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#this is so new to me omg ... people wanting to hear my analysis and mentally illeness
bonnieisaway · 1 month
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Hi Bonnie, do you have any thoughts about Dai Bo?
do you guys know the sheer dopamine hit i get everytime i'm asked shit like this. like just the fact people want to hear my thoughts enough that people go out of their way to unprompted ask me about it. drugs could not simulate this emotion
i love dai bo :3 certified hardest character to explain to any person i'm introducing to the show fr
ok but fr though i feel like his appearance lets a lot of people forget about how deep his character is and how well written he is. because he's written fucking gloriously and he is shaped by his tramua perfectly. a lot of characters in this show have to confront this sort of cycle of violence and dai bo's is more familial and generational than most other character's. he only fought for his friend's son. and he fought so hard to break the cycle. like he's the most beautiful example of breaking the cycle of violence.
SPECIFICALLY with the scene with king pheasant where he's ready to straight up kill that bitch until he looks over and sees xiao fei. and he realizes that xiao fei does not need to see this. xiao fei will not be shaped the way dai bo was, and the cycle WILL stop with dai bo. and this scene is mirrored when xiao fei and seven are going to hurt king pheasant, where dai bo tells them to leave him alone. where dai bo fights to stop the cycle.
and the way his hatred for humans is shaped by seven. how seven is the perfect person for dai bo to have ever met. the best way to prove to dai bo that humanity has good, has beauty in it; this is a man who remembers NOTHING. not even his own name. if you're watching the show in chinese, he doesn't even speak the same dialect as everybody else around him. and this factory-reset, lump of clay of a person with nothing but his own instincts is so kind and trusting. that's how dai bo learns humans can be good so quickly. not just because seven was so kind and forgiving, but because dai bo realizes seven was inherently BUILT that way. that it was his NATURE itself.
and i love the way he clings to this, too; not even just this version of seven but seven himself. because it's subtle at first, because dai bo is not the kind of person who confronts emotions, but it's noticeable. i have an old post where i pointed it out before he confirmed it in season four; when seven is so amazed and stricken by the view of xuanwu, dai bo instantly dismisses and diminishes it, dai bo is constantly upset when seven leaves without him, dai bo is desperately clinging to the seven he knows and is terrified of seven being forced to return to that cycle of violence that he escaped from.
because like, of course he is! dai bo fought for his friend's son to escape that cycle. so to see this man, who he absolutely sees as his own son, have to return to the cycle of violence, let alone for dai bo's sake, of course it destroys him. of course he wants to cling to him and try and dissuade him; who cares about everybody else, as long as you're home and safe. xuanwu not only symbolizes a home far disconnected from dai bo to seven but in dai bo's eyes it's another massive perpetuator of a violent war. i mean he makes that clear when he explains xuanwu and stan - they are the ones fighting the war, we are the normal, smaller, common folk caught in the middle; shelter yourselves and enjoy your small life here.
but violence is neverending, isn't it? even when dai bo destroyed the chicken farm and the fighting ring, what happened? king pheasant found another perpetuator for his vice in stan. another hamster wheel of violence to spin, a super solider of propoganda and murder. something so much bigger than both of them. but dai bo has to accept that seven is an integral part of this 'bigger than them' bit when it comes to xuanwu. that he has to let go of this idea of an obedient, normal, casual seven. just like accepting your son isn't your little boy anymore, that's a grown man. and aside from the metaphor itself seven is actually at the perfect age for this. seven meets dai bo when he's about 19 and fairly skinny and small, and it's mentioned/implied he's grown a bit since meeting dai bo and we know he's 21 in season four.
anyways i love dai bo. i feel like he's underrated and we need to talk about him more. although sometimes i wanna ask the director like, why specifically dai bo and xiao fei were chickens. was there a meaning or a reason or do you think it was just cause they thought it was funny and also what does this implicate about chickens and pidgeons as a whole in this universe
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ovaryacted · 2 months
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It’s easier for my to picture Leon being a sub than Chris. But ohhh boy. The idea of having such a beefy soldier boy underneath me, trying to hold back his moans paints a very pretty picture. Don’t you agree?
MDNI/18+. NSFW.
Omg yessss anon, absolutely! In my mind, Leon is easier to perceive as a sub just because he's pathetic and it seems more natural to his character. But with Chris, I think it would definitely be a process involving having to break down his walls and get him in the mentality to be submissive. Let me get into some character analysis to explain this a bit better.
In my mind, Chris is a man of action, of discipline, and routine. He has put himself into this leadership role for most of his life since he took care of Claire and went to the military. He's often depicted as a leader, someone who knows how to handle business with or without a team, and he just carries himself in a certain that matches well with his physique and appearance. However, he is not an aggressive guy, quite the opposite. I see him as a loving sweetheart and softie through and through, and I love that about him in particular.
That being said, this mentality he has of being a leader and someone who needs a semblance of control definitely translates in the bedroom. He has a preconceived idea of how the roles should be, that he should be the top, the one to initiate, the one to control what goes on (with enthusiastic consent of course). It's not necessarily that he can't be submissive, but that it feels taboo for him to be on the receiving end when he's so used to doing everything else. He's the provider in his relationship, he likes to tend to his partner's needs and make sure that they're all taken care of.
In a way, those same habits from taking care of Claire when they were younger and eventually taking care of Rose after Ethan dies (I headcanon him doing that idc), reflect how willing he is to make sure those he cares about don't have to worry about a thing. Likewise, he believes he has to provide pleasure, and that he needs to be commanding in the bedroom because that's what is often shown in mainstream porn or what he thinks people enjoy the most.
To break him out of that habit, he would need a partner who can show him how things can be different, and that it's okay to experiment and do things that are not considered the "norm" at least in his head.
Now his view is of you over him, your hips moving over his own and keeping him pinned with his back against the mattress. His eyes remain hazed over, having a hard time focusing on looking at your body or focusing on the way you felt. Wrapped tightly around him, clenching every time you harshly pulled your body back down onto him.
Chris was a bit nervous when you said you wanted to take control, not because he was against it but because he's not used to being in the position of taking what is given to him. But when you were so adamant about wanting to take care of him, he couldn't deny you. He certainly didn't regret it one bit.
His mind goes blank, groans slipping out of him with ease as his rough hands hold your hips and guide you over him. He couldn't help himself from thrusting up into you every time you came back down, matching your pace with his own movements. He's lost in you, practically drowning in your body and he can't stop the whimper that comes out of him.
It was a new sound, something exciting that only made you move harder against him. Your hands went towards his shoulders, nails digging into his thick skin with every moan Chris tried to hide. He bit his lip, cheeks flush as he realized just how noisy he was getting. You bent forward, kissing him on the mouth and shivering when he whined against your tongue.
"Don't hide from me, baby. I want to hear you, got it?", you purred against him, and he offered you a hazy smile, squeezing your hips just a bit harder and craving more.
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miru667 · 11 months
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HIII!! miru, i'm shakoo
I was really doubting whether to send you this message or not, because I felt sorry but hey!, my curiosity and need to know more brought me here hehe
(sorry if I have grammatical errors, I'm still learning English so I make mistakes, I still hope you understand what I mean)
Well I'll summarize it as much as I can ^^
Miru I love your art so much and Au (I'm still updating myself with the story so I can understand it more)
I recently became very interested in the Lorax fandom, (specifically for the character most acclaimed) The once-ler fandom, I didn't know it had its own place on the internet and I never really inquired much about it, but a month ago I found myself with one of your pieces of art and I was honestly surprised that the onceler had fanarts, and when I discovered your blog I was fascinated
I have been reading and reading everything for days, and I love what was formed around the movie
And I loved your headcanons as well as the analysis that you did from time to time.
And well the question I wanted to ask you is just one
How does it feel to be part of this fandom for literally 1 decade?
I can't imagine the things you experienced in the fandon and the history that it entails :O
And finally
Thanks for reading, I'm sorry if the message is a bit long, or a bit meaningless, but there are many things on my mind right now, I've read so many blogs jeje
Without more to say, thank you very much Miru!!!
Omg HIIII welcome to the fandom! I'm so happy you ended up sending this message, please don't hesitate because I love answering asks! Man I'm!! 🥺 I'm so honoured to hear that you've enjoyed my art and my headcanons and analyses, I'm really proud of the few analyses I did so that makes me really happy 🙈
Good luck on your reading of old posts, there is so much to read I can't even imagine being able to catch up with everything O_O New fandom members who try to read old stuff are real troopers.
As for your question ahhhHHHH I KNOWWW I've been in this fandom for literally a third of my life so far...I say this to everyone but onceler fandom is like my culture now. 🥲 That's how it feels. You are right, there were a lot of valuable experiences and there has been a lot of history.
I see people dig up old posts and reblog them and sometimes I think "they don't know that that piece of art was drawn by my friend for my other friend to cheer them up when they were going through a rough time" or "they don't know that this piece of art led to the falling out of a friend group" or "they don't know that I literally watched my friend draw the sketch for this piece of art when I visited them irl many years ago and it was one of the most happiest times of my life that I can't get back anymore because we drifted apart from each other"
Like..! :,) Many pieces of our lives are attached to this fandom so I just hope that our old stuff gets treated with respect. I don't watch YouTube analyses of the fandom anymore because they just talk about oncest and maybe mention the AUs and they don't know that most of the fandom was actually about our friendships with each other.
So that's how it feels to have been in the fandom for a decade! You become familiar with certain patterns too so I see certain things happening over and over again as the fandom revives itself over and over, but with every revival there's something new too because of the general shifts in internet culture haha. These past few years I've preferred to stay a bit removed from it all for my own mental health and just concentrate on my Audrey oc and rping with my friends 🥰
Thank you for the ask and no need to apologize for a long message since I just typed an even longer one HAHA
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officialsimppage · 4 years
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Request: hellooo i was wondering if you could do (young) spencer meeting a young, pretty shy med student? (for example she’s 25 and he’s 30 or something) they could meet while investigating a crime scene and keep bumping into each other all the time, eventually getting together. i love fluff so it’d be great if it was cute and all :) hope you have a great day! ❤️
A/N:Hi! Thank you for requesting! I did the best I could and I hope you like it!
Warnings: mentions of case, bad medical talk.
I start my day by opening up a school book. It’s my 3rd year in med school and I have an exam to study for. Yay. To find a way to distract me from my grueling task I turn on the news, hoping to find something interesting. There has been a murder behind Joe’s Bar in town. All we know is that she was a brunette female social worker. Stay safe out there. Holy shit. Joe’s Bar is only a mile from here. I turn off the tv, put on my shoes and head out to the bar to check out the crime scene.
I get to the bar and there is a crowd of people surrounding the police tape. I look and I see, Omg those people are from the freaking FBI! I see their jackets! I am snapped of my thoughts when someone bumps into me,
“Ah! Oh god, I am so sorry I’m just trying to get through.” the man says to me I look up and meet his eyes. Oh. My God. It has got to be the most handsome man I have ever seen. He is about 6’0- 6’1, amber eyes, soft smile, nice eyebrows and a great jawline. I look down and look at the jacket he is wearing. Oh my god he’s a FBI agent! A super cute one too! I always thought FBI agents were old white guys, or badass women. 
“No uh, um, it’s fine! It was my fault I wasn’t paying attention. And It’s really nice because it’s not everyday you bump into a handsome cute man.” I say, stumbling a bit and having trouble making eye contact with the man. Probably blushing a bit.
“Ah no it’s mine as well. I also think you are pretty as well. Really pretty by the way. Also sorry I’m just tired. I was woken up early to work this case. I'm with the Behavioral Analysis Unit in the FBI.” he says scratching his head looking at me. All of me if I might add.
“Thank you and uh of course! You’re an FBI agent! That’s so cool by the way. I’m just a lame med student who’s 26 and barely has a life! But the Behavioral Analysis Unit, that sounds fancy.” I say sarcastically. “What’s your name?” I ask, hoping to get to know him.
“Uh um, I’m Dr. Spencer Reid! Uh also before you ask I am a doctor in mathematics, engineering, and chemistry. Also what you’re doing is- it’s amazing! You’re uh saving lives! Like me! Gah, sorry I forgot to ask what is your name?” He asks after mentally face palming himself. God it’s so cute.
“Im uh future Dr. Y/N Y/L/N! Nice to meet you!” I say while shaking his hand.
“Nice to meet you Y/N.” he says, then somebody in another FBI jacket yells something that I can’t quite hear. “Ah sorry I uh have to go. Nice meeting you Y/N!” he says running away into a SUV. Wow, that was the most awkward and sweet bumping into someone ever. Like ever. I then decide I’ve had enough and start to walk back to campus after I take a detour so it can be a longer walk. Because I am dreading studying for the exam. 
It’s a day after the initial meet up with the cute Dr., and, it’s exam day. My exam is at 10 oclock so I decided to go to my favorite coffee shop to get a nice pick me up before I take an exam that will determine if I need to redo this year. And I am not redoing. I put on my hat because of the chilly Virginia air and I start walking to the coffee shop. When I get there it is decently quiet. I look around and I notice there is one man in line. He is wearing black slacks and a blue dress shirt with short curly brown hair. The man gets his drink and he turns around and- Oh my gosh. It’s the FBI agent from yesterday! 
“Dr. Reid! Hi oh my gosh! It’s you again! How’s it going?” I ask him. He looks up, and looks confused for a second then he smiles and responds with,
“Y/N! Hi! It’s nice to see you um how's it going? Ah sorry I need to answer you first um I’m doing, doing well. This case is not being closed anytime soon.” He stumbles a bit. He looks down at his coffee and looks up at me. He looks tired. Very, very tired.
“I’m doing well! Well, sorta. I have an exam today. Also, it's sad to hear that nothing is going well with these crazy murders.” I say with a chuckle. I look up at him and meet his eyes. Those sweet eyes. 
“You have kind eyes.” I say. Crap! Why did I just say that?
“I um, thank you.” he says looking at his feet fidgeting a bit. Ugh, he probably thinks I’m weird. He probably wants to run out of here and-
“Sorry I’m so awkward, I never really talk to women.” he says looking up at me and looking back down. Oh thank the lord it’s only bad social skills and not him hating my existence. 
“Nah it’s all right, I don't get out much as well.” I say looking up at him. “I’m a med student so all I focus on is how to dissect an aorta! Not talking to cute guys.” I say with a smile to him. He looks up and meets my eyes. And I felt no worries about my exam or anything at all! Then the moment is interrupted by his phone ringing.
“Ah, sorry I have to go. Good luck on your exam!” He says running out of the building. 
“Wait! Can I get your nu-!” damn it. Too late. He is already running down the block. I missed my chance. Yay. That’s always fun. I mean it’s totally like everyday you meet a cute FBI agent that’s your age and keep running into him and have great chemistry. Yeah totally that happens everyday. Gosh, I need to get my mind off him. I’m a med student and I have an exam. I can’t be thinking of cute boys right now. I then order my coffee, get it, and head back to campus to take my exam. 
I sit on a bench outside of my campus dreading 1:00, the time I get my exam answers back. What if I fail? What if I have to keep redoing and redoing and never get to be a doctor? Or a surgeon? What if I never get a good job. All these thoughts keep going through my head and it gives me a headache. I get up and I decide to take a walk around campus. I get around to the main building and. No, it can’t be. This is the 3rd time this week! How is this even possible,
“Y-Y/N?” Spencer says running to me. Oh god. Cute agent alert. 
“Oh hey Spencer! Wha- What are you doing here?” I ask him. Honestly being genuinely confused. I was wondering if he came to see me or if my roommate was like  a serial killer. Eesh- that would not be fun. I do not plan on ending up in a morgue anytime soon. 
“Oh we um found our guy and we were just looking for details on him. He was a janitor here.” He says looking at me. 
“Oh god he worked here? Like I could have seen him before?” I say, shocked. I could have walked past a serial killer. Wow. 
“Yeahh probably,” he says then he looks up at me and sighs. “Look Y/N, I think you’re really pretty. Andd I really like you and I’ve been to awkward to tell you because I think you’ll reject me because I’m lanky and-” I pull him in and I kiss him. Kiss him. I kiss a freakin FBI agent. Its soft, letting him know I get the memo. We pull away smiling and he asks,
“Would you like to uh um, go on a date? Tomorrow? At 7? I- I can pick you up!” He says hopefully, praying to the gods I say yes.
