#this is a dream job and the fact that im interviewing for it.... an interview with [REDACTED!!!] im just

[clemkesh]

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[jocelynscrazyideas]

Just friends? pt. 2 | Matt Rempe x Reader

pt. 1

Summary: making your way up to your dream job was difficult, but leaving it may be harder that ever.

Warnings: language, small portion of smut, eating, THE NOTEBOOK IS MENTIONED😛🥲

A:N- it’s really short but yuhh

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It’s been a good month of dating my bestfriend. I’m just scared that if anything goes wrong, that we wouldn’t be the same.

I’ve understood that when or I should say, If we breakup, we of course won’t be friends, but I wnat to talk. Keep up in life. Support him.

Matt has made it clear that it’s me, and only me. I know, dating an nhl player will be hard, because there is always someone out there thinking your boyfriend is cute.

“Dumper?” Matt calls out for me. I’m getting ready in his bathroom. Today, it’s the first day in off season. The rangers had won the third round of playoffs, but we didn’t make it to the end.

You might be wondering why Matt calls me dumper. It’s a long story, taht im glad to walks down with you.

~memory~

“Matt!” I groan as he thrusts into one last time. He releases into me, I feel I’m going to cum as well.

“You cum dump.” Matt laughs out. He cleans us up, and stands up to throw the tissues he used to clean up away. “I do not!” I yell out, I know I do. It makes sense to me.

Why would I cum in like five different times if I feel I’m going to release at one time?

Matt comes down onto me and kissed me from my knee up. He hits my neck and sucks down until I feel nothing.

“Nice hickey.” He chirps at me.

“Oh yeah? I wonder wher i hit it from.” I sarcastically joke with him. He gets hurts from that and lays down on my bare chest.

His brown hair all over.

It’s dark. Bedroom lights are off and the only thing lighting the house is the stars.

He cuddles into me for a few hours while I talk and yap about school, and when I should get my job.

~

“Where are you?” Matt yells for me.

“Bathroom! I have the interview today!” I let Matt know that I’m fully booked, and don’t have time for him.

“Well can we watch a movie tonight? Play some uno!” Matt asked me as he walks into the bathroom. His warm chest connects like a puzzle into my back. He leans into me and kissed my neck. He lays his fluffy hair into the crook of my neck. “I love you.” Matt whispers into my ear.

“Three months.” I say. I pushed him off my shoulder and cussed at him.

“Hey shithwsd?” I laugh at him.

“Hm?” Matt moans in his sleepy voice.

“Go shower. I’ll drive you down to the office.” I follow up. Matt has locker clean out today, many last minute interviews and press conferences.

~

I dropped Matt off at the arena and sat in my car.

Maybe he’s the one for me. The one guy that I won’t mess up with.

~

“Hey baby! How was the interview?” Matt asked me as I walk into the kitchen. Matt is cooking us some dinner and I set my purse down. I fall on the couch.

“That bad?” Matt questioned.

I felt my heart drop. How do I tell him, “No it was good… it’s the fact they don’t have an official employment spot for me here in New York. If I took the job, I would have to move to Wyoming.”

Yeah, no.

“Um, it went pretty well.” I replied, my high pitched cracky voice squeaked out. I think Matt knows I’m stressed. I’m sure I have actual sweat droplets swimming down in my face.

“You’re lying.” Matt looked down at me. He standing above me form the couch.

“No im not.” I laugh out. I stand up and dance with him back to the kitchen.

“Oh my love. My little baby.” I say as I rest my head into his chest. He smiles down at me and he picks me up.

“Give me.” Matt gestured to my foot as he set me down on the counter top.

I eye the stove that he left on. “What are we eating tonight?” I ask him. I try to distract myself.

God. Maybe I shouldn’t take the job.

He looks back at the side over his shoulder, and continues to take off my left shoe. My right foot is hanging and I kick him.

“Oh, uh I made some eggs, just so we could eat some toast and eggs. I was lazy, sorry.” Matt explained. He turned red in embarrassment.

“No. It’s perfect.” It’s the little things. I have to take things into consideration, not just the fact he does big gestures. He does this small thing that matters to me. Like, cooking dinner every night. Or just listening to me talk. Even if he doesn’t care, or deep down isn’t listening, he still looks like he cares.

Matt smirked and he dropped my left foot, only to un tie my right shoe. Once he finished he picked me up and kissed me. “What movie?” Matt asked me as I sit in our couch.

He plates everything into a large bowl and hands me a few slices of apples. “You’d be such a great dad.” I muttered.

“I’m sorry. A father?!” Matt exclaimed. He looks me up and down, smirking. Teeth out. His eyes look at me, I feel him leaving closer.

He grips onto a blanket as he sits down on the couch right beside me.

He turns the TV on to play the notebook.

~

I cried at the en of the movie. Matt holds me as he sleeps in my arms. He snores and he shakes as I weep and cry.

Matt looks up as his head rested on my breasts. “Are you okay? Why are you crying?” Matt mumbled. He rubs his eyes once he kissed my left boob.

He gets up and puts out dishes away. He cleans up the couch, and picks me up. “The movie that sad?” Matt asked me. I understand this season was hard so I let him sleep during the movie.

“You’ve never watched The Notevook?” I inferred, I look outside our window and Matt sets me down.

“I have, but I always fall asleep.” He looks at me and he pulls his clothes off. He’s left in his under set and I do the same. I unclamp my bra and lay in bed. I slide my panties off and lick them to the floor.

