#this is how i feel when i tell ppl i met my bf in a mental hospital

[polaroidcats]

just got reminded of one of my favorite bittersweet memories from the closet/denial - when I was 15 we had an exchange student from the US stay with us for a few days and I got along so well with her, and we wrote endless fb messages and emails and letters and I just felt like we were soulmates and cried when she left and couldn't wait to visit her a few months later on a school trip, and I remember sitting in her car with her and singing along to Katy Perry's "I Kissed A Girl" because i had just bought cherry chapstick so she started playing the song, and my heart started beating faster when she started to sing along and I just remember not knowing what it was but knowing it was a special kind of friendship. I attributed it to the circumstances and the traveling and all the excitement of a school trip, and only years later, when I read her coming out post on facebook something in me clicked and made me realise how obvious it could have been to me that I had a crush on her if I'd had the language for it at 15.

[madesofgold]

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[landitolover]

𝒏𝒆𝒘 𝒓𝒐𝒎𝒂𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒄𝒔 in which everyone thinks that she’s dating her skating partner, but her actual boyfriend starts to feel a bit insecure about how everyone ships her with her someone who isn’t him.. ౨ৎ ollie x fem!skater!reader

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yourusername in italy for the (very short) break 😚!

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user here before hyun 🥰

user MOTHER IS IN ITALY 😭🙏🏼

user i need to run into her idk !!

user MY GIRL MY GIRL

user she’s so perf

user hyun i hope you know how to fight

→ user real ‼️

hyun_sb182 ❤️❤️

lilymhe so gorg babes

→ yourusername imy ☹️❤️

alex_albon COME TO MY RACE 🤔🤔

→ yourusername maybe.. if I’m not too busy going to other races 😉

→ user omg what does she mean by that

→ user IS SHE DATINg A DRIVER

→ user ew why would you say that.. she’s clearly dating hyun ??? 😭

user she posted this just for me 😂😂🙏🏼🙏🏼 (I’m delusional)

user anyone else find it weird how ppl are saying they’re dating when yn is 18 and hyun is like 22 😭???

→ user RIGHT and they met when she was like 16 and he was 20 .. WEIRD!

→ user fr plus i see them more as siblings ..

YN 🐻‍❄️🤍

HI OLLIE

i hope you’re not bothered by all those stupid ppl who think I’m dating hyun 😞

OLLIE 🐻❤️

HI YN 💕

it’s fine, i mean it kinda makes me sad but theres nothing we can really do about it

YN 🐻‍❄️🤍

i’m sorry ollie :(

i can tell my pr to handle this ???

OLLIE 🐻❤️

no no it’s fine!

YN 🐻‍❄️🤍

are u sure???

OLLIE 🐻❤️

yes I’m sure :)

anyways, getting rid of that topic

are you coming to my race ???

YN 🐻‍❄️🤍

well yeah duh

why else would I be in Italy

OLLIE 🐻❤️

to be in italy ?

YN 🐻‍❄️🤍

why would I be in italy just to be in italy

when my bfs race is happening the week i have off

OLLIE 🐻❤️

yeah you have a point

this is the first race of mine you’re going to 😁😁

YN 🐻‍❄️🤍

i knoww I’m so excited :)

OLLIE 🐻❤️

i’ll win this race just for you 🍀

♡ yn loved “ i’ll win this race just for you 🍀 ”

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yourusername thanks prema_team for letting me hang with you guys!!! and congratulations to ollie for winning 😄😄! super nice hanging out with jak too! (It was just an amazing experience in general, thank you ❤️)

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user was hyun there too???

→ user girl stfu she can go places by herself 😐

user my two worlds colliding

user wait why is that jak guy kinda …. I’m gonna start watching f2 for him fr 🫣

user jak, yn, & ollie is a crazy trio i hope we see more of them 🙏🏼

user AWW OLLIE LOOKS ADORABLE IN THE 4TH PIC

→ user ollie in the third pic “ 🧍‍♂️”

user i smell a new ship

→ user stop shipping a girl with a whole ass bf. 😭

→ user she literally never confirmed if shes dating hyun lol

jakcrawford_ i kinda look dumb in the last pic

→ yourusername tbf it was very early in the morning

olliebearman fun hanging with you! 😀

→ yourusername i agree!

alex_albon so are u coming to my race or not .. cause you obviously have time now 🙄

→ yourusername 👍🏻

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OLLIE 🐻❤️

just saw your story

you hang out with him alot don’t you ?

YN 🐻‍❄️🤍

well i mean yeah? he’s my partner..

don’t be mad ollie ..

OLLIE 🐻❤️

no I’m not mad at you

i could never be mad at you

i just feel like

kinda insecure

like everyone thinks you guys are so amazing together

and that you guys like belong.. I dunno it’s stupid, sorry

YN 🐻‍❄️🤍

don’t apologize oliver

you’re feelings are 100% valid and I’M sorry

that you feel that way :(

and I hope you know I don’t see hyun in that way,

he’s more of an older brother to me! i promise u :)

OLLIE 🐻❤️

i love you 💕

YN 🐻‍❄️🤍

i love you more 💘

YN 🐻‍❄️🤍

OLIVER

U DIDNT

OMG

UR IN KOREA

SHUT UP OH MY GOD

I HATE U

WHY DIDNT U TELL ME

OLLIE 🐻❤️

it was supposed to be a surprise

twitter ruined my surprise 😔

YN 🐻‍❄️🤍

dw ollie!! i’ll act super duper surprised when i see u

OLLIE 🐻❤️

thank you 😊💕

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user SERVING CUNT PER USUAL

user mother is ALWAYS mothering

user this performance was so good i shed so many tears 😢

user EVERYTHING ABT HER IS PERFECT 🫡

user ON MY KNEES IM BARKING

lilymhe this performance was so AMAZING

→ yourusername THANK YOU BABES 😭😭❤️❤️

jakcrawford_ ABSOLUTE FIRE

→ yourusername THANKS BFF !

olliebearman such a lovely performance, it was so amazing seeing it live 💕

→ yourusername thank you ollie 🥹💕

→ user i just dropped to my knees.