“Yes Spencer, that would be lovely.” I say pulling him in for another soft kiss. We pull away with our noses touching and I say,
“I think the universe wanted us to date so that’s why we kept seeing each other.”I say smiling.
“Yeah it probably was fate.” he says staring into me eyes.
“Yeah, maybe it was.” 
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silver-wield · 4 years
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Hey so I was wondering if you did/could do an analysis on clouds various panic attacks ptsd episodes and how he responds to each one I’m interested to read your thoughts on each one since you usually bring a new perspective to the table for me so thanks for that!
All of Cloud's ptsd attacks? Damn, that's a lot of searching I've got to do. I might not find them all. I'll do my best but you'll have to let me off if I miss a couple lol
Ok, spoiler warning for ppl who haven’t played – do I still need to do this? Eh ok, (I tag FF7R spoilers as final fantasy 7 remake spoilers) and it’s gonna be long.
Also, this is one person’s interpretation of the scene, so if you disagree that’s cool and we’ll agree to disagree.
You’re also gonna have to excuse the janky quality on some of the screens, I’m grabbing them from Youtube and it’s frustrating af trying to get the exact moment I want.
Please check my master post to see if I've already covered your question, thanx
Recap time!
I explain Cloud's entire backstory which covers his PTSD and other issues here, so that should do for a recap right?
A further thing to note is that PTSD affects people differently and in Cloud's case it manifests as a psychological taunt in the form of Sephiroth. Embodiying his sense of failure, lack of self-esteem and self-actualisation, this version of Sephiroth is the one that Cloud reacts to the most strongly. This is the one that makes him whimper with fear and react on instinct instead of observing the situation and attacking. This is the one he fears, and it's a part of himself wearing a monster's face. Why Sephiroth? Who else has done him more harm? Sephiroth killed his mother, Tifa (so he assumes), burned his hometown to the ground and was indirectly responsible for his best friend's death, too.
And Cloud couldn't do a thing about it. He is the manifestation of everything that Cloud hates and fears about himself. Because of this, he's dissociated from much of his feelings. He still feels, but at a lesser degree than he should were he fully in touch with his real self.
Moseying on.
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The first PTSD induced attack isn't actually prompted by Sephiroth himself, although he does feature in it. Cloud's first attack happens when he sees the destruction of sector 8 and buildings burning. This gives him the association of the last time he saw a burning building, which happened when his village burned. The sensory input of sights, sounds and smells prompted the memory, which combined with the high stress situation and Cloud's own latent anxiety and guilt for his part in this chaos.
You see a close up of Cloud's eye as it widens and real!Cloud's memory pushes to the forefront of his mind – remember, these memories are things SOLDIER!Cloud can't access at will, which is why they cause him pain when it happens.
Theres a static noise in the background, which is meant to convey a type of ringing in Cloud's ears and then the building's facade morphs to that of his house with the fence around it.
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While much of what Sephiroth says is in line with this being a separate being from Cloud and not merely his own subconscious taunting him, there are elements of it being a combination of both. This is in line with the OG where Sephiroth was able to get in Cloud's head and make him doubt his own sense of self. With what we know of how Jenova's cells manipulate Cloud, it's believable that Sephiroth is both a separate being manipulating Cloud to his own ends and partly an aspect of Cloud's psyche that exists to push blame on him for everything. It's the representation of his mental illness that he struggles to fight.
Obviously, there's no fire, so Cloud sweating and breathless is because they're physical symptoms of his PTSD induced trauma.
Sephiroth's taunting lines about how he killed Cloud's mother are overkill when you consider the real Sephiroth's personality. The combination of the overarching Sephiroth and Cloud's PTSD version make a powerful foe that he never really beats. This is a metaphor for the fact those with mental illness are never really free. It's a lifetime battle and even if they're in recovery, that demon is just waiting for one weak moment when they can get them back in their grip.
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You can hear Cloud gasp in this scene as once again Sephiroth appears to taunt him. He's not fully recovered from the last attack and now there's another right on top of it. Sephiroth appearing is once again partly Cloud's own trauma and partly the Jenova cells in him warping his perception and allowing Sephiroth to mess with him.
Unlike the time before, this Sephiroth vision is a simple taunt that Cloud is too weak to save anyone. This is his guilt and self-loathing talking about how he couldn't save his mom, Tifa or his town. It could also be hinting that he couldn't save Zack either.
The hidden implication of this scene is the fact that Sephiroth puts his hand on Aerith's shoulder. This is the only time Sephiroth touches anyone besides Cloud.
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The next time Cloud has an attack is during the reactor 5 mission. This happens because of Tifa's presence drawing out the painful memory of the Nibelheim reactor where he believed she died after facing down Sephiroth.
Even in the midst of his PTSD attack he looks to Tifa. She doesn't know what's happening with him and he backs away from taking a chance to confide in her, but even during this moment when he's showing weakness he has very good eye contact with her. He's looking her directly in the eye, which he wouldn't do if he wasn't comfortable with her. This shows that Cloud sees her as a source of comfort and support.
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You can see the lingering doubt on his face here after he dismisses the attack. He's not aware of what the memory means because he's not in touch with the full story – that belongs to real!Cloud kept hidden away. He knows it's left him unsettled and feeling like a failure. This is one of the few times I've seen that Cloud doesn't dismiss out of hand the content of the attacks.
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Tifa repeats a phrase she said back then and Cloud's sense of failure surfaces, causing him pain and to freeze up. We get a voice over from real!Cloud referring to the time he believes he let Tifa down. Before the SOLDIER persona can get too deep into it or question what he means, Barret yells for him to focus. Cloud shakes off the paralysing feelings, but that doesn't stop Tifa asking it he's ok, which he dismisses again. This is typical of truama survivors pushing their feelings down and attempting to function without ever truly dealing with the source of their pain.
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This next flash is prompted by the events during chapter 8 where the children get into trouble and Cloud has to rescue them. It echoes a similar even in his past where Tifa climbed Mt Nibel and fell, despite his best efforts to save her. She spent a week in a coma and Cloud was blamed for the incident and told to stay away from her.
The past emotions of guilt and failure mingle with the present situation to prompt a flash of pain as the memory of Tifa surfaces. It's his feelings of guilt and having failed her that cause the pain, not Tifa herself because when he says to Aerith he doesn't know how to explain he turns to the spot where he saw the vision of Tifa and smiles wistfully. This means Tifa herself doesn't cause him pain. The feelings he has about himself, do.
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Chapter 13 and omg I love this freak out! I'm sorry, but this is such a great moment for Cloud and really highlights how low he is at this point. This shows the depth that we miss from him always having his SOLDIER persona taking charge. He's just lived through a tragedy. He's seen the girl he likes in pieces and trying to hold it together. He wants to comfort her. He wants to be himself, but he can't because he's just not good enough. He's feeling like a failure in more ways than one. He lost people too, goddamnit!
Then, in a misguided attempt to distract Tifa from her pain, he stumbles right into a trigger point for his own trauma. Of course he wouldn't know this. It's one of those flashes of Sephiroth ranting about his role and Jenova and shit. (I might have mistakenly said this was a future-flash somewhere, but then I remembered he does this rant right before he kills everyone in Nibelheim).
There's very little blocking to the memory. This is pretty well sealed by real!Cloud compared to his other memories. Even painful ones of Tifa have more context than this. This is something that is so damaging to Cloud's psyche that he can't even fill in the space around it.
So, we get the same kind of staticky noise we heard in chapter 2 when the vision of Sephiroth showed. Cloud gasps pretty loud here tbf. He's unguarded because of the vision and possibly his own distraction about what he's just been through. He wasn't prepared to see Sephiroth here even more than he was back in chapter 2 when he had a full on panic attack.
I mean, his pupils are seriously dilated here. Boi is scared.
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Cloud's whimpering and my heart breaks for him. Sephiroth is hitting all his weakest points by bringing up failure and mentioning it's not the first time that's happened. Cloud's at a low point already, so it's not unexpected he backs away from this rather than tries to fight. This isn't SOLDIER!Cloud. This is real!Cloud. The fear has driven real!Cloud to the surface and he wants to run away, just like Sephiroth taunted back in chapter 2.
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“Through suffering you will grow strong. Isn't that what you want?”
Clearly not by the look on Cloud's face. The part of him that's real!Cloud within this moment looks like he wants to scream that he's had enough of being in pain. He wants to shake his head and deny that he deserves it. What did he ever do wrong?
I feel like this is more of Cloud's own subconscious taunting him and implying that he deserves everything bad that happens to him, rather than it being the external Sephiroth manipulating Jenova's cells. He's saying Cloud secretly wants to suffer because that's all he should ever get in life. He thinks if he suffers enough pain that he'll be stronger for it, instead of the broken person that he really is. This is the type of thing people who’ve lived through trauma deal with every single day. It’s a never ending barrage of not feeling good enough and worrying that your entire existence is a bother to society. Not even just those close to you, you are a blight on the world. That Cloud’s internal trauma is so deeply rooted in this figure of Sephiroth narrows his focus and makes him project all of his fears onto him. It’s no wonder he freezes.
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Now, not strictly a PTSD glitch, but it does provoke a very strong reaction from Cloud, and definitely plays into his fears, so I'm gonna include this one on the proviso it's more fear motivated.
This is the moment he sees Tifa stabbed during the VR cut scene. Sephiroth hijacked it to show them meteor, but then he also killed Tifa and then Barret. We know later on that Barret actually dies, so having seen this, Cloud may well relate back to this deep seated fear that he can't save Tifa and she'll die because of him and it'll cause further attacks. This is also a callback to the time in the reactor in Nibelheim when Tifa was stabbed by Sephiroth and Cloud couldn't save her – this ties to the PTSD flashback he had during the reactor 5 mission where he saw Tifa picking up Sephiroth's sword, so it's got precedence to cause him further trauma once he connects the dots. The fact it provokes such a strong emotional response from him – so much so that his entire face changes – I suspect that real!Cloud came out to motivate him to run to her out of the fear he'd just seen her die in front of him – again. The shock and disbelief on his face, the utter heartbreak. His expression changes from SOLDIER!Cloud to real!Cloud in less than 3 seconds. I checked. As a trigger for his trauma, Cloud's fear of losing Tifa pushes him to a lot of things he wouldn't normally do.
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This is more of a memory glitch than PTSD since it's tied to the grunt recognising Cloud and calling him out on the false memories he has of being a SOLDIER. He says they went through training together and Cloud's eyes narrow as though he's trying to reconcile a truth against a lie. The truth that real!Cloud was a grunt and SOLDIER!Cloud is a fake.
There's some distress on his face here that links back to the point during the airbuster battle when he first learned about cell degradation. He knows what he believes is true isn't quite right, but he can't figure out why. SOLDIER!Cloud is unaware of the SOLDIER persona he constructed to protect his real self from further trauma. In OG when Cloud finds out – through Sephiroth’s skewed af bullshit – it causes a complete mental break, so real!Cloud's right to be wary of triggering himself because he's not in a good enough place to deal with what he's done to protect himself. He'd blame himself for being even more weak than he thought.
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This is more interesting. Usually whenever anyone questions Cloud about his false identity he claims it, while also rejecting it by saying “ex-SOLDIER”, but in Hojo's case, he seems to hesitate, as though part of him knew it would be questioned and wouldn't hold up. Since Hojo's the one who did this to Cloud, it's likely the truth of what happened couldn't be kept back by the SOLDIER lies.
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Pained again, Cloud turns his head away, as though he can shut out the truth. Hojo's image glitches for him and it's reminiscent of the OG moment where Cloud confronts Hojo and asks if he can be a proper experiment instead of a failed one (or something like that. I haven't played OG in like 5 years)
The trauma from what Hojo's done is quickly brushed under the carpet thanks to the arrival of the whispers. This is the second time they appear to prevent Cloud learning too much about his past too early. (Dammit, I forgot about deep ground, I'll circle back to it or I'll lose the order for my screenshots)
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I'm not including the long corridor walk prompted by Jenova because that's a loading screen and also it happens not because of anything that Cloud experienced in the location, but because the outside influence of Jenova called to him. His only association with Jenova is the infusion of cells, though how he got them does set off attacks. Actually, here's a good point for the deep ground screen.
Preview of zombie Cloud for Mideel anyone? I mean, what can I say? He's totally checked out and it's scary. No wonder he doesn't wanna remember any of it if this is what he was like at the time. Imagine being so doped up with mako that you're not even you any longer? Having experiments carried out on you and god knows what else. Being stuffed in a chamber jammed full of alien dna and left to see what happens.
This is what broke him. I'd say it's similar to the faceless Squall cut scene from the end of FF8. It's chilling. No wonder he crafted an entire persona to protect himself from remembering this.
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So this is the culmination of all the other attacks he's had. We get flashback elements from several that threaten to overwhelm Cloud. He's clutching his head. He's in serious pain and can't do anything. He manages to push through and ask if it's really Sephiroth. He then grabs his left arm when it begins to hurt. This is because Sephiroth is left handed. This is also the same arm that had the major infection of geostigma in AC.
Conclusion
Cloud is a messed by puppy and I ship him with therapy.
PTSD is a tricky thing to accurately show, especially in this case when it's not all totally mental illness and there are outside factors that skew how it's portrayed. Part of Sephiroth is within Cloud, though I do suspect it's more of an aspect of his own feelings of self-loating and doubt than it is actually Sephiroth. That's not to say there isn't also a genuine part of Sephiroth within these visions influencing Cloud to do what he wants, but I think it comes down to the context of the moment.
Cloud's been through a lot of shit and fronts like nothing else. He's managed to get away without any kind of vices or coping mechanisms besides this alternate persona that actually does ok in following the real!Cloud's lead when his deeper urges motivate SOLDIER!Cloud into doing things. I mean there's a point where there's a clear debate between the two about dancing for Andrea. All that back and forth eye movement and then the grimace and “fine, for Tifa” expression wasn't necessary if it was just SOLDIER!Cloud.
It's gonna be hard for Cloud to hear that he's not real in the sense that he thinks he is. It's gonna break him. We've got a preview of his scary vacant Mideel look and it's terrifying. Major props to Tifa for refusing to give up on him.
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Hetalia Fics I Really Like
this  ⭐ will be for fics I really like. I’ll try not to star everything.
I’m starting with my favorite of all time and tbh I think the fandom should see this fic as a OG, like Auf Weiderstein Sweetheart or Gutters, I really do.
Are We Even Humans  ⭐ ⭐ ⭐ ⭐ ⭐ ⭐ ⭐ ⭐ (Literally all the stars)
https://archiveofourown.org/works/4103344
https://archiveofourown.org/works/5660761/chapters/25048773 (prequel)
https://archiveofourown.org/works/7036330/chapters/16007758 (sequel)
The war is over, but putting together everything that fell apart will be a greater challenge than anyone is prepared to handle. Alliances dissolve, and the lines between friends and enemies are blurrier than ever before.
Opinion: Please read it. It is a series with a sequel and a prequel that can be read on its own but it’s so good. Imma go on a quick rant here. This fic is great from the writing, plot, characters, and the nuances of nationhood abilities. I literally rioted during the first chapter because it was so good. One of my absolutely favorite things in the fic and the series as a whole is Prussia. Kingdom of Prussia, German Democratic Republic, Gilbert Beilschmidt. His character progression and seeing him through the series as a whole is astounding. I was literally left shaken at the end of this series and I’ve read it twice. The OC’s are usually the antagonists, but hot damn, they are memorable OC’s who are great (terrible?) villains. And the family dynamics! The family dynamics are enough of a reason to read it by itself and the romances. Omg I love this fic so much. Main takeaways: astounding characterization, amazing plot, will cry, long read, and a reality check on what it means to be a nation.
Would it be too much if I did a separate post on how much I love this series and an in depth analysis? (I feel like such a nerd omg)
Hard Times Passing 
https://archiveofourown.org/works/23516458/chapters/56397817
Alfred is homeless during the Great Depression and in his wanderings he's charged with the task of caring for a small orphaned Taiwan. AU-Human names used, Taiwan is a child.
