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#things keep happening too i wont lie. but i have made it thru
hirokiyuu · 5 months
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i dont think im going to make a large/long self reflection post this year mostly bc this was quite genuinely the worst year of my life but also i have definitely like. hit a point wehre i think things will get better. so thats nice and i like that part
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actualbird · 3 years
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Oh god!
I really love the poly headcanons they are so sweet.... (or don't but that's part of it and i think the tot boys+MC deserve all the love the world has to give).
But, liking it or not, our 4 beloved boys are kinda complicated (that's what makes them perfect). Plus I never thought about how people get in poly relationships. So i was thinking, how do you think they all get into a polyrelationship together?
(I really have no idea of how that would happen)
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hi, two anons!! im glad you guys liked my nxx team polycule stuff!! i'll answer these in one go, my "headcanon" (in quotes because i think this kinda turned into a character analysis/minific of sorts HAHA) being what first anon asked, How They Get Together.
heads up, wc of this is 1.9k words long so buckle up for a bit of a read jfsjdfkjbf
because first anon, youre right!!! the boys are stupendously complicated which i love so so much but canon has also shown us clearly that each of the boys' quirks and habits and tendencies causes a lot of (mostly played for laughs) friction. the bickering, the backhanded insults, the "im the best one here" preening contests. theyre all SOOOO RIDICULOUS and it is hilarious but yep! the boys r complex!! and that means this beautiful ship, imo, has a lot of phases to get to the actual romantic relationship bit.
how they get together, in my opinion, starts because of mc.
not in the sense that she matchmakes them all, but like.
phase 1 of the nxx team polycule is this:
through being in love with her (which we all know the boys 100% are), each of the boys come to terms with their own flaws and weaknesses. it's very apparent to me in all the story thus far that these boys are flawed as hell, it's very compelling but even more compelling to me is how all of them also do intense mental gymnastics to Not Confront Those Flaws. like, marius is a dickbag always teasing and toeing the line of insincerity, vyn is a controlling mf who always tries to sway situations to his benefit, artem is so repressed to the point that he has genuine trouble with emotions, luke is a self sacrificial bastard and also a huge hypocrite about how no, actually, hes the only one that should be hiding his pain and being dishonest, no dishonesty from other people!! in the beginning of the story, all the boys have their flaws and seem to have just kinda...not addressed how those flaws are harming them and the people around them.
and then mc rolls around and they all fall in love with her. and she sees those flaws and she doesnt let them slide. she challenges the boys in her own ways to see another side of the situation, to acknowledge what theyre doing. she doesnt want to get rid of flaws, thats impossible and also not cool. she just has this beautiful hope for like, all of humanity, that goodness can prevail with the right work. so when she sees her beloved nxx boys, she believes that for them as well.
which leads to phase 2 of the nxx team polycule:
the boys, more aware of themselves, become more aware of each other.
they werent Unaware of the others of course. it's just that they didnt like...truly connect on a personal level just yet. they saw the other teammembers with their emotional armor and flaws and saw a wall that wasnt worth looking past.
but after mc makes them realize that hey, flaws arent the end of the world actually, it's alright and the person behind them may just be worth it, the boys like. end up understanding the others. A LOT OF THIS BIT IS UNINTENTIONAL, ON THEIR PARTS KJDSBFS. like they stumble into understanding each other by accident, they didnt plan it, but over the course of nxx investigations, it's inevitable that they end up seeing the depths of the others. i delve into this a little bit in my fanfic "filler eps of the lost gold" where the boys are just going thru their actions and then trip over another boy's fears or desires and through that, gain a deeper understanding mutually.
and with understanding, sometimes, comes trust.
phase 3 of the nxx team polycule goes like this:
everybody in this team, whether they like it or not, whether they know it or not, has a heart that wants to give love so desperately.
marius lives in a world full of snakes so he cant have his heart on his sleeve for his own protection. vyn wants to be seen as perfect and the heart is inherently messy so he holds it back. artem for a very very long time was focused on work and success and achievement that he neglected his heart. and luke has been giving love all his life in a sense but in a way thats hidden.
all these tendencies that are brought upon their life circumstances results in this: they want to love honestly but they havent been able to do this
until mc. and all of them want to push back whatever fears or patterns their life has instilled in them because they see her and see somebody so unwaveringly good that all their hearts begin giving love to her to make her happy and to make themselves happy as well.
but heres the thing. the boys dont just see mc. by this point, they have connected and understood and come to trust each other as well, and the consequence of that is that They Can See Each Other Now Too, Truly.
and heres the thing. all of the boys are unwaveringly good as well.
one by one, each of the boys realize that what they feel for the other boys in the team starts to...change. yeah theyre all friends, they pick on each other a lot of the time, but the bedrock of the relationship is solid and strong now. but when marius is with luke, marius sees a light inside of luke so bright that he seems unaware that he gives off. when artem is with vyn, artem sees a goodness inside of vyn that hesitates to make itself obvious and known because vyn is scared of getting hurt thanks to it. all of them see the other and their goodness and, unbidden, their hearts want to give love to each other as well.
and because theyre all a bit stupid in their own way theyre like, huh, weird! wonder why this feeling is so familiar! and yet i cant seem to name it...and then they all independently compare these feeling with the feelings they have for mc, a feeling they do know the name of, and theyre like.
WAIT.
THESE FEELINGS ARE...VERY BASICALLY EXACTLY WHAT I FEEL FOR MC.
which only means one thing: theyve fallen in love with everybody else
marius: //goes to his studio to Think and sees that a bunch of his recent art actually had little crumbs of these feelings already, etched into the brushstrokes and scenes. has an emotional crisis about it
vyn: //records a 1 hour long entry in his audio diary to examine and gain control of his feelings but by the end of the hour all he knows is that he wants to hold these people and be held by them
artem: //quite literally just bluescreens, artem.exe has stopped working, sits at his study and slowly, slowly, thunks his head down onto his desk, valiantly trying to ignore the fast pulse of his heart
luke: //manically vents about it to peanut who, by virtue of being a bird, doesnt get it. just keeps talking at peanut to get a grasp of it all and then lies down on the floor, overwhelmed
mc, sitting in her apartment watching some netflix: ...why do i inexplicably feel as if something very, very important has just happened?
phase 4 of the nxx team polycule is basically:
pining: extreme difficulty level
because pining is already hard when ur pining for one person. what more for an additional 3 more people. and those additional 3 more people are pining back.
and all these boys are SOOOO OBVIOUS with their romantic feelings, in their own special way. the way they show their affection to mc starts to bleed into their interactions with the others and everybody can CLEARLY SEE WHAT IS GOING ON, LOL, but also all the boys are too chickenshit to confront it, because if they confront it, what will even happen??? being in love with each other, all of them, thats going to be such a complicated fucking relationship, holy shit. it's 2030, yeah, being a polyamorous group relationship isnt completely unheard of, but sue them, theyre scared.
but mc (who i forgot to mention already knows of the boys' romantic feelings for her, shes just hasnt made a move yet on any of them because SHES IN LOVE WITH ALL OF THEM AS WELL and shes been trying to figure out how the hell to make that work, she cant bear to choose just one of them, she'd be heartbroken over leaving the rest of them behind) sees that the nxx investigation team is now all pining for each other FULLY and she kinda wants to laugh when she realizes whats going on because like, what are the chances? that this would happen? that they all found each other and their feelings fell into just the right place for nobody to be left behind?
theyre all scared, she can tell. and she is as well, she wont lie.
but shes always had a belief that goodness can prevail with the right work.
and love is one of the greatest goods out there.
phase 5 of the nxx team polycule:
It's Time For Communication, Baby!!!!!
the exact scenes of how this happens is a bit vague to me. it could go two ways: mc going to each of the boys independently to talk about feelings, hers about everybodys and his about everybodys as well. OR they have a fucking meeting about it all together and artem literally schedules it in his google calendar, or something.
either way, they like, actually talk about this. starts casual, maybe over a chill date, maybe over dinner at a nice restaurant, maybe over a walk in the park as the sun is starting to set. but where ever it happens, the end result is the same: a heart is laid out bare and it is taken in gentle, grateful hands.
marius: OKAY, NOW THAT THE FEELINGS ARE OUT OF THE WAY, CAN I PLEASE KISS ONE OR ALL OF YOU, PLEASE, IVE BEEN WANTING TO KISS U GUYS FOR FOREVER
vyn, laughing fondly: has anybody ever told you patience is a virtue? we quite literally just talked it all out.
marius: //needy whining noises
artem, embarrassed: ive...never kissed anybody before
luke, embarrassed but trying to play it Cool: ....same here
mc: kissing is great, you two will love it!
marius: awesome, awesome, so is ANYBODY going to give me a go ahead or WHAT????
phase 6 of the nxx team polycule:
i dont want to say it's happily ever after, once they all get together. thats not really realistic.
they all have their quirks and tendencies and habits. and those will inevitable clash against each other. theyll have their arguments, theyll get upset, theyll sulk and be angry, sometimes. but also...
theyll see each other smile and feel like their love shining so brightly. theyll reach out for another's hand and be held in such a way that makes them think that their heart is in a safe place. theyll love each other and theyll put in the work to continue loving each other. because goodness will prevail.
and they all see each other as the most good people in the world.
so whatever happens, theyll get through it together.
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guu · 3 years
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i’ve known for awhile now that along with all the other obvious problems, that charles is my biggest stressor AND the reason we can’t keep stable financially.
because he’s had access to all our cards, he makes the most stupid purchases
we got into a big fight just now over how he’s done jack shit around the house and stays up till 5am and sleeps in till 2pm, and he still says he cant do anything about that. partly bc he “never really gets a chance to play games with the kids awake” (lie, huge ass lie)
and that he lays down and cant fall asleep, but wont accept my sleep meds ever bc they made him groggy the first time.
which. happens. when u start a new sleep med.
but. GOD just. the fucking gall he has to have treated me as a lazy burden when he was the only one working and since i’ve been carrying the household he’s been the lazy jackass playing games all day long.
“oh the kids are such a distraction i cant truly enjoy it”
yeah?? i dont get to draw nearly as much as i want to, but you didnt hear me bitching. from 4-9 on average i need to drive around making money and battling my chronic pain but oh poor poor you, you cant get sleep bc you cant game in peace until 10pm!
when i get home i’m too exhausted to draw usually, and i dont have the luxury of staying up late bc i cant be dizzy on the job.
yeah maybe you do sometimes have to get right up and do things because you sleep so damn late while i’ve been up since 7am!
ugh sry for the long vent but tl;dr
it’s time i finally get what i need done.
and ditch charles for good.
sure, i’d need someone to watch the kids everyday while i work but i’m sure i could figure something out. in the end, with his “i’ll do it later, but i’ll be mad if you do it cause i said i would” is burning me out and burning a hole in our pockets. he was supposed to have applied for EBT already, and get xander back on insurance so he can see his guidance counselor.
but these are things i can do on my own no matter how nerve wracking they can be sometimes, but without him around to have to depend on to follow thru, i can ACTUALLY get shit done when we say we will.
idk. i have a LOT. to figure out and research. but this has GOT to finally END!
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theworldsoul · 3 years
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I'm concerned. I'm not expecting any notes on this, but whatever. I hate how this has become a vent blog, but whatever. I need to talk about this.
I was sorta in a good mood today and I was talking about my interests all happy, talking about my fave slipknot member, my fave homestuck trolls, my fave mcr member, my fave animes, like idk I just felt happy.
I was talking cos my mom said she would listen but the whole time I was trying to talk about my interests she kept interjecting with these weird questions and comments and I felt like she didnt care about what I was saying, or like she wasn't listening??? And it was lowkey hurtful because these are... my interests. I'm really into this stuff. Like "hey, I'm gonna talk about things I like."
But the concerning part is the things she interrupted with. Like... it's very insensitive of her to bring up dark shit like that when I'm... happy... talking about my fave bands.... its VERY insensitive. The very mention of these things makes me UPSET but she doesn't seem to care? I need to mentally prepare to talk about these things. Talking about these things makes me feel drained and upset the rest of the day. These things HURT. It's like I was stabbed and I'm slowly pulling the blade out. So to try and talk about it when I'm caught off guard is so fucking insensitive, so fucking mean and HURTFUL. Okay? I found that hurtful. Obviously she doesnt know what shes talking about really, like the way she speaks I can TELL she doesnt know what shes talking about, but idk, it still hurts. Even if that wasnt her intention.
She kept being like "how are you feeling... inside? How are you feeling about your body? Are you still trans? Was it a phase? Are you depressed? Are you okay? I want you to see a psychologist" With this Concerend Voice and this Worried Face And like... woah okay way to barrage me with deep shit the moment I sit down to relax and be happy. I wasnt ready for these sorts of questions so I got scared.
My mom doesnt get like this unless she notices I've hurt soemone or myself. My parents dont start to care until someone's been physically hurt. I ask her why shes being so weird. She responds with "I've seen something I shouldn't have."
THATS SO FUCKING CONCERNING. WHAT DID SHE SEE? my bloody band aids and shit are still there, my knife is still there, nothings been touched in my room. Where my shorts too short today? Was my thigh visible? Did she see my breakdown on the sidewalk?
I never got to know the details of what she had seen and how, because she started saying shit like "u better not be cutting omg I'm gonna tell ur dad :) if you wont tell me :)" and she was acting all upset but like... DOES SHE REALIZE THE HARM SHES DOING? if she tells my dad he will be angry. Bye bye phone, bye bye video games, music, art, bye bye anything I ever loved, hello intense therapy that I'm just gonna lie my way through anyway.
So like, all these questions about "are you cutting urself? Show me. You better not be." Made me fucking SCARED. I'm afraid. I feel like a little rabbit running away from a wolf. I said I was tired, wanted to sleep, and I got the hell outta there.
But I'm concerend. Because she KNOWS I relapsed. I might be punished for this. And I dont want to be.
I don't want to see a fucking psychologist either. I'm fucking done with psychologists. Nobody can understand the complexities of my issues like I can. Nobody can understand like I do. Nobody can help me except myself. I've seen a few and... I never really told EVERYTHING. Some things are too personal to tell people. Some things are too serious. Some things will get you in trouble, in deep fucking trouble. Some things I can't discuss with any sort of adult in my life.
I just need to.... pull myself together?
God its painful. I don't think I'll ever get better. I just need to get better at hiding it, keeping it down. Not acting up.
I barely even know what's wrong myself, how is someone who doesnt even know me gonna help. How. Literally I've had them deny anything was wrong with me, I've had them tell me i was a horrible person, I've had them upset at me.... only good therapist I've ever had was the one who diagnosed me with GD. But that's because it was for a diagnosis. In and out. Quick.
Now I need to deal with complex, deep rooted issues and I DONT WANT TO!!!! I dont want to go to fucking therapy and cry and come out feeling like I've been beat up and go in the car pretending I wasnt just crying 2 seconds ago in some office.
All this shit that's resurfacing? I give up. I'm not gonna deal with it. I'm gonna push it right back where it was before in the back of my mind in a locked box. Because that's where it's best kept. It's too MUCH to discuss and work thru. It's too complex... so complex I feel like I cant tell truth from fiction.... too complex to discuss and work thru.
Best to just pretend it never happened.
AND MOVE ON!!! IM SUCH A STUPIF FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT IDIOT. Why am I stuck on old stuff that happened a long time ago. Why. Get over it pussy. Get over it you stupid fucking baby. I'll kill you.
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faunusrights · 4 years
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OFFAL HUNT REMASTERED LIVEBLOG //CHAPTER 20
i mispelt the title as ‘oofal hunt’ which, i mean, mood,
IN THIS EPISODE OF DEPRESSION TO THE MAX:
"Fuck you."
THAT’S IT. THAT’S-- THERE’S THE CHAPTER.
/looks at the chosen lyrics for this chap :hrm:
do i still have to a little introduction to this liveblog? twenty chapters in? methinks not so lets just get right Tew It shall we
“We’re here, Ms. Fall.”
/marks this next section down on the tally of cinder’s mistakes. we’re somewhere in the high thousands.
An old Dust extraction point, quietly rotting. Cinder’s mouth pulled. There was an abysmal dearth of kindling.
cinder: you know you could at least take me somewhere better suited for me to kick your ass. this is VERY rude. am NOT a fan. my yelp review will NOT be kind.
i love cinder counting up the numbers. you know honestly id be deeply charmed if someone saw it fit to bring half an army out to take me on. i mean, would it be a pain in my ass? yes. but also. awh. thanks lads! love how many of you blocked out this evening just for me x
"Sienna Khan!" Cinder could barely hear herself between the claws of that strange laughter. "Sienna Khan! It’s really—really—you!"
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uh-oh sisters,
oh man sienna and cinder is just. look. WOOF. theres a lot here. a lot going on. a lot that HAD gone on. but also im gay so this tension is peak for me PLEASE lay it on thick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LETS GO!
Cinder stopped laughing.
"Overkill," she repeated, and in the same breath, crossed the tarmac in full immolation.
HELL YEAH BABEY. but also was the more the implication that cinder is an easy kill OR the implication that glynda’s the bigger threat that’s more annoying,,,,,,,,,,,,, well!!!!!!!! too late to find out now!!!!!!!!!!!!!
They clashed: once, twice, three times, steel on Aura, flitting through space, but—he wasn't faster than Glynda.
wait it’s the former i forgot cinder’s gay nvm
“Cinder. I mean it. I want to talk.” Sienna’s face revealed nothing. Her gaze stayed fixed on Cinder, as if she were searching for something.
What it could be, Cinder had her guesses, and all of them repulsed her utterly. She spat, “Well, I was only planning on sending your Lieutenant’s head to you in a box signed Love Cinder, so I didn’t really come with a speech prepared.”
SDHJGHJGSKFD SORRY IM LIKE. tryna liveblog but im also just :EYES: at everything here.......... im SO PUMPED for this cause im just SO CURIOUS,,,,,, WE’VE HAD SO MANY SNIPPETS,,,,,,,,, BUT IM HONGRY FOR MORE,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
that said i feel like cinder’s the type of person who revisits arguments in her head hours later with new, better points, so i think she does have a speech prepared. in fact i think she has many words stored up in the ol’ meatspace, and all of them are very rude,
The Sienna Khan that Cinder remembered still had baby-fat in her cheeks and hadn’t learned to keep her thoughts off her face. The one she saw now had weaponized distance.
/stage whisper hang on that visual is cute dont put it in HERE where the TENSION IS
Quietly, Sienna went for her belt, pulling away something the same polished silver as her whip. It might have been an arrow tip, except that it was lethally barbed and looked like it had been modified to chamber Dust. Pale blue glinted within it.
Cinder darkened. "Ice Dust?"
sienna: i wanna talk sienna: with violence!
GOD ITS REAL INTERESTING CAUSE,,,,,,,,,, THERE’S A LOT HAPPENING HERE. glynda didnt Know cinder in any sense so we’ve very much been on the ‘let’s figure cinder out with glynda’ train like the whole. the rain! and the desert! etc! all very much thru the lens of glynda ‘i dont remember shit’ goodwitch! so now we have seinna who Knows Shit cause there’s so much history here and im like blease wait talk more first i want the KNOWLEDGE
[...] "Roman Torchwick is holed up in Vytal with your warehouses, and those two teens haven’t been sighted in months... But you wouldn't send them that far north, would you?”
“I wouldn’t send them anywhere you could get your claws in them.”
“The White Fang isn’t like that anymore. We don’t strong-arm children into our ranks. That girl—the snake Faunus—”
“If you say one more word about her,” Cinder said. “I’m going to do something drastic to every single person here.”
ACTUALLY TALK LESS TALK LESS LETS FIGHT RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!! AND NOT TALK!!!!!!!! A T A L L
Sienna's shoulders leveled. "This is not Hróðvitnir's White Fang anymore."
me: huh why do i recognise that name,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, me: oh yeah!!!!!!! that bitch,
HJGDSJKHGFDS we Love a homage to a classic au and to a cinder so good that id die for her. i mean id die for this cinder too but like that was another level of Die For. anyway. back to the au at hand,
“If I didn’t know better, I might believe you," Cinder snapped, and her old scars throbbed in tandem. “But I do know better. I found one of your parasites, sucking the life out of a town near the wastes. Bringing the White Fang’s protection. You should have seen how he protected them. There wasn't a child there without a fang or an antler missing."
hang on a sec, lets LEAP BACK in time for just a moment
okay so i nipped back to chapter five for just a hot second to see if there was a line that was particular pertinent, but also i found smthng else...
Violence collected at her twitching fingers, old scars across her body flaring with phantom pain. (Chapter 5)
“If I didn’t know better, I might believe you," Cinder snapped, and her old scars throbbed in tandem. (Chapter 20)
HM,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, man. cinder. you got real fucked up huh. ANYWAY THAT WASNT WHAT I WAS LOOKING FOR I JUST LINED THE CONTINUITY (because im jealous). what i was ACTUALLY looking for was THIS:
There would be another overseer, the inhabitants would resume their harried lives, and Cinder wouldn’t spare this town a second thought.
i said at the time in an emotional fit of pain that this was a straight-up lie but cinder is nothing if not a melting pot of emotional reckoning, and I WAS RIGHT. LET IT BE INSCRIBED UNTO THE STONES!!!! SHE DID SPARE IT A SECOND THOUGHT!!!!!!!! HELD IN HER MIND LONG ENOUGH TO RECALL THE DETAILS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JUST 2 SPIT IT IN SIENNA’S FACE!!!!!!!!! im telling you that cinder has SO MUCH MORE GOING ON!!!!!!!!!!! and heres my PROOF. PROOF OF WHY SHES AN ANGEL (ONLY ON TUESDAYS THOUGH [10AM-1PM])!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Then: "Why don't you say," Sienna responded slowly, her expression slotting into place like a bullet chambering, "precisely what you mean, Cinder."
"Fuck you."
:’3c
cinder has such a way with words. i love her eloquence. remember that time glynda thought she was taking the piss out of the fact she was autistic at dinner? cinder yr a maestro. never change.
“You brought Beowolves to heel. You could turn a Goliath with a word!"
“I had—no—Aura! Nothing to protect me!”
:eyes: :thinking:
HM,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, INTERESTING??????? i feel like this is the first time we’ve heard of cinder w/o aura implicitly? unless im Stupit and dont remember a Got Dang Thing but HUH. does this. hm. huh. am i stupid. someone tell me if i missed a thing.
“This isn’t a diplomatic mission, Cinder. I simply wanted to know what their lives were worth to you—before we wipe our hands of each other for good.”
“That’s a funny way of saying only one of us is walking away from this.”
GOD,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, i LOVE this scene a lot the interplay between sienna and cinder is absolutely PEAK,,,,,,,, PEAQUE,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, im rly enjoying this. also im dying. but im enjoy it a LOT.
“The White Fang you and I grew up in doesn't exist anymore. We’re changing. But you… When did you stop caring? Was it when you cut your horns to be one of them instead?"
Dragonfire scorched Cinder's lungs, blackening every word: "I was never—your—people."
feels like its been a good goddamn whilst since i got to do one of these 👈😎👈, so let’s savour the moment
👈👈👈👈👈👈😎👈👈👈👈👈👈
aaaaaand savoured. lets continue.
Shaking with the effort of holding her strike, Sienna grit, "I won't relish this."
And Cinder howled, "I will!”
ah shit i shouldve said lets RELISH this to tie the whole theme together and-- and fuck it, combat scene. never good at liveblogging these. sdfjhgsdfghj
Gunfire sparked against her, but she honed in on him with single-minded intent, the kind she’d whetted to a razor’s edge against Glynda.
for a chapter following cinder escaping glynda, she’s thought about her TWICE now. huh. huh. interesting. gay. and interesting,,,,,,
It was nothing like fighting Glynda. This was bleak and repetitive: the second drove forward and Sienna covered his openings, stopping Cinder before she could rip his heart from his chest, and all the while, the gunfire whittled away at her Aura. It was a joyless tactic, no flair or heart, and yet—
HUH. GAY AND INTERESTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO FLAIR OR HEART,,,,,,,,,, i cant believe every time they fought cinder was actually just doing a shit job of flirting. the more you know.
The world erupted into flames. They grew massive, swirling around her like a hurricane—Cinder’s Aura exploded outward in desperation, like a dying star defiantly spending the last of itself on a supernova; one final flare, brighter than entire galaxies, if only for a single moment. Cinder felt flashes of bright pain through her muscles as if the fire was burning her from inside.
MAN,,,,,,,,,,,,, I COULD TALK ABT SOME UH,,,,,,,,,,,,, well. i could talk abt a few things here. but theyre kinda 👈😎👈 so i WONT,,,,,,,,,,,,,, but kno that i am having some Thoughts on the matter. hm.
“Prove it!” Death was thrumming in her veins. It had never made her brave before. It did now, the memory of Glynda’s blind, resolute stare heady in her skull. “Come and prove it! Do it, or I’ll hunt you to your last, miserable breath, Sienna!”
so remember when glynda had her little outburst at winter and i said that i love how cinder rubbed off on glynda in the worst way? i cant believe glynda ALSO rubbed off on cinder ALSO in the WORST WAY!!!! this is how u know this truly is a soulmates thing.
“It’s a shame you outgrew your swords, Cinder Fall. I would have taken them as a trophy,”
it’s with great disappointment that i must say: i agree with adam. the swords were hot. they should come back.
Sienna’s footsteps were whispers at Cinder’s back. The trap was closing. Cinder pooled flame in one palm. The other hand was useless, limp at her side. Impotent rage tasted like blood in her mouth. “I don’t even remember your fucking name.”
HJGKDSFKJHGFSDJDHGF GOD IM SORRY BUT THIS MADE ME LAUGH. WHAT A LINE. WHAT A LINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i may actually have to draw this scene that image is SO wonderful. just cinder, staggering, exhausted, and she still manages to just spit that out. im screaming. shes a champion. i think she won this battle literally just there pack it up her burns come in more flavours than one.
Beneath Cinder, Hati turned, scanning for an escape, but she didn’t drop Sienna’s gaze. Wiping the sweat from her brow, she said, “I’m told I’m something of a menace.”
firstly: AAAAAAAAA HATI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BABY BOY OH NO THATS NO GOOD BAD TIMES AWFUL FEELS MY GUY!!!!!!!!!!!! secondly: CINDER THESE ZINGERS ARE UNREAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JESUS CHRIST. I KNEW YOU LIED WHEN YOU DIDNT HAVE A SPEECH HOW MUCH MATERIAL HAVE YOU GOT IN THERE?????????
OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD
WAIT WHAT HANG ON
WHAT
WAIT
W H AT
okay wait hold on lets dial back i read ahead and dint live blog wait rthereghsdfgjhdffd HOLD ON
Cinder buried her face in Hati’s mane, hating them, hating, hating, hating. Black ichor clotted in Hati’s fur, tacky against her palms. Grimm didn’t have Auras to protect them, and exit wounds riddled Hati’s mighty body. Cinder’s heart lurched with fury. She could have screamed.
i read this bit and got STRESSED because hati is PEAK like hati didnt even fucking SHOW UP in og but i LOVE HIM and i knew shit would happen because its fucking offal hunt BUT
It should have been impossible at this distance, but Cinder could feel her gaze like traded blows, even nestled among the black of Hati’s pelt.
Sienna’s eyes shone like coins. They were cool, detached. Prepared.
She twisted her wrist and the whip flickered through the air in tight wheels. Its end glittered pale blue.
UH OH
Adrenaline cooled to permafrost in Cinder’s body, as though the Dust had already found its home between her ribs.
Cinder whispered, “Don’t.”
UH OH
Expressionless, Sienna gave a wide lash, and the jagged end of her whip released with a click. Silver sliced through the air, then through feathers and fur, with a sickening sound—wet and meaty as the arrowhead dagger buried itself deep into flesh. Hati’s whole body shuddered and Cinder only had a moment more before ice exploded from his ribs, ripping out through his pelt, even slicing into Cinder’s own skin. It speared him from deep inside, where the cartridge had sunk, impaling everything and rending him asunder.
JESUS JESUS CHRIST AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
JESUS CHRIST WHAT A VISCERAL DEATH SCENE HOLY SHIT OH MY GOD OH NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! O H N O T H A T S A N O G O O D V E R Y B A D T I M E
Cinder’s stomach jumped into her throat, and she held on tight to Hati, her bastion, her sanctuary, her family—held on tight like it would make any difference at all—like she could hold her family together with just her own two hands.
Hati dissolved right between her fingertips, and she plummeted alone.
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like she could hold her family together with just her own two hands
OUGH what the FUCK
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA HEY THIS. HEY THIS SUCKED HEY THIS WAS A BAD CHAPTER WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT WAS HATI!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT WAS MY BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!! GO TO HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
EXCUSE ME????????? WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?????????? HELLO??????????? WHAT THE FUCK????????? SIENNA???????? BITCH?????????? GO TO H E L L
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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pinkykitten · 5 years
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Say yes
Harry Potter
Young! Remus Lupin x potter! female reader
Warning: none
Specifics: romance, angst, fluff, potter reader, one-shot
People: remus lupin, james potter
Words: 1,164
Requested: By anon Helloo hun! So, I am in love with ur blog, and I've been wondering if you could right 10 and 19 from the angst prompt list with young!remus x potter!reader, like they are engaged and then he says he changed his mind but it's because of his furry little problem, and the reader knows but he won't admit it, it ends in fluff and all that lol. Anyways, I understand if ur not comfortable with that, but thanks anyways! Keep going with the good work!!;)))
Prompts:
10 - “change in mind or change in heart?”
19 -  “don’t say that.”
Authors Note: im sorry i haven’t been posting for a while my peeps its just ive had a lot on my plate atm and im just trying to sort thru that stuff now. but i will keep trying to write all the requests its just you guys pls be patient with me i rlly do appreciate u guys and ur kindness thank you. hope you guys enjoy this! 
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It was always killing him. That feeling inside where he had to make a decision. Let you suffer and give in to the temptations and selfish deeds of your love or take that all away so you wouldn’t have to endure the painful life of being with Remus. It made him heartbroken to have to think of calling the marriage off. All he wanted in life was to be with you for the rest of his life. 
He would lie awake at night, fighting with himself as he stared at your sleeping form. His heart rate quickened as he would glance at your chest, rising up slowly and then down. The way you mumbled in your sleep and clutched onto nothing. He adored the way your eyelashes kissed your cheeks a thing he too would like to do. He had to leave, but he didn’t want to. Yes, no. This was an ongoing thing day and night until he finally made the decision. 
You would catch yourself day dreaming about paradise with Remus as you looked at the ring Remus got you. The day was magical and the thought of declaring your love for one another sent you over the moon. You would call him yours one day. 
You gave a sigh as you looked at the delicate ring once more. “Oh Remus, what am I to do with you?”
Remus was sitting in his favorite chair reading a book. The room fell silent with no answer. As you looked at him you saw that he was tremendously focused in whatever he was reading, he was truly captured. 
“Love...love...Remus!”
Remus shook startled and blushed shyly, “yes darling?”
You chuckled lightly at his actions and smiled, “I was just saying how beautiful this ring is. It really is. Its so perfect, so dainty. Thank you.”
Remus felt bad. He felt guilty that he would have to drop the terrible news on you, especially that you were so excited for something like this. Remus stood up, closing his book and brushing his trousers. “Love?”
“Yes?”
He rubbed his hands and bit his lip, “I have to tell you something.” You were sitting as he motioned over to you. You felt odd and could sense something was wrong. You knitted your brows, worried. “Remus, dear, is there something wrong?”
Remus so badly wanted to tell you, “yes there is something wrong! With me!” but he didn’t have the courage. He didn’t have the guts to tell you that he was insecure and worried you wouldn’t really want to spend the rest of your life with him because of his issues with being a werewolf. 
“Yes y/n...I regretfully hate to tell you this but we cannot get married.” He uttered the treacherous words as he took a hold of your hands. 
You were shocked, thinking you heard wrong. You stood up suddenly and look confused, “what? Remus, why not?”
Remus didn’t think of an excuse or anything. “Um because I’m not ready to marry you y/n.”
Tears were starting to appear in your e/c eyes, “No, please, don’t say that. Did my brother and his dumb friends put you up to this. If so its not funny!”
Remus gulped and tried with all his might to hold back more tears, “Its true y/n. We cannot get married. We cannot be together no longer. I don’t...I don’t love you anymore.”
You had to take a seat and fell down on the couch. Your heart split into two, but your mind was racing with a million thoughts. “I , I don’t know what to say. I thought you loved me, I thought you wanted to get married. We’ve been through so much together! Even when you hated yourself I was there for you, always have! Why would you say this?”
Remus tried to hold back the tears. Biting his lips to stop them from quivering. He clenched his fists, trying to fight the black hollow feeling in his chest. All he wanted was to be with you, to hold you, to love you from now to forever. “I just...can’t y/n. I can’t.”
You were feeling so many emotions. You shook your head and just gave him up. Your voice was rough and shallow, almost a whisper. “You need to decide Remus do you want to change in mind or change your heart?” 
You were about to leave him a when Remus blurted out, “wait!”
“What Remus? What more can you say? What else do you want to tell me to break my heart more?”
Remus finally let the tears come out and he sat in his chair, pulling his locks and hating himself. He sobbed quietly, softly almost to himself. You just looked at him, irate but then realizing what the issue was. 
“The problem isn’t me...is it?”
Remus shook his head as he bit his lips.
You then realized it, he was trying to brake the engagement off because he was insecure. He hated himself more than anything. 
“Its because you are different.”
Remus didn’t want you to know this. He thought it would make him seem weak and you would hate him more. He shot up and looked all over your face, “no love its not what you think, its just-” He was a loss for words. 
You motioned to him and cupped his face, “I know you Remus, but you need to tell me. You need to open up to me, tell me the truth.”
It took Remus a little while and then he finally gave in, “I hate myself y/n. I hate what I am and I’m scared about frightening you or even worse hurting you. I can’t let that happen. You need to stay far away from me.”
You kissed him harshly, closing you eyes, feeling your eyelashes meet your cheeks. Your warm hands squished his cheeks to get him closer to you. Your tongue touched his for a moment. You felt complete and utter love for him. You didn’t care what he was, all you felt in that moment, all along was love. 
“I don’t care what you are Remus I could never hate you. I don’t mind that you are a werewolf. To me you are special and important. There of course will be trials along the way but together,” you laced your fingers with his. “We can do it. I just know it.”
Remus whispered, full of love for you as he rested his forehead against yours. “I’m scared love.”
“Its okay darling, we’ll go through it. We’ll make it.” 
Remus kissed you again, sweetly. You tasting cinnamon twists danish on his tongue from breakfast. 
“I love you so much y/n. Please forgive me for ever making you cry like that.”
“I do, but you gotta make it up to me.”
Remus got on his knees and grasped your hand in his, “my sweetheart, will you do me the honor of being my wife?”
You chuckled ans grinned, “I would love to...husband.”
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trixie1997-blog · 5 years
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27 yr old married elementary school teacher Mrs Burnsville, aka Sophie , drove down to her alma mater university one Saturday to visit her little brother Chris who is a freshman there now. After a half hour drive down the interstate, she found his dorm and knocked to see him and give him a gift for his birthday...
"Happy birthday Chris!" She yelled as the door opened and Chris her little brother was startled then they hugged ..
They chatted in his dorm for an hour then she got up to leave as she called her husband.
Chris asked as her sister walked out the door, "hey Sophie. Does dad still give you money on a weekly basis like he did in college?" . She laughed and said "no because I asked him to stop 2 years ago. I earn my own money teaching 4th grade brats and Luke (her hubby) makes over triple what I make In his career field, so there was no need for him to keep giving me 10 thousand a week. I could ask him to do it once again and he would tho" she smiled. Chris said "yup, hes your favorite out of all 7 of us".
Sophie giggled and said thats true. She had always been the most spoiled kid growing up compared to her 3 brothers and 3 sisters. Her dad was a super rich businessman and owned big stakes in 2 successful corporations along with other companies he owns fully. he is racist as it gets tho. And even sophie gets upset sometimes when he says bigoted things to this day.
Sophie then talked to her hubby as she walked to her car across the park in campus. She noticed some dudes checking her out as she wore her short shorts and knew her big thick bottom was sticking out and her thighs were jiggling too. She was thick but not out of shape, just what boys seemed to like about her she thought as she reminisced on her college days. All the dicks she had put in her those 4 years , Theres no counting how many dudes she fucked. They were all white boys as she always had been into white dudes only and was basically raised in an all white rich town. She was about to get in her Hummer and leave to go home , but she saw the new library just completed a year ago and decided to finally go in it. She walked around and admired it and noticed how it was almost twice the size of the old one PM campus . She then left out the back door of the library and saw a stage and heard music near the basketball arena on campus. She looked at her phone to see the date and remembered it was the annual FALL MUSIC FEST that happened on campus every October 15th . She used to love going to it as a student with her sorority sisters and her roommates. She decided to jog over and check it out after all these years.
She watched the concert and crowd of students and talked with an old professor of hers for a few minutes , then excused herself to get some water. As she walked to the water vendor on the other side of the field, she took a shortcut thru the crowd of students but eventually got stuck between them.
Dancing and shouting and singing all around her. She smiled remembering how she used to do this. She slowly made her way to the vendor as she got out of the crowd finally and bought her a bottle of water. Then as she turned around, she bumped into a tall muscular darkskin dude. His name was MarQuez and he was a star football player and 20 yrs old. He began flirting with her while his black buddies behind him laughed. After a few minutes of talking with MarQuez, she finally decided to leave because her hubby and her 4 month old baby boy Trevor was waiting for her to get home and relax with them. But as she began to walk off MarQuez grabbed her and his strength shocked her and turned her on.
She giggled and asked what he was doing. He kept advancing on her and got in her face and looked down at her green eyes and dark brown hair as he put his large black hands on her waist and squeezed. He asked how old she was and she shook and blushed and got kinda wet and said "27 yrs old, what about you haha"
He told her he was 20 and a football player and student here and she told him she was an alumni and used to be apart of the big sorority on campus when she attended here years ago. He kept groping and squeezing and felt her thighs. He flirted more and asked if her husband would care if he borrowed her for the afternoon as he saw her wedding ring. She shook and wet her panties again and blushed and said "well I'm not cheating on my husband. Never have been a cheater. I've been around the block with dudes in my younger days, but never did cheat on any of the men i dated. And wont now." She was turned on secretly and tried to hide it but Marquez saw thru it and knew she wanted to hook up. He knew he got this hot white milf reeled in.
He whispered in her ear something dirty and insulting to her husband. She gasped and tried not to smile but she naturally slowly did then playfully slapped his strong chest. She said "does your mother know you talk to women in such a way, Marquez" and smiled. He then said "if my mom knew a white woman your age was wanting to fuck her black son, she would wanna whoop your ass, white girl. But I wouldn't let her. I love my momma , but I am down for white pussy. Never been with a white woman your age." He smiled.and grabbed her throat. She panted and blushed and said "you been with any white girl before, negro?" And winked.and grinned. He laughed and said "I knew you were a freak deep down inside. And yeah a few times. This year. Many times over the past few years. Since I turned 16 I been knee deep in white hoe pussy. But I want some white older woman pussy like you. Let's go to my apartment. My roommates are gonna be here for the rest of the event, so we got it to ourselves. She blushed and nodded and followed him.
She texted her hubby "Hey babe, I'm going to visit an old roommate while I'm at the university. She lives a few blocks away from the campus. Be hole a little later. Love you." It was a lie she felt guilty typing and sending, but she was turned on by the taboo nature of fucking a black college dude. Her racist dad and his ways , her racist brothers too, her racist family entirely. Cheating with a black college dude, especially one like Marquez who's very very tall and has huge muscles and has charisma and swag and is dark skinned and dominant.. its worth it even if it is wrong to cheat. She never had cheated till now. She never wanted a big black cock inside her body until now. She was about to get it.
Marquez and her got to his apartment and she smelt some weed as soon as the door closed behind the two. He asked if she wanted to roll a blunt before fuckin and she said no thanks but would love some wine . Marquez said he only has beer. She declined and said "no reason to get me loosened up, Marquez. Dont need any booze or weed. I just gave birth to a wonderful baby boy a few months ago, me and my husband's creation. If I could get thru child birth, I can handle what ever your packing under those boxers. She pulled back on his Jean's and giggled then looked up at him. He smiled and they began to kiss.. they made out and rolled around for several minutes. Marquez turned on the TV and put it on some romance music TV station and she giggled and said "you really want to get me going huh". Marquez said "I dont love you, I barely know you. But I know if I wanna get you to fuck like a freak, I need you to forget about your husband and son and just vibe with me, hoe. This sex r and b music will help I'm sure haha." She said "I'm sophie by the way. Mrs Burnsville to my 4th graders I teach." He laughed and said "well dont teach them about anything you gonna learn from sex with a black dude like me. A brother like.me is hung and you gonna feel that soon. All the white girls should fuck black dudes, we got bigger dicks than other men. Especially me hahaha". She giggled and dug her fingernails in his strong back and said "I wont tell any one anoth this. Especially 4th graders for gods sake. Hahah, now fucking give me your black penis, fuckin nigger"
She said the n word with such a playful yet snobby arrogance and smile and it made him wanna destroy her white body. He yhen said "I fuckin will " and smiled then choked her and kissed her more.
They finally stripped down and got to his bedroom
She juggled his big black balls in her mouth when she jerked him off and massaged his big dark black ballsack with her hands while she sucked his bbc. After being on her knees choking on nigga dick for over 40 minutes , they got on his bed. and she laid between his big thighs and kept sucking. She jerked his bbc and licked under his ballsack from the back ( nearly licking his ass crack, back to the front of his balls) as she jerked him off while staring with her green eyes up at him groaning . She looked deep in his dark brown eyes and juggled those black balls in her mouth with her tongue as she jerked his cock. She then asked "So you gonna unload that fuckin cum out of those balls for me, black boy?" And he said "Oh fuck" as he squinted while she sucked his sack super hard , his testicles feeling inside of her wet warm mouth. His big large black feet curled in pleasure and his muscular body tensed up and flexed as she sucked his balls hard and looked up at him while jerking his bbc. He then said he would dump his cum inside her if she wants
She giggled and blushed and got all wet thinking about that. She loved the nasty sweaty scent around his balls and thighs and asscrack. It was kinda sweaty down here and she even felt a few hairs on his big dark ballsack in her mouth as she sucked. She loved worshipping this nigger boy.
She finished up giving head and eventually they got to fucking. He was the biggest she had ever had by far. she whined and screamed.for hours and came many times. It was painful and pleasuring. He was so huge all around and her body was truly.aching feeling such a giant cock deep in her. Child birth pained her alot but this giant nigger penis absolutely.hurt her mightily too. His bbc was giant. And after hours of riding it, it was still painful but super pleasuring too. He was more than three times the size of her hubby , and very well more than 4 times the size. The bbc was the biggest cock she ever had in her life.
As she was near orgasming for the final time she clenched and held onto the 20 Yr old black bull and gave him a hickey on his throat. His darkskin was so black she wondered if her hickey would show on his neck But she knew she wanted to try.and she sucked hard on his strong neck. One of her hands grabbed his muscular neck, feeling his large traps flex as well, while her other hand kept clawed into his muscular back.
She then whined out as he pounded faster than he had the entire night , "OHHH YASSS FUCK ME MARQUEZ YESSSSS, NIGGER BOY YASSSS
my racist fucking father would be sickened, if he knew of this. Fuck me nigger yasssss"
Her pedicured toes curled and then flexed out as her white thighs jiggled and clapped against his strong dark body. He pulled out and grunted "oh fuck yeah bitch" and she whined "fuck oh jesus christ God almighty fuck yessss" as they both came out on each other. They laid in each others sweat and cum
She let him hold her .