→ user THE HEARTS LORDDDD

→ user how do you feel now ynhyun nation 🤣🤣

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olliebearman you’ll always be my person, i love you yn 🤍

original: yeah, how do you feel ynhyun nation? sorry i ruined your little ship but i’ve been dating her for a year now! I love you, yn 🤍

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user THE CAPTION IS FOUL.

→ user he changed it 😕

user bud didn’t come to play

→ user bud did not let the rumors slide

user the rumors are terrible and cruel but honey most of them are true 🎶

→ olliebearman only the rumors abt me dating yn are true

user we lost ynhyun . CAUSE OF A WHITE BOY

→ user get out. hyun aint stand a CHANCE!

user SCREAMING SOBBING THROWING UP

user WE WON HELLO?????

user long story short i survived the ynhyun allegations

user i knew them ynhyun mfos were delusional

user MY PARENTS YESSIR

user these pictures are so CUTE IM THROWING UP

lilymhe took you long enough

→ jakcrawford_ right like i couldn’t pretend like i just met yn anymore.. like dawg we’ve been friends for months now 🤨

→ yourusername LMFAOO IM SORRY JAK

yourusername the caption sir…… 🤨 you should PROBABLY CHANGE IT ! don’t want ur pr to hate me

→ olliebearman yes ma’am

yourusername THIS IS SO CUTE I LOVE YOU

→ olliebearman I LOVE YOU TOO 🤍🤍

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yourusername yeah as if I would ever date a scrawny white boy..

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user HIS LEGS ARE SO LONG WHAT THE HELL

→ olliebearman no cause fr why are my legs that long

user IS THE CAPTION OFF THAT ONE TWEET YN..

→ yourusername idk what ur talking abt!

user AUAAAGAHAKXXS IM CRYING

user sweetest + funniest couple ever

olliebearman so u can have an unhinged caption but i cant 🤨

→ yourusername that’s different oliver.

olliebearman we’re so couple goals 😋

→ yourusername so true babe

olliebearman ynollie forever

hyun_sb182 incredibly happy for you two ❤️

→ hyun_sb182 also i am not attracted to her, I have a girlfriend and I see yn as a younger sister …

→ yourusername thank you hyun!!!

౨ৎ helloo! this is a re upload from my old blog <3 sorry for not posting anything, but i will b posting just old stuff from my old blog while i work on the new stuff 🤫🤫 BE READY FOR A CHARLES SMAU SOON 🤓🤓 also dulce hotline waaaah

@moneygramhaas hai bff ౨ৎ

[vorpalfae]

ive been living with sensory issues my whole life, i freak out when someone makes small changes to my routine, like i hate doing spontaneous things, most of the time i hate physical affection, & i have such a hard time socializing & making friends. i have bipolar disorder and other disorders like anxiety, etc. but my treatment for those things doesn't help with these other issues i have. i hate being like this and i want to work toward change but i don't know what to do to work toward it. 😞

like i said i have trouble making friends and i always have since i was a kid. i've always felt like an alien compared to other ppl. and that's fine because i prefer being alone. but i hate that i can't act normal in social situations and ppl always think im rude or weird when im not trying to be 😢 and it sucks because i kinda have to be in social settings sometimes because i have children. and i dread it for these reasons every time. nobody is interested in the same things as me. and when i talk about my interests ppl tell me im too obsessed with something or tell me its weird altogether. which hurts. and when i am able to make "friends" i always get taken advantage of because i can never tell when someone is taking advantage of me and my kindness or if they have malicious intentions with me. and i feel stupid every time because my bf will tell me they are "obviously playing you" or my mom will say stuff like "can't you tell that they aren't interested?" or the one i always get is "why can't you see that this guy is flirting with you/trying to sleep with you."

idk if im just having a panic attack or a mental breakdown or what. but this has been building up inside of me for years. i feel so stupid and weird. i have to carry lotion around with me because if my hands don't have moisture on them at all times i literally sit there with chills going up my spine and i can't touch anything. certain clothes make me want to rip my skin off. and my family gets annoyed every time i have to run back in the house because i forgot to grab it. which just adds to the guilt i feel for being this way and i can't control these issues no matter how hard i try.

i've literally made so many lists and "rules" for myself on how to act around ppl and i try so hard to follow them just to get through whatever event is going on.

i think thats why i throw myself into my interests and use them to escape reality so much. once i find something i like i become obsessed with it forever and i talk about it so much to the point where my bf tells me its too much. certain characters and shows are the only thing that brings me comfort sometimes. i have so many unnecessary lists and categories for my interests. i know its very time consuming and pointless but just having them makes me feel better. like pinterest for example is my best friend lol. making these lists and stuff just soothes me in a way. as stupid as that sounds. but even tho it comforts me it still makes me feel stupid because ive never met anyone else who does that.

i've never ever spoken about this stuff online/publicly before. mainly because of embarrassment and fear of being bullied for it since ive already been relentlessly harassed for a million other things. i just have so much anxiety all the time. and doing pointless things helps with it but i want to stop feeling this way. or at least have answers as to why i am this way so maybe i can fix it. im tired of feeling awkward or different from other ppl. i want to be normal and pleasant to be around. i want to get along with the other parents at school functions instead of being scared to talk to ppl. i can't even make eye contact with anyone i talk to. ive tried since i was LITERALLY a child and no matter what i always get scared or nervous and look away. and its really noticeable to other ppl because they've mentioned it to me.