Matt fliers with me and he tightens his arms around me.

“I love you.” Matt reminded me, for the hundredth time.

“I have to move, if I take the job.” I let out.

Matt loosens his grip and he breaths in. “So take the job.” He said.

“It’s hard, but we can always fly out together.” Matt implied. We lay in bed. Not thinking about anything, well other than the fact I could leave.

Right when life gets good.

[cherrysoojins]

८ bewitched , ateez laufey songs .

✉️. four of eight, kang yeosang. i wish you love.

life pulls everyone in different directions. you and yeosang might’ve been made for each other, but your life paths just didn’t allow you to be together.

&ㅤㅤ 📦 ♡ warnings. sfw, fluff / angsty ( mainly angst ), suited for all ages, not proofread ( might have spelling errors ), let me know if any other warnings that should be added ! 985 wc.

reblogs appreciated because im shadowbanned :(

taglist. @luvvvlyjoong , @cherrystar1117

you wish the man in front of you everything good in life.

from happiness, to sadness and healing, to wonderful friendships and his favorite delicious bagels to be cooked to perfection every time he orders them, to love.

you wish it all for him.

kang yeosang was a man you would give your everything to. in your will, when the time comes to write one, you would write to give him everything you own for him to use or to sell for money to give him a better life. with your own money you would constantly buy him riches and lavishes to decorate himself or his apartment or his car with, even if you were bordering on being broke.

and you would do it all out of love. time and time again, you would do it until your last, wishful breath. and even now, you still wouldn’t change anything.

you wouldn’t change anything even though life is pulling you two into two different directions.

you, a job opportunity across the world from him. and him with his own career starting in a place you can’t be, you would continue to wish good things for him.

“you’ll be alright,” you spoke softly, smiling up at the male who looked down at you as you tied the scarf you bought as a present around his neck.

the scarf that had a very excessive price for it just being a scarf, but he said he liked it.

“just stick to the flash cards we did and the interview will go good.” you comforted him, tying a knot of the scarf and bringing it up to cover the bottom half of his face, making a smile etch into your face at how cute he looked.

yeosang said nothing, simply staring down at you for a moment longer before bringing his hands up to cup your face in his hands.

just moments prior he had been complaining about his interview and how he thinks he is going to freeze up and ruin it all, but now he was silent and had a look of longing in his eyes that tugged on your heart strings.

you two… were two different people, with two different dreams and aspirations, when you talked about your future together, it never lined up.

when you wanted to go an explore the world, bask in freedom and have fun, he wanted to settle down and have a loving family.

and there was nothing wrong with that, it’s just not what you wanted. and what you wanted was not what he wanted.

when you got your job that allowed you to travel across the world and get paid for it, he unfortunately couldn’t come due to his own job and the fact he didn’t want to leave seoul, he wanted to stay here and relax. but he wanted to do that with you.

but you two were two different people.

you couldn’t force him to come with you, he couldn’t force you to stay. and neither of you wanted to force each other into anything.

“do you really have to go?” he asked even though he knew the answer. his strained voice was muffled slightly due to the fabric of the scarf, causing you to let out a small giggle at how utterly cute he was at the moment.

you put your hands above his that were on your cheeks, looking up into his eyes as you smiled softly at him, a look of sadness in your eyes that gave him his answer.

yes. you had to go.

you had a dream, and you wanted to achieve it. even if it didn’t include him like you originally wanted it to.

he also had a dream, a dream you couldn’t provide him. and he would continue that dream, even if it also didn’t include you like he wanted it to.

it was a mutual understanding. right person, wrong time in a way. maybe if you two met before college where you still weren’t set on what you wanted to do once you graduated, maybe you two could’ve had a different outcome.

but that wasn’t the case.

so you had to let him go, despite the urge to tug him on the plane that you were about to get on and keep him with you.

and he had to do the same.

“i hope you can find someone who wants the same thing as you,” you whispered lowly, swallowing the lump in your throat that was forming. you tried to ignore the tears pricking at your eyes at the mere thought of him with someone else, settling down and starting a family, coming home and making his presence known with a kiss to their lips—

but you can’t be selfish.

if you wish him love, you can’t be. you have to give him the future he wants, and you just can’t be apart of it, sadly.

but you also knew it tore him apart. how you both chose to respect the different life styles of each other, how you both decided to let each other go.

you always said you hated growing up, and even as an adult who graduated college, you still hate it. growing up and moving on… fuck, you hated it so much.

“i also hope you don’t forget me.” you sheepishly said, leaning forward to rest your head on his chest, hands hanging onto the long coat he was wearing.

“never.” he said immediately, wrapping his arms around your back, pulling you closer into him and burying his nose into the crown of your head. “i’ll never forget you. never.”

from now, until the point you got onto the plane, you had the same thing on your mind through it all.

you wished kang yeosang all the love in the world, even if it couldn’t be from you.

and he wished the same for you.

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Fate Charles Leclerc Story…

… Chapter 10 …

Last night felt like a dream, the way Charles treated me was straight out of a fairytale... 

The way he held me in his arms and kissed my forehead made me weak in the knees. 

What shocked me was the fact he wasn't afraid to give me attention and  affection in a large group of people who no doubt had taken multiple pictures of us. He didn't seem to care, and it was almost like he was proud to be there with me as his date. Something I was not used too, Jake always pretended like I never existed when we were in social settings or in public. 