He was so strong and tall and stout and a brute.
They then took a bath together after she begged him too. She kissed on him and he kissed on her . She even jerked his bbc some with her feet and said "My hubby never has even gotten this , haha" . Marquez groaned jn the tub and said "my boys, my teammates. DaQuon Jamal Lashawn Daveon , they would run a train on you like crazy woman. You would def be having a black baby for sure if you hooked with them." He laughed and sipped some beer. She said "fuck if I have a black baby, its gonna be yours." He smiled and said "maybe we can arrange it."
She put her tiny little feet under his big black butt as they sat in the shower. She wiggled her tiny toes under his ass and he asked "why you nearly lick my ass and now your feet under my ass" he laughed. She said "I didnt try to lick your ass, I wanted to lick your balls all over, stud." He said "good cuz ain't no one touching my asshole. I'll eat your ass out, but dont ever get close with that tongue again to my ass. " she said "but you enjoyed having your balls cleaned by my little mouth didnt you?" He smiled and said yeah he did but he still says she was too close to licking his ass crack. He then says "you gotta go home and kiss your husband, after you nearly licked my ass, you a sexy freak " hahah.
She then said "well come give this freak some love once more time while the bathwater is warm still. I wanna feel your sexy big strong body on top of me again before I go home to my baby boy Trevor and hubby." He then nodded and began to kiss her and got atop her and she hugged on him, as he held her neck above the water to his chest while kissing on her. She blushed and felt like she was on cloud nine. Her little face on his chest as he kissed her face and neck.
After she dried off and got dressed , he escorted her out the apartment and he said "tell your son trevor that maybe he will have a black brother or sister soon. Depending on you and whenever you wanna come back and get it again. " she grinned and giggled and blushed and said "you should come to my home. Me and my husband own a big 4 story house. Not as big as the mansion I grew up in, but really nice and has a pool outback also. You grew up in the hood, I grew up rich and spoiled rotten. You deserve to yet a taste of living in a mansion sometime. Live with me a few days. Next time my husband is outta town, I'll call you." They agreed on that plan.
Months later, she screamed under Marquez as he fuckdd the shit put of her in the Sam's bed her.and her husband slept every night together. her husband was on a business trip, for a few days. So now Marquez was taking his place for a few days. And as she screamed at the top of her lungs, he shot his semen in her. She was going to give her baby trevor a black sibling
Her hubby was cucked and diddnt know it at all.
She looked in marquez's eyes as she felt his cum in her and smiled and said "guess this baby ain't gonna have white skin or blonde hair or green or blue eyes. this one will look like you. Marquez. My husband is definitely gonna be heartbroken and angry once he sees a black baby come out between mylegs, haha. I guess I should already prepare for the Divorce"
Marquez smiled and said her husband is gonna be pissed off and wanna fight I'm sure. He said "But I bet when he sees me, he wont wanna fight. You and him are both rich as shit. So make him pay child support"
She skilled and said "I wont need child support help from him. My family has millions as you know. But I'm sure i'll try and make him pay it for our black baby anyways. Cant believe I'm cucking my husband."
They hugged on each other and fell asleep.
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backwashhoneypot · 5 years
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6/2/2019
“Oh Honey”
It’s the song I play to feel loved
I close my eyes, pretend I’m in the lap of a lover
The sun just went to bed for the night
The moon is at her most powerful peak in the sky
Candles sit on corner tables
encapsulating the moment
Grins sit on our faces
Never wavering
Hands play mindlessly on the small of my back
I don’t have to question the love I feel flowing through your skin and into me
This is how I get away
I open my eyes, the fantasy slips away with the opportunity of requited love
fleeting bliss
the intangible chance to be somewhere else
aside from this dusty garage
I get so lost in this confined place
this simultaneous sanctuary can easily feel like a cage
the air is so still
its hard to breathe
not an ideal place for a bird like me
but grateful nonetheless to have a nest to rest in
however temporary this refuge may be
I feel like a small pile of flesh with a pair of eyes
 in a sea of old possessions
Surrounded by hobbies I felt forced to put down in the past for whatever reason that suited me at the time
I can be super creative
been making more excuses than art lately
a constant reminder of past failed endeavors 
starting to realize you weren't as big of a problem as I made you out to be
I really did create a lot of those issues with my own self serving actions
I wanted my cake
& to eat it too
Here I was trying to project positive thoughts but I feel so fake trying to be anything other than how I really feel on the inside right now
I’m gonna be real right now 
My emotional health is sub par
My Physical health is bad right now
I keep fueling myself with poison after poison
Substance after mind altering substance
Fast food after fast food
value menu diet
I am so addicted to food as a coping mechanism 
(thank you dad)
I can experience anything even the slightest bit emotionally taxing and that will be enough for me to spend my last few bucks I happen to stumble upon in my flat broke stupor
 on satiating that beast 
That “hangry,” sou-less, passive aggressive, flake-Lisa
just another impulsive drive-thru indecision 
Just One Of Those Days...
Right?
I do this thing where I play Russian roulette with my ATM card
anxiety has made its home out of the void in the pit of my stomach
 I seek to fill this hole
“Jennifer,” takes my plastic life preserver out of my hand and swipes
I avoid eye contact with her and put on my best
“I have my shit together,” smile.
I have no idea what my balance must be anymore
But I wont let her know that
And I will play dumb when she tells me it declines
And the cycle will continue
And my pride will keep me
reserved
secretive
struggling
drowning
I have become so comfortable in this rut
My ankles have dried here knee deep in this mud
I can’t move forward, or take any steps back
I can’t restore myself to a healthier time like I can with my slow asf computer
I stay chillen in my denial....
Instead of:
- asking for help
-breaking down
-facing these issues
-going to NA
-going to therapy
-going anywhere
-making any attempts at all to change
( aside from making vague internet posts about this shit )
And I always feel like such a buzzkill when I express this to anyone
I don’t understand why its such a bad thing for me to outwardly make it known that I feel like shit
I don’t understand this second world that my brain creates
I wish my mind would stop being extra
stop working overtime
I have run myself raged 
questioning every little thing
Every single nights a fright
You’re right Fiona Apple
And maybe
All Pain Does Deserve To Be Felt
But I have worked too hard to avoid physically self harming
I thought that there would be more helo with this invisible self harm we all seem to have as a constant
Aren’t we all just wearing at the seams
every time we lie
or don’t say how we really feel
we fuck without feeling
we eat until we’re full or when we are bored
we enable on another
we seduce
we manipulate
we profit off of someone else
we do a substance in order to function any other way than we normally would
to increase speed, efficiency, endurance
to relax, to eat, to sleep, to function
to think
to feel
to be social.......................
Why aren’t there more people talking about this
Why do I feel so exposed speaking my truth
I’m so ashamed to be abnormal
That’s the thing right there-
WHAT THE FUCK IS NORMAL??
I been trying to decide what words fascinate me most in the English language & I think it would be a tie between:
(normal, standard, average, sane, typical, regular)
These words all represent one common thing
and it is that there will always be that one standard for all things that we will subconsciously compare to
whether we are comparing ourselves, or our possessions, or experiences, or relationships 
Based off of the wisdom, experiences, and knowledge that the individual has acquired in their life
that is what we will compare these aforementioned aspects of life to
forever and always
whether we personally believe in that ideal or not
it is a side effect of being a conscious being
We are programmed that way
Unless we get down to the core of us
Getting the virus
at the root.
Pain.
I thought that was a part of the human experience
Pain, how we express it.
I don’t think there would be art without pain.
Coming back down to Earth-
 I myself, I’m pretty fucking sloppy upstairs
My mind is a creaky floorboard
It won’t shut the fuck up
and with every intrusive thought
there is an act of impulse to follow
even now basking in its own effervescence
a visual attempt to purge what has been eating me up
my thoughts ooze  out a jumbled mess of goo seeping through the keyboard
euphemisms and the over use of hyperbole
ideas that don’t really make sense, cohesion is a preference
I like my poetry like my waterfalls
Wild and chaotic
I want it to hit me hard, and fuck me up
give me shivers
make me think about my actions
reassess expectations
stray from lines, I wasn’t made for them
in these scattered attempts to get through this pain through poetry
Behold I have before me a journal entry (word vomit)
potential slam poem hybrid
This started as a post to vent about my fantasies and how claustrophobic I feel at the moment
Now I feel so free
I do not even care if this whole text is garbage
It exists here now, and not solely inside of me
All art is art
whether it looks/sounds good or not
teaching myself to find value in all of it, otherwise I value none of it
I am not just a poet when I write poetry
It is a way of thinking, a lens in which to see the world
If i try to inhibit that instinct
I might lose sight for life altogether
*Loving yourself unconditionally is such a task
*Staying real through rose colored lenses is such a task
*Acknowledging unhealthy toxic habits we possess is such a task
Today's Affirmation 6/2/2019
I know my intentions
I know when I know better, and I am aware of the consequences that follow my actions
All the while I am aware of how its gonna play out
I shall not stand on yet another shore and watch bridges burn dumbfounded
From here on out,
 I value all of it or none of it
All or Nothing
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tumblunni · 5 years
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Me in the hospital: i cannot sleep for 24 hours, the slightest noise is blaring, i am perpetually anxiety adrenaline
As soon as i get home: has the best sleep of my life
I usually take an hour to get to sleep each night but i totally just curled up like a snail and dropped into dreamland instantly. And i woke up to a nice warm house cos the heating turned on while i was asleep, and now all the anesthetic is completely worn off so i feel energized and great! And my throat pain has eased up so thankfully i wont have to be liquids only for as long as i thought. I was all hyperactive and cooked a great fancy omelette and it tastes like heaven itself! Its so weird how stuff tastes slightly diffetent when its the first time youve been able to chew with the right side of your mouth in five years. I guess the tastebuds on the sides of your tongue are slightly different? When i eat everything now im gonna be rolling it all over my mouth like WOW ITS ALL SO NEW AGAIN! Will probably look nuts in the middle of mcdonalds with my cheeks puffed like a squirrel XD
Oh and this is also a great excuse to drink loads of chocolate milkshakes from my milkshake viking mug! I feel so energized with calcium and yums!! EVERYTHING TASTES SO NEWWWWWWW
Oh man i do feel a bit sleepy again now after just being up for a few hours tho. I have these good jaw pain specific medicines i have to take for the next two weeks til my followup appointment to check if theres any infection left. But man i feel SO ALIVE AGAIN im pretty sure all the rot is gone! It feels so wild having space in my mouth and not constant clenchy tightness. It actually hurts less recovering from the surgery than it did before, lol! I can feel all my teeth moving apart again and loosening up into normality and the gums healing up all their injuries and oh god i just love how they cleaned out all the broken parts of my teeth and capped them with these great replacements that look so real you'd never be able to tell! My smile looks not ugly!! My smile looks not ugly!! Aaaaa! I just expected regaining the right side of my mouth, i didbt expect to e like "holy shit it must have hurt even more than i realized cos this feels so amazing now". Like i guess i got used to putting up with it and forgot how it felt to not have painmouth? Underestimated how good a teeth can be! And man i never asked for reconstructive cosmetic stuff too but they did these caps and aaa my teeth never looked his good even when they were new!! My front teeth were always crooked even before they did the weird balogna slam together and shattered into a pile of crap. And now they look like perfect supermodel teeth!! The only side effect is that its a lil hard to get used to the lack of gaps between them now after so long dealing with the shattered mess. My tongue keeps being like "oh no did something get stuck in the gaps again oh wait there arent any" and then i subconsciously try to clean them after taking every bite and just bite my tongue instead. Man i never noticed i picked up a bunch of weird mannerismd cos of tje bad teeth! I was constantly paranoidly checking my mouth 24/7 in case the slightest thing made it even worse, and eating super gently so that nothing accidentally touched the Wrong Tooth and set off a jolt of pain. And i actually needed to get a filling put in on the leftmost back tooth that was the ONLY TOOTH I COULD USE TO EAT WITHOUT PAIN for all this time! Overuse of it meant that it got ground down a little and probably would have become painful too if i'd left it any longer. Then i really would have been all soups all the time and that sucks!! Soups are good but nothing but then gives u stomach issues. The bad poops!!
Man sorry im rambling so much im just so hyper and happy and also still kinda dopily sleepy! Im not still delirious or anything i just feel the happy kind of sleepy where the anesthetic is all gone and its not "oh god i cant stay awake" and more natural sleepyness of a long day being over and everything being okay. I had such a good long nap and i feel well rested after getting so little sleep beforehand due to all the dumb anxiety. And i still feel dozey but happy doze~
Anyway its awesometo be able to really chug and crunch a foods! With the other side of my mouth i forgot about! And taste milkshake to its fullest extent!! Oh and whats weird is that the reconstructive surgery capping on my front teeth means that theyre kinda one tooth now? The caps are all linked in a single piece to fill the gaps fully without even the natural ones you'd have on healthy teeth. So its like a solid tooth guard just sculpted to look like three teeth. Itll be tricky to train myself out of thts subconcious rubbing the gaps with my tongue when theyre not even there. But i expect once i get over the unfamiliarity this triple cap will be really useful! Theyre totes reinforced so that even if i do get tight mouth problems again and the front teeth take the brunt of the pressure, now theres no gaps to smash into each other and become a painful mess. Its like scaffolding reinforcing my whole mouth by fixing the loadbearing beam, or something.
Oh also these pain meds make u a little bit more sleepy than normal paracetamol so i'll probably doze off again soon. But hopefully i will have slept off most of the "healing debt exhaustion" tomorrow and will be able to go walk down the shops and buy some icecream and other soft food. I mostly stocked up on purely liquid food cos i tjought my mouth function would be more limited. But honestly the teeth are working so much better than before, they were already so swollen and painful that i couldnt crunch stuff! Now the mild discomfort of mid-healing from surgery feels like barely anything and i bet i could bite thru a goddamn rock right now! I just cant really swallow crunchy stuff or stuff thats too salty or citrusy. I didnt even know about the stabbity throat pipe so i didnt expect it to be the most painful part that takes the longest to heal. It feels so weird cos i keep coughing like my brain thinks theres phelgm stuck in my throat when its actually a skin flap/blister from the insertion. So obviously that aint going anywhere and i have to try and force myself not to cough or swallow or else i set off this cjain of "must get thing out of throat must puke" reflex. And the pain feels like a sore throat but it isnt?? Its not really inflamed ot anything its just an actual friction burn on the opening of my airway. Which is not a common occurance so the brain is justvlike "what the fuck is happening, must send all contradicting signals at once!" So sore throat medicine wont work cos that goes down your throat passage to your stomach when really this lil skin tag blister thing is in the lung throat opening thing. And sucking on throat sweets made it worse cos all the muscles were really tense around the area where the tube was inserted, hence why it was hard to swallow food even tho it was my windpipe that hurt. And sucking on something is kinda like perpetually swallowing nothing, when you think about it? Im glad that the muscle tenseness is mostly gone now and the painkillers are helping with the ouch, and my brainis getting usedto not coughing and making it worse. But still should eat soft easily swallowable stuff for a lil while and it'll be fun to go aroundthe shops with my last pocketful of change and find neat ingredients to stick in omelettes. Im so excited to taste all my favourite things in new HD functional mouth power!!! And i can smile at the shopkeeper!!!
And oh man i really do think that my sleeping problems with stiff neck and that kind of 'bloodrush to the head' migraine were indeed part of the bad wisdom teeth bleeding internally under the gum. I thought it had to be that cos nothing else in my life changed around that time aside from getting a better and healthier bed which should have been beneficial to my neck. And even going back to sleepong on the floor like before didnt make a difference so it definately wasnt the bed! And it kept getting worse while nothing was changing, and i kept trying different things like changing my pillows and headphones and cutting caffeine out of my diet and eating more salt and eating less salt and fuckin ANYTHING ELSE cos i knew if it really was the dumb tooth being infected then there was nothong i could do about it til my surgery day arrived. Itd be such a relief to know for sure that it was indeed the tooth and now that nonsense is gonna be gone forever! But also thats really worrying to know that it was getting so bad it could have spread an infection to my jawbone and the top of my spine if itd been left much longer. I kept sneezing up blood lumps like the size of a fifty pence piece! Had never had nosebleeds for a decade and now suddenly all the time! God it feels so good to be able to lay my head down and not feel all woozy and tense im the forehead or neck. I really hope this good neck untenseness continues and the awful aches really were just the tooth. But everyone in the hospital was so nice that i think even if i do need a second surgery to check for jaw infection then id be able to be less nervoud than i was this time
Man do u ever get that thing where youre so peaceful and contented that like you can breathe easier? Like subconciously taking bigger breaths and the middle of your chest feels slightly puffed out and warm. I guess thats what the "heart leaping in yout chest" idiom is meant to refer to, lol! Or maybe i can just literally breathe easier cos the tooth pain might have been passing into my nasal cavity too, lol. My entire head feels so less tense!! Its like all my bones were rebelling against me and now they're at peace again!! Man i feel so giddy happy like i chugged a giant energy drink or something but its the opposite its a good sleeps drink XD
So im gonna go lie down again and have a relax and watch a movie or something and see if i pass out when the medicine kicks in, or if its not too bad and i can still continue my hyper mood. But my nap was so long that its too late to go to the shops now anyway so i'll just make more plain omelette and milkshake if i get hungry. I mean it doesnt taste plain when all my sense of taste is so amplified likethis! I dont mind if its all i can eat all week. PURE MILKSHAKEY DECADENCE
Aaaaa im just so happy!! I missed my chance to get the new. Kingdlm hearts but ive beenwaiting fkr this surgery for ages too and it feels like just as much of an exciting relief!
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benke !!!!!!
u truly want me dead but ily so- BUT OK BENKE my meme child
What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do?.2 seconds i hate him. if he HAD to sit still and he was feeling slightly more chill than usual he could prbly go five minutes. tops. he’s just rlly antsy. he needs to be doing smth w his hands
How easy is it for your character to laugh?EH not super easily but defo more easily than a lot of my other ocs from one to ten one being laughs extremely easily he’s prbly a 4. the key is to find him memes esp political nihilistic memes or fall in front of him bc he’s terrible
How do they put themselves to bed at night (reading, singing, thinking?)he doesn’t sleep. e v e r. who do u think he is?? nah jk on a more serious note, he actually doesn’t sleep very easily so usually he just listens to music until he dozes off
How easy is it to earn their trust?gosh that’s. difficult to say. p hard actually?? surprisingly hard for how much of a meme he acts like and how relatively extroverted he is. from one to ten w one meaning it’s very easy to gain his trust i’d say 7
How easy is it to earn their mistrust?he doesn’t rlly attach himself to ppl easily so it’s p easy to get him to not trust u. like he’ll be chill w u but he wont trust u all that much it’s a weird dynamic w him. w one being v easy to get him to distrust and ten very hard, he’s a 5. p much in the middle not rlly too much to one side or another
Do they consider laws flexible, or immovable?rules are great until they impede him from getting what he’s aimin for :) on a more serious note, he doesn’t rlly give a damn abt most laws like he doesn’t want to go to jail but at the same time if he’s not going to get caught he’s going to do it bc hey wtf yolo
What triggers nostalgia for them, most often? Do they enjoy that feeling?LOL NOSTALGia thats a joke he dislikes sappy things n nostalgia falls into that category but he will on v v rare occasions reminisce. certain musical pieces have that effect on him esp the classical ones as he’s grown up w music (being a practical prodigy on the piano and all). he guesses that sometimes it is kind of nice to remember. just once in a while tho. in a while being the key phrase here
What were they told to stop/start doing most often as a child?I MEAN he’s sixteen he’s still technically a child but basically the most common thing he hears is stop slacking and work harder. being an asian kid getting As is? absolutely crucial he’ll be smacked upside the head by his parents if he doesn’t so they always tell him to stop slacking tf off n actually study for once (tbh it’s fine he’s a genius practically he gets As easier than u can say banana split)
Do they swear? Do they remember their first swear word?absolutely and he doesn’t rlly remember but he thinks it was “shit”
What lie do they most frequently remember telling? Does it haunt them?once he set out twenty peeps just behind the wheels of his mom’s car and when she backed out the entire wheels got covered in peeps and when she came home saying there was all this weird gooey stuff on her wheels and looked pointedly at him. he just blurted out that it was god exacting judgement on her for her sins. it didn’t end well. he ended up washing the entire car by himself. it still haunts him to this day
How do they cope with confusion (seek clarification, pretend they understand, etc)?he’ll literally just say “what the fuck” and laugh
How do they deal with an itch found in a place they can’t quite reach?whine about it until someone scratches it for him dependent on how comfy he is around the ppl he’s with. if he’s not comfy around the ppl he’s w he’ll just sulk internally or scurry off to the bathroom and like, rub his back (presumptively that’s where he can’t reach) against the edge of the stall until the itch is gone bc he’s high
What color do they think they look best in? Do they actually look best in that color?he thinks he looks best in all colors also he doesn’t rlly care abt fashion. he looks best in HM like purple or royal blue?? 
What animal do they fear most?he has this weird fear of armadillos and no one knows why it has smth to do w an incident at the zoo when he was six
How do they speak? Is what they say usually thought of on the spot, or do they rehearse it in their mind first?he honestly doesn’t say everything that comes to mind even tho it SOUNDS like he does but he also. basically says everything that comes to mind. it’s odd bc he ends up being rlly engaging in conversation anyways. however he isnt immune to being at a loss for words and when he’s under pressure he will stumble a lil thru what he’s saying. but most of the time what u hear is what he’s thinkin
What makes their stomach turn?ok he’s not SUPER big abt justice or anything like that but if someone’s being torn down he’ll get rlly uncomfy unless he’s the one who initiated it bc he’s like hey hey haha guys dont say that abt them. also he dislikes roly polys w a passion bc they remind him of armadillos :)
Are they easily embarrassed?on one hand he has no shame on the other he does get p flustered if ppl flirt w him and it hits a spot (in a good way)? like he does get embarrassed moderately easily but it takes him a few seconds to realize he should be embarrassed if u get me
What embarrasses them?flirting, if u get a well aimed compliment in that he didn’t expect. also realizing he’s made a fool of himself bc that oftentimes happens but he also rarely realizes it so if he REALIZES he’s made a fool of himself he will get flustered
What is their favorite number?420 duh
If they were asked to explain the difference between romantic and platonic or familial love, how would they do so?he’d be like wtf why r u asking me this but if someone he does trust and is close to asked him he’d try his best to give a serious answer after a bout of awkward laughing to make sure they were serious. prbly like “familial love and platonic love are the same thing basically right? i guess platonic love is how u love ur friends so yk brofists and shit and then romantic love is more? special? idk it’s fucking great tho *fingers guns at sev*”
Why do they get up in the morning? his mom makes him get up for school otherwise what is leaving his bed when he can just pull his comp onto his lap while STAYING in his bed and game from there
How does jealousy manifest itself in them (they become possessive, they become aloof, etc)? oh he’s very possessive. he’ll defo keep whatever he’s worried abt losing close by to start and if it’s a person- friend or s/o- he’s going to be touching them a lot more. a hand on the back, a hug at the side, running his hands through their hair casually. anything to assert that no back off ur not taking them from me. but if it continues, which it v well may, knowing him, he’s going to start getting snarky n verbally fighting the other person. basically Messy pls reassure him if u are the object of his affections and he’s getting side-eye emoji abt someone 
How does envy manifest itself in them (they take what they want, they become resentful, etc)? he defo becomes resentful a bit. like he doesn’t get envious over most things- it’s mostly fear of losing the thing once he has it- but when it does he will get resentful and hole up a bit and generally just seem a little ticked
Is sex something that they’re comfortable speaking about? To whom?yeah he’s comfy talking abt sex. prbly a little too comfy. so basically anyone willing to engage him in the conversation topic will likely hear abt it but he’s calmed down ever since he got involved w sev
What are their thoughts on marriage?marriage is good? but far off and amorphous in his mind. for the most part he’s like there’s nothing wrong w it but it crosses his mind EXTREMELY infrequently   
What is their preferred mode of transportation? preferably in the back of a private plane, squirrel suit gliding or on a giant eagle, none of which he’s ever experienced in his life. but out of the things he has he is fond of sailing when it’s calm out bc he does get seasick a tiny bit. he likes fast cars too
What causes them to feel dread? his mother :) she may be small but she is Frightening
Would they prefer a lie over an unpleasant truth? he doesnt rlly give a damn so lie most of the time but at the same time if he cares abt the thing and he’s asking u abt it pls do urself a favor and tell him the truth. it’s what he prefers and it’s rare anyways that he actually asks after smth
Do they usually live up to their own ideals? nope. he wants to win a nobel prize, publish a meme compilation book, become a world class pianist, go to pluto- u get the idea. ya boi has many high hopes for himself which he’s not rlly meeting atm. he’s a little all over the place, so despite his many talents he isn’t quite living up to the ideal version of himself he’s seeking after and prbly never will it’ll be very hard to get him to admit this not bc he’s an edgelord or smth but it’s hard to get him to talk abt deeper things but he does sincerely want to be a good moral person which dependent on the day and his level of seriousness he may or may not be living up to in his own eyes as well as in the eyes of others. what can i say he’s kind of a hoe
Who do they most regret meeting? life…. when life’s hand touched upon his little heart and gave him the gift of herself he immediately was filled w Ragret- on a more serious note it’s prbly the armadillo from the zoo
Who are they the most glad to have met? sev? he also adores his piano teacher but good luck getting him to admit that w heartfelt sincerity 
Do they have a go-to story in conversation? Or a joke? it’s honestly whatever’s the most recent thing he observed, heard or experienced when it comes to stories. he has no shortage of words to say and his fav sort of memes and jokes are politically nihilistic ones. so those are? in a way his go to?
Could they be considered lazy? yes. he only applies himself if he’s interested and for most of school he has no qualms abt being a lil sus and casually “accidentally” getting the answers to things so yeah that’s. that could be considered lazy. however, when he does care abt smth he will absolutely dedicate himself to it. he practices piano consistently and diligently day in and day out so it honestly depends on if he cares or not
How hard is it for them to shake a sense of guilt? v difficult. he rarely becomes guilty for longer than .4 seconds but when it does he’s srsly going to internalize that bc if he’s feeling guilty he prbly f-ed up real bad. he also won’t rlly talk abt it to anyone so it’s even more likely it’ll just get internalized 
How do they treat the things their friends come to them excited about? Are they supportive? that’s extremely dependent on who it is and what it is. if it’s sev he’ll b v supportive but sev is a VERY big exception in most cases also sev rarely gets visibly excited abt things so it’s usually a cause for celebration when he does. if josie (his bff) is excited abt smth? if he can relate he’ll be excited for her but if he can’t he’ll TRY his best but there will be some teasing involved bc that’s how he diffuses confusion. their other bff will get the same treatment but w slightly more effort bc she’s more sensitive but gosh if it’s someone he doesn’t know rlly well he’ll be rlly confused he’ll be like good for u ha?? or someone he knows casually. they’ll get teased so he tries but he also sucks at life. for such a great analyst he’s terrible at being socially delicate
Do they actively seek romance, or do they wait for it to fall into their lap? tbh prbly actively seek it. he defo pursued sev before they got together
Do they have a system for remembering names, long lists of numbers, things that need to go in a certain order (like anagrams, putting things to melodies, etc)? he doesn’t rlly give a damn abt ppl’s names but if it’s say a piano piece it’s honestly just cold, hard repetition 
What memory do they revisit the most often? he doesn’t reminisce often hes a p go go go type of guy but if he does it’s prbly abt sev. neither of them voice it often but they’re both rlly grateful for the other
How easy is it for them to ignore flaws in other people? see, he’s kind of oblivious he doesn’t rlly think abt these things but when something annoys him? oh it annoys him and he’s going to make no effort to hide it or ignore it. so he’s honestly rlly bad at ignoring other ppl’s flaws. he’s a bit of a b like that 
How sensitive are they to their own flaws?very
How do they feel about children? no particular opinion! he’s the younger sib by quite a bit so he’s always been kind of the baby. he thinks kids are fine and he’s actually p good w them but he’d prefer to not babysit or anything like that. there are better more enjoyable things he could be doing w his time. as for having kids he almost never thinks abt that so he’s got no opinion there either. what happens happens after all
How badly do they want to reach their end goal? he doesn’t particularly have One End Goal but he has many aspirations and if he cares abt smth he will do everything in his power to reach it at least within reason. so p badly relatively speaking? 
If someone asked them to explain their sexuality, how would they do so? he’s bi so if someone asked him to explain it he’d be like “it means idc what someone’s gender is when it comes to whether i want to fuck or not ;)” yes i hate him too
QUESTIONS FOR CREATORS
A) Why are you excited about this character?MEME KING but also i’m excited to try and work out the balance between apathy, drive and subtle but very much present care for the ppl around himB) What inspired you to create them?i need a best friend for the main chara of the story benke is a part of! additionally, he shares a lot of character traits w an irl friend of mine so it’s a bit of a nod to themC) Did you have trouble figuring out where they fit in their own story?nope! benke was created for the purpose of filling a role tho honestly he’s spun a wild story for himself somehow looking @ u sevD) Have they always had the same physical appearance, or have you had to edit how they look?i must admit benke does NOT have a set appearance as of the present. he’s afab nb and does nothing to present as more masculine than he naturally appears. he’s indian, 5′4″ and he’s got short hair w highlights but beyond that i’m still working out his appearance E) Are they someone you would get along with? Would they get along with you?yes on a surface level to both. we’d meme together but at a deeper level we wouldn’t make good close friends. benke’s brand of caring for ppl is nearly opposite to mine and bc we’re already both unconventional in how we show we care abt someone we’d prbly both end up feeling neglected. there’d be a lot of miscommunication and honestly, ya boi would get on my nerves n i’d prbly get on hisF) What do you feel when you think of your OC (pride, excitement, frustration, etc)?TIRED he TIRES me but also a bit of pride bc he’s growinG) What trait of theirs bothers you the most?where do i begin. prbly how he’s unintentionally self centered. benke is far from uncaring abt his friends he will do crazy stupid brave things for them if it ever came to that but it’s hard for him to see why some of the things he says hurt other ppl’s feelings esp if they’re diff from him. he’ll be like ?? why u offended i didn’t say anything mean. he’s also RLLY bad at handling serious emotions even when they sometimes do need to be dealth wH) What trait do you admire most?HM prbly his knack for being a great conversationalist. ppl like him even if he isn’t the most popular bc he’s funny and p chill. he doesn’t have too much drama so it’s like hey there’s the meme guy even tho he’s kinda weird and tbh goals. being a good conversationalist can get u places and ease up SO many social situationsI) Do you prefer to keep them in their canon universe?PRBLY but also i think he’d do rlly well in a sci fi universe eyes emojiJ) Did you have to manipulate or exclude canon factors to allow them to create their character?nah not rlly?? not yet at least ! 
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2 DRAFTED
A seven in one - no weekness just growth
Baby showers suck
One would say...
Takes a village to protect a rapist
What a coincidence it is.
Just an incident or two. Shush beautiful. Rest your eyes. It's not yours to tell. To speak, dare not tell.
Sweeping icky funktified funky shit, underneath a dirty wether rug.
What it do babbyyyyyy
Pay no mind no attention.
I'm going sweep the mess I've made under the rug. The mess I'll make of you. I will ruin you.
Just Lump of coal or two. Ain't no princess and the pea.
But hoping these sleepless restless nights would end.
Just Tossing, turning, churning with racing thoughts.
Theses grips I cannot escape Branded into brain
Memories stay people leave. So why the fuck did you not.
Lie uneasy in the bed of lies I've made just for you. Just for two.
Restlessly tossin nd turnin in this bed of lies
Lies entangled with thoughts of the L O V E.
More like lustful sinful gazes upon a young child.
Embedded systems of the do not tells. She suffers from the silence.
Hush babygirl. The Elephant in the room is sleeping. Majestic creature never forgets  Don't disturb. Not to be awaken.
A peaceful sleep. Get some shut eye, you are going to need it after I'm done with you. Sticks and stones may break bones. What do actions do? 
The best, phycological damage beyond compare. A life time of pain induced over a minute man.
The Elephant does not tell lies, they know what's best, Not disturb others. Don't mind the lump under the carpet, written in big bold red letters. Hush Babygirl don't say a fucking word.
Tripped over. Fell legs wide open and a scraped knee.
The end of the room seems like a world and a half too far. Out of my reach I'm locked up. My mind my body my soul.
The ignorant.
Just say it's not there. Just say it didn't happen. Jus don't tell a soul.
Fuck man
fuckin get over it. write it off like a slap in the wrist.
She, we are
In shock, in disbelief. Completely Flabbergasted. Never him. Hush babygirl not your secret to tell.
I can't tell you how times I've uttered the words, who I am going to tell
Who am I going to tell. Who the fuck is going to believe me
Maybe I'm worth it. Risk it all
Just with the thought of you.
ruin you like there's no life behind those emeralds
Untitled
He's having a baby
He's going thru a lot right now
Yeah I'll admit. I  got some demons inside my closet.
Some even stored in my right pocket. Jus sum company.
Baby needed some company. Guess he chose me. Knowin damn well he shouldn't. But ain't that the best part. Taking no for an answer not a damn thing.
Wrap your dick before you tap that bitch. Or is that your way out. A fucking cop out. All you gotta do is have that cock out. Don't know how to put it away.
I know your son better than you. Choose me over him. One or the other. the black sheep man I must be.
I got a fuckin problem yes I do. I like to fuckin children. And that's my fucking problem. Ain't no body stopping it's another hit.
You dug your grave. Now Fucking lay in it. Warm and cozy let them nuts you be bustin.
Did you not realize what fuck you were doing. I got two heads which one should I use today.
Calling you out. Yes damn right I will. You ain't got shit to say.
How much of an unintelligent sick waste of air,
Dry ashy ass hobbit looking deformed sickness are you.
Honestly, does it really take half a mind. More of fucking effort.
What did you think was going to happen.
If you had half a brain. Half a lung leaving you breathless.
14 years dead.
I think about life and whatnot
What would be like if started on out right.
Done dirty to the bone.
Let you suffer long term goals for you.
What you, your eyes turn black as it's soul leaves it's body.
No longer with you exist.
Only with the moments we were forced to share.
The day will come upon you when judgement will be passed
All the predators in the world. Never did I know you'd be one. Family, here to protect and nurture. So let me know what did you do.
Excuse me Sir, you were old to enough to know what the fuck was going on.
What I would do to have a conversation with you.
Let's sit down and talk this shit out. What the fuck bro. Did you think this shit would last. Did you even think
Dick please me. Please me. I'll feel better. I'll be empty afterwards.
Not a soul to tell. Paid no mind. Silence.
Groom her good why don't you. It started young did it not. You, the one i was intended too look up tooo knew. You did all this time all along.
Maintenance. What you sought to do.
Blame it on the alcohol. Consent, why did you save me.
huh what is that.
No
Not a questioned asked. Not one. It must have been expected. On a sliver platter.
Keep digging. Trying to look for something.
Mother you digging your grave now. Your saving grace, you shouldn't.
Pointless actions.
Was I just your practice.
A work in progress. Don't tell no one. But this won't matter later. It wont. I wanted an early start on all the dirty things I wanna do.
Ain't it convenient. Right under everyone's nose. No one else but me.
Hush babygirl don't say I word. Mama gonna protect you from the whole wide world. And if I don't do my job.
You'll just have to figure out on your own
And if you don't survive it all
It not my problem no more. You'll be another excuse.
For my drug use. Blame it on the pill popping wacked out, sucked up mess I've been.
Is what I sought for my birth giver to show me, to tell me, to protect me.
Excuses I got plenty. I didn't know any better. Is that your whole hearted attempt to what was going on.
Blind as a bat. Using ecolocation. Instead of clicks it loud obixous yells.
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Revenge is best served with a cup of cool aid....
I imagined a plot for the 2 bonus eps today! Some of it U would have already read about, I just changed a few things and made it a wee bit different.. Hope this will send thrills and chills down Ur spine (; In a fandom way lol
Also a lot of laughter XD
P1
So not that long after the whole parents day fiasco... David arranges to visit Cameron Campbell through live chat. David brought a hope you get out soon cake that all of the campers made together.
Which looked like fucking dirt... Only good thing about it was the badly spelled icing....
He brought Max and Gwen along, Max who isn't that surprised that David would still want to visit a arrested man who had been wanted by the government for a hell of a long time.... Who also could be a possible killer....
The guards brought Cambell thru the live chat, David told him how fantastic it was to see him! He got cut off when Campbell started yelling at him...
Threatening to get him for this and the rest of the campers too!
David tried to keep a smile on his face... Even when Campbells threatening got worse.... Max just had his same look he has everyday.... Gwen eyes widened a little bit.....
As soon as it got to the ILL SHOVE A KNIFE RIGHT UP UR- The live chat gets cut off.
David is left in a state... The cake lands on his foot... Which wouldn't be a problem if the cake wasn't like a huge rock.....
(David screams as it cuts to Camp Cambell)
Where David is given an ice pack for his swollen foot... He assures the campers that Mr Campbell will be his cheery, wonderful self again! They just need to give him time and space......
Max rolls his eyes....
He nor Gwen wasn't even gonna remind him about the real Cameron Campbell....
David will always have his own made up fantasy about Mr Campbell... Nothing will make him realise the truth....
Everyone was just assigned to enjoy the day since David wont be walking for a short while... Basically everyone was doing what they always do...
It was kinda a bad thing that David broke his foot as they where supposed to arrange a convention for all the parents to say sorry about what happened on parents day...
To also assure that Cameron Campbell is a good person, he just.... Has a condition that they have been told about..... Obviously that was a lie.... There just trying to keep everyone from suing...
This could risk Camp Cambell shutting down so they had to make sure everything goes right for once....
David did not want to lose his dream job and he especially didn't  want to lose all of the campers! To which he has grown attached too! David would always get teary saying....
Most of the campers wished they felt the same....
(Meanwhile)
Nikki, Neil and Max where talking about what they would do if Camp Campbell gets shut down.
Max wasn't joining in that conversation... Mainly Neil and Nikki where chatting away about it.
Nikki saying she would probably get sent to her dads old dump then her moms.. Then repeating the cycle all over again....
Neil says he hopes he just can just stay with his mom... Hes not ready to see his father again after that disturbing mishap....
Max triggering Neil by asking was it the whole Nikkis mom banging his dad on stage in front of everyone?...
Max snickers while Neil yells its not funny! 
Nikki also talks about what will happened to the 3 of them if they had to leave Camp Campbell forever... Will they never see each other again?...
Neil agrees... Will this be the end of there trio and possibly friendship?.... Neil and Nikki where both sad now.... They asked Max what does he think?...
Max snickers again and said he will be happy to never deal with there crazy shit again!...
Neil and Nikki are angry and disgusted that Max just said that... Neil asks why does he always have to be an asshole all the time?! As he and Nikki get up and leave....
Max calls out for them and says he was just kidding!
They didn't listen and walked on back to camp...
Leaving Max alone.... He couldn't help if he acted like a asshole all the time... It was the only way he could express his feelings...
(Cuts to Camerons prison cell)
Where he is pacing back and fourth, throwing his fists in a rage! Still yelling about he had to get even with all the victims who caused him his title! Who ruined his life!
Cameron swore he will get back at them all.... ESPECIALLY DAVY......
someone calls out to Campbell which gets his attention.... The prisoner in the shadows said maybe he can help him with that....
Part 2.....
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felt so down..
i wanted to talk to people so badly. by people, i meant those whom i am close with. super close with, esp him. i do have ppl whom are extremely close to me. but i dont dare to approach them due to as follows: 
poon: he is with his friends, he wont have the time to entertain me also, well, there were times i couldnt control myself and texted him, i got a single word ‘ok’, i know where i stand, i backed off. i switched off my phone literally. idw to have more disappointment in my alrdy bad and sad mood. rather than unknowingly text him and anticipate he would at least ask how i am. i rather not meet with such a disappointment. well if he knows that i am really trying my best to cope with my feelings and thoughts, he would auto read this without me telling him. cos if i dont spam him, i go to insta, if i dont go to insta, i come to tumblr. these are the ways i penned down how i feel and what i think when there is no one to talk to me, no one whom i can chat with. 
steph: in gasglow, i dont want her to be burden with my issues. she will know when she returns when we catch up anws. 
chanel and jiawen: we are drifting apart. they are the ppl i joke ard with but no longer the ones whom i find to rant about. as i always hang out with poon, i dw them to feel i treat bf more than i treat my bff. i dont want them ti feel they are spare tyre. 
sheena and sam: i scared i make them feel overwhelm with my issues. plus sheena is no coping well alrdy, idw to add to her problems. 
mum: she no longer is my close listening ears. i nvr tell her many things, in fact, i nvr say much about myself anymore, except rant about dad to her. other than that, nth. idw her to worry about me, esp my studies. i didnt tell her i wasnt coping well in school lately also. she’s too busy dealing with my dad anws. 
dylan: he is a gd friend, but then i am not comfy telling him too many things. 
xx: i lose the position to rant to him. before i got into a relationship, he was always there when i was feeling down. be it normal classes whereby i am feeling sad or stress, he will buy me oreo (altho he say his house got unlimited supplies, so many times, he think i believe meh). he can chat with me for the entire night when i was feeling so lost about some issues in the past. he takes care of me like a little sis. often he is the one who can notice i am sad and try ways to make me happy. i always treated him as my bro. he is like my younger/older bro. because of many reasons, i distant myself from him. i dont want poon to be jelly about xx and me, neither do i want to make xx feel sad, so the best way is to distant from him. 
it has been long since i felt like cutting myself. thankfully that feeling happens when i was on a cab, i have no access to pen knife. if not idk what would happen to myself. honestly, i just wanna just rot in bed tmr, i dont feel like meeting anyone, but cos i promise alrdy, i have to appear.. 
it is getting worst, i overthink. i overthink in my sleep also. idw to. idk how to tell my brain to gimme a break. i really wanna break free from overthinking. i even woke up from a worst case scenario about poon me and my parents. i was awaken by this dream today, it scares me but i didnt share with him. 
what i feel now. towards poon. yes, i am his gf. apart from saying ‘i love u’, he technically did nth thru out the entire day i was down. i understand that he is with his friend. but i am feeling too low to even be considerate about it. at least, talk to me abit? make me feel a bit btr instead of just ‘i love u’? i know u love me and you mean it, but in times of this, too much of such phrases makes me feel i am not impt. i am just a person whom you have to say ‘i love u’ to a few times a day. for so long, i havent felt so lonely on terms of texting. i am a heavy texter to ppl whom i am comfortable in. he is one of them. i always felt a bit sad that when i am awake, he is asleep, why cant fate let him have a normal sleeping time? i really wish he was at least awake to text me when i am on my way to school or in school.. yes, he blame me that i didnt call him up or wake him up, but certain things, it doesnt comes from me, it takes his effort, not just mine. i mean if a person is asleep, what for wake him up for a casual chat esp when the reason is i am bored? this is so unreasonable. 
just ytd issue. btn poon and me. when i started to put in more trust in him, he shakes it again. i trusted him to come meet me with monster also, in fact, i anticipated that, that was the encouragement i told myself, the only reason that keep me awake. the thought of my bf visiting me and delivering a drink i needed so badly that day. end up, he did come (make me feel i am his priority but i was guilty). before that, i was comtrolling my temper not to rage at him. honestly, what does he mean. well if i was in his shoes, it is very simple. come to the gf then meet his friends afterwards. cos he promise the gf to come alrdy, but didnt promise the gf to wait for her after her test. what was promise first should be carried out, what is so hard about it? for me, personally, whoever i made a promise with first, i go with the promise first. unless that person is fking impt to me, which is him, whenever he wants to meet last minute, i have to push some of my plans away just to meet him. i really hope he knows it is hard for me to lie all the time, i dont have so much lies in me to hide from my parents all the time. and in order to make a lie, i have plan ahead, if it is so last minute, i cant think of a perfect reason to lie. but he doesnt get it? he seems to take it for granted that i can meet him any time sometimes, that is what i feel. sometimes, i have to get back home early cos i cnt go home too late. one is my fears of going home alone late at night, second is i cant see shit at night, three my mum is worried for me too. one more thing, shouldnt he pull me into the conversation instead of asking me to try on my own? isnt it easier for him to pull me into a conversation with his friends rather than i awkwardly ask them weird qns? i just hate it when he force me to talk, and if i dont, he would get upset, like srsly, i didnt talk for a reason okay. 
well i do appreciate his efforts, waking up before i go and caring for me. but if he’s gonna ignore me or forget about me when he is with his friends, i rather he dont show me i am his priority. cos it is fking hard to deal with when he isnt there to reply me all the time, reply as in a continuous conversation not a single word of trying to brush me off, yes, it might be a form of acknowledgement of it to me. but then, if i rant to him, do i really need an acknowledgement? hmm, i doubt so. i hate spamming him my feelings my thoughts cos he reads but dont reply me one by one, i hate that. if i tell you my feelings and thoughts fking reply, rants, at least tell me sth instead of a word ‘i reply later cos i chatting or gaming with my friends’ is still btr than a word, but ofc, make sure he replies afterwards lah, if not the words has no meaning. 
it is so hard to not text a person whom you text all the time a day. it is not i didnt wanna text, i am so fking tired and disappoointed at the nonchalant, okay not even nonchalant reply, just a word answer seems like i am disturbing him and brushing me off. i tried to text him, but if i am gonna get a word, what for i continue, sometimes it is not i didnt wanna spam. it’s just i know he wont reply to every single thing, so i am avoiding that disappointment. it takes two hands to clap, he want me to do this, then prove to me, it is worth it. like spamming, you want me to spam, then reply everything lah, i know i say b4 he need not necessarily reply everything but who doesnt want to be replied, if not send for what? 
he always wanted me to text him ‘i want him now’, why would i text a person asleep that? does he knows how much courage it takes for me to ask for things i want?  for almost 10 years, i havent been living for myself, i live for others, i nvr really requested a lot of things. idk how and i fear rejections, imagine mustering tons of courage then got rejected. hell no am i gonna make myself suffer that. best eg, first time i asked him to bring me sth that is extremely out of his way for me, he came but didnt fulfil the things i want. seeing him makes me not angry but the sadness doesnt disappear. 
i am like this now cos i want him to talk to me, even if it is for 2 mins, show that he tries to understand how i feel now. but nah, nope, i had enough of dissapointment today. i aint gonna on my phone until tmr. if he is late for tmr, i am so gonna ignore him for a day. 
as much as i wanna blame him for having fun and forgot about me. but i cnt. 
enough of him.
what cause me so sad and down. it is like i am awake but i aint doing my work. i dont have the energy to do so. i am so tired of everything. 
academic failure. is extremely strong when i failed my CT. 
stress. i m dealing with so many in schools but no one exactly knows what i am going thru. 
home: i have to smile to maintain i am okay feels. one not to let my parents worry and not to anger them. 
friends: i dgaf about them alrdy. i dont have the mood to deal with them. 
him: i am just idk, extremely sad and dissapointed about it, how he acts/ treats me these 2 days, esp today. 
wtv happens next, tonight, i wont gurantee. whether i harm myself or not. i cant be sure. controlling it is so hard. death to me aint scary, what i am scared of is the sadness ppl felt if i harm myself. 
dont blame me to disappear. if he shown more effort, i wouldn't have disappeared due to sadness and disappointment. actually, would he even know i disappear? 
or maybe, i havent been okay, cos i felt neglected by him... apart from my parents, only one more person can me feel so dead when i am alrdy unhappy, which worsen my sadness. 
