#they look so happy here wahhh my heart

[killuaisaprincess]

GONKIIII

CUTE KITTY KI

[hiraethwa]

one summer day

06 saturn ii. where ushijima’s words take you by surprise. 

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pairing: ushijima wakatoshi x reader a/n: i am back from my trip now, i will be posting more regularly again, thank you for staying! i loved reading the tags on your reblogs of one summer day, they make my heart go WAHHH! my inbox is always open if you want to chat <3 - ave word count: 1.5k warnings: angst, childhood trauma, parental neglect/verbal abuse, past death of a family member

april, second year

“you don’t have to be the person in your house with me.”

since he stayed with you that night, there has been a medley of conflicting feelings swirling in you. you had felt embarrassed in the morning, but also relieved for his presence. and this burning shame in your chest whenever you see him and his eyes seem to ask, are you alright? 

you could tell he wants to ask so many questions, but he is holding himself back, waiting for you to tell him yourself. worst of all, you wanted to tell him, consequences be damned. but you were afraid he would see you differently. you don’t think you could bear the person who’s seen you at your worst decide you were not worth his time. but if you wait any longer, perhaps he would decide that anyway. 

“what i mean is, you can be yourself around me, always.” you know that. deep down, you feel it. 

“ushijima–” you start, staring down at your shoes, thinking about how to explain that day to him without trauma dumping on him. 

he corrects you, “wakatoshi”

your cheeks color, testing the way his name rolls off your tongue, “wakatoshi… i owe you an explanation…”

you decide it is easier to start from the day everything changed. so you tell him what you haven’t been able to tell any of your friends since that day eight years ago. about your sister, akiko’s death anniversary. that she passed away in an accident, and that it was your fault for leaving her outside the house when your mother tasked you to look after her. that even though eight year old you went in to get some water for the both of you playing outside, it was still your fault. that she had ran out after a stray cat and did not see the car coming. that it was your fault. 

“am i a terrible person?”

and then you hold your breath, knowing there is a possibility that he would have that accusing look in his warm brown eyes. beautiful with tiny flecks of greens and golds. you think those are your favorite features of him. and fuck, it would hurt like hell if that is the way he looks at you from now on. but you had taken a leap of faith, all you can do is hope for the best. hope that the feeling in your gut is not wrong.

“and your parents, why weren’t they around?” for their daughter’s death anniversary goes unspoken. of all the questions he could have asked, he sure did pick the most difficult one, you thought. 

“let’s just say we all cope in our own ways. akiko’s death… it changed our family for the worse. my father threw himself into work to forget about it… my mother… her grief made her meaner, colder, it changed her.” 

he gives you a concerned look, causing you to hurriedly explain that your mother is not abusive. “she’s just different than the mother i had when akiko was still here. she cared less about us, her words became sharp, like knives designed to hurt, especially when it comes to me, but she never laid a hand on us. i think her grief morphed into anger, and she never stopped blaming me for that day.”

“it isn’t your fault, you know that, right?” he grabs your wrist, turning you around to look at him. 

your next words comes out in a whisper. “i know, but if i hadn’t left her, akiko would still be here. if i had done what i was supposed to, my parents wouldn’t have lost their daughter, and we could have been happy,” your voice cracks. 

“you were a child. it wasn’t your fault. do you understand?” his strong grip on your shoulders forces you to look into his eyes. there was no judgement in them. no accusing look, no blame, only resolution. and they made you feel safe. “you cannot be blamed for your parent’s decisions, and it was their responsibility to look after their children’s well-being, not an eight year old child. your only duty was to grow up.”

an unidentifiable feeling overwhelms you, welling up tears in your eyes. what is it about me and crying in front of ushijima? you had been fine, just fine before he came along and messed up your coping system. every year before this on that day, you wouldn’t even cry, believing that all your tears had been spent when you were eight. that all you could do is feel empty and sad and self-destructive on that day while lying in your bed, staring at the ceiling until the sun comes up. 

oh gods, you were eight, and you had believed that it was your fault your family lost a sister, a daughter, and your mother let you believe it. she never let you forget it. all the hurtful words hurled at you. all the pain you swallowed and carefully locked away in a box. 

your home stopped being a home that day. 

home should feel safe. home should be a place you long to be after a long day, not somewhere you dreaded. home should feel like a warm blanket on cold winter days, not a house that is a place to eat and sleep. home should feel safe. but it doesn’t.

you had known it for a long time. but you had been running away, refusing to face the fact. that maybe if you pretended hard enough, it would all go away. all this heartbreak that you had hidden away would vanish. 

“i don’t think my mother fully forgave me for it. i don’t think she forgave herself either.” but you were only a child. and all you wanted was her love, and approval, and support, and presence in your life. 

you look up at the stars shining in the dark sky, wondering if your sister is one of the millions smiling down at you from a far away distance. “she would have been in junior high if she was still here.” you smile sadly at the stars, thinking of the life that she could have had ahead of her. all taken away in one unfortunate moment. 

“your sister would want you to be happy, to live for yourself. i think she would find solace in that.”

you turn sharply to look at ushijima. “i–i have been doing my best to survive.”

his voice turns gentle, “but not truly living.”

“have you spoken to anyone about this?”  he inquires, though you think he knows the answer.

you clench your fists, looking away, a rising feeling in your chest that you identify as discomfort. oh, he is safe, but he is not afraid to tell you the truth, no matter how much it hurts. “you’re the first.”  

no one would understand anyway. not your parents, if they even cared enough to listen to you. not your brother, who had pushed you to open up, he lost his sister that night too. 

“then you no longer carry the burden by your lonesome. live, y/n, for you and your sister.”

live. he says it like it is so easy. as if living in that house doesn’t make you gasp for breath. if only your house did not also feel like your prison. if only being alive when your sister no longer breathes does not feel like a sin. as if everyday does not feel like being trapped in the past. 

and then with excruciating realization, you admit it. “i don’t know how.” 

the recognition leaves your head spinning, and you seek the comfort that you had felt in his arms. looping your arms around his torso, you bury your head into his chest. how do i do this how do i do this how do–

“you take it day by day. one foot in front of you at a time. and you keep looking forward.” he tilts your chin up, searching your eyes. “i will be right next to you.” he promises. 

“don’t say things you don’t mean.” please don’t make promises you can’t keep.

“y/n, i only say things i mean.” you hope he sees the gratitude in your eyes. you really hope he means it. because you think you can make it, with him by your side. when you’re with ushijima, you can truly breathe. with him by your side, you can see a glimpse of your future tonight. maybe not tomorrow, not a month from now, but one day, you could be happy. 

akiko, did you send him to me? thank you. i love you. i miss you. i miss you so much. but i think i need to learn to let you go now. 

reblogs and comments are appreciated!

[sunflowervoltwentyeight]

Happy 28th! Here is my January 2024 fic rec, organized by word count, from longest to shortest. You can view my other fic recs here. Enjoy!

It's Fine To Fake It 'Til You Make It ('Til It's True) by sunflouwerhabit / @sunflouwerhabit (150k)

Harry Styles @HarryStyles_KE hi again! so, i wanted to apologize one more time for the whole “helogogjs good gksdjid” thing, and also say that i didn’t just accidentally open your DM’s when i wasn’t paying attention earlier. i sort of had a question about a tweet you posted yesterday? like. the whole “rent a boyfriend” thing? is that something you were serious about? and if so, how does one come to hire you to be their boyfriend? i’m, um, asking for a friend

*****

Harry dreads an impending visit to his hometown, where he’ll be forced to reunite with a newly engaged ex-boyfriend, a childhood best friend turned near stranger, and a family who never understood just how desperately he needed to leave.

In the midst of it all, a ludicrous Twitter proposition brings him to Louis.