I rolled over and noticed that Lucy was awake as well scrolling on her phone. "Morning Elle," she said as she looked over at me. 

"Morning" I said smiling at her as I stretched my arms over my head, "so you and Lando Eh!" 

"You and Charles Eh!" She mimicked me as she rolled her eyes, "These nothing to report, captain." 

"Really...Nothing?" I questioned, "you two seemed awfully  cozy last night"

"I mean we were flirting all night... but its not like he kissed me or anything" Lucy said looking a little upset about Lando not taking the opportunity to kiss her after they spent most of the evening together flirting back and forth. 

"Maybe he was just nervous," I offered, as I tried to make her feel better about the situation.

"We will see." 

"When are you supposed to hear back about the job here in Monaco?" I questioned hopeful that she would get the job. 

"They mentioned that they would let me know on Monday. But it seemed like they were impressed throughout the interview." 

"You will get it! Everything will fall into place for the both of us." I said as I climbed out of bed and walked towards my closet, grabbing sweat pants and a sweater. 

We made our way towards the kitchen where Kelly and Max were both sitting reading the news paper and drinking a coffee. 

"There she is," joked Max as soon as he saw me walk into the kitchen. 

"What?" I questioned as I walked towards the coffee maker and poured some coffee for both Lucy and I. 

Max didn't say anything he just lifted up the news paper he was reading.

My eye widened in shock  as I looked at the front page of the news paper... on the front page was a blurry picture of Charles and I standing hugging each other as he bent down and  kissed my forehead with the words 'WHO IS CHARLES NEW GIRL?' 

"What the Fuck!" I gasped as I walked closer to Max to see the paper better. 

"Holy shit!" Lucy exclaimed as she ran over to see the news paper, "My bestie is famous." 

"Thank god you can't see my face," I added as I started to freak out internally.... What would this mean for Charles and I... We were definitely not at the stage of our relationship to go public... especially because we were still in the early stages of developing something more than being just friends. 

"Everything will be alright Elle," Kelly said as she reached over and placed her hand gently on my shoulder and gave it a reassuring squeeze "Im here for you, as you navigate everything." 

"Im here for you too Elle," Max said "I'll can help you get accustomed to the formula 1 life style." 

"Holy shit...the fan girls are losing there minds on Instagram," Lucy said as she was scrolling on her instagram. 

"Lucy, my advice is to not look at social media until you and Charles figure things out." Suggested Kelly. 

I nodded my head as I took another sip of my coffee. I trusted Kelly she had gone through a similar situation when her and Max first started to date. She grew up in the racing world so she knew a thing or two about what it is like. And now she is dating Max a formula one world champion. 

I could feel my phone buzzing in my sweater pocket, looking down I saw that Charles was calling me... he must have saw the news paper article as well. 

"Belle," his voice sounded like he had just woke up, "are you okay?" Concern evident in his voice. 

"Im okay," I said smiling, the sound of his voice making me feel a sense of calm and comfort. 

"Im so sorry, I had no idea that us going together would make front page news."

"It's okay Charles, you can't control what is being written about you." 

"Come over to my place, I want to hold you in my arms again." 

"Let me shower and get dressed, then I will head down to your place." 

"Okay Belle," Charles said sounding happy that I had said yes to coming over "my apartment number is 1016."

"See you soon," I said into the phone before hanging up and heading towards my bedroom so that I could go shower. 

I noticed out of the  corner of my eye that Lucy has whispered something to Kelly before following me to my bedroom. 

"Im going to head over to Charles place" ... "Im going to Lando's place" Lucy said at the same time as me. 

We both looked at each other and laughed. 

I quickly showered and curled my hair, while Lucy picked out some clothes for me to wear. 

While Lucy showered, I got dressed in the leggings, tank top and cardigan she picked out for me... before quickly picking out some leggings and a sweater for Lucy to wear. 

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I  walked out of the elevator and made my way to his door. Taking a deep breath I lifted my hand to knock on the door.  He opened the door and pulled me into his arms, kissing my lips before guiding me into his apartment.  Thank god he had his arm around me or I would have fallen down from the intense fireworks I felt erupt in my body as soon as his lips touched mine. 

"Nice place Charles."  I said as I looked around, trying to compose myself. 

"Thanks." 

I looked around at the kitchen and noticed flowers and a box of chocolate sitting on the kitchen island.

Charles pulled me in for a long hug and I buried my head into his chest as I got a whiff of his cologne. 

Charles pulled away from our hug looking into my eyes "now I believe you promised me homemade cookies, on our first date." 

Laughing I quickly make my way into the kitchen and started making the chocolate chip cookies that I had made with Penelope the other day. Charles kept coming up behind me and wrapping his arms around me before reaching down and stealing a piece of cookie dough. Laughing at his attempt to be sneaking I playfully smacked his arm away. 

As we were waiting for the cookies to bake Charles pulled me into the livingroom. I sat down beside him as he grabbed the remote from the coffee table. Once the remote was in his hand he leaned back on the couch and placed his feet straight on the sectional.

Once he was comfy, he pulled me into his body so that my head was on his chest and our legs were intertwined. 

He turned on the TV and went to Netflix. We scrolled through Netflix and settled on F.R.I.E.N.D.S. 

Just as Ross and Rachel were about to have their first kiss I looked up into Charles's green eyes and I could see that he was looking towards my lips and then back up to my eyes. 