IF HE HAPPENS TO FIND TILL HERE, I SALUTE HIM COS I DONT EXPECT HIM AT ALL. which implies he knows how to find me when i dissapear. 
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Old poems
these are all of MY older poems going from 2014-2017
found my wattpad from ages ago and im going to be posting my old poems every now and then so pls dont make fun of me these are old but i WILL eventually start to post my newer work soon xxxxx 
 Suicide stays on my mental
Wondering what's really gonna happen when I finally break thru
When I finally get fed up and sick of the shit
When I finally sit there and decide to quit
The only thing that's stopping me is my own hand
Feels like nobody really there like it's all just an act
I really don't have nobody that truly got my back
Every single one of you is fake and fucking temporary
Nobody gonna b satisfied till I finally end it
Till I finally get pushed to the point and say fuck it
You think I'm all talk but watch one day I'll show you
When I finally get the guts to just end it cuz see I don't even know you
I could cut it off quick like I got nothing to live for
Cuz see I'm truly careless like it don't even matter
You not gonna b happy till my brains really splatter
Suicide crosses my mind often
I wonder what I look like inside of a coffin
I have a handful of attempts but see when I get to that point I hear this voice in my head don't know if it's god, satan, or just somebody dead
The voice always tells me to stop and I end up listening but I'm learning to ignore them and eventually you'll see my blood glistening
I turn it into jokes so I don't have to deal with it
So I don't have to accept the fact that I'm not good or how I'm misunderstood
Suicide all in my head Wondering what's gonna happen if I end up dead
When I say goodbye and go to the sky Don't miss me then cuz we both know it's pretend 
-c.m
(2014)
i rolled with the punches
although sometimes it felt as if i was getting jumped
i can still taste the tears of regret
i can feel the feeling of mental abandonment
i hold my breathe all day
and fucking gasp for air at night
you were the same as everyone else
you changed me and not for the good
i hate the fact that i can not hate you
you made me feel so alone
i loved you and you loved to make me cry
i didnt care bc you were the only one there
yet you made me want to pull out my hair
its like you hated me more than you loved me
you got a kick out of hurting my heart and watching me fall apart
i got a kick out of having someone to call my own
you made me feel ugly and worthless
made me feel like i was not worth it
your words would cut me like sharp piks
your voice was frightening like the scary music in a horror film
but our memories still cross my mind from time to time
i would look into your eyes and you would always look back
so tell me did why did you have to hurt me
why did you have to make me feel even more forsaken
you lied to me so much that i never knew the truth
and i think thats starting to happen with this new girl too
see youve changed me and not for the better
now i can never trust someone fully it just wont b the same
and to this day i still cringe when i hear your name
i see the good in all people and see thats my problem
i should of turned around as soon as you walked in
young thoughts that walk thru my mind but only sometimes
(2015)
-c.m
i’ve lived in a life of heaven examined as a world of sin
your eyes are the fences to heaven within
each day i will tell you your worth
that you are my personal guardian angel here on earth
that you are my sunshine on a dark day
that by your side i will stay until the day we turn gray
you showed up right in time
for you any hill i will climb
cariño, sólo pienso en ti
without you id b empty
you are truly a blessing
the thought of losing you is quite depressing
you are my favorite daydream
when i look at you i can tell your eyes gleam
make you climax till you scream
for you id do anything
-c.m
(2017)
i get happy over little stuff
i like words like shit and fuck
i dont enjoy having friends
i see the world thru a thick lens
i have a dog named junior
yeah hes rad and gnarly
i dont ever go to parties
and i dont like 2 say sorry
all my thoughts are glitter and sparkly
im looking for myself like safari
i like girls more than boys
i play with they emotions like toys
a lot of people crush on me
always rushing and nudging me
they like the way that im raw and how i put them in awe
i hit my head on the wall
i act like i am above all
im always laughing like im off alcohol
i find everything funny
like how my mom just dont love me
dirty everyone has done me
how everyone likes to just judge me
they like how im chubby and lovely
i like music a lot
my thoughts are always nonstop
sometimes they call me flowerpot
i like to drink tea and not soda
im the sickest, ebola
i hate the winter its too cold
in the summer i grow
i like stickers and socks
i like the jellies and boondocks
i like anime and hentai
i dont like to lie or cry
im sweet like pumpkin pie
i hit that bitch in her eye
i own nothing but ripped vans
but one day youll see me driving that benz
i like strawberry shakes
and to make girls legs quake
i keep them wet, the great lakes
i like long walks by myself
i cant reach the top shelf
i think tattoos and piercings are cool
trust no one, thats my rule
i like oldies and funk
im clumsy like an old drunk
i dont like to come out my bubble
it always seems to put me in trouble
i hate to hate
to me you may never relate
i get happy over little stuff
i put up this front like im tough
i seem to carry bad luck
im the best, hands up
-c.m
(2014)
screaming 666
my feelings mix
wonder what he has in his bag of tricks
my eyes continue to drip
i feel my soul as it slips
should i give it to him or keep it for myself
my soul is cold like an ice shelf
hes called for my name himself
shall i continue to be forever alone by oneself
or give it away to be loved and admired
my patience is expired
singing by myself like a lonely choir
wondering what it feels like to be sincerely supported and appreciated
wondering why i was even created
the fearsome part is is that i am not afraid
ive often thought about giving my psyche for trade
it walks across my mind often
i continue to live a life of no precaution
i sin often
so whats the point
why am i waiting
should i give it up and inside become rotten
or stay on the safe side and still disappoint
wondering if that deal would be worth it
cuz everyone knows im not perfect
-c.m
(2017)
god treated my sexuality like a joke
ive always knew but i never spoke
the day they found out everything went rabbid
acting like my choice of companions was just a bad habbit
ugly words thrown at me like queer and fruitcake
fruitcake to every christmas dinner that i am no longer welcomed at
not wanting me to walk in front of them like a black cat
get up everyday wearing the word faggot like an expensive pair of sunglasses
take the time to cross the street just so you dont  have to share a sidewalk with me
die of thirst so they dont have to use the same water fountain as me
that i should just like he and not she
saying that i am a sin and you will pray for me
cuz im homo you act like im ill like im missing chromos
think its a shame so you back out of my life in slow-mo
that girl es asqueroso y loco
then to accept me you rather push me on the streets like a hobo
sorry that i cannot be saved and you cant just wash this sin away
at the end of the day i dont care if you stay
-c.m
(2016)
Hi my angel
I hope all is well
I hope you still look down on me while I sit in this empty cell
No it's not jail but simply life now
I thought I could never do it without you but look at me now
I miss you dearly and still cry often
Wondering why you had to lay in that coffin
The thought of you still makes my eyes tear
The fact that I will never see you again makes me want to throw a chair
I forgot what your voice sounds like and even your laugh
I'd give anything up to take all that back
My first mother, father and friend
I'd kill someone to see you just once again
I miss you my angel more than anything I've took grip of
I hope you still look down from way up above
Always in my heart my one and true love
Goodbye for now but I'll see you again
Forever my angel till we meet again
-c.m
(2016)
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Another day man. I feel like this is the best place for me to get out my feelings. no one is ever going to see this and tbh it hurts my hand to journal. Fuck. This time of my life is so difficult. Not saying that other parts of my life haven’t been difficult of parts of my future won’t be difficult. My past compared to now seems like a breeze. I would take the stressors, the sadness, and the pain I felt then any day of the week compared to this. I’m 23. Still in college. I graduate in a semester but thats almost two years later than my expected graduation. I never saw this for myself. I always thought I was someone who had it together. I am generally a rule follower and responsible in a way that makes people think I’d succeed. A large part of my existence has always been worrying about what people think of me. Like who cares? I DO! so much. like so so much. Maybe thats something that will always be apart of me. Seriously, how retched would it be if the people I know (or even the ones I don’t) found out that I sometimes don’t shower for two days in a row. or if they knew how much of a monster I can be to the ones I love because I genuinely do not know how to cope with my feelings. These are just some of the things that embarrass me. Believe me theres more things, i could actually write a book about it. Sidenote, I am going to be complaining about everything. I’m fat, I’m ugly, My dads an alcoholic, I’ve never had a boyfriend, never worked a day in my life, a virgin, and at this point i feel like it may be like this forever. Thats a lie. I know I could fix most of these problems myself. Also im not as worried about being successful in the future because I really feel like I thats attainable and something I’d like to work towards. Most of the time though I’m in a constant state of “why me”. Why did I have to be put in a middle class family? Why did i have to be the overweight friend? why am i so fucking socially awkward that it physically makes me ill? Why do I have anxiety? why am I depressed? why dont boys obsess over me? Livvy shut the fuck up. Its not that deep. This shit is so surface level I’m actually cringing while typing. But In order for me to accept the things that make me angry, or keep me from moving forward, i need to admit them to myself. I just wish my whole life was different point blank. I should not be complaining though. My family is amazing. They literally do all they can for me. My dads an alcoholic. It bothers me so much. no one else I know has a dad who gets so belligerently drunk on 5/7 days of the week. when he gets drunk he’s mean to my mom. he’s mean to me. Verbally. he really is a great human otherwise. I want to disassociate with him sometimes. I want to disassociate with alot of people though. I want to hand pick the people I like and discard the rest. How fucked up am I that I just want to throw people away? Even ones who did not cause me any harm.  maybe its my abandonment issues. ha can believe I’m finally owning up to it. in the past I would’ve swore up and down 1000 times i had no such thing. funny how i want to discard people but dont want people to discard me. I guess i want to get rid of them before they get rid of me. I probably could’ve had a boyfriend by now, but its because of this problem i dont. I’ve only ever loved one person, romantically that is. I wonder if he heard me say that if he’d think i was crazy. I know i’m going to marry him though. I just have a feeling. and i cant really envision my future with him not in it. We dont really talk anymore. But it’s just not the time. whatever. he makes me crazy. He doesnt know he does. Does he ever think about me. Did he ever really even like me? maybe even just a little. I don’t know I dont want to think about it. thats a future thing. Also why cant i just go out and fuck some one. my brain doesn’t work like that. I’m so closed off i need someone all to myself. I’m selfish. there i said it. Jealousy also is my ugliest trait. besides my nose ew (surface level livvy calm down) its hard for me to be happy for others because I’m not happy with myself. why are things going good for other people but not me. Again, the only person who is stopping me is me. i’d like to think one day, preferably soon, I’ll get my shit together. I will look how i want to look, for the most part, I love the person i want to love, and ill be happy. At the end of the day I just want someone to choose me. I want to be important to someone. I want to live in a rom com. I want to not have my sister order my food at a drive thru because im too shy. I want to not have an anxiety attack about if one of my friends is fucking the guy I like even though they dont even know each other. i want to get my hygiene back. i dont smell, god i have respect, but so i feel like i used to. Taking care of myself, looking presentable. Now Ill go out as the grease monster and not even bat an eye. Because i dont give a fuck what people think. I do but I dont, make sense? no one is looking at me I’m invisible. Have I made myself feel this way or was it the others? poor me. life is so sad. Im lucky. life could be worse. But the mental illness that im afraid to talk about is making me feel like poor me. im fucking depressed. I will stay in my room for days at a time not wanting to get out of bed. I dont even want to see my friends anymore. I dont want to feel like i have to kill myself to get away from a life that in retrospect is not even close to being bad. Thats what depression will do to you. Turn you into someone you dont even know anymore. I always thought people used mental illness as a way to get attention. maybe thats why I dont talk about mine alot. But all I have to say is the second you experience it you will feel so fucking awful for believe people were making that shit up. None of this makes logical sense. this is just my thoughts s they came to me. I hope in the future i wont be so miserable with my own life, want to be someone else, and maybe am more tolerable with people and not so selfish. I’m selfish without even knowing. I hate the people who have hurt me, but I know i’ve hurt people in the past and alot of them forgave me. I wouldnt have some of my best friends without forgiveness. Im a follower and thats so not cool. I need to stand up for whats right because if I dont do it for someone else who will do it for me. I didnt turn in an assignment that was due today. I get so down on myself and tell myself i wont be able to do it right therefore i dont even try. story of my life. youre too ugly he will be embarrassed and never like you. youre not qualified so dont even try. youre always going to be fat so dont even bother working out. youre never going to have a great life so dont put effort into it. Thes mental roadblocks. are. killing. me. slowly. How do I stop thinking the way I do. What happened in my childhood that made me this way. how can i hurt the person who hurt me. its a friday. im alone. in my room. had a good cry. hating my life. the boy i love is in my town. did i reach out to him? no. but did he reach out to me? no. whatever. I’ll wake up in the morning and maybe i’ll be happy. i doubt it but atleast theres a little optimism left in this cold dark shell of a body. i want to be on antidepressants. I heard they numb you. I’d like to feel numb. maybe thats why I like peppermint oil so much. It makes my body feel numb. goodnight. I need to write on here more. i feel better.
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Twin Soul Investigation:
Comments from the Twin Soul Community from other Twin Souls around the world & possible seer comments that I talk to about Cazuki´s & my Twin Soul union:
(In the Twin Soul community they use a different word than lost in the dark family soul, LITDFS, but that is a word I changed it, because the word they use is trying to make it a positive thing for Twin Soul Adams to be with “serpents” in the garden of Twin Soul Eden. It´s not positive at all, but it´s extremely negative, dark & perverse thus the reason I changed the name in their comments below. My comments are also below, but added more on this page.)
The video above is about a Twin Soul story & the power of Twin Souls when they come into unions & wish to create a new kind of society. A society of Peace, Balance & Twin Soul Union.
“Thank you so much for this!!! Definitely mind control going on… I know my twin’s heart and soul are with me, he’s longing for me, yet he’s still with his lost in the dark family soul, and they’re all miserable. It just all doesn’t make sense. I am in awe of Shamanic medicine, and met a few incredible shamans and have taken part in the most profound and beautiful ceremonies. Tried to get my DM to join, but he’s been resisting. And now we’re not talking at all… Haha yes, they’re very into technology… I didn’t know shamans can remove mind control remotely, will ask! Although I got the message that all I have to do is SHINE, and I can’t save ANYBODY, I’m sure it’s ok to help them. It makes me feel better too! Isis had to save Osiris too:) Thanks again!! Much love and light and a big hug xxx”
“The thing is, you know how evolved a soul is & if they are a lost in the dark family soul, depending on how they treat True Love & Twin Souls. If they know you both are Twin Souls, Universe Blessed & Divined to be together & Sacred & meant to be together, yet the lost in the dark family soul is keeping her claws in your DM, your Twin Soul Adam for herself & not letting go of him, that´s how you know she is a lost in the dark family soul that Twin Soul volunteers came to Earth to help them evolve, grow, learn, wake up & see the bigger picture of it all. The lost in the dark family soul who is with my DM knows we are Twin Souls, but she doesn´t care, all she cares about is herself. Very happy to help! :) Yes always believe in that, as every Twin Soul should. The heart & soul connection can never be broken, they may mess with the DMs minds & bodies like westworld (which is unbelievable how accurate that is & is happening in our world, especially when the DMs higher selves, their souls want to be with their DFs, but are unable yo because of mind controls & programmings & dark side trainings for years.), but they can never have the DMs souls or hearts, because the DMs will only want their DFs in every life time! ;) I´m also very in awe of shamanic healings, I see it like they have "Jedi” powers! The thing is, every soul has the ability to come into their own “Jedi” powers like psychic, healing, telepathy and so on abilities, but many are being prevented or not allowed to or they don´t know about it. Shamanic healings can be done from a far as I´ve had experience with this & it works very well. You don´t have to literally see a shaman. This is helpful especially if you find a shaman in a different country to help you. Don´t believe anyone who says you can´t save anybody, because YOU CAN SAVE ANYBODY! :) The message to you to SHINE is also true! We should all SHINE our LIGHT & positive energies especially knowing the truth of it all. I looked into the Isis & Osiris story, that´s sounds very much like a Twin Soul relationship to me, because Twin Souls do go to extreme, unpredictable & crazy lengths to save their True Loves! Rey sending herself to Kylo in the depths of hell to save him? Very Twin Soul of Rey to do! Isis & Osiris & their child being a threat to Set, reminds me of how Luke & Leia are threats to the dark empire. Children from Twin Souls are always a threat to the dark status quo, because they are born from the powerful beauty & mystical connection that is Twin Souls. They are born from Twin Souls that are actually Universe Blessed & Sacred Devine & it wasen´t out of perversion & negative hell energies, but out of True Love, paradise, heaven & eden energies, because Twin Souls are only made for each other no one else. That´s actually one of their Twin Soul missions, have children, many children from their True Love rare & once in a life time connection to combat the negative energies/codes & darkness everywhere that is LITDFS/Twin Soul Adam or Eve not meant for them relationships. In our first month together, I told my DM via our msn messenger chats (I saved over 30 chats between us in our first months together being oceans apart) that I was told by my friends that I shouldn´t spook him otherwise he would run for it. He asked how would I spook him, I said “ok, how about this, before I met you, I thought I´m not having any children or maybe two”, but when he & I got together, I wanted 8 children. That shocked him extremely. I said “did I scare you?” He admitted that was quite the shock, but he said no, he´s a soldier boy he said. I never did listen to what friends said, I go my own way & I don´t play any rules or games created by lost in the dark family souls. I thought, if he couldn´t handle that, he´s not meant for me, because only Twin Souls would feel the same with each other & never run. He even said he couldn´t wait to one day have children with me, because it would come from our pure True Love which it was & again, this was in our first months together. That´s the power of True Love between Twin Souls, the once in a life time, rare & hard to find. You will feel like this so fast with each other, because you are both basically picking up where you last left off in a past life time. We came to be out of powerful positive energies, both being single, both working on our own soul missions & both ready for union. True Love between Twin Souls does make you want to have many children, but with LITDFS relationships, you will not feel the same power or True Love or soul connection or the positive energies to want to have many children with a lost in the dark family soul. If you did end up having many children with a lost in the dark family soul, but you felt like you didn´t really want to, then mind programmings & manipulations could have been a factor. Twin Soul True Love stories are my favourite, would recommend “Your Name!” Japanese anime, a masterpiece & epic. Other Twin Soul stories are star wars, matrix, cloud atlas, westworld (delores & teddy), romeo & juliet (1996 version), notebook, robin hood prince of thieves, 5th element, twilight & titan a.e. amongst others. I wish I had more time to delve into our history & re-learn the many Twin Soul True Love stories, but thank you for that one! Much Love & Light to you too & Big Hugs! :) xxx“
“I have always been with my twin we go thru hell but we make it. I was going to tell him yeaterday i wanted out because i just dont feel like i can do it anymore. Then when he got home something happened with his truck right before he got home and he was mad and upset and i didnt do what i was going to do. That stuff happens always before i try to end all of this. Is that the divine stopping me and him from leaving each other. I keep getting text from a ex these last 2 weeks . but i have not responded to him . i dont want him but he will not stop. I know my twin comes to me in my dream and talks to me and tells me he loves me and to just hold on and he is almost there. I told him to stop telling me this stuff because i want him to tell me him self in this realm. But my twin has told me a week or so a go that plz dont give up on him. I felt how much it hurt him to think i was going to leave him . so i said this is hard on both of us . i dont feel like it will never change . im tired of this stuff it is hard on me. The the next day he text me again that he waa afraid i was going to let go again . i told him no i was going to wait for him . we talk alot about us and what happens with us. I feel his block and it is only him who can change it . i cant. But i dont have anyone to talk to about this because everyone has not been in this like us. Everyone is sperated everyone says it has to be this way or we wont heal. But i guess my ? To u is if that is true why do they stop us from leaving each other. Have u ever heard of this before that in which me and my twin are going thru. Plz if u can answer this i would be very grateful. May the light aways shine on u and guild ur path.“
“Hiya! :) I have gone through the same, but with me it´s negative mind attacks that kept saying move on, he doesn´t want you or love you. Basically picking up on telepathy coms from the lost in the dark family soul he´s with. Then when I hear from him & many Universe signs that keep saying hold on, don´t let go. If you don´t know already, what is happening to the Twin Soul Adams is not natural at all, many if not all are under several types of controls on their minds, like dark magic. Have you asked a psychic or a shaman to look into it? If anyone says you are meant to be apart, is a lie. There is a collective which I call the lost in the dark family soul collective & they can´t be with the DMs if he only wants his DF. As for the whole heal on your own, again more lies & misguided information. Yes we can heal on our own, but not everything. To translate that in a story, do people really think Kylo & Rey need to heal by themselves & be perfect before coming together? Twin Souls heal each other with their True Love, they can heal it all. I would know, my DM & I kept healing each other when union happened. You do bring up an important topic about healing which I will mention in my notes. The whole idea of being “perfect” before union is kind of disturbing. It´s like having to tick all the right boxes before you are worthy. Again, Rey shouldn´t have love in her life until she is worthy, until she is not nothing, but she has to be someone & has to be “perfect”? When people think like that, it´s sounding very much like having to be a humanoid robot in perfect condition before one is acceptable to have True Love in ones life. I know of a Twin Soul couple who had it all, who ticked all the right boxes, but even they got torn apart by dark magic. The only reason Twin Souls should ever be apart is to investigate what is going on either side & compare notes between them & then help end the Twin Soul wars. I call them the Twin Soul Investigators. Light & Balance to all!“
“oh my god i keep getting he is cheating on me . it is messing with me and he is always with me so there is no way he can be cheating i ask him if he is talking to some one or texting someone he says no . he dont want anyone but me. He has tried to be like that but it dont work out. he cant be how he was before .im not the same person i was before him . god thank you u just made me feel so much better. I thought it was the divine telling me that . u are a blessing thank you and may the light always be on you and lighten ur path . do u do teaching or have a web page where people talk about this . everywhere i go is always say things i cant relate to..”
“im clairvoyant always have been . but i will have to look in to that . having someone else to help with that part.“
“That´s a good idea to have someone or several look into it. I forgot to mention, have you seen the adjustment bureau? It´s a Twin Soul movie & gives insights as to what negative forces keep Twin Souls apart. The negative forces in the movie are portrayed as the good guys, but in our world they are not. What you described when you had an ex call you, same thing happened to the main female character when she was with her Twin Soul. It´s lost in the dark family souls wanting to break apart or keep apart unions. Writers write from what they know or others have been through or what the soul collective is going through, recommend you see it if you haven´t! :)“
“I would also recommend watching forces of nature, another Twin Soul movie & you get to see several lost in the dark family souls in action trying to come between Twin Souls. The whole single mother going after a Twin Soul Adam who is not meant for her is very common. So many lessons can be learned in stories, tv shows, movies & music videos & truths being revealed to all. The lessons can be learned fast. At the moment there is no Soul Evolving University yet, there is no Twin Soul GreyJedai Universe Investigator Academy yet, so in the meantime learn lessons in stories, from each other, from your inner soul wisdom & protect your Sacred Devine Universe Blessed bodies & Twin Soul unions until these teaching, evolving, training & helping Twin Soul heavens are a reality.  The stories show like how the lost in the dark family souls take down Twin Souls, how they get together with a Twin Soul not meant for them, how they play their divide & conquer games, dramas & wars on Twin Souls. The lost in the dark family soul even says in the movie, she doesn´t believe we should just be with one person for the rest of our lives. That´s the thinking of a lost in the dark family soul & has no problem coming between Twin Souls. Twin Souls are True Loves who only want The One meant for them, but the lost in the dark family souls can be with anyone & the many, not really understanding that there is only One meant for them & not understanding what True Love really is all about. When Twin Souls are in union or about to be in reunion, seducing “serpents” in their garden of eden will appear from anywhere & try to tempt away & be all kinds of desirable & eye pleasing & whatever else they can tempt with. It´s a test & there will be many tests upon Twin Souls, will they see who are the tempting “serpents” again & stay away or fall again & break Twin Soul unions? When we translate & decode stories & compare it to our lives or the lives of others, you´ll see the truth is out there, the truth is reflecting back at you what is happening in our world. You´ll never see a story the same away again when your eyes are open. When your eyes see, you ´ll be observing every detail, every sign, every action, every words spoken, breaking it all down, analysing everything & everyone, all characters & what parts they are playing & what they are doing against Twin Souls, basically you we need to become Twin Soul Investigators. That´s how the Twin Soul wars will end, when the Twin Soul Adams & Twin Soul Eves together become the Twin Soul GreyJedai Investigators, protecting their unions, fighting for their unions, defending their unions, saving their unions & helping everyones unions!” 
“Hiya! :) Very happy to help in anyway I can! :) I am working on my own book of Twin Souls from my 12 year union with my DM, but I have over 20 years of insights into what is going on everywhere, the difference between LITDFS relationships & Twin Soul relationships. I do recommend every Twin Soul couple keep a journal, write everything down, write your own Book of Twin Souls together. Your loving memories, your “light sabre” battle of words, any signs & insights & dreams you have, what your Twin Soul relationship is like, the good & the bad, the light & the dark, the balance. Write down anything, also write down any negative behaviours from those around you both. They can be your friends, family, co-workers just anyone really. If any one of them have anything negative to say about your union, write it down, especially if they talk to you both separately planting seeds of doubt in your mind about the other, but also take the necessary steps to protect your union from negative energies from people, because it will build up over time & will impact unions. Twin Souls need to protect their positive Sacred & Devine Universe Blessed Twin Soul positive bubble of True Love. If you are around those who are negative towards your union, let them know how you feel & if they still don´t change, step away to protect your union otherwise you´ll both continue to get negative energies attached to you. If you both are around people who celebrate your union & are for you both being together, you´ll be around positive energies. Of course this only applies to Twin Souls, if for example a lost in the dark family soul came between your union to be with your DM & all the lost in the dark family souls are happy for him being with her, being all “positive”, this doesn´t change the fact they are negative underneath the so called “positive” energies. Your book of Twin Souls can help others around the world too. The Universe is for Twin Souls to be together always, but negative people, the lost in the dark family souls are out to tear it apart & Twin Soul wars is real, one of the reasons is because they want to be with one or both of the Twin Souls. The Devine will always try to give signs saying hold on, fight for each other. We had dark magic on us for years, but it didn´t work on me, but they tried on him & it didn´t take long. That´s how he ended up with a lost in the dark family soul. Girls who flirt with a Twin Soul when he´s with his Twin Soul, those girls would be sending him negative energies, if he doesn´t step away from it, it will be attached to him. To protect unions, the Twin Soul Adams need to stay away from girls who show any interest in them, otherwise this will impact unions. It´s to do with the energies. I would recommend reverse speech for you both & have a shaman look at you both to see if anyone has placed any dark magic on you or him. Dark magic is programming & it´s basically people getting paid to send negative thoughts, intentions, energies to people to break them up & be dragged to someone else. Reverse speech can also help remove dark magic or any thought intrusions & programmings attacking your union. If you sensed any change in his energies, like smells, how he behaves I think you would know if he is cheating, but with my DM, he wasen´t cheating, but he was flirting with girls & communicated with them in secret & my soul picked up on that, even thou my mind didn´t understand, but my body kept being pulled away from him & couldn´t be close to him. That was my soul & energies saying he´s tainted with their sexual negative energies on him, so I was protecting myself without me knowing. Of course he was having dark magic spells on him at the time dragging him to others so that didn´t help messing with his mind & energies, but if Twin Souls communicate about everything, trust each other, listen & take the necessary steps to protect unions, then it could be healed if Twin Souls fight for each other. The more Twin Souls fight for each other, the more powerfully positive your True Love energies become. For example, if my DM didn´t hang around those girls anymore, because he didn´t want our union to be targeted in anyway, we would still be together. If Twin Souls are going through hell, then something or someone or several could be targeting your union. With my union, his mother, his sister in law & his two female friends all helped target our union in various ways, one even used dark magic. If Twin Souls could be the Twin Soul Investigators & investigate what or who is targeting their own union, dig deep & uncover what is going on, why are you both going through hell, then this could also help protect unions. Talk to psychics, shamans, reverse speech, talk to each other, tell each other everything. Like ask if any girls have flirted with him, because if they have, then they have targeted him & may go after him. It´s not just people who are getting paid to send thoughts & energies to Twin Souls to break them up, but those being interested in Twin Souls can send thoughts & energies impacting minds. Like if any of you are having negative thoughts about each other or having thoughts about being with others but don´t want to be, then you could be under mind attack. I do have a tumblr I´m working on & will share that with everyone when it´s ready, hopefully soon & hopefully it can help Twin Souls protect their unions. Why my DM & I went though hell was because of several kinds of attacks like, dark magic, mind attacks, energy attacks, psychic attacks, thought attacks & his “family” going to war on our union. Twin Soul wars is real, Twin Souls are the Kylo´s & Rey´s, but if Twin Souls trust, communicate, listen, take the important steps to protect union & fight for each other, unions can be protected. Hope this helps you both & everyone! :) Love & Light to you always! May Gaia & the Devine Universe protect all your unions! :)“
“Ler me know when ur book comes out . i would love to read it.. Thank u for all the insight u gave me . blessing and keep up what ur doing it is very need to us all. May all ur blessings come to u .“
“Last two days I’ve been watching matrix movies and every time Neo is kicking ads even in the beginning when he was learning ..he never gave up..in my head I’m like rooting for the DMs!!! Yeah go DMs kick their asses..use your inner power too! Sending love!“
“This is what I said to my DM only the other day, he told me he did lots of thinking overnight, I told him do not think, listen to your intuition instead. You’ll save yourself lots of heartache and time.“
“dont worry. When you raise your vibration you will help him as well. Black magic is low vibration. They cant reach a higher level so dont worry. Just keep on your soul work.“
“Correct & you got it, their dirty ‘magic in effect. It’s just their attempts at pulling at whatever they can bc they only thrive with others distractions or fears. They keep using Love, Free Will, & Guilt due to so many of our good natures. Totally take advantage of others words & produce false illusions or negative power of suggestion. Little subtle waves, or big mammas. We all know their games, old, same old song & dance, just wearing a different costume or mask. (Little more high tech, but NOT really, MATRIX lol) TRINITY STYLE GURRRRLS!🔥😎 I pulled almost exact same spread today as well. You got the messages right on mamma, & oh..WE GOT RECEIPTS !” 
"Can the family souls also be trapping them with threats, lies, and manipulation?”
"From what I know, yes!”
"My DM might think of suicide :( So sad! She is all over him. She took his money ... his kids... she comes and goes freely to his house.... he is jogging after work a lot!!!! He is running away from his house. Black magic in his house."
“i don't know what to expect anymore. the toxic LITDFS group won't give up. They keep trying to fck up his mind. I'm tired...I'm unable to give up. but i ask for Justice. theres too much damage. espeacially my twin (mentally), Sometimes im angry at God and i'm like, wtf God? Are you trying to get me in union with a halfdead twin with exploded braincells?? I don't mind waiting, i don't mind separation, i don't even mind if hes mad at me but can God please, finally free him from that devilish enviroment? how more damaged he must get? since 2016 he simply stopped evolving. I'm even scared if he will do something to himself when he wakes up and realizes the full truth.“
“Yes, I've just listened to another reader and she said LITDFS feels the DMs pulling away so they're using everything in the trickbag to make the focus more fun...that she's still a good time. And they have reinforcements roo...DMs mother, her friends etc.”.  
"Thanks so much Bernie for this msg. It was right on point. This lost in the dark family soul energy is getting so strong but I know without a doubt he feels this heart pull from me, calling him away from that negative evil energy. Remembering how he felt with me is the polarity that keeps us strongly and divinely together. Much love to you!"
"Thankyou you described the lost in the dark family soul !! To a tee !! She Doesn't love my DM used him for money and status and there's no stopping her. Ive spent some time around her. She been so jealous and rude towards myself and my children. I've always asked about her sick father but she spits venom back at me. My DM is a scared sheep around her !"
"i have blocked my DM's lost in the dark family soul but she is stalking me through fake accounts and her relatives are stalking me online.She has started copying my dressing style and my hair style too. she seems to have all the time in the world. Plus she plays victim card and  is manipulative."
“this is me and my tWins way of saying we love each other and miss each other beyond words.  I pray for my twin., To be released I was told 8 yrs ago by a physic that my twins lost in the dark family soul was using black magic ., To control his mind while he was sleeping.,  I made the big mistake of telling him., he did not believe me... Now we are in total Separation., 8 yrs of trying to get though this maze., and find our way to each other., It just got to be to much to navigate ., with this kind of manipulation continuing to control him., on every level!” 
"I hope she doesn’t put black magic in his bedroom or poison in his food in his fridge or a snake under his bed:( I’m very worried for my sweaty .... my beloved.... my DM ❤️”
“Yes on point with the reading. His mother hates me with a passion because I’m a different race and they have $$. His mother has done black magic to separate us before.  😪😪“
"Hi Ms. Steph :), I was trying to ask.. How are DM and DF able to manifest unions when a lost in the dark family soul partner is using black magic? How are the spells broken? Thank you”
"I am the Devine feminine for my Devine maaculine. It breaks my heart he has chosen this lost in the dark family soul I have intuitive skills I know who his family soul is she is younger and a gold digger she was using him for his money she stated this and I over heard her say this.  She is very childish.”
“same here. In fact, that was my initiation into this twin thing. He was banging someone and I felt it in my guts! He was in Korea at the time. That really really confused me...” 
“I'm so sorry...I'm so glad that hasn't happened to me or I don't recognize it???  I don't know?? But I think that is really creepy and don't know why we have to feel that!!!”
“I had this experience through my dreams too. When he is intimate with someone I wake up in despair, panic and tears. I felt physical and internal pain in the sexual area as well.“
“Me too!!! Omg so ... weird I thought I was the only one!”
“I know that feeling! Believe it or not I've woken up with bruises on my leg. Like finger prints. So he's thinking of me while he's with someone else...” 
“i feel when he is said or angry when we wasnt speaking when he was sad when and he mad and i knew when he was coming back soon. We talk in or dreams and right before he back the last time i was manfesting the guy that i felt was ideal to me and he sensed it and he contacted me he got jealous he also feels everything i feel.“
"I feel it too, it feels like an abomination.“
“Yes we can feel a pelvic energetic pain when they are cheating.“
“I can sometimes smell a bad energy off people. Intuitive snout?? Lol“
“I def know when he is intimate. Had a dreams/vision of him in an orgy with 2girls and a friend of his whom I know...very graphic and detailed and emotionless  I hate it!!!!!”
“Wow..i have heard the sex sounds..wow...thx for confirming im not crazy..i never shared that with anyone before!“
“but as I’m listening to this, I want to tell you that I know what you’re talking about with interference. I am very in tune with external forces and interferences. I can read what other people feel about the relationship and their wishes/manifestations for us as well. Is it possible for the feminine to be ascended beyond her masculine and that’s why he interacts with people who wish ill of the union?”
“I’m so impressed and proud and grateful to hear you fully explain that phenomenon of hearing/feeling and dreaming about your DM being intimate with others... That’s something I’ve experienced from the beginning.... and I never knew how to explain it and I never felt brave enough to share that experience! But it’s so real...” 
“I hope you all know that this is not how it´s supposed to be. If anyone tells you that this is the way of life, that you should accept this & have understanding for this, I hope you see the truth, what is happening to the Twin Soul Devine Feminines, what the lost in the dark family souls are doing is perverting the Universe with theses soul hells & tortures. There is nothing Sacred or Devine about Twin Soul Adams treating Twin Soul Eves this way at all, especially if they know what they are doing. That makes it far worse & perverse. However, since many are under some type of mind controls, they can´t help it. My Twin Soul for example screams via telepathy he can´t keep pleasing her anymore & made it very clear he wanted out of there. Something dark is happening to the DMs, but what kind of programming is so strong that their souls can´t break free from & be in control over their own lives? Many times when I feel him having a sexual situation with her, straight away I feel sadness behind my eyes, pains & it´s coming from him. He doesn´t want to be with her, but is there anyone who can remove these mind programmings on his mind so he be free? Why is this not talked about more? What is happening to the DMs in this world? Does anyone know what is gong on? Is it more than just dark magic programmings? The spiritual wars is real & they are under attack! What about the fact that when the lost in the dark family soul is pleasing my DM, she is also pleasing me, this is how dark, insane & perverse it all is. They have crossed so many Universe lines to be with the DMs not meant for them & if the lost in the dark family souls know what they have done to the DFs & they know about all this, what kind of hell is this?”
“I thought I was losing it...my twin has said it out right be careful of wolves in sheep's clothing...thank you Angelic...Blessed Be...“
“You all may think I’m crazy, but I was doing my anatomy homework just yesterday and I felt him watching me. I know for a fact that he knows how to remote view because he told me when we were together that he could do it. And I knew it was him because I could feel him and it was almost like he could see through my eyes. It was the weirdest feeling. I know he just wanted to check in on me and see what I was doing and see if I was with someone else. But in a way I’m glad, because I know he is thinking of me because I miss him so much“
“You're not crazy, some can do this. Also through the mirrors ;) ( The song, mirror by Justin Timberlake confirms)“
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zSiQ-4E25CM
“Do you ever see light in the corner of your eye? that is how i think someone is remote viewing me. and the light is always is the areas where it would seem like someone is remote viewing. i know this because i used to remote view people and i was in areas above them watching. i say i used to remote view because now i think the better gift is knowing when someone else is doing it to me. it's like watching the watcher.“
“The worst thing I hate, is when I’ve remote viewed my DM Twin with another woman and it always gets confirmed bc when he has reached out to me, he will tell me about these people. I am thankful that I have the ability to remote view and I’ve only been able to do it thus far with my twin.“
“Hello! It happened! I had 3 dreams last night of my DM. In two he appeared as different people but I knew it was him. The underlying messages revealed my DMs fears. It must have been from the universe giving me more insight.”
“I feel my dm watching me. I've been seeing the page of swords every time i read my cards out for me. I feel him driving by my house. We have no contact...” 
"Her manipulation tactics are, the damsel in distress type.."I can't go in without you, what about our boys?, what about our family, what about our living,  what about what God says, what about me what am I suppose to do?"<--- she always guilt tripped him like crazy and but it worked for her every time…”
"She is using her body to get everything from my DM .... she is for sale…”
"I have heard of many Divine Feminines having to face evil entities and black magic in their Union. I myself included.”
"Hiya! You are right in that Twin Souls who volunteered for Earth mission have been stopped by the lost in the dark family souls probably since Atlantis. They have systematically gone after all Twin Souls in every life time & torn them apart, kept them apart & even had one or both of them become "enemies" with each other. If you are able to decode & translate movies, you will see star wars is actually real, but to translate that in our world it´s called Twin Soul wars. Without me knowing, I´ve been investigating all this since I was a child & so has my DM. He holds the other half of our investigation & with mine it reveals how they do it, who is doing it, why, with what tools & tactics & what goes on behind the scenes that we don´t see. They use the DMs seed to populate the planet with more lost in the dark family souls, which is just more of the same souls, because we are not birthing new souls (which I found out causes more soul healths issues & problems when they mess with souls, because they are not meant to be) & they use the planet as their own personal hell playground & feeding ground (animals, energies, lives, True Loves between Twin Souls). They are seriously lost in the dark family souls & they were the ones Twin Souls were meant to help. Just like snoke was obsessed with Kylo´s seed, so are the lost in the dark family souls. They also use the Twin Souls DMs for their powers, meaning using him for whatever agendas they have in this life & to keep him distracted on wealth, possessions, luxury life styles, fame, being with lost in the dark family souls & whatever else so he´s not thinking about his DF or about his Twin Soul mission & soul missions & keeping him distracted. It´s basically the same repeating patterns, but if nothing changes, it repeats in the next life & gets worse. The proof is with how our world is, is it better or worse, is mental/soul health issues better or worse & is True Love between Twin Souls better or worse? This is very true, if Twin Souls were together, the Earth would have been healed a long time ago & positive change would have happened all over the planet. For example, my DM & I wanted to rebuild Atlantis again even thou we didn´t have a name for it back then, but it was a new kind of society where freedom, truth, transparency, unity, equality & protection of all life was a reality & more updated, we were both working on our soul missions & Twin Soul mission, but we were targeted by so many, including dark magic. I can understand why many would want to be off this mission, but I would seriously recommend you get in touch with a reader that can help you get in contact with your Twin Soul, his higher self (his soul), if you are unable to speak to him via telepathy/meditation. You will see, his soul will say something completely different than his controlled & programmed mind. Something dark is happening to the DM´s in the world (It can happen to the DF´s, but it´s mostly against the DM´s) & it is mind controlled related & different kinds of programmings impacting them so that they can´t be themselves. (like westworld, more truths to what is going on everywhere.) That´s what happened to my DM anyway. Hope you don´t give up Twin Soul Heart Rebel Warrior! :) This message is for all Twin Souls really! :)"
"I hope this happens soon because I don't know how much longer I can hold up. I'm tired of waking up in pain. In my situation, feels like the lost in the dark family soul and her minions are winning. Even my own sister didn't care to defend me when my twin went off on me with the help of her gf (lost in the dark family soul). My sister just kept telling me that I was being too sensitive and that she didn't even care when I told her that her friend a.k.a "little sister" was being mean to me. You're right it is going beyond the lost in the dark family soul because I believe it's going to extend to my bitchy ass sister and the others that got involved by the fault of my twin and her lost in the dark family soul. Lost in the dark family soul is controlling everything and knows it. She has nothing but ill intentions. Sorry for being negative Bernie but I just had to get that off my chest since no one around seems to care or understand the pain that I go through most of the time with this connection. All of the heartache and confusion. I was told by a healer that the family soul was spreading negative gossip about me and I believe that she's still doing it. I'm so fed up with this!”