i'm posting this to vent but also maybe someone reading this has gone through the same thing or can help me. because i feel so hopeless and im scared im going to be this way forever. ive only been able to find info on the sensory thing and ive found that there is no way to get rid of it. ive tried everything and ive given up on that. but i know i can change my actions and how i interact with ppl if i can just figure out WHY i am like this.

pls don't laugh at me or say anything mean if you choose to comment on this post. i already have so much anxiety and fear about posting it. i don't want sympathy or anything like that. i just need help 😞🥺😢

i have an appointment booked for seeing a psychiatrist but that isn't until november i haven't seen one since i was a little kid. so i'm hoping to maybe get some answers in the meantime.

i already can't work and im getting disability soon because my bipolar is so crippling. it affects my ability to function so much. and i have these other problems on top of it. the fact that i can't even make a living like "normal" ppl makes me feel bad about myself already. and since i can't get a job or a career i want i just want to feel normal in my everyday life and around ppl AT THE VERY LEAST.

[bunnihearted]

i feel absolutely sick to my stomach everytime i rmbr when my friend texted me from the bathroom of her 24yr old boyfriend. we were 12. she was nervous bc they were gnna have sex nd it was her first time, so we texted for a while. even if i was disapproving i comforted her bc i couldnt bring myself to be cruel to her in that moment. in hindsight im so sad bc out of all our friends, she texted me. i was against that relationship the whole time and i never hid it from her. yet i was the one she came to for comfort. i often feel bad for being so mean to her, bc when she first got into that relationship and she talked abt it i always told her how bad and wrong and disgusting that was. i always talked shit abt her bf (abuser nd rapist rlly) and ridiculed him. i knew it made her sad but i didnt care.

she moved away nd then we met up one time at 17, and she thanked me for being so vehemently and openly against that relationship. she told me i was the only one around her who had protested and told her it was wrong. even her own parents had been fine with a 24yr old man being romantically and sexually involved w their 12yr old daughter. (he was a friend to their family btw). she told me that she had become against age gaps now and said she didnt understand how she could've let herself do that. it makes me so sad bc she was a child. her parents should've protected her but no one protected her. i was a child too so i couldnt do anything more than tell her it was wrong. i always thought it was fucked up, but now when im 25.... i realize how truly fucked up it is to be attracted to a fkn 12yr old. like just 18yr olds are children to me. 12 is like a fkn baby. so gross. so sad that hundred thousands millions probably of teenage girls are being preyed upon by gross men and nobody gives a fuck. nobody does anything.

if im being honest i think most ppl even think it's normal and ok. and i mean they can do it openly too, no police involvment, their friends dont care, parents dont care. nobody cares. so sad and so fucked up. my heart breaks for all these girls, most of them wont even know it's bad until they're adults. but many of them will never recognize the damage it's done on them. my old friend still lives w that and from the looks of it, it has affected her profoundly. while that disgusting man just moves on swiftly w his life without a single care in the world. he prob still preys on young girls. fucked up disgusting humanity that allows this. nd i mean it's so dejecting that it IS normalized nd most ppl dont care. we see famous teenage girl being preyed upon by adult male celebs and ppl only romantacize it and support it. it's awful but this is what humanity is: depraved filthy and abusive.

[n3ssier]

HELLO im bacc >;)))

So I keep lookin at your introduction post and fsr I CANT DECIDE WHAT TO PICK- I just wanted to ask like, can ya write a headcanon, but it has both Crypto from Apex and Ppl from r6? Im so super grateful that you didnt mind the emount of characters I requested last time 😭😭 i hope its bot a burden if I request again cause i kinda simp for all of the. 💀

You can just tell me if u dont wanna do this, or just scratch sum characters if its too many :)))))

Can you pleease write a ff (or headcanons, ehatevs ya wnat) where female reader LOVES hugs and is a generally super chill yet chirpy friend and as soon as she gets recruited, she becomes all friendly and tries to befriedn them and after like 1st day of meeting, she alredy sees them as her bestfriend and hugs them from behind as a goodmorning the next day-

Chars: Crypto, Echo, Vigil, Kapkan, Glaz, Jäger (Ik its all the same characters but I cant help my simping, also as i said you can not include whoever you want)

Ik its confusing and as I said before, you aint gotta write this at all💀🤚

ALSO- MOOTS? Saw that you needed friends so we can be bfs >:DD

SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG :( ive had a lot going on and ive also got a job now so i have been short on time but finally got round to writing again!! i hope ya dont mind me doing some hcs and also only doing 4 out of 6 sexy men, bc i worry that if i do fanfics with them all then this will be a v long post bc ill get lowkey carried away😞 (also bc im feeling lazy rn, out here getting up 4am sleeping 12pm😭best lifestyle)

crypto

∙you two first meet on your second day on the job, and he is taken aback by how talkative you are (not in a bad way tho dwdw :)

∙the other legends don’t rlly talk to him outside of the gunfights/workplace so he just doesn’t talk to them either, which is why he was so surprised when you came up to him and tried to befriend him as soon as you’d met him

∙the pride he feels when you start asking about his gadgets goes unmatched, he tries to explain them as easily as possible but gets carried away quickly, leaving you a confused mess and him an embarrassed one as he realises how distracted he got

∙the next morning he’s making breakfast in the break room when he feels you hug him from behind, and he honestly is so tempted to put his hands on yours and stay there but he wants to play it off cool ofc so he just greets you and continues preparing his food

∙this is the EXACT moment he fell for ya

glaz

∙he never expected you to be so talkative or cheery when you joined, but he was happy nonetheless

∙will intently listen to you while smiling and give you facts if he knows any on whatever you’re talking about

∙you guys end up talking for like 3 hours just about anything, he’s kinda curious about you, and ends up asking you a bit about your life in general 

∙would make a lot of effort to help and teach you things, seen as you’re new to r6

∙when you come up to him and hug him as a good morning he chuckles before turning around to hug you back quickly and loosely

∙he could get used to this tho

kapkan

∙ngl he is annoyed at first when you talk to him for the first time, he finds the chat pointless, but after an hour or so he lets his guard down

∙he never realised that chatting with people was so fun until this day, or maybe it was just something about you specifically that gave him the good time, who knows !?

