio paint

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lucabyte · 2 months

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On autonomy, and what it means to be Obliged to Help.

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#a homestuck walks into an antechamber and asks #hey is anybody going to make this dynamic wholly deterministic and thus dubiously consensual by its very nature #ANYWAY bigger ramble below. scroll down like usual #isat spoilers #isat #isat fanart #isat siffrin #isat loop #sifloop #THATS RIGHT WE'RE STILL SHIP TAGGING IT BABYYYY #in stars and time #in stars and time fanart #lucabyteart #RAMBLE START: anyway i think loop is wrong here. they have it backwards. as-- in my opinion--#the main reason they could be called back into existence postcanon is because *their* wish for help is still not complete #they still need help. siffrin still needs help. neither of them will ever stop needing help.#they will thus uphold the wish until the end of siffrin's natural lifespan.#that said. what does it mean that loop can be so wholly forced to abide by siffrin's wants?#(assuming the dagger cutscene posession is them being forced to uphold the 'help siffrin' wish via harsh universe logic)#[as opposed to something capricious and cruel the change god did. which feels out of character for the change god to me?]#much like how the island wish and duplicate objects are neutered by simply sliding off people's brains...#is loop subtly ushered toward their wish? obviously it's not a full override (see: the bossfight). but is there any interference?#and if so. so what? does it matter? if they don't notice? is it even real if they don't notice?#and even if they do notice. the universe leads we follow. how much do either of them value their free will in a belief system like that?#the whole game is dedicated to siffrin habitually NOT excersizing his free will. doing things the same Every Time.#Loop ESPECIALLY does this. predetermined predetermined predetermined even in the FACE OF CHANGE. REFUSING. ANY CHOICE.#Maybe they'd even be comforted by having a universe-ordained purpose even if it is subservient. even if its to Him.#(though. i can't see siffrin enjoying the idea that someone is subservient TO them... then all their suffering is his fault...)#loop got into this mess via WANTING too much. no more free will. can't be trusted with it. take it away from them.#but yeah. gets my greasy detective pony hands all over this. and everyone please do remember i like to make characters Outright Wrong A Lot

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somnimagus · 10 months

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My page for @sheikahzine; about Impaz's duty to her village, empty of people and full of memories.

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#legend of zelda #loz #twilight princess #loz tp #i'm still reeling that someone sent me an ask about this one.. that they took the time to find my tumblr and tell me they liked it #it really meant a lot; thank you to anyone that stops to leave comments like that. they make me happy #but yeah! here's the usual symbolism ramble:#i thought it'd be cool to have the 'spirits' flowing one way and the cats walking through them the other way #to kinda show the difference in life inhabiting the village in the past and present #link's face is covered because impaz was just waiting for 'the hero' so his clothes are what matters; not his face #and it (hopefully) gives a surreal and intangible sense to 'the hero' she could only hope would actually show up #you can feel free to interpret the glowy blue sheikah as ghosts or just as memories of the past! i couldn't decide either way #the one on the bottom left is oot impa since she's implied to be the village founder. so i guess she would be a ghost actually?#fan art #my art #project stuff #and ahhh the book-- everyone's stuff is so beautiful!!#especially the writing. some of the fics made me really tear up and some were so fun and clever. i really love them #a lot of them captured the sheer burden of the role of the sheikah; all of the time and grief and doubt #i know i always say this stuff about every project but. the people i get to work with in these are truly so skilled every time

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katetorias · 9 months

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there is something so horrible about destroying churches, or any place of worship. im not even religious. it’s about the fact that people were so devoted, put so much effort into building and decorating and just experiencing this part of their life, that they hold so important. and all that effort is taken away by a fucking bomb

I find religion beautiful, and it’s harrowing to see these things happening in PaIestine and no one cares. suddenly now no one cares about religion or the importance of religious monuments

#religious monuments are important they are beautiful they are symbols of what matters to the people who made it #they are history #rambles #I hate this #I know I’m privileged to even be talking about this from my apartment but that’s why I’m doing it anyway #it’s easy to feel powerless because I mostly am #but I’ll keep sharing every thing I can #free palestine

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hinamie · 2 months

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