We both slowly moved our heads towards one another. Just as our lips were millimetres apart the oven dinged signalling that the cookies were done. 

We pulled apart laughing as Charles stood up and offered me his hand to help me up. We walked into the kitchen smiling as we grabbed the cookies and ice cream and made our way back to the couch. 

"Belle, I am enjoying every minute I get to spend with you. You make me so happy and I know things are moving fast, but it just seems right. I can't stop thinking about you and all I want to do is spend all my time with you." Charles said looking into my eyes like he was trying to get a glimpse into my soul. 

"I'm loving every minute I get to spend more time with you as well." I said as I got lost looking into his gorgeous eyes.

"I know it's moving fast but will you be my girlfriend?" Asked Charles as he looked into your eyes. I could see the nerves radiating from his body. 

I looked into his hopeful green eyes as  I maneuvered my body so that I was facing him grabbed both of his huge hands in my tiny ones. 

"Oh Charles.... I really want to be your girlfriend but Im scared that you are going to break my heart" I said as I  took a deep breath. "My last relationship really messed with my head. We were engaged and on our wedding day I found out he was cheating on me with one of my friends. I found out by catching him having sex with her at the wedding venue. He fucked with head the moment I met him, but I was young and naïve and believed everything he told me. It started off small like never complimenting me, the you look fine or you should probably put more make up on. He never ever  called me beautiful or even pretty. He always told me that I was a psycho bitch, and that no other man would ever love me, and that I was lucky that he loved me." A tear rolled down my cheek as I told Charles about Jake. "Not that I think you would cheat on me if we were together." 

Just as I was about to reach up and wipe my tears away his hands quickly wiped them away as he pulled me into his muscular chest.

"I fucking hate him... I hate that he did that to you and that you had to go through that... you are so beautiful on the inside and out and the fact that he never saw it or appreciated you is his lost... I promise you that if you gave me the opportunity to love you, you would never ever doubt my love for you. Loving you would be my priority. Let me know when your ready... I will be waiting with open arms for you."

I nodded my head and buried myself deeper into Charle's embrace, enjoying the safety of being in his arms. 

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When I got back to my place, Kelly quickly pulled me aside and asked how everything went.

"To be honest I am terrified of my feelings. I've only known him for three weeks but it feels like I've known him my whole life. My heart is telling me to let myself fall in love with him and to trust that he isn't going to break me apart. But my brain is telling me to protect myself from being hurt." 

Kelly pulled me in for a hug "I can't promise you that you won't get hurt along the way but I can promise you that Charles will do anything in his power to make sure you feel loved and like you are a priority to him.  I have known him since he started racing in formula 1 and I have never seen him so invested in getting to know someone as much as he is with you. I see the way he looks at you, it is as if you are the only person in the world. He is falling for you just as hard as you are falling for him." 

"I think your right Kelly! He asked me to be his girlfriend this evening and I told him I was scared because of everything that happened with Jake. But I shouldn't be so worried about the past that I miss what is right in front of me...my future." 

"Go get your man Elle," Kelly said as she shoved me towards the doorway. I quickly thanked her and made my way back to Charles apartment.

I quickly knocked on the door, hoping that he hadn't gone to bed yet seeing as it was quite late. 

"Elle?" Answered Charles as opened the door only wearing his boxers,  a surprised look on his face as he quickly pulled me into his arms, shutting the door behind him. 

"I'm YOURS Charles." I said as I put my hands on his face and kissed his lips.  

"Really?" he asked as he pulled away from the kiss, I could see the excitement in his eyes. 

"YES! Im done letting my past define my future... you're my future Charles" 

"WOOHOOO!"  Charles yelled as he picked me up into his arms and spun me around in a circle. 

I couldn't contain my giggle at his reaction. I looked into his eyes as he pulled me close. A piece of my hair fell into my face and I could feel his hand move up to move it. His hand gently moving the hair out of my face before slowly moving down to cup my cheek.. Our heads moved together like two magnets being pulled us together as our lips slowly touched.  It was like time stood still, as fireworks erupted.  Slowly pulling away from the kiss we connecting our foreheads together as we both breathed out "WOW." 

"I promise you, Elle. I will never make you question my commitment to you." Charles said as he pulled me in for another breathtaking kiss.

[taylorswiftsfavouritedaughter]

YALL LAST NIGHT, I LITERALLY HAD A DREAM WHERE IM STUCK IN A JOB INTERVIEW WITH CLAYTON BERESFORD.

Clayton was wearing a tuxedo and he was sitting across me on a couch while reading my resume.

I was so nervous at that time. I was literally fidgeting my fingers because he was staring at me and observing my movement the whole time. OH LORD HIS VOICE WAS SO FUCKING DEEP.

BUT ALSO HE HAS THIS BUTLER NAMED ALFRED AND HIS BUTLER CALLED HIM BRUCE WAYNE. So basically, he's bruce wayne but looks like clayton beresford.

Im losing my fucking mind right now. The fact that im also in love with bruce wayne and clayton beresford at the same time. And turns out in my dream, clayton beresford's name is bruce wayne but he just looks like clayton beresford.