(Almost) Exes-to-Lovers (Series) by nonsensedarling / @absoloutenonsense (93k)

Been Waitin' (After Weekend After Weekend After) (3k) Louis and Harry meet at a laundromat. Part 1 of (Almost) Exes-to-Lovers When the Trouble Comes (89k) The Queens Trafficking case is the biggest one of Louis’ FBI career so far; eleven reported missing girls all disappeared under a similar set of circumstances. Louis has done everything he can to try and solve this case over the last nine months… while also absolutely ruining his marriage. Harry has been co-host of Banter at Breakfast for five years, and finally has the opportunity to create his own radio show with the network. Unfortunately, it comes at a time where Harry’s thoughts are consumed with his impending divorce from his (caring, loving, infuriatingly thoughtful) husband of eight years. Harry and Louis have both been willing to lose themselves in their work… but are they willing to lose each other? * Or a story of (almost) exes-to-lovers. Part 2 of (Almost) Exes-to-Lovers

And Down the Long and Silent Street by whimsicule (86k)

The year is 1881 and if you’re alone in this world you might as well be dead, because starving dogs have no mercy.

Or: Wherein Louis and Harry are on the opposite ends of the social ladder, but their paths still cross on the filthy streets Louis calls his home. The odds are staked against them from the beginning, and even more when Louis' past finally catches up with him.

Baby Steal My Heart Away by Snowy38 (61k)

Louis headed into the hall, seeing the Moses basket right away.

"Wah-wah-wahhh!"

Was that...

Fuck.

It was. It was a baby! A loudly crying, clearly unhappy-actually properly distressed baby. It was already red in the face and--

Why was there a baby?

He looked up and around, palm flattening to his forehead to push his scruffy hair away from his clammy skin, checking he wasn't being punked.

Light Me Up, Put Me on Top by CuckooTrooke / @larrydoinglaundry (24k)

Harry takes Louis back to Northern Europe to experience his first Nordic Christmas in their beloved cabin, surrounded by nothing but peace and snow. So much snow.

Short "spin-off" to 'Love is a word, you gave it a name' universe. Takes place after the second part of the main story, but before the final epilogue.

Part 3 of love is a word, you gave it a name

No One Like You by myownspark (19k)

Dear Niall,

I was glad to have the chance to talk with you again at the AHA conference. Your idea that the Musee D’Orsay Tomlinson painting is in fact not a self-portrait is an intriguing one, and I may have discovered something that will have a bearing on that theory.

Some background: as you may remember, I’ve been researching for a book I’m writing about Harry Styles. I’ve been in communication with Styles’ last living descendant, who is in possession of a trunk that her family believed to have belonged to Styles himself. It held some personal items she presumes to be his, including two unmounted paintings and a small collection of letters.

Upon spending the last few days in Provins studying these items, I believe there to be a connection between Tomlinson and Styles, and I would very much like your opinion.

Are you up for a trip to France?

Sincerely, Liam Payne

Where Liam and Niall are art historians discovering the truth about two nineteenth century painters on opposite sides of an artistic divide.

[resident-cake-anon]

cake anon’s 2nd birthday !!

it’s officially been two years since i started this blog! i still can't believe that i've come so far with all this, but thank you all for supporting me throughout the way ;w; cakeiversary celebrations will begin tomorrow!

❦. i can't believe it's already been two years since starting this blog ugh it's really so crazy to me

❦. cake anon has been such a fun thing to be, she's a creative outlet that i've just never had before so she's just so special to me

❦. i feel myself pushing myself and my art forward more than ever simply to make the best that i possibly can for golden petals and i feel like i'm better for it :,]

❦. and omg golden petals.. what a joy it is to watch them grow

❦. there's a reason why i portray them as a music box here, i could watch them spin and dance in the palm of my hand for what feels like forever hehe

❦. also catalina von fire emblem, ruler of my heart.. i've said this before but she's taught to love a lot of aspects about myself

❦. i could even tell from drawing this cakeiversary art, last year's art i made cake anon so much paler than i actually am so ty catalina for teaching me that i don't need to whitewash myself to like how i look haha

❦. i feel like i've talked so much and haven't even mentioned all the wonderful friends i've made through cake anon wahhh i love my friends.. so much

❦. through both selfship and the fe art scuffle i've met so many talented and kind people that i'm lucky to call my friends

❦. they're the real reason why i keep this blog going and the reason it exists in the first place, so thank you all i love you guys ;v;

❦. ...and happy birthday, cake anon!

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII ARIIII IT IS IIIIII!!!!!!!!! i'm here to bombard you with the very same questions of the question game bc i really wanna hear your answers too!!!!!! so 1. your comfort characters pleaseeee pretty please andd 2. a scenario that you've replayed multiple times please pretty pretty please!!! luv u btw wait also u are 10000% that gojo cover is the most beautiful thing in the world and nobody can tell us otherwise<33333333333

- @catchuuu

MICKEY IT IS YOUUUUUUUU :33 welcome welcome!!!!!! take a seat……. here is your ari delivered pastry and drink 🍩🍵 <- some tea bc it’s late. it’s gonna help you sleep better trust !!

wahhh you’re so sweet to drop in w these…. i had a crisis answering them bc . i am …. indecisive,.,…… but i’ll try just for you :’3

1/ HHHHHHHHHHHHH what is there to say………… you already know a lot of them i think 😭😭 gojo our belovedest ALWAYS makes me happy and suguru too!!! i think gojo is a bit more of a comfort though… sugu makes me pretty sad….. ANDDD ofc kenjaku!!! my silly emotional support queercoded villain. he makes me smile :3 would also throw in nobara bc her existence feels like a warm hug. she’s my Everything. i had a crush on her when i first watched jjk and i will adore her always!!!!!

jjk aside though…… THIS is where i start getting indecisive bc i have too many fandoms to keep track of + my memory is bad :’3 but ummmm um. kunikida is my angel wife!! and reki from sk8 the infinity makes me sooo happy 🥺🥺 (you would LOVE him btw he has the brightest smile ever) ALSO NOYA FROM HQ…… and ryoji from persona 3….. and kazui from milgram… and tsukasa and emu from pj sekai……….

i could mention more but!!! i’ll finish by saying saber and archer from fate/stay night :> saber is the reason i started loving knights and archer is the sexiest man on this planet + the reason i’m into motherly men + voiced by junichi suwabe <3333 the fate series is soooo dear 2 my heart mickey…. my favorites r actually sakura and kirei but they both make me too emotional to be called comfort charas…. same w shirou……. and every single csm character too 😔 sigh .

2/ hhhh this one was . also tough……. :cc since you went w a childhood near-death experience i will do the same >:3 i was almost brutally murdered (<- grave exaggeration) by a cow when i was like . 10…. it might’ve been a bull?? i was too scared to look it in the eye 😞😞

it was raining a bunch right … and there was this lil nature reserve near my house . w a path you could walk up on a hill but also down by a river….. and it was raining sm that the whole thing was just FLOODED. you couldn’t see any of the rocks in the river…. or the grass you could walk on beside it…… so little ari decided to go down there anyway. for the sake of adventure. and i made it to the end of the path to a fence that you could jump over to get to The Normal Road Home .

BUT …. gasp ………. little ari came face to face w a bunch of cows . up on the hill. right by the fence. they were eating the grass and i was scared bc they were fucking HUGE mickey :((( i was shaking n shivering and trying to blend in w my surroundings……… carefully making my way towards the fence that they were kinda blocking.

BUT THEN …. another gasp….. suddenly i was face to face w this One cow/bull and it just stared at me. for a couple seconds. and then it ran right towards me and my childhood instincts kicked in …. so i like. ran down the hill and then back up so i could jump over the fence . and then i was ok :) but ever since that fateful day i’ve been scared of cows….. i can only admire them from afar 😔😔😔😔

hehe these were so fun to answer… ty mickey my angel <333 ALSO SO TRUE SO REAL i knew i could trust you…….. he’s so pretty!!!!!! ig we just have to bear the burden of understanding him better than anyone else …. a heavy burden but. it is what it is <//3

[animalinvestigator]

going to...answer your birthday messages!!!! i will answer all of them that i recieved that don't contain attachments under the cut...and then, after that, will answer the ones that do seperately, so as not to clog up the dash but still special thanks people who drew me gifts..... and save them forever. thnak you all so sincerely and from the bottom of my heart, everything means more to me than i could ever say and im sorry for my tardiness!! if you sent me a message...it will be replied to here.