Opinion: So incredibly heart warming. It’s well written and I love the dialogue so much. Also, the little cameos from other characters are an absolute delight. It’s a it short, but so wholesome.
Flowers Don’t Grow on Battlefields  ⭐
https://archiveofourown.org/works/14153106/chapters/32619954
https://archiveofourown.org/works/16898919/chapters/39697068 (sequel)
As war tightens its hold on the nations of the world, new alliances are formed. Nobody will escape the war unscathed. Italy only hopes that this time, he will find a way to save those he holds dearest.
Opinion: I realllly like this fic. Maybe I’m a bit bias because I remember reading it from like to third chapter and watching it get updated till the end, but this is really good. Cute gerita, great characterization, good plot, and some lines just really make me melt. And the fluff omg. There’s a sequel that’s linked under too that I may like more than the first. 
Who Knew (One Shot)
https://archiveofourown.org/works/23516695#main
“The last time the two of them had any sort of contact was when Gilbert sent the letter to Matthew before the first war started.
That was twenty-six years ago. Twenty-six years Matthew had not seen Gilbert. Twenty-six years of Matthew worrying about if his fiancé was alive or not. Twenty-six years of Matthew thinking about all the horrible things that could be happening to Gilbert. Twenty-six years of Matthew wishing he could just see Gilbert, even if it were just for a second. Twenty-six years of pure hell for Matthew. Twenty-six years of being all alone.”
Matthew Williams, the personification of Canada, never thought that he would fall in love, but he did. He fell in love with Gilbert Beilschmidt, the personification of Prussia, but their romance would have to be cut short with the up coming war that was soon approaching them.
Opinion: My god my heart. Matthew had great characterization. Like amazingly so. 10/10 somber and melodic tones throughout the story. Good tension. And again, my heart. 
TELL ME A PIECE OF YOUR HISTORY  ⭐
https://archiveofourown.org/works/3741175/chapters/8294941#workskin
An account of the media reactions to the reveal of Nations (anthropomorphic national embodiments) with scholarly commentary.
Heavily inspired by: United States v. Barnes, 617 F. Supp. 2d 143 (D.D.C. 2015) [fallingvoices, radialarch] with mixed genres.
Opinion: It’s really cool. It’s told through media, like email, twitter, texts, online magazines, subtitles of videos (not actual videos tho). I love the outside view point of the world on nations and how some people really like them and how others absolutely despise their very existence. One of the main things that sticks out the me is the in depth analysis other humans or posters do on the nations and people even interview the nations, chapter eight is like my favorite for that reason, or how some humans just gush about the nations on so media like how half the fandom does lol. It’s really good. Super creative, great insight on how to world sees the nations, and honestly a great read.
Red Winter (One shot and crossover!)
https://archiveofourown.org/works/909492
The Winter Soldier's new target: a Russian politician named Ivan Braginsky.
Things don't go as planned.
Opinion: Literally so cool. Like nations are total BS to outsiders, especially assassins. I was loosing it during this fic because from Bucky’s POV nations are something else. The writing is really solid and the author uses italics to highlight an action sound or word and even single-word thoughts. The fight scene is really entertaining but also it flows fantastically. 
In Costa Rica (Oneshot)
https://archiveofourown.org/works/18614041
“You have this backwards,” McLaughlin said. “Everything. You have it all backwards.” He was a lithe man, looked to be in his mid-thirties. Schnabel leaned back in his chair. Outside, the afternoon rain started, and the frogs momentarily fell silent. “They are dangerous, aren’t they?” Two men discuss the nations and history.
Opinion: No actual nations appear in this fic. It’s just two men talking about the nations and it’s really interesting to see them humor and take seriously the idea of nations. They both discuss what they already know about the nations and theorize. Also hearing an outside perspective and how the nations effect the word around them is golden. I give this fic a big ol’ chef’s kiss. 
Finally, I’ll Just Miss You! (Oneshot)
https://archiveofourown.org/works/15553608
Countries will be abolished tomorrow. For the first time, they breathe and realize this might be their last breath and they’ll never wake up again. They want to wake up, they want to go to sleep, the land will still be there when they’re gone. But they breathe, it won’t be the same- for once, they feel human.
Opinion: Bro, I swear I’m not crying. This one is short but really bittersweet and my heart really hurts. I like the snippets of insight on the characters. 
Diamond in the Rough  ⭐ ⭐ ⭐ 
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/12872642/1/
The year is 1952, the last full year of Joseph Stalin's rule over the Soviet Union. After an incident with Latvia, Estonia is determined to find out what Russia did to him. And so unfolds a chain of events that would lead the Baltic States to tears, to forgiveness, to unexpected courage and horrifying discoveries about the mysterious past of Gilbert Beilschmidt. See AN for rating.
Opinion: This just be a legitimate book. I have honestly read this one like three time and every time I read it I am absolutely elated to discover another detail or action I missed. It is a longer read but I think it is absolutely worth it. For one, the characterization is beautiful. Maybe I might be bias because I stan and love the Baltics, but how they are written compared to the many other fics I’ve read on them is phenomenal. While the author does take some creative liberties and deviates from canon a little, like the Baltics actually considering themselves to be brothers, I really enjoy the changes. ALSO, the history and research and on this fic is genuinely impressive. To think fic authors do this shit for fun and pour so much of their passion into a piece of writing. Secondly, while Russia may be an antagonist in this story, I honestly think it is just. His mentality, backstory, and current predicament explain his behavior and make him a justifiable antagonist. I highly recommend this one. 
Adieux (Oneshot)
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/6700886/1/
What happens to nations after they cease to exist? Do they simply disappear or do they get a second chance? It wasn't a subject Francis was particularly keen on finding out about...but at the same time, it wasn't something he could just ignore. One-shot
Opinion: I hate this fic because I love it way too much. I might of cried a little bit and I instantly melt of Francis and Matthew. 
In Our Solemn Hour (incomplete) ⭐
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/8975529/30/In-Our-Solemn-Hour
The time was World War II, at the dawn of a global conflict like nothing any of the Nations had ever seen before. Nothing could've prepared them for what lay ahead: a war more total and radical than anything they could ever have imagined. This wasn't just business as usual; it was centuries' worth of pent-up emotions all coming into play at once. This was indeed their darkest hour.
Opinion: Characterization is on point. One part of this fic I remember very well during a fight to the death, Finland mutters a little “Oh dear”. The characters retain some of the qualities that make them silly in Hetalia but because this is another take on it it does get darker. I think Germany’s portrayal is my favorite because he does cruel and unnesscary things and questions it because its not his usal nature. The author notes are super insightful and sometimes funny; it really adds to the rest of the story. I might revisit this post to make a more in depth opinion on it because I don’t remember it all to well when I know I really like this one.
So that was my post lol. I’ll probably make more on other fandoms later tbh or I’ll just make a part two. If you end up reading about any of these posts, please feel free to tell me about them! I love talking about fics and reading in general. Thanks for reading!
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(pt.1) ahahaha aww! :’> that’s so great to hear and no worries about when you get back to me ahaha we all got lots of other things on our hands i’m sure of! ^^ and AHHH!! a very happy birthday to him! ^^ I hope he and you and your family all had a great time celebrating together! :’) and I absolutely agree! All the joy and love going around is always a pleasure to be around ^^ And aw having a lot of your family owning farms sounds really lovely!
HIIIIIIIIIIII💖
(pt.2) There’s a lot of farms around where I live and seeing them whenever I’m commuting is really like, there’s something about them that makes my heart really warm if that makes sense! :’DAND AHH did I shadow write this bc 👀👀👀 THAT’S A BIG MOOD AHAHA I’m a big introvert myself as well and in a way I’m a bit thankful to have so much time away from things to kind of mentally recharge I suppose? LIKE HAHA don’t get me wrong I absolutely love my friends but I’m also a bit of a homebody as well
(pt.3) and in a way I’m a bit thankful to have so much time away from things to kind of mentally recharge I suppose? LIKE HAHA don’t get me wrong I absolutely love my friends but I’m also a bit of a homebody as well >< and!!!!! I’M AN INFP AND A SCORPIO AS WELL AHHhHhh??? what a coinky dink! I also just did a couple things to find out my life path number and it’s 4! (from what I’ve read about so far I can’t say it’s 100% accurate to myself though! ahaha maybe 50/50 😂I’ll definitely look into
(pt4) it a bit more though!)AHH ME TOO they’re kinda dangerous for me 👀 but I can definitely say that more about stationary stores! 😂😂😂 atm I’m not working on anything specific in particular but I’m an art student and so you can definitely say that craft stores are kind of a second home to me LOL but I was mainly just checking out different kinds of mediums I can add to my paint! ^^ I’m definitely a big window shopper so I didn’t make any purchases this time haha :’D And AHH I feel that!
(pt5) That’s definitely a hard decision! >< I remember being curious about when they were dropping their season’s greetings this year and they had literally dropped them later that day and i was like!!!!  👀 I stayed strong and held off for this year since I was saving up to buy both versions of pt.2 (which pleasantly arrived today woohoo!!) But OOF if they had released an nct 2020 season’s greetings...... consider my bank account empty LMAO And yes I love playing games! Ooh I’d say ac is
(pt6) definitely a favourite since I’ve been playing the series since I was a kid but hMM at the top of my head, I also really like botw, undertale, earthbound, maplestory and osu! ^^ hbu do you like any other games?  (and ooh if you ever get ac, feel more than welcome to add me! ^^ I’ll gift you some cute stuff on there hehe ^^) AND OOOOOH HORROR!!! horror’s a lot of fun! do you have any favourite horror movies? I can’t say I’ve watched a whole lot of horror recently (I actually watched Eli
(pt7) around Halloween and it was alright! Definitely worth a watch with the slow unravelling of everything! ^^) but my favourites would probably the two It movies! I’d also definitely recommend anything from A24! I haven’t watched a whole ton of horror from them other than Hereditary but they do have a pretty solid selection and from what I’ve seen from some of their non-horror titles, their film quality is just 👌👌 (I also watch this really great horror movie based youtube channel and they do
(pt8) mainly film summaries/reviews and they’re a lot of fun to watch since they do a lot of lesser known films too ^^) I’ve also been meaning to watch the original Suspiria movie! The cinematography in it is super beautiful 🥺 I’m also a big chill/r&b/lofi fan as well! 🥺 perhaps to go with your gift, I’ll also throw in a playlist of recs for you! ^^ and I’d absolutely love to hear some of your favourites! Ahh absolutely! Cooking for others is always such a sweet gesture :’D also here’s a
(pt9) recipe for you! Unfortunately tumblr won’t let me send links but! if you google betty crocker cake mix crinkle cookies, it should be the first result! It’s my go to recipe for everything whether it’s someone’s birthday, there’s an event going on at school or if I just feel like making something easy and sweet! There’s also only 4 ingredients (plus vanilla if you want but it’s not necessary) and you can use any flavor of cake mix or even add additional chocolate chips/fillings if you want! ^^
(pt10) I’ve tried it with red velvet cake mix and white chocolate as well as with vanilla cake mix and crushed oreos and they always come out super great! ^^ And aw that’s okay! :’))) What song drew you to them? Oof personally I feel like an nct granny LOOOL I remember the day smrookies dropped jeno’s teaser photo and I thought he looked SO YOUNG (jokes on me tho bc I’m only about 6 months older than him HAHAHA) and yeah for sure!!! it’s so wholesome to see! ^-^ AND!!! absolutely xiaojun this era
(pt11) just.. let’s say he reALLY rode up my bias list in the shortest amount of time AHAHA and yesss 90s love was super cute! (my inner Canadian is thriving at the whole hockey concept LOOL) and AHH when everyone else joined in and theY ALL SANG FROM HOME TOGETHER I JUST- a single tear definitely escaped HAHA AND AHH OF COURSE Faded in my last song definitely takes the cake too and I’d say the same with Music, Dance and Deja Vu too!! Honestly their whole album is such a great time ahh :’) AND!!!
(pt12) AW I think you’re super fun too!!!!!! (AND SUPER SWEET??? I’M- I don’t know hOw many times I’ve had to stop myself from accidentally liking a post of yours (your gifs are lovely!) or following you BUT!!! expect a lot of that when I reveal myself LMAO) :’>>>> fjghdkjhfg Talky squad! ^^ And that’s great to hear!!!! My heart stOPPED when I sent each one bc tumblr didn’t give me the mssg that they sent and I FREAKED OUT AHAHAHA and that’s great to hear! and aw that’s really sweet that you guys
(pt13) got to chat! And thank you! My day is going quite okay thanks! a little downside is that my work contacted me this morning and said there were a couple positive cases at one of my job sites when I worked a couple weeks ago so at the moment I’m chilling in my room for the next few days just in case. I’ve been feeling just fine so I’m hoping all will be well soon! On the positive side, my albums arrived today and I pulled a Xiaojun pc and died aHAHA and I’m really loving all the freebies
(pt14) that came with it! Stickers are always a delight to get :’)) (even tho I’m usually too scared to use them! xD) I also got a chance to talk to some kind people at work and that’s always nice! ^^ and aw that’s so great :’000 i’m really happy you guys had a great time and got to eat yummy food!!!!! Here’s also a burning question for you! Do you possibly have a favourite hyuck era? Asking for research purposes ofc hehe 👀👀👀
(pt15) hope your day is going swell so far! p.s. will try my best to keep these a bit shorter bc i can only send 5 asks per hr :’o + also you're an infinite fan aaa!!!!! i used to be a big fan back in the day hehe - ss☃️🎄
Thank you!!! we did have a great time :>
Farms are fun, I just love spending time away from the city sometimes hahaha KJFNDVKJDNK yes, I honestly am ok with being at home for long periods of time (huge homebody here), but it’s been a year already and I just want to go out and sit under the sun for a few minutes HAHAHAH (for a few minutes only bc I usually can’t stand being directly under the sun OTL) 
OOOOHHH INFP Scorpio twins eheheh, when’s your birthday??? must have been recently so I’m wishing you a late happy birthday💕 and yes, I need to look a bit more into numerology as well because I have no idea what my number means fdkjndfk. 
OMG!!! an art student!!! That’s so cool :< I hope I get to see some of your art after the event! eheheh. What’s your favorite medium? Favorite thing to draw/paint? :) 
I was so curious too!!! I loved NCT Dream’s Season’s Greetings concept last year! and I don’t have any NCT merchandise so I just jumped in for it this year kjdfnkdvfk I liked both concepts but I decided to get 127′s! BOTH VERSIONS OF PT.2!!! EXCITING! Whic PCs did you get??? (Also who is (are) your bias(es)??? omg dkfjnfvkjd) !!!!!!! I absolutely love botw too!! and I play osu as well :D but lately I’ve just been playing Genshin Impact and Overwatch! (OMGGG  I’ll definitely let you know if I do!!!) 
I know Hereditary!!! I haven’t watched it yet! but I have watched The Witch from A24 and it was really interesting! (which youtube channel? o: I love watching movie analysis videos!!) LKFDNKFDMFL and yes, please, I love getting songs recs, discovering new music is so fun! I’ll share here some songs that I’ve been listening to a lot lately!:
Nlve x Sam Kim — Like a Fool
DPR LIVE — Jam & Butterfly
SOLE — haPPiness
eaJ x Seori — It just is
eaJ x keshi — Pillows
Woosung — Face
OMG I just watched a video that showed similar looking cookies!!! they look so yummy! I’ll save this recipe and maybe I’ll try to bake some for Christmas eheheh thank you!!!!
I knew of NCT since their debut but AHAHAHA you see, I felt a bit funny because I’m older than many members JKFNDJK so I avoided them until around Superhuman/Boom when some friends exposed me to their music during a trip we made for a Got7 concert, a week with them was enough for me to go back home straight to search more about NCT, and here I am now : D 
AND YESSSS when they all joined to sing From Home on the stage :((( I’m also about to cry each time I watch the  MV for the rearranged version KJNVFNKD (omg!! I’ve always wanted to go to Canada! I can imagine the hockey concept was exciting ahahah) but yeah! I absolutely agree, love love LOVE the album!