[allamericansbitch]

it’s me, anon with the backstabbing coworker!

i quit my job!!!!!!!!!

i sent in my resignation letter over the weekend (after working overtime in the week because boss took last minute pto, must be nice) so she saw it today and she literally hasn’t said a single word to me about it but i know she saw it because i overheard her scheduling interviews for my position. i really get no respect here, from either my boss or that awful coworker who i simply can’t bear to work with. like the least she could say is “hey i saw your resignation letter.” i don’t even care about her saying she’ll miss me blah blah cause i know she wanted me gone anyway which is probably why she jumped at the chance to tell me how my coworker had betrayed me, but she could say literally anything.

i’m honestly sad because this was a dream job for so long and i’m probably gonna cry about it more but eventually i’ll realize i truly am better off.

i have another job lined up that honestly pays less but i was talking to my therapist and at least 80% of my current anxiety/etc is coming from this job which is making me miserable. i’m really sad it’s come to this and it’s hard to let go, but i’m like taylor once said: you know in your soul when it’s time to go. and i think i knew that months ago but i’ve been holding on too long.

hopefully i can make it two more weeks. if not, am i a bad person if i just stop showing up? it would definitely inconvenience my coworkers and i want to stay friends with some of them, but i don’t know if i have two more weeks in me.

OMG!!! amazing!!! im so proud you put yourself first!! it's a shitty move from your boss to ignore you and give you the silent treatment like you did something wrong (when you in fact did not) but sadly not surprising lol

and don't worry, this wasnt your dream job, your dream job is still waiting for you because your dream job would be a place that treats you with respect and human decency and this wasnt that!

i honestly can't say for sure if not showing up will affect your coworkers and how they see you, i will say if you genuinely feel like it's impossible to stay there any longer then for sure don't go, but because i dont know the specifics on the workplace dynamics and also how your coworkers view you/the job it's a tough call to make and it's up to you at the end of the day. maybe ask them? like 'hey does it put you in a bad position if i just dont show up' or something?

[blow-me-a-kis]

I have been applying to ten jobs a day and the fear that filled me just now when I saw one of them got back to me about an interview 🥶😱😱🫣

Ohhh. I know I need it, but goodness, its been so long since I sat for an interview. I will get this job if I take the interview, I'm a great interview, because its just scripting. Its been so long since I had a proper 9-5, and now its really happening. Ive applied to so many places, I don't even know if I want this job?? But its remote. I need money. Thats true enough.

I want to move out and closer to the city so I can attend meet ups for web development and I want to be able to afford to invest in web dev some, like pay for hosting and maybe a design cert and a bootcamp so I can feel like hot shit and apply for web dev jobs with a nice robust portfolio

I just need to keep my goal in sight: The dream of working from my apartment where I can afford to live on my own, in my little office with a ton of plants, at a cute standing desk, wearing a fishnet top and boxers because ain't nobody seeing me, getting paid too much money to solve puzzles while listening to music on fancy noise cancelling headphones thinking about the fact that Im going to the artists' concert later because I can afford shit like that like it ain't nothing and the fancy sushi I'm gunna have for lunch 😤😤😤

[sithisreadingcorner]

Hi again! I hope life's treating you well. I would like to request a free August reading from you if possible. The last one really helped me a lot. My initials are A.P/Agnes 🦜 and i was born on 26.08.96. Im in a pretty tough spot in life right now. There's a lot of crappy things happening and i would like to ask for some life guidance from my spirit guides. Or just a general reading is fine too. Thank you in advance and have a beautiful day! 🍀

I'm so sorry to hear that you are going through such a rough time! I really hope this reading will give you something to work with. Let's see what your spirit guides have to say. (I'm also noticing that your birthday was just very recently, happy birthday! I will make this as detailed as I can!)

knight of swords. queen of wands (indulgent) the star (dream). three of swords

The things that have been happening to you have broken you down terribly, which I'm really sad to see but not surprised about. But other than that, they have also made you kind of... stagnant. I think you are in a position where you just kind of stand by while the things are happening to you. I'm absolutely sure none of the bad things that happened to you were your fault or did you even have a hand in them, so it wasn't like you could have done anything about those particular situations. But from the cards that I'm seeing here, your guides are trying to draw your attention from the fact that in other ways you have a TON of agency and you've become so apathetic that you are willingly giving it up. 😔

I want you to think of this differently. What has happened to you, is unfair, and it hurts. And that will maybe keep hurting, from some time coming. This is okay, and valid. But laying down and staying in that emotion, however valid it may be, is not good for you right now. There are a lot of things that you can't control in your life, but there are also some things that you CAN and the more you keep focusing on those, the easier the feeling will become.

There is something about the knight of swords that the booklet describes as the "flash of opportunity". There are tiny opportunities whooshing past you on a daily, or at the very least weekly, basis, but they are extremely small and brief and therefore hard to see their significance. So you let them pass by, because you are not looking, and this is really disheartening for your guides to see. Let me just say an example off the top of my head, just to illustrate it. You lose your job, and struggle to find another. You are interviewed for a position that you perceive as your dream job, but you don't get it. Then, it's easy to lose yourself in misery and do nothing. But what you are not seeing behind the scenes, is that there is a job ad somewhere online at this very moment that would happily hire you on the spot if you only applied. So, what you do, is wallow in your misery, A LITTLE BIT. And then go out and send another application. 💗

I also pulled a fortune cookie in the meantime and it says: "You should think of yourself every once in a while." Which reminds me of another very important point that I almost forgot to add. I think you need something new in your life that you create for yourself as a happy space. I don't know what it is, and it probably doesn't matter actually. Like starting a new sport, retrying a craft that you enjoyed in your childhood... I think this can be anything as long as it gives you a feeling of accomplishment. If you only have 10 minutes a day to spend on it, or just one hour a week, doesn't matter, but you must do it anyway. The most important thing is that this is a YOU party where no one else is invited. It doesn't need to accomplish anything special other than giving you an outlet and making you feel like you have the power to change things. You will see, that as your thinking changes, the way you view yourself and the world will change, and then your actions, and with that your situation will change as well.