THANK YOU SOMUCH LOUISE!!!! you are such a treasured mutual and so kind and so glad to hear from you ...very hoping your valentines treated you well :3

CASSIDY!!! :D no such thing as barely mutauls all my mutuals are treasured friends to me.. i adore your artwork too..so it means a lot to me that you would enjoy mine...i really appreciate your birthday wishes dearly...looking forward for the chance to draw your characters again this year if you do art fight again...hehe..thank you so very mcuh and i hope your day was very well also

RACHEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!! so so so happy to hear from you i smiled so widely..it was quite a good day as far as my days go.......i hope your valentines day was wonderful too...and thank you very much for the well wishes. missing you...think about you often^w^ we should catch up sometime...!!!

GWAHHH!!! THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH!!! so happy to hear from you....you are so treasured than kyou for being my mutual for so long, making so many insnaley beautiful drawings for me over the years...every year when artfight rolls around..the first thing i think of..is ill be really excited if we get to do a revenge chain again...it brings me very much joy. i love drawing your characters and just adore your artwork dearly. i hope your valentines treated you well and that you're doing well!!!! (and im so sorry for blog deletey......!!! when i saw you refollowed me after i was like...ohhh no...i poured one out........but im so glad youre still here)

CERISSSSS !!!!!! WAHHH!!! HIII :D so so happy ot hear from you...thank you so much....i hope your day was wonderful too.. and that youve been doing well... we sohuld catch up and hang out sometime soon if you feel like it..miss you and think of you often.... sending lots of love...!!!!

hello anonymous stranger..thank you so much!!! and a very happy valentines to you!!!!!!! im very very touched youd like to do that i... will be looking very much forward to it and very excited to see it!!!!! but no pressure at all....thank you so much you are so very kind. take care and enjoy your drawing tme!!!!!!

ALI!!! double dipping on the birthday wishes i see...well.. THANK YOU DOUBLY MUCH!!!!!!!! been such a joy to chat with you so much this year....looking forward to chatting more and always wishing you well,thank you for always being my reliable freind!!!!!!!!! youre wonderful >:3

THANK YOU VERY MUCH NESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you are always so very kind to me, i appreciate your support so very much...take care of yourself too!!! lots of kindness happy and love sending it your way!!!! hope youre very well as..well....yess! (also, about the other half of this ask, i agree, that version of link is so particularly lovable in my memories...though i havent played TOTK...it seems his charm from BOTW has definitely been maintained..and his design looks..very cool!!!!!!)

THANK YOU SO MUCH CLAUS!!! NEVER FEAR ITS ok to be one hour late because i am many many many hours late at answering you..but im so grateful for your birthday wish.....sneding you lots of happy energy too okay...take carethank you so dearly!!!!!!!

AND THAT SHOULD BE ALL WITHOUT ATTACHMENTS!!! thank you so very much all of you...adore you all.....thank you for making me feel so special and loved... -w-

[itzynabi]

eve being a mother of five

an: i'm not sure how much i like this but pls enjoy! feedback and reblogs are much appreciated

eve's masterlist // fanmade videos

clip one: 190519 airport

whilst some journalists are expected when the girls go to the airport, they didn't expect to be mobbed

eve could tell that yeji was uncomfortable so she stood between the journalists and her

eve, to the journalists: please back up so the members can have space to walk

some of the journalists moved back and made space so they could walk comfortably

in one of the videos captured by the media eve turned back to yeji

"are you okay, jiji? 🥺"

clip two: 190502 solo vlive

comment: you carry a big bag to music shows, what's in it?

eve: that bag is full of stuff for the members. it has blankets, jackets, books, a few makeup products, toys… basically anything to keep them entertained and that they might need

this was one of the first times midzy's got to see a glimpse of mother eve

she def went viral

clip three: yuna's graduation vlog

yuna: eve unnie made breakfast for me today. it was a special breakfast. and she gave me a congratulations card and gifts for graduating and money and said i just go out with my friends

eve is a rich girl its true

yuna: she said that she'll start helping me with learning how to drive

eve also posted on bubble about yuna's graduation and had everyone in tears 😭😭

clip four: 220516 vlive

ryubi vlive everybody cheer

they were just talking about any and everything

during the live, somebody had been calling ryujin's phone but she kept declining it

ryujin: oh my gosh, seriously!

eve: what?

ryujin showed her the phone and eve rolled her eyes

she took that phone, cleared her throat and then

eve: if you're the one that keeps calling ryujin, then stop. she doesn't want to marry you, stop being delusional

best believe she got in trouble for that

and had to issue a half-assed apology

but midzy's (and every sane kpop stan) applauded her for helping her member

safe to say the person didn't call again

clip five: 220625 solo vlive

eve: i got a car earlier this year and i'm very excited about that

comment: have you gone anywhere?

eve: i've gone to visit my parents and i let them drive it wherever they wanted, same with kibum ahjussi and i've taken the members lots of places. whenever they want to anywhere, i get to take them so i'm very happy about that

BONUS

clip: paris et itzy ep 1

they went on the boat and eve got seasick

yeji: *holding eve's hand* do you feel okay?

eve, who looks five seconds away from throwing up: i'm great! 🤠

yuna: here's water, unnie

eve smiled at her and took the water

ryujin: if you make that face, the editors won't be able to use this footage

chaeryeong: maybe try looking at the sky

the way they were trying to comfort eve and distract her from her discomfort 🥺

lia: that cloud looks like a poop!

cue the members finding shapes in the clouds

clip: weekly idol ep 450

lia: eve unnie doesn't cry easily or often

kwanghee: really?

lia: yeah. i haven't seen her cry that many times – only four times i think – but whenever i do, my heart always hurts

eunhyuk: why?

lia: i just end up thinking "how much pain is she in that she's crying?"

eunhyuk: what about tears of joy?

eve: i don't really get those. sometimes i cry when feeling an emotion, other times i can't, even if i'm feeling that same emotion

yeji: i remember one time as trainees as we were gearing up for debut–

kwanghee: before debut

yeji: –eve unnie cried bcs she was feeling stressed and overwhelmed and i didn't know what to do because i had never seen her cry and when i told lia this, she started crying because she was worried about how stressed unnie must have been

kwanghee: wow! you guys really care for each other

lia, tearing up: of course, she's our member

ryujin: now lia unnie is crying! 😯

eve hugged lia and kissed her head

eve: it's okay, juj

lia: i want unnie to be okay 🥺

eve: i'll always be okay because i have the members

eunhyuk: wahhh. you guys really care for each other

kwanghee, passing lia a tissue: they have a really strong bond

ryujin: it's our teams driving force

©️ kim nabi

[dadsbongos]

Hello!

First things first, I absolutely adore your fic, Monachopsis. Like, I can say that one is easily one of my fav fics I’ve read with Eddie and just, ugh, it’s so good. It makes me so happy and I go back to read it from time to time!

Second thing, I saw that you were open to writing for a disabled!reader and I wanted to suggest maybe a Reader who has a really noticeable disfigurement? For example, my disfigurement is that I was born without my right jaw bone, and my right ear, so my face is noticeably off center and one side looks more developed then the other. Im also blind amd deaf on my right side! Its called Goldenhar Syndrome! I’ve had a bunch of surgeries on my face and for other things so I have noticeable scars too. (Of course you dont have to go down this specific route, but I figured it would help to give an example XD)

Anyway, if you want, I’d love to see a fic where Eddie and Reader with that kind of situation, interact!