Awww :< <3 that’s SO relatable LMAO I was just saying to my friends the other day “don’t you sometimes get the urge to like your own anon on you event person’s blog????” AHAHAH thank you for thinking my gifs are lovely;; I just started giffing this year and it’s been really fun so far :D 
Oh god :(( I hope you’re okay! that sounds a bit scary;; please take care :< but I’m glad that your albums got there and that you got to talk to nice at work! (stickers are always great!!! yes!! though I tend to save them and never use them as well ahahah)
FAVORITE ERA? god that’s a difficult question KJFNDVKJ well, my favorite Dream song is MFAL but I have no idea if it’s my favorite era...... I also really really really liked Superhuman (his silver hair????? gorgeous) so maybe those two would be the answer kjndfkdk and yes!!! I’ve been an Infinite fan since their debut! and Sunggyu was my bias until Haechan happened hahahah (I’ve been a kpop fan since around 2008 :        D hbu???) I think I asked here earlier but who’s your NCT bias/es?? o: are there any other kpop groups that you really like? :)
BIG EDIT: RIDIN’ ERA HAECHAN IS A BIG FAVORITE TOO his hair was at a beautiful length and that eyebrow piercing.............*cries*
Big edit 2: .......ridin’ is the favorite era, I stil like MFAL as a song more, but Ridin’ era haechan is......deadly
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folklore first listen
pls feel free to ignore this, i just wanted to record my screaming on my blog so that i can refer back to it and laugh at myself someday x
The 1
THE PIANO OMG I LOVE IT AND I LOVE THE BEAT I looooove THIS SONG IT’S SO NOSTALGIC WHO THE FUCK IS IT ABOUT OH MY OGD IM SCREAMING also the swearing I’m living… ok seriously who is this about I am losing my mind. This is so bittersweet I’m ?!!!!!!!!!!!! I REALLY LOVE THIS
CARDIGAN
I ALSO LOVE THIS WHAT ITS’ SO NOSTALGIC and the music video is so pretty wit the green and she looks like an actual forest nymph with the piano and the water and it’s all incredible. YOU DREW STARS AROUND MY SCARS BUT NOW I’M BLEEDING???????? BITCH. THE LYRICS IN THIS ARE FUCKING INCREDIBLE WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK OH MY DISJFASLDFNSADF OH MY GDO I knew you’d linger like a tattoo kiss??????? MAAM?
The last great American dynasty
SO INTRIGUING HOW SHE WROTE THIS??? WHAT IS IT ABOUT? IDK BUT I LOVE IT
Exile
BON IVERRRRRR I LOVE THE WAY HIS VOICE SOUNDS IN THIS AND THE CHORUS IS HAUNTINGLY BEAUTIFUL and the background vocals… omg. This album his the most unique thing she’s ever written I????? I LOVE HOW HER VOICE SOUNDS N THE CHORUS. ‘You were my crown now I’m in exile seeing you out’? YOU KNOW LIKE I CAN IMAGINE THESE SONGS AS THE SOUNDTRACK TO SO MANY OF MY FAVOURITE FANTASY BOOKS IM LOSING MY MIND. ALSO OH MY GOD BON IVERS VOICE AT THE END HOLY FUCK!!!! THIS IS SO GOOD THIS IS ONE OF HER BEST DUETS IM LOSING MY SHIT this song is incredible I am in LOVE
My tears ricochet
TRACK 5 TRACK 5 TRACK 5 AHH I LOVE HOW DEEP HER VOICE GOES AND THE BACKGROUND VOCALS OMG. Oh my god the chorus I am in love, I love her voice sounds so raw on this album, we haven’t heard that in years IF I’M DEAD TO YOU WHY ARE YOU AT THE WAKE CURSING MY NAME?? OMG. This is fully giving me like fae woodland imagery I just love it, the vibes of it all!  AS YOU BURY ME? OH MY GOD IS SHE A GHOST IM SCREAMING I LOVE THIS PERSPECTIVE. HOLY FUCK HOLY FUCK THE BRIDGE!!!!!!!! THE LINES ABOUT SCREAMING. THE BRIDGE IS UNBELIEVABLE AND THE WAY IT JUST FADES OUT I?
Mirrorball
Omg I love the vocal effects! This is full indie pop vibes I AM DIGGING IT. OH MY GOD THE CHORUS BROOO OK I OFFICIALLY LOVE THIS SONG IT’S EXACTLY THE KIND OF MUSIC I LIKE LISTENING TO. ‘Drunk as they watch my shadow, edges glisten’ oh wow the lyrics in this album are fucking otherworldly. Oh fuck this is  agood bridge. I really cannot wait for all the analysis of this album by smarter people because I am not understanding BUT I AM LOVING IT. ALSO IDK WHAT A MIRRORBALL IS BUT I LOVE IT ANYWAY. How does she know such fancy words, I want her brain
Seven
‘I ht my peak at seven’ ok but same? HEYY SHE MENTIONED MOON AND SATURN I AM LIVINGGGGG. It’s so soft and wistful, those are the vibes of this album so far and I am really LOVING IT. PLEASE PICTURE ME IN THE WEEDS BEFORE I LEARNED CIVILITIY I USED TO SCREAM FEROCIOUSLY ANY TIME I WANTED?? IM YELLING I LOVEEEEE THESE LYRICS OH MY GOODNESS
August
ONCE AGAIN I LOVE THE VOCAL EFFECTS, I LOVE THE WAY HER VOICE SOUNDS.  Omg the chorus is catchy! I love the way she sings ‘I can see’! OK THSI SONG IS ONE OF MY FAVOURITES I MEAN JUST LISTEN TO IT? I HAVE BEEN IN A STATE OF SHOCK SINCE LAST NIGHT BUT THIS IS MAGICAL ETHEREAL GROUNDBREAKING NEVER BEFORE SEEN INCREDIBLE PERFECT. OHH GOD THE BRIDGE IS COMNIG UP- YES IT’S AJFDSNAFKJSDFAF SHE WROTE THIS SONG IITS’ SO GOOD MISDFN JASDNFLJK SO MUCH FOR SUMMER LOVE AND SAYING US CAUSE U WERENT MINE TO LOSE!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TAYLOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is one fo her best songs ever EVER OMG AND THE BACKING VOCALS AT THE END AHH AND THE BEAT DROP TAYLOR WHAT THE FUCK YOU’VE OUTDONE YOURSELF A G A I N ??? IM NEVER GONNA RECOVER FROM THIS FUCK
This is me trying
Firstly, this song title is such a mood, especially this year. The beat in this song s so good - THIS SICK BEAT. AHH THERE IS THS COOL INSTRUMENT IS IT A VIOLIN IDK BUT I LOVE IT OMG. ‘THEY TOLD ME ALL OF MY CAGES WERE MENTAL SO I GOT WASTED LIKE ALL MY POTENTIAL AND MY WORDS SHOOT TO KILL WHEN I’M BAD I HAVE A LOT OF REGRETS ABOUT THAT II WAS SO AHEAD OF THE CURVE THAT THE CURVE BECAME A SPHERE I FELL BEHIND ON MY CLASS LATE UNTIL I ENDED UP HERE POURING OUT MY HEART TO A STRANGER BUT I DIDNT POUR THE WHISKEY! Oh god the ‘AT LEAST IM TRYING’ MAAAAM. THAT LAST VERSE FUCK FUCK FUF ASJDO FUCK THE BUILD UP. Listen I don’t know what the fuck this song is about but I do know that I love it I ADORE IT I FEEL LIKE EVERY SONG IS BETTER THAN THE LAST WHAT THE FUCK
Illicit affairs
I’m so intrigued by the title of this song! I LOVE the guitar in this song omg it’s so soft and wistful? IT DIES A MIIIILLIOON LITTLE TIMES……….. I love the little falsettos, that you picked out just for HIM! Take the words for what they are, a dwindling mercurial HIGH a drug that only worked the first few hundred times AND THAT’S THE THING ABOUT ILLICIT AFFAIRS AND CLANDESTINE MEETINGS AND STOLEN STARES they show their truth one single time BUT THEY LIE AND THEY LIE AND THEY LIE A MIILION LITTLE TIMES. LOOK AT THIS IDIOTIC FOOL THAT YOU MADE ME YOU TAUGHT ME A SECRET LANGUAGE I CAN’T SPEAK WITH ANYONE ELSE and you know damn well for you I would ruin myself a million little times. Holy fuck I have 0 words this is. Unbelievable it’s sunning I LOVE the bridge? I?
Invisible string
Oh lord I am not ready for this one. I love the way she sings the pre chorus! Were the CLUUUES I didn’t see—ee-ee. Omg this song is actually so cute. CHAINS AROUND MY DEMONS? WOOL TO BRAVE THE SEASONS? HOW THE FUCK DID SHE WRITE THIS IT’S SO GOOD IM SPEECHLESS also I LOVE the strings in this song, I love the production of this entire album tbh. It’s so chill and stripped back and it makes you focus on her vocals which sound soooo good.
Mad woman
TAYLOR SAID FUCK TAYLOR SAID FUCK TAYLOR SAID FUCK IM LIVINNGGGGG. ANYYWAY I LOOOVE THIS IM DIGGING ITTT I LOVE THE CHORUS EEEEK. the second verse omg I love the anger, the bitterness, you can HEAR it in her voice! It’s obvious that wanting me dead has already brought you two together??? EEK THE BRIDGE a spinster? What a shame she went mad… YOU MADE HER LIKE THAT OMG BITCH
Epiphany
Omg the intro build up - I love it. This sounds like a church choir? Is this about a soldier in war? What? It reminds me of Dunkirk or something omg. This is again so haunting, very slow and the piano only adds to the somber tone
Betty
WHO? IS? BETTY??????? Oh hey this is a gentle intro with this instrument that sounds familiar but idk what it is but I love it. I love the melody in this omg!  SHE SAID FUCK AGAIN SHE SAID FUCK AGAI NOGAS JDFHLDSDKFLD TAYLORRRRRR WOULD YOU TELL ME TO GO FUCK MYSELF??? IM ONLY 17 I DON’T KNOW ANYTHING BUT I KNNOW MISS YOU! BITCH!!!!!!!! This is about like a lost first love! Anyway I really looove how her voice sounds in this and the melody…. I DREAMT OF YOU ALL SUMMER LONG OMG THE BRIDGE IS INCREDIBLE!!!!! Omg awww the only thing I wanna do is make it up to you so I showed up at your party?? AHH THE KEY CHANGE INI THE LAST CHORUS EEEEKKKKKK OMGGGGG WILL IT PATCH YOUR BROKEN WINGS I’M ONLY 17 IDK ANYTHING BUT I KNOW I MISS YOU OMG THE REFERENCE TO A CARDIGAN AGAIN!!!!!!!! AND THE STREETLIGHT! IM YELLING I LOVE THE PARALLELS AND THE MOTIFS and you can just hear the childish innocence int his song, I love it
Peace
This intro is SO COOL AND I AM VIBING HARD TO IT, I LOVE THE GUITAR IN THE BACKGROUND? Ok oh god I really like this one. The devil’s in the details but you got a friend in me I— THIS CHORUS IS AMAZING I ADORE IT. Omg this might be one of my favourites. Holy fuck I cannot get over how good the lyrics in this album are!!!!!!! I TALK SHIT WITH MY FRIENDS IT’S LIKE I’M WASTING YOUR HONOUR! Sit with you in the TRENCHES? Omg! WHAT IS THIS ABOUT I AM YELLING!!!!!!!!! ‘Clowns to the west’ oh hey that’s me. EEK THE SOFT KEYBOARD IN THE BACKGROUND - YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hoax
Last song? Ma’am I am not ready!!!!!!!!! THE PIANO IN THIS OMG. The chorus….. it’s beautiful……….. YOUR FAITHLESS LOVE’S THE ONLY HOAX I BELIEVE IN OH MY GODDDD. I’m yelling I love this so much. I loooove the angst of the chorus, the resignation that this is the one love she wants, even if it’s faithless!  ‘You know I left a part of me back in New York’… THE LOUIS TOMLINSON PARALLEL DAFJKHASFKADS (I know you left a part of you in New York). ‘What you didd was just as hard’ omg what did he doooo?? MY KINGDOM COME UNDONE AHHHHH YOU HAVE BEATEN MY HEART! WHY IS THIS SONG SO BITTERSWEET IM ???????
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Anonymous said:Maternal and paternal figures don’t have to be romantic though lol so you are still delusional..
What?
Im sorry what?
Okay. Okay little pumpkin pants. 
1. It’s an INTERPRETATION. An interpretation is how you put the information together and come to a conclusion on a meaning. Seeing as there is basis for my interpretation in both canon and real life, I am not delusional. It is possible that I have a wrong interpretation or partially wrong interpretation, and THAT’S OKAY. As new information comes out, I adjust my interpretation to fit the new information. There is really no other way to understand a story or situation that is ACTIVELY happening and changing as we experience. You HAVE to go with the flow.
2. That’s not what delusional means.
characterized by or holding idiosyncratic beliefs or impressions that are contradicted by reality or rational argument, typically as a symptom of mental disorder."hospitalization for schizophrenia and delusional paranoia"
based on or having faulty judgment; mistaken."their delusional belief in the project's merits never wavers [google it]
You don’t agree with me, but reality and reason don’t disagree with me and I don’t have a mental disorder that would interfere with my ability to analyze a story. There’s evidence for BOTH romantic AND parental Bellarke relationships. Do you want them to be both? No. Is it faulty reasoning or contradicted by reality? No. Stop thinking that things you don’t like are evil or corrupt or crazy. Your preferences do not dictate human morality.
3. In order to become the mother and father, a couple needs to have a baby. The archetypal way, the original way, to have a baby is to do the horizontal mambo and make one. So the ESSENCE of a mother and father couple is, actually, BY DEFINITION, they had sex. CAN a parental couple adopt all their adorable babies. SURE WHYNOTNOPROBLEM. But to call describing a mother and father pair as a MATED pair, aka not platonic in nature, is not delusional. 
4. A mated pair, mother and father, husband and wife. No, it’s not necessarily romantic. And that’s because ROMANCE is kind of about courting and falling in love. An established relationship doesn’t actually need romance. Maybe you don’t realize this because you are still in a juvenile level of development, where your focus is on finding someone to bone, so the primary concept of mating for you is about “omg does he/she really like me?” But I am old. BTDT. So is JR, actually. Old. AND BTDT. He has said that he has modeled Clarke and Bellamy’s relationship after his relationship with his wife. That is an established couple, with two children, that has lasted what? 20+ years? I’m guessing. No. It’s not all about boning anymore. Guess what? That’s not so bad. Does it EXCLUDE romance and boning? No it does not. That’s still a part of an established relationship. A MATED pair, means, literally, they are mated, have mated are mating. Mating means literally boning to procreate. That’s how you get a family. Not the only way. But that’s how they start, my little confused everlasting gobstopper.
5. Every time one of you says I’m delusional, I get depressed about your education. I’m pretty sure most of you are calling me that are not under 18 and actually have made it through high school english. I need to explain something. I’m not doing something esoteric here. I am doing BASIC literary analysis. This is what you were taught in high school. Come up with a hypothesis, defend it with evidence from the canon text, and then come to a conclusion on what it all means. This “meta” you guys get all het up about? This is a simple analytical essay. True, I have more of a background in the topic than most people, so I am pulling on a wider range of evidence than most, from literature to science fiction to fashion design to film making to comparative religion. But just because I know more about a topic than you do does not make me delusional. It actually makes ME an expert, and YOU a novice. Not knowing something about a topic doesn’t make that topic invalid. And it doesn’t mean that there’s something wrong with you. It is VERY easy to google the topic and learn a little bit. When someone talks about a book or a concept that I am unfamiliar with, I go straight to google. I literally do. Here. New tumblr interpretation that I’ve never heard of? Let me check that. Oh hello, wiki. This is why I am not ignorant. Because I don’t assume that things I am unfamiliar with are delusional. If you have no idea what I am talking about and it seems delusional to you, I suggest you google what I am talking about, and you will find hat I am talking about, generally, an academic discipline that has been around for centuries if not millennia. Now, scifi? That’s more like 100 years, Well, I mean, it does actually go back a little farther but TV scifi is like...while pulp novels started earlier, the genesis of sci fi as more than just silliness is Star Trek. But anyway. STILL not delusional. Just over your head. Do you hear the *whooosh*?