Tbh this feels like a self-contained reading but I wanted to see if your guides have some kind of more concrete advice for you what to do next, but I wanted to do that from a different deck.

LXVII. THE STONE

"[...] A single stone may see thousands of generations come and go; therefore it contains an ancient and eternal presence. The stone is best to anchor our wild side, so no matter how far we roam, we can always find our way back. [...]"

LXII. THE SWORD

"To use the sword is to decide. [...] This weapon requires a clear and decisive mind and a willingness to act. [...] Decisions shape our life, and the sword is an infamous shaper of destiny."

LII. THE TEAR

"Tears are droplets of letting go. Once they begin to fall, we allow the swelling tide of emotion to run its elemental course. [...]"

You know, I think this is almost the same thing that I was saying earlier, but there is also a difference here. What is coming through, is a message of tough love. And I don't mean that your guides are mad at you or anything, rather: it's time for an era where you give that tough love to yourself. If you stop attaching yourself to your pain and tying yourself down with/to it, and instead confront it hands on, you are not making in any less valid - in fact you are honoring it. You cannot stay here forever. And if you do nothing new, nothing will change. It's time for you to really begin to heal, and start something new. 🥰

I hope this will help Agnes! And please let me know what you think of the reading! 💗 I'm recording the accuracy of my readings for a project, so for an honest review I would be super grateful 🙏

august readings (3 of 5)

tips? 💗

[bugflies00]

Mocha : Dream Job?

Jasmine Tea : If you could go anywhere in the world, where would it be and why?

Caramel Frappe : Favorite video game?

Iced Lemon Tea : Favorite song/band?

Caramel Macchiato : You’re travelling the entire world but you can only take one person with you. Who do you take?

Green Tea : How tall are you?

mocha : the issue im currently facing is i have No idea what my dream job is 😭 kinda hard to pick unis and courses if you dont know what you wanna do. but like Ideally something that leaves me time & energy to keep drawing & enjoying my interests ? and maybe to do with literature ??

jasmine tea : you know whats funny i took my IELTS yesterday and thats the question the interviewer gave me lmao . anyway id really like to visit japan!!!! also ive already been to NYC but id like to go again

caramel frappe : sims 4 i am a sims 4 guy through and through i have nearly 8000 hours on that game

iced lemon tea : well song changes like Every Week but band is lovejoy lmao (second place is arctic monkeys)

caramel macchiato : probably my best friend

green tea : 1m75 WHICH IS 69 INCHES. LEARNING THIS FACT SIGNIFICANTLY IMPROVED MY LIFE

[dearqueerdeers]

I was tagged by @spacegirlsgang !! hi mary 🥰👋

Nickname: well. annco. lmao. no one calls me anything else lmfao feel free to give me nicknames yall

Height: 5’7

Last thing I googled: “how do octopi escaping tanks not dry out” (lmfao)

Song stuck in my head: Mastermind by Taylor Swift

Follower #: 68 😌 if 1 more person who ISNT a porn bot wants to follow me. yknow. feel free

Amount of sleep: today? like 13 hours lol but that’s bc I accidentally fell asleep at 7 pm and then REFUSED to start my day at 3 AM

Dream job: Librarian 🥰 (im an engineering major lmao. she is unattainable 💔)

Wearing: grey leggings and a black t shirt with a quote from the Love, Simon movie on it

Book/movie that summarizes me: The Old Guard, The Good Place (this is a tv show but oh well), amc’s interview with the vampire (also a tv show. leave me alone). supernatural (you get the point. leave me alone)

Fav song: To Be Alone by Hozier

Aesthetic: whatever makes me look gay and like I have pronouns

Fav authors: Mackenzie Lee, Phillip Pullman

Random fact: my cat Bella is named after Bella from twilight bc my mom and I were both obsessed with twilight when I was younger

Tagging: @lambfromfield and anyone else who wants to answer!

[heelcody]

been kind of thinking about retiring the name Kyle from online use like it's my name irl now and I'm very happy with it but for the first time in many years im going by the same name irl as I do online and given the fact that my boss popped up on my twitter suggestions I'M VERY SCARED OF MY SOCIAL MEDIA BEING USED AGAINST ME SOMEDAY....imagine I'm finally interviewing for a job with the Las Vegas Raiders as is my dream and they pull up my blog like um you're fucking weird

[youreyeslookliketheocean]

chap 5 review i finally have time lets go i hate school:

tommy learning asl just to fuck with wilbur lmao

also when wilbur stepped up for tommy after he couldnt speak was awesoem i love crimeboys

its so interesting the relarionship between tommy and his old coach bc its such a complicated mess that really fucked tommy up but it hurts more relaizing that the entire public saw it (or parts of it) too and nto saying anything until his mom was lkke hey thats gfucked up loike the public knew that old cheif only cared abt racing while phil cares abt tommmy

crimeboys are becoming friends <3

also damn wilburs accident was pretyy severe.