If anything, I just wanna say that I really like your interpretation of Eddie and to say again that your writing is great!

wahhh thank you so much :,(( that is so kind of you to say omg thank you for this ask, this concept was NOT leaving my skull and i found it adorable

1K words

warnings - mentions of surgery/surgical scars, hospital waiting room (idk beware nosocomephobia havers), not proofread oopsie doopsie

summary - you’re waiting to go into reconstructional surgery, and your boyfriend - Eddie - won’t stop trying to read your patient form.

…

“Can I see that?” Eddie holds his hand out, chunky rings wiggling on his fingers when you don’t immediately pass over your patient form.

“Why?”

“I wanna read it,” he pouts and leans close, you can smell the cheap cologne he last-minute sprayed on in the van outside.

“Do you not know why we’re here?” you turn to full face him on your left, head tilting, “Eddie.”

“I know!” he holds his hands up defensively, grinning wide, volume of his protest breaking the golden rule of silence in hospital waiting rooms, “I absolutely know. We’re here for your surgery,” he kisses your forehead sweetly, “You little cutie, thinking I’m a bad boyfriend.”

“Never said that,” you flip to the next page, filling out emergency contacts and home phone numbers and health insurance information.

“It was seriously implied, babe, and I don’t appreciate that.”

Eddie is practically breathing down your neck, nearly caging you against the stone blue wall on your other side. A green and white opaque glass vase sits on the darkwood table between your chair and the wall, a daisy that reminds you of the ones Eddie picks for you outside his trailer sits among roses and lilies. You see it while turning your back to your beau to avoid his piercing bambi stare.

“Babe,” he whines, cheek pressing to the back of your left shoulder, and you can still feel his eyes burn a white-hot hole through your papers, “I’m just trying to see something.”

“What?” you turn back around to face him, “What’re you trying to see, honey?”

He hesitates and a hole splices straight through your gut, and the more logical side of you knows for certain that Eddie would never - not after all his pining and hopeless romance - but something inside you lives on the fear that maybe he forgot. You want him to know, and you’re sure he does. But insecurity is pure ugliness that rides woes and waves.

“Did you forget the name of my condition?” 

Immediately, Eddie jerks back, curls waving wildly as he hurriedly shakes his head, “Not at all, baby,” your nose scrunches in the cute little way it always has when he says something ridiculous, “I’ll say it.”

“Go on,” you’re teasing now, and Eddie can feel his heart relax between his ribs. He hates when you’re upset and he always, always has.

Since you two first met in the lobby to Ms. Perkins’ speech therapy. He saw you trying to stuff yourself into the farthest gray corner, and before he could say anything, he was being called in. to discuss the trials and tribulations of his pesky stutter (honestly, it was like his brain just moved way too fast for his tongue sometimes). Before he left, though, he insisted on writing down his number for you - Wayne insisting later that people normally know the names of someone they give their number to. There was an energy about your side of the room - like the anticipation you get before a firework blasts off.

You were quiet, but he could sense thrumming - a big, loud bass smothered in the basement. And he’d be lying by saying that your little pout wasn’t adorable. That wrinkle of your nose that captures him mind, body, and soul to this day enraptured him even then.

“Goldenhair Syndrome.”

You laugh, hand flying to cover your mouth as you giggle.

“Oh, so that’s not it?” he throws his hands up, pure defeat in his muscles. He grins, enjoying the peels of your joy, “Did I say it wrong? I can spell it, probably.”

“You did say it wrong,” you fill out the final sections of your form and run it up to the receptionist, “So wrong, baby,” before sitting back in your chair, you brush a lock of his curls behind his ears and pat his cheek, just a little condescending, “Goldenhar.”

“Okay, so I got the last part wrong,” he rolls his eyes, checking the clock and noting there’s still thirty minutes until surgery, “Goldenhar. Oops.”

“Better,” you prod his arm with your nail, “What were you looking for then?”

“I was watching you write your name to see if you’d,” he snorts, more nervous than genuine in his laugh, “You know!” he twirls the skull ring around his finger, shrugging, “Hesitate and almost write an ‘M’ for your last name, it’s whatever!”

“Eds.”

“What?” he’s smitten to a point of barely even being embarrassed. He’d only find shame in it if you did.

“That’s adorable,” you take his hand, squeezing tight, and Eddie squeezes back tighter.

“Thank you, I really, really try.”

And as soon as you’re off for some reconstructional surgery - Eddie will rush off to buy you the biggest bouquet he can buy. He likes giving you the torn-root daisies as much as you enjoy receiving them, but buying flowers for you would be nice. 

“Maybe one day, I’ll actually get to write Munson, hm?”

“Oh, honey,” he excitedly turns to face you fully, eyes wide and lips pulled back so far his teeth are on display, “If you’d let me, I’d marry you right now.”

“Stop,” you swat his arm and you both giggle - neither entirely joking, though. 

There’s a soft lull. And Eddie does as he’s best at and breaks it.

“Nervous?”

“A little,” tenderly, you brush your fingertips against the collection of scars from previous surgeries, “You?”

“Why would I be nervous?”

“In case there’s an absolutely dashing doctor in there,” you like making Eddie laugh.

It was like making George Carlin - the so-called Godfather of comedy himself - laugh. Simply the funniest man you’ve ever met - and that may be bias, but you can’t be bothered to care.

“God, I hope not,” he grimaces, “Who else would I force to listen to my campaign plots?”

“Oh, whatever, Munson.”

He leans over and kisses your cheek sweetly, “Yeah, ‘whatever’. You’d be lost without my campaign plots.”

“That’s true,” you squeeze his hand again and he squeezes right back, “I’d hate it terribly.”

"Good," he nods curtly, already planning the route to the florist he saw not a block away from this hospital, "I would too, honestly."

[actualbird]

growing pains highkey BROKE ME like here i am with my heart aching over these 2 bros!! Giann basically being parentified to look after marius even though He’s A Child, he should be doing dumb teenager stuff!! And marius experiencing humongous trauma (honestly I feel like he has ptsd about the basement incident) and feeling like a huge burden… also the way in which you wrote how giann vows to never leave marius again… YEAH THAT HURT. But it was such a good fic and really filled the void where canon just doesn’t talk about it (bc present marius doesn’t wish to acknowledge it)

wahhh, thank you so much for reading "growing pains", anon, and im glad that it also gave you pains :DDD

.......i know that sounds sadistic but im just happy my intended effect got through kjvkjVKJHDVFJ

anyhoo, //shakes ur hand in von hagen brothers feels!!!!! giann and marius (and austin too) are so heartbreaking to me...between just the two of them it's this bittersweet cycle of them always looking out for each other but under circumstances and/or intensities that like......in an ideal world, Shouldnt have fell upon them. and theyre so close to each other that theyll learn from each other. of course marius started taking on responsibilities he shouldnt have had to deal with as a child and started repressing his own feelings. he learned it from giann. he learned from the best.

//shakes ur hand agAIN in feeling marius is so not over The Basement Incident. and this whole fic was also me saying that i think giann really got traumatized by it too. can you imagine being fifteen years old and your baby brother who you swore to your deceased mother that you'd always protect almost DIES. and you felt it. and you held him as it happened.

thats a horror story in itself as well but giann will never admit it because to him, marius will always be more important and giann also thinks he shouldnt get the right to be upset because all of it happened anyway because he wasnt watching over him well enough

AND THEN GIANN GOES MISSING YEARS LATER. HOW WE FEELIN, FELLAS........

thank you so much for the kind words, anon!!! :D

[lys-lilac]

IDOLiSH7 Third BEAT! Episode 16 Review

This episode almost killed me. 

(Spoilers ahead! Proceed at your own risk!)

UGH. WHY. Why this man popped up first? With Yaotome Papa bowing to him nonetheless?! I am so frustrated at him. He doesn't even have an ounce of sympathy, that it boils my blood. Well done to the VA though ^^;

(UGHH.)

Angry Tsumugi is such a treat to see, hehe.

(pFT. Role reversed Iori! Don’t mess with her!)