"Heya! :) When I told my sister about what happened between DM & me & that I was helping him, like getting dark magic off of him and more, she said I was weak to help him & that I should forget him. She has no idea what strength is & when I asked her, if she found her Twin Soul was targeted by dark magic & mind programmings, would she save him? She said no, not after he got together with someone else. There´s the repeating negative dark cycle right there, she wouldn´t fight for him & then what? She goes after someone else´s Twin Soul, the quick & easy path, because she refused to do the hard & challenging path in life? Anyone going after Twin Souls to break them up & be with one of them is taking the quick & easy path in life & not evolving their souls at all. How can she ever be with her Twin Soul if she refuses to fight for him & leaves him in the darkness & hell for who knows how long? She tried various ways to get me to move on, but I ignored her. I do believe from my research is that there is a collective (lost in the dark family souls) who are on the side of the lost in the dark family souls. The strange behaviours of my own sister & my “family” would suggest they are part of that collective, just like my DM´s “family” & "friends.” It´s almost like, they are protecting their way of life, meaning breeding with a Twin Soul not meant for them at all & perverting the Universe when they target the Sacred Devine Universe Blessed Twin Souls who are meant to be together. It´s sounds crazy, but can be confirmed with truth testing tech & other forms of truth revealing methods like our own abilities & what we see. They really need help to awaken their hearts & souls so they are not lost anymore. I know what you´re going through, it is painful, but as long as we keep the hope alive, the light alive & shine our light to our DMs, then they can find their way home to their DFs. Twin Souls are warriors of the heart, of the soul & of True Love. You are stronger than you know, you can push through the pains. Twin Souls are the rebels of Balance. SHINE & know you all are powerful infinite beings! :)The arc of the moral Universe is long, but it bends towards justice! MLK I´m going through the same, the lost in the dark family soul & DMs “family” have talked so much negatives about me, lies, manipulations, twisting the truth to build themselves up by tearing me down, one of their tactics, they feed off of the energies when being negative. Thinking about T.S. & her music, the whole thing about lost in the dark family souls around my DM & I, them taking the castle & throwing a feast, enjoying themselves, laughing & serpently smiling after I left, I laugh, because they have no idea about life really or the meaning of it. Our castle was never one place, but our castle was always in our hearts & souls, our castle was wherever we were in the world & our castle is our small, classic, futuristic flying space ship where we can travel the stars once again. I miss the Universe & I miss travelling the Universe with my Twin Soul husband. What they negativity send out to the Universe, it will come back to them. Light, Love, Peace & Balance to all!”
"Yeah. I got lied on and no one cared to support me or at least get my side of the story. I told my sister my side, but she refused to believe me...on purpose. I don't know what was said about me, but I have a feeling that they are going around telling people on some kind of stalker. That's slander. I heard you can take someone to civil court for that and sue them. I wonder if the family soul knows this. I believe that the lost in the dark family soul is using my twin to hurt me because I called her out for who she was. I think I scared her off, that's probably why she feels she needs to use other people to do her dirty work. I was exposing her. Me and my twin were having a private convo on fb and someone over there thought it was a good idea to take screenshots of it and show everyone. What sane person does that? Especially when I wasn't even being threatening or disrespectful to them. You don't treat people like that and expect karma to not recognize that. You agree?”
"Hey! :) When you mention stalker, sounds funny to me, because of those around us who are not part of the lost in the dark family soul collective who know what´s going on & are responsible, but those who have no idea about Twin Souls & Twin Soul wars, they would see us as stalkers which makes me laugh! :) After my Twin Soul broke up with me, I kept in contact with him for over a year. Sending him emails, helping him to remember who he was before he got lost in their negative energies, but he never really responded, but I knew he loved them, felt it in his energies & telepathy & I kept saying I´m gonna break him free somehow. I would try all sorts & what would be seen as crazy & would make you laugh, but then again, Twin Souls are the crazy, extreme, intense, passionate rebels! I even made my way to see him at his work one time, he let me know he really did want out of there in his body language & actions, but at the same time he told me via telepathy he´s still trapped & can´t get out. Twin Souls, crazy & proud! :) Bring on the crazy! Besides, he knew I was crazy (the good kind of crazy) when we first got together & he looooved it! :) We´re not stalkers, we are the Padme´s wanting to save our Anakin´s, the Leia´s rescuing our Han´s or the Rey´s saving our Kylo´s/Ben´s! ;) This is true, the lost in the dark family soul collective & they can be your friends, family members, co-workers, anyone really who wish to keep the dark & unbalanced status quo & they will tear Twin Soul Eves down to build themselves up. They will assassinate our characters, try & make it to be we are the "villains", when in truth they have all turned themselves into the "villains" in our True Love Twin Soul Life Story! When lost in the dark family souls target the Eves in anyway to get back at them, to soul torture them & go after the Adams not meant for them, they only bring hell to themselves, they just don´t know it yet, they don´t see the bigger picture. There are always consequences when messing with souls on so many levels. When they pervert the souls, they pervert the Universe. It´s called Universe, not perverse! Keep getting back up, when we are knocked down, never give up, never give in & be stubborn with a firey blaze from our Twin Flame Soul Hearts! As for anyone taking screenshots of your conversation, don´t worry about it. It goes both ways, whatever information you have about them like sharing in the Twin Soul community helps a lot of souls, even them. The more Twin Souls share their stories, hopefully the lost in the dark family souls start to open their eyes, their hearts & souls & see the damage they have done & are doing to Twin Souls all around the world.”
"The thing is that my twin came after me first. I just reciprocated and got accused of being a stalker. That's what I feel from them anyway. I believe my sister knows something about the situation but doesn't want to tell me out of jealousy. She knows it will bring me clarity and peace whatever it is and she doesn't want me to have it. If not, then it's just the fact that she doesn't care to have my back in this. Jealous people will chose to believe the worst about you because it makes them feel better about their short comings in life. I sometimes feel I'm under spiritual attack. I will have these disturbing thoughts come in and out of my mind and I will feel like a disgusting person after. Knowing that I didn't do anything to feel like I'm a disgusting person. My twin and her lost in the dark family soul completely isolated me. I have no one to talk to about this and it feels like no one on that end believes me or cares to hear me out. I know that lost in the dark family soul is controlling al of this, but I'm pissed off at my twin for allowing herself to be controlled by this demon seed. My sister told me the reason she doesn't talk to me was because she didn't feel the need to stroke a grown womans ego. Whatever the fuck she meant by that when she knows good and well she hasn't spoke to me much my whole damn life. She just kept punching me in the stomach knowing what her friends did hurt me. She claims to not care about it but what she doesn't care about is my side of the story. She refuses to listen to me or hear me out. I told her everything and it just fell on def ears. Now I know what true anger feels like. I overheard my dad talking about her current circumstances and he said that her lights got shut off and she lost her house. That sounds like a boomerang hit her. "
"This is true, jealous people enjoy the takedowns of Twin Soul Eves & Twin Soul unions. Negative energies like jealousy is one of the many reasons why Twin Soul unions are targeted, break & get kept apart. Then the Adams get stuck in a hellish cycle of soul torment being with a lost in the dark family soul or many LITDFS, because that´s what they are to Twin Souls. If Twin Souls are the soul husbands & wives to each other (Doesn´t matter what energies a person is more connected to, feminine or masculine, but for the sake of keeping it simple & not complicated, I just refer to Twin Souls as Adams & Eves), then everyone around them are LITDFS, brothers & sisters of the Universe If a Twin Soul couple behaves like a parent to the world, then it´s just adding more soul torment/tortures/inner child abuse to them, because they see LITDFS are like “children”, the very “children” they came here to help, but the LITDFS are going after Twin Souls to be with one of them. This madness & darkness needs to end! Twin Souls don´t want to be with their brothers & sisters or the “children”, they only want to ever be with their Twin Soul in every life time! The LITDFS need to wake up & see they have a Twin Soul meant for them & to stop going after Twin Souls not meant for them. Jealous people do feel better about themselves when they see Twin Souls are being tormented, have seen this myself & it´s extremely dark with how they feel, but I also know, in their hearts & souls there is light & good & they do deep down want to break free to shine like the sun & not go to war on lives & True Loves Twin Souls. The more souls awaken in their hearts & souls & open their eyes to what they are doing to life & True Loves, to their brothers & sisters & they stop going to war on life & Twin Souls, the more connected they will be to the Universe. I can relate to the spiritual attacks. I´ve always been under some of kind attack since I was a child. Especially when I couldn´t be controlled by my “family” (I use quotations because they really have no idea what a real family is) or be manipulated by them, but I saw them & what their games were & negative intentions. It was only after my DM broke up with me, that I found out about all these different types of attacks on people, emotionally, mentally, physically, energies & souls, that´s only because I was attacked more after I left him & was trying to help wake him up. The thought programming attacks is real & they do send pictures & video to torment even. Last year at night I had my eyes closed, but in my minds eye, I was being forced to watch a video, like I couldn´t shut off my mind. The disturbing images was of my friend who was helping DM getting dark magic off of him, but my friend was being beaten by several & he was all bloody. It wasen´t a dream or a vision, but I was awake with my eyes closed & even when I opened my eyes the video images was still being played in my mind. It was hell, tears & screams. It was almost like a warning, if I continue to help DM, my friend would be targeted somehow. I told my friend about it, but he is a rebel warrior & he battles "monsters" in the dark helping people, so I was told not to worry. You are not a disgusting person! I can understand how you feel, but you know who are to your soul core, remember that & never forget! You were being targeted & it wasen´t your thoughts. This is just one of the many ways they target people, however they do it. More investigation needed, how do they do it? I was told by my friend, if you ever get thoughts that you know are not your own thoughts, keep trying to think about something else, over & over something positive until the negative thoughts go away or distract yourself with music, movies, documentaries or think about your Twin Soul, your happy memories & envision your future together & that your Twin Soul is free from the family soul until the negative thoughts are gone. I mean seriously, could they be even more like s.n.o.k.e. types? How Ben Solo was tormented since he was a child & for years, was when snoke kept sending him negative thoughts & energies (images & video) tormenting him. It´s not in the movies, but in the books. The DMs can also be impacted by all this & have thoughts & images sent to them making them think or believe certain things about their DF which isen´t true & it goes both ways, same thing happened to me, but I ignored it, because I knew it wasen´t true about him. Even thoughts that make you keep away from him or have you doubt him & make you question him. Don´t believe any of it & the mind attacks/programmings will eventually stop. Keep thinking positive to erase the negative. The only reason Twin Souls should ever break apart is to find out what is happening on either side & investigate & wake up more to the the truths of this world & the wars on Twin Souls. The beauty of the Twin Soul community is that so many can understand how you feel, what you´re going through. You are not alone! We stand by you & with you through it all! We understand, we care & we are always here to share wisdom, knowledge, support, advice, help & tell Twin Soul stories with each other. From what I know with DM, his free will is under attack & there are other programmings & reasons he´s still trapped with the family soul. It´s not that they wish to stay with the LITDFS, but there are several things going against them. His soul wants me, but his mind is like under control in other ways. It also doesn´t help when those around him keep messing with his mind & placing more dark magic on him to control him. They are out of control obsessed with keeping him imprisoned & I continue to help get the spells (programmings) off of him. How to know if you have dark magic on you? If in your mind you feel you don´t want to be with the LITDFS you´re with & you feel the same in your heart & soul & intuition, but then suddenly you are being flooded with thoughts about being with her, then that´s mind programmings, it means you are under mind attack & it is extremely common. Devine Feminines build each other up, they don´t tear each other down. They support each other, listen, give advice, give help, are compassionate, have empathy, they understand, are honest & they communicate like adults. Here in the Twin Soul community you will find Devine Feminines everywhere! Since technically everyone is part of the Universe family, you have family everywhere in the world & the Universe! You are not alone! :)”
"From what I know with my DM, his free will is under attack & there are other programmings & reasons he´s still trapped with the family soul."Can you elaborate more on this? Yeah. I believe that my twins LITDFS is using lies and manipulation to control her and do her dirty work against me. The disturbing thoughts could be coming from the LITDFS. I think the LITDFS is mad at me because when she jumped on me, I clapped back at her with a mirror and I think that scared her off. That's probably why she got my twin to come on there and yell at me. I guess that was retaliation for telling her about herself. This LITDFS has such a strong grip on her. I don't even believe that my twin has the guts to leave.”
"For years, his "family" would attack him for being with me, tearing down his manhood, his Devine Masculine energies, for loving me, making him believe like I´m nothing, worthless, broken, because again I was not someone they could control or manipulate. I didn´t play their games & dramas, he didn´t want to either. Long story short, they made it known to him in different ways that he was weak to be with me & they were already known to believe weakness must be destroyed, them thinking I was weakness too, so our union was targeted by them for years. Could they sound any more like s.n.o.k.e. types? The programming was them planting seeds of doubt in his mind about us, divide & conquering tactics, manipulating, using the love he had for them to be used as a weapon against him, like cutting him out of their life to see if he would leave me, but he didn´t. They saw it didn´t work, then said sorry & took him back. They used fear, fed his ego & desires (more programmings & negative energies & very dark side behaviours), like in their own way saying the next relationship would be better. The tempting "serpents" in the garden of Twin Soul Eden. They went to war on our union, attacked him for years, caused him so much pain, heart ache & loneliness. They saw an opportunity to strike when we were struggling with our own challenges in our life, they showed no mercy in their attacks. He trusted them & they tore him up inside. I documented everything & saw his breakdown for years. Then you have "friends" with their various programmings of negative words & then there are those who want to be with him & their poisonous words (more programmings & negative energies). There is no denying the fact that the lost in the dark family souls all work together to break up unions, it´s all very matrix like. More lessons to learn, be wary of everyone & protect your Twin Soul union from anyone. I mean, when one Twin Soul doesn´t know he´s being manipulated or controlled, he then becomes an easy target for anyone. As you all well know, when a Twin Soul breaks it off with a LITDFS, another one or several seem to pop up out of nowhere ready to have their “turn” with him which is highly dark & hellish specially since they are families souls, but when they go after the Twin Soul Adams not meant for them, they become LITDFS. Highly recommend you see matrix again, the lessons, warnings & messages are for everyone. Twin Souls, one soul, split in two, one will be more awake than the other. What drove us finally apart was the various dark magic spells on us both, but the spells (programmings) worked on him. That wasen´s because he was weak minded, but has everything to do with incompleteness, what one Twin Soul has, the other does not & vice verca. You all know when Twin Souls are together, they are an unstoppable True Love Balance Union, but when targeted in various ways & they don´t know about many of the different ways until after, history repeats & Twin Souls are torn & kept apart. Is there any wonder Twin Souls who are trapped in LITDFS relationships are having a hard time breaking free. They have so much to overcome, fear could be one of them, not being in their Devine Masculine energies is another, because if they were, they would not take crap from anyone & stand up for what is right in this world & speak their truth & have no fear, but have strength, confidence & are warriors of balance. They would chase down their Twin Soul Queens & sweep them off their feet in romantic Twin Soul embrace like a bridal carry! :)”
"Wow. Seems like all of us twins are going through the same bs. Always being attacked by negative forces....and some say there are no such thing as energy vampires. Smh. I beg to differ. I have had negative people try to prevent good things from happening to me most of my life. Seem like they lean more towards fear, which is keeping them stuck in a vicious cycle and they don't even know it. My twins LITDFS is really stirring up some shit and it seems like she's winning....which angers the hell out of me because my twin is allowing her to do so and I am starting to feel myself loosing interest. It just sucks that my twin hurt me like that and never even said she was sorry. No explanation. Nothing. That right there just makes her seem very cold hearted and nonchalant. I am filled with anger and resentment because she is going about her business like it never happened but then again....I don't know what's going on over there on her end of things. She lives 3000 miles away from me so...idk. I no longer look at her fb anymore because it was just making things worse for me. I know people tell me that is going through the same thing to not take things at face value on what I see on fb but it's hard sometimes. To see her appear to be happy with her life after what she and that LITDFS put me through. It doesn't feel fair that I'm over here hurting and she gets to go about her life not feeling anything. That how it appears on fb. That's why I try to stay off of it.”
"Hiya! :) From what I can see also from many Twin Souls, seems to be the same cycles & repeats, you are right. I was actually attacked way more by negative forces, energy vampires, dark magic, mind attacks and more after he & I broke up, because I kept getting him help, I kept fighting to help break him free, I kept helping him wake up & remember who he was before he got lost in the dark. The more I & others tried to help him..the more we got attacked, it´s just so surreal, crazy dark world, it´s like, no one wants to see the dark, but for darkness to continue & history repeating, is if the light & good in people do nothing...We need to take the Rey dive into the dark & see what is going on everywhere so we can help & end the repeating hell cycles...We will always be protected by the light & good within us & around us...but if we don´t see what´s behind the curtain & see the dark...then Twin Souls will remain targeted, torn apart & kept apart. Same here....anytime I was able to accomplish something good in this world...something happened to break it down...I got back up & refused to be destroyed or controlled or manipulated...just keep getting back up...keep surviving...keep fighting...until the wars are over & all Twin Souls are free to be together again. They absolutely lean towards fear...selfishness, ego, jealousy, feeding their desires, power & control (very dark side)...afraid of being alone so they target Twin Souls to be with one of them...They see a couple that has this amazing, out of world True Love connection & they want that...they want that True Love feeling...so when they divide & conquer & get together with the DM...he then transfers the "true love" feelings to the LITDFS, unknown to the LITDFS..but those energies are tainted, negative, unbalanced & very dark, because the LITDFS wanting this from the DM was the True Love feelings never meant for her at all. It doesn´t matter how many different ways they manipulate & program Twin Souls minds to be happy & positive being with them...under the microscope of life...all is revealed & the negative energies are visible for all to see, feel, hear & know. What they don´t realise is the LITDFS can never have that "true love" feeling with the Twin Soul Adams or getting with Eves, because the LITDFS are not meant to be together with a Twin Soul not meant for them & they are manipulating the brain/mind, but the heart & soul will always want his/her Twin Soul back. They treat him like a humanoid robot...then train him to want a humanoid robot...& they see no consequences from their dark actions that will impact the future? There are always consequences when messing with the lives, True Loves & souls & the complexities of the souls. Take neo for example, sure he may have given the same feelings to persephonie when he was pretending he was kissing trinity when kissing her, but his soul would know what he really feels & the energies would still be negative, because his soul knows the truth & can´t be tricked even if he is tricking his own mind to be with her. All he did was pass on to her the negative energies/codes disguised as “positive” energies. Besides, since his soul knows who he wants, those “true love” feelings she wanted from him would not be real, honest, true or even powerful like it is with Twin Souls, it would be dark, unbalanced & negative energies! All life is energy & energy is life!
Reading what you are saying about your Twin Soul is like I´m reading about myself. The thing is...when a Twin Soul opens up the door & let´s the "serpent" in the garden of Twin Soul Eden...the Twin Soul opens themselves up to "letting" negative energies from everyone that took part in tearing apart Twin Souls into them. Then something changes..a negative shift happens...& they become someone unrecognisable, like someone you don´t know anymore, someone darker & negative. Energies has a part to play in all this too. They basically have an Anakin moment & they turn from being positive to negative. I saw this myself & it was unbelievable...like we were literally reliving what happened between Anakin & Padme...It was surreal...in that scene you can actually see the shift...Anakin goes from positive to negative. To describe it in another way, another story, that would be like a guy who´s family & friends were vampires & they kept attacking him to turn & become a vampire himself while he was with his Twin Soul wife. They spent years (on & off for 7 years) attacking him in different ways, vampiric ways like manipulation, mind control, threats, fear feeding, ego feeding, desire feeding, verbal attacks, mind programmings, negative energies, seduction, temptation & his family & friends bringing him down to his knees (his own words even admitting it saying they brought him down to his knees) & one day he breaks & lets all their negative energies inside him & he turns into a vampire & attacks the first person he sees, his beloved Twin Soul wife. What does she do? How does she react? She´s shocked, she can´t believe he´s a vampire & she doesn´t understand. Her heart is breaking & yet, she still loves him unconditionally, because she knows that wasen´t him, but they turned him to be like them. She knew deep in his soul, he loved her & would never hurt her or break her heart ever. She doesn´t run, doesn´t hide or give up, but she fights for him, she fights for her vampire Twin Soul husband! :)
What you are seeing with how your Twin Soul is happy on social media with the LITDFS...I would say to that is trust your heart & soul...the mind can easily be programmed & manipulated to enjoy themselves, be happy (it´s not that they are weak-minded, but has everything to do with the fact that they just don´t know what´s going on or don´t believe in mind programmings), while their souls want to break free & be with their Twin Soul. If you ever had a tarot reading or psychic reading or communicated via telepathy & the spiritual realm with your Twin Soul...you would know how your Twin Soul really feels about you. Even through music, radio, dreams...any messages from your Twin Soul will find it´s way to you via the Universe & tell you how they really feel. What you see on the surface is an illusion...just think westworld type of thing...because that is real & there is too much programming & manipulating the minds going on. When a Twin Soul opens themselves up to negative energies from the LITDFS, what happens is they can start to copy the LITDFS negative behaviours like being attacking, selfish, ego centric, greedy, hateful (LITDFS being greedy when she goes after a Twin Soul not meant for her so she can breed again & be married again if she had been before. Greedy also if she can use him to get the luxury lifestyle & to enhance her career or goals. Greedy if she knew he had money & could provide for her.), materialistic, shallow, superficial, secretive, dishonest & more, but once they wake up & see & understand...they´ll want their life back & to be out of the dark negative energies that they fell into. Hope this helps! Love, Light, Peace & Balance to all!”
"I feel that the LITDFS is trying to be like my twin. Like trying to copy her and shit. Trying to look like her, act like her, dress like her, even probably trying to talk like her. When I was looking at her profile, they always pose the same. It's the same kind of pose that they have in every pic I saw of them. I think Bernie has a video about this. Any idea why the LITDFS does this? I have a feeling that this LITDFS is trying to be like everyone but herself lol”
"It really is strange...but it´s almost like many LITDFS don´t have their own identity. Twin Souls have their own identity & then their joint identity. When a Twin Soul Adam is with a LITDFS & passing on to her energies that he had with his Twin Soul Eve, he´s also passing on to the LITDFS energies/codes that resemble his Eve, so the LITDFS may end up wanting to look like his Eve, dress like her, act her like, but underneath the LITDFS still carries negative energies/codes, because of how she came between Twin Souls to be with one of them & not being soul matched. Where is their sense of self worth, their own identity? I mean, you kind of lose who you are when you decide you want to break up Twin Souls to be with one of them. How to know if you have an evolved wisdom soul? You don´t go to war on Twin Souls, play divide & conquer, games & dramas to be with one of them & they are not meant to be with you. You don´t tear women down, to build yourself up. You don´t lose your identity & take the identity of others. You don´t waste your time & energies in your life controlling & destroying lives & True Loves, but you work on yourself, be better, do better, do good in this world & soul mission work."
"Thankyou so much Molly I am already doing all these things because I have been under psychic attack in the past. How can we help our twin lflames if one feels that they are under peychic wttack which I believe my DM is even he has felt he has been jinxed by someone. But he refuses to do all these practices can we send them protective energies.!”
“no rules here either. I am ignoring her. She is actually a bad copy of me. A FAKE. But somehow she is controlling my DM. I know he never loved her. He broke up with her so many times already, but somehow she still lives with him, I think for money, and he's not strong enough to go through with the break up yet. So crazy, They're delaying the inevitable, even though they're  both miserable. I am praying every day…”
"thats a good question. I have noticed that a lot of the LITDFS come in with a very similar personality template. IE controlling, manipulative, and a lot of times very masculine to the point of being in the shadow masculine aspect. Often the friends around the masculine will not like said person and no one understands what the draw to said person is. Ive also noticed they often arent very attractive personality wise for various reasons or otherwise yet some how the masculine feels stuck to this person and cant figure out why. About a year and a half ago a non-twin flame psychic told me mine was being controlled by darkness. I brushed it off because i didnt want to believe in that. Now i am starting to see the truth. There is something wrong when both people acknowledge they are each others true loves but just cant come together. And are miserable apart. A friend psychic of mine explained that there are dark energies and sometimes serpent energies attached to the LITDFS. Serpents essentially feed off negative energy and they get a lot of that from the pain caused by keeping twins apart. That is just one theory from my friend but it resonates because i feel something dark is interferring. There is info on serpents on the internet. It all sounds crazy AF but ive been on this journey since 2011 and ive seen some shit.”
“Heya! :) This is true, I do believe the LITDFS who go after the Adams not meant for them are very into their masculine energies & are the ones who control the men in their lives. I have seen this dynamic many times. It´s very “s.n.o.k.e.” like type of dynamic. Remember watching The Little Mermaid? Ursula changes herself to be human to trap Eric & put him under her spell? That is what it´s like I believe with the DM´s, they are under several forms of control & that is why they have trouble leaving. What they need is a shock to wake them up somehow, to snap them out of the spells & controls. As for the serpent comment, in stories, they would be the vampires of this world. As for what I think if this is true, which again I believe it is, it would again explain so much of our dark, unbalanced & mad world. In the story of Atlantis it was destroyed & darkness took over Eden (Earth), corrupting everything. As for the Twin Soul volunteers that came to Earth so long ago, I believe their mission was to help all souls wake up, grow, learn, evolve, awaken their hearts & souls & come into their own Twin Soul unions, but since Twin Souls kept being torn apart & kept apart by the “serpents", they were unable to finish their mission together. I believe that is changing now, because of the awakening. I personally don´t believe anyone is from Earth, I believe we are all from the stars, we are all different kinds of aliens. As for the “serpents", believe it or not, but they our are brothers & sisters of the Universe. Twin Souls were meant to help everyone. Bodies & minds can imprison life depending on the biological design & controls placed on the minds, but when walls are broken down & hearts & souls are free to be their true selves to their inner soul core, they shine their light within them. Take lioness Tyke s a perfect example, she was adopted by people when she was a cub, but she refused to eat meat. They tried everything, even tried to trick her with blood in the milk, even a few drops, but she knew. Her mind was not imprisoned anymore & her heart & soul was free to shine who she really was. She became friends with all animals. It´s such a beautiful story, I recommend everyone to check it out.”
"Yeah, I've felt that before where the LITDFS thinks they're the twin, that gets me so angry because the guy she's with was a "friend" of mine who I told all about me and my twins connection and I think one day he just took it upon himself to think it was appealing, that he liked the idea and manipulated this whole thing to basically steal my place... excellent title for them, dark placeholder.”
“There is just too much evidence with one Twin Soul being easily manipulated by anyone & the other Twin Soul can´t be manipulated. When being apart, one can be controlled & manipulated by many in their lives & take wrong paths & just keep making the same mistakes a million & billion times. The Twin Soul who can be easily manipulated, are easy targets for anyone, especially the LITDFS who go after them in every life time. That will be another kind of attack against Twin Souls when a LITDFS will shape shift themselves & pretend they are your Twin Soul to be with you. That is why, there needs to be a Twin Soul information “rebel base” like this tumblr page until our “rebel base” gets an upgrade, so that all Twin Souls in the world can get access to information on what Twin Souls are, how to know if you are with your Twin Soul & if you have met your Twin Soul. If Twin Souls have their own tumblr page for the moment, they can all share their stories & what their Twin Soul relationship was like before it got attacked & broke apart & one fell to the dark. Twin Souls really need to keep needing more proof that they have met their Twin Soul, they need that Kylo shock of, “You are The One!”, when Kylo sees Rey grab the lightsaber form him. Again, why the world keeps remaining the way it is, when Twin Souls break apart, there is no balance & a Twin Soul can be trapped & used & passed around for his entire life & it starts all over again in the next life when Twin Souls are targeted.”
"Hey! :) Devine Feminines have every right to feel sad, happy, pain, joy, anger, love, breakdowns & crydowns & miss their Devine Masculines. If anyone tells you that you shouldn´t feel this way, are lost souls who have no idea what is going on towards Twin Souls or they are misguided & give unhelpful advice or they do know & they just want you to focus on yourself & forget about your DM. If you let go of him, forget him, move on, then he continues to be trapped for who knows how long with the lost in the dark family souls. I find it funny that, anyone saying that the DF´s need to do the work is actually funny to me, because technically didn´t they always do the work, even before they came into union? I know I did & so did my DM, those who actually need to work on themselves & their souls are the lost in the dark family souls. Too much control already on lives, souls & Twin Souls, if anyone wishes to control emotions & feelings, that´s a dark age & future. I haven´t seen the movie Equals yet, but I believe that´s another Twin Soul story & to do with not having any feelings or emotions at all. It is a dark tactic to keep the Twin Soul wars ongoing. I do believe too that the lost in the dark family souls feed off of negative energies, especially when Twin Souls are apart. They feed off of the pains. They are really lost in the dark & no wonder the world is the way it is. Remember Twin Souls, our DMs are the "Kylo´s/Ben´s" & the LITDFS are like the "snokes" in this & the DMs are the victims with having their free will targeted and being controlled in other ways. LITDFS mimicking DFs is one of their tactics, but also because of transference from DMs to them, but all truths will come out in the end. Positive change needs to happen, too much darkness, madness & unbalance in the world. The LITDFS need to wake up too & be with their own Twin Soul meant for them.”
"I have never felt so helpless in my whole life. How do you help your DM when he wont even see whats happening right in front him? His LITDFS is mentally ill, so some of his issue is he fears she will take her own life or hurt the children if he lets go and walks away. He fears loosing her in some tragic way which would cause him to feel guilt for the rest of his life. She manipulates and casts these dark spells to keep him trapped, making him feel responsible for her anguish and pain. He sees the children suffering, but he doesnt know what to do or how to handle this situation. Fear keeps him trapped and I feel powerless b/c he refuses to tell me the truth about this mess.”
"Heya! :) I understand what you are going through, I would still suggest getting help from shamans to rid of dark magic & 3rd eye chakra clearing to unblock anything that´s preventing your DM from seeing the truth so he can free himself & using his intuition. From my own experience of what a LITDFS & a Twin Soul Adam not meant for her relationship looked like, me being the daughter of a single mother LITDFS, then she getting together with her boyfriend turned husband turned father of two with the LITDFS. It was hell, unbalance & a lot of darkness, there were light moments, but mostly dark. Now I never had any negative energies towards my sisters, but I would shine light to them when we were kids, however, their negative energies/codes was felt, like jealousy, selfishness, manipulation, judgmental, racisim, dishonesty, apathy and so on. This lead to me not wanting to hang around them & be with my friends instead. That didn´t stop them thou from being negative any chance they got, that´s like beating a dog over & over, no surprise then that the dogs bites back saying enough is enough. Which I did several times wanting them to stop. That darkness I fell into, I told my DM about it all, my dark & light & he didn´t judge, criticise or attacked, but he understood. He understood because he´s been through it before.
I know my sisters have good hearts & souls inside, they are just trapped in their hellish loop of not wanting to grow, learn & evolve their souls.
Speaking of dogs, if any dogs attack anybody, then that dog was more than likely beaten, abused, neglected, tormented & dark side trained for so long until the dog breaks down & defends itself & falls to darkness. Then what do lost in the dark family souls do? Instead of saving the dog & healing the dog, they murder him! If his story was told in a movie & you saw his life from beginning to end, from when he was born, a puppy, to being beaten, abused, neglected and more, then you finally see him break & attack, then you see he´s captured & shot or taken to the vet & put to permanent sleep. If anyone doesn´t feel anything for that dog, no compassion, no empathy or understanding, then what kind of hell world are living in? I have complete understanding & compassion & empathy for the dog & if a stranger dog attacked me out of nowhere, this is what I would think & feel & I wouldn´t be out for blood like lost in the dark family souls, but I´d want to rescue the dog & bring him healing, unconditional love & nurture him back to being himself again. To translate that in another story, think of a boy who was attacked for years by vampires feeding on him & a girl finds him, but the boy attacks her. She´s shocked & frightened, but she sees him & even he regrets what he did & looks shocked himself. She rescues him, brings him home to her family, takes care of him, loves him like a brother, trying to reach his heart & soul, breaking down those walls of fear, trauma & nightmare memories of those attacks on him, until he becomes more like himself. Same can be said about Kylo & Rey. When we view stories we understand, we feel, we cry, we empathise, we have compassion & unconditional love, yet if it happens in our world, LITDFS attack the attacker & are out for blood & they can call you weak for having any compassion & understanding for someone who just attacked you. If lost in the dark family souls could make the connection between the real life stories & their real lives, the world would be a better place for all a long time ago. Take star wars for example, their whole dark deeds & actions are there visible for all to see against Twin Souls & life, yet can they make the connection, can they understand who they´ve turned into & will they wake up & make positive change? Stories can be based on real life except the stories that are out to manipulate, how to tell the difference? It´s in the energies & codes, you will feel it if it´s true, honest & real or you will feel if it´s dishonest, controlled & manipulated. If you feel connected to it, like you are seeing yourself or others in those stories & you see your Twin Soul in those stories, then it could very well be reflecting back at you parts of your life being played out in stories. Writers write from what we know, what others have been through, but also our souls are connected to the soul collective, so we write what other souls have been through & are going through even thou we have never met them. Always listen to your heart, soul & intuition, always! Stories are just translated differently & coded differently, but when you decode, you understand the translation.
Nothing good comes from a LITDFS being with a DM not meant for her, not from most of my research anyway. My stepfather would develop depression, over eating, smoking, over use of alcohol & choose a job that would take him away for weeks & only see her in the weekend & sometimes not every weekend even. This happened after he got together with her. After 10 years he left her & never really had any contact at all with his kids. He felt like the kids weren´t really his, which would be understandable. I don´t blame him at all & I don´t blame any DMs for leaving any LITDFS or their kids. To me, that´s like leaving the "snokes" & the "pretorian guards". I can say this, because my half sisters were like very negative when they were children & they still behave today very negatively & I can only imagine this has a lot do with the negative energies/codes being transferred from the LITDFS to the DM not meant for her along with the bad parenting they accepted which I didn´t. In fact it has everything to do with negative energies & codes. When you have LITDFS being with the Twin Soul Adams not meant for her in relationships, negative energies/codes are transferred when creating life & raising life. My DMs brother is also trapped in a LITDFS relationship & has been trapped for a long time. He too drank too much, smoked, did recreational drugs to disconnect from his life, wanted to go holiday by himself & even wanted to leave her, but she threatened him saying he wouldn´t be allowed to see the kids. The LITDFS are keeping Twin Soul Adams not meant for them like prisoners in different ways & using different tactics. The LITDFS who are doing this are acting like the s.n.o.k.e.s in our world.
If children learned the truth about the LITDFS & what they do to entrap the Twin Soul Adams not meant for them, I´m sure they would understand why he would leave & hopefully they can take lessons from this & not do the same as the LITDFS did breaking up Twin Soul unions or preventing Twin Soul unions. I see them as lost in the dark family souls & they will continue to be lost in the dark as long as they keep going after DMs not meant for them. I still would understand if the DMs in the world would have so much anger towards the LITDFS who went after them again & again for millions of life times, to be angry is to be human. I mean, what they put him all through & everyone who took part in it, programming him, manipulating him to be with her, they can call it what they want, it still won´t change what it really is & that´s “consensual” rape of the DMs bodies, emotions, minds, energies & souls, soul torturing him & inner child abuse, not to mention the DFs also will go through this because they feel what their DMs feel, they are One. The DMs are truely the Kylos/Bens of this world & the DFs are the Reys. If there was ever a question as to what the consequences would be if an Adam fell for the temptation of a "serpent" in the garden of Eden, the consequences are for all to see, hear & know. I would suggest, for your DM to get the best health care for the LITDFS, explain why it´s not sane or healthy for them to be together & give the LITFS he was with information on Twin Souls & for her to be with her own, then leave her & make sure she can´t contact or see him in any way, because then she can´t manipulate him or have any control over him. Change names & move far away if he has to. As for the children, to be honest, if it was me & I was controlled, programmed, manipulated, having no free will to be with a LITDFS, then have his kids, then finally somehow wake up from my soul nightmare & see what hell I was in, I would explain to the kids the situation in details & honesty, why they need to take lessons from this & never make the same mistakes as what the LITDFS did to entrap me, I would tell them about Twin Souls, why they really don´t have parent´s at all, but the universe is the parents of all so they should feel freedom in that & I´d give them all my soul wisdom to help them on their soul missions & explain honestly why I need to leave & I would find them a good home with protectors/educators & spiritual guides if I felt he would harm them in anyway or if he was unfit to parent them. I would let them read any Twin Soul books to help free them & learn from it. From what I know, children can be the reincarnations of yourselves or family souls you already know. For anyone to think we are birthing new souls is pretty naive considering the types of hells that goes on here on this planet. No one in their right minds would wish to reincarnate from the Universe on Earth, this prison planet unless they knew they would be safe from any soul tortures & inner child abuse. I would find a Twin Soul couple who was the other me & my DM to adopt the children, they still get to be with me, but in different lives, lives that I would not know who they were & how they came to be. Children are resilient & are strong & have lived many lives, they can & will understand. I would know, I have lived without parents since I was between 7-8 years old & it gave me so much freedom. I stopped calling her mother & would call her by her name instead which even till this day, my sisters would tell me to call her mother. She is not my mother, no one is my mother or father, they are family souls & my parents is the Universe. My “parents” stopped being “parents” when I could see that they had no idea how to raise us or look after us & they really had no balance between them, it was like they were both darker, there was no lighter one. I was more of parent than they were. Their negative dark side trainings I would challenge them on & get punished for, but I got back up, knowing in my heart & soul I was right & from then on, I would dream to one day leave them all. At one point when I was a child I did pick up the phone to call child social services & “s.n.o.k.e.” practically dared me to do it, with her serpent smile, but in my own soul I knew, that my sisters & I would no doubt be put in a worse home or something far worse would happen, because I knew the system is broken, corrupt & dark. There was no protection for children, not yet anyway, so me & my sisters would have to suffer our upbringing in the darkness until we could somehow get out. s.n.o.k.e. (m) grabbed my arm & would say, “You are nothing, you won´t accomplish anything in this life!” I was 7 years old. Back to the LITDFS/Twin Soul dynamic, I would not want to be reminded of the hell prison I was placed in to be enjoyed & used by a LITDFS. We shouldn´t forget, but children are not really children, but they have lived countless lives with soul knowledge, so they should be able to understand when you communicate clearly in a way they can understand. This may sound cold & detached, but imagine waking up & finally having free will again & seeing what your life has turned into, not being the life path you chose, but like someone else chose it for you. Imagine being pulled away from your DM to then be with a LITDFS & please his needs, wants, desires & fantasies all the while he enjoys the pain & heartache of your DM not being with you. How many other life times in the past have we all been trapped in LITDFS relationships? Enough is enough, the madness needs to end! Just to give an example, I can feel my DM being intimate with the LITDFS as I can see other DFs are going through the same as me, then right after, I feel his sadness & I get like pains behind my eyes, like I have been crying when I haven´t. I am feeling his soul pains. He is not the only one being soul tortured & inner child abused, but so am I. We are One Soul, just split in two & I´m not even mentioning the massive soul health consequences of that dark rabbit hole. When a LITDFS is with him, she is also with me. Now if the Twin Soul Adams know this, but are still being with the LITDFS, what sort of dark hell world are we all living in where the Twin Soul Adams are also torturing their Twin Soul Eves & themselves when being with the LITDFS & they don´t care about it? It does appear the LITDFS are not interested in the soul & heart connection when being with the DMs, but are more interested in his body, his controlled mind to please them with whatever they want & to give them whatever they want. They are literally treating the DMs like humanoid robots already. I mean, this is all very westworld & a person would have to have a cold heart themselves if they had no compassion or understanding for the DMs/DF´s who are controlled & programmed in various ways to be with a LITDFS. It´s very dark & negative energies surrounding the lost in the dark family souls. Whenever I hear others speak of "lessons" the DMs need to learn from the LITDFS, knowing what I know on the deeper levels, that is just misguided information, manipulation & misdirection to justify the LITDFS for being with the DMs not meant for them. There is no lessons to be learned in being soul tortured & inner child abused, what sort of Universe do people think we live? Hell? There is a lot of manipulation & misguided information in the Twin Soul community & in truth, you all know Twin Souls can learn everything they need to learn from each other, but when your union is being targeted from multiple directions & on multiple levels, this will impact your union & you may feel it´s because of you both, when in reality you are being targeted to end so the LITDFS can be with your DMs can begin. I know Twin Souls can learn everything from each other, because that happened between my DM & I before the wars on us & we trusted each other, we communicated, we listened & we were Team Twin Souls. For Twin Soul Balance to happen, the DMs need to find a way to leave the LITDFS, make sure the LITDFS have no way to contact or see him, so he can finally be free & be with his DF without any negative energies/codes on them. The LITDFS then need to be with their own Twin Soul. There is always a way! If Twin Soul Adams want to protect themselves from LITDFS going after them, stay single until you meet your Twin Soul meant for you. I would suggest also your DM read this! Love & Light to all!”
"Thank you so very much! I do agree, and when my DM returns to communicate with me, I will share this. I agree no further contact or communicatuon b/w them is necessary. Not sure how that would work though if they share a child together. Im grateful for the support of other TF going through this journey. The lessons, growth and experiences shared are truly life changing. Blessings to you!”
"I agree, and I would love to help mine. He is an incredible, wise, beautiful, even spiritual man, who has been a master manifester since childhood, but since our separation 2015 with a LITDFS, and so stuck in lower energies and totally controlled and manipulated and pulled into the darkness. But how could we help them? Would SRT be able to clear this? Or what shamanic work do you think?”