im kinda excited for when the new team figures out abt tomys trauma and insecurites (if they do lol)

also imagine walking into a pillow fight. phil be like "alright then"

also i like all th e side characters too especaillh purpled and aims

chapter 6 too bc yeah:

beach beach beach

also wtf why is wil tht good. he has no right.

toomy stop hating on urself phil cares abt u

give wil false hope lmao ope theere he is right thwre

stop. tommy stop. stop hating on urself being deaf is fine phil isnt gonna hate u anyway how u constanty compare everything to old cheif is very important bc it shows how its different

hes being kidnapped lets go i love beach scene beach (i actually ahve horrible memories from florida beaches we went at the wrong time of year)

george founder is an absolutely badass name good job on that one

dream isnt the old cheif relally???? im genuienly surprised but thats cool. nice to actually see him in a dsmp fic where hes actually chill. also sapnap i forgot he cuased the accident that must be awkward af (tommy stop blaming urself)

yeah no u show his lack of self confidence/esteem perfectly u take so many W

oh my god 🦀 makes an appearance hes such a celebrity

wait fuck all my brain proccessed was crab legs its a hermitcrab

mother of twitch prime. that is a tommy thing to say

yeah take em aids off that must be annoying as hell

is it just me or do i sense that tommy isnt accepting that hes HOH now hmm :/ | yeah losing smth as important as a sense must be scary if u've had it for so long

istg is wil gonna bully him into- and he did (also was it him 🦀? is he in the full throttle?)

hes learning asl im so happy oh shit not them waves i once got rolled by waves its scary af

oh no old cheif angst again ahh. and wil being concerned ahh this will be character development. this is crucial scene alret. oh they laughing awwwww oh he smile a /gen smile !!!!!!!!!1 crimeboys brainrotting full throttle version commence omg he likes wil now- ope nvm

"theyre different from his old crew. all of them are" YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

hes not that worried in sim. anymore abt being good

oh no his left ear but itll be ok

"hen slips away to his room to ruminate on the fact that never—not in his whole racing career—has he felt so loved by his team as he does now. He’s not worth it. He’s a fuck up, a failure, and he’s going to disappoint them.  He doesn’t want it to end." i will live for the moment when he fucks up. its gonna be so great for character development

ok this chap. is very long so im splitting to parts byeeee sorry this took so long school sucks :( but full throttle does not :)

Ahhh thank you!!!!!

Yeah, I don’t think Tommy really realized how much the public knew until that interview with Wilbur, either. The public saw and knew (to a certain extent) that something was wrong or “off” about Tommy and his chief’s partnership for a long time, but no one ever tried to step in and ask about it, or tell him that he should leave him and find a new chief, or say anything at all on Tommy’s behalf… Writing that part hurt.

Idk how far you’ve gotten by the time this response comes (lol sorry it took so long. University stole my soul for a little while), but… the moment he “fucks up” will definitely be coming 👀

Thank you for the message!!! I giggled at the hermit crab😂

[auroral-melody]

how're you feeling about the sandman casting that just got announced

it's unironically really good

i think it's SO funny they cast someone who kinda looks like neil gaiman as dream

kirby howell-baptiste as death....literally fantastic, no notes

i love jenna coleman and i think she's neat :) it's. Interesting that she's playing john constantine, to say the least. i have to say that matt ryan is still my favorite choice to play him. i hope they don't tone down how much of a mess john is, just bc of gender

the fact that remy ratatouille is matthew is very funny actually

idk anything about gwendoline christie but i listened to an interview from her for like 2 seconds and i think she's great. i hope they keep the he/him pronouns

cassie clare :eyes:

i genuinely don't know much about actors so most of my knowledge of these ppl is short clips of their voices and faces. i think as far as faceclaims they did a really good job!

idk anything about acting ability or w/e so i won't comment on that, but overall unlike for GO, i think the casting looks pretty strong for sandman -- i just am really hoping that there won't be . like. any tumblr fandom for it. bc oh my god i will not be able to exist in the same space as discourse about desire.

i worry that people will be like "oh i love good omens (2019) im sure this other thing by gaiman will be similar" and then they will be blindsided by the massive trigger warning that is the sandman universe.

as with all tv/movie adaptations, i hope against hope that there will still be some differences in how characters are interpreted online & the sandom will stay small. i fully have not really been on tumblr since tv GO bc of it and i don't want sandman to be another one of those things i have to explain to people that there are different versions of it

thanks for the ask :)

[asexualzoro]

Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag 20 10 blogs you are contractually obligated to get to know better.

Tagged By: @rudimentaryflair

Name: Lew

Star Sign: sagittarius

Height: 5′4

Time: 8:23 PM BUT my phone died in the middle of me writing this in my notes app so now it’s 9:22

Birthday: Dec 9

Favourite Bands / Favourite Solo Artists: Will Wood, Hop Along, Shayfer James, Lovejoy, Clem Turner, Jhariah, Civilian, Fake Type, Everything Everything

Last Movie: uh. i don’t actually know? might’ve been one of the Psych movies w my roommate

Last Show: i’m watching Psych with my dad rn. i know how it sounds but i swear i dont actually watch that much psych. before that, uh… if it counts i also watched like 5 hours worth of the new 3L/LL season Double Life yesterday

When did I create this blog: i’m not actually sure? 2014 i would guess

What I post: things i find funny and fandom stuff. mostly One Piece and TMA

Last thing I googled: …pretty sure it was something to the effect of “inthelittlewood third life skin”

Other Blogs: the ones i use the most are liloinkoink (pretty active mcyt acct… mostly 3L/LL and now Double Life rn) and everybrook (posting every panel of Brook in One Piece)

Do I Get Asks?: not often? if i rb ask memes i usually get a few, but i don’t get a lot of random ones

Why I chose my url: sexuality headcanon for zoro. tho i’ve been thinking about changing it for a while

Following: 564

Followers: 2392

Average hours of sleep: 7-8 hours. making sure i get 8 hours is generally pretty important to me

Instruments: none, but i like to sing!