Re:Vale, TRIGGER and IDOLiSH7 all are rivals, but look at the way they are supporting each other in times of need. Back of Ryo, you are about to get in real trouble right now. I am so so happy to see it.

(wahhh TT)

Darn. On one hand, there’s caring Anesagi, on the other hand there are angry Tsumugi and-

(T-That aura eekkk!)

This scene. This darn scene killed me.

His eyes are writhing with pain. The so called cute, caring and handsome Nagi's facade has finally slipped out.

It's very unlike of Nagi to raise his voice like that. It can only mean one thing, how much precious Haruki is to him. How his voice wavers and then goes on the shouting mode? Eguchi san has well played this part. 

NAGI’S PAST WITH HARUKI BROKE ME BADLY.

(He really is a prince after all...)

(🥺)

(Haha, he’s adorable!)

Anyway, I feel so bad for Haruka. Being abandoned by Kujo, and now being told in the face that Tenn is a good son to Kujo feels like a slap. Poor boy teared up, which shows how much he cared for Kujo, only to deceived by him. At this point, after watching the episodes and getting the gist, I truly believe ZOOL is not bad at all. It’s Ryo who’s the evil one. And since they have their own reasons to fight back, they are bound to take part in his plan to drag down TRIGGER.

(I AM SO ANNOYED AT KUJO.(≧口≦) )

(WHAT DO YOU MEAN?????!!!)

*bangs head on table* 

Anyway, here's my take on the thing. Kujo is indeed right. Tenn might put a facade of strictness in front of Riku just to protect him, but he is very pure and innocent at heart. At the same time, Riku might seem as the weakling type, the younger brother who needs to be constantly pampered, but indeed is very mature and knows how to deal with situations. One example is in the previous episode where he puts up an act of being ill, the other can be his monologues in the episodes. While Tenn's willing to go to any measures for Riku, Riku at the same time is capable of getting out of this care. Tenn puts his all, works super hard to be loved by his fans, & Riku, he has this wonderful ability to naturally capture all the fans with his smile.

That's probably the reason. I love Riku, but at the same time, this explanation is justified as well.

(So here’s my daily dose of this cutie. SOGOOO!!!)

Also, I love the way how he positively sees every situation. While most of us would have been surprised to hear the term ‘monster’ for Riku like Iori, Sogo explains it perfectly. I love this boy ahh.

(Pfft...)

What’s Yaotome Papa planning? Throwing that termination letter like that?!

(This, this is some plan right? RIGHT?)

ALSO WHAT IS THIS-

Where are they going to sing? I am supporting you though, TRIGGER. *remembers that particular scene and gets scared* 

Anyway, this was such a rollercoaster. For now, let's recover from all the pain with this Riku's smile... 

See you soon!

[questionablepastries]

soulsborne ask 8, 14, 30(also happy late birthday!!! how did i miss it!!!)

ASH!!!!! IM ANSWERINGN SO LATE forgib meh (also THank you for the belated birthday wish YAYAYA <3 )

I wanted to answer this on pc, bc i intended to write a lot given that this is like one of my top favorite franchises and it altered my brain chemistry permanently; aint no way im writing no sorry ass short answer so its gonna go under a readmore :)

8. What are your 3 favorite areas and why?

ough this ones already tough, throughout all the games there are so many good areas lol. I had to write a large list of areas I love and finally managed to narrow it down to three it was super painful and took like 30 min but here they are (in no particular order)

Fountainhead palace from sekiro - probably the most serene location in all soulsborne personally, The music is very peaceful the area is GORGEOUS compared to the bloodbath of the rest of the game. It very much is its own isolated location because technically it is. the royalty in sekiro would seclude themselves in this location and do nothing but ignore the state of the rest of the world and it very much shows since the area is so serene with its cherry blossom trees and massive koi fish to feed. even though the area has since flooded and all the servants turned into fish people hybrids its still awesome to explore what is essentially abandoned royalty temple ruins

Nokstella eternal city from eldenring - the area is just super pretty as well! sorry its starting to sound redundant but unlike fountainhead palace this place is not meant for normal people much less royalty to access and yet its a fucking cinderella castle underground complete with stars and shit, plus everything here is like weird mercury magic and has all these mimics its AWESOME i love doppelgangers and i love the scary silent atmosphere here because its like what did these people DO to get themselves banished underground

Tower of latria/upper latria from demon souls, i chose this one because i think it caused me the most stress in my demon souls run. it was here that i was getting very lost and very scared - probably the most stressed ive ever been my entire demon souls run. going from super scary prison to jesus christ is that a giant fucking beating heart being held up by chains was an experience ill never feel again it was so cool

honorable mentions go to: caelid, lake of rot, crumbling farum azula, academy of raya lucaria (elden ring), the gutter, black gulch, and shrine of amana (ds2), the entirety of shrine of storms (demon souls), nightmare of mensis (bloodborne)

i feel bad not even mentioning one ds3 map so uhhh profaned capital

14. Who is the most underrated boss in your opinion?

leechmonger & adjudicator (yes i chose two, im cheating) from demon souls. I think soulsborne games should lean way more into body horror/horror themes in general given how crappy the state of their worlds are and these guy are like. the definition of both body horror and gore. sad to see both of them being ignored for fan favorite cool people in armor bosses (artorias, ornstein, gwyn, lady maria, malenia, old king allant, soul of cinder, nameless king...etc)

bosses that get this horror thing right include: ludwig, orphan of kos, guardian ape (not exactly underrated but the second phase tho), radahn (he was eating a guy at the start lol he counts as horror in a way? plus he's massive), mergos wetnurse, king allant (the real one!), phalanx (god i love this thing), flamelurker, maneaters, four kings (warped by dark magic and infinitely respawning in an abyss this is the coolest concept of all time), gaping dragon (COOL!!!!), demon of song are a couple i can list with google's help

off topic but my favorite "just a guy" bosses are penetrator (demon souls), looking glass knight + darklurker (ds2) and the corrupted monk from sekiro

30. Rank the games you’ve played!

wahhh......

dark souls 1 (my entry to the franchise im sowwy)

demon souls (really captured the scary morose medieval knight atmosphere i was desperately craving after finishing ds1)

bloodborne (super unique game - has no peer in terms of atmosphere, is only in third place because i much prefer being a depressing knight rather than a cool guy in a trenchcoat on a weekday in london)

eldenring (being unable to ride torrent in the final boss fight, the dissapointment of lack of things to do at the mountaintop of the giants, and no boss living up to radahn or rykard in the end game stretch..(malenia is just a hot lady im sorry; even her second form is just hot lady - now if she was a monster.....) is why im placing this as 4th)

sekiro (another unique game however has zero replayability)

dark souls 3 (might be overdue for a replay since i only beat it like twice since release, and i struggled to remember any bosses or areas when answering these questions. I think ds3 was just like a bunch of references to ds1, however gael one of THE most memorable bosses for me and was a grand way to end the franchise)

dark souls 2 (granted i only played vanilla upon release only once and it left a bad taste in my mouth to the point that i was concerned about the state of the franchise after i finished it because while i knew the main team was working on bloodborne while this was being developed it made me wonder if id ever experience what i felt in ds1 ever again.

[mossible]

Hellooo I have come from AO3 to say Many Things!!! About Cracked Snowglobes!!

But now i'm unsure where to even begin with the gushing because chapter 4 has left me CLIMBING the walls, hanging upside down from my ceiling, HOWLING because good cod !!!!! Intense argument after intense emotional moment after brief humorous, hopeful breath of air, thEN MORE INTENSE CONFLICT--

I was positively SHAKING in bed when i read it last night, it left me IN SHAMBLES (⁠╯⁠°⁠□⁠°⁠）⁠╯⁠︵⁠ ⁠┻⁠━⁠┻

I've been meaning to comment in more detail on every chapter, and just list up everything little detail and exchange i love, but after the current chapter i had TO COME HERE FIRST to send an Ask!!