∙he honestly thinks ur pretty cute talking about all the random topics that peak your interest, asking him about 1000 questions aswell

∙when he feels your arms around him the next morning he freaks out

∙tries to push you off, as much as he enjoys it sadly he is too flustered and also not used to physical contact

∙he slowly stops pushing you away the more you come up to him and the more you are hanging round with him

jäger

∙when he first meets you he thinks you’re cool asf, especially when you strike a conversation with him

∙similar to crypto, he feels so much pride when you ask about his gadgets, its like a huge ego boost

∙you guys are sooooo chatty, talking about anything and everything, but make the cutest duo

∙you listen to his rambling and he will listen intently to you back

∙there is NEVER a dull moment between you two😭

∙the other gsg9 members are just happy that he has got someone to listen to him so that they don’t have to LMAO

∙when he feels you hug him from behind the next morning he is a little bit confused but happily hugs you back in return, he definitely thinks about it for the rest of the day tho

[lovedazai]

mai mai can i ask for some life advice if you can answer? if you don’t feel comfortable feel free to delete and ask too.

im someone who’s an adult (18) and in college, ive never ever dated before or anything and my family extended and all is alwyas asking when im going to get a bf (bc my cousins and everyone else as had a bf from like 14+) how do you meet people? i don’t know how and im a anxious person and insecure sometimes. id also want someone who has the same beliefs as me (religious wise) but i just don’t know how to meet people :<

meeting new ppl is scary nonnie :< but ur lucky bc college is a rlly good place to do it !! theres so many ppl who are in a new place for the first time all by themselves, so ur def not alone in feeling this way, i promise <33

i think the first thing u need to do is build up ur confidence (even if ur faking it). ofc that means something different for everyone but for me, i always feel the best when i look good. confidence is just naturally attractive !! u might not even realize it but when ur feeling comfortable w how u present urself, u’ll feel soo much better ab everything else

don’t put too much pressure on urself. thinking back to how i met some of the ppl closest to me, it just kinda happened which i know is super unhelpful T^T but honestly, as long as ur kind to everyone & put urself out there, u’ll naturally come across ppl & develop relationships w them

speaking of !! u’ll have to put urself out there, as scary as that might sound. dont be afraid to talk to ppl first !! but before u go into it w the expectation of finding a boyfriend, maybe start by trying to make friends first. it’ll help u grow out of ur anxiety & build ur confidence w new social situations i think !! i know its scary talking to ppl for the first time esp if ur anxious, but almost nobody is ever as mean as u think they might be. whatever ur mind tells u they’ll do, they probably wont. also dont be too discouraged if some relationships fizzle out or dont go anywhere !! not everyone is a match & thats okay !!

theres literally clubs for everything so def look into them to see if any match ur interests & u’ll find ppl similar to u. im not religious but the first thing that came to mind is maybe u can find a place of worship near u or an organization thru ur college where u can meet someone w the same beliefs as u !! i hope at least a little bit of this helped <33 good luck nonnie, u got this !! ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )⟡

[wrdn-tabris]

a little life update :-)

(pls help i need advice)

so

i have this friend. two friends actually. i went to visit them recently (june)

friend 1, lets call her cat had asked friend two, lets call her bee, to move down with her. bee agreed. issues immediately started. bee was off her meds and didnt want to get back on them, and started picking fights with cat, treating her badly and etc bc thats what bee used to do when she still lived with her mom. pick fights when her mood dropped and get into screaming matches (tho its not like her mom didnt also pick fights with her)

cats telling me abt this at this time and i feel bad bc i feel like i wasnt being a good friend mostly bc i didnt have the energy to hear abt how terrible it was going for her. i was going thru a lot when it started which isnt her fault or my fault, but i feel bad for not being more supportive. so cat stopped telling me abt it, bc i didnt know what to do or how to fix things. i thought stuff resolved itself but i went and visited and it hasnt. really.

so i arrive. bee doesnt come with cat to pick me up, which, ok disappointing but i understood she was tired. she didnt come to eat with us either. which also sad

next day cat asks for some rent money to get herself lunch, bc she forgot to make smth to eat before leaving and cat couldnt and wouldnt give their rent money so she could get lunch. so she asked us to bring her lunch from mcdonalds if she ordered somthing bc she had points on the app, and we had to decide tht if we are driving tht far out to where she works we might as well do something over there. cat asks if we should invite her partner with us and i agreed bc i wanted to meet him. we go to pick up her lunch, she asks me to buy her something rather than ordering smth off the app, which, feels :/ to assume ill just buy it for her. i would have if she asked but she just sent me her order. mybe an asshole move of my to say 'uhhh sure if ur able to order it off the app???'

get the food, fight thru traffic to get to her, have to fight thru parking traffic to get out of where she works. we end up visiting this old military fort and hang out for a few hours and when we come back we think bee is asleep. its like. 7:30? 8:00?