What am I wearing: pajamas! shorts and a t-shirt

Dream job(s): one time i applied to intern with webtoon to read canvas comics for money and every Single day i mourn the fact i only made it to the first step of interviewing

Dream trip: i dunno! i hadn’t really thought about it. somewhere scenic that i can take a nice camera, maybe

Favourite Food: chocolate probably

Nationality: american

Favourite Song(s): Hand Me My Shovel, I’m Going In! by Will Wood is my all time fave song and then i usually have half a dozen other favorite songs every week. Cover This Song (A Little Bit Mine) by Will Wood and Villain by Wild Fire are two of the songs from this week

Last book I read: The Secret History by Donna Tartt. i was reading it for class. i haven’t finished it yet, tho i plan to

Top 3 fictional universes I’d like to live in: i thought i didn’t have an answer bc i would probably die in most fictional universes i like but then i saw Rudi had Pokemon and that’s basically the only correct answer. would give anything to be a ghost-type gym leader and its tragic and cruel that im not one

Tagging: @thewrongshop @autisticflowey @daynaisnice @unexpectedly-haunted @ghostwingss @kami-nekomata

[bcofl0ve]

Two questions: first, why do you think he goes out in incognito mode? Did he learn nothing from his interview with Josh Brolin? I kid, but sorta not. Second, when do you think the first screening of Dune might be? Usually there’s some advanced screenings for critics or industry people. I guess I have a third, do you think Austin will do a good job in MOTA?

i think it's just a matter of day to day personal preference- bc it's not like he wears a mask every time he leaves the house but i guess some days he doesn't want to be stopped more than others, which is fair! when you lose so much control to the inherent nature of fame you gotta figure out how to hold onto the control that you can. funnily enough i think *a lot* of celebs are grateful for the fact that wearing a face mask in public is so "normalized" now!

second, i presume some time in feburary before or around when it starts opening internationally. though im sure they'll be a review embargo that won't lift till like right before it releases in the states.

re mota i think he'll do great! i was thinking on the interview with callum earlier and how fun it must be for the guys to have essentially gotten paid for "playing solider", every little boys dream come true! and i think austin likes playing real people bc of really being able to sink his teeth into the fact that he's telling a real story that actually happened y'know? i liked what he said about reading the mota book and watching old videos of gale, i hope he talks more about that throughout press.

[sapphosfriend]

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Im not doing too good. It feels like I have no control over my life. I lost my job in February and am still fighting for unemployment. I havent been able to find a job either. Im qualified, I have experience, but I cant get past a phone interview. Its not the only place Im being ghosted. I cant seem to meet people in person and Im getting nowhere online. I try with my profile, good description. Summary up top and expanded upon underneath. Good photos with the only edits being to the lighting. Portraits and me doing things. I get likes, Ill match with plenty of people. I send quality messages and am left on read. I matched with a girl recently was on paper extremely compatible. Personality types and star signs were perfect pairs if you believe in that kind of thing. But our likes, dreams, contrast were good too. I sent 2 messages 2 days apart, no response and she unmatched me. I stand by the fact that those who want to be in your life will make the effort and those who dont wont. I will try twice and if you fall short twice without trying to adjust then I stop. It doesnt stop the pain, even here just being a lingering sting. Bad relationships in the past plus stress made me lose friends. Only 2 people I have that care are on the other side of the country with their own lives, and their own pain. We text but its slow. I dont have the money and barely have the energy to go out and try and meet people. Just trying to make friends. Im 25 and feel like I havent even had a chance to live. And Much of that is my own fault. Getting into and staying in abusive relationships. Trying to not be alive, and failing, and living with the aftermath. I barely get enough gig work to eat, and make rent. All I do is stay inside with just me and my cat or go to the gym. As much as I need quality people in my life I need to get out of this city. Its beautiful like my ex-wife. It pains me when I see it, and still love it regardless. Like her I need to walk away, but only for a day this time. I need to be surrounded by the world, not brick and concrete. There's no public transit to the beautiful trails of the Pacific Northwest, and my car caught fire a year ago, so I dont have the means to be with Her, the one who gave us life and meaning. The Earth. Im trying, and Im fighting. I know something has to work eventually. Maybe next year Ill read this and laugh at how silly I am to feel this way. And sure, some good has come in the midst of this, but its all underlaid with the pain of now. So its hard to not be sad when I think of it. In a year Ill watch the recordings of the TS concert I got into somehow. Ill tell my mother I love her, because we speaking again after 4 years. And Ill be so fucking happy. But that doesnt help the now be good. And to you, dear reader of a strangers pain; you may feel a concern for me, my safety. After all I did elude to previous self termination, but Im honestly too tired to think about it for more than a moment. I know pain will only make more pain, and know if I go all in I will fail like every time before. It wont help, so I wont do it. Healing is hard. And I will always have cracks, but part of healing is making sure they never open again. I think I sealed that one with gold. Ill never not see it, but I wont let the seal break either.