I am SO HAPPY to see Off the Hook and the Squid sister and Splatoon hanging out, and knowing that sweet, brave Eight is in good, caring hands now 🥺 they deserve the world, and their genuine admiration and trust in Octavio had me 🥹 it was so cathartic to see Marina have the heart to heart she needed with her former leader as well, even if they don't agree with everything, Octavio's growth already showed a teeeny tiny bit in him, reluctantly, agonizingly, agreeing with Marina and making that promise to her (and by extension, to Eight and all of his people)

I don't know what you have planned for the next chapter, i know this one's gonna be tricky since it has to essentially fill in the void between game 2 and 3, but man!!! I really really really hope that, despite all of the baggage and anger and yelling, Octavio can find some solace, something to hold onto, in the genuine hope and trust that Eight, Callie, and Marina put in him, in spite (or because?) of everything 🙏 he's gonna have another tough road ahead of him, but i believe in this stubborn, clever, spiteful old man 🐙 he has fucked up many times before, but i believe he will try his best to keep his word, if only to not let the people down that put their trust in him (maybe that's hust me being delulu and naive tho agsjshdjfhgfd)

My god that ENDING tho!!! The leaky roof has CRASHED DOWN metaphorically, and it's really lucky that Octavio jumped the heck outta there because i would NOT want to be at the camp after all that!

There's poor Callie, probably having a small breakdown rn, and Cuttlefish, who let some /real nasty/ things slip out there (granted, that was mostly the result of being spurred on and goaded by Octavio to be his worst self, i think) that i can't rly see Marina and Eight just... overlook, tbh (especially after he also pulled that whole past identify reveal on Marina in the Metro, which could have potentially ended very, very poorly)... The mood there is probably. 😬😬😬 Rip to the planned party 🎉

There's soooo much more i would like to say, but yeah that's gonna be probably better said in individual chapter comments, but i just HAD to get this all out!

Thank you so much for your incredible work!! The long chapters are a delight to read personally, even if they seem a bit daunting at first; since the writing and pacing is so good, it's very easy to breeze through them :D

I wish you a belated Happy New Year and lots of inspiration, motivation, and free writing time for the chapter 5, I'm super looking forward to whatever you've planned next! 🙌🐙✨

WAUUAUGHH TYSM OMGGG!! i absolutely relate on the commenting thing LOL sometimes ill spend months keeping up with a fic, only to realize later on that oh. oops i havent commented at all. i really shouldve done that! very much a regular ao3 reader thing to overlook it, so i absolutely dont blame u at all LMAO (i do look forward to the comments though, ive said this like hundreds of times it feels like already but feedback rlly is such a strong motivator when it comes to writing! very funny how reading words makes you want to make more words)

but. again. WAHHH thank you !! im glad youve been enjoying so far, and ur kind words mean so so sososo much ;_; omg

i'm very excited to get chapter 5 out to yall, but im also super excited to just like. write it in general LOL it has a LOTTTTT of stuff that i cant exactly talk about just yet, considering that it would all be spoilers for what exactly goes down, but im super hyped for it. and im the one writing it!

the only thing i can say is that, yeah youre spot on about it being tricky and having to bridge that gap! i don't have any plans to change the actual plot points that happen in the games themselves, excluding whatevers gonna happen for the s3 dlc which we essentially know uh. nothing about! we're currently still on track to be following the story modes' outlines. (but as soon as we get off of that track? hooh boy ive got some silly ideas >:))

again tho, thank you so much ik i keep saying it but. it means so much to hear how yall are liking the fic !! <3

[mosviqu]

IT PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH AND I HATE ALL OF THE THINGS I GOT TO KNOW ABOUT THIS ERA THEIR HARD WORK IS NOT APPRECIATED ENOUGH WAHHH

i didn't even have the motivation to check out the last song from them ngl💔💔very sad about them but maybe i will like it after watching music shows lmao i wont give up (fully) on the 03liners💔 WAITTTT TRUE HOW DID I FORGET ABOUT INTAK WHAT THE HECK I WAS SO HAPPY ABOUT HIM (and same i saw that they are having a cb and i was like:o i forgot about u guys:o) AN AMAZING CREW!!!! also would selfishly add enhypen sunoo he is a lovely 03 liner as well🥹 (idk know mcnd☹️☹️ i heard like 2-3 of their songs but i never checked them out☹️ BUT IM HAPPY THERE IS AN 03 LINER IN THERE!!!)

IT IS IMPORTANT BUT IM STILL NOT SURE IF ITS 100% TRUE😭 i love keeho so much like that was the point where i was like yeah u are going to be my fav from here!! seeing the screenshots of it still makes me laugh so much

i can imagine that😭 my sister was in the exact same situation as u💀

IT WAS!!!! dino is lovely and i would love to see u being his body guard ngl🤣 I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY THEY DIDNT DO IT💔💔just such a big heartbreak💔💔ALSO TALKING ABOUT TREASURE DID U HEAR THE SNIPPET HE POSTED OF A SONG??? it sounds very great imo

I CAN SO RELATE TO THAT!!! english is so hard without english classes i never realized that till now💔 i only talk in english with my sister but it's a mess i even just struggle to put together sentences now😭 writing my replies takes so much brain cells from me so i always just pray that u will get what i'm trying to say even if it's not correct lmao🥸 RECORDING VLOGS IS SO MUCH FUN!! i did it for a while and it was so amazing so i recommend it only sent them to my bestie but it was actually so funny😭 THE BRITISH PEOPLE GOT US REAL HARD💔

(AHHH THANK U SO MUCH;-; I APPRECIATE IT!!! HANBIN!!! I HOPE U WILL HAVE MORE MOMENTS OVER HIM LMAO HE IS VERY GREAT😌 although be careful with asking me about zbone members cuz idk three of them;-; but working on it🤞 and u can tag me or message me ofc i dont mind🥹💕) (liebestraum anon🥳💕)

LITERALLYYYY i saw a tiktok where it compared all the other dances where its a member x woman (ten or baek) and it said "so this is okay, but this isnt?" showing enha and the comments were like "we are the problem" LMAO so at least they are self-aware.

no because i was really disappointed too >:(( but the title track still slaps i said what i said. watched them perform it too and they have cute bubbly vibes i am heartbroken for the lack of interest from my side. NO BC WHEN I STARTED BIASING INTAK AND REALISED HE WAS A 03 LINER I HAD A MENTAL BREAKDOWN. ((still am a jiung girlie at heart tho). i am really excited for their cb tho it sounds amazing!!! HOW DID I FORGET ABOUT SUNOO WHAT THE FUCK AAAAAAAAAA IM SO SORRY he's my fav 03 liner. ((there are actually 2 03 liners in mcnd but i forgot the other one LMAO i honestly cant remember their names anymore but i had a very short mcnd phase lol. all i know is that i'd die for minjae thats all)

i would honestly be a good bodyguard bc i have a lot of rage in me. like i could fully fight someone if i was mad enough LMAOO. everything for dino baby <3 I DID SEE THE SNIPPET I LOST MY SHIT LOWKEY HIGHKEY I AM SO EXCITED AAAAAAA

i mean english isnt really hard for me if we are talking abt writing and stuff but speaking out loud is more difficult if you don't regularly do it >:( dont worry we are on the same wavelength i always know what u mean w your replies AHAH sometimes i speak in eng w my roommate bc she is an english major (she only picked the major bc of me and then i ended up doing psychology so i owe her this bc her english isnt as good as mine) I USED TO RECORD VLOGS W MY BROTHER but we never posted them thank god. i'm still down to do it honestly its so fun LMAO

hanbin.......i looked up his name on tiktok once and now my fyp is filled with him and im so in love he's so cute and adorable and sweet like i saw clips of ppl giving him letters and how much he loves getting them and even asked if anyone has letters for him please zb1 fans give him letters!!!!!! no bc i only know ricky, hanbin, zhang hao and matthew :,) but the more i see them on my fyp the more i am convinced to stan once they debut like i legit debated on watching boys planet yesterday bc i lowkey like survival shows but when i found out the eps are 2 hours long i decided to just....not...do that...

also a small update on the tbz recs i did some progress and i really liked diamond life and survive the night :p i have like 11 songs left from the ones u recommended LMAO but yeah i loved those two

[restinpeacesensei]

hanging somewhere in a binan kindergarten

[flcwxr]

hi flower!! can i request like a shoe shopping date with floyd? or just normal shopping even hehe

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𝐀/𝐍: Hi anon!!!💕 Hdhdhd definitely didn't had a hard time writing this because my heart keeps skipping a beat for him hehe no definitely not-

"Uuuu... I don't like this one." Floyd groaned, taking off the shoes that you had decided to picked for him to try. You and Floyd have been searching around for some shoes to buy at the mall that you two are having your date in.