so i try to inflate the blow up bed i got for them to use for when they have other guests sleep over and me and cats bf wake her up while im trying to figure out how to work it so she comes out and snaps at us. i apologize for being loud, promise to be quieter but im inflating the air mattress so i might be loud for a few minutes. the ENTIRE time im inflating it shes standing there arms crossed glaring at us and clearing her throat the entire time. and maybe its just me but??? i find that to be a little fucking rude tbqh. me and the bf are guests and its making me feel unwelcome and regretting the money i spent to come visit her. anyways cat comes out from the bathroom bc bee is still there clearing her throat with her arms crossed even after i finished fixing up the air mattress, and its quiet as hell bc me and bf are both uncomfy. cat gets mad and upset bc were guests in their home and she shouldnt be treating her like tht. shes upset we woke her up but surprise surprise shes even MORE upset i met cats partner before hers bc she wanted it to all be 'together' even tho i agreed to meet bf bc i did! want to meet him! and that we went to the fort without her.

anyways.

i apologize to her abt that bc i wanted to meet him but shes like 'no cat knew i wanted to do this thing' which fair.

the rest of the week goes ok. i get to meet her partner and theyre so nice and funny and i was super excited to meet them. we hit off great. we get lunch with one of cats friends, bee remarks abt 'oh i used to get so upset abt ppl being happier than me, enjoyed making ppl unhappy and would go out of my way to do so, bc i didnt like that they were happy and i wasnt' i buy bee a present for her birthday and u kno week ends i go home, and turns out bees partner comes out to her abt some things and bee freaks out, gets super upset and reacts really poorly. starts crying and going off abt being betrayed and etc.

turns out partner breaks up with her the next day bc they were uncomfortable with the reaction and then she starts crying and going off again abt feeling betrayed and upset and wanting to kill herself and tht they told her they loved her and would never leave and etc etc etc amongst other 'its not faiiiir' reactions. i still hold the opinion she was upset bc they broke up with her first.

cat calls her out for her behavior and that shes saying some very inappropriate things and tht ex isnt an awful person. bee ends up demanding all the gifts she gave ex back and wanted to know what ex would be doing with special gifts they got her before they both broke up.

i honestly end up quite. disgusted? with her behavior bc any time she broke up with someone while she lived separately from cat, shed ghost us and wed only get her side of the story. cat all but ends up moving in with her partner bc bee refuses to clean up after herself and keeps making a mess of things and its just a bad living situation.

cat tells bee tht shes not thinking of renewing their lease at the end of the year bc she cant handle living like this and bee lashes out. ends up making a mess of their kitchen and breaking some of cats things.

she also uses special non stick stuff of cats and uses metal on it (which ur not supposed to do) and keeps using cats own dishes and dishes she got from her grandma and doesnt clean them or anything.

my thing is. i dont know what to do. i kinda wanna stop our friendship bc im upset at how shes treating our other mutual friend. but i dont know if i should talk to her bc ive asked cat if i should try and talk to her to get her to see tht shes not being a good friend and cats told me not to, mostly bc she refuses to see shes wrong. im leaning towards wanting to follow her advice bc she has been living with bee but also it feels so scummy not to say anything esp when i know shes going to be going thru a difficult time in the next few months. however if i talk to her, i dont want to cause her to lash out at bee or have any of her things that are still at their apartment broken bc bees already proven to lash out and break other peoples things when shes upset at them, and i dont want to make it any worse for her.

bee would tend to ghost us when she was stll living with her mother, so much so tht we wouldnt hear from her for weeks or months, esp when she was feeling bad. i would try to reach out to her just to make sure she was fucking alive lmao. im worried if i were to reach out and ask abt all this and end with our friendship splitting off, shed do something drastic like hurt herself. i want to reach out and try to salvage what i feel is a dissolving friendship but i also dont want to be friends with this type of person unless shes worked on herself. i still love and care for her but like i know who i would stick by if i had to which... feels bad to say and sucks but th fact is i am closer with cat, mostly bc when bee would ghost us me and cat would still talk and we have more in common.

i want to talk and ask her why she would do and say these things and treat ppl she loves like this but ive been told not to but it would feel wrong not to at least. reach out. i dont know what to do.

AITA?

[aplaceforthesoul]

Anonymous submitted:

29f here  hi there, I started to "officially" date my boyfriend bout a year ago. Im really happy with him. I adore him, and our relationship is amazing.  I had never been in a commited relationship before, and there is a small thing that has been bothering me lately. I m not a jealous at all, I have never been like this, yet I feel worried about him and his exgf. It all starts when we first met... when we met they werr together and we were not even friends (my bf and me) and then "they broke up" or thats what he said. We started going put as friends and then went on a trip together... we started being friends with benefits after he asured me he was no longer in a relationship with this person. Well turns out one day I was at the beach and I saw them together.he didnt even speak to me. Then he said she still lived in his house bc she was broke and unemployed and that he took her to the beach "cos she wanted to go". We were not a couple just friendswb ... so yeah I distanced myself bc I didnt want to be w someone with a gf... ok so fast forward. After a month or so he  calls me to tell me she trashed his house bc he asked her to leave. So another month ... we start dating. I decided to Just let go of that bc we were not even together. Everything is great and he is like my bestfriend. BUT this lady has messaged him twice.1st saying he saw us together at the beach he didnt answer. 2nd to tell him she was over him and that she was dating sb el se. And he answered hope u r doing well ... like this bothered me ... cos a guy that i was seeing in the past also messaged me and i was like mm yeah idc ... anything else?... bc i genuinely dont care. ...We have a fb Page of a bussines we started together.  The ex often watches stories reels and Leaves reacts here and there but doesnt follow said Page. She blocked a friend of mine bc she thinks she is the actual gf... she doesnt even Know it is me ... but like this shit is toxic. And I now DO belive what he told me about them not being together and him lettting her stay out of pity, bc he often allows ppl to take advantage of him and doesnt set boundaries. This worries me bc im scared she might try sth w him and he May accept bc of this.it also fills me w doubts about HIM having moved on from her. Idk how to approach this wo sounding crazy. I already told him about the fb thing and her blocking my friend and he just says ah yeah .but i dont know how to tell him about my concerns. Hope you could help me. I feel very anxious and like this could be a thing that could ruin the relationship and trust

Hi there. It's understandable that you feel anxious since it seems to be a messy situation. It does not seem like a healthy relationship to me :c

It seems to me that a lot of focus has been put on him and his ex but not you. Have you asked yourself what you want from the relationship and from him? Are you happy being in this relationship/ situation?