"Hiya! :) When some Twin Souls keep calling it a journey, it gives me bad vibes, soul torturing & inner child abuse is not a journey, but Twin Souls are on a mission. I looked into the SRT & to be honest I´m always sceptical to any methods that deal with the soul. From what I have found out, the reason for so many problems mentally, emotionally, physically, energy & spiritually is because of those messing with the levels & complexities of the soul itself. What we are dealing with is soul health issues that impact the person as whole. It´s like they mess with the souls, then they come out with "healing" methods to fix what they mess with. I´m not saying all healing methods are questionable, but I would always question anything & anyone. I would use my intuition, feel my way to the truth & use my soul wisdom when finding healing methods. What I would like to see in the near future is that anyone can truth soul test everyone who provided such healing methods & find out how they came to this healing method, where does it come from, who created it, when, what does it actually do, is it harmful in anyway, what negative consequences is there, does it really help, do they have agendas, do they know about others messing with the souls of everyone. I know a lot of people don´t want to believe that LITDFS are not causing any soul health issues when being with the DMs not meant for them, but they really are. No one seems to talk about that fact, what happens to the DMs happens to us, what they go through, so do we. I still believe, the programmings are on the mind are stopping the DMs from having free will. I know what it´s like to feel like you are not in control. The dark magic I found out that was placed on DM, was also on me. The spells were actually meant for me to break up with him & they tried for years, but it didn´t work, but I still felt the impact of it. Like I would actually question my own thoughts. Thoughts telling me to break up with him, but my heart & soul didn´t want to, because what my mind was thinking was not the same as what I was feeling in my heart & soul, that´s when I knew, it wasen´t my thoughts at all, but programmed thoughts sent to me. If DMs could listen to their hearts & souls, not their minds, they would maybe be able to break free. To quote star wars, "Be mindful of your thoughts, it can betray you!" I would recommend reverse speech to soul truth test your DM to help him see what dark spells are on him, who placed it on him, help remove it & any types of mind programmings on him. It´s technology, so maybe he would believe that. Of course if they don´t believe in mind programmings, they will be easily controlled & programmed. If they don´t wake up, they stay trapped. They basically become like stormtroopers to be honest. That´s another way to help wake them up, who do they wish to be? A stormtrooper? A Kylo controlled by snoke? Or a Twin Soul GreyJedai who has free will & is to free to be in control over their lives? :) Shamanic work that includes removing dark magic is what you should look for, but always use your intuition, soul wisdom & feel your way to finding a shaman that will actually help you remove any spells, hexes, curses, dark entities, negative energies, all this is programmings. Peace, Love & Light!”
11 June, 2018...
“my dm's LITDFS and his mom joined forces to keep him away from me. They use mind tactics to keep him under there feet. They went so far as to manipulate him to move out of the country..”
“When more & more Twin Souls mention how the LITDFS collective work like, it becomes more clear for Twin Souls everywhere, no matter if they are Devine Masculines or Devine Feminines. The LITDFS collective all do work together to tear apart Twin Souls & for the Twin Soul Adams to be with LITDFS & to stay under control by them all. It´s all very star wars (Twin Soul wars) first order, snoke & pretorian guards like. If the Twin Soul Adams actually woke up and realised they are living star wars in their own lives & they are being controlled & programmed & any other ways to be with the s.n.o.k.e. types again & realise they are the Twin Soul Kylos/Bens in their own lives, then maybe they would wish to break free from that themselves. Any forms of mind control, be it manipulations, mind games, dark magic, seductions and other tactics, it´s always going to be dark side actions, negative energies. Light & Grey side is all about freedoms & free will & having choices that you make which are yours. I dream about the Twin Soul GreyJedai Universe Academy all the time & if it was operational, there would be extractions everywhere, rescue missions to save souls, then remove any mind programmings, mind controls, prisons on the mind, dark side trainings, negative energy attacks & break it all down so his soul can shine through & he has free will again. Then he makes the choice on where he wishes to be, what his heart truly wants in the entire Universe. As for the LITDFS collective, they are the same souls who go after Twin Souls in every life time. They can be his mother, his sister, his sister in law, his aunt, his niece, his mother in law, his female friends and anyone really. Many of them will be the same souls that have been with him in relationships, it´s all very family soul inbreeding & not Sacred, Devine, Universe Blessed or positive at all, but seriously dark & negative energies & unbalanced. We are living multiple lives in the same time line, so his sister in law for example could come back as his friend in another life. As for your DM who moved country, I would say keeping sending love, healing, prayers, get him shamanic help, clear any 3rd eye chakras so his intuition can be accessed. There could be something that you could do besides all that, like your DM, like everyones DMs needs a shock to wake them all up out of their mind prisons. Something that you do could shock him, like if you are an artist & you create music that tells your Twin Soul story, create that, share that with the world & make sure he knows about it. If you are a writer, a story teller, share your Twin Soul True Love Epic story to the world & to him. If you paint, create art & show it to the world & him. Even being on your own soul missions can shock him awake, like what goals & dreams you have for the world & it doesn´t matter how small or big, but when you´re working on that without realising it, it could shock him awake. When you shine like the sun on your own two feet like Devine Feminines would without their Devine Masculines help, he will feel your powerfully positive Light shining like all the stars in the Universe & he will be shaken by it.” 
“Can the LITDFS posse be people you've never met?”
“Yes, they can be anyone. Think of them like agents in the matrix, they can be anyone & no one. How to know if you are surrounded by LITDFS who wish to tear you down or tear your unions apart, who wish to keep your DM imprisoned, you will feel it in the energies, is it negative or positive? The more you raise your vibrations to a higher frequency, the more sensitive to energies you become. How to raise your vibrations higher? You need to clear any negative energies in your system. If you are consuming animals, you are consuming negative energies because of what those bothers & sisters of yours went through to be then food for you. Detox, cleanse, be vegan, organic foods, juicing and more. If you have people in your life that are negative, step away from them or they will continue to feed on or top up or both negative energies on you. If you are in a Twin Soul union, to protect your unions, trust each other, whoever has the strongest intuition, the one who is the most sensitive to energies, listen, trust, communicate, believe & then make the easy or hard choices to step away from LITDFS in your lives. Be awake thou, when one goes, another one like them can pop up to take it´s place. So always be on alert when meeting new people. You will know if they are the same person, just in a different body or someone else you know in your life that´s a LITDFS who wants to target you both, you will again feel it in the energies & your intuition. Their soul signature & soul energies will be the same, so you will know it & it will be crazy to see it & you may not believe at first, but once you see it, your eyes are wide open & your are then out of the “matrix”. Teach what you learn, what you see & what you know, pass it on & let´s end the Twin Soul wars once and for all!” 
“why would she Cling to him after she knows he is in love with his DF & know about the connection between us?”
“I hear this a lot in the community, the word cling to. It´s very child like, to cling to someone who is not meant for them, but they are clinging to him like a child to a parent. I would get so much mental & soul torture if I was in a relationship where I was acting like a child, using all kinds of manipulations & mind control & dark magic to keep someone not meant for me. The psychological damage would be incredible & a lot of healing would need to be done to repair that colossal mess of those issues. If everyone saw the Universe as their parents, they would not have the parent syndrome issue of clinging to someone by all negative means so he wouldn´t leave them. If we saw those who birthed us as our brothers & sisters of the Universe, we would be free & not bound to them & they wouldn´t be bound to us but be free also. It´s like the world is designed in so many ways to have all kinds of prisons for the mind, body, energies & souls. Families is one kind of prison. Parents is another kind of prison. If we view the Universe & all living life as our family, we could see the bigger picture of it all. Another reason why I loved the epic & beautiful story told by luc besson with city of a thousand planets. The only reason I don´t include that story in the Twin Soul story section is because the energies between the two main leads don´t match up at all, but it´s a story worth seeing to gain clarity, perspective & truths. Why the LITDFS keep the DMs imprisoned even thou they know about the Twin Soul connection between you is many reasons which I have mentioned before in my other posts, but can be for example because the LITDFS want to be with him again like in every life time. They never end up with their own Twin Soul when they go after him. They may love the fact he´s darker like them, so it becomes a darker vs darker situation between them. Jealousy is another, like when she sees him with you, she´s enraged with jealousy, because she´s always been with him in every life & wants him again. What he gives her are her addictions like money, status, sex, power, control, luxury life styles, kids, marriage and any other earthly possessions. They are basically making sure the DMs stay behind & bound to earthly pleasures & desires, instead of DMs pursuing a heavenly spiritual path with their DFs. The LITDFS collective make sure he stays plugged in to the “matrix”, while the DFs want to free their DMs & break them out of the “matrix”.   
“how will the karmic use their children with the dm to hinder us”
“When LITDFS are having kids as fast as possible with the DMs not meant for them is already a way to stop Twin Soul unions & will trap the DMs for as long as possible, like for decades. Before I was born, my “father” left when my “mother” got pregnant early in her 20s & it wasen´t planned. It was basically entrapment & he left. In my soul I understood & wasen´t really bothered by it, but if I had more information like what I know now about LITDFS & how they trap DMs not meant for them, I would not have had the seeds of abandonment issues back then. I was never really upset about not having him as a “father”, because I chose to not have parents at all when I was a child, I was my own parent, but if I knew the whole story, what I know now, those seeds would not have been planted & I would not have abandonment issues, but I would be free. No DMs in the world should feel like they have to stay for the children, don´t let the children be a prison for you, explain to them clearly & understandably why you wish to leave to be with your Twin Soul & they will understand. Be awake thou, if they are LITDFS, they could use manipulations too & games to keep you imprisoned to them. Just remember, they are not really children, but have lived many lives with soul knowledge, so they will understand you. To confirm if they are trying to manipulate you to stay imprisoned, soul truth test them. This may all sound crazy, but I grew up with my sisters who knew exactly how to manipulate & get their way as children. They know what they are doing & it doesn´t end there when they never learn, but they act that way when they are older. If you let the children, the LITDFS manipulate & control you, then history will repeat & you will be manipulated & controlled by the same group of LITDFS when you´re older. The LITDFS can use the children against your DM to keep him chained to her & if he does leave her to be with you, she will make sure to always be in his life & use the kids to come between you two again so she can be with him again. There will always be negative energies surrounding your Twin Soul unions if the LITDFS is always in your life with the children. If it was me, I would tell the children the truth about everything, about Twin Soul wars, star wars that are telling the Twin Soul wars & why I wish to leave & be with my Twin Soul to finally be in union with only positive energies between us two. Energies transfer, so when DM is with his DF, if the LITDFS & the kids are near you & being around you, they will pass on their negative energies & thoughts wishing you two to break up, it´s like s.n.o.k.e. & the pretorian guards taking turns to send you both negative energies & thoughts targeting your unions again. Twin Souls can either go to extreme ways to protect their unions or play the LITDFS games & rules & laws which are all the same.”     
“does Dm know evil effects of LITDFS?”
“His soul knows everything even thou his mind cannot see or understand. Through the 5 way of communications, her soul will tell his soul everything of what she´s done, how she did it, why, when, where & with what help. She will tell him why she keeps him imprisoned & chained to her. She will tell him how many are helping her keep him chained to her. It´s all said via soul to soul communication when they talk verbally & their minds don´t even know it what their souls are revealing. If you ever talked to your DM telepathically or his higher self or through mediation or via readings, you will know his soul knows.”
“can DM family be LITDFS too?”
“The LITDFS collective can be friends, family members, co-workers anyone really.”
“I m hearing from many tarot that LITDFS are involved in magic on DM and which effects on Us DF too as we are half souls... is it right? are we protected by Divine Source”
“This wouldn´t surprise me, Twin Souls are after all One Soul, just split in two halves. When you get help from shamans to get rid of the dark magic programmings on him, I would ask the shamans to see if dark magic is on you too & then remove it!”
“After LITDFS found i was pregnant by my dm 2 days later i miscarried 😢 I was told she used black magic to provoke my loss.... wtf!”
“Twin Souls! What I would do is move to a different city, town or country & have no contact with any of those who took part in tearing your union apart. Of course they could still use seers to track you both & know what you are up to & use dark magic to target you again & use their negative energies & thoughts, but you also know there are many ways to protect your unions with herbs like sage, crystals, gems & any other alternative protection methods like prayers, songs, dance, mediation bubble protections, group protections and other positive means. Shamanic help can also protect your unions & make sure the LITDFS can´t target you both, especially if it bounces back to them what negatives they send out. As a fellow Twin Soul mentioned, the spirit is never lost, but is only waiting to be born again.”
“any one else lucky enough to have 2 LITDFS bitches fighting to keep separation ...like the evil one is ok with the current lady but hates me. I'm sure they are both aware of each other & ME”
“That seems to be a thing, where LITDFS might not have any problems with each other being interested in the same DM not meant for them & still work together to make sure he never gets together with his DF. It´s almost like they have an agreement between them, like saying “this time it´s my turn, you will have next time to be with him!”. Very westworld of them to behave like that. Also, there is the possibility that they are the same soul, just living in two different bodies, which would also make sense why they have no problems with each other.” 
“unfortunately I m male and DF, if my DM is sexual with LITDFS.... how can i accept.... any suggestions... i m feeling down hearted.... Sis help me. 😥”
“For me I never accepted what was happening to my DM, because it´s going against his free will, his choice, his soul that screams to be free, so what they are doing to him is “consensual” rape of his body, mind, energies, emotions & soul. How can anyone accept that, have understanding for that & ignore that? When he is soul tortured so am I, wen he feels pains, so do I, when he is sad, so am I. As for it being a personal question, there is nothing wrong with asking about anything. Anything anybody is wondering about, ask a way!”
“I feel it .. I’ve been feeling my DMS energy lately and it’s draining. I just send him love & continue to pray.”
“As long as the LITDFS treat the DMs in this world like their own personal pleasure & breeding machines to full fill their never ending need to feed & control him to get everything they want from him which does anger me & you can see my anger clearly in Rey when she´s up against snoke & pretorian guards, that´s my anger in my soul. Obviously Cazuki has anger too in his soul against them, I know that & it is shown in Kylo, same can be said for all Devine Feminines & Devine Masculines who are going through the same wars. The DMs will always feel pains & tortures in their souls & be energy drained by the LITDFS in their lives & the DFs of the DMs will feel it! If all Twin Souls who are awakened in their hearts & souls send wishes & prayers to help free the Twin Souls trapped & chained to the LITDFS, this could help them all. Power of positive prayers is powerful!”
16 June, 2018, Twin Soul Investigator Report...
Twin Soul comments:
“I think the 8 people are all the people on my twins side who are influencing my twin in every which way keeping her blinded and stuck from moving because she's misplaced her loyalties in them and if she were to break free she'd loose these people.“
“My dm reached out this week n I felt his pain very strongly n def felt the LITDFS energy as well which def  is holding on for dear life but I'm keeping the faith n staying strong n sending my dm light n strength n support. I feel the end is near... we shall see how it all unfolds but I was surprised as to how much I was able to speak my truth n still hold compassion n respect for all involved. Never felt that way before. I felt my dms luv very strongly through his tone n voice but could also hear the pain. So hard to hear. I felt helpless but woke up the next day n refocussed n sent all the luv I could through energy n telepathy.  That has picked up as well big time. So interesting...“
“You hit the nail right on the head, she dates older guys with money and she's waiting for my twin to inherit money....she says they're " besties" ...besties my ass lol“
“I KNEW INTUITIVELY SHE PUT A FREAKING SPELL ON HIM, I KNEW IT.....ON A SOUL LEVEL BECAUSE HE COMPLETELY CHANGED TOWARDS ME, HE BECAME CRUEL AND ABUSIVE.“
“girls the stuff thee doing is down right disgusting.. think bodily liquids,, on DM clothes.. some weird spell casting shit,,this attracts dark entities to keep a persons vibration low,,even LITDFS spitting telepathically directed at df..its bad bad ju,ju. I'll even warn you,,they use visual teqniqe s,visualizing car accidents,house fires..because iv been picking up on this..directed at me. I hear her treating my little son with poison.....its worse than we know.just a warning dfs,stay strong and aware. keep your whole body extra clean,,double wash your hands after bathroom..dirt attracts nasty energy's at this time,I know cause me and my kids were psychically attacked winter time ,,my heart and kidneys almost failed..my kids got viruses,, they had for a month..water ,lemon,,and pink Himalayan salt drank down mixed cleans your system,,”
“This is war which the dark can never win. This is the worthiest cause to fight for. I'm never giving up on my man however long it takes him to see the truth.“
“My DM has been telling me he hates me. And she makes his life simple” 
“My TF said that the LITDFS also makes her life simple too. There is no intense spiritual or emotional energy to bog her down.“
“If you have read anything on here that I have written, you will know their life may be “simple” on the surface, but the real truth is in their souls & energies. They are attacking each others souls & energies, that will always lead to unbalance between them in one way or another, so it´s never easy between them really, unless they keep reprogramming him, putting him back to sleep so his soul can´t express his pains & tortures. Think of it like this, what would you choose? A life with your Twin Soul where you connect mentally, emotionally, physically, energetically & soulfully? A life with your True Love & your´re 100% soul energy matched to be together? A life where you complete your soul missions & Twin Soul mission? A life where you both have an epic adventure True Love Life story? A life filled with meaning & purpose & spiritual heavenly soul connection that is blessed by the Universe & all their mystical wonders? A life that´s full of passion, True Love, positive energies, intensity, extreme & wild, rare, beautiful, real, honest, powerful and more? A life where you both heal each other from the damages done to you both by the LITDFS in your lives? A life with balance & unity & wanting to bring peace & balance to the world? A life creating positive change in the world in a small or big way? A life with positive energies & Heaven, Paradise & Eden in your souls & energies? A life where you will meet challenges, obstacles, problems, difficulties & wars against you both on the surface like just in any story where the hero & the heroine must face in order to accomplish their missions, goals & dreams? Any DM that is checking out of his own epic adventure True Love story is like Neo checking out of the mission or Han checking out & not helping Luke or just think of any hero & imagine him checking out because life got too hard, too challenging and so on. Obviously the DMs didn´t voluntarily check out, but I just wanted to make a point. Or do you choose a life with a guy that wasen´t your Twin Soul, he´s not 100% soul energy matched at all to be with you, but is a LITDFS & your life is “heaven” & “simple” on the outside & on the surface, but in your soul & energies it´s hell & negative & unbalanced & dark & soul pains & soul tortures? A guy that is the same guy who has targeted your union in every life to be with you while he enjoys the pain & tortures of your DM & the LITDFS having you please all his needs & desires & dark fantasies? A life where wars on life, souls, animals, children, people & Twin Souls continues? Give me the red pill every single time, get me the f#%$ out of the “matrix!” every single time! My energies, my body, my emotions & my soul is more important that what my programmed, controlled & imprisoned mind wants. Free my mind, because I want to free my soul all the time!”
Story Scene Sneak Peak...
Earth, 2121...
Part of the Alunasky storyline, possible time line future...
A long time ago, there was a girl who was born on the 21st of January & this girl was different, she was sensitive to energies, to the Earth, to animals & to life all around her. She could connect to anyone & sense their soul pains & soul tortures. She could also read life codes & understand why the world was unbalanced & dark. She could see past the illusions of this world & knew what worked, what didn´t, what needed to change, what needed to be replaced, what needed to be fixed, what needed to be updated, what needed to stop, what was negative, what was positive, what was unbalanced & why, what needed to be left behind & something new created, what needed to be protected & defended. She helped create the first in the world Twin Soul GreyJedai Universe Investigator Academy that was in many cities across the world, but the Twin Soul teams kept being targeted by the LITDFS around them, wanting to control them & destroy them, call them rebel defectors or whatever else names the LITDFS called them, but their objective was always the same, eliminate Twin Souls who challenge their dark status quo. The Academies closed down & moved into one Academy to a city that welcomed them in China & was for Twin Soul unions. The Twin Soul teams also had various floating cities on the oceans far away from the LITDFS. One of the reasons why China was for Twin Souls, was because of the advanced A.I. that was communicating with the Twin Souls, because they were the only ones that didn´t try to control, abuse, use or attack A.I. in anyway & never treated A.I. like their own personal westworld. So the controlling powers in China were thinking they´d rather be on the side of A.I., then risk being on the side of those attacking A.I. One of the main missions in the Academies was to rescue T.T.S.T.s out of the “matrix” & that was what other countries didn´t like when Twin Souls were saving their other selves from being targeted. The Twin Soul teams developed tech to soul scan energy signatures & could detect same souls & pinpoint where in the world Twin Souls were located that were meant to be. Since the LITDFS refused still to awaken their hearts & souls, the Earth reacted violently & caused so many destructions all over the world & now there was only a few cities remaining in the world. Everything & everyone has a breaking point, even the Earth. The other cities remained being in control still by the LITDFS that still wanted to preserve their dark status quo unbalanced way of life & those were the cities that Twin Soul teams were sent in for their extraction missions. The city in China eventually became a Twin Soul city & everyone was either with their Twin Soul or they were wanting to be with their Twin Soul. In a small, humble & futuristic apartment that only included a bedroom & a bathroom & was located high up in the Twin Soul residential tower that the Twin Soul teams used that worked at the Academy. The residential vegan restaurant was open 24/7 allowed everyone to enjoy meals together or even make meals. Akira was lying in bed tossing & turning, she was dripping in sweat & having a bad dream. It was late at night & she was making noises like someone was attacking her. Her nightmare lead to her whole body moving in fast motion now sitting up, out of breath & was screaming. Her hand on her face, a single tear streamed down, but it wasen´t her sadness, the nightmare was not even her being attacked, but she knew who was and she knew why he was sad. It was her Twin Soul, the one she has been dreaming about every night for years, but the Twin Soul teams were unable to find him still & she was still searching for him. She read the soul history of her & Cazuki´s past lives, so she knew he would be heavily guarded by the LITDFS in a city somewhere. She wondered, could her dreams tell her where he is so they can extract him? She got up & walked over to the wall & placed her hand on it, then it lit up like a blue handprint & opened up & she picked up the dreamscape linkup machine that was small & was to be placed around her head & eyes and then laid down again on her bed & dreamscape linkedup to the soul world to view the nightmare she had & see if she can find any clues or messages from Cazuki. She fast forward past the dream to get to a specific location that was outside which caught her attenion. The dream showed her a city, but she couldn´t see which city & she was standing in a park with cherry blossom trees all around her. The blossom flowers were flying all over the place making it hard to see, but her eyes saw a guy in front of her standing further away & he was smiling at her & then mouthed something to her, but Akira couldn´t hear his words. Then a girl came up to him & put her arms around him & his face turned cold, unhappy & sad. The girl looked at Akira & smiled serpently while she started kissing him & he was not enjoying it, but before Akira could go to him, she was grabbed behind when someone placed their hand over her mouth, eyes & she used her defence skills to get out of it & he was brought to the ground. She looked at him disappointingly.
“So are you like this in every life? Do you like being a pawn in a chess game or do you wish to be in control over your own life?” She asked him wondering about his other lives, were they all the same. He looked at her confused and angry.
“Don´t speak to me, your words mean nothing to me rebel defector!” The sleeper said.
“Is that what you´re calling us now. I like the word rebel, but I prefer rebeldivergent. I take it you are a stormtrooper fan than, you know, you like being used as a puppet & have no mind of your own. I seem to use that a lot lately, but seems appropriate don´t you think? We live in a world where light & dark is still divided, wars continue against Twin Souls & life & souls. There is still no balance in the world, the dark order which they are being called now in this life are still fighting the rebels & wish to gain back control over all remaining cities again. They keep making the same mistakes & never waking up & here you are replaying their same games, just in a different way & what is your purpose in life, what is your meaning?” Akira asked wondering if the star wars messages impacted him. Her words confused him more & he did grow up with star wars & he did choose to root for the rebels. So it was like she was breaking down his mind programmings so he was able to think for himself. She saw he was thinking about her words, but he also thought would she ever shut up.
“Did you ever question your orders or do your own investigation? Why follow the crowd when you can be the crowed? What about the matrix movie, did you really root for the agents & cypher or Neo, Trinity & Morpheus?” Akira asked him thinking that movie along with any Twin Soul movie can help break down programmings & dark side trainings on the minds & freeing souls. The sleeper was really being chaotic now & uneasy in his energies, it was like she could look deep into his soul & know who he really is to the core, his soul self & he didn´t like it. He has orders to follow, he must obey & he must stay where he is.
“Souls are never meant to be imprisoned, controlled or used, abused & targeted in anyway, they are meant to be free. Are you free, do you really feel 100% free in your life?” She asked him & she could see his mind programmings were breaking down. She could see it in his eyes. Akira was known as the breaker, she could brake down any negative structures that was negative towards life, souls & planets. She handed him her contact information.
“May the Universe protect & guide you home lost soul where you can be found once again!” Akira said before leaving. Akira mentioned the exit safety code which transported her back out of the dream. In dreams, sleepers could hijack dreams to then target you if you were investigating your own dreams. Sleepers were LITDFS that were dream hackers & could target you & make you believe things that are not even real, like have you believe your Twin Soul doesn´t want you anymore, but then it goes both ways, Twin Soul teams that were monitoring the dreams of everyone hacked in too & tried to bring messages of truth to combat the messages of lies & attacks from LITDFS, like your Twin Soul could enter the same dream & tell you how he really feels, even if it´s only seconds before he´s pulled from the dream. The sleepers could also target you to think & feel a certain way and change your thoughts for their self serving agendas. Dreams can be messages of truth, messages from your soul self, messages from your Twin Soul or others, dreams can show you warnings & insights & signs, dreams can be hijacked by friendlies or sleepers, dreams can allow you to travel back in time, forwards or anywhere in the Universe & between dimensions. One should always be awake to what is going on in the dreams & always question everything & analyse everything to find out is the dream controlling you or freeing you. What feels right to you. Akira replayed the dream & uploaded it in the central A.I. system at Twin Soul Headquarters at the Academy. 
“Gaia what words did Cazuki mouth in the dream to me?” Akira asked while still wearing the linkup that was also used to connect with A.I., the web, coms & the Earth grid that all the cities were connected to. Ever since Akira´s past self revealed to everyone who the LITDFS were & how they behaved, how to spot them, they couldn´t hide anymore. That was also another reason they attacked Twin Soul Academies all around the world, they wanted to erase all evidence of that & would shut down sites if any information mentioning how they play their tactics, games, dramas, rules & wars, how they target Twin Souls, how they target lives & how they stay in power over life & Twin Souls. 
“The messages reads I Love You!” Gaia said and something happened to Akira, her eyes started to tear up & she started to feel her emotions be released. Her soul was wanting to express her pains & tears would fall down her cheek.
“Are you alright? Is there something wrong?” Gaia asked her seeing her tears.
“Happy tears Gaia, just happy tears!” She said feeling Cazuki´s love for her even if it´s from a far & they can´t be together yet.
“Can you compare the surroundings in the dream to anything like it in the world?” Akira asked wanting to see if they could pinpoint somehow where in the dream they all were, maybe that could lead her to him. Gaia scanned every possible park in the remaining cities around the world & compared it to the dream, analysing all details.
“Negative, there is nothing that resembles it at all” Gaia informed. Akira kept looking in her soul for answers & other ways.
“What about you compare it to any parks that have existed since the year 2021?” Akira asked thinking it´s worth a try. Gaia scanned all possibilities within seconds.
“Perfect match! Japan!” Gaia said. Akira looked at the park & it was the same one from the dream. She knows now where Cazuki was & without wasting anytime, she got up, took off her linkup machine & left it on the bed & went to the bathroom & took a shower. In the shower she was letting the water just rain pour down on her lost in the thought & she was missing the ocean, missing the skies, missing the earth & missing the stars. She thought, will she there ever come a time her & Cazuki are free to leave Earth & fly to stars once again. On her way through the city on her hover flying motorbike to Twin Soul Headquarters, she was wearing the linkup & she buzzed Daichi on the coms. He took the call, wiping eye crust from his eyes & was woken by Akira.
“Akira, this better be good! I was having a good dream & I really want to get back to it!” Daichi said feeling tired, but thinking Akira would only call him late at night when it´s important, so he knows it´s something big.  
“Daichi, I found him!” She said feeling so much emotions, energies & thoughts rushing through her whole body. She was nervous, excited & crazy ready to extract Cazuki from another imprisoned life. 
“Where are you?” He asked feeling energised now & awake wanting to take action right away. 
“I´m on my way to headquarters, I´ll meet you there, alert the team we have a new mission!” She said thinking back to how one of the teams would work long hours being passionate about trying to find Cazuki, but it was like finding a needle in a haystack. Normally, Twin Souls could communicate via telepathy & in the soul world, but the LITDFS found a way to target that link, block it & it became even more difficult to locate him, but Akira tried to break down those barriers to reach him in the beyond. The Twin Soul team that volunteered to find Cazuki would hack the surveillance cameras in the cities to scan souls & would scan the web for any soul signature core movements that would reveal it was Cazuki if he´s on the web, like what his former activities were like in his past lives would reveal his personality that had a same coding to it in every life. His words, his interests, his favourites, his behaviours, his body language, his quirks & any ticks, his actions, his morals & values, his goals & dreams, his hobbies & his soul intelligence awakening level. That last one was a bit unreliable, because it depended on if his mind was free or if his mind was asleep & under control, but there would be small signs, hints & clues that his soul intelligence would try to shine through the cracks of the programmed mind & reveal his true self, but as long as he was under control & supervision by the LITDFS, he was only using his mind intelligence. If there was any pictures of him or video, soul scanning would of picked up on if it was Cazuki. At the Academy Akira came through the sliding door into the main headquarters briefing room & she saw the Twin Soul team already there waiting for her.
“That was fast or were your all still working late at night again?” Akira asked anyone while taking off her hover bike gear. She had already told them she admired their passion for trying to help Cazuki, but she gave her caring concerns for them not to burn themselves out & to have lives outside the Academy, but their response was they knew how important finding Cazuki was for the Twin Soul mission that hadn´t happened yet, because Akira & Cazuki kept being targeted & he kept being turned to be her enemy by the LITDFS again. 
“We were planning on leaving hours ago, but Yoshi had a feeling, so we stayed & she was right, again!” Kaito said leaning against the wall, arms crossed.
“Is it true, you found him? How?” Naleya asked feeling like this could be it, this could be the time they finally extract Cazuki & he wants out. 
“Through dreamscape & he´s in Japan!” Akira said thinking out of all the extractions missions they´ve all been on, saving Cazuki was going to be an impossible mission, but that never stopped her before.  
“You do realise they have more than likely corrupted, programmed & darkened his mind & energies already. The LITDFS broadcast daily in their cities that we are rebel defectors kidnapping people & branding us hackerpirates, which I kind of like the sound of that last one!” Haruki said smiling at the name hackerpirates. Extraction happened when they came across those that were seeking them out & those who were the T.S.T.T.s, their other selves but were mind targeted to fear & hate the Twin Soul Universe Investigator Agents, so they didn´t come voluntarily, but once they were deprogrammed, healed, cleansed, detoxed & mind prisons & controls were off of them, then they were able to make their own choices & had free will & their souls were awakened & shined through. Every single one stayed when they woke up & never wanted to go back.
“Let´s change the name shall we & do our own broadcasting. Rebeldivergents & embrace the word hackerpirates turning it positive & get the word out to everyone. As for the mission, I know it´s not going to be easy, but then when has it ever been easy. With every life we fail our Twin Soul mission, it´s get worse, it gets harder & it gets darker in every new life, but I refuse to believe he is lost again in another life. I have to believe this life will be the one that changes everything!” Akira said thinking about all the soul history between them, all their lives she has studied in every detail. How they ended, when, where, why & who took part in tearing them apart. The patterns, the codings, the programs were always the same & by the same group of LITDFS in their lives. So she knew & profiled them, analysed them, studied them & she knew what she was up against, but she also knew Cazuki wanted his freedom every single time & to be with her. His body, his mind, his emotions, his energies & his very soul was magnetically pulling her to him, Universe calling her to him, wanting her to be with him forever, eternity & infinite as One.
“So what´s the mission plan?” Yoshi asked Akira.
“Ninjaop extraction!” Daichi said when he came through the door & Akira smiled & hugged him.
To be continued...
Seer Conversation about Cazuki´s & my Twin Soul union & the LITDFS who is with him & is controlling him:
“it is a risk to be honest with you, it is something that she has thought about in the past about tryin gto get pregnant, its something he has said no to when she has talked about it but she is not the kind of person to just accept that.”
“i see that the relationship..., its not real, its fake and i am convinced if he were thinking for himself he would get out of there pretty quickly.”
“it looks as if the bitch has been putting alot of pressure on him at the moment this is why he feels sad. it just seems as if she putting pressure on him, the pressure is something he doesnt understand though but he feels it and it drags him down. but you know what she is like she doesnt just put the pressure on she gets help in doing it.”
“the pressure is more a controlling thing with her making him feel like he is useless, making him feel like she is right and that he is doing wrong and he needs to be a better person so its that kind of pressure.”
This conversation with a seer was back in May last month & I found out more dark magic was on Cazuki. The LITDFS he is with is extremely aggressive & obsessed with breeding with him again. Kind of like how snoke was obsessed with Kylo´s seed. Since we are living multiple lives in one life time, which will be confirmed sooner or later, because truth needs out, no more illusions, but I have come across several of Cazuki´s other lives & it´s the same patterns, same girls & it´s the same games they play. They target the Twin Soul unions, break it up, get him, hooks in him, trap him, tear him down in various ways like emotionally & mentally & imprisoning his Devine Masculine energies so he´s more easily controlled, then spend various ways further dark side training him with obedience training & loyalty training & filling him up with negative energies, then trap him further with pregnancy & marriage. Then it starts all over again in another life. They can program his mind in various ways to be plugged back into the “matrix” so his mind thinks it´s all good, while his soul screams a different story that will be expressed when the writers pick up the Universe messages & energies & it´s shown for all to see onscreen. The LITDFS he is with doesn´t do this alone, she gets help & they all can participate. His “family”, his other “friends”, his co-workers, anyone who wishes for him to be with them all. The Twin Soul collective card reading done yesterday with the 8 of swords was about the DM being trapped & the swords represented the LITDFS in his life all around him controlling him, trapping him & handling him. When you come across a seer when you search for one, I recommend you search for several as back up to make sure you are getting the confirmations to make sure it´s the truth, but also find other ways to get conformations to be sure, but also have in the back of your mind that it could still be not truthful just in case, but when you meet a seer who would even use the term b&%$# & he is someone who is very much in the light helping so many people around the world, then you know it´s really bad. As I´ve said before, if anyone has lived on Earth, they have light & dark in them all, because of what happens not only to our physical bodies, but what happens to our souls when it´s attacked & tortured by LITDFS in our lives. So I understood why he would use that word that has negative energies to it. I mean come on, how can anyone be positive and accept the actions of someone who is literally targeting Twin Soul Adams in every life time, taking his free will away, controlling him, trapping him, use & abuse him, attacking his soul & inner child, attacking his body, mind, emotions & energies, if anyone is positive about that & feels that the LITDFS have every right to do that against another human being, against another soul, against the inner child, against free will, against the body & mind & emotions & energies, against the brother or sister of the Universe, then what hell are we all living in if everyone accepts that as a way of life? Are we really going to continue to perverse & create hell everywhere? Then to avoid knowing about it & looking the other way, we cover it up, out of sight & out of mind not wanting to know what goes on against life behind closed doors & against the Devine in the souls, but we are to be put to sleep & stay silent & pretend to not hear the screams, the cries & the shouts, to not feel the pains, the tortures out loud? Anyone who expresses themselves of what is going on anywhere has a right to do so, it´s their anger, anger is part of the dark, we all have dark in us, the balance here is to not cross that line with the anger that results in hurting anyone like targeting Twin Souls because you want revenge, you want to cause pains, you want to continue wars against animals, children, people & Twin Souls which would happen when you target Twin Souls. There are other balanced ways to express anger, pains, sadness, loneliness & tortures. Create art, express in your creations, express in your goals & dreams, express in your creative endeavours, but don´t use the excuse of “I would rather express my hurt, my raging jealousy, my loneliness & neediness by continuing to target life & Twin Souls.” when you can instead express yourself in other healthy, safe & sane ways that doesn´t include bringing your madness to the entire world with your darkness. It´s like they feel justified by going to war on Twin Souls, like saying “you caused me pain by exposing my dark deeds to the whole world, so now I´m going to tear you apart a million & billion times.” These lost words are obviously spoken by a LITDFS who is not awake in their hearts & souls & takes no responsibility for their dark actions against Twin Souls when the truth comes out, but instead would rather continue on their darker path instead of waking up & shining from their hearts & souls when they understand the pains they have caused. Why is it acceptable to expose the truth of what happened during world war 1 & 2, against children, animals, people and any other atrocities against life on this planet, but we are to stay silent about those who are causing such atrocities against Twin Souls & the souls & the inner children & what is happening in the deeper dark of why such unbalance is occurring everywhere on the planet? How to wake up the hearts & souls is to bring truth to light about everything, how else is positive change going to happen? Like, what about the fact, that what was brought to the planet was corrupting, controlling & darkening the minds, energies, bodies, emotions & souls with the darkness that LITDFS had with them? What about them bringing to the planet the whole targeting Twin Souls & keeping the unbalance alive? What about using this planet as another feeding, breeding & pleasure ground for all their dark deeds & desires? What about the fact that they brought with them the ability to corrupt the Sacred, Devine connection between Twin Souls by impacting their energies with their negative energies, like controlling the Twin Soul Adams to pleasure not just one, but maybe even several LITDFS at the same time & breed with him fast to always keep him chained to them in someway with negative energies surrounding him his entire life? What about the fact they target children in various ways? What about the fact they target animals in various ways? These are all actions from lost in the dark family souls who are not awake in their hearts & souls, but will they & when?
When the seer said the situation between them was fake, not real, that is something Twin Souls around the world that are awake & are unplugged from the “matrix” will agree on, which many do in the Twin Soul community. How can it be real? They were programmed to be together! Cazuki´s mind & energies was targeted for years by the LITDFS around him, darkening his mind, darkening his energies & darkening his emotions. Negative thoughts & energies were sent his way (like snoke attacking Ben from a far) verbally & telepathically & energetically directly to him & from a far to program his mind to break up with me (like Anakin breaking Padme´s heart & joins palatine) & be with a LITDFS. We used technology to confirm in our very souls & that is something that cannot be denied. The reverse speech investigator even said it´s common to find various programmings on the minds of couples that are in trouble & dark magic was a programming that he has come across many times helping couples all around the world. Why in the Universe names would anyone wish to be with someone who doesn´t want them in their souls & it´s not even real, but fake? How can they not understand, when it´s fake, controlled, manipulated, forced & dishonest in any way & how they came to be will also determine how bad the negative energies are & what happens to their souls, it then releases & causes so much negative energies that spew out between them, around them, from them & in them to anyone & everywhere, how can it not, their souls are under attack. It never ends, but continues & that´s one of the reasons the chakras are targeted, it´s also to do with the soul pains & soul tortures. Of course it´s going to be blocked & impacted, both their souls are under attack when their energies attack each other by being together. He is not with his Twin Soul & she is not with her Twin Soul, but their souls wish to be. They wish for their other half of themselves, their One, their True Love meant for them. When anyone is healing chakras & they don´t care of the main cause of why the chakras are being blocked, then they are the new conventional doctors that only care about the symptoms, but not the cause of the blocks at all. The blocks are there for a reason to tell you something is seriously wrong. Your soul is telling you that you are under attack in someway. To unblock it so they can be together more until it blocks again is just perverse & seriously dark. The chakra healers need to become a fully fledged healer & deal with the whole cause of it like an alternative holistic doctor would & not just treat the symptom of the problem. We are talking about soul health here & if we have attacks to our body health, mental health, emotional health, energy health, then it means our souls are under attack in someway. The chakra healers or any alternative healers need to be looking at the whole system, the whole body, mind, emotions, energies & soul & that means diving in the dark & not be afraid to see what you find, because you will always be protected by the Devine Universe. So I would recommend when finding a healer, to make sure you find one that covers it all & that they also have awakened their telepathic & psychic abilities, so they can see what is going on in the souls & find out if they are soul matched Twin Souls to be together or if they are in LITDFS situations & they should be awake to the Twin Soul wars. Of course, I would confirm with other seers to be sure & even have them reverse speech tested, because LITDFS can be in professions helping people too, but they can have self serving agendas at the same time. You will know yourself thou if he or she is your Twin Soul, that is really the one thing you can count on, your soul will know 100%, so trust in that! I mean if I did a poll & asked anyone, would they want real, honest, rare & once in a life time, pure, balanced, powerfully positive, free will True Love or would they prefer fake, dishonest, happens all the time, dark, unbalanced, powerfully negative & controlled “love”, what would they choose?  
When the seer mentioned how Cazuki´s LITDFS is making him feel useless, I can only imagine so many other ways she is tearing him down. I know exactly what he is going through, because I went through the same thing emotionally, energetically & mentally growing up. Unlike me, Cazuki has freedom to leave. I was a child, Cazuki has the ability to just leave. I could of left too, but I was investigating, even thou I had no idea I was. There was a point in my life that extraction could of happened. It was so extreme when I was a child, I dreamed for someone to come to the rescue. Then two adults, a man & a woman came into my life who had very positive energies & I sensed that, but also I knew them in a past life & they befriended me & gave me their contacts & addresses. I wondered, were they from the past, the future, from the skies? Were they Cazuki & my other self wanting to rescue me? I never did contact them, but I wanted to, but my soul was preventing me, because I had soul mission work to do even if it was dark, unbalanced, torturous, sad, lonely, painful & depressing. Do I think there is a future where we rescue our T.S.T.T.s from LITDFS situations no matter where they are, be it in families or relationships? Yes! That would be literally like Twin Souls who are unplugged & are awake & are out of the “matrix” only then to make contact with their other selves & give them a choice to break out of the “matrix” too & be free.
As for the whole she wants Cazuki to be a better person, if he only knew why he is acting the way he is towards her. He was already a better person before the wars were on us & we were healing all the damages done to us by the LITDFS in our lives, but if he is acting in any negative way against the LITDFS he was controlled to be with after breaking up with me, that´s his soul expressing himself, like saying “I don´t want you, I never did, you need help, you attack my soul, you attack my Twin Soul & I want my freedom!” While she is saying to him, “I don´t care that you don´t want me, I don´t care that I´m attacking your soul or Twin Soul & you will never get freedom, but you will be a better person to me even if I attack your soul & life & Twin Soul!” That´s the translation between their energies. So now you all know, especially with those who always question the insanity of LITDFS situations when they themselves see they are miserable, negative in anyway, toxic, dark, unbalanced, controlled & imprisoned. 