A small frown reaches to your face. "You don't like that one either?"

A pout appeared on his lips, looking down at the shoes with such disappoinment. "The colors of the shoes just looks too boring to me, and the design sucks too."

"Well... I don't really know what to do..." You silently pondered. Can't you find the shoes that he would really liked? You tapped your finger against your chin. Thinking...

Ah! You snapped your fingers that made Floyd looked at you. He watched in confusion as you suddenly ran off and disappearing as you turned into a corner.

"Where did that shrimpy decided to go?" Though Floyd is easily impatient, he waited for you to return to see what made you disappear on him all of a sudden.

To distract himself for a while, he decided to placed the shoes back to the shelf that you have gotten them.

And just as he returned, he saw you waiting there for him; there's an excited grin pulling on your lips as you seemed to be hiding something behind your back.

"What are you hiding there behind your back, hm?" He smiles as he approaches you, only to be greeted with a pair of shoes that you thrusted in front of his face.

"Here! How about you try this one on?"

"You almost hit in the face, you know?" He whines, "But, if you say so then shrimpy~"

Floyd grabbed the shoes off your hands and crouched down to put it on.

You lightly jumped on your feet once in a while, clapping your hands as he stood back up to take a look of shoes.

He rose his right shoe to turn and twist it. "The colors on it are slightly better." His expression then turned sour. "But I still don't like the design."

"Wait, you still haven't see something yet!" Floyd almost lose his balance when you raised your voice. "Stomp your feet on the floor!"

"Ehhhh?" He's really confused. Why does he need to stomp his feet on the ground? Nonetheless, he obeyed your words.

Stomping one of his feet on the floor, his eyes lit up as he found the side of the shoe glowing in a bluish color.

"Wahhh! Shrimpy, it's glowinggg hehehe!" Floyd giggles, which you followed along. "I knew you would liked it!"

Stomping his other foot, this time, a red light appeared instead.

Floyd grins. "Hehe, now it's a different color."

"These is such a cool shoes, shrimpy~ I'll definitely buy this one."

You grinned back, happy that you finally found something that he liked. "I'm happy to know that."

And as a thank you, Floyd rushes to you to give you a loving squeeze that you happily returned.

[henry-and-the-seven-lords]

The Gift that Keeps on Giving

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Description: Levi is forced to partake in the human tradition of Christmas, only to be given a game that has been sold out for weeks! What will he do when he is transported to a new world and must fight his way through it to get back home, only to find out he doesn't want to leave.

Author's Note: This is the fic I wrote for the Obey Me Secret Santa Event! Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! I hope you all enjoy this longer fic from me.

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays @gay-noodle-clan

Word Count: 2,673

Warnings: Mentions of Christmas, Fluff, Angst, Fluffy ending, Isekai

Levi stomps down the stairs as he rubs his eyes. The twinkling light, blinding them after emerging from his dark bedroom. Slowly he approaches the main hall and hears the robust chatter of his Brothers and friends.

"I don't understand why you want to celebrate this human tradition?" Levi hears Belphie yawn towards Diavolo. 

The demon prince only smiles as he replies, "Because, Christmas is a fun tradition and it gives us a reason to give gifts to each other. Oh! Levi, you are finally up! Now the Secret Santa exchange can begin!"

Levi had only peaked his head into the room, but the Prince seemed to still notice his presence. The otaku makes his way to the couch and sits down lethargically while some of his Brothers begin to shuffle around the tree and pass out their presents.

"Here." Before Levi's eyes can focus, a shiny gold present is thrust in his face by Mammon.

"Merry Christmas. Now open it before I take it back."

Mammon shoves himself next to Levi as he slowly begins to tear the paper to reveal a cardboard box. Mammon bounces his leg as Levi gradually opens the lid. Inside the box is a game. The title on the case reads, "Adventure of the Crystal" in bolded font with a breath-taking adventurer on the front.

Levi's mouth falls open as he gently caresses the case and let's the cardboard box fall to the ground.

"It's that new game ya wanted right?..." Excitement filled his Brother's voice before he sounded nonchalant once again, "I mean, I just found it at one of my pawn shops, totally didn't know it was new until I came home and looked it up..."

Levi glanced at his brother while Mammon fidgeted before looking back at the game. He missed the release due to Lucifer forcing him to clean Cerberus' paws, but now here it sits perfectly in his hands. Levi decides to give the game a look over. What would happen if Mammon was rough with it in transit and accidentally scratched it! As he opens the case, his vision goes black.

The sounds of birds distantly chirping fill his ears as he lays against, what feels like, plush grass. It was quite relaxing and peaceful until he felt a forceful poke to his head.

"Are you dead?" A strange voice said next to him.

Upon hearing them, he slowly opens his eyes to luscious woods surrounding him. The sharp smell of bark hit his nose as he began to scan the green scenery. The light is filtered and makes the forest around lim look dim. Slowly he glances back to see what looks like the character from the front of the box.

"Wahhh! Are-Are you!?"

"Glad to see that you're alive! I'm MC. It's nice to meet you…" Their voice trailed off as they looked at him expectantly as they reached out their hand.

"Levi!" A blush filled his face as he grabbed their hand and stood up.

He was now only a few inches away from them. Their eyes seemed to sparkle under the dim streaks of light. It made his heart begin to beat just a little bit faster.

His staring was soon cut off by their voice, "So you're not from around here?"

It takes him a moment to hear what they said.

"...No… not from… here…" 

Levi looked around once again, but this time his eyes trailed to the sky where two suns blazed above him.

"I'm from… a far away place. Almost like another universe. I actually need to find a way home."

He looked back to MC as they rolled their eyes. They then began to pace as they thought aloud, "Well that's descriptive.Hmm… Let me think. Well we could go back to the city. There is the crystal-"

But before they could finish their thought, MC's words were cut off as a rustling came from the bushes beside them.

The pair froze and glanced towards the noise before MC grabbed his hand and began running in the opposite direction without any warning.

"H-Hey where are you going!?" He screamed. His eyes stared at their fingers intertwined and a blush crawled up his neck and covered his ears. 

Quickly, they glanced back at Levi before tugging on his arm once again, "Anywhere but here. Now run faster!"

Trees began to become a blur as he passed, but instead of watching them pass by, his eyes found their way back to their hands. 

There is no way that they meant to intertwine their fingers with him. That would be crazy! He is just some yucky otaku nerd and they are a super cool adventurer with sparkly eyes. Why would they lock their fingers with him, or even want to touch him in the first pl-

His thoughts were cut off by running into the said adventurer in front of him. Levi's eyes slowly trailed upward until he found a towering orc that MC had seemed to run into.

"Well, well, well. If it isn't pipsqueak." 

MC squeaked and cowered back into his chest at the big man's words. The man's voice was booming and deep. It matched his almost 10 foot size.

"Now where have you been?" He continued as two more towering orcs walked over and stared at Levi and MC. 

"Did you bring us a snack as recompense?" One of them jabbered in a squeaky voice as he began to poke at Levi's side, making him jump.

Finally MC speaks, "No! He is not to be eaten." Slowly a blush fills their face as the tall Orcs chuckle.