As an adult, I think your bf needs to take accountability as he continues letting things happen (even if he no longer has feelings for her). If you are not happy with how things are going, perhaps it's best to find a time when you and him are both calm to have a face-to-face convo

You may approach the conversation by stating your observations and feelings without any criticism or judgment (This link about four components to the Nonviolent Communication (NVC) model, may help). Tell him calmly how the situation (him letting his exgf take advantage of him) makes you feel uncomfortable and you would like to see if boundaries can be put up.

I can also feel that you feel insecure about this relationship as you worried that she may steal him away. Trust and honesty are important qualities of a healthy romantic relationship. Currently, it seems to me that you do not feel secure about your place in the relationship and his behaviours. Apart from talking to him regarding the situation, perhaps try putting the focus back on yourself? Engage in your hobbies, hang out with friends and family or join a new community? When you focus on yourself more, you will have less time to worry about him. You are loved regardless of his feelings for you. You are valued no matter how he treats you. <3

There is also no certain way to know if he/ she was lying. You can only do what's best for you in this situation. Please always take care of yourself first!

Love,

Sammi

[andvys]

TATTOO KISS PART 30

- “You can´t wait to see him, to feel him, to kiss him” AHHHH! I LOVE THAT!

- “You realized that you would be okay, you will find your way back to each other, because the bond that you share is one of a kind, a friendship like yours cannot be broken, no matter what” I like that they´re still gonna be friends, bc I think that when they were friends thinks where easier between the two of them and it seemed easier to trust in the other when they were friends

- “Eddie is sitting on his doorstep, staring up at the pink sky. A cigarette between his lips, he seems to be lost in his thoughts, not noticing you yet” Aww I’m sure he looks cute while he´s lost in his thoughts

- “He looks so pretty” OF COURSE! HE´S EDDIE HE´S THE PRETTIEST BOY!!

- “He is wearing the Megadeth shirt that you had gotten him a while back” Not Eddie using a shirt that´s from my favorite metal band! I love you for that!!

- Why is he sad???

- “You don´t see the way his brows furrow, the way his eyes flash with confusion, you don´t even notice how long it takes him to hug you back” WHATTTTT????

- “I missed you” Did you? He wants to ask, Whyyyyy? OFC I MISSED HIM!

- Yes, I missed him when I was with Steve!!!

-“Are you going to tell me that you went back with Harrington” WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK????

- “Listen, I-I uh, need time…I can´t really deal with this, right now” NOOOOOOO, Y/N doesn´t like Steve anymore, but bc of Steve he doesn´t believes Y/N!!!

- “How can he think he is not worthy? When he is the greatest man and person you´ve ever met” AWWWW

- “You… thought about leaving me?” Nooooooooooo! Andy how can you do this to meee??? ☹

- Awww, I wanna cry, poor Y/N she can´t trust in ppl anymore because they leave, her dad left her, then Steve, I wouldn ´t judge her for thinking that

- AWWWWW, he won´t leave her!

- Y/N is a badass!

- Y/N has a picture of Eddie in her locket??? That´s so cute!!

- I think I´m as impressed as Eddie is bc of his picture in Y/N´s locket. Like I imagined her not knowing what picture to put in it, so maybe it was “pictureless” for a while until she realized that she loved Eddie, so then she put that picture of him that maybe she took, maybe Wayne gave her that picture? IDK

- “As soon as I got it, I cut your face from a picture we took at the carnival, and put it inside” AHHHHHHHH, now I know why she put that picture

- “I love you, Eddie. More than just my best friend” AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! I LOVE THIS!!!!

- “I can´t live without you” AWWWW, I´m gonna cry, like Steve really hurt her, A LOT. And also, she just doesn´t realizes how much Eddie loves her!!

- “I love you so much Eddie Munson” AWWWWWW

- “I love you so much princess” AWWWW, he calls her Princess!! I love it!

- Awww, I love that Eddie´s love is unconditional

- I love how Eddie really prefers her to be happy, than to make her suffer, even if he knows that he can makes her happy, he can´t just force her to love him, and i´m glad that he waited for her

- “I hurt you, I-I´m sorry. I´m so sorry” Awwww

- “I bought it just for you” AHHHHHH! I love that!

- “I love everything about you” He´s so sweet!

-  “I want to learn what you like Eds” AHHH!

- THE SMUT?? LOVE ITTTT!

- “My pretty boy” That´s so cute!

- Eddie crying during sex because feels love and loved!!

- “You are trusting him, loving him, letting him love you” AWWW, that´s so sweet

- “You´re the love of my life” AWWWWW, He´s so sweet!

- “He feels like home” because he´s home

- “You´re mine too” AWWW, they  do love each other

- “I can´t believe you want me” Now I wanna cry, like he´s the best boy ever, why wouldn´t someone choose him??

- WTF was wrong with Steve? Like let´s talk a little bit about Steve as a bf to Y/N, he was such an ass, like Steve only cleaned Y/N only ONCE in all their relationship?? Apart from the other things he´s done before, I´m glad that Y/N found Eddie

- “The fucking cutest” HAHAHA! Love it

- “He had his eyes on you before he even knew your name” AWWWWWWW

- “Loving you felt so safe” Awww, I love that!

- “We´re fucking idiots” HAHAHA! They are!!