6. Please stop calling basic literary analysis “delusional.” You are making me really depressed about fandom’s ability to think critically. And then you lol at me for having theories and interpretations and making connections, and you just sound so freaking willfully stupid. Please god start thinking. Stop listening to fake news, and thinking alternate facts are real. Go to the source. Look for evidence. Question speaker’s agenda. Don’t be a sucker. Use a dictionary, please! Google shit, for godsake! JUST FUCKING GOOGLE IT SO YOU DON’T SOUND SO IGNORANT AND YOU AREN”T LED ABOUT BY YOUR NOSE BY PEOPLE WHO JUST WANT FOLLOWERS.
7. I did my best with this fandom. I can’t be held responsible for them anymore and I’m washing my hands. Y’all want to keep up with your dumbass fanwars, acting like JR is your enemy? Keep me out of it. 
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#2 The supernatural couch - Why season six and seven make my soul sad.
A Destiel Analysis. #for the fans
My last piece was a bit of a Destiel love letter. Let’s face it, I’m smitten and they’re all going to be Destiel love letters. This time I wanted to discuss season six and seven, specifically Castiel/Dean and the breakdown of their relationship. I just want to clarify, that this is the end of season six when Cas takes up with Crowley.
For me, the whole dynamic of Destiel is fascinating. Not just on the obsessive fangirl side but the psychological deconstruction of the character makeup and...yeah I just lost most of you didn’t I?
Let’s be honest episodes eighteen to well the whole of season seven is an emotional sledgehammer to Destiel fans. We enter the heartbreak motel and we don't leave for a good, long while. So we have to hold on to what we can throughout the agony.
To begin, we see why Cas is doing what he is more clearly in episode twenty of season six, this is where we’re in the metaphorical parking lot of the heartbreak motel. In ‘The man who would be king’, we better understand how he’s struggling with his choices, in this, he is more human than he has ever been. Cas is still feeling torn in the episode and we see that abate as the season closes. The healing of Lisa was the last moment that Cas tried to fix things, it’s the last moment we see Cas’s emotions so close to the surface. When Cas breaks down the wall in Sam’s mind, he’s numb, as Cas tells Crowley their deal is over, he’s numb, as he kills Balthazar, he’s just numb.
This is one of the saddest moments for me. Cas has such a huge heart, he’s so full of love, hope and innocence in so many ways, to watch him compress all of that and to hurt people he loves; heartbreaking...chokes…
So that scene where Cas smiles at Crowley and its all like ‘hahahah I’m a supernova’ is a double-edged sword. We love that Cas is all, ‘yeah I’m still good’ and that’s a ‘Yes!’ from the fandom but then Deans all, ‘I would have died for you’, that speech’ is ahhhhhh all the angst because of the words ‘would have’ but still with all the feels.
It’s soul smut for someone like me who lives for those moments. But then, *dramatic pause* Dean’s speech doesn't work and this is mostly because Cas is high as a damn kite. He’s roasty toasty up on his power filled trip to ‘i’m a new god’ land and nothing is bringing him down not even an angel sword to the kidneys.
The pain in Dean’s face is why I love this episode (I hear your collective gasp of horror) stay with me. In episode twenty, we sit as a fandom with our hearts in our hands and we cry. We watch Cas break Deans' heart and it doesn't stop there. Cas pushes Dean to the edge in three separate episodes on all levels, but, Dean never let's go. Flick back to earlier in the season when Dean is aching to kill his grandfather for handing them over to Crowley, a much smaller offence than some of the things Cas does. These include betrayal, working with the said demon, the whole Lisa/Ben fiasco, Sam’s brain dam debacle and yet when push comes to shove Dean pleads with Cas. He doesn’t threaten him, he just begs. He begs him ‘Don't make me lose you too’, so he’s using a lot of past tenses throughout, but that one phrase is in the present tense and that my friends is what’s important. 
It’s all pain and loss, Dean is done and he’s bearing his soul. Sadly, talking to Cas at that moment is like trying to convince someone on an acid trip out of forming a friendship with the floating green leprechauns that are making pie in the toilet, it’s useless and that makes it both better and worse. Better because it’s not really Cas, Dean knows that and worse because Cas will regret this later, like all good highs there will be a catastrophic comedown. So, the reason I like seeing the pain (in this and at the beginning of season seven) is that you can see the bond being strained but it is like an elastic band, it just snaps back.
Season seven, episode one Dean listens to the radio to Cas’s exploits and he says he’s not worrying, but he is because he keeps on listening. Then Dean orders Death to kill Cas’s and the look he gives him is pained. Dean still doesn't really want this to work, then he spirals into despair because he really thinks Cas is gone, destroyed by the power. Sam is the one that pushes them both, because Sam ships them as his OTP and is the glue for them plenty of times, so cue the glue. Cas returns and whamo!
All's right with the world ... except for Cas’s gaping chasm of regret, the possible release of evil thingies, Cas’s dying vessel and Sam’s mental breakdown...but we’ll take what we can get. And then Cas’s says he sorry and OMG I’m dying...Dean’s face when they think Cas’s dead...and then he’s ALIVE and then Levithan...my heart can’t take it. THEN it gets WORSE! Dean freaking rolls up Cas’s coat and the lip! The lip tremble and I’m done.
And that my friends is why season six/seven hurts my warm inside bits.
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oh tumblr had a wonderful update and now asks aren't limited anymore and all the fun script stuff like this is possible but i don't think everybody has the update yet? i'm unsure. you can send pics in asks as well now but only off anon
oh don't tease me with a britpop update 🙈 i'll cry. i missed losing my mind over my dumbass lying boy.
helen i'll really cry that's so sweet and yes rereading your fics was me coping with your absence here 🙈 (also they just make me very happy)
dein deutsch ist gar nicht schlecht!! ICH WEIß!! (apropos wer hat sich den ß-scheiß ausgedacht) warum kann man nich einfach alles klein schreiben? funktioniert doch in so jeder anderen sprache auch super 🙄 oder? es is so seltsam aber jedes mal wenn ich hier was auf deutsch schreibe bin ich so :) nur helen versteht mich :) oh weil wir gerade beim thema deutsch sind, ich hab ne vielleicht etwas komische frage ich weiß nich mal wie ich drauf kam und zwar wann feiert ihr weihnachten? weil wir feiern ja hier eigentlich am 24. und in england is es doch am 25. (oder?) und ja ich hab mich gefragt wann genau du und deine familie dann feiert?
thank you so much 💕 you're truly already doing the most i really mean it when i say that it makes me incredibly happy to hear from you (though i would of course not say no to more wilde kerle au)
oh science of medicine sounds soooooo interesting! (technology not so much i'm sorry it's included) also i kinda like science or like theory of science? very interesting to me. but philosophy? nah. hurts my brain. but very happy for you that you found some nice people 😊 and i hope at least the subjects you're actually interested in are going well
ooh and actually can you explain to me what the fuck the tier system is. i have only seen memes and i can't even manage to sit through the entirety of our news here without going mad so like i've not had the mindset to just google it 😅
well i am glad you wrote more after that scene i might have murdered you otherwise.. i could not have lived with that cliffhanger being the end 🙈& that is perfectly fine you should also take some time off! get some rest!! -spoiler twin
HELLO thats so exciting...how do you access it my asks still only have the regular box am i going to have to start coding like some kind of stem student 
!!!!!!! ok listen. i know i have been shocking at responding i was unfortunately in a p bad mental situation over a large part of the christmas holidays but that has been largely solved now and your comments!!! your comments literally keep me fucking going i cant even Tell you how important they are to me GOD your comments as you were rereading britpop...i literally was refreshing my ao3 every few hours to see if you’d read any more and commented any more i cant even Explain how much serotonin they give me like the detailed comments you leave! the character analysis! the reactions to me mentioning noel writing songs :) ! the reactions to liam GOD i really do love that boy alongside you liam supremacy when . anyway i’m hoping to be able to write some more soon so!! we shall see but anyway i just want you to know How much of an impact your comments have and i’m genuinely very sorry i havent been in the right mental place to respond to them </3 
GENAU ich hab KEINE AHNUNG warum man nur auf deutsch die blöden nomen großschreiben muss smh sitz immer da so ‘der...die...das...ok kleinschreiben. der...die- ok großschreiben’ deutsch-war-meine-muttersprache-aber-ist-jetzt-ECHT-nicht-mehr probleme </3 omg genau irgendwie fühlt es sich so geheim hee hee nur spoiler twin weiß was ich hier sage :) obwohl es was so 100m deutschsprachler in der welt gibt skdfjwhebf ooh ja also wir feiern eigentlich richtig am 25. aber machen ein bisschen so ein hybrid-weihnachten also am 24. öffnen wir die geschenke von der oma, tante & onkel und am 25. dann die anderen aber wir machen auch nikolaus und advent usw. was man in gb nicht macht weil die alle LANGWEILIG sind 
kjwefnkwjenf honestly if i get around to rewatching the films and coming up with a plot that isnt just the memories of my 8 year old self fancying jimi blue...malum wilde kerle au is on the cards 
god i know i hate history of tech i cant lie history of science is also fairly boring ot me i just care about history of meidicne wkefbjwhebf but i’ve managed to swing it so this term i’m only going to be doing history of medicine so! lets hoep it goes well <3 although i have the same professor for both my modules this term so if he doesnt like me im FUCKED bout to start arselicking fr...
WKJEFBWKHEFBWE thats so funny i love that youre seeing memes in germany well back before lockdown 3 every region in england was classified into a tier originally there were 3 tiers so for areas with low covid infection rates they were in tier 1, which is like you can meet indoors as a group of 6 from different households, all the shops etc. are open basically as close to normality as we’ve got since the summer here, then tier 2 is the next one up which is you cant mix households indoors but you can meet in groups of 6 outdoors, and then tier 3 was meant to be the strictest one which was you can only meet one person from another household outdoors so pubs etc were shut, and then a few days before xmas the govt introduced tier 4 which was essentially lockdown except schools were still open so non-essential shops/hairdressers/gyms etc were shut and now we’re back in full lockdown schools are closed unis are closed everything is shut we’re only allowed to leave the house for certain reasons anyway i cant lie the tier memes are incredibly funny to me sometimes the british public has rights and their sense of humour is one of the only times 
how are you doing?? how was your holiday break? i hope you and your loved ones are all safe and healthy i know shits going down over there and you’re in lockdown too so i hope everythings okay and that youre holding up <3 
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Remus Lupin in HBP : notes
hey guys ! i am currently trying to reread the hp series, hoping to gain a better understanding of remus’ character. i started with this book bc it was physically closer to me than the other ones and i hate moving.
i will transcribe all these messy notes in a fully detailed and well explained analysis, but first i thought i would post the notes i took from the book bc they are fun and very extensive, so maybe other people can then use them for their analysis of the character ( if you do, please credit me )
warning : they are, however, not very academic. i tried not to get subjective, or at least to state the facts before to add my own reactions. also, i read the book in french so i wasn’t able to quote the book directly and also sometimes i nickname dumbledore “dumbie the meanie”
oh and also a lot of these were written late when i was half asleep so my english is probably terrible and they might not always make sense.
and finally : i swear a lot. and capitalize a lot. get ready.
- Molly mentions that he comes to visit the Weasley household
- Hermione mentions that he tried to make Tonks feel better about Sirius’ death ( including the fact that she didn’t manage to defeat Bellatrix therefore stopping her from killing him ) what a sweet and gentle bean
- first actual apparition in chapter 6 : Harry says his clothes look even more miserable than ever, that he seems too thin and depressed and that he had a lot of white hair SOMEBODY HUGS THAT CHILD
- also he talks about an ex death eater that had been killed and says « i’m surprised he survived an entire year after leaving the death eaters ; if i remember correctly regulus only lasted a few days » which shows that he knows a lot more about regulus’ death than everybody else – makes quite a lot of sense
- literally can’t stop speaking about the war and people who died and how things aren’t looking up for their side
- we see that a lot of protection spells and such are against werewolves : while most of them are scams, i wouldn’t be surprised there was a lot of silver going around at the time, which isn’t a good sign for remus’ safety and health ( mental and physical )
- draco says fenrir greyback is a friend of his family – was he possibly a friend of the blacks ? I need answers
- at hogwarts, harry says that he hoped lupin would write to him, but that he didn’t. He seems disappointed
- he spends christmas with the weasleys ! Why is no one talking about this friendship
- when harry sees him, he thinks he looks skinnier and more miserable than ever. I guess dumbledore is too busy getting harry ready to die to buy him some FREAKING FOOD
- also even on christmas eve in the middle of some bloody party he stays by himself near the fire and looks depressed, he only starts partaking in the conversation when the war is mentionned
- says dumbie the meanie sent him with the werewolves where he was unable to communicate with anyone. He also says ( will have to check in the english version ) that the werewolves are « his pears and equals » in a probably self pitying way
- harry says he seems bitter about having been asked to do this job. ( again, need original text ) but he also appears to be upset to be seen as the token werewolf here
- as soon as he realizes he sounds bitter he tries to smile and says he isn’t complaining and that it’s true that he should do this job and that it is necessary blablabla much BS
- he says other werewolves have a hard time trusting him bc he lived with wizards and they had to steal and kill to eat ( bc… you obviously look… so well fed… and privileged… )
- when harry asks him who Greyback is, he visibly tenses , but when he is the one to mention him ( talking about his mission ) he seems pretty normal
- ALSO he apparently has to see Greyback for his mission what the fork dumbie
- says greyback wants to create an army to overpower the wizarding world sounds festive and also that werewolves have a right to blood and should seek revenge on « normal people »
- seems surprinsingly open to discussing how he got bitten ? Like harry asks if it was when he was a kid and remus just roll on about what happened and his feelings good for him
- for a long time he thought the werewolf who bite him had done it by accident and felt sorry for them and apparently learnt the truth much later HOW DID YOU LEARN IT SOUNDS SO ANGSTY
- when harry says remus is normal and just has a « problem » it reminds him of james and he immediatly starts laughing his heart out this is both nice and really sad
- then starts sharing precious childhood memories and cheers up once again this is both nice and sad
- after that he jokes a bit and wow only a mention of james and his childhood made that sad lonely man so happy i want to cry
- AND MORE AND MORE CHILDHOOD MEMORIES ABOUT THE MARAUDERS
- talks a lot about james but avoids mentioning sirius even when harry tries to bring him up and doesnt even come close to talking about peter
- apparently he got a weasley sweater for christmas this is the cutest thing ever
- remus confirms once again that he isn’t speaking to anyone and probably avoids human contact as much as humanly possible this boi needs a good old therapist
- harry considers remus a patronus expert ??? chill just bc he thaught you that doesn’t mean he wrote his thesis on it
- but apparently he did bc guess who knows exactly why your patronus would change ???
- gets a bit awkward when tonks’ patronus is mentioned and is less at ease with words than usually. Also talks very slowly ( to remember when writing pining remus !! )
- hermione asks about him at hogwarts after the holidays PEOPLE CARE REMUS STOPS AVOIDING EVERYONE
- HOW COULD I FORGET TO MENTION THAT WHEN SNAPE IS MENTIONED HE IS LIKE « YA SURE HE RUINED MY LIFE AND THE ONE OF EVERY OTHER WEREWOLF IN THE COUNTRY BUT I SHOULD BE GRATEFUL THAT HE MADE ME THIS POTION »
- also he says harry’s feelings of hate towards snape come from the old predjudice inherited from james are fucking with me 1) hate justified 2) he literally used the m slur against lily and took part in racist bullying becoming later a facist and 3) i dont really think james had the time to teach harry that snape was a bad guy do you ? #calledout
- tonks hints that remus isn’t giving her any news about, for example, whether he’s alive or not. Remus really ? Bad manners.