"Have you gone soft, pip? Or is he worth more than you're letting on?" Said the first orc before the third one chimes in.

"Don't forget. Yous owes us. So no lies."

"He isn't worth anything!" MC yells as the stick out their arm to keep Levi behind them.

"Well if he isn't worth nothing, then we'll keep him here and say part of your debt is paid."

The Orcs start grabbing at Levi's arms and he tries to resist.

"Don't touch him!" In one swift motion MC hits the orcs hand with their sword causing them to release one of Levi's arms. 

He then swings around and flips over the other orc that was holding him hostage.

The two run deeper into the forest as they hear distant shouts from behind them.

"You'll pay for this, pipsqueak!"

After many minutes of running, the pair slow to a stop on a hill as Levi bends over to catch his breath.

MC looks out over the horizon as they tap his shoulder, "Look." They point to what looks to be a giant orange crystal protruding out of the ground, "That's the city."

"Woah! What is that crystal!? It looks so cool!" 

MC giggles and sits on the edge of the cliff, gently swinging their legs as they speak, "That," They point at it again, "Is the Crystal of Final Desires. It grants every person one wish when the person touches it. Whatever their heart wants. You said you're not from here. It could send you home." They turn and look at him where he stands behind them.

Levi stared at the shiny mass in the distance deep in thought. Did he want to go home?

The comfortable silence was then interrupted by MC's soft voice, "You know, I haven't gotten my wish yet."

"You haven't!? Why not?" Levi quickly shuffles to the cliff's edge and places himself next to MC. 

He watches their face as they continue, "I have been saving it for something important. You never know when a wish could come in handy."

The cogs in Levi's brain slowly turn as he asks, "Well why don't you wish for your debt to be gone with those orcs?"

MC almost spoke before they hesitated, "Let's just say, I have more than enough money to pay them back. I just don't want to at the moment."

Slowly their eyes trail to his and a mischievous glint passes in their eyes and a smirk fills their face.

Levi looks at them and smiles. MC nudges him before they both begin to laugh together, but the laughter stopped when a boom of thunder was heard in the distance.

The pair glance to the once blue sky to see ominous black clouds swirling above them.

"It looks like it's about to rain. We should find some shelter." MC stands up and begins to look around as Levi looks down.

"Over here!" He screams as he jumps down, with MC following suit. Below the cliff is a small cave, just big enough to keep them sheltered from the rain. The pair get in as the floodgates open.

The cave was small, so small in fact that the pair were pushed up against each other with little room to spare.

"S-sorry…" a blush fills Levi's face as he looks away, "You probably hate being stuck with some weak, ugly, weirdo from another world like me."

MC glances at him, "You didn't seem weak to me when you flipped that Orc over. Besides who said anything about hating it. I actually greatly admire the shape of your face." Levi's eyes darted toward them as they spoke.

It was now MC's turn to looka away with a blush on their face before glancing back at the demon in front of them. 

"You… like my face?" Levi looks at them awestruck.

"It is quite handsome... but I suspect my feelings are not reciprocated." They sighed and a look of sadness washed over their face.

"No!" He shouts, "I mean… Ever since I first laid eyes on you on the box- er… um.. I mean when I woke up, I thought you were stunning. You nearly took my breath away. It was the same feeling as when I look at Ruri-chan so it must mean you are perfect. Well not perfect as in "perfect" but perfect as in-"

MC rolls their eyes at his ravings before grabbing his face with both hands and beginning to lean in. They closed their eyes and pucker their lips, thus stopping Levi mid ramble as he watched them approach with wide-eyes, but before their lips could meet, a boom of thunder shook the cave and the two jumped away from each other and into the cave walls. 

With one quick glance to the side they both saw the sun shining once again, with no rain in sight.

"It's no longer raining…" Levi's words were sullen as he stared at the cloudless blue sky.

MC nodded before beginning their descent down the mountain, "I guess not. We should get you to the city before the Orcs catch up with us."

Levi glanced at them as they walked away, "Oh, yeah."

The city is a short walk from the cave the two were once stranded in, and the journey was one filled with silence as thoughts raced through Levi's head.

Were they going to kiss me? It looked like they were going to kiss me. But there is no way they would kiss me, a gross, yucky otaku. But they don't know I am an otaku. Okay, but I still look like a nerd.

As his thoughts slowed, so did the pair's footsteps as they entered the wooden gates. Shouts were heard in the distance as people began to surround them.

"Your Royal Highness! You're finally back. We all missed you." A young lady spoke as she began to bow, along with all the other people surrounding Levi and MC.

"You may rise. Please, didn't I tell you not to treat me as a royal. I wish to be seen as one of you." MC brushed off as they motioned for everyone to stand.

"I am sorry Your Royal Highness, but how else are we supposed to act around heir to the thrown."

"Heir to the thrown!?" Levi squeals.

"I said I had the money didn't I?" MC glances at him with a coy smile.

"Why didn't you tell me!? That makes you even cooler!" Levi looks at them excitedly as he glances around the city.

"Because, I didn't want you to treat me differently, but that isn't the problem now. The problem is getting you home." They said sternly.

MC takes Levi's hand and walks him over to the crystal before gently holding both of his hands.

"Just touch your hand to the crystal and close your eyes as you imagine your wish, in this case your home, and when they open, you will be there."

Levi glanced at the crystal before looking back to MC and holding their hands tightly.

"But what if I don't want to leave. What if I want to stay here with you! I could be your adventuring partner! You already said I was strong so I could be like a bodyguard."

MC cracked a smile at the thought, "Is that really what you wish?"

Levi nods his head vigorously, tightening his grip on their hands.

They chuckle and reply, "Well then, I guess you deserve a reward for bringing the heir back to the city safely. Right, Brave Knight?"

They chuckled once again at his second frantic nod, but before he could finish it, their lips were on his. 

Their mouths moved together in perfect harmony. So perfect, that it made Levi's knees weak causing him to stumble and lean on the nearest object for balance.

I have never wanted to thank Mammon more than at this moment.

As they pulled away, eyes half lidded, MC glanced to his side in shock and their eyes widened in fear and confusion.

Dazed, Levi looked over to the object he was leaning on. It was the crystal, his hand pressed flat against it. As he looked down he saw his body begin to disappear slowly.

"No! No! No-" but before his scream could finish his vision went black.

Levi's eyes open to see Mammon hovering over him.

"How'd ya like your gift?" Mammon's smirk felt condescending staring down at him.

Quickly Levi shot up to see the mess of presents gone. No paper or boxes to be seen. He rose to his feet and began to look around the tree frantically.

"Where is it? Where is it?" 

Mammon interjected his vocalization of thoughts "Ya just got back. What could ya possibly be looking for?"

Levi whipped around with a crazed look in his eye, "Where is the game box!?"

Mammon thought for a second before he finally understood, "Oh! That disappeared when ya went into it this morning."

"It's gone!?" Levi was fuming.

Mammon shrugged. "I guess so, but before ya go on a rampage, there's one present left with your name on it. Night." Mammon turned on his heel and waved over his shoulder as Levi turned to the tree, finally seeing the present buried in the branches.

It was a relatively small box buried in the branches of the Christmas tree. The box was red with an orange ribbon wrapped tightly around it.

Levi slowly opened the box to reveal a small orange crystal necklace with a note that read, 

Levi,

I searched for you for days and I couldn't find you. I had my people scour all the continents and sea. That is when I realized how I could get this to you. I used my wish to send the gift and the letter, so I hope it gets there in one piece. The necklace is a fragment of the Crystal of Final Desires. My mages said it could possibly be used as a transport device if you are truly from another world. I hope they are right. I will be waiting eagerly for your return, my Brave Knight. 

With Love, 

MC.

Levi stared at the crystal in his hands before putting it around his neck, holding it in his hand and closing his eyes. The only thought in his mind was MC's smiling face waiting for him when he opened his eyes.

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