- Ok, so Robin knew that Eddie like Y/N but still prefer Steve to be with Y/N than Eddie??

- And Steve knew even before Gareth??? WTH!

- Not Eddie having a jacket that belongs to Y/N while in the first chapters, Y/N had Eddie´s jacket in her bedroom

-  WAYNEEEEEEE

-  Even Wayne knew and Eddie and Y/N didn´t HAHAHA

- AWWWW, happy Eddie! I love it!!

- Awww, so they´re gonna have a trip? That´s romantic!

- Okay, i´m kinda sad that she´s gonna move out of the state with Eddie bc I hoped to see more of them as a couple, but surrounded by friends and family

- I´m also sad that it seems like, after Steve and Y/N, his dad seems cold towards him

- AWW, the end was cute

Okay, I´m crying rn, I did not expect that they would move out of Hawkins, I imagined them living in a little house near Wayne or smth, or even still living with Wayne and Y/N´s mom, but I hope that in some future, they come back to Hawkins, I hope they come either to visit or to stay, and spend time with Heather, Argyle, Chrissy, Robin, Steve, Wayne, and Y/N´s mom, but I liked this chapter a lot!

-  🩷

AAHHH IM SO HAPPY YOU LIKED THE LAST CHAPTER!!!

thank you for this review! i’m always so entertained reading your reactions! 🤭🩷

Eddie and her just wanted some time to themselves, that’s why they decided to move out of Hawkins! They will be back though, and you’ll see them back in Hawkins in the epilogue!

Thank you for reading this story, for sending all these sweet reviews and for your support 🩷🫶🏻

[kazocheeto]

Idk if any other trans men feel similarly, but everytime I've asked to not be treated like a woman I've always been met with hostility

For example, my ex wife insisted I do every chore, and cook for her. She made me remind her of her appointments, made me get presents for her family, etc. If I tried teaching her how to cook or clean, she would barely even try. She also insisted i ask her to do chores instead of just doing them. Anytime I brought up feeling dysphoric abt this, she would spin it on its head and tell me I was treating her like "the man" in this situation

My mom tells me we should pretend to be lesbians to make men leave us alone (as a former lesbian this doesn't work), she gasps loudly when ppl call me sir, and she habitually insinuates that I will be kidnapped (I have a beard and am pretty heavyset). Anytime I correct her, I am ignored or she rolls her eyes

My sibling even was shocked when I said my bf preferred men "despite dating me" and when I said he was bisexual they said "oh that makes sense" I haven't corrected them because that never ends well

I've been told I'm a blue haired feminist because of me being irritated abt this. More transmisandry on top of this tired shit tbh

[jenanddomo]

6.28.23

11:39pm

hey, its been a long time since i actually put something!

lets start w love life

so i got w my bf lol in early april! he so sweet n cute. he fr has the best version of me he so lucky

the reason y i say he so lucky bc i fr try my hardest not to be ugly or mean to me, he doesn’t deserve that. me n him r doin well :) prob bc it jst the beginning still but even then i tell him everything lol , i told him my darkest secrets n stuff (i thought he was gon be a stranger) but we always havin convos. i sleep w him once a week sometimes two, he so comfortable to sleep with.! i love to be ard him, we do little cute dates n i drove us to the movies to watch elemental it was so cute! so rn thats good

i treat him super good, im super honest w him n i jst cant lie to him:( i tell him the truth eventually. i only lie to him to mes w him like sum stupidddd

but thats that

mentally

i have been doin great actually! i dont feel miserable or depressed, empty, like im so happy now! life is great, i love everyone ard me :) every1 so great their hasnt been anyone so negative uk? im also very real to myself i accepted n jst found peace within myself

so thats good

pets

my two og cats died my spooky n kingking:(

i miss them very much i miss my black n orange cat they were like ying n yang . i miss their cute little personalities they were the best

but now a general

post

lets talk abt what i think and stuff

so i moved on lol as i said i found peace within myself , lookin at the old posts,, gosh who let me cook,,, i saw old posts, messages, and everything n its so crazy how much i changed in 5 months really. lookin at how immature i was , i was so clueless and stupid and lookin back at it now it likes been there uk? it was never a good thing from the get go:) i accepted that, i also accepted i used to be a bad person to but ik i got so much better, the guy im w he makes me want to be a better person.

eating? i dont eat anymore lol, i still eat below like 1000 cals , like every 2 weeks i will eat above it butttt idk! honestly in only this month i lost 8-9 lbs:) so now im 142 yippe yayayay my goal weight is 120-130 so in total i lost 38 lbs which is crazy. when my bf met me i was above 155 so im pretty happy w that

my life been so peaceful and im jst so glad alot of ppl left my life this year before i graduated, n im thankful for those ppl too without yall i wouldnt be who i am today uk? yes i was mad, childish and everything, that part it jst sum i still need to work on bc i do have anger issues. but even then i dont like arguing anymore or jst fightin in general, yea thats what i learned what to do but its not worth it uk? on my insta reels i see some relatable posts that i relate to so much im jst like awh:3

im glad im jst not how i was before uk? rn im jst so calm, i dont feel empty no more , i actually starting to feel motivation to do sum, i want to do sum w my life and i want to help others ard me.

when it was my last day of school, it was supposed to be “sad” but i was so happy bc i donated blood n my blood helped someone:D i was so happyyy like jst helpin other ppl makes me ecstatic.

i also quit smoking so im proud of myself for that:) i do have moments where i wan do it n stuff but im like no drugs bad n the only bad thing i do is drink, but even then im trying to stop that too bc their was one week were i drank everyday but i told myself i dont wan be like my dad so i kind of stopped.

my music taste is different then it was 5 months ago.

i have 2 new cats gizmo n walter.