- when Harry looks at all the detention’s files, he says Remus’ and Peter’s names were only occasionnally associated with the ones of James and Sirius, who were much more punished. Prank example : inflating another student’s head
- so this is more about greyback than remus but he talks really freely about biting children ( which must have been joyful to hear about poor lil remus ) and other death eaters hex him ? They never hex each other ? So they probably feel pretty entitled to hexing any werewolf that come their way
- also something about this attack bothers me. Dumbledore said he asked for the order members in hogsmeade to come to defend hogwarts but why was remus here then ? And later, when he tells about the battle, he says he saw greyback but there is no mention of them fighting or something yet greyback was supposed not to know remus was a spy for the order ? What is going on here i need answers
- i think remus’ bite mark was probably somewhere on his neck bc that’s where greyback wanted to bite harry. Does remus have to wear constant turtlenecks to hide it ? Omg
- REALLY SNAPE ? When they are both fighting after he killed dumbie he wants to run off and harry calls him a coward and he answers “oh yeah well when your dad bullied me it was always four against one so ha who’s the coward now” like WOW i do not appreciate you and oh also i guess possible information about the fact that the marauders acted together against snape but it’s kind of a contradiction with snape’s own memory where it’s only sirius and remus ? Guess snape is just making things up
- at the school hospital, remus has to stay with bill, who just got attacked by greyback, and that cannot be fun
- people don’t dare to say the word werewolf around remus for some reason
- HOW DOES REMUS KNOW WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN TO BILL AFTER HIS HALF BITE WHAT DID HE WITNESS WHILE SPYING
- when he learns that dumbledore died, he has a complete breakdown ( well he falls to a chair and hides his face in his hands and looks really distressed ) and harry says it’s the first time he sees remus losing control of himself. People underestimate how loyal to dumbie the meanie remus was
- he justified snape for a very long time but as soon as he learns he kills dumbledore ? He goes full ‘i hate him’ mode and says he has been a death eater spy the whole time
- he also used to say snape versus marauders was just old school rivalries but now he says « um, snape hated james » so really a lot of his attitude was really influenced by dumbledore
- as he is himself completely devastated, he takes time to comfort everyone and says « nah it’s not your fault » to everyone who blames themselves
- says a death curse nearly hit him during the battle. That is not a part of his character analysis but damn
- he « recovers » pretty quickly from his breakdown. Like they say his tone is harsh but that’s all lol wish i could get over something that fast
- nah kidding he’s probably just used to all the ‘don’t let them see, don’t let them knoooow’
- MOVING ON TO THAT REMUS/TONKS SCENE I DISLIKE
- as soon as tonks opens her mouth to talk about them dating, he ‘suddenly tenses’
- OKAY WHAT THE FUCK when remus tries to say that he doesn’t want to date tonks she grabs him, yells+ at him and shakes him down ? WHAT THE HELL BACK OFF
- apparently, when having a conversation about his love life, remus loves to stare at all this beautiful floor
- apparently remus predicted that the board members would try and close off hogwarts
- at the funeral he is holding tonks’ hand
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So I just finished watching Fate/Stay Night: Unlimited Bladeworks
and oh boy do I have a lot to say about it. In fact, I kept Tumblr open the entire watchthrough and sent a stream of real-time commentary to @fragrantricepaddy. Since I know a few others who will want to hear my thoughts, I’m going ahead and making a big post about it. Commentary is below the cut-off. SPOILERS AHEAD
SEASON 1
I'm loving it so far: -90% Shiro, +200% Rin.
Rin's first Command was probably the single best use of a command seal I've seen in Type Moon so far
Rin and Archer's banter gives me life
So, there was a problem with Archer's summoning, and Rin says she'll "figure out what to do about it later". Judging from previous Type-Moon, that means a magic ritual involving Rin and Archer f**king, right?
they keep showing the same shot of the Tohsaka manor, and the laziness in that regard is really bothering me
somebody get Sakura a teddy bear. she looks dead inside
the whole "Servants consume minds and souls" thing makes Type-Moon magic sound even more Lovecraftian. adding it to the evidence list
Rin's faith in Archer is just... I can't even... "Handle the landing", goddamn iconic
hmm, that was a suspiciously aggressive first action by Saber.
wtf was Sakura doing meeting with Gilgamesh in the middle of the night
man, Shiro just served Shinji with a smile. Unlimited Blades is characterized by +300% sass
every single highway shot is giving me Berserker flashba- oh this is actually that scene
The teacher character has many virtues, one of which is being an age-appropriate crush. More importantly, I don't think I've ever seen a more relatable character in all of anime
omg Shiro's nickname is Brownie that's adorable
Saber: "My sword will be at your side" Shiro: "Wait" Saber: *immediately runs off*
SHE ACTUALLY CALLED HIM A HACK
Plot twist: Shiro is the tsundere
The huge chest-window on Saber's outfit never bothered me this much before
"Tohsaka, what kind of person is this priest?" "An asshole" ~Rin, probably
"The status of master cannot be given to another" and other lies he tells for filthy karma
"It's a fight to the death" "Oh Kirei shut up!" get him girl
"So then, are you all done chatting?" I fucking snorted XD
Saber's looking at Illya, and I still can't figure out if she's lacking memories in this series.
Rin just Ice Caged that motherf**ker
Shirou's having his existential crisis
Kirei seems thrilled that Shirou's participating, but after Kiritsugu, it really seems like a downgrade as far as rivals go. His standards must have really slipped over the years.
Rin just tried to fuckin end Illya. cold.
Anime gets +2 points for Shirou NOT falling on Rin's chest when they bump into each other. Another +2 points for Rin putting him in a hold anyway.
The dialogue contains a lot of sexual subtext. Terms like consent and intercourse are thrown about in reference to Master-Servant and Servant-Servant interactions. What's your game, Type-Moon...
I see your resurrection and raise you a DRILL ARROW
"I never should have introduced Archer to Gurren Lagann" ~Rin, probably
Everybody in this show has daddy issues
I feel like they got a different writer for Shirou's dialogue than they did for every other character in this show - and they paid Shirou's writer a lot less money
Oh my god, you're having breakfast with a lovely Heroic Spirit, stop making discoveries about Rin
Ms. Fujime seemed to have the strongest objections, but she's going to be single-handedly responsible for the harem aspect of this anime.
Rin, why are you surprised to see him at school? You both go here.
So, Aioko goes missing, and they're all like "She was last seen with Shinji, but no one can find him." Doesn't that mean that they should be worrying about two missing students? There was a nearby murder. Why is Shinji under immediate suspicion?
Man, Rin's aim sure sucks.
I appreciate her class in not just smashing the door down and smoking him out instead.
There's something about magical inheritance that I'm not quite getting. It's been established that only one child can inherit family magic, but it's unclear why. One possibility is that the magic can only be physically held by one person at a time. As such, all a parent can do is teach their kid and do some kind of preparation that makes the magic pass to them upon their own death. However, that doesn't explain why Rin and Sakura were seperated in Fate/Zero. That seems to be entirely political. The impression there was that other families would not allow the Tohsakas to have two mage children, which indicates that multiple kids CAN be trained in the family magic. In that case, the restriction to only one child is probably to prevent families from raising small armies of child soldier-mages.
Shiro to Rin: "I know I'm not a mage" Shiro to Archer: "Fuck you, I'm a mage"
Saber: "You gave me your word that you would return before sunset" Shiro: "Well I also told you I'd summon you if I was in danger, but I didn't do that either" Saber: "..." Shiro: "YOLO"
Shinji: "Don't throw around false accusations" Shirou: "Oh no, you're doing a swell job of making everyone suspect you without my help"
Shirou knows Detect Secret Doors, Jon must be so happy
Oh no, Caster's seen Inuyasha
"So within these walls, you are able to mimic true magic" Caster Servants can't use true magic?!
Is Shiro the only one that seems concerned at Shinji's mental breakdown and maniacal laughter?
Man, Shiro just turned on the sass for Rin with NO MERCY
Wait, she scolded him so fiercely for going to school without Saber, and then she leaves Archer just so she can have some alone time with her new beau.
I can't believe that Shiro just "but no funny business"d Saber
Goddamn Shinji is such a little shit
My assumption is that Shinji didn't get the Mato magic because it's Sakura's by right of inheritance.
Rin's voice acting just got 50% more moe
And we interrupt this Holy Grail War for some boyxboy fanservice.
"You already checked him out?" "I sure did." The audience: He sure did.
"The heart of a mage chooses results over ideals" That sounds important - adding it to the list
Shiro, there comes a time in every young man's life when he experiences 'sword envy'...
I fucking KNOW Caster's voice actress, but pride prevents me from Googling it. Jesse?
Goddamn Saber needs to get a shield. She keeps injuring her left arm.
Shirou seems to be learning more from his enemies than from his allies.
You can tell the Matous are on the decline because their rapey bug-room has much fewer magic rape-beetles than normal.
Command seal seems to be a bit of a misnomer, considering we've seen them used as power sources for other magic. They're really just minor plot devices. I bet you could just use them to reconnect Saber and Shirou's link so she could get mana from him.
Jeez, I think the magic circuit overload must have fried a few of Shirou's brain cells. He's certainly slow on the uptake this morning.
"Oh to be young and in love!" shut up Fujimora, you're in your twenties
God he sucks at dates
Holy shit Saber's eye-sparkles at the sandwiches give me life
she actually went in to wipe the sauce off he actually chickened out of it
Rin's banter makes Shirou think that she's gonna fight him, but I swear she's talking about sex He's just failing every sense motive check
Fujimora: Hey Kuritsugu, do you know someone named Saber? *grave cracks straight down the middle*
SEASON 2
"Well, I have nowhere to go but up" ~Shirou, probably
Did the subs explain why Shirou stole that depleted healing gem from Rin?
Aaand the animators are really getting their kicks out of Saber's enslavement
"Your Servant body cannot resist me."
Yeah, even without having seen the original series, I'd call BS on her having killed Kirei.
More flashbacks to the Keyblade graveyard - I mean, Archer's past.
Archer went from sassy older brother to Rin's personal motivational speaker in no time
Rin is the ballsiest motherf*cker wanting to take on Caster. I can see that Archer considers her wanting Shirou and Saber back together to be a weakness.
I get that Rin thinks she can beat Caster, but why would Rin think that CASTER would think that Rin could win?
"Come down here so I can kick your ass." get her, girl
Looks like Archer's looking ahead and playing the long game. He knows that he has to keep Caster in one place or surprise her. Head on confrontations won't work on her. I hope.
Good to see Shirou getting faster with that, but it looks like he's not fully recovered.
I would like to think that Rin can see what Archer's doing.
"I've always adored and watched you from a distance." your execution sucks
"I don't hate you, and your cooking's pretty good" need me a freak like that
I like how neither Rin nor Shirou consider asking Shinji to join them for even a moment, but the crazy child who tried to murder them sounds like a Good Idea
Aaand Caster's flashback suddenly went even more Instrumentality Project than the Fate/Zero finale
"Not like this!" whatever, I hope you get eaten alive by beetles
Aww hey, I remember this courtyard
I went from being ticked at these homunculi nurses to fuckin loving them in two seconds flat
Aww, damn
I-Iris?
WHAT IS THE GRAIL CURSE DOING HERE?!
why do u make me cry
I want nothing more than for Shirou to be like "Shinji? Last time I saw you you were pissing yourself running to the church."
Tohsaka: "Your PTSD is bullshit and your coping mechanisms are crap"
Shirou: "I wanted to become a man like him." Audience: You really don't.
So if I'm getting my analysis right, if Shirou neglects his own happiness in the pursuit of saving others, all he will ever do is save people so that they in turn can martyr themselves (in the same way that Kiritsugu "saved" Shirou). But by the same token, if Rin keeps saving Shirou without making it clear that it's for her own desires, then she'll never be able to convince Shirou to be selfish.
Shirou just got all clingy bf. wow.
AND SHE'S INTO IT
*Lancer breaks the fourth wall*
"If I have to put up with this I'm gonna kick Caster's ass all by myself!" oh she'd do it too
Everyone with purple hair in this show needs a teddy bear and a warm hug
Oh my god the Archer/Lancer banter is like a couple of old men. It's hilarious
"Like I would ever walk on somebody else's grass!" XD
The Archer/Lancer fight is turning out to be my favorite anime fight scene
I feel like Rin was gonna warn Lancer that Archer likes to taunt and throw off his opponents, but the pridful fucker didn't listen, and now he's getting goaded. MAN I hope Archer's bluffing about his heel-face turn.
... Did Archer just manifest an AT field???
Archer. Cold.
ARCHER
So, is Archer some kind of Shirou Alter?
SABER AND RIN. HOLY SHIT
He's seen Excalibur. Oh noe
This is what I'm talking about. Learns more from his enemies than his friends.
Break his nose, Rin
So earlier, Archer pronounced his AT field as "Ayas", but I'm pretty sure it would be spelled as 'Aegis'.
KICK HIM
oh that was even more satisfying
and Lancer's dialogue continues to be perfect
Aww, man, Lancer can't get a break
oh. Lancer got a break :)
please not another choking scene
I was about to say, Lancer hadn't disappeared yet
Well, Archer turned out to be a huge asshole, and Rin's been tied up for the last two episdoes, so Lancer is my new favorite.
Archer's gonna burn up all his mana before he kills Shirou at this rate
Waitaminute, what happened to Assassin?!
Oh. Oh, Archer.
Ah, is Shinji finally gonna bite the dust? Thanks, Gilgamesh.
I am very content with their pre-battle resolutions and meal. The scene has a feeling of rightness to it.
"Saber doesn't stand a chance against him!" "On what basis do you make that judgement?" "On the basis that he's smoked every other Spirit he's fought without taking a scratch, while you got beaten up by a teacher with magic punches."
Aww, Rin doesn't want to tell Shirou he's their only hope of beating Goldy. Not sure whether it's her pride or that she doesn't want to put that pressure/risk on him.
Waitaminute, are Rin and Saber banging to do something magical circuit related?!?
NOPE
"All I told you to do is take your clothes off!"
But boy, Rin sure was acting like they were gonna have to bang to do the transfer. Type-Moon is using their own sleazy rep to fake-out the audience.
Anyway, Rin's plan for Shirou to use the reality marble is great, but she doesn't know about World Ender.
C'mon Shirou, a girl gives you her magic crest, you gotta at least do some pillow talk.
She fantasizes about him doing high jumps all day? Kinky.
The conversation they're NOT having is that, one way or another, Saber won't be here tomorrow.
Also, I'm reasonably certain that Gilgamesh was corrupted by the Grail when he got drenched in it. He didn't give a fuck about it before, but now he wants to do something symbolic about wiping out humanity with their own wishes. He was a chronic narcissist before, but now he's gone full megalomaniac.
oh, nevermind, there's the conversation
Jeez, I can't believe a key component of this plan is "save Shinji"
THERE'S FUCKIN ASSASSIN
I'm assuming that Goldy has just been steadily leeching off of others for mana over the course of ten years, so he's not gonna run out anytime soon.
I think Grail!Iris wants to kick the shit out of Goldy as much as I do.
"A mage is simply no match for a Servant" Pft, like when?
I really want Shirou to summon Eya (sp?) while Goldy is laughing, just to shut him up.
Rin, goddammit, stop being proud and let Saber help you
WHAT? WHAT? WHAT? ARCHER?
YES RIN-ARCHER DREAM TEAM TAKES THE WIN
WOOH, GAINAX BOOM!
So, last time the Grail's destruction caused fire and death to rain upon the city. This time, the Grail's destruction causes... a rain of pretty sparks?
FINALLY DREW BLOOD FROM THAT MOTHERFUCKER
Goldy, you sore loser!
"But first, take a step to the right."
Emiya-Archer making an appearance at the end did not at all fit with established mechanics and I am 100% okay with that.
HE WAS ABOUT TO PROPOSE
He's her bodyguard/apprentice? Sweet.
Who the fuck is this chick?
THIS is Luvia??
Her dialect is obnoxious.
Rin in tight clothes is a gift
The Epilogue seems a little late in the series to try and wedge in a love triangle
Join the Mage's Association? *pft*
I'm terribly peeved that Shinji survived this thing. The worm.
Oh boy, Tohsaka got bold - planning rendevous in the student council prez's face.
"I should have known you would take advantage of me again." SPILL THE TEA, SHIROU
"Look me in the eyes and say that you'll come." Honestly, I'm just adding this line to the list to mess with Carlos.
WAVER!!!!!!!!!!