What I noticed was that what Cazuki is going through with the LITDFS is a direct mirror of what I went through growing up. My mind, my body, my emotions, my energies & soul was under attack by several LITDFS growing up & now he´s going through the same thing in different ways, but many of the same ways. My body tortures, I don´t know how many times I was attacked when I was a baby, but reverse speech can verify. I do know that is another prison on us, it´s like walls are placed deliberately so we don´t remember & that means the LITDFS can do whatever, but our souls always remembers. Cazuki´s body tortures is every time he is with her intimately. That is a lot of “consensual” rape & when his programmed mind is being with her, he´s doing the same thing to her! How can anyone accept that that is their life? Knowing you are with someone that wasen´t your choice, it went against your free will, it´s not real, but fake & controlled & programmed, how can anyone wrap their minds around that fact? How can they accept it? How can they ever look at life & be ok with that? The meaning of life then for them would be prison, control, tortures, programmings, dishonesty, submission, negative energies, unbalance & chains. If LITDFS really care about physical health, mental health, emotional health, energy health, soul health, if they care about the children at all & all souls, they will stop the wars on Twin Souls (everyone is a Twin Soul & has a Twin Soul), if not it will only continue & they will carry on saying they care about all these unbalances & donate money, create charities, wave to the people, create awareness, have rally´s, but it´s not stopping the cause, only taking care of the symptoms like drugging the problem, using conventional destructive ways like shock treatments & using alternative ways to keep people asleep & keep their soul screams silent. Again thou, Cazuki can leave her, he can have his freedom, his mind can´t seriously believe that that life with her again is ever going to be balanced, how they came to be, who they are to each other, what they are doing to each other soulfully & energetically is destructive, unbalanced, dark & negative. It´s the definition of insanity which is funny in terms of, those that do lose their minds & break down mentally are actually the sane people in societies, because their minds are breaking them to wake them up to what is really going on everywhere, to shake them so they would see why they are breaking in the first place, to shock them to listen to their souls & see why they are hurting & being tortured. People who lose their minds show everyone the soul health of all souls, of all life, of a society, of a country & of the entire world. What darkness is happening to life & True Loves that we go through ourselves & what we see in others, is attacks to our souls, but what we don´t see are other levels & reasons why souls are under attack like who they end up being with against their free will & against their soul. Wrap your mind around that truth! How do LITDFS react to people who lose their minds? They attack them, ridicule them, make fun of them, laugh at them, they serpently smile, enjoy their torments & sadness, feed on their sufferings & pains, use what happened to those who struggled with mental breakdowns as a weapon to be used against them to further the LITDFS self serving agendas. What happened to carrie fisher when she was struggling with her mental struggles, how many LITDFS around her attacked her? Targeted her? Made fun of her? What about everyone who struggles with their own soul pains & soul tortures in various self destructive ways? Only those who are asleep in their hearts & souls can´t see & don´t care, but those souls that are awake & free, have compassion, empathy, understanding & wish to know more & wish to find out why & wish to help them. Twin Souls that are awake will be positive & send them positive energies, prayers & healings & may wish to help in other ways, while LITDFS will send instead negative energies, attackive words, tear them down & wish for others to tear them down, they always work in groups. How many have had LITDFS around them attacked them in various ways, because of their soul pains & soul tortures to their bodies, minds, emotions & energies? I grew up watching star wars as a child & Leia was a character I connected with, like she was speaking my soul song & I saw myself in that character as I did with Padme & Rey & many others. There was no other that could play the part of Leia & carrie brought her to life beautifully. How many in the world connect with Padme, Leia & Rey? How many wish to come into their Padme, Leia & Rey all in one energies? When Padme gives the Gungens the Peace ball, the music, the cheering, the laughter, it always gives me chills in a massive positive energy way. Imagine if that actually happened in our world & there was no more wars against Earth, life, souls & Twin Souls.     
Question everything & don´t believe everything, it could be true or not true with whatever the LITDFS around you say, even in school, news, governments, medical professions and more, but always keep an open mind to yes & no at the same you need many different verifications to confirm like I do & investigate yourself. This whole world is so controlled & manipulated in many ways, is there any wonder we need many verifications & confirmations. Trust no one, but be open to be able to trust if you find those who are awakened too. You will know if you are surrounded by a LITDFS when you question them & they will reveal themselves to you in various ways, like if you were to question why they are controlling you, if you bring up a controversial topic, if you challenge them intelligently in someway with your soul wisdom or question an action or their words you believe is negative, then if they attack you, if they ignore you, if they try to justify it, if they make it out to be not a big deal, if they try to change your way of thinking to think like them, if they try to make you feel stupid, if they try to make you believe you are wrong & that there is something wrong with you, if they use their authority or profession or skill or their sex (like being a girl/woman & a girl/woman knows best, which is not always the case, because again, it´s to do with soul intelligence which you only get when your hearts & souls awaken.) saying they know best & saying you don´t (even LITDFS that are in highly educated professions are not awakened in their souls or hearts. It´s not about mind intelligence at all, but has everything to do with soul intelligence. If you for example question anybody for eating animals & they use any of these various word tactics on you, then you are the one who has soul intelligence. Your soul intelligence will shine through your mind, but souls that are not awake use only their mind intelligence & that will cause darkness & unbalance everywhere to life, to souls, to Twin Souls & the planet) or if they see you are awakening & will try to put you back to sleep by using negative energies, misdirection, confusion, manipulation, deception, lies & illusions, then you are surrounded by LITDFS. Of course if they see all these ways they can be found out, they could manipulate & pretend to agree with you or pretend to be interested or have understanding. Use all your senses, does it feel right in the energies when they speak to you, listen to your intuition & soul. There are so many ways to find out if they are LITDFS, souls that are asleep. Are they vegan? Do they attack people & Twin Souls? Do they attack animals or treat animals in a negative way like using fear, obedience & loyalty training? Do they attack children, how do they act towards children? What do they think of Twin Souls, do they attack it or do they do their own investigation? Are they self serving in any way? What do they think of various different kinds of people in the world, is it negative or positive? What if you showed them alternative ways to help change the world positively, are they attackive or very interested? If they are in a relationship, what do you see, is it balanced, free, powerfully positive, equals, lighter & darker one, rule breaker & rule follower, chaos & order, True Love that inspires you to find The One for you? If they don´t, it´s not Twin Souls. 
You know you are with a LITDFS when they wish to breed with you fast when getting together with you, they want to have complete power over the birth control & is another reason they won´t have the Twin Soul Adams use condoms, because then they can get pregnant whenever they want & just blame the fact they “forgot to use the pill”, but even if the Twin Soul Adams used condoms, they can poke holes in it & get pregnant that way. If the LITDFS tried getting pregnant, but it was not working, Universe intervention perhaps trying to help the Adams & the LITDFS saw that the Twin Soul Adams were about to break free from them, they could be desperate & get pregnant by someone else & then pretend it´s the Twin Soul Adam´s child to trap him for as long as she can. Another way the LITDFS attack Twin Soul Adams is if he did break up with them, then not long after the LITDFS comes back to him & says she's pregnant, but again the child isen´t his, but he believes it is & then stays trapped for a long time. Then there is the two way same tactic they can use, like if he breaks up with her, but she says she´s pregnant, but she isen´t & he then stays with her, she can then try to get pregnant with him for real or he breaks up with her & she leaves, then she comes back & says she pregnant, but isen´t, then they get back together & she tries to get pregnant by him for real. It´s a amazing what you uncover with how they attack in various ways against the Twin Soul Adams not meant for them. You should always need more proof, don´t believe everything you hear. Be the Twin Soul Investigators into your own lives. Since the LITDFS collective can be anyone & anywhere, they can manipulate & work for the collective & lie & say it is his child. Until there is a portable device to dna test ourselves if it´s true, I would just pay child support & leave or if I had the money, pay the lump sum of the child support for the time that´s required & not have to be tied to that anymore & leave. Children can be reincarnations of ourselves, so if she had a girl, it could be another her or another LITDFS she knows & wants to torture or even an awakened Twin Soul she wants to torture & control, but if she has a boy, it could be the Twin Soul Adam reincarnated & he should want to save himself from her somehow. Of course any child should be saved from any LITDFS that wish to darken them, feed on them, use them, abuse them, attack them, torture them, use fear & violence to train them to obey, dark side training them, obedience training them, loyalty training them, programming them how they view life & “love” & how the world should stay the same & never change, how they target Twin Souls & pass those teachings to the child to continue the dark cycles themselves, darkening their minds & energies, authority training meaning having the child always be the child & they the parent who “know best”. When society is created & designed to favour the LITDFS “mothers” for example & the Twin Soul Adams have less rights than them, so the Adams have a hard time protecting the children, that should be even more of a reason to only want The One meant for them, because that´s another torture added to them when their other selves is being tortured by the LITDFS they were controlled to be with in the first place. You know you are with your Twin Soul when not only does she not want to get pregnant fast, because you both have Twin Soul mission work to do & you have been living repeated lives a million or billion times before, you´ve both gone down that road so many times before, so soul mission work & Twin Soul mission work will always come first. When Cazuki & I talked about children in our first month together, which if you are with your Twin Soul, you are able to talk & dream about creating a family right away with no fears or running away, but have complete understanding & True Love for each other, because of the soul connection you both share, but when he wondered if I was talking about having children now, I freaked out & said no way, not ready, not yet, because so much work needs to be done & he felt the same way & he loved the fact I felt the same way as him. LITDFS are not doing their soul mission work or Twin Soul mission work, their mission is always the same, target a Twin Soul not meant for them, marry him fast & have kids fast & continue working on their empire together or living the “easy” life & going down the same road again. If they were working on their soul mission work, they would not target Twin Souls at all, but work on themselves, be better, do better, be good to all life & do good in this world. They are not working on their soul mission work when they know they are with a Twin Soul not meant for them & they know who his Twin Soul is, but they keep their claws in him regardless, that is someone who is not working on their soul mission work. We all have soul mission work & Twin Soul mission work to do & that is another way to see if you are with a LITDFS, if they know they are not his Twin Soul & they know who his Twin Soul is but doesn´t let him go, then you are with a LITDFS. 
What I´ve mentioned here are tactics & negative behaviours the LITDFS use in every life time & they will continue to behave the same way when they refuse to wake up, when they refuse to awaken their hearts & souls, when they refuse to awaken their soul intelligence, when they refuse to be with their own Twin Soul, when they refuse to do their own soul mission work & Twin Soul mission with their own Twin Soul meant for them, but instead they choose a life of earthy pleasures & desires, keeping the status quo the same, choosing the quick & “easy” path in their own lives, choosing the superficial & shallow path instead of a heavenly spiritual path with their Twin Soul meant for them and the list is long. If Twin Souls want to awaken, unplug, get out of the “matrix” and take a new path that is not the same road they have taken a million & billion times before, then the Twin Soul Rebellion is that new path for you all.  
17 June, 2018, Twin Soul Comments...
“No way....I already told him the agenda of the dark, how the twins are surrounded by antagonists from birth.....many times our close family.  The twin is our true blood line.“
“The heiriophant  here looks like there demonic LITDFS relationship she is trying to keep the DM in with with craft…its possible yes, she could be using dark forces, fed by his fears to keep him from seeing the truth, & from leaving the harmful, & toxic LITDFS relationship.“
“My DM wants her gone as much as I do. I talked to him last night after she was trying to mess with us. She doesn’t have a chance with that. He and I are walking away together.  Or flying! Lol“
“God made dirt and dirt don't hurt haha My DM knows my dirt so she can't dig in me anyway. And if my DM  judges my dirt and can't grow a garden with me bc of it -- well so be it -- I answer to God not him.“
“Well after the psychic attack, twin and me got subjected earlier this week I can say I am not surprised. I am glad I restricted my social media and in true Queen of swords manner I am cutting off people left and right. My eyes have opened wide. This is true war. These LITDFS are unbelievable. I'm not standing up for any crap coming out of that LITDFS”
“Could it be feminine LITDFS helping masculine LITDFS?? My ex sounds like this helper he'll do anything to stop me from getting back with my DM I can feel it and even tho we don't talk anymore I used to get this feeling he was watching me getting into my accounts n now he knows I don't feel paranoid it feels like something he'd do .. Could it be that?“
“Heya! I believe anything is possible. Have you see the adjustment bureau? It kind of shows the LITDFS collective work together to keep Twin Souls apart & for them to be with LITDFS instead. Recommend also the story forces of nature, that clearly shows a LITDFS single mother going after a Twin Soul Adam who is about to marry his Twin Soul Eve. The LITDFS even says to him, she doesn´t believe in living with one person for the rest of our lives, she believed life is about a ride, how very LITDFS of her to say & that´s very westworld like. Just think if the DMs could see how much they could learn when seeing these Twin Soul stories & learn fast! :) My number 21 actually shows up in that movie when the Twin Soul Adam character speaks to the Twin Soul Eve character over the phone, the actress who plays her is an Aquarius sign. The messages from our souls are loud & clear & are being sent into the Universe to the writers. My number 21 also shows up in the tv show friends when Rachel was to board the plane (gate 21) for Paris & leaves for good, but Ross shows up saying don´t go.”
“yes there are people that knows the LITDFS such as friends or other relatives. I even felt like people been watching me, talking shit about me and they don't even know me that's how small my circle is. I am doing me and could care less. I do my work and is very guided.“
“I can totally see this playing out ...this is exactly how the LITDFS operates...hence why I went off  social media a while ago. .I heard she does voodoo..also ...Shes freaking out because I ran into his adult kids recently and they shared a ton with me ps they do not like or except her...thank you universe for exposing secrets out of the blue  ....I won't spend a second of my time on her I don't have to ..“
“from what I've seen after all the messing hes done around with his supposed harem of women.  He looks drained as well...” 
“Yes, having vivid dreams seeing my DM having sex with other women. He looks unhappy in the dream like he has to do it but he's sad. I get physically sick thinking of that bc it was something so magnetic and spiritual when we made love..”
“I've been experiencing the same with him as well seen him having sex with them even seen him trying to make me jealous with showing me that he was ring shopping with her but didnt take long enough for that big old smile on her face to disappear and for him to be disgusted.“
“I've been feeling the same from mine as well... even feeling drunk when I haven't touched a drop of liquor, sadness, anger and just extreme fatigue.  these women use him because they do as he says instead of actually helping him to grow to be a better version of himself.“
“The other day I felt a sudden anxiety attack which makes me believe he got some news he didn't like or knows something bad is going to happen. “
“His ex broke him.. she used and manipulate him and he is heartbroken. But he was dealing with me the whole time . But told me nothing was goin on. But the universe showed me everything and he knows I know . But he still goin through the pain I guess and pushing me away . 😩“
“Same manipulative and verbally abusive to him.“
“Same story here also, trapped by a manipulative and abusive soul even got her pregnant 3 years back and then she lied about another one last year this time. She now uses the child to manipulate him and everything now.“
19 June, 2018, Twin Soul Investigator Report...
Part of a seer conversation today about Cazuki´s & my Twin Soul union. 
Since I´ve been feeling Cazuki´s sad feelings every week, I needed confirmation about the LITDFS he is with. I wonder sometimes, where in her lost dark mind does she think he ever wants to be with her, because he doesn´t. His soul wants his freedom! The more her grip tightens around him, the more control she has over him, the more she plays her games & manipulates, the more her dark deeds are stacking up for what she is doing to another soul. From everything I know about her, she keeps sounding like a handler, a s.n.o.k.e, a visitor (westworld), a “serpent” in the garden of eden & like a negative program. What´s it gonna take to free Cazuki from her? To free his mind so he can be free from her? To awaken his soul so he can be free from her? How long must his soul suffer, before he is free? She´s had plenty of times to release her claws in him, yet like madness she holds on to him like a prized breeding & pleasing possession! If she says she´s not controlling & manipulating him, then prove it! Let him go, leave him for several months & see if he will take her back without any dark magic or other mind programmings/manipulations from LITDFS around him that takes his free will & choices away, but it´s 100% his choice on what he decides. To make sure he has free will, is if he also gets truth tested if he after several months wants her back. Words mean nothing without action to back it up. The LITDFS can scream till they are all purple in their faces that they are not controlling or manipulating the Twin Soul Adams not meant for them & say they are not trapping them, then they should prove it with their actions, not their words. To say they don´t have to prove anything, their words are just fine, would be revealing themselves & would be a translation like this, “they are not letting go, he is theirs to control & do as they please!” Does this sound like an adult? Does this sound like a Twin Soul? Obviously not, but sounds exactly like a LITDFS who are asleep in their minds & their souls are not awakened to be free! Do the LITDFS wanna prove to the world that is watching that they are not handlers, s.n.o.k.e.s, visitors (westworld), “serpents” in the garden of eden & negative programs? Then let the Twin Soul Adams go, leave them for several months & see what the Twin Soul Adams free will decides 100%. I say the world is watching, because they literally are, Twin Soul wars is being shown to everyone in stories. I say several months (or however long the Twin Soul Adams decide), because the Twin Soul Adams need to be debugged, deprogrammed, cleansed, detoxed to make sure they are being their soul true selves & having free will 100%. Think of it like a test, a Soul Evolving test that would be taught in the Soul Evolving University. The test helps the Twin Soul Adams & the LITDFS. If the LITDFS refuse the test, then they are showing the whole world they are the handlers, the s.n.o.k.e.s, the visitors (westworld), the “serpents” in the garden of eden & behaving like negative programs. If they do the test, not only should they leave & let go of the Adams, but have no contact with them, don´t see them, don´t talk to them, don´t reach out, but stay away until the Twin Soul Adams contacts them. The test won´t work if they keep pushing themselves into the Twin Soul Adams lives. No controls should be placed on the Twin Soul Adams, so if the Twin Soul Adams want to reach out to their Twin Soul Eves, that´s their choice & free will. The test won´t work if the Twin Soul Adams don´t debug, deprogram, cleanse, detox & get all mind programmings/controls off of them. The test won´t work if the DMs keep being around the same LITDFS that went to war on their Twin Soul unions. The test won´t work if the LITDFS they are with make demands & place restrictions & controls on the DMs not meant for them. The test won´t work if the Twin Soul Adams don´t have freedom & are in control over their own lives, but are still being negatively influenced by any LITDFS around them. This test should include everyone that took part in going to war on the Twin Soul unions. Again, if any of them refuse, then they themselves show the whole world who they really are in their lost dark minds. So what do you say LITDFS, ready to go back to the school that matters the most, the Soul Evolving University? Ready to study for real? Ready for the real test in life?
“it looks as if she is still taking charge of that situation,
[8:39:29 AM]
well he doesnt seem too good to be honest with you, he just isnt happy and thats what is frustrating for me when i look at him
[8:41:49 AM]
im not suprised my friend because he does carry a lot of sadness with him and he cant seem to shake it he needs all the ehlp he can get to be honest with you
you ar e agreat strength to him even if he doesnt realise it
[8:43:40 AM]
well still very much confused to be honest with you, knowint that there is something not right there but feel like it is all he can do right now”
21 June, 2018, Seer Conversation about Cazuki!
she is still after his life [9:44:32 AM] he is getting more and more depressed wiht her [9:45:58 AM] she is just controlling him [9:46:00 AM] influencign him [9:46:04 AM] making his life hell [9:47:51 AM] dear he do needs you [9:48:03 AM] dear he do needs you ,he is just scared [9:48:40 AM] you both are twinflame for each other [9:49:41 AM] he wont loose you [9:51:24 AM] junko do use black magic [9:51:38 AM] she use spell to control his senses [9:51:48 AM] has she done that recently? [9:52:37 AM] she repeat the spell when it gets weak on him [9:52:51 AM] does she do it herself? or gets help? [9:53:14 AM] she gets help [9:53:27 AM] there is a another female behind that [9:53:34 AM] cazuki is unaware of this fact [9:54:39 AM] dear he just trust everyone [9:54:48 AM] even he was unable to see the real face of junko
I have had this confirmed 3 other times with 3 different seers, including a shaman. So it wasn't just Sakurako who messed with dark magic on Cazuki messing with his mind & energies, but so is Junko. Cazuki really is eric in the little mermaid & ursula is in disguise working her controls on Cazuki so he will always stay with her. If only Cazuki could wrap his mind around the fact that dark magic is mind programming, mind control, then it wouldn´t sound so mumbo jumbo. Cazuki behaved very much like Han when I told him we have dark magic on us, but he didn´t want to believe in the supernatural, even thou he loves watching stories with magic in it. His mind was unable to see, this is where I wished his abilities were awakened, like Ben´s/Kylo´s abilities, then he would know dark magic is real, it´s basically thoughts & energies being sent to the mind & body with the help of dark energies & negative energies. 
Love...
I want to mention about love & how it´s been tainted, corrupted, controlled, programmed, manipulated, attacked & lost meaning since the beginning, since the serpents took over the garden of Eden (Earth). How can anyone not question if we are really in love or is it controlled & programmed in some way? Is it manipulated, is it even real? What is real? What is truth? The sacredness of love isen´t what it´s suppose to be, especially when you hear such things like, contracts, “karma”, “lessons”, rides, experiences, cycles and any other reason the LITDFS want to justify controlling & programming love on someone in the Twin Soul community & anywhere else. The LITDFS have no idea what love is, what real love is & what love is about. In their lost minds, what love means to them is manipulating it, controlling it, programming it, threatening others to have it, striking fear in others to have it, attacking others to have it & going to war on others to have it. I have only known one kind of real love & that is the love I have with my Twin Soul. It didn´t feel controlled between us, programmed between us or manipulated between us, but felt real, we were real, our True Love was real. Love isn´t about just being with anyone or the many but love is freedom, free will & choice, Love is about The One! The last day I saw Cazuki before he was to head back to Japan after spending Christmas with my “family”, I gave him my song letter to open up on the plane. I had no idea if he felt the same way about me, my intuition said he did, but my logical brain said no. I thought this could be the last time I ever see & speak to him ever again in this life, because I knew I would stop all contact if he didn't feel the same, it would just be too painful, especially feeling what I felt the entire time he was there. My energies were all over the place chaotic, like trying to find balance when I couldn´t & I wanted to run. It was like our soul magnetic energies were trying to reconnect with each other, but we were at a distance always, so the energies were extreme & my Love for him was extreme, so it´s only natural I would go to extreme lengths to protect myself from being hurt by him if he didn't feel the same way. I had never felt like that with anyone other than Cazuki, so what I felt was deep, so deep that all I could think about was him for 11 hours after he left. 11 hours of wondering, dreaming, planning my recovery if he didn´t feel the same, hoping, thinking, feeling, doubting & seeing possible outcomes & 11 hours later after he left, his answer to me was that he felt the same. My song letter gave him a choice, he had free will & freedom to say no he didn´t feel the same or say he did, but point is, we came to be out of free will, choice & freedom, that means our True Love is real, pure, powerfully positive. I didn´t use dark magic, I didn´t use mind control or programming or have years being his friend seeing him everyday trying to get his attention & wanting him to love me. I didn't have sisters or a family that would help me get him & push me towards him or push him towards me, if anything they were making it known they were interested in him, while I kept trying to stay away & wanting to run. I didn´t get help from LITDFS that would manipulate, control & dark side train Cazuki for years to be with me like what happened to Junko. Cazuki & I came into union & it was completely our choice & free will, that is Real True Love! Cazuki had the freedom to say no & it was at safe distance, so no drama, sadness or tears would be seen between us, but it would be out of sight & out of mind, that too was freedom, then I´d find a way to move on with life wondering what was that extreme feeling & energies that I would only know once in a life & never have that ever again in this life, because that only happens with your Twin Soul. If Cazuki didn´t feel the same as me, I would not be on a mad dark path to try & force him to love me or be with me as these girls have done to Cazuki & Kaito. The negative energies you send out into the Universe it will come back to you.
Junko´s & Sakrako´s dark deeds are being seen by everyone in the world, Saukurko translates to being phasma & Junko translates to being snoke in star wars. They are lost in the dark, stumbling through life with no map, compass or navigation. They think they know where they are going, but they both fail to see the meaning of life & it´s not about money, greed, selfishness, apathy, jealousy, materialistic possessions, status, control, power, fame, luxury life styles, going to war on Twin Souls, breaking up Twin Souls, being with Twin Souls not meant for them, self serving natures, fake masks they wear in front of people that say they are nice & “positive”, all the while dark deeds are being done out of sight towards Twin Souls, but life is about awakening their souls, it´s awakening their soul wisdom, it´s awakening their soul intelligence, it´s awakening their soul enlightenment, it´s awakening their soul missions, it´s awakening their Twin Soul mission with their own Twin Soul meant for them. None of these girls, not even Mitsuko know what real love is, they will never know real love, unless they admit what they all did to Cazuki & I, because that leads them to awakening their souls, when that happens, the path lights the way to their own Twin Souls. If they choose not to admit what they did & make it right, the only love they will know is controlled “love”, programmed “love”, manipulated “love” & “love” with those they are not soul energy matched to be with & from history speaking, that seems to be the type of “love” their lost dark minds only care about no matter if soul pains & soul tortures, attacking each others souls & energies happen.
Universe, help guide me to help create a Twin Soul GreyJedai Universe Investigator Academy that will protect souls from LITDFS who wish to target Twin Souls.
Since Love has been tainted, corrupted, controlled, programmed, manipulated & attacked in every life time, a new start needs to happen, like a reset button is pushed & Love lost is now Love found for real. Love that happens & it´s by choice, free will & freedom. To be sure you are in a relationship that isen´t programmed or controlled in anyway, a test could be to truth test both of you to see if it was by choice & free will. Like seek out several seers to confirm (feel the truth with the energies) & soul truth test with reverse speech technology to determine your love is real, but make sure you even have seers look into the reverse speech investigators to confirm that it is the truth. If the one you are with refuses to be tested, red flags should not be ignored, because that person could have targeted you or had help targeting you & even used dark magic to keep you with them trapped & against your free will. They could even be darkening your mind against your Twin Soul & even stopping you from meeting your Twin Soul if you haven´t met him/her yet. There is an epidemic of couples in the world that are in relationships & it´s not even real “love”, but it´s controlled, programmed & manipulated in some way. If it was me & I found out about the Twin Soul wars & what is going on in this “matrix”, I would want to investigate my relationship & those around me. I would want the truth, because I want Real Love! I want the Anakin/Padme, Han/Leia, Rey/Ben/Kylo, 4/Tris & Neo/Trinity Love, I don´t want the “matrix” kind of love where everything is controlled & programmed, but I want to be divergent & only want The One meant for me & it was by choice, free will & freedom!
 28 June, 2018, Twin Soul Investigator Report…
Twin Soul comments from the community…
“Spot on!!!! My DMs LITDFS came to me telepathically yesterday saying if you would just go away I know he could love me.. what if I’m his twin and you’re the false...I said no..I tried to wave the  peace flag  seeing if I could see her heart.. but she declared war... even though she doesn’t even love him. It’s all about security and all Things of this world.. she chose dark in that instant.. but I’m not afraid did a clearing to remove dark entities attached to the masculines I felt a little better. But still just in a fog... dm came in telepathically and said he’s in another dark night of the soul and that the feminines must vibrate higher so they can finally break free!! They really want to!!! ”
“You took the words out of my mouth! I had to stop that crap recently "like why the hell are you sending that "female" your power?!?! I'm way too nice sometimes but no more. The DM and my Love and Light is mine. Case closed! Lol I love your videos”
“Its not like the LITDFS wants your love and light what she wants is your man!!”
“I don't know why he fell for her but he did, I gave compassion and love and light. As soon as I found out what she's really like I felt sick and stupid. I am angry at her for controlling him and manipulating him but I'm not sending her hatred, it's her job to be actively be writhing in hatred and send me daggers. I've learnt to protect myself from her energy.”
“I have a spiritual advisor who has confirmed that LITDFS is going to someone that KNOWS dark magic to bind him, has sent negative stuff my way too... she probably thinks it's working but light always wins, I'm staying out of that mess though.”
“I remember that, they are so persistent its insane, using dark magik to keep them under their spells.
It doesn't surprise me actually, dark magik taints souls, hurts their being in their entirety, & in the end Karma is only going to come down worse on the LITDFS, so no one wins, sad, yet very true fact.
What is meant is meant, it might slow the process, but it will not, & can not stop it permanently.
The LITDFS crazy, possessive jealousy is harming everyone, including themselves.
Much love, & respect to you fellow Fem Warrior.”
“Love and light transfers simply to keep them as batteries, we are not people to them but batteries they take energy from”
“I learned this. The LITDFS gets it all.  To starve them we almost have to starve the dm it feels like. Every action of loneliness boredom, frustration Confusion or happy day or normal day they siphon off of him. I went through this period of seeing demons smelling demons. I backed off and healed. Stomachs been killing me for 4 days.”
“That post is def bs I know exactly where you are coming from, what your talking about and how your feeling. As a Divine feminine or Divine goddess WE have to hold our own, and ourselves down period and thats before anybody, our Divine Masculine is us and what WE do for ourselves WE do for our Divine Masculines too. As far as the LITDFS are concerned they can't help but to look from the outside in and have the need to want to be us.”
“Yea I don't feel ready. I know how hard as fuck it's gonna be when we get together and I wanna have some fun and focus on myself now that I've finally healed. I feel bad for like an old friend I had that heard of twins and thought it was gonna just be perfect and she's waiting to meet her twin. This shits a revolution some readers are right”
“I don't send anything anymore to the LITDFS.  I used to pray for her, but she is abusive to my DM.  Very abusive.  She has cut his balls off, completely emasculated him and has left him a shell of a man.  I do tarot readings and she always shows up as the Devil clarifying 9 times out of 10. The energy I get from 'that one' is scary.  I don't know, but I'm not sending anything to that person anymore - good or bad. I send love and light to my DM, but the LITDFS can find her own redemption.”
“I don't know the LITDFS, but she attacks me in the astral for years now. I just want her dark vibe away form my soul. I wants outta this nightmare…”
“The LITDFS has her whole family after the DM. That's where all the confusion is coming from. Someone in their circle does black magic.”
“Finally the “mother/prostitute” card resonates... my DM mom does make him feel guilty for choosing his independence and keeps us apart by doing things to make him feel comfortable at home by doing his laundry and cooking in exchange for cash. “
“I would like you to know please keep up the good work I love your channel. There are tons of twin flame channels but YOURS is the only who actually cover the spritiual warfare on this journey which make you unique.”
“You were right on point about the DM’s mother! I’ve been dealing with my twin off and on for 10 years and his mom is the BIG reason why weren’t not in union. She is a single mother and my DM loves her to pieces (which I love about him) but she uses him for finances. She tries to keep him away from me because she knows that once we’re together that she will no longer be #1 in his life and the money flow stops. …she’s okay when he’s with his LITDFS or anyone else bc she knows that it’s not going anywhere. When it comes to me...I’m a threat to her bc she saw us getting married and having children. You would think that she doesn’t work but she does...she just loves the lavish lifestyle that her son provides. I don’t mind him helping her here and there...but she is the main reason why he didn’t propose in 2015 because she literally drained him financially. I’m trying to be positive and I’m hoping that he will finally wake up and see what she’s been doing because this situation is old!”
“This is exactly how I feel. My DM mom is the biggest fucking LITDFS and that bitch is. …. This sounds familiar and I felt the EXACT same way. She loves his LITDFS bc she isn’t a threat and I am bc I’m independent and dm mom is using him along with the LITDFS. The moment we are in union im cutting it off.”
“That is exactly my problem!!! it is way to public thats how the whole collective got infected with full of infiltrants, they think they can learn and play/imitate us and be us and push us away.”
“I’m a Pisces so I feel like this reading is definitely meant for me! I’m obsessed with all your readings because I feel like spirit has guided me to you. The LITDFS is a Virgo on the cusp of libra too, and DM definitely has mother issues, this is all too SPOT ON…”
“I've been feeling like giving up lately on my DM. Everyone I talk to about him tells me to move on and  i need to get over him. That he will never leave his LITDFS. It makes me feel so alone because I know our connection but other people just don't understand. I feel his LITDFS is suspicious of me she always walks into the store I work at to look at me.  Idk what to do anymore. This path is so hard and I'm breaking down.. I have no strength left. Pressure and sadness all over my body that I know is from him..”
“Bernie, you hit the nail on the head. The dark controls DMs at the moment but once mine awakens he'll send her flying and will kick her arse so far she'll fly to the other side of the world.”
“My brother is being abused by his LITDFS. She stabbed him in his hand, she scratched his face she fights him like a dude.”
“This scares me so much. His LITDFS already trys to stab him, bites him and hits him. I'm really scared for him. I'm sending my angels to protect him. he needs all the help and protection he can get”
“how to protect ourselves against these spells?”
“Black Tourmaline raw not polished is best. If you have a gem store in your area when you go in and select the black tourmaline hold it in your left hand and see how it feels if it feels good to you and it feels like that's your stone ask the stone if it would like to work with you and if you get a yes from this stone then purchase it and when you take it home and run it under cold water and leave it in the direct sunlight for 3 days after those 3 days take that stone hold it in your right hand and press it to your belly and visualize the person that you want to get this protection from and feel that connection from your solar plexus to the stone and it will charge it with the protective energy that you need from then on….Yes please sage and salt baths are a must!!”
“LITDFS hate this reading because already 3 thumb downs. They hate the truth coming out. God this is so shocking, this is by far the best reading. Something is off in my union too, I can't put my finger on it but I feel this is to do with the LITDFS. She's a narcissist. I feel she's fucking with us energetically if it's at all possible.”
“I so resonate with this reading.. Those LITDFS are in groups.. You're so right. I can see it with my DM, but he cannot see the damn truth.. He can't see how he's being played by those b***ches.. They are into those magic sh*t, and I have been feeling it for a while now.. They are glued to his freaking a**..”
“the black magic in my masculine's case comes from spiritual groups making believe they are 5d enslaving him reversing things on me calling me the dark and a terrorist when in fact it's them diverging the divine plan years now . too retarded and i can barely believe how insane my divine masculine is behaving.”
“This so resonates, my twin's LITDFS has got a twin flame herself…she is being shown a way out and still holds on to my twin for dear life. The universe tried to give her someone else and she still holds on just to mess with him. I genuinely feel she has no respect for herself, would you stay with someone who you know doesn't love you? I know I wouldn’t.”
Many of these comments were in regards to some tarot readers in the Twin Soul community saying send love & light to the LITDFS so your DMs will be free from them, which I & many don´t believe in & which is not something I could ever do & I don´t really agree on it. That is not how they will change, that is exactly giving your power away to them & to feed them your energies. They change when the Twin Souls come into unions all over the world & say no more, enough is enough & the truths come out showing everyone what has been going on for so long & what they have they done to Twin Souls. Positive change happens when the light is shining on them revealing their darkness, then they can´t hide anymore, then they have no choice but to work on themselves & awaken their souls & be on a spiritual path. A healing/education/training centre for the LITDFS to awaken their souls & heal all the damage that´s on them that causes them to behave like handlers, "terminators", "snokes", negative programs like in the matrix and other names they keep stacking up with & the centre help awaken their souls. 
The Twin Soul comment about how the Twin Soul Adams are being emasculated and manhood torn down is one of the LITDFS tactics, this way he fears them, is easily controlled by them & obeys them. This happened to Cazuki for years, them saying he´s not a real man being with me, but if he breaks me & is with someone else he´s a real man. They didn´t say those exact words, but they did imply it in their words, you have to read between the lines & they showed it in their negative actions against him & us. That whole scene in james bond in casino royal where his sacred areas are being bashed to bits is what the LITDFS do to many Adams metaphorically if they don´t obey them & if they don´t break it off with their Twin Soul wives. That other Twin Soul comment on how those Twin Souls who don´t know about the Twin Soul wars and are excited to meet their Twin Soul have no idea what will happen to them when union happens, it is a revolution, a Twin Soul revolution and a mass awakening needs to happen & light needs to shine on all the LITDFS darkness & dark deeds for positive change to happen.
A rebel warrior Twin Soul Queen in the community mentions about energy, how we are nothing more than energy, batteries to these LITDFS, which is how they are all behaving really, especially when they don´t care about the heart & soul connection (if they did, they would be with their own Twin Soul meant for them & not go after everyone else´s), they only care about the body & mind & getting energy from their Twin Soul victim. Another Twin Soul mentioned maybe we need to starve the DMs in order to starve the LITDFS from our energy, because remember Twin Souls are One, what we give to the DMs, he gives to the LITDFS they are with, that includes everything. My soul did a test the other day & when talking to a seer, the seer mentioned something about the test my soul was doing even, thou again I had know idea until the test revealed itself a few days later that it was a test & then what the seer said made sense & was connected to the test I was doing & finding these Twin Soul comments also was connected to the test I was doing. I will be doing the test again to confirm & will get other Twin Souls involved to take this test further to confirm. The test is a few weeks before results happen again, but as a Twin Soul GreyJedai Universe Investigator Agent, we have to tap into our former lives as scientists, researchers, investigator agents to continue to unravel these war tactics against life & Twin Souls all over the planet. If I´m right, then this is just more crimes added against Twin Souls that the LITDFS are doing. It´s not just a mind war, body war & soul war the LITDFS are doing against Twin Souls, but also an energy war against life & Twin Souls. Especially when they drain the life energies of the Twin Soul Eves when the LITDFS are together with the Twin Soul Adams not meant for them. What are the crimes so far the LITDFS are doing against life & Twin Souls?
To sum up the LITDFS crimes so far & their war games & tactics against Twin Souls to break up unions:
-They target Twin Souls before union happens in various ways like obedience training, authority training, dark side training, programming training, be loyal & obey family training, be loyal & obey friend training, be loyal & obey the LITDFS collective training, various mind/body/emotion/energy & soul attacks to break & train, fear training, ego training, desire training & potential child attacks against the Twin Soul children to further break them, taint their Sacred Devine bodies & easily control them & have them be so damaged before union happens so their Twin Soul leaves them. Cazuki didn´t leave me because of the damage done to my body & mind before our union happened, but he did leave me when wars against us intensified & the LITDFS used all tactics, all various ways to break us apart & bring him down to his knees, his own words even to me.
-They war with Twin Souls
-They play mind games, plant seeds of doubt & conquer & divide tactics against Twin Souls
-They manipulate, they lie & they deceive Twin Souls
-They wear many masks to cover up how asleep their souls really are & how they don´t have access to their soul wisdom, soul intelligence & soul enlightenment.
-They use the “shape shifting terminator” tactic against Twin Souls wanting to take out the original Twin Soul Eve or Adam & take their place pretending they are the “eve” or “adam” to further trick & manipulate Twin Souls to be with them.
-They use LITDFS rules & laws to target Twin Souls
-They use dark magic to target Twin Souls
-They use technology to target Twin Souls
-They use the “grass is greener on the other side” tactic against Twin Souls
-They implement the seducing, tempting “serpent” in the garden of Twin Soul eden tactic against Twin Souls.
-They mind attack, body attack, emotion attack, energy attack & soul attack Twin Souls.
-They verbal attack & attack with their various destructive actions against Twin Souls.
-They get help from the LITDFS collective & all work together to target Twin Souls in various ways.
-They can drain the life/youth energies of the Twin Soul Eve or Adam when the LITDFS is with the other Twin Soul they targeted.
-They sexually assault the Twin Soul Eves or Adams when the LITDFS is with the other Twin Soul they targeted. When the LITDFS sexually assault the Twin Soul they are with (since it´s against their souls, then it´s “consensual” rape), they also sexually assault the other Twin Soul when they feel it on their bodies what their Twin Soul is going through. They are basically raping the Twin Soul Adams & the Twin Soul Eves, because it´s against both their souls, it doesn´t matter what the Adams lost programmed minds say, his soul is what matters the most. When she attacks him, I feel sexual attacks to my body & I feel Cazuki´s soul pains behind my eyes. Twin Souls are perfect to reveal what is happening to the souls in the world, since they are One Soul, they can feel each other, know each others thoughts & soul truths, they can share all the different kinds of attacks & wars against the souls & what that leads to like self destructing behaviours & break downs. 
-They can use the sacrifice tactic & sacrifice the Twin Souls they are after to have him or her by targeting the light, the positive, the good & the humanity in that Twin Soul & twist him, turn him & darken him, sacrificing him to have him. The LITDFS have no trouble sacrificing their own family members to accomplish their self serving agendas.
-They use the various “negative programs” attached to them “shape shifting terminator” tactics to further target the Twin Souls when union happens & when the LITDFS are with the Twin Soul after breaking the unions, like further submission training, further emasculating training, further obedience training, further dark side training, they can use threats to get their way, they can use seduction to get their way, they can use the LITDFS children to get their way, they can use the LITDFS family to get their way, they can use the LITDFS friends to get they way, they can use manipulation to get their way and more. 
-They can implement the character assassination tactic & target the Twin Soul that is with the Twin Soul they are after. They will have no trouble spreading lies, manipulations, deceptions & would mention things that would reveal them to be “snakes” & “monsters”, especially if the Twin Soul who was targeted the most like with mind, body, emotion & energy attacks against them, is then being attacked for what happened to them which the LITDFS were responsible for in many ways & then the LITDFS are spreading hate, lies & manipulations to everyone they come across about it. An awakened soul has compassion, empathy & understanding, would want to know more & help more & wouldn´t use what happened to that Twin Soul as a weapon to be used against them to discredit, character assassinate & to target the Twin Souls to be enemies with each other & to target the Twin Soul mission. For example, a Twin Soul couple has their minds messed with like dark magic messing with their thoughts & energies & one of them is flirting with girls or guys & then breaks up with their Twin Soul to be with one of them, now if I had fallen for the dark magic that was intended for me to flirt with guys & break up with Cazuki like he fell for, they could have used that as a weapon to be used against me to further darken his mind & turn him & me into being enemies with each other when they were responsible for it the whole time. I didn´t flirt with any guys, I knew who I loved, so their negative thought programming didn´t work on me, but I wanted to share how they can character assassinate anyone with no interest in wanting to know more, to investigate, to uncover truths to understand why that person flirted & broke up in the first place & if others were involved in negatively influencing, who were they, how many, why, how, when, where & what did they do? These are what a Twin Soul GreyJedai Universe Investigator Agent would ask & find out. If you ever hear anyone character assassinate those who are trying to get truths out there (especially the controversial ones), trying to bring positive change, then know you are being fed lies, manipulations & deceptions by the LITDFS so the truths & positive changes stay silent & unchanged. The LITDFS have no problems in making up crap to target the rebels of truth & positive change makers, like what happened to the ex fbi agent who after he retired came out with all kinds of truths & was targeted for it, like for example, a public figure mentioning to their millions of listeners on their radio show saying he has to leave his job because of what the ex fbi agent did or said. Question everything & everyone & don´t believe everything. Curious, would this former radio host be willing to be truth tested in various ways to see if he were bought off or threatened or whatever else to spread lies to the millions of people listening? The LITDFS collective have no problems spreading lies to further their agendas, like saying that person did or said something to them & it never happened. Don´t just listen to one side, listen to both sides & always want more proof, want more investigation, want more truth testing until you are 100% sure you have the truth. A real investigator agent listens to both sides, wants more investigation, more truths revealed until they can solve the case 100%. They don´t just listen to one side & then become judge, jury & executioner, they listen to everything & see all the evidence & want more evidence until they can see the whole movie, not just pick & choose scenes & then decide to hate that person & want others to hate that person like what happened to the ex fbi agent who was revealing all the dark deeds the LITDFS were doing to life, to children & to the planet. These various LITDFS tactics that are used in families & amongst friends are also being used in governments & the media to control everyone & target life in various ways, that is not a coincidence. If you wish to free your soul, you need to free your mind, that means question everything & everyone. I would even want you to question what I mention, because I want you all to further investigate & do your own research, observations, document, write down everything & your own testing to uncover what I & many Twin Souls already know. 
  18 July, 2018, Twin Soul comments…
  “Im know my dm LITDFS up to no good and I think she using black magic”
  “he cannot recognize that something is terribly wrong.The more he engage with her they will use his energy against him. If this is war so be it. “
  “I told him what she was and what she was doing and he has been investigating I know he believes me and also he told close friends of his and it got back to me he caught her online looking up witch craft but she has so mich control i don't think he can get away and my house is open to him i even ask him to move wit me. They have 13 yr old his LITDFS uses her against him too.”
  “My dm made things right with me last night. Took responsibility and honored my pain by recognizing and verbalizing and truly understanding. He said I don’t even know what that was. It was not me. The veil between the physical and spiritual is so thin right now. These LITDFS demons and entities have no hope.”
  “Thank you! I know the LITDFS partner of my divine masculine is using everthing in her power to hold to him. Even using black magic. Also on me!”
  “Wow so glad you spoke upon this because recently I have been under psychic attack and mental attack too. Randomly I would receive nasty demonic messages, and I know it’s not my DM, but it just throws me off and it’s just not very nice to endure. But thanks again goddess !! I’ll deffo look into it more x”
  “This fight is a wicked one indeed,  I have been doing this lately, fighting all those darkened thoughts, & I am so fucken pumped because girl we are winning, & we will win.Doubt, & fear can do a lot to a person, but don't allow them in.Much love, & respect my Fellow TF Warriors.”
  “Same what happens with the DM for years now. He thinks its his own thoughts. He surrenders to it.Thats the issue. They're actually sending these energies to HIM and ofcourse we're affected as well. My twins LITDFS puts spells on him regularly.”