im jst so happy rn lol i dont know what to say:3

but im glad for what happened to me , im glad i went through stuff when i was a kid, im glad i finally even opened up abt it to someone im jst so glad everything happened bc i jst wouldnt be who i am now

i guess

im just tryin to be a bigger better person

i dont want to be childish no more i dont want to fight i dont want to hit or argue or cause shit on purpose

lately i been emotional but i think

i jst need it bc im jst so glad how open i am w all that stuff rn

i also finished king of the hill lol i dont know if i put that

[namchyoon]

I saw a post about some guy dating his army gf for about a year but he's getting insecure when she talks about bts when she gushes over him or say "shes in love with 7 men" and how much she loves them and he noted how passionately she talked about them etc and how he feels basically like there's always 7 ppl in front of him, and it made me wonder, if your partner felt this way what do you even say to them? honestly, when I say I love these men, I genuinely do, with all my heart. They hold a special place I don't think anyone else can touch. Not in a romantic sense but yeah idk how I'd explain, I never had to tell someone that lol. Curious how would u go about it? (I felt bad but I kinda laughed when he said he felt unloved when she talked about jk 😭😂) I think he needs to understand there's different types of love and it has nothing to do with their romantic relationship

okay so, funny story, i actually did break up w my bf like 5 months after i got into bts 😭 the break up was a long time in the making tbf (like before i got into bts) but he also kept making very insulting comments about them (which was even more weird bc i was very into kdramas before i even met him and he even knew that and went to watch parasite with me in theatres and enjoyed it??? so it was not even like generalized racism (which is common sadly but not w him) it was just specifically bangtan???) and i think bts' love yourself message also helped me a lot in the process but he never actually said you love them more than me or anything 😭 point being, i feel like if my s/o did say smth like that to me i would atp be like you literally knew what you were getting into when you started dating me bc i'm very clear even with all my friends when we become closer being like listen. i love bts and if that's a problem then you need to get over it. like my friends get passionate over their specific interests like sports (which is a lot more than 7 people....) or gaming (which my ex used to do for 10+ hours on weekends instead of hanging out 👍) or whatever so why can't i gush about bts i don't understand? as you said, it's different types of love and as much as i love bangtan, it's not a friendship or a relationship in the these are people i actually know personally way? but obviously i really do love them a lot even if i can't explain it? and like all of my friends have been pretty accepting about it, most of them listen to bts w me if we're just hanging out (some send me album reviews for each new bts album/song that drops that i link them to djfkdkf), one of them even watched the ptd concert w me bc it was while i was in class so i had one earphone in and i've watched vlives with them bc it started while we were eating or smth 😭 i can also tell them in advance that i'm busy on certain dates bc there's a concert/cb and they're like yeah, makes sense so i wouldn't expect any less from a s/o if my friends are so adjusting and don't feel unloved by it? 😭 it's not a daily occurrence and when they DO need me to be there, i will be there regardless of anything else so at the end of the day, i think that's what matters like, as long as she's with him when it's important it shouldn't be a problem i think 😭

[yagamisdiary]

amara i’m conflicted, my bestie told me she’s been talking to a guy for over a month etc and she literally described the biggest red flags ever and now i’m just angry at this whole situation idk how to feel abt it bc i always imagined her w someone perfect n then she starts taking abt the most average guy ever and the fact that she didn’t tell me like am i stupid for being annoyed?? mind u she’s a long distance bestie and i’ve never met her but we’ve been literal best friends for almost 5 years now she’s my ride or die typa girl ykwim?? so i only want what’s best for her IDK man i feel weird

a lot of the time our friends are going to date ppl we don’t like (i don’t think i’ve ever liked one of my friends bfs LOL) and no matter what u tell them, they can’t see those red flags cause they’re too blind with infatuation so u usually just gotta let them find out the hard way and be there for them when it gets bad

[kara-is-a-cutie]

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17: Do you like kissing in public?

Yes, but I do have a hard time actually doing it cause as a teen I had friends who made me feel bad about PDA.

31: Have you ever cried over someone?

Yes, I mean who hasn't?

60: What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?

27,5 years.

72: What words do you like heating during sex?

Just like generally making it known they're enjoying it: telling me how good I feel etc. I also like getting called slut and whore, but not in a degrading way if that makes sense.

75 : What's the sweetest thing anyone's ever done for you?

Oh that's a hard one to answer. Idk. Like anything I can think of just feels like ppl would say its the bare minimum.

79: When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?

I can't remember exactly, all I can say is that it was probably me feeling insecure about how close Ree is to one of his female friends or something. Totally a me issue though cause I know if he wanted to be with them he would be. Why bother getting into a LDR when someone else you want lives closer you know?

85: Would you ever date someone off the internet?

3/4 of the ppl I've dated, including my bf, I met online.

[dogfags]

trauma stuff / vent / idk

I shared more of my trauma with my bf last night and the way he is so sweet & literally always knows what to say & just treats me so well?? idk I don't talk abt my trauma with virtually anybody cos.. idk I did all that in therapy I don't feel the need to keep talking abt it. but I want him to know ig?? I rly didn't tell my ex much at all about my trauma like they knew the gist of my childhood shit but not any of the other stuff or any details of anything.

it's also the way that I told my ex abt my childhood trauma with my brother and then they met my brother and said that he "seems cool" and that he's funny. which was just a whole entire slap to the face for me bc.. hello??? that's my abuser?? I was so taken aback when they said that to me that I hardly said anything in response and then just never brought it up again or shared any more of my trauma w them. bc ya, of course he seems "cool and funny" he's a fucking manipulative abusive freak. he knows how to fake it to win ppl over and seem cool.

but ya I told Chris abt my ex Connor and what happened when I was coming out as trans for the first time. and he is just so reassuring and sweet and kind to me. I big love him