Rin has been giving Shirou bedroom eyes in every scene of the epilogue
"Got some things to work out of my system" like all of the sexual tension built up over this series?
Closing thoughts: -What pretty animation -The romance/fluff was excellent -Archer and Lancer clearly got the best dialogue -Shinji can go jump in a lake -Sakura still needs a teddy bear -Iris deserved better -Caster Did Nothing Wrong -Why is there an after-scene after the f*cking Epilogue? -Archer is such a buzzkill
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7x12 review and thoughts
How is no one talking about the secret passageway on the game map?! They do no analysis of this board game at all!!!
“Her help is dead, his head rolled over your feet remember?” - Hanna
‘What about Sidney? ‘- ‘Oh please let's not go there’ - Emily
‘Em you’ve already been there!’ - Spencer. Omg this made me laugh so hard
Emily is the one that wants out this time..interesting.
“I may have been the one driving this car but we have to be in this together  ”- Hanna
I bet A.D didn’t know that the only new information being given this episode is to A.D! Obviously the game is insane and has a recording device, they know A has always stalked them, why do they talk right there? Why not ditch their phones and talk somewhere out in the open?
“Nicole Gordon was never his fiance, I am! ” - Aria. Oh Aria you wonderful crazy thing
Addison Derringer is not A. She probably got manipulated or bribed by Jenna, or another A minion, even the minions need minions in this A game.
Addison is just like Alison in high school, and Alison now.
I am loving Spencers dress and Arias' hair!
I can’t believe Veronica still backs up Peter..it infuriates me.
“Wow, so only you and dad could appreciate the bitter irony of me checking into the same mental hospital where I was born ”- Spencer-
I really feel bad for Veronica, I do. She adopted a child who was born because her husband was cheating on her, she covered for his ass all these years and Spencer never felt like anything but a Hastings, I think Spencer is being pretty horrible to Veronica. I get that she hurting but she's in her twenties not she isn’t a child. What did she want Veronica to do? Discuss the fact that Peter is a cheating bastard and that Spencer is the result of an affair?
So..does Hanna make her own clothes to wear? Hence the ‘you went through my closet!’
Does she sew them? Design and send them somewhere to get made? Does she buy the materials?
Emily benches Addison for missing a practice, Addison is pure attitude, not even looking up from her phone.
“My head was throbbing, listening to your rusty whistle wasn’t going to help” - Addison, reminding us of old Ali.
Alison is in pay attention to me mode...what if I have one like her..or me... She has not decided if she is keeping the baby
So are Spencer and Marco together?
Spencer tells Marco about Mary and shows the letter, changes one detail..she found the letter rather than she was given the letter after playing a crazy board game
Hold up…if the beading, the belt, the collar was Hanna’s bosses idea that Hanna took then what did Hanna design? A plain black dress with a tutu skirt?
Addison is a little psycho, she goes to Paige, accuses Emily of hitting on her and other girls on the team then shows Paige a photo of Emily being’inappropriate’ with Alison, hoping to anger Paige. Addison's eavesdropping has paid off, she's overheard Emily and Paige, and Emily and Alison.
I find Holden really attractive this time, also he’s so damn normal, and nice, and sweet.
Aria taking off the ring, foreshadowing?
“Did Ezra propose to her first?”- Aria
Holden reminds Aria that everyone has a past, that even Aria has had other men tell her they love her, and she doesn’t talk to Ezra about that so maybe Ezra wouldn’t tell her if he had proposed to Nicole before she disappeared
“Just because you met him when you were in 11th grade doesn’t mean he’s frozen in amber” - Holden. Holden is so anti-Ezra but not in a tell Aria to ditch his ass way.
Emily tells Paige she will go tell Hackett about what Addison is doing, Paige tells Emily she will handle it before it gets worse and Emily is accused of hitting on students
Marco has a lead in. Mary..Lead out of Scranton! Mary Drake works at Dunder Mifflin!
Spencer has enlisted Marco to help find Mary
Tap tap tap Jenna is coming!!!
Jenna can identify Spencer by her breathing? Come the fuck on now. Jenna can see, at the very least she can partially see
So we know Jenna has been told to say all this, she does it convincingly, so convincingly that I question all the other times I’ve felt bad for Jenna when she has a sob story.
I think Jenna has always wanted revenge for the liars blinding her, and Noel for him getting suspended for cheating, and perhaps other things we don’t know about.
Jenna tells Marco that Noel was the psychopath that lured Jenna to the blind school to kill her, and he had her work for him so she could have money for eye surgery.
Not sure why Marco didn’t take Jenna aside, to begin with..it’s unprofessional and ridiculous to let Spencer stand there as Jenna makes her statement
Hanna tries to call Claudia about the dress...
“She has balls the size of church bells.” - Omg Spencer..just omg.
She hasn’t told Marco about the game but seems to want to.
Sparia discusses Spencer wanting to find Mary. She wants to get to know Mary, not as someone to fear but to forgive.
Jenna walks in with 2 other blind people, flanking her on either side..or..’‘bookends’ -  as Emily would describe it.
Jenna sends a text and Emily hears Addison’s phone go off at the same time
Spencer tells her Veronica she won't be working with her anymore. I'm really disappointed with Spencer right now, Veronica does not deserve this treatment, I get that she is upset but to take it all out on Veronica instead of Peter is unfair. Veronica continues to tell her she loves her and has never felt they were not a family and Spencer is just cold. I really feel for Veronica, and find Spencer irritating and a little much right now. I usually love Spencer but she’s 23, not 13. This woman adopted you and raised you as her own, not telling you you’re the product of an affair her cheating husband had with a mentally ill woman sounds like the safer thing to do.
Spencer has the audacity to sound upset about the house being sold after she’s outright said Veronica isn’t her mother and after she’s been nothing but cold to Veronica since she found out Mary is her mom and she seems to want to forgive Mary but punish Veronica.
Arias dress is cute
Aria gets an article on Ezra reuniting with his fiance Nicole Gordon. The article talks about Nicole’s kidnapping and being held by guerrilla forces. They show pictures of Ezra and Nicole before and after the reunion. I am low key shipping Aria and Holden. I get the feeling that Ezra won’t be able to leave Nicole. He will tell Aria this in a way that makes him seem like some white knight to Nicole and how Aria would always feel guilty for Nicole not getting Ezra.. he will make it seem like he’s doing her the favor. He’s everyone’s white knight.
Mona seems to be working like crazy on this fashion business and Hanna is too busy waiting to eat with Caleb to even look at jewelry designers Mona is showing her right this minute? She asks Mona to forward them to her. Hanna this is your business, get yourself into it, Caleb can eat by himself, you can see him later. I don’t get this too busy for a career and relationship thing.
Catherine is going to BORROW shoes from Hanna? Why wouldn’t she buy a pair like them? Hanna is having these shoes fixed.It’s not like Hanna designed the shoe, it's just strange to me.
OMG Jenna walks in wearing Hanna’s dress but in white, and I must say it looks better in white, and great on Jenna
Mona flips out, more so than Hanna, who acts rather meekly, wtf where is crazy Hanna right now? Mona confronts Jenna with a..’Yo Jenna! ‘ Omg Mona is amazing
Jenna claims the dress was a gift, Jenna says she and her posse have an uber waiting and she tap taps the fuck out of there
Hanna says it’s all part of the game and Mona is left asking what game.
Mona is getting left behind again. I don’t want A to be Mona again because I feel Mona has gotten past that and is a strong and confident woman now.
Emily wants to get into the barn to see the Game to play it because she is convinced Addison is working for A.D
Emily reminds the audience A.D took a final exam for her
“I'm living proof, once you invite the devil in, horrid little seeds start to sprout” - Alison.OMG
Jenna and her posse meet at the cobbler place where Hanna’s shoes are Caleb wants to handle Jenna
Jenna smells Hanna on Caleb, and guesses it is Hanna behind her. Caleb questions why she is here, and where she got the dress. He even grabs her by the cane and threatens her. She reminds him only Noel could contradict the story she told the police and he’s dead.
Hanna gets locked in a caged off room at the cobbler's place, someone obviously closed that door, it didn’t swing randomly closed on its own, and someone shut off the lights.
lol @   #benchme lol Addison is taking bong hits with her boyfriend in a car behind the brew.
Aria the greatest liar convinces a nurse to let her in after visiting hours but telling her she's brought her good friend Nicole some salt water taffy.
317 is Nicole’s room number.
Holden stops Aria from going in to see/confront Nicole. He’s such a sweetheart and really mature!
The sander thing is going off, something swings from the ceiling tries to punch Hanna, she's having pure flashbacks of being tortured in the barn with that cattle prod. She gets a text from A.D and A.D really seems to hate Hanna, like a lot.
‘Wait your turn, Bitch, It’ll come. And you’ll be ready - A.D
A.D seems to hate Hanna more than anyone, Spencer gets clues about her mother, Aria just has Ezra drama and Emily gets help from A.D in dealing with Addison. Why the major Hanna hate? Spencer twin would hate Hanna for the Spaleb mess. HMM.
Caleb rescues Hanna
Emily confronts and threatens Addison with the bong video, Paige intervenes and tells Addison she's in trouble for gloating about getting rid of Emily in an email they found. Her parents and principal Hackett have been informed
‘Why? you gonna smack me? “- Addison. 
“No I can’t do that, but somebody should have a long time ago”. - Emily
Aria asks Holden if she should give the ring back and Holden tells her not to expect Ezra to be on her timetable, if he needs time give it to him and that he’s probably more torn up than she is.
Emily is given another puzzle piece, still black and white, still scrawly lines and an abstract feel. Spencer theorizes it’s a map but I still think it could be a sonogram or a collage that includes a sonogram picture.
So that’s my live watch review..I’ll try to post some more thoughts later!
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May 3rd, 2018 CTP Archive
The archive for the Comic Tea Party chat that occurred on May 3rd, 2018, from 5PM - 7PM PDT.  The chat focused on Suriska by Claire Burn.
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✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
COMIC TEA PARTY START!
Good day everyone~! This week’s Comic Tea Party is now officially beginning~! Today we are discussing Suriska by Claire Burn~! (http://suriskacomic.com/) For those new or in need of a reminder, discussions about the comic are freeform, so please feel free to bring up whatever you wish. However, every 30 minutes I will be dropping in a discussion question to help those who would like a prompt. These questions are totally OPTIONAL to answer, and you can pay them no mind if you wish. If you miss out on any though, they’ll be pinned for the duration of the chat once they’re posted~! Remember, constructive criticism is allowed, but the primary focus here is to have fun and appreciate the amazing comics that the community makes~! As a bonus, each chat a top comment will be picked and featured in the archives and on an ad for CTP! All that being said, let’s get started and have a great discussion!
QUESTION 1. What is your favorite scene in the comic so far and why?
🌟Draco Plato🌟
I really liked Freyja checking the stove multiple times, I laughed out loud since it's something I've always done when leaving the house.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
yes that was a moment i connected with too. not that ive really checked the stove but ive had to deal with other similar issues of checking things a dozen times. im glad for the timing of that too cause it really helped explained why corin going missing got to her so much
Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Hello there! I’ll be there in a bit, currently AFK for the time being!
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
kay~!
🌟Draco Plato🌟
I've really enjoyed learning more about Freya as a character too, I feel like there's a lot of depth beneath her that we're just starting to uncover
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
yeah. there are a lot of interesting elements to her character. mostly because i hmm why shes in the town. like corin is understandable because corin's anxiety is a bit more debilitating. whereas freya seems completely functional and yet somehow stuck
i think my favorite scene is less a scene is the one where freya busts into johann's place and just doesnt say anything. shows him the picture and hes like "well shit ive been found out."
🌟Draco Plato🌟
OH! I liked that too, it also added more layers to the story. And yeah, overall I find Corin a simpler character since it's pretty clear why he is the way he is and his debilitating anxiety, etc
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
another scene i like for its effect on the story itself is the story about the origin of the snow. i really liked that it gave the town a sort of history, even if it might be a fictional and fantastical one XD
🌟Draco Plato🌟
Yeah I did think that was really good for expanding the lore of the story~!
wishjacked
I have a really strong love/hate relationship with the scene where the old man at the train station recognizes Corin and asks about his parents. It's really funny in the most painful way imaginable
And I like Freya a lot!! I'm interested to see where her character goes-- I think there are a lot of hints that she's not as functional as she appears at first, and I'm interested to see where that goes haha
🌟Draco Plato🌟
Oh same!!
Omg that scene at the train station, that old man was ridiculously awful in his questions, from bad to worse
felt so bad for Corin
wishjacked
Like the oven thing was funny, but weirdly drawn out compared to a lot of other jokes, and she also has that scene in the bathroom where she has this weird, disjointed cause-and-effect logic that because she left the soap out, it caused something totally unrelated and bad to happen. I've wondered if those things have some deeper meaning to her character or world lol
Me too, I was dyyyyiiiiiing for that whole scene
🌟Draco Plato🌟
same, same, I feel like there's something to delve into there behind her little ticks
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
that is true. the stove thing i get, but the soap out did throw me for a loop. so its a good point that her problems may go a bit deeper. albeit shes at least not so tormented shes staying home all day. i imagine it takes her like an hour to actually leave her house though
that old man scene though, man, i erased that from my memory
it just made me so uncomfortable
like old man where is your human decency O_O
🌟Draco Plato🌟
yeeeeah, like geezus 0 sympathy for the poor kid
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
yeah. i mean youd think corin just told him the weather was not so great, not that his parents died tragically O_O
🌟Draco Plato🌟
altho there was a part of me that thought as a writing choice that was low hanging fruit for showing his anxiety heightened and why he has it and I thought that maybe it could have been added in more strategically than so forced
but that was more my thought on a writing analysis viewpoint
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
tbf i actually wondered if that was the true dialogue and if we were getting an unreliable narrator effect going. like the old man was actually being nicer but corin's anxiety translated the words to something else.
http://suriskacomic.com/62.html
especially after that scene it makes me feel that inclination stronger
wishjacked
oh, that's a very interesting thought!!
🌟Draco Plato🌟
I did wonder that too Rebel!
wishjacked
Honestly I took the scene at face value bc I straight up am that old man. and thaaaaaaaaaaaat's why I have no friends XD
🌟Draco Plato🌟
LOL!!!
wishjacked
there tends to be a really strong "unreliable narrator" feeling in general-- beyond Corin's anxiety rewriting speech bubbles, Freya's narration is just snarky enough that I'm not quite sure exactly how biased she is in her representation of her town and etc
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
hmm im not sure i got that representation from freya. her items i took more at face value. that being said, i do think shes suffers from a sort of complex in how she sees herself? like she got super pissed about johann not trusting her and thinking she couldnt handle the secret and what not, and something about it struck me as kind of odd. tho i couldnt put a finger on what
🌟Draco Plato🌟
I was surprised how agreeable she was to covering up for an affair
and how nonchalant she was about it, since that's a rather big deal
it made me wonder where she lies on a morality line
which i thought was intriguing
cause my first assumption is she'd be very anti it so it went against my expectations which i like
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
that is also true. not to mention its a very risky secret to keep. the about page says this towns population is 150. and small towns of that size generally make it hard to keep secrets of that level
🌟Draco Plato🌟
right! So I'm interested where that story route will go
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
QUESTION 2. Throughout the comic we see the portrayal of mental illnesses, from Corin’s anxiety to Freya’s OCD tendencies. Was there any aspect of their portrayal you particularly connected with? Why? Do you think Corin and Freya will be able to learn to cope with their illnesses better? If so, what do you think has to happen for them to be able to get a better handle on life? Particularly in the case of Corin, what do you foresee as potential conflicts he’ll have to face in regards to his anxiety, and do you think he’ll triumph over them?
as for the first question
once again http://suriskacomic.com/62.html
that page
ive been there. where no matter what people are actually telling you all you hear is how worthless you are. not fun times. and i thought that was really a lovely way to illustrate it. the sudden change in color schemes really sets the mood. and the messy handwriting for corin's added thoughts really i think emphasis the volitile nature of them
🌟Draco Plato🌟
yeah I felt that was relatable as well(edited)
to a much smaller degree than what Corin has though, but I've been there with crippling anxiety before
My hope is that by the end of the story he'll have learned to cope with it but I could see the creator not taking that direction as well
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
itd be a shame if corin didnt learn better coping mechanisms though. :< like, what a horrid life to live with such anxiety. not to mention from the sounds of it corin moved there to change himself, so hes not gonna be changing himself if that happens. granted i dont expect him to ever be fully "cured" (for lack of a better word). just still, itd be nice if he could go outside or open the door without thinking about how people secretly all hate him or something.