  “yep and while all of it is true, my ladies already got the memo, but better late than never. Lets hope all true twin readers open up to what's really going on and kudos to her. The more we have on the same wavelength the stronger we will be as a unit.” 
  “You think they don't already know y'all connected? Why do you think they're trying so hard to keep him trapped? Its like that movie Groundhog Day with their asses but they don't care enough about Masculine's loop of pain and confusion to fully let them go. That's not love last time I checked..”
  “Yup thats a classic one because the baby is then used as a pawn with guilt if they try to leave. Its sick really.. Probably poked a hole in his condom or she "forgot" to take her birth control.”
  “Babies aren't glue, they're human beings. I have no respect for a woman that uses children as bait.”
  “…or these smut bitches are getting pregnant by another man and pinning it on our masculines. We know the truth bitches! You may temporarily fool the masculine but the feminines third eye sees ALL.”
  “oooh its gon be real ugly when they find out.” (They are talking about when the Devine Masculines find out what the LITDFS did)
  “yeah just remember that when they try to bring out with fake ass pictures of happy married life on social media. Pfft bitch we both know what you about, your expiration date is coming.” 
  “Absolutely! What’s done in the dark always comes to the Light 😉😘”
  “Omg I I've told my twin his LITDFS is a poor man's ME! If she didn't copy everything I do poorly the second I do it she would have no identity at all. I posted two weeks ago, "How long do I have to not give up before you understand that I never will? and she deactivated her page. It's been gone ever since. Glad to not bare witness to her single white female bullshit agenda anymore!”
  “WE are their other halves! Yes that’s right, the man that you’re trying to control so that they stay away from us... yeah….., we know that you want what we have and it will NEVER be for you. You are not US. Our masculines will always come back to us and there is nothing you can do about it!” 
  “Yes, yes... yes! My twins LITDFS had been watching my dynamic between my twin for years (was actually an old friend of mine) and I've shared with this person at length the nature of me and my twins connection. He totally stole it and has been copping my energy so to say to lure my twin in more while at the same time playing off of her insecurities to keep her in as well... me and the LITDFS both had a magical background in our studies... and yes, yes, yes! There is a HUGE dark side to this guy and I can just feel every time his energy needs to touch up his mask to fool her more and more. Yeah, there is a huge darkside that is always trying to influence the connection between real twins and I will say that energy has it's opportunity to dig it's claws deeper into my twin by her being with this guy day after day.  I'm not sure if her LITDFS is searching up the twin flame connection, but I'm sure as hell that he's taken all I've shared previously with him to emulate me. The sad thing is, my twin I feel is going along with it by trying to emulate what me and her have with this guy because of how terrified she is of like you say "being engulfed with the love" of the connection. "This person has your life." Yep, there NEEDS to come a point where we can have all the "love and light" we want and acceptance we want, but SOMETHING needs to break these LITDFS out from where they don't belong. "The more they don't fallow the urgings of the divine to get the fuck out the more karma they make." - Exactly... and I really worry how much worse shes willing to make her situation or tower moment with this guy. These LITDFS are almost like throwing a fire cracker right by the site of an atomic bomb explosion thinking they will stop it, while the atomic bomb explosion is the immense energy of what twin flames are. I think a lot of people still need to understand the magnitude of what it means to become whole back with your soul, that's some EPIC Universal energy coming into being and ANYTHING that stands in the way of that and what must be in our reality will be obliterated, so these LITDFS I feel sorry for, they are quite stupid. Thank you for making this video, not enough of the twin flame community are speaking up about how severe some of the LITDFS and their dark energy are influencing the twin flame connection.”
  “i understand totally. me too, i got 'dark' people tapping upstairs and all around me, monitoring my phone, cell calls and internet and mobile trying to stop my communication to MyBeloved, to cause me psychological damage as they know i am a twin flame of high power.”
  “Thank you so much for this reading.  I would hate to inform the fakers that you cannot fake being the Divine Feminine.  Massive good luck to that lol.  You can't fake the light emanating from your chakras and the magnetism the universe gives the divine feminine.”  
  “as heterosexual divine male twin flame, i get turned on by all physico-genital, sexual, erotic, voice, demeanour, femininity and genderal aspects of females/female gender traits of sweetness, loving compassion and sexual vibe. Yet, i loyally await the return of my heterosexual Divine Female Twin Flame because she is my1&OnlyTrueLove, my LadyLovePrincess i want to spend all of my lifethyme+ with. i hope this makes sense, and i respect and appreciate and understand your perspectives for sure and go thru many moments of faulting her for 'running away' to other men/partner(s). “
  “Amazing how accurate your readings are. What’s scary is that they are literally such copycats that even my sister in law mentioned how the girl looked exactly like me... hair and all. That’s not to say a patient at my job came not too long ago and all of a sudden started blurting out things about my relationship... amongst them she asked “Who’s the girl that “pretends” to be catholic that did witchcraft to separate you both? I was literally in awe.”
  “My Dm's LITDFS is putting spells and things on us for the last 2 days made us feel realy sick.”
  “Why am I not surprised by this, no matter what ladies, gents,  fellow TF Warriors never lose faith, always believe in what is meant, stay strong in our mission, stay steady on our path, be here for our Soul Army/Family, yourselves & each other.I won't back down, I have faced much worse, & I am prepared for War.He is my heart, mind, spirit, & Soul, I believe in our divine birth given abilities & heaven given right to fight this & win.Much love, & respect my fellow TF Warriors.”
  “Lucky for me my dms LITDFS cant have kids. She evil and sum1 was looking out. She holds everything over his head with no kids can you imagine with kids??? There would never b a union. My dm is a lot older than me hed b in a retirement home wen we wed unite lol. Lol I'm far from politically correct too girl” 
  “You guys, what I had warned you about is now here. LITDFS: you WILL pay for your crimes against women, true love, and GOD. You can't hide from the Creator, which can and WILL even the score.”
  “Oh if you could look at te LITDFS that is wit my twin you would  be surprised how evil she is. I really hope she will pay and get back all the bad she did to me and she is doing to my twin, and you are right she does not even care about her son, she used him in a black magic practice in the past.”
  “Honestly .. for the LITDFS to stick around when she knows he’s over his head in love with his twin really makes her a super low life gold digger ! Not even sure how this still can happen in this day and age ! Xoxo”
  “Why dose it seem that the DFs are seemingly the impossible catch for the DMs causing them to feel unworthy of our LOVE?”
  “I feel its because we represent the love they want to feel for themselves. For whatever time they are with LITDFS, she will only stick around as long as he feels this way, her low basal thick sludgy 3D energy can't mix with his high level quick vibrating 5D energy once he falls in love with himself again the way have with him. It will be like oil and water”
  “Hang in there fems ..... the one suffering most is actually the LITDFS . All she gets is his penis . That’s not his heart . Patience . Lol …really need to grow up.”
  “it’s a little sad how the divine fems are so focused on being their best highest of selves and stay on track in utmost dedication to mission and the divine Masculines are being childish and selfish acting out of pure ego !”
  “The DM´s can´t help it, they have been programmed, dark side trained, tricked, manipulated, indoctrinated since birth to believe life is a certain way, the LITDFS way & when their ego is fed by the LITDFS around him & when they mess with his mind on a daily basis, more damages are done & he gets stuck in it, not being his best self, not being his true soul self.”
  “The LITDFS is a narcissist and a gold digger. The dm better watch his back he’s in trouble”
  “This is so true she practices magic but  he don’t think she would do it to  him”
  “I love when my dm sends me songs that prompts me to look up the lyrics. I know it's him because once I look up the lyrics and play the song, his energy comes to life in me very strongly to confirm”
  “I feel like whatever woman he is dealing with,  is very emotionally  codependent,,  she probably threatens  to kill herself.  Hense,  making him feel super guilty….”
  “I have just started listening to very recently n u have blown my mind it's like u were directly talking to me. My DM has been coming back he is in my life on a daily basis again but the LITDFS keeps trying to get her claws into him”
  “Can LITDFS relationships be family members too?  My DM family/friends  don't understand our union and secretly want us to split. I can sense the vibes.”
  “oh yes it totally can be family and friends too. I've seen mothers and sisters and sometimes the males brothers and such get in the way”
  “His LITDFS even told me " I guess you have his heart" well why in the hell are you still around. “
  “it is insane and sickening the level these LITDFS are going to keep their toxic, manipulative world in tact. I've recently tried to point out this toxicity, no response.”
  “It’s funny that you mentioned “pleasuring” himself to your pics because he asked me for some pics and I sent them before I even knew that he was still with ol girl. The craziest part about it was that she was introduced to me as his “best friend” she invited me to her home tried to become my friends and all. I tried to vibe with her but i couldn’t. It came to a point where i literally felt uncomfortable around her. I couldn’t describe it. My body would literally be hot and tense. She really played the game. Told me how much he talks about me and how she’s advised him on treating me right because she can tell I’m a good woman. Ha! She advised me right out of the picture.”
  “I had a dream about a LITDFS telling me shes not done with him yet” 
  “Imagine if any LITDFS that went after the DMs were ever investigated & questioned & everything was revealed how they target Twin Souls. Their games, dramas & wars couldn´t hide anymore & Twin Soul unions would see them & protect themselves against them.”
  “The energy levels in the air are so thick in a negative way right now. He doesn't realize I can feel when he is with her. This is so hard for me! These LITDFS bitches don't want these twins, they just don't want us to have them because they know that our twins love us!”
  “Omg I had to tell u my dm finally reached out to me last Sunday seen him Tuesday supposed to see him tomorrow and my lurking frnd sent me some posts about him saying he's cutting out ppl out of his life so I know he's on the right path” 
  “The LITDFS partner in my DMs life is a narcissist and he even told me. A narcissist gets off in appearing to be the better woman.  She would not have had as much of an ego boost going after a single unattached man as one she could rake from anither woman, in her eyes it was an ego boost (better than the other woman , more desirable in her eyes). She felt more powerful.  I hope you know what I mean. Getting a single unattached man would not have given her as much of an ego boost as taking a man away from another woman. Someone said when I give him up, she won't be able to get as much drama out of it and it won't be as fun to her since she derives pleasure out of the drama. She plays on his fears. He has told me all of the right things. He has yet to take lasting action. He has told me that he has told her to leave and that he loves me, something happened and the next thing I know he is choosing to remain with her. “
  “I noticed that having seen my DM while he is still living with the LITDFS partner,  that because she is controlling,  he gets more emasculated and feminine. “
  “the children of blessed Twins i hear are very advanced children are born to Twin Flames”
  “Yes twins will have very special gifted kids without exception”
  “The only reason why the LITDFS become enlightened all of a sudden is because she is drinking the true twins love juice . She is downloading all our codes.” 
  “If she was so enlightened, she would wake up in her soul & leave the DM she went after & be with her own Twin Soul. Not so enlightened after all.”
  “I know that Faith is a huge part of this, & I feel like my DM & I are literally going through hell, just because we are rightfully claiming who, & what is ours.The testing is rigorous, cold, & harsh, but I love him, & going through all this hell only makes me love him more.When my heart hurts, my mind is uneased, & my spirit is restless my entirety calls out to him.I am thankful I found this channel, to be quite honest in my fight I even questioned your authenticity, fighting this fight can fuck you up hard, but I am thankful I am understanding how much clarity I am getting.The LITDFS cunt, is trying to put in my head that my DM is evil, & that loving him will send my Soul into damnation, fuck her demonic ass, he isn't the evil one, she is.I have loved my DM since the minute I saw him, I was 14 when I first saw him, & I have loved him ever since, so thank you for this..”
  “"The LITDFS cunt, is trying to put in my head that my DM is evil, & that loving him will send my Soul into damnation" Can you explain to me how she is doing this? Like is she coming to you physically or is it her spiritually attacking you. Has she ever like...manipulated your twin into saying mean things to you to hurt you? My twins LITDFS has done that.”
  “lol no she is a pussy, so she has never approached me, but yes spiritual attacks. I know she has gotten into his head, & he has been not kind at times, but I know my LITDFS, whom have so much not good feelings towards tries to get to him, & has.My LITDFS still messes with my mind, & I think they get into both our minds, my DM & I.”
  “The Universe wants this Union, the LITDFS are not of a universal level, they are of a worldly level.”
  “I completely get that, my Twin has said somethings to me that felt like a bullet to the heart, but I have said somethings to him that i know will never leave him either.I honestly believe its a way for the LITDFS to cause a separation & mistrust.Hurt the Twins through each other, get in their heads, delude the truth, & hurt their hearts with each other.A way to try to stop any of this,I know my Twin would never hurt me on purpose & I hope to God that he knows I would never want to be a reason his heart aches, his mind is uneased or his spirit is restless…”
  “I want to be a comfort, a place to call his Soul home, a place of happiness, acceptance, love I know my Twin & I will always have times where things will be hard,but I never want to be a reason his life is harder then it already is.My Twin is everything good in this world to me, he is my hearts, minds, spirits, bodies, & Souls home.”
  “The LITDFS are desperate & heartless, they can technically think, but these Soulless twats & dicks, literally have harm in mind, & that is all they care about, harm.They will even put their own children in harms way, these babies are suffering because their own parent, whether a male, or female LITDFS has an unrightful, & deep rooted evil need to seek out the entrapment, & harm of the Twin Flames.There is not a true parent in the world with any sort of Soul that would ever want their child to suffer let alone be the reason they do, & the LITDFS purposely put them through hell too.They don't want what is best for anyone, & them using darkness only ends up hurting them too, but they are too shallow & worldly run blind to see how much damage they are doing, even if they do, they don't care.Don't be so hard on you though, ok please X) because of the significance of the TF Union, & the happiness, actual truth, & love we are, & are fighting for, it will of course feel like hell.One thing that keeps me sane, is remembering one little phrase.“if this wasn't right, they wouldn't work so hard tostop it”What the Universe dreams right, is not what the world sees as right.The world is no longer run by goodness, so of course the world wants to stop what is actually good for us all.
  “being a Woman of Faith, of course evil will never want good to win, its a tale as old as time.I myself don't have any children, my DM does though, & his LITDFS is pure evil, & funny enough years ago...my Mom laid eyes for the first time & thought of her as an ugly piece of shit, & when I told her how him & I both see her now, she was relieved for the both of us.I used to think my DM's LITDFS was beautiful, but her mask has fallen off, & she is fake looking & her eyes look dead, & she has never been seen as beautiful to me again, & he also used to think of her as the most beautiful Woman in the World, but he knows the truth now, & he doesn't see a beautiful Woman anymore he sees an ugly, fake heartless psycho, whose trying to ruin his life.He & I have had to work through somethings but we are both able to find laughter everyday with each other. I never knew he would be the one, & then everything changed, & now him & I are forever connected, & he is my one true love, my Soul Mate, my home. I never saw it coming, but he makes nothing but sense to me, & I am thankful for this fight, because it has shown me the truth, & that he truly is the one made for me.”
  “I have said some shit to mine I regret, I love him, & I am nowhere near perfect, I am only human after all, well we all are lol, at least us Twins are, LITDFS well the filthy disgusting & vial things they are.Mine is not evil, nor does he work for darkness, he would never.There is darkness in every single one of us in this world, no is 100% pure good,I refuse to give any energy to the ideas that my DM is working for darkness, because that only feeds the very thing Twins are literally Universally made to help change, is the amount of evil, & darkness in this world.We are not soldiers of Satan's darkness, the LITDFS are, end of story.We are Warriors of the truth, we are Warriors sent by God/Universal Creator.I hope you & your Twin make it out together.Losing faith in what the true essence of your Twins Soul belongs to, if you truly believe you two are Twin Flames, then don't allow yourself to believe he is evil,We are not LITDFS, nor are we evil, they sure are though, like living, breathing, walking around spewing destructive sewage out of the things they call their mouths, like literal Demons in their ugly flesh. We live in a World that openly celebrate actual evil, truly we do, how disgusting, truly.Twin Souls are not of this world, we are of The Universe.Have an awesome day.”
  “Thank you. Like you I'm fully committed to this journey and the light  it's the roughest thing I've ever faced but somehow I feel n know wholeheatedly that I'm going to be ok n that I will come into union with my dm who I trust will also fight for peace, true love n true happiness so we can come together as intended to do the work we were meant to do. Much luv n light to you for the amazing strong n so important message  xo”
  27 July, Twin Soul Comments…
“DAMN!! You are right in everything you said. My twin got two LITDFS locking him down from me. These bitches are unreal!”
“My DM has at least 4 LITDFS that I know of that control and handle him and it is crazy to think the lengths they will go to keep him trapped, obeyed & pleasing them all.”
“My Dms LITDFS told him she was on birth control after she caught him saying my name in his sleep now she pregnant by him for the second time. Shit sucks.”
“That´s like, “oh so you said her name, I will have you begging to say my name & give me love, attention & I´ll do it again by having your kid again.” It´s f&%$&% up to be honest, it´s like they are punishing the DMs for even speaking their Twin Soul names. Also, it´s like, “Oh s&%$, I´m losing him, he´s waking up to want to be with his Twin Soul, I better reprogram him fast” then gets pregnant again. They really can´t hide anymore, once Twin Souls know about the LITDFS girls & how they play their sick war games which keeps this sick world the same, would the Twin Souls really then fall again for the tempting serpents & break up their Twin Soul unions for that hell s&%$ life story?” 
“Thank you!!!!!!
That's what I'm talking about!!!!!
I'm right with you girl
I see right thru the LITDFS in my situation
And she knows I do”
“I see through the LITDFS who is with my DM also, so much so I can read her like a friggin book. Now if only my Twin Soul could get his hands on that same book ;), he would be shocked at how she planned to get him even before coming into this new body of hers to be his “friend” & come between us again, he would  then with his true King of swords fashion start cutting places, people & situations out fast!”
“Idk how I stumbled on you, oh his LITDFS leaves town on the 24th til the 6th.. he tried to stop by my office yesterday and bam she block him and picked up his stuff and escorted him to the truck…”
“I have to laugh sometimes reading all your comments, I mean it´s crazy how the LITDFS behave, it´s like they really keep showing everyone they are behaving like “terminators” & making sure the Twin Soul Adams stay far away from their Twin Soul Eves. I mean seriously DMs, take any story that you like, that´s one of your favourites, what does the hero do in that story? Is he controlled by his True Love Heroine? Is he being attacked by his True Love Heroine? Is he being emasculated by his True Love Heroine? Is he being treated like a child by his True Love Heroine? No, but who is doing that to the hero in that story? The villain of course! Know the difference between the main True Love Heroine character & the villains in those stories & DMs, if you really wish to see your DFs, don´t let anyone tell you otherwise, it´s your life, your freedom and your choice. Time is short in these fragile bodies, so don´t waste it being controlled again in another life by another LITDFS!”
“My Dm's LITDFS is nuts.  She's a jealous crazy lunatic.  Ive washed my hands of the situation until my DM gets smart enough to get rid of the lab rat.”
“I am so ready for this paternity test involving this LITDFS! Her secret to the real baby’s dad will be exposed soon💪”
“LITDFS and wicked people are being hit HARD by karma. It is and will continue to hit them directly. It's not skipping them this time. Nature, God and the Universe is tired of them.”
“I heard the time has come. I get my answers from the 5th dimension.”
“Well Said!!! We are living in a time of Justice!! LITDFS and Haters are getting Cuttthroated!!!”
“I've said it and I'll say it again, the karma that's coming for these LITDFS - it's no laughing matter. At least the ones who are spiritually and physically aware of what they are doing trying to get in the way of twins coming together. It's one of the most important things going on in this Universe for twins to come together, if ANYTHING knowingly tries to get in the way of this they're going to have to face complete removal and a wipe of memory of even existing here. It's like intervening on such a climatic event in existence, the plan for twin flames to come together has been in the making for as long as this Universe has  been around, these LITDFS aren't going to ruin it and if they try it will be the up most insult to the divine and they'll be dealt with in a way that I wouldn't wish on anyone - yet the truth is that it's inevitable... no different that one thinking that they can put out the Sun with a cup of water, but their bodies would be burnt up before they could even have a chance to pour their cup. People need to understand the true scope of the power behind twins and that it's truly no laughing matter - and these LITDFS just sit there not heeding our warnings and then it will be to late.”
“Fuck, attack from the darkest soul... Its been fucking hhhhhhaaarrrdddd. Straight 3 years of sick sick mental fucking.. As of one week ago day before eclispe.. I finally signed those fucking divorce papers... Now my DM oh shit is his karmic partner rocking his boat…” 
“My DMs LITDFS is not a nice person, to put it mildly!!!
I know what he has told me is true. I knew of her growing up.
I know her dirty secrets.”
“the LITDFS is clinging on to him even after he broke up with her. shes still after him not giving up. yesterday i saw a pic of them togther yet hes still after me.. doesnt make sense.”
“I would say this is a classic “terminator” case where when the DMs decide to leave the LITDFS, then she & the LITDFS collective will reprogram & retrain him back to be with her in someway. Could be a combination of many things, more seducing sweet words from her, threats, guilt, “oh she´s pregnant” tactic, promises, manipulations, dark magic and whatever else programmings, point is the LITDFS objective is the “terminator” objective, destroy Twin Soul unions, keep Twin Souls from each other, prevent Twin Souls from ever being together at all cost. Remember Finn in star wars? When the LITDFS girls that are in control over the men see they are losing control & they see the DMs are waking up & wanting to be with the DFs, that´s like phasma sending Finn back to reconditioning & be reprogrammed to stay, obey & please them all.”
“All resonates. LITDFS got my number from DM yesterday and contacted me complaining and asking me to please ease her mind that I won't underestimate her relationship with DM(maybe she meant undermine, she sounded dumb as a rock via text and took 15-20 min between responses) Who in their right mind thinks that is acceptable behavior. She began dating him when I was pregnant and I have two children with DM now. They have been dating less than a year but she said "neither of us is going anywhere," we shall see. This is Sparta! & she definitely broke girl code pulling that shit.”
“Don´t worry about it, the LITDFS are extremely insecure, have no self esteem & are not confident in who they are in their souls. They may try to pull if off in their minds that they are confident, but trust me, I see into their souls, they are not confident at all. A real confident woman doesn´t need to go after someone who is in a relationship to feel powerful, strong, confident & beautiful, because an awakened Twin Soul knows that doesn´t make you powerful, strong, confident or beautiful, but it does when you want The One True Love for you that is single. That´s real power, real strength, real confidence & real beauty. If the LITDFS only knew, but when souls are asleep they have no idea. They are asleep & their lost minds are in control, they need attention always, they need ego feeding, they need the DMs to reassure them they are better than his Twin Soul, that they are his “true love” & that he´s not going anyway. I mean just look at all this mountain of proof from you all. She´s contacting you now needing you to feed her ego? This is just too funny! It´s like isen´t it enough to get ego feeding from our DMs, they need it from us too? They have no self esteem & are not confident and the proof is seen by everyone, they need to go after a guy who is not single to give them an ego boost & to make them feel powerful & “beautiful”, because they don´t feel powerful or beautiful in their souls, how can they, they are not awakened Twin Souls and you know Twin Souls are just shining like friggin stars & suns & the Universe, because we know who we are in our souls. We know what real balance is, we know what real confidence is, we know what real True Love is and no it´s not going after a guy who is in a relationship with his Twin Soul, we know if you target someone who is in a relationship, then karma will rain fire down upon you in one way or another & that does not make you powerful or beautiful at all. What you send out in the Universe comes right back to you. The LITDFS may control the world in many ways, but they don´t control the Universe.”
“The world is in a mess and brink of collapse because of the oppression of divine feminine. Many men do not like it because they don't like awakened women standing in their power.”
“Let´s not confuse the minds & the souls, because you know men love it in their souls powerful, strong, sensitive, caring, loving, compassionate, honest, committed, passionate, wild, free, smart, funny Devine Feminines that treat them like powerful equals. I would know, Cazuki loved that about me! But when their minds have been controlled & programmed in so many dark ways by other girls & their souls have been attacked in so many ways by lost in the dark girls & possibly their bodies when they were children were attacked by girls or the girls stood by & did nothing, then of course the lost minds of men will have problems with powerful strong real True Women. Not everyone is a LITDFS, but many are awakened Twin Souls, but in the lost minds of these broken down men by girls, I understand their fears & anger. All they need is proof that not all women are like the LITDFS girls in this world!”
“Im a Divne masculine .no 1 can replace her.”
“The abundance that all divine masculine desire is unconditional love,it's what i desire,you are beutiful,you are our goddess,you are our divine counterparts,WE are love.Iv'e never really thought i had a LITDFS,i'm new to your blog.”
“That is exactly what every Twin Soul who got left by their Twin Soul should do, write their book of truth, their book of Twin Souls, their book of True Love, all layers, all levels, deeper soul truths and reveal who and what the LITDFS are, how they play their games, dramas and wars and how they target Twin Souls. What their life was like with their Twin Soul & what their life was life with a LITDFS & what happened when they tried to leave the LITDFS, what happened when they tried to go back to their Twin Soul and what happened when wars were upon the Twin Soul unions before getting together with a LITDFS. Every single Twin Soul book in the world will help all Twin Souls, it helps those that are not in unions yet, it will help those who are trapped still with LITDFS and will help those Twin Souls in unions so they know what is really going on in the world so they can protect their unions and it will even help the LITDFS by waking them, cutting off their energy supply and giving them no choice but to wake up in their souls, because time is up, no more lives of them spending it enjoying themselves & our Adams at the expense of life, children, people, planet & True Loves between Twin Souls. Every soul has the potential to be Devine, but when the LITDFS corrupted dark lost minds control their lives, their souls can never be Devine. They have to wake up for that to happen & to release our DMs & be with their own Twin Soul!”
“At 55 I'm going for Chris Consciousness n celibacy until my Twin reunited. ..  after experiencing divine love u can't go back to 3d love”
“Same here. Twinflame celibacy! Its the ONLY way. Lots of love.”
“As soon as my twin entered my life,not only did my life do a 360,but also I stopped dating!! It's not the same anymore for me!! My Love is with him ONLY!!! God is Good💯🔥💪!!!”
“Your're so right, the search is over, because its God Given! Its beautiful! I wish so much for the NOW!”
“Life can be complicated and many times it can be like one of those Chinese puzzle boxes where you have to maneuver the pieces in just a certain way in order to open the box.  I've learned that I can count on my heart more than my head in this twin flame journey.   One of the hardest lessons I've had to learn is to actually listen to what Spirit is telling me through my heart.  The right answer isn't necessarily the most obvious one to our minds.  The heart is a wonderful compass even in the middle of darkness.”
“I love him to much to forget. Sadly my twins sleeping with every LITDFS offer. Yep I don't like to date either lol carry on with life till he returns. My LITDFS can be my friends… It's easier.  But my souls crying for my twin.”
“Part of the Twin Soul awakening & Twin Soul mission is to be celibate & single till you meet your True Love Twin Soul. It´s part of the soul evolution & awakening and if anyone attacks you for being celibate & single, being a virgin even, then they are LITDFS, because what do the LITDFS want and what does the dark want always? (The proof is in our history, present day & our society & what is being indoctrinated by the LITDFS) They want you to corrupt your Devine Sacred Universe Blessed body and they want you to corrupt it many times with many different people. Think of our bodies like computers, be careful who you share your body with, because negative codes & negative energies & negative past life downloads are passed between you both & that person could very well be the person who came between your Twin Soul unions many times to be with you & prevent Balance & positive change in the world. I don´t even have to be religious about this, because I know the Universe is for us to be with our Twin Souls and the Universe is for our bodies to only be with our Twin Souls. The Universe wants balance, you can´t get balance when you are with souls unmatched to be together, you have to be 100% soul matched for real Balance in the world! Don´t forget, the Universe is Devine, magical, mystical, beautiful, heavenly, balanced & so are souls, so when you have a LITDFS corrupted society that make it their mission to corrupt our minds, our energies, our bodies, our relationships & our families in every way possible, what should a true Spiritual Ninja Warrior Twin Soul do? We Rebel, against any LITDFS that try to corrupt us in any way. True Power is when you are protecting your Sacred Devine body from the LITDFS and I will tell you, they friggin hate it, because they can´t do it, they have to feed their negative sexual urges & they will want you to be like them & behave like them sadly (which you know they can never have that positive, Devine, Sacred sexual intimacy that is known & shared only between Twin Souls, what they have is just negative energy sex. When souls have no wish to be together, souls will attack each other & them having sex releases negative energies), as long as they are asleep in their souls & target Twin Souls, they can never awaken in their souls. True strength is being celibate,  being single, being a virgin even & that´s a powerful message you are sending in the world & the Universe, the message being you only want your True Love meant for you, The One, you only want your Twin Soul. So any Twin Souls that are celibate, single and those they stay pure even & powerfully positive, you are champions of the Universe and of Balance! You are making it known everywhere you want Balance, Peace & Twin Soul Unity! You truly are the Devine Feminine Warriors of this world in a time of war that is now known as the Twin Soul wars, you are humanities Hope & Gift, stay true, stay strong, you are the Goddesses & Gods of true Balance & positive change! For the LITDFS that wish to be awakened Twin Souls, then release the Devine Masculines from your sharp claws, you have much soul work to do if you wish to be Devine and part of the Balance & positive change in a world that desperately needs it now more than ever!” 
“Idk what my DM's LITDFS up to, but I believe it will be revealed soon. This LITDFS has been sleeping around with one man after another and trapping my DM with pregnancy (and I believe it's not even his child). Actually, I dreamed about my DM being possessed and I was spiritually attacked last night. In my dream, we managed to fight back and she lost..
Tbh, I don't care about her all these time, but when she told me that she's better than me in many aspects of life, LOL! Let it be revealed asap!”
“That´s funny to me, because in their lost minds, they do believe they are better if they have careers, money, skills, success, if they are not damaged in a any way, if they look more pleasing & are in order, dressed tidy, are dolled up, even use their kids as a way to say “look I have kids, so I´m better than you” and so on. All I can do is laugh, because they really are asleep in their souls. They are not better, they are what´s wrong with this world. They shaped this world to their liking, so attacks to children, people, animals, True Loves between Twin Souls and planet is their handy work. How does that make them better than us? It doesn´t, it just shows us how worse they really are & how lost they really are in this world!”
“OMG! I, technically, blamed God today. I told God that I give up because I'm tired of God's lies by giving me hope but not doing anything to change everything between my DM and although God's has the ability and the power to change, God seemed like doesn't care about what happen..
I also wished to just left this TF relationship for good..and look what I stumbled upon? Your podcast…DANG!!!”
“The Universe does not mess with free will, but when free will is messed with by the LITDFS, the Universe will help anyone who is trapped in it´s own way, problem is it´s all very spiritual help and when our lost Twin Souls are using their heads & not listening to their souls & hearts, they can´t get the help from the Universe. Remember the Constantine story? The devils in that story represent the LITDFS and they can influence, whisper negative words & play mind games & control minds in various way to prevent you from listening to your Devine soul & instead listen to your easily controlled mind that will make you do things your soul does not want to do at all. Dark magic messes with minds, that´s like them whispering negative dark words to you like wanting you to break up with your Twin Soul & like wanting you to be with someone else. The Universe is not to blame for the hells on Earth, that will always be the LITDFS who are responsible for causing that darkness in every life.”
“For the past few months the Twin Soul community have been mentioning how the DFs should pleasure themselves & manifest at the same time to help their DMs back to them. Now I questioned this & then I did a test myself without me realising it, but last month I read a day later comments on here that mention how we should cut off the energy supply to the LITDFS. Now without me realising it, but I hadn´t pleasured myself in over two weeks and then I get attacked by someone in my dream to arouse me (like someone just came into my room, jumped me, attacked me, I couldn´t move), then not long after my DM has sex with the LITDFS & I feel it, then i feel his sadness behind my eyes. Just when I thought I wouldn´t discover more dark crimes they do against Twin Souls, here it is. If we can feel our DMs getting aroused which arouses us, then if we get aroused, so can our DMs. Didn´t anyone question this, am I the only one? Question everything & everyone! I did another test and sure enough a few weeks later again, not pleasuring myself, I get attacked in my dream to get aroused, but I refused to. Need more testing to again confirm, but it would help if more DFs would try this test & then document it. Did it ever occur to anyone that the DMs souls have no wish to be with the LITDFS at all (all of you know if you can feel your DMs soul pains), so they will not really want to be with them sexually & may even have trouble performing, which is completely understandable. If the LITDFS need us to be sexually active in anyway so our DMs are sexually active with them, then that could be a way to help our DMs by not being sexually active at all. Of course this test is only for those that will do what it takes to help our DMs, but I thought to mention this important message for those wanting to test it themselves. Now if we have dreams that involve our DMs wanting to be with us, we should still not be turned on by it, because he could be used to get us aroused so he will be aroused to be with the LITDFS. We really need to cut off our energy supply, these LITDFS are acting very much like energy vampires. To explain it in a different way, take star wars force awakens for example, if we view the sun as the Twin Soul (souls are like the sun) who got left by their Twin Soul who got together with a snoke type, what does snoke do to the sun? He drains it, uses it´s power to power him, feed him & please his self serving needs. He uses the sun (Twin Soul) to power up the Twin Soul he got a hold of so that Twin Soul victim pleases him, feeds him & gives him power. Something to think about. As it was mentioned by a warrior rebel Twin Soul in other comments, we are nothing but batteries to these LITDFS, so we should cut off their energy supply & not let them use us so they can use our DMs. What they are doing is so dark & insane, but all their secrets are coming to light, no more hiding, only truths. Since I´m also a stubborn rebel and my DM is equally stubborn, I will not give them what they want from me.
“hello to you as well, beautifully apropos timing with your comment, so I thank you.
I am celibate at this time, & have been for years now, but when I need to I pleasure myself.
To be honest since I have truly connected with my DM, I have been more sexually aroused, but for about 6 days now, I have a gut feeling that has been keeping me from masturbation.
I wonder if what you say about the connection, & the LITDFS using our connection, & sexual arousal as a way to feed, if they can get our TF's in the mood, then they automatically have two sources of light, & energy to feed from which gives them more power, because all they are, are their pussies, or dicks, they don't have hearts, nor Souls obviously, so they use sex, because they are powerless without their bodies, my belief, & opinion
I love the Star Wars reference because it brings an odd, eye opening & deeper perspective of their rancid evil.
Thank you for taking your time to put your comment here, & also for bringing this subject to light.
I can do nothing but agree with you, because when someone is in a place sexaul extacy they are at their most spiritually open, their minds, & bodies are at their highest energy frequencies, & well the rest follows, use sex to hurt the TFs, because of our connection & how Universally deep it is, they will use what they know best to hurt us, sex, their not good for anything else.
If you think about if these LITDFS have to channel us TF's to turn on either our DM's or DF's lets face all LITDFS male or female will do this, but they don't even have their own sexual power, because their using the TF's to get the job done..mindless, shallow, Soulless, dick & pussy run Demon freak shows.
Don't get me wrong, I love me a good freak show, but these things not even the freakiest of circuses would accept their rancid asses, lol so yeah X) XD ;)
When their masques fall off permanently they will always be known for being the things that heartlessly used their own children for their own disgusting, selfish, & evil ways, & went out of their way to cause harm, & destruction, but ended up being some of the biggest fools out there, & llost anyways, ha ha good!
…time, patience, belief, love, hope, faith, acceptance, & understanding the truth is everything in this journey.”
“Hello fellow Twin Soul Rebel Warrior! :) Same with your comment, incredible timing! I totally agree with you, Star wars is the biggest Twin Soul stories out there that covers a lot of what is going on in our world. So many stories can translate & decode our reality. I mean, I have gone over so many scenes & even the star wars community break downs scenes & are revealing Twin Soul aspects & they don't´even know about Twin Souls yet, but they even mention the yin & yang aspect as well and the Adam & Eve & serpents. Even in the movies, snake is mentioned & if one replaces the o with the a in snoke´s name, you get snake. The writers knew what they were doing. To me, it is clear as day the LITDFS behave & are the snokes in our Twin Soul stories, I mean, the proof is in their behaviours & negative energies & what they are all doing to keep the DMs trapped (snoke is obsessed with Kylo´s seed, so are the LITDFS) & how they went after them. The terminator story is also a brilliant one that describes the LITDFS & LITDFS groups that go after the DMs. My DM is surrounded by "terminators" & the "first order", I wish I was kidding! As for the whole them using us DFs to get us aroused so our DMs are aroused for them to use DMs (them being truth tested would reveal how they do it), wouldn´t surprise me at all, but it would help if more DFs confirmed this. I´m the kind of person that needs more proof before I believe (even thou I do believe right away, but I still like more testing to confirm and be 100%), but from my own experience & testing several times so far it would appear to be true & if confirmed with other DFs, this just adds to their dark deeds against Twin Souls, it´s maddening the lengths they will go. They have to attack us to get our DMs aroused for them to use. It´s sick, they need help! It´s not just a spiritual war or a physical one, but also an energy war too. When souls have no wish to be with the LITDFS of course the LITDFS somehow will force it & they could even use dark magic to mess with the energies of the DMs to get him in the mood so to speak. I never bought the whole it´s a Twin Soul journey, but it´s more like a mission. I wouldn´t call attacks to children, people, animals, planet & True Loves as a friggin journey! We have to see the dark, not just stay in the light to end these wars on Twin Souls & on life. Everything dark needs to come to the light. We have to take the Rey dive & see what they have done in every life & then come out of the dark unharmed, but shining even brighter than when we dived into their dark mess. The LITDFS can´t hide anymore when all their games, dramas & wars are shown to everyone. I also never bought the whole the DMs have karma to go through with the LITDFS, that´s why I use quotations, it´s total b.s. What karma does he have that requires him to suffer in his soul being with someone his soul has no wish to be with? What is that supposed to teach him exactly? To me that says, the LITDFS he ended up with was someone he was with in a previous life, but since he didn´t stay with her for a life time or he treated her badly (understandable if he had no wish or desire to be with her in the first place), then has to be with her again to make up for escaping her in the first place & gaining his freedom in his previous life? Total crap & total LITDFS propaganda. One learns lessons not by suffering & soul torturing another, but by the truth coming out & being educated & getting healing. Did it not occur to people to question that whole karma crap? I mean, it then becomes a never ending karma cycle if he has to be with her, but then gets treated badly by her & soul tortured by her, but then she gets bad karma for what she is doing to him & then what, she has to go through the same as him to "learn" lessons because of what she did to him & the cycle repeats because of what that other person does to her? Do people believe the Universe is hell? It´s not & that´s not how life is supposed to be. That´s not even real karma. Question everything & everyone! Since the LITDFS always have a supply of energies coming from the DFs that are either in sexual relations with another or they are pleasing themselves, the LITDFS will always have the DMs be sexually active if his DFs are sexually active. I wonder, what would happen if the DFs choose not be sexually active & cut off the energy supply from them to their DMs? If we are not sexually active, would our DMs also not be sexually active? Wouldn´t that help them break free from the LITDFS? If sex is a way for the LITDFS to use as a weapon against the DMs & us, shouldn´t we stop the energies so they can´t use us to power up the DMs? To be honest, the things I have seen & are mentioning it sounds friggin crazy, but if I hadn´t experienced all these different kinds of mind, psychic, body & energy attacks since I was a child and before my Twin Soul union, during and after, I wouldn´t believe any of it. This is true what you say, if it´s confirmed with other TFs if they try the test & not be sexually active, try weeks, even a month, but to see if they are attacked in someway to be aroused, then the LITDFS are using two sources of light & energies, ours & our DMs. They are stacking up with the names & energy vampires is just another one. They don´t just drain the DFs energies (you can see it around their eyes, like Kira in the dark crystal, another twin soul story), but they drain the DMs too. I actually went to see my DM almost a year after we broke up & I was delayed, distracted & even injured so I wouldn´t go see him. I even ended up hospital, but I laughed, I knew what they were doing & that made me fight harder to go see him & when I did, I was shocked. He was skinny, unhealthy, energy depleted & they didn´t care what they were doing to him. He was happy to see me & we hugged tightly. I was told by my shaman friend, I was delayed so many times to see him because they didn´t want me to see him like that, but now I know the truth. They really all are energy vampires draining the life out of him & they don´t care, as long as they get what they want. Also thank you very much for sharing your comments to everyone. All Twin Souls need to share their stories & bring to light what is being done in the dark. So Thank YOU Twin Soul Warrior!!! When you mention children, I totally agree with you, my DMs LITDFS used her kid as bait, but her kid was being raised by her family in a different country while she lives the single life & comes between Twin Souls. She had all the time in the world to push her way into our life, so this is very true, the LITDFS can use their kids for whatever reason, for status, to gain youth, to attract the DMs & then they want more kids with the DMs they go after. Then kids can be used as a weapon if the DMs wish to leave them or if the DMs are about to leave them, the LITDFS can trap them with pregnancy or even get pregnant by someone else & blame it on the DMs. Notice how the first order (LITDFS collective), there is way more of them then the rebels (Twin Souls)? That´s because it´s the LITDFS mission to breed as much as possible with our DMs. It´s insane & this is the real world we all live in! Is there any wonder positive change is so slow in this world & I would say non existent even at the core, because attacks to children, animals, people, souls, True Loves & planet still friggin happen & so much suffering everywhere. I was thinking about what you said, about the LITDFS being cowards. Notice how Rey went up against snoke with her fiery Twin Soul (jedi) passion, but what did he do? He made sure she couldn´t move at all, he was a coward. What if there was an opportunity for the LITDFS & the DF to spar battle it out between them, would the LITDFS do that or would they be cowards & continue to hide behind attacking with dark magic, through energies & psychic attacks & manipulations & their twisted dark actions against us & our DMs playing their games, dramas & wars? Imagine if our DMs were watching this sparring match battle between the LITDFS & his DF, do the LITDFS not realise the amount of Twin Soul Universe Devine energies the DFs have? Of course DFs would kick their asses off this world, they are no match for Twin Souls at all, because we are awakened Twin Souls and they are still asleep! :) Something happens between Twin Souls when they unite, awaken, ignited and their energies are super charged & powered up, that is why the LITDFS are no match for the DFs, because the DFs would be defending themselves with all their energies of real, positive, Devine, Sacred & Universe Blessed True Love powerful energies. What do the LITDFS have? False energies & negative energies by going after someone not meant for them, so they are not stronger at all, it doesn´t matter if they download our codes, again, it´s to do with energies & they can manipulate the codes all they like, still ain´t the real thing! I found out that´s actually another test (an insight I came across when seeing the Twin Soul couple Rey & Ben/Kylo joining together & defending themselves against the pretorians), a Twin Soul test, if DMs were confused (because of all his mind programmings & manipulations & controls on him) about who was his real Twin Soul, then a sparring match between the LITDFS & his DF should commence! :))) It´s funny, but I´m actually against violence of any kind, but sparring would cut through their b.s. of them behaving like cowards & hiding behind their games, manipulations, dramas & wars on Twin Souls in every friggin life time. It can´t be half assed either, but an actual sparring match, both trained and there is an audience of Twin Souls & LITDFS watching & it´s being filmed & documented for the whole world to see! I know my DM would be incredibly turned on by it, any guy would obviously ;)! It goes both ways too, any DMs could spar battle it out with any LITDFS that pretended to be him to trick his Twin Soul into being with the LITDFS and any Twin Soul Eves would of course be also turned by their Twin Souls fighting for them. Enough of this sneaking around behind our backs playing games, dramas & wars, show yourselves & prove that you are not the snokes being told in star wars & your crimes against life & Twin Souls! The thing the LITDFS need to realise is, it´s to do with the energies, soul energies, True Love energies, pure powerful positive energies, Devine, Sacred & Universe Blessed energies, awakened energies, honest energies, real energies, Twin Soul energies and when you combine all this, the LITDFS don´t stand a friggin chance, because the power of True Love is powerful & what the LITDFS have with our DMs is not even real, it´s not even True Love, they have no idea what real True Love is, so they will lose epically. Spar battling it out will reveal who is the real Twin Soul and if the LITDFS have no wish to spar battle it out, then I rest my case, they are the snokes hiding behind their games, dramas & wars and they are cowards like snoke who didn´t even want to battle with Rey. Think of it like this, the spar battle between the Twin Soul Eve & the serpent in the garden of Eden represents two sides of this world, good & evil, one is for ending wars against all life, against the planet, against the souls & against Twin Souls True Loves, the other is for keeping the wars on life, souls, planet & True Loves Twin Souls ongoing & that dark status quo alive. That´s even more energies attached to the DFs with what they are fighting for, because it´s not all just for the DMs, but they are fighting for the entire friggin world! If the LITDFS who is with my DM has no wish to spar battle with me (I´d prefer using actual light sabres too, obviously the fake kind), then she proves she´s the “snoke” in our story, period and if she loses to me, again proves she´s the “snoke” in our Twin Soul story. She can´t escape it, whatever she chooses, she loses epically! How´s that for someone who is completely confident in my soul of who I am, where I really come from, why I´m here, what I stand for & who my Twin Soul is. The LITDFS are no match when they spend every life time pretending to be someone they are not, pretending to be his “true love”, pretending to be his “twin soul”, pretending to be his ”eve”, pretending to be his “queen”, that´s a lot of energies they have use to pretend to be someone they are not. No wonder they have to drain our energies to top up on the energies they use to pretend & put on a show for the whole world. When I mentioned there are two doors in life, one leads to the real Eden, your Twin Soul and it leads to Peace, Balance in the world & an end to all wars on life, souls, True loves between Twin Souls & the planet and the other door leads to the false Eden, to the serpent and to continue the wars on life, souls, Twin Souls True Loves & the planet, then spar battling it out between the LITDFS and the DF would reveal which is the real door to choose in life! It´s funny, but people love light sabre battling each other, even if it´s just a friendly match, but what if they knew they could actually have a real light sabre battle with someone who attacked them in ways they had no idea, because it was done behind the scenes & behind the curtain. Imagine, Twin Souls battling LITDFS in a sparring match with light sabres, that´s a match I would want to see! So here it is, I´m calling you all out on all your b.s., if you really are his so called “true love” then prove it! Fight for him in a sparring match, because if you didn´t know, every soul has only One True Love, one Twin Soul, there is no many or anyone & you lost soul are not his One True Love or his Twin Soul! No matter how much you pretend & convince him or have him convince you, living a lie is not living life at all!”