🌟Draco Plato🌟
I do think he needs to change for it to be a compelling story arc for him
cause a lack of progression in his condition would just be overly sad especially with the background he came there to change
but if the change character is Freya and not Corin I could see the story not helping Corin in his condition
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
yeah thats true. and tbh im not sure corin is in the right place to change as far as his anxiety goes. im really torn about that. cause on the one hand being able to go to a remote location could be a good mental break. but on the otherhand it can also worsen the anxiety. however corin progresses.
im interested to see how corin handles being on a train
cause thats not really a place where you can actively avoid people in super close proximity
🌟Draco Plato🌟
I think there's also a small chance Corin could be the "antagonist" of the story
if he flips out to such a degree
that it hurts those around him
Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
alrighty, I'm here at last
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
hi super~!
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Hi Rebel! Thanks again for doing the CTP
Before I jump in I want to say I like the winter aesthetics of this comic.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
corin is kind of the antagonist. he did hide that letter. which is...like i get he doesnt want to go but he didnt need to deprive freya of the reunion. hes an adult so she technically cant tell him what to do.
yeah its really nice to see a winter setting, especially one where ppl are actively dressed for it
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🌟Draco Plato🌟
yeah i like the winter aesthetic too, and yeah that really made me question Corin on the morality line, that he hid the letter from her just because he wasn't sure if he wanted to go or not. It made me feel he was super self absorbed and doesn't consider his actions and their affect on other people
also who was he mailing the letter to in the most recent page?
it had a sinister feel to it the way it was portrayed
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
considering he was looking at a magazine catalogue thing that had a thing that looked like a radio for 19.99, i assume he was mailing a letter that said "plz give me this product"
🌟Draco Plato🌟
oh! was that it, i didn't notice, I wonder why it was made to feel like such a big deal then panel and tone wise
I guess it could have been done that way because of him over hearing the conversation too
I just didn't think it was that relevant to him since he wouldn't have known the tickets were for him and Freya
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
well to be fair the next page may directly say "these are for the farthas so they can go to their reunion" and then corin may be all gasp
i kind of thought the tone was sinister too although i assumed that was an artistic choice to express corin's anxiety. cause when you arent a fan of people, going out where there are people is probably gonna be a sinister undertaking
🌟Draco Plato🌟
yeah, maybe the next page will piece it together better, that could change a lot. I think if his anxiety was the focus there'd have been more focus panel wise on his expressions and less on the letter and mail box
I was actually surprised it didn't focus on his anxiety more
since it seemed like him going there would be a big deal
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
thats true. on a side note and kind of off topic, i like the pattern on corin's hat. like i think its just a really nice detail.
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>On Page 59 >Chills at around -20 Is that in F or C
🌟Draco Plato🌟
probably F since the creator is from the US
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Holy Christ
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
QUESTION 3. Suriska may be a small town, but plenty trouble seems to be afoot even so. Do you think Corin will ever hear the end of the whole town going out to look for him? Do you think Corin will be able to maintain employment, or will his employer eventually let him go? In regards to Freya who discovered Johann’s affair, do you think she’ll actually be able to keep the secret? If so, do you think she might take advantage of knowing it since she already got free train tickets out of it? Do you think there are any other shadowy things happening within the town? Regardless, do you think being in the town will help Freya or Corin change perspectives on their life? If so, how can this particular town help? Alternatively, do you think the town is actually making their individual ruts worse?
well it is a winter town. those temps are expected
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A part of me feels sorry for Corin.
also yea
He just looks like the guy that goes through a lot
🌟Draco Plato🌟
I bet something spooky happens because it's a small town, small town stories generally like to focus on the spooky
someone will die or something supernatural will happen
O_O
also it seems like the witches will be proven to be real or something since it had such a long introduction of importance
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
twist: the winter story was true and corin is gonna run into a fox and corin will bring more winter
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omg Page 68 tho
🌟Draco Plato🌟
yeah, omg yeah that's probably it rebel
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and the stuff about an affair
🌟Draco Plato🌟
I feel like the fox/witch story had such a long focus was because it's going to become a big part of the story
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Now that you mention it, maybe(edited)
🌟Draco Plato🌟
also the guy in the story looked a bit like Corin
so i feel there's a connection there
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mmm
I smell foreshadowing
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
i actually got the opposite impression. i cannot see the fox/witch story becoming part of this story in its current course. cause that was the only moment where anything remotely supernatural was even mentioned. and since the rest of this comic is so ingrained in real life issues, it would just be too out of the blue to me to bring it up again
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what if that was only part of the story
and there's a continuation
of sorts later on(edited)
🌟Draco Plato🌟
I do think the supernatural turn would actually be unwelcomed since that's very common and I prefer it being rooted in reality for what it has been so far. Buuuut small town stories, they love to go into the supernatural and that was a long focus on the fox story
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
still would doubt that. cause again, its delving into the supernatural where 90% of the rest of the comic has nothing supernatural about it.
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Maybe the story could have some kind of greater meaning
🌟Draco Plato🌟
I've read a lot of comics before that have turned supernatural though in the middle
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rather than just connecting Corin to it
🌟Draco Plato🌟
so it wouldn't be that strange
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also yea
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
i did think the focus was long, but it can come up in other ways. like maybe corin will use the story as an inspiration to go on a journey. thats more realistic
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🌟Draco Plato🌟
yeah it definitely could be used in other ways
I'd rather see the story be an emotional journey for the characters without the use of a supernatural trope
but again I don't think it'd be uncommon for it to go there
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I'll say I'm for the emotional journey part(edited)
🌟Draco Plato🌟
I mean Corin could also just flip out and start murdering people saying he is the fox or something
the story is pretty wide open atm
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
true. i mean maybe the supernatural will come up. i cant really even say this is the middle of the story cause who knows how long its going to be. for all i know were still technically in the beginning.
🌟Draco Plato🌟
Maybe Corin doesn't want to go on the train so he runs away into the woods and he meets the fox
and then he goes on a journey with the fox
and freya has to find him
and then he gets over his anxiety by realizing he still has freya left or something
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
yes that could be a possibility. the story couldve just been there to be there. add to that winter lore
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Maybe the fox could be Corin hallucinating or imagining it(edited)
and it speaks with him
🌟Draco Plato🌟
Fox could be the manifestation of his anxiety
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✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
i do think the story is going to go the route where corin has to leave the town. imho i dont think the town is helping him at all atm. especially freya cause shes kind of an enabler of just letting him laze about the home. like....hes 21 and she treats him like hes a teen or younger. and i personally think those conditions make it hard for him to grow.
🌟Draco Plato🌟
yeah I agree, Freya is an enabler since she doesn't require him to do anything to help around the house or anything
so it breeds stagnation
He needs to make an emotional journey alone most likely
cause the demons are first and foremost inside himself
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
yes.
at the very least if he stays in town everyone will constantly remind him about how he ran away and the whole town searched
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Yea
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
cause man did that town look excited about it XD
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I'm thinking he migrates to someplace a bit warmer
if I had anything to say
🌟Draco Plato🌟
yeah, omg Like geezus this town(edited)
he'd be lucky to go somewhere warmer, lolol
oh you asked about if he'd lose his job or not, I actually thought it was amazing he even had a job with his level anxiety. Was legit shocked by that XD(edited)
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lol
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
im confused a bit by the geography of this town. in the sense is this town just experiencing winter atm or is it like eternal winter.
🌟Draco Plato🌟
same
I couldn't tell if the curse made it an all year thing or just seasonal
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
which is what i thought the point of the fox/witch story was more. to create something about the seasons
🌟Draco Plato🌟
yeah if there was a concrete answer regarding it i missed it
but it makes a huge difference
cause if there really is a curse and it's an all year thing than that already puts the supernatural in
if it's related to the curse that is, and not just hey we're winter all year cause of geography, etc
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
for some reason the town really reminds me of alaska
Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Me too
I thought it would be someplace in Canada
🌟Draco Plato🌟
I was thinking more of sweden or switzerland
based on their haircuts and clothes
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but Alaska was what came into my mind first
the clothes looked more Russian to me
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
was skimming the beginning for clues, theres a magical thumb that covers the location
so im gonna assume it doesnt matter
maybe its symbolic
suriska the town is a state of mind
🌟Draco Plato🌟
lolol
i'mma assume it's fictional until otherwise stated
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Yea(edited)
Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨
(It might be estonian, based on the fact that they mention Kalavinski which... is a giant rubber boot in estonian apparently)
🌟Draco Plato🌟
a wild Kabo appears
Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨
Only briefly!
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eey Kabo! o/
also lol, is that really a thing?
🌟Draco Plato🌟
okay yeah that adds up with their clothes
Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨
But yeah, I was figuring northwest Europe somewhere. Originally I'd thought Nordic, but Estonia makes sense too.
erm, northeast.
🌟Draco Plato🌟
norway would make sense too cause of her name
Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨
............ directions, man, what are they even
Right?!
🌟Draco Plato🌟
like duuur why didn't i connect that even thought it earlier
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My mind will forever think
some kind of cross between Alaska and Russia(edited)
🌟Draco Plato🌟
so the name Corin is Irish
that doesn't help
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
fartha is also an irish name?
well assume europe
thats good enough
🌟Draco Plato🌟
somewhere in europe, yus
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Yea Europe sounds good
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
in regards to corin's job, it does sound like its a pity job so his performance may not matter
🌟Draco Plato🌟
yeah i like when that was brought up cause it made it make more sense to me
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
tho i wonder if he's 1) getting paid and 2) contributing to household utilities and such
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✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
QUESTION 4. At the beginning of the comic, Freya forcefully declares that she and Corin will be going to a family reunion, whether Corin actually wants to go or not. Do you think Freya will actually get Corin to go, or will Corin magically vanish come time to leave? If Corin doesn’t go, will Freya go alone? If they do both manage to go, do you think the reunion will go well? What do you think in general will happen at the reunion? Speaking of which, what do you think the other members of the family will think of Corin? Do you think something at the reunion will make Corin have a new perspective on his parents’ death? If there is no reunion, how do you think this will affect Freya and Corin’s relationship with their family?
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Hmmm
I think Corin would make some excuse to go and just
🌟Draco Plato🌟
I bet we don't see the reunion, lolol
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stay on the side
🌟Draco Plato🌟
and corin will run off and freya will have to find him
cause I think it's unlikely the story will shift away from the small town
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
idk i feel like the reunion is a potential future still. albeit i consider the liklihood of corin actually going to be slim
i could see freya just going "fine whatever stay here by yourself"
and then she goes to the reunion
🌟Draco Plato🌟
since the small town is mentioned so predominately in the about Is why i think they're going to stay there
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unless his personality takes a full 180 by then
🌟Draco Plato🌟
cause the town is itself a character
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Is that so?
🌟Draco Plato🌟
"Suriska: population 150. It's neither Freya nor Corin's definition of paradise, but it is their home... if you could call it that. Apparently it's where you end up if you try to change your life for the better. What does it take to get out of this rut? It might take spite, it might take snowstorms, or it might just take a reevaluation of your morals."
ALTHOUGH
"A slice-of-life comic about trains, bad weather, and insecurities."
that's the tagline
which makes me think they'll get on the train and get in a bad snowstorm and get stranded, lolol
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Hmm
Why do i keep thinking Corin should just do photos of the snow and mountains for a living
with a camera
and store all the photos somewhare
like to give people a taste of what life looks like up north(edited)
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
i dont forsee that working. it doesnt look like the town really has many electronics of any sort. like theyre still using landlines
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also yea
you do have a point
🌟Draco Plato🌟
plus making a living as an artist isn't the easiest thing, lol
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double-point taken
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
just cause they go to a reunion doesnt mean they cant come back. and you can still make the town predominant if the characters talk about it. like i imagine freya's family has lots to ask about it. so in that context it still makes the story part of it. but man, i bet you if freya did go to the reunion she would tell her sister with the foot thing all about johann's affair. make it even thinking nobody will ever meet
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I wonder what time era this takes place in, or if the residents deliberately don't use much electricity in case the power goes out or something and it'd be hard to repair
🌟Draco Plato🌟
Personally I'd like them to go to the reunion, i think it'd be interesting,
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
i assume its modern times but that their town is super remote. cause if you have a remote enough town you dont get a lot of stuff we consider common
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Yea
🌟Draco Plato🌟
that's what i assumed too
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
ya know
theres a way for the reunion to happen and them to not leave
freya's family comes to them instead
and everyone has to cram into freya's tiny house
🌟Draco Plato🌟
hahah that's true
altho trains being in the tagline makes me think that's going to be a huge thing
so one way or another they're getting on a train
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yea
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
maybe. i mean the trains are already kind of a thing
cause it was part of corin's job
🌟Draco Plato🌟
yeah but then you'd say train stations
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
not necessarily? its a tagline. its supposed to entice not be 100% to the letter accurate
🌟Draco Plato🌟
yeah, I know
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
i do think someone is getting on a train
cause now these tickets are a big deal too
🌟Draco Plato🌟
yeah that did increase the importance of the journey
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I always liked when stories go on trains IMO
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
i wonder what freya would even do if corin just stayed in bed when theyre supposed to leave and said "nope not going"
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I'd be curious about that too
🌟Draco Plato🌟
I wondered that too, if she'd make him go forcibly, but there is a point I don't think she could physically make him go
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Yea
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
i actually kind of hope freya goes and corin doesnt to a degree. cause i think him having to be alone and take care of himself might be good for him. or more id just be interested to see how he copes for a weekend. cause im slightly worried about his eating habits XD
🌟Draco Plato🌟
oh you know what
corin could stay and freya goes but the train gets in an accident due to the storm and he'd have to deal with the loss of freya too potentially
but freya doesn't die, just has to deal with being stranded
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
although ya know, being so far from home might be hard for freya. cause she cant exactly check the stove while shes hundreds of miles away
tho led my mind to comedic routes. imagining her trek across the snow for miles to get home. corin is like "omg youre okay" and first thing freya does is check the stove and sighs in relief
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Hmm
That would be cool for a scene or two
Also I wonder what kind of foods they eat
prolly all warm stuff
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
well corin had a muffin. i assume its normal stuff that they eat. tho i imagine they do stick away from cold stuff just for matters of practicality
on a side note
im really impressed corin dresses so lightly
cause corin does not have any heat insulating body fat going on really O_O;;;
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Yea
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I made it home before 10pm. ^_^;; Just wanted to say, I didn't have much free time this week, and so I didn't get far into the narrative, but that's partly because after I read the bit at the start with the kid and the teacher I thought if I don't stop now and do some marking, I'll read too far and be even more behind at work.
Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Oh hey Math! o/
Welcome to the final six minutes
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Enjoyed the start though! Curious to see what others have to say about it.
Better late than never?
Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Also yea the beginning was cute
especially with the kids
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
hey math~!
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Apparently it goes to trains passing in the night.
🌟Draco Plato🌟
Hi Math~!
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
i did like the part where freya gave the kid coffee and then tricked her completely away from wanting to grow up so soon
Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
^^^
That part got me especially
🌟Draco Plato🌟
hahah i liked that too, but didn't think it'd work in real life XD
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
We teachers can be tricky.
🌟Draco Plato🌟
also took offense since i don't drink coffee, gosh
Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
aside from loading the kid up in caffeine
I don't drink it either
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I also don't drink coffee, wooo.
🌟Draco Plato🌟
i drank more coffee as a kid than an adult freya, gosh
Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
I loved cappuchino growing up
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Anyway, I'll let you get final thoughts out.
Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
(I don't like warm drinks)
Great comic overall, hope to see it continue.
Everything about it was really pleasant to read
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
my last thoughts are that i really like the patterns on all the clothing. its that little bit of extra detail that adds some character to the setting and people existing within it
Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
^^^
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Nice.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
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