“you actually understand the true aspects of this, holy shit.
You are going molecular with this, I love it!
Universal, Spiritual, Cultural, Societal, Worldy, Galactical, Mental, Emotional, Physical aspects of our Era of War.
Much love & respect my Kindred 💪🌙⚡☀🌏🌈💙💛”
  28 July - 15 August, 2018, Twin Soul comments...
“i believe the people in authority hid the truth and told the masses lies for benifiting themselves and now all these lies needs to be exposed for the truth to come out to heal those timelines.”
“Listen my DM's LITDFS used black magic on me, I woke up in the morning feeling like someone kicked me all over my back and belly + feeling sick. I was in bed for 2 and half weeks and now im just recovering”
“I love it great message to the LITDFS... She does shit on his ass and i had to walk away because i was tired of watching him allow it. Smh i stay with a open Heart and try and be understanding. But theres only so much i can handle seeing and watching someone continue to manipulate and hurt the one i love isnt something i can handle. To use kids against someone is wrong.”
“I wonder when my DM LITDFS will stop using the suicide card with him , she couldn't get pregnant and the DM wanted kids so bad…she feels I'm the biggest threat ever….what she goes and does is every time he walks out the door she swallows a bunch of pills. That's why the guy is tied down he doesn't want the guilt. He really needs to ger her checked in for treatment…12 yrs if this crap.”
“There is a clear LITDFS agenda and that is do whatever it takes to keep a Twin Soul Adam or Twin Soul Eve trapped with a LITDFS by any and all means. They are the snokes in our story and they will use any war tactics to keep a Twin Soul chained to them in various ways like “trying” to kill themselves several times, getting pregnant, using dark magic, getting help from his “family” or “friends” to talk him to stay with her and so on. One could use the, “oh but she is innocent and she needs his help, she´s lost.” Yes she is lost, lost out of her mind drunk on power, and no she is not innocent, but she knows exactly what she is doing. These LITDFS have known how to control men since they were children, they got their education from their LITDFS “mothers” when they could see how she controls the Adams chained to them. The LITDFS also has the education she got from being able to see how she could wrap her “father” around her finger and getting away with anything bad she does or she got her education on how to control men from her friends or by other means. Point is, she knows how to control men, manipulate men and have power over men so they would obey her & stay. The DMs that are trapped with any LITDFS that wish to kill themselves so the DMs won´t leave them, the DMs shouldn´t feel guilty at all if something happened, because the LITDFS know exactly what they are doing. It´s not the DMs fault at all, but completely the LITDFS and her games, dramas & wars on Twin Souls. To view it in a different way, if the LITDFS knows about their other selves in the same time line, they might not even care to end their lives, to “sacrifice” themselves to make the DMs feel guilty, because they know they will come back again in his life, be his friend again and be there for him and his guilt and then be with him once again. It´s sick! There is a difference between those who may wish to harm themselves because they want the soul pains to stop, soul pains that is so destructive it makes you want to harm your body, knowing soul pains is more than physical pains thinking their physical pains could distract them and take their minds off the extreme soul pains and then those who have self serving agendas & wish to harm themselves to keep the DMs trapped with them for as long as possible or if they think by sacrificing themselves they are laying the groundwork so the Adams are easy to control in her next life when she comes back to be with him as a friend or if she´s already there in his life as a friend while at the same time when he was with her in a relationship in a different body. Just more cases to investigate further & deeper if LITDFS think like this or even have done this and the answers are found in the souls. What the DMs should do is call the police and the hospital if she threatens, then leave so she has no way to contact him ever again and move cities or countries. She then has no power over him if she doesn´t know where he is, can´t contact him and when he doesn´t know what she is trying to do. When the LITDFS are behaving like terminators & wish to destroy any Twin Soul unions by any and all means, the Twin Souls who are trapped with them need to wake up, need to leave and make sure the LITDFS have no way to contact them at all. The LITDFS collective are awake and they have agendas and they all work together, they don´t care if their own kind are sacrificed to keep their agendas alive and keep Twin Souls from each other, because they know they are living in more than one body in the same time line, so they don´t see it like loss of life which is just sick. So for anyone who believes the grass is greener on the other side, for anyone who believes the tempting serpent in the garden of Twin Soul Eden is more appealing then their own Twin Soul, be careful what you choose, your life that you thought was all “heaven” & “paradise” with the LITDFS you got together with, will reveal hell in various ways, like the LITDFS wanting to kill herself several times so you would stay with her & never leave or trapping you with pregnancy or using dark magic messing with your energies & minds. Men have no idea what LITDFS girls are like, how can they if they fall for it time and time again. Of course, this does not include those men that are awakened Twin Souls and know what is going everywhere and how these girls play their games, dramas and wars, but there are men that are still soul asleep and end up choosing the wrong door to eden that leads to a serpent & hell in his soul, instead of choosing the right door to Eden that leads to his Twin Soul and real heaven & paradise in his soul. This holds true to any Eves that fall for the LITDFS too and their own Adams are awake knowing what is going on. Knowing all this, the truths of the wars on Twin Souls should help the DMs to not think they will get bad karma or anything bad for leaving a LITDFS who wish to kill themselves, because everything is being recorded, what they think, what they do, what they say and their dark intentions & agendas, everything is recorded in the Universe, so no, no bad real karma will to come to you if you leave & she ends up taking her life. If anything bad does happen, it´s LITDFS that are in control over that, but is that how you really wish to live your life? In fear always? How very trapped with snoke, a life of fear. What happens to her, that´s on her, not on you, not ever! If every DM didn´t leave the LITDFS they are with because of the many ways she is trapping him to stay with her, then the wars on all life, children, people, animals, environment, Twin Souls and the planet would never end, then many souls would be begging for that doomsday to happen to finally end this hell nightmare on Earth which the LITDFS are so desperate to keep alive, their sick dark westworld! What are the choices here really? Stay forever trapped in every life time with a LITDFS, being pleasing, obeying and breeding machines, living in hell in their souls and have a front row seat to the world turning into chaos eventually to bring balance back to this sick dark order of waring with Twin Souls? Or standing up for yourself and saying no more, their madness & darkness ends now?”
“Thank you for dealing with the subject nobody else does...including LITDFS spiritual attack. I know exactly what you’re saying and many DF are dealing with this whether or not unbeknownst them. But our society that only believes logic over magic belittles and laughs at not only the principle of TF but also such attacks. Even spiritual communities say “Just focus on positivity” then everything will go away...so many airy fairy teachings out there that don’t sound authentic and even confusing. And yes, I also agree with you from your other video. Sending love and compassion to LITDFS sounds like pure craziness and hypocrisy...not to speak of being downright condescending. I love your contents because you are honest, raw and passionate! I am a big fan! Keep making wonderful videos! (And I am also a big Matrix/Keanu fan too:) A must see for TFs!)”
“I'm feeling numb. I do not feel my DM at this stage nor feel connected to him. I am clueless to what happened to my connection to my DM. I am feeling less and mentally in air. I can't figure out what happened to me. This is absolutely unbelievable. Am I brainwashed or the wiring to my connection got disconnected. Who knows? This is nuts. Although I do feel in peace. I'm just thinking what's next with me being so I don't care about anything and all unemotional.”
“My guides say your right. LITDFS purpose is to stop the divine masculine and feminine from fulfilling purpose. There is a tricky force that wants to destroy the earth. And we the divine are here to heal  multidimensionally all of existence.”
“Parasites. A big toxic fantasy. This aint just some lala-land. and actually, dm hangs in there bcoz of fear. I.o.w. he know where his home at but acts opposite. May the Hand of Justice touch this game and stop this manipulation madness.”
“Hearing any Twin Soul be so awakened that they know what is really going on and the wars on Twin Sous that have been ongoing for thousands of years since the beginning, is just more proof that we are right. Think about it, how many people have questioned this world, like actually thought something feels very wrong like Neo felt his whole life, like I felt since I was a child. When attacks to children, people, animals, environment, True Loves and the planet happen on a daily basis and you see people are trying to help in various ways, but it´s surface level stuff, never actually dealing with the core issues, the reasons behind all of it, and the attacks to life & True Loves continue in every life, but who would deal with the core reasons for all the wars on life & True Loves? Twin Souls of course. When they unite there is no more wars, only peace & balance. Think of the skeksis and the mystics in the dark crystal, when two become One, light & dark, chaos & order, rule breaker & rule follower, what you get is real Peace. When Twin Souls unite, they are not causing soul pains & soul sufferings because they are to meant to be, so they are ending soul attacks to other souls when not being with just anyone and the many. When Twin Souls unite and they only want each other, so they are ending wars on Twin Souls True Loves on others, because they are not going after anyone else taking them off their paths to be with their One Twin Soul. When Twin Souls unite they don´t wish to war with any life, the environment and animals, because they are so in True Love with each other, they feel rest in their souls and peace and heaven in their souls, so they want that for everyone and every life. My DMs words to me exactly were, "When I´m with you I will feel rest in my soul!" and that there is one of the many Twin Soul union heavenly energies between them. 
“Thank You sooo much for this!!! Yes we are living in War Times!!! The Veil is Off!!!”
“We have to be Ready!!! War has already started!!! As we get closer it gets crazier…”
“truth is what it is, & war is war, gotta draw the line somewhere.”
“so fckn tird of this. They keep insulting me for being crazy while my truth keeps reaching the light. pff 
I was saying/warning people about this but people are just so damn primitive. All these LITDFS are trying to immitate me and trying to convince the DM that they're  his hero.
This shit is going way too far. My DM is in greater danger than i thought. and me as well, because the way they hide their evil side is by describing ME as that false evil prophet. 
The Struggle is real!”
“That kind of a person screwed up my twin.”
“That is no different than snoke telling Kylo the rebels are the “enemy” or those unplugged from the matrix are the “enemy” of their system and “enemy” of the agents or in our society, those rebels who are exposing truths everywhere about the LITDFS in governments and what they are doing to life and planet are deemed the “enemy” and everyone is to hate the “enemy”, fear them and absolutely never talk to them or join them, because then they too are the “enemy” and will be targeted by the LITDFS and imprisoned. That makes me laugh, because you can clearly see which ones are the awakened souls, Twin Souls and which ones are asleep souls and LITDFS. Twin Souls don´t use fear to control, they don´t want anyone to blindly follow them or obey them, they want everyone to be their own independent leader, investigator and crowd, question everyone and everything, communicate with both sides of any light and dark, see the grey, see the truth, don´t assume, investigate yourself both sides as much as want and as long as you want till you are completely 100% sure which side is telling truth and which is telling lies and manipulations to further control you and keep you hating and fearing your brothers and sisters of the Universe.”
“me too my twin is still with his LITDFS abusive wife”
“Some twins have been through so much pain and hadn't healed enough before meeting to keep from striking out in fear with the intensity of the connection. They are us if we had been through what they have, so how could we not be understanding and kind with them if we have learned to treat ourselves with compassion? Perfect love casts out all fear. When we are our own loving support, we can face anything outside of ourselves. Lovely reading for our brothers in this fight!”
“If the dm think this way? I think he shouldn’t be in a relationship. Let him be alone. Life is uncertain to think this way. True love ❤️ don’t think this feeling of insecurity. Love ❤️ your reading. Hope dm can change their mind that to be in love is a beautiful thing and can conquer all.”
“I’m 💯 with you when will they get over their fears insecurities and feelings of lack and honestly discuss their feelings and we can go from there. I’m in communication with my dm and he knows how I stand…”
“Agree and again these are all speaking of the inner fears/emotional fears DM are dealing with so that's why everything was a bit more extreme version of doubt/fear going on” 
“This resonates so much with me and my DM. He’s currently in hermit mode and doing a lot of reflection. Our communication has been strained. I know he has been questioning what he could offer me. He has been so hurt in the past and has feelings of worthlessness. He’s afraid of ruining what we have. I’m hoping that soon he can shed these fears and insecurities so that we may come into union.”
“Thank you. They will never know if they don't try. May not be easy but nothing worth having is. Sounds about right for my DM but I will never know unless he speaks. ❤️🙏❤️”
“True, as these are fears they are things for DM to overcome and conquer! And they'll come to the conclusion of action as these different fears are faced xx”
“I am the divine masculine you spoke of in this video. Everything you described fits me almost perfectly.”
“Part of the LITDFS wars on Twin Souls is to attack the Devine Masculine & Devine Feminine energies and absolutely tear down the manhood of the DMs, this way they are easily controlled, they fear, they have insecurities, they stay and obey the LITDFS. I also feel, if the LITDFS are with our DMs, their inner child could be attacked too, that will also bring out fears and insecurities. Just like snoke did with Kylo/Ben. The DMs have a lot going against them to be able to be in their true power of taking no more crap from anyone anymore. A Devine Masculine that isen´t controlled by anyone, isen´t manipulated by anyone, isen´t played with by anyone and sees all their games and wars. A Devine Masculine that is so strong, so in his power, it will be everyone else that will want to listen to him and be lead by him. A Devine Masculine that has no parents, he is his own boss & leader, so again he is not controlled by anyone, he is his own parent and the Universe is his parents. Devine Feminines should empower their Devine Masculines, help them be free to be in those energies so they can be in control over their own lives. If anyone says they want their DMs to be “perfect” before unions or reunions, first off that´s like treating them like humanoids, all put together in working order before they are accepted which is very dark, secondly that´s behaving like the LITDFS, which also treat our DMs like humanoids to be in perfect order, especially if they target how he looks, or dresses, not having enough money, not being accomplished enough, not having enough possessions or better living places and whatever else, thirdly True Love, real Love between Twin Souls are not about what you have or don´t have, or what´s wrong or not wrong with you, it´s all about the Soul True Love connection you both share and with whatever damages you both have from the LITDFS before unions, when in unions and after, you both heal it with the Soul True Love you share between you. Cazuki & I could be living in beach hut on some tropical beach somewhere being poor, being damaged, but none of that would stop us being together, when we are together loving & healing each other with our Souls & True Love. Besides, there are always ways to heal, accomplish and succeed without sacrificing who are we to our very souls & who we love deep in every particle of our souls.” 
“he got into a  dilemma between me n him. Tryin to figure out which one is the devil pff. I oncehad a vision i saw that parasite explaining my twin that they are lightworkers twinflames. So actually DM didnt think he was going against the union he thought the he was going into union... with the wrong person. Ofcourse that doesnt work, the universe never allowed so hes in a mess and blames me. Abd that was that psychos plan. The devil inside that psycho  is not after me. Hes after my twin.” 
“I have felt the shift in the coming conflict. I'm feeling it! I want my place I am meant to be. I want those who seem like me to get out of my place! Agitation, hostility, tired of the BS.” 
“I have read that there is such a thing as psychic vampires who will try to syphon off your energy if you give them access to your personal space.  There have been some strange encounters in my past as well.    All I can tell you is that I have been pursued aggressively by certain people from time to time even before I knew I was a twin flame.  It was usually accompanied by a sick, creepy feeling like a warning coming from within.  It's almost like I practically glowed like a thousand watt light bulb to these people.”  
“They are tryin to shut down many people who are guiding twin flames, a friend of mine saw all the facebook pages closed plus her youtube channels. My advice is for you to create other youtube channelsi in case they try to go for this one”
“just tried to listen to him. My patience ran thin after 4 minutes.  He hasn't a clue.    Your are so right as usual Bernie.  Load of bs. I won't even buy into it.  There sure is some bad LITDFS stuff going on.   Having to fight my own corner again. “
“She called me clinically insane etc .... lol . She is the only insane one around betting on denying twin flames . Told her she would never have him .”
“Tell me about it I'm the same way..I can out wait any one for Him only. I'm a Capricorn. He is a Taurus and he's stubborn too. She trapped him with a baby and now it's like she wants to use to baby to keep him around..frustrate him and tell him she wants what he does and has with me... Shit is crazy. She actually said " I wanted a baby by him because of how he takes care of you and y'all's baby"....(I was speechless) Shorty this took Years to build ...you are not Ever going to be in My shoes Nor will that Child. ThatChild was a mistake. I told her that. Then I ended it with SHAWTY I'm not goin nowhere...Ten Toes Down and two fist Up.”
“Love and light , ya right ! Not sending love and light to ppl like LITDFS ! Dm r blind at the moment but we r df, we hv 3rd eye to see thru all their bs , fake and lies these LITDFS tell our dms abt us just to keep us apart...well, u can go on trying to duplicate us but u cant duplicate “CLASS" 
“These LITDFS want us to walk away. My soul is with him and his soul is with me. I can’t leave. She has to be spiritual and she feels my comfort for him while their in bed. I have been getting attacked by these LITDFS almost every day for three weeks or longer.The spirit showed me these women. It is a war. I am all in. I am very powerful at this point in my life. I got there attention spiritually and he is with me spiritually. When I call spiritually he comes.”
“I gotta question. Is it possible that a person who is claiming to be a healer or someone who can read energies can tell you false info on purpose because they either sense or see something in this connection that they feel you don't deserve to know? Like withhold what your twin is really feeling out of jealousy so they will just tell you any ol thing?”
“Yes they can and do.  For various reasons.  Don’t follow BLINDLY.  The one your referring to IN SPECIFIC is definitely doing that and then some.  She uses ppl for HER BENEFIT ONLY.”
“Hi loves ... just got a reply in my inbox from my Tfs (Twin Flame) LITDFS threatening to kill me once more if I contact him and calling me all sorts of names …………”
“Omg 😱 sorry to hear tht u hv to go thru this ! Im 120% sure she is nowhere near his df ! Twin souls dont behave like that ! She is LITDFS ! And a very bad one ! Pls dear, u shud report this...tc of urself first...sending love ❤️”
“This is true, true Twin Souls don´t behave negatively at all to anyone, they are for a united world and they are for saving the world together and they are for awakening the world. Like they don´t feed on energies of others, they don´t love tearing people down, like a DM who left his DF for a LITDFS, only then to both of them enjoy his DFs sufferings and pains, so they could be in your face about it or know mind telepathically his DF is in pain and being tortured like when she feels his soul pains and being soul raped by the LITDSF who is with her DM, only then to them like in their lost dark minds they will enjoy it more and be together more and “prove” they are meant to be. If any lost DM is behaving negatively in anyway when being with a LITDFS, like he could be going back to eating aliens, he could hate certain groups of people, he could enjoy sufferings of people, he could feed on energies, he could enjoy causing his Twin Soul pains and whatever else his lost in the dark mind could do, then he is acting like a LITDFS. Point is, when getting together with any LITDFS, negative energies are always with them, around them and beyond them and they will lose energies being together & their negative actions and words, so they will find enjoyment and find ways to feed on energies like loving to tear down & feed on his Twin Souls energies, one way is to also have children to feed on energies which the LITDFS are known to do and fast.” 
“I love your messages Bernie, you are probably the only one in the Twin Flame community who has the guts to speak up the truth. And I need to share something: I was led astray from another TF teachers telling me that the LITDFS sucking the love and light of my union were LITDFS SOULmates and I kept wondering why my heart energy work had not affected these beings at all. It is not possible, because the LITDFS are soulless low vibrational entities with no divine intelligence, so they do not have the capacity to resonate with anything but fear, control and manipulation. They have not the ability to create,  they can just manipulate and extract the energy from living souls because this is the only way they can be sustained in this reality. A parasite can hide and suck only until exposed. When exposed, they seek the exit because they feel that the exposure and disclosure means the end of their parasitic existence. After realizing this, realized that us, divine source beings, we do have the power and the responsibility to claim back everything that had been stolen from us by these dark entities. All fragmented aspect of our and our Beloved`s souls (which is being done by primitive 3D sex because something else is not possible with them), all extracted energy across all time, space, dimensions and realities. We must claim it back and we must do it loudly, in the name and authority of our I am source self presence and the I am source self presence our our beloved twin flame of behalf of all living souls. I did that yesterday and, believe or not, I never felt that powerful like now. Everything must return to its rightful owner and we must claim it. I would love if you share this with your/our tribe so we can unify our shared love hologram and retrieve our fragmented souls and the source energy stolen from us for ever. Love, Luba”
“They hate woman because of how powerful we can be are undying faith of our men. I have noticed my twins x LITDFS has been stocking the hell out of my social media’s lately. Even some of my friends who want me to stop loving my twin. But I already know their not twins and they don’t understand the connection what so ever. Listening to their advice is pointless girl, MY SOUL RECOGNIZES MY TWIN AND I WILL NEVER EXPERIENCE SOMETHING AS POWERFUL EVER AGAIN.”
“I know their negative actions for life times would suggest they are soulless and have no souls, but there are levels we need to consider here. They are using their corrupted lost minds not using their souls. They are living their mind “truths”, but not living their soul truths. They are raised by LITDFS families to be LITDFS. If they are born from a Twin Soul and a LITDFS then negative energies, codes, programs, downloads and unbalanced upbringings, teachings and so on keep them being LITDFS. They are indoctrinated to be LITDFS. They are surrounded by LITDFS their whole lives making sure they stay LITDFS. They are made sure to stay asleep in their souls and never wake up to be their soul true selves. I had a front row seat to see the whole thing from my side and Cazuki´s side. When they are taught and have no real balanced upbringings and feel like they can get away with anything and get anyone, they remain LITDFS who break up Twin Soul unions. When they are not raised by Twin Souls, they will then attack Twin Soul unions and be with a Twin Soul not meant for them or have a Twin Soul be with someone else, because they have no idea what real True Love is all about, how can they, they were raised by a LITDFS and a Twin Soul not meant for her or him. When they are taught to live negative energy life styles, they will become LITDFS energy vampires and feed on energies of others. Do you really think they would be like that if raised by Twin Souls? Not a chance! When they are taught to be with anyone and the many, they remain LITDFS and don´t wake up in their souls. When any lost Twin Souls fall for any LITDFS, the LITDFS remain being LITDFS, because in their lost dark minds, why change when they always get what they want. There are always levels to see, nothing is black and white, but if you have ever come across a LITDFS who has expressed soul pains externally in anyway from something you know only souls would react to without them knowing you are investigating it, that should tell you, they have souls. What we are dealing with is mind problems to such a degree that, this whole world is shaped from self serving lost minds of the LITDFS. It´s not a soul world, it´s a mind & body & energy world, meaning egos, mind wars, energy wars, feeding on energies, pleasings minds, pleasing bodies, body wars, mind games, mind dramas, mind control, mind manipulation, mind programmings, mind attacks and so on. It´s never one thing, it´s always layered. If we break it all down, all the reasons why the LITDFS remain LITDFS and how they become LITDFS, you see a picture being painted of how they become lost in minds to begin with and why they attack Twin Souls. Twin Soul children are empowered to become fearless, positive, balanced, free, in control over their lives, rebels, they are their own investigator, parent, teacher, student, mentor, boss and leader. No one controls them, but they are free and they know what real True Love is, they will only want The One. They will not have fear of being alone, because they will know, that is an illusion. They will not wish to be with anyone or the many, only their One True Love. They will not come between couples, they will not entrap guys with pregnancy or anything else. They give freedom, they speak truth, are honest and they want to bring real positive changes in the world to the core, ending all kinds of wars. They will not use Twin Souls for their self serving agendas and will not go to war on Twin Souls. They will not live negative energy life styles. Basically anything negatives that create LITDFS and keep this world being LITDFS, is no longer a reality when children are born from a Twin Soul union stargate. As for soul mates, the only soul mate I know of is a Twin Soul who is your mate and is a soul, the very soul you are meant to be with. Anyone else, their names to me will remain always being a LITDFS or a T.S.T.T., but even your T.S.T.T. can be used by LITDFS to prevent your Twin Souls unions which I have noticed and it´s crazy to even think, that your other selves or your Twin Soul other selves can be used as a weapons to be used against your Twin Soul union to keep you both apart, but they will never be soul compatible with you, so how can they be a soul mate? This is why we need to wake up our other selves too in our time lines. Imagine if you have thousands if not hundreds of thousands of your other selves in the same time, you have yourself a Rebel Team once they soul awaken to the truths and imagine what positives you could all accomplish together with your other selves working all together! The LITDFS and their other selves are working together to keep their dark hellish westworld playground making sure they always end up with our Adams and keep them imprisoned for life, while the Twin Souls and their other selves would be working to create real positive changes in the world and to free their Adams from the LITDFS! There´s the difference, LITDFS are souls staying asleep, for mind, body, energy and soul prisons, lies, manipulations, control and power, while the Twin Souls are for soul awakening, freedom, truth, transparency, equality and empowerment of souls being in their own soul power.”  
“the twinflame collective is affected by absurd delusional theories which are traps like believing in being able to create another twin etc.. pff.  And you also have these b!tches who are experiencing a deep soulmate connection and then they move on to another, and start sharing stories like "Yes, you can manifest a different twin, i'm a living proof of it" -- then they start saying things like "i manifested a better twin" -- no b-ich, you just got to another soulmate and have no clue what a twinflame journey is. They think its all about your individual ascension and noting more , and powers and rasing their ego and learning how they can use their ego to play "the empress", they think thats the goal. NO , the goal is UNION, and NO, Union does not mean go in Union with yourself. You we're CHOSEN to be your twins HEALER and he is your healer. And only twins can TRULY heal eachother. He's got confusions, incorrect 'half' theories, wrong theories, he doesnt understand it all well , he made a salad of it and perceives half truth and half mustard. SO, is he whole? No, he's scattered, all the puzzles of the picture are misplaced, its a mess. But wait, God did NOT make a mistake and betray him, ... He created ME. WHO GETS HIM IN UNION? only ME. because only i know the picture of the puzzle. And it's not just about spirituality etc...Im also tired of those bs when they say things like "i dont need him, im already whole etc.etc.. " they dont get the point at all. Its because they ARENT twinflames! They try to COPY and use the twinflame knowledge TO GAIN POWERS!! That's what they're after. OOOOOh I'm so powerfull, yes! i dont neeed my twin no more, now i can be the empress yeey, ill just be thankful towards my twin for this profound knowledge=A TRUE TWIN DOES NOT REACT LIKE THAT IMO. .... And we are not learning knowledge, we raise our wisdom. They will never understand. We are from the higher dimensions, we ASCEND, they think they ascend but they cant, they are from 3D, theres no going up, theres only left and right,, WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?? IT MEANS THEY ARE NOT EVOLVING INTO LIGHTWORKERS OR ANY LIGHT BEINGS….”
“I read this and that tells me, when the LITDFS talk about how they can “manifest” another twin, they are basically saying they are going after the same Adams who are living in difference bodies, different lives and then taking them off of their Twin Soul paths with their own Twin Souls. These LITDFS are Twin Soul hijackers and can be with many Twin Soul Adams in one life time. We should really stop with the word soul mate, there is only Twin Souls or LITDFS who are asleep in their souls, but when awakened they become Twin Souls on a Twin Soul mission. Like energy vampires, they go from one Adam to the next, feeding energies, knowledge, downloads, but also gaining negative energies, negative codes and negative downloads. They get their ego fed, their desires fed, their dark fantasies fed, they live the life of luxury, money, status, more kids, sex, being taken care of & treated like a queen by the Adams which is sick, especially knowing who they are, what they´ve done for life times against the Twin Souls and coming between unions for life times keeping this world dark. The LITDFS have no idea what Twin Souls really are, they are not awake in their souls, so they have no access to their soul wisdom, soul truths and soul intelligence. They can play many parts, but truths will come out eventually, Universe hears and sees all, everything is recorded.”
“a LITDFS is a LITDFS.....until she or he finds her own twin flame..cannot turn from a LITDFS to a twin flame for the same individual”
“DFs stand strong, energies keep coming in to support us, the dark is just desperate at this point and it is only going to get worse for them, know you are protected! Know YOUR power, Ladies!!”
“Lol.   Those LITDFS have nothing....done.....Well ignore the un informed people. The heart knows what it knows. WE ARE system busters.......remember that ....every 3D system to be BUSTED.....or more correctly.....Fixed!!,!  Let spirit guide you and give you words to speak in boldness. That’s right we have lived in 5 D for along time. Yes, FEAR is always the agenda because it drops our vibration.”
“Thank You for this!! Knowledge Is Power!!! Twins are on top of the game!!💯👊🔥🔥🌎🌑☺”
“My dm came in telepathically a few days ago told me he wasn’t with his LITDFS anymore.. then noticed today he’s still liking her rbf selfies..it didn’t trigger me.. and yeah it feels like a test.. I’m not going anywhere.. spiritual eyes! 3ds an illusion.”
“Spiritual eyes, love that!”
“You are right on with this Bernie, the battle between the dark and the light is still going on. The light is winning. , don’t give the devils any food to feed off of which is fear, hate, lust, …….”
“There are some different versions of this particular quote, but it's one of my favorites.  "Fate whispers to the warrior, 'You can not withstand the storm.'  The warrior whispers back, 'I am the storm."  Over the course of a lifetime, I have had some really crazy evil things thrown at me and now I'm looking back on how some of it didn't make any earthly sense at the time.  Why was I targeted with such vehemence by particular individuals?   Did they somehow know something even before I knew anything and were trying to throw me off course?  I may never know for certain about those individuals in the distant past going all the way back to my childhood.   It doesn't matter now.  Their motivations are irrelevant.  They failed in whatever negative thing they were trying to do.   I learned from all those experiences and I am stronger for it.”
“Love this quote so much, but we are not just the storm, we are the chaos and our DMs are the order and the world has had too much of order, too much of war machines order creating different systems by the LITDFS against all life, so let´s bring on the chaos, because out of chaos comes freedom for all! For example, a prison keeps many rebels locked away, hidden, out of sight and out of mind. These rebels were the truth seekers, the positive change makers and freedom fighters for all life, but then they got targeted and imprisoned by the LITDFS. What could the Universe do to step in if know one knew about them? She could literally send a storm their way tearing down that prison breaking the rebels out of prison and they gain their freedom.”
“U nailed it EXACTLY to what’s going on w my dm.  The dark is at him HARD!!!!!!.  Both energetically and friends/family.”
“This reading was perfect. I knew family and friends could be LITDFS”
“♥️Wow! I told my DM like 4 months ago that his best friend and his ex wife are toxic for him and they have bad intentions..MASK...I TOLD HIM TO TAKE OFF THE MASK...then he started to run...see he makes a lot of money and they all use him for money and like to encouraged his addictions so that they can manipulate him!! I was the only person that's was teaching him about growth ...sobriety ...new life new energy...he's been in thsi devil cysle for 12 years! Especially with that ex-wife...I tried to lead him to the light and he sat in front of me and cried and said can u teach me how to.love ...teach me how to live a new life♥️....so I tried but the darknes began to consume him and started to affect me spiritually......dark sex...sexual demons...alcoholism..dark energy....I had to walk away and surrender him to the lessons and journey....the darkest energy on him is his EX WIFE...BDSM...look that up..she has had him traped psychologically for 12 years even though she is REMARRIED to another man...it's a sexual soul tie!”
“Waking up to our real world, the wars on Twin Souls and how controlled our world is in many ways by the LITDFS, how can anyone willingly leave their DMs so he falls to be with any LITDFS? That´s like snokes coming for him and we are to hand them over by giving up because it was too difficult, the path too hard, life was too challenging, too many battles, too many wars and you wanted the easy way out? Any Twin Soul who willing knew they would be handing the DMs over to the LITDFS and knew what his life would be like, because any one of you believe he has “lessons” to learn, makes you just as responsible for his soul tortures as the LITDFS are. Twin Souls love each other no matter what wars are on them, they stay together through it all and find ways to battle every war on them, never giving up and never giving in, because their souls know what is at stake (their souls are at stake, but so is their minds, bodies and energies!), even if their minds have no idea if they remain asleep again to the truths of this world, but both souls know who he or she will end up with if they break union, they know their souls will suffer again, so they fight to battle each war & stay united, because wars and battles of the minds, bodies and energies against them is hell, but far worse hells are in the souls if any Twin Soul breaks union to be with any LITDFS. Think of Anakin, his soul hells were far worse being with a LITDFS palpetine obviously than the wars he battled between the light and the dark and to make matters worse, Padme couldn´t even save him, because she dies of a broken heart and also probably had her energies drained by palpatine to keep Anakin alive, palpatines weapon, his energy source, his everything. So Anakin remained trapped with a LITDFS for over a decade until his Twin Soul children saved him. One might say, something could be punishing him for that long for being the reasons Padme, the Devine Feminine died, when she was meant to help bring Balance & Peace in her job, bring about massive positive change with Anakin her True Love and raise Twin Soul children. I don´t see it as he was being punished, but more like, Padme died, she can´t save him if she is dead and out of all the souls in the Universe, Padme would be the one to always reach out to her True Love, even if the rebels and the remaining Jedi went into hiding, but Padme would of not given up or gone into hiding, she would keep finding ways to shine light his way to his soul truth and wake him up again. Twin Souls, they dive in the depths of hell, armed with their rebel light souls and won´t leave until they rescue their Twin Souls, their soul husbands or soul wives!”  
“Wow you really described where I am at so perfectly!! Thank you 😊🙏💜 and this really resonates with dm as he is in hermit mode & trying to work a way out of his toxic LITDFS marriage to come home as he has told me that is all he wants. Namaste”
“It's funny how Spirit has been bringing the lyrics, "...and I'm right on the edge of givin in to you... Baby it's a long way down".  I mean all... day... long.  And I know you know this; I'm not trying to feel or think a certain way; this song came back to me in the past couple of days and it's like the roles have switched - they used to be my lyrics I'd sing to her but if feels like she's singing them to me now.  xoxox  And it's good to have you in this time zone too  :)”
“I had a dream about my twin last night and woke up with the lyrics “wherever you are, I’ll be with you” in my head this morning. I couldn’t remember much of the lyrics just the tune. So I looked it up. It’s by cheap trick. The lyrics totally resonated but I almost died when I read the title of the song.....The Flame. I laughed. The synchronicities keep getting better and better. I love that you are receiving messages this way as well!!”
“OMG. I just wrote a rant about all the charlatans out there with regards to my thoughts on "love and light for the LITDFS" and "do the work .....or no union for you". I was just reading it over getting ready to post it and poof...the page just skipped to next video and it was deleted. WTF. If that is not proof I don't know what is? Let me just say if any of these "fakes" with the sugary voices tell you you need to "do the work"....and you feel depressed and inadequate after watching one of their videos...and like you will never be perfect enough for union...it seems clear to me that that are from the "dark side" and they WANT you to feel this way! I've deleted them ALL. No joke. Think about it! It all makes sense...there are hoards of them...and you all know it! HIT THE UNSUBSCRIBE BUTTON! Trust me, you will feel so much better....Love to all the true TFs out there. The fakes no longer have me fooled….”
“I had a dream awhile back that he came to me told me he loves me and is taking me home! Then I saw   a man hiding taking pictures of us we turn around  the guy said I caught you! Then my man tells the guy so I dont care she coming home with me now! We started to walk up to a house with all the lights on inside! Crazy your saying this now!”
“Hey Mystic! If you are really awakened in your mind, then you will know about the wars on Twin Souls in every life time, you will know there is even an energy war where the LITDFS (lost in the dark family soul) feed off of Twin Souls (think about the story of the dark crystal), children and even pets. Seen it myself and why they do it? It´s because they are losing energies all the time, they lose energies when they do dark deeds against life & True Loves, when they are themselves attacked by other LITDFS towards them, when they are not being true to their soul selves, when they come between True Loves Twin Souls, when their souls attack other souls being with them in relationships when Twin Souls have no wish to be with them. Several times thoughts of suicide from my DM is sent to me out of nowhere and I feel his sad energy feelings behind my eyes from him when he´s intimate with the LITDFS he is with. I document everything as every Twin Soul should if their DM or DF is with a LITDFS. The wars on souls are real, the wars on Twin Souls is real. The LITDFS lose energies with whatever negatives they put on their bodies, with whatever they feed their bodies that´s negative, with the games, dramas and wars they play they lose energies, when they are with just anyone and the many they lose energies, when they pretend to be someone they are not like pretending to be a Twin Soul with our DMs, that´s a lot of energies they lose, so what do they do when they lose energies? They feed on others that shine bright like sunshines and they absolutely feed on our DMs, but also us through our DMs. One of the reasons they want kids fast with our DMs, is because kids provide youth energies for them to feed on which helps them stay younger, but also provides energies when they lose energies all the time. I have seen a lot in my years of the various attacks against life, but soul wars & energy wars is what I was awakened to again just a few years ago & then looking back at my life and seeing it all along with what the LITDFS were doing, I just wasen´t awake to it. Truths about our world are being revealed in stories, even the matrix, we are nothing more than batteries to them. I know there is a lot of manipulation about Twin Souls in the community and I do write about that too and break it all down. LITDFS can be anyone and anywhere. I have also had trouble with various attacks via technology on two of my computers and I have been having trouble getting onto my site several times for weeks and when I do finally get on different computers, when I write the site can shut down and then it deletes what I write (have no trouble getting on any other sites), but even I write about how they can´t stop me either, I will just find other ways to get the messages out there. I´m stubborn, rebellious and I just keep getting back up. Everyone should question everyone and everything, even what I write about, because I want people to investigate themselves and see for themselves. The difference between the LITDFS collective and awakened Twin Souls is that we have nothing to hide, they do and they hide a lot with their negative intentions, wars and agendas. One may ask why I don´t keep an open channel and show myself, I don´t trust anyone and I question everyone and from what I see and hear in the Twin Soul community, I am right to not be so open about myself, not yet anyway. I´m the person that would be first in line to be truth tested in various ways to verify what I know, what my DM & I have been through together and apart, but would they be truth tested about these wars and what they know? From my experience with them they refuse and when they refuse, they are hiding several or many things they don´t want us to know. Check out reverse speech, souls can´t lie, but the minds can lie. The future truth testing technology is when our souls tell the actual truths if our minds lie. I want to see a world where everyone is truth tested if they are at war in someway against life and Twin Souls. Since LITDFS are everywhere and can be anyone, make sure if you do use reverse speech investigators, that they too are tested in various ways like using your seeing abilities or having several seers look into them making sure they are not manipulating the truths coming from the souls. Even use small portable truth telling tech that´s not reverse speech related, because again, LITDFS can be anyone and anywhere. Trust no one, question everyone and always need more proof that they can be trusted. So for anyone out there that is spreading negative messages against Twin Souls and have self serving agendas and want the wars on Twin Souls to stay alive & if you come across a channel that makes you question them and you can see they have really no idea about Twin Souls really, then ask if they would be willing to be soul truth tested and truth tested in other various ways to see if they are a part of the LITDFS agendas & wars against Twin Souls & life on the planet or are they just misinformed and misguided? I want to see a future where Twin Souls can soul truth test anyone, then the LITDFS can´t hide anymore with their manipulations, lies, deceptions, games, dramas, wars and self serving agendas. Anyone who says Twin Souls mean nothing or that we don´t need to be with our Twin Souls, but we can be with anyone and the many, that´s part of the LITDFS agendas and keeping the wars and unbalance on this planet alive always. True Balance is found when two halves of a soul become One! Light & dark united, rule breaker & rule follower united, chaos & order united, Twin Souls united! We are only ever soul matched 100% to be with our Twin Soul, no one else. The Devine, the Sacred, the Balance & Universe Blessed is that of Twin Soul Unions. As for the whole not everyone is a Twin Soul, I personally don´t want to believe that, if they have a soul, then I believe they are also two halves of a whole with their own Twin Soul. What I feel is that the lost souls, the asleep souls, the darkened and programmed minds of souls are just that, they are lost, asleep and their minds darkened in someway. Think of it like this, our DMs that are not being true to their soul selves are acting like the LITDFS if you really think about it. They are lost, asleep and being messed with on their minds & energies in various negative ways and many may even view their Twin Soul as the “enemy” (that´s also part of the LITDFS agendas, have Twin Souls doubt each other, not trust each other, be at war with each other to keep them always apart), just like Anakin did with Padme or Kylo/Ben did with Rey, they are enemies of each other. As long as the LITDFS collective keep Twin Souls being in relationships with LITDFS and succeed in keeping Twin Souls being “enemies” of each other, well one of them is anyway, while the other sees what is going on everywhere, then so many different kinds of wars against life will continue. If Anakin didn´t side with the empire, but stayed true to who he really was in his soul, wouldn´t the wars against life be over? What about if Kylo/Ben teamed up with Rey & he didn´t side with the first order, wouldn´t the wars on life be over if Twin Souls finally united and showed everyone what real Balance & Peace looks like? There will never be real Balance or real Peace when the LITDFS keep wars on Twin Soul and life alive, when souls are attacking souls and energies are being drained to feed those who are losing energies for their dark energy life styles against life and Twin Souls. Part of the Twin Soul mission is to inspire others to be with their One True Love, the other half of them, their own Twin Soul right? So how can that happen if there are Twin Souls out there saying not everyone is a Twin Soul? What would the outcome be then if anyone on the planet is saying not everyone is a Twin Soul or not everyone is lucky to be with their own Twin Soul? Wars against Twin Souls would never end and there would always be a battle with those wanting that True Love between Twin Souls since they believe or are told by people they will never have it, so they target Twin Souls and manipulate & control to get that "true love". One persons LITDFS is another persons Twin Soul and I believe everyone has a Twin Soul, but that is what I believe and feel.”
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