SOS — bad as i wanna be yours
I THINK Y'ALL MIGHT LIKE WHAT GOES DOWN IN THIS CHAPTER IF YOU'RE SO DAMN UPSET ABT THE BABY LMFAO. Also I plan on continuing this series based off some of my fav songs on the albums so don't worry, it may seem like it's over but it is NOT, also a lot of y'all kept ASKING how Malia got pregnant, WELLL, first of all it's Wakanda, they probably got some vibranium super sperm or something and NEXT JUST IGNORE THAT AND SAY FANFICTION MAGIC Y'ALL. Also the only marvel movies/series I can watch without skipping through like dialogue or dozing off is the Black Panther movies and WandaVision so if these personalities do not match the MCU characters then MY BAD, ALSO LIKE THINKING OF HAVING A Y/N x PETER SERIES COMING IN SOON BC I ALREADY HAVE THE IDEA. IF THIS ALSO DOES NOT MATCH THE CORRECT MCU TIMELINE THEN MY BAD AGAIN, NOT A MARVEL FANATIC FR, I JUST CARE ABT BLACK PANTHER AND WANDA💀😦OR MAYBE A MODERN AVATAR SERIES? HM? OR NOT LMAO
𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐋
GIF by mandalor-din
series summary: you broke up with shuri a few years ago and left wakanda for good until namor. now that he's killed the queen and multiple wakandan civilians, he's seen as a great threat and as former second in command at shuri's lab and wakanda's loyal warrior it is your duty to return and fight for your country. but a certain somebody makes the mission way too hard to deal with.
episode summary: after the night with shuri, you're feeling way too uncomfortable around her, especially since you kept getting flashbacks the whole day, you thought she'd felt the same way but no, absolutely opposite. paired up with that, a surprise at the palace causes the final war to break out...or is it?
genre: ANGST, slow, slow, slow burn, fluff
pairing: shuri x black fem reader
episode warnings: mature dialogue, suggestive dialogue, suggestive scenes, cursing, trauma, shouting, mentions of death, suicide, missing people etc. this is a series. you are currently looking at the fourth chapter of the series, please go to my profile to read the previous chapters before continuing (if you haven't read the other chapters yet, if so, please continue)
taglist: @yvxmpire, @sweetalittleselfish-honey, @xxmilli, @queenofsimpsblog, @ziayamikaelson, @shuriislut, @atssukoo, @widowmakker, @cuddl3s4shur1, @n7cje, @ts1mp0ne, @locoforshuri
proofread?: no but if there are errors then it's grammarly's fault.
word count: girl idfk
inspirations: 'SOS' — SZA
song: 'Love Language' — SZA
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You rub your eyes before blinking repeatedly and looking around. The first thing you feel as your senses come to is the arms of someone around you.
Memories immediately come flooding to your mind as your mouth dropped to the floor wide open.
"Tonight, baby i want you."
"I love when you wear that sthandwa"
"Fuck, I love when you get vocal entle.
"Hm...? It's just one finger baby, you can take more than that right?"
You stopped your mind from spitting out more dirty words that Shuri said to you last night. You took deep breaths before looking over at your phone on the nightstand.
10:30 AM.
You put your hands on hers, slowly removing them from your body. As you tried to free from her grip, she just tightened them and pulled you even closer. You could feel her breath on your neck.
Fuck was she awake?
You slowly turned around in the bed till you were face to face with her. She was so beautiful in her sleep, her curls just perfectly falling in place in her face.
You shook your head.
Stay focused Y/N.
You tried again, this time, grabbing a pillow and putting it in your place before rolling out of bed.
Once you got out, you sighed and then looked at yourself in the mirror. Her t-shirt was bunched up on your hips, completely exposing the lower half of your body. You looked around for your lingerie, slipping the lower half on. The panties with the stockings and ribbons at the knee.
You looked around, grabbing all your clothes, your phone and your stuff and piling it in your hands before slowly exiting the apartment.
You sighed, closing the door carefully as you leaned against the wall.
Bast..what was I thinking..
Your mind wandered back to last night, just thinking about the pleasure made your knees buckle.
"OH SHURI, SHURI, YES, YES, YES!" You moaned out in pleasure as your vision turned white.
"That's it baby...keep going." Shuri groaned in your ear as she quickened her pace, you held onto her arm, feeling her restraint.
You bit your lip, bringing yourself back to reality as you slinked back along the walls. You had to get to your room without getting noticed.
It took a while, especially with a bunch of Dora Milaje warriors and guards roaming around the castle. You finally got out your key and placed it against the door, opening the door to your room.
You sighed, closing your door quietly as you placed your head against it.
"Where were you last night?"
Shit.
You turned around to be met with Riri. Her hands were on her hips as she looked at you up and down, raising an eyebrow at your attire.
"Riri...I fucked up."
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"YOU HAD SEX WITH THE QUEEN?!"
"SHHHH! SOMEONE MIGHT HEAR YOU!" You shushed Riri loudly as she slapped her hands over her mouth.
"Y/N, do you know how BAD that is. Um, not only is she the QUEEN OF WAKANDA AND YOUR BOSS but she's also your ex?! What were you thinking?! When I said we wanted them panties dropping, I didn't mean by HER!"
"I know, I know, it's just...I was just not thinking straight, at all."
Riri sighed deeply, sitting down on your bed before patting a spot next to you.
"Well, it already happened, just tell me you guys used protection?"
You blinked a couple times before looking off to the side, your mouth folding inwards.
"Omg, you didn't use protection?! Okay, at least tell me that she pulled out or something!"
You look down, distinctively remembering her pushing up against you, the feeling of just her filling you up.
"Okay, has this turned to mission: get a baby or what?! First it's Malia, now it's you!"
"It's fine! Okay, I'll just...get on the pill!" You throw yourself back on your bed, putting a hand on your stomach.
"You weren't on the pill before?"
"Why would I be? I haven't had sex in 4 years."
"Wow that's sad...God, that's sad."
"I'm a grown woman, okay. I don't need to have sex to properly function." You turned around in your spot as Riri thought for a moment.
"Well, how was it?"
"Really good....really...really..good."
"O-kay then...what did she say? Was her words slurring? Because if so then she was drunk and she might wake up not remembering anything so you might be in the clear."
"No...no, she was very much sober, especially after the bath.."
"Y'ALL SHOWERED TOGETHER?! Y/N!" Riri stood up, shocked and you soon followed after, standing with her.
"I know! I know okay but she just always did aftercare..she even used the little panther bath bombs I always loved..but.." You trailed off, looking to the side, worry spread across your face.
"What? But what?" Riri asked, looking at you with concern.
"She kept calling me nicknames and pet names like...baby and my love and beautiful and she referred to her bed as our bed AND...she said she loved me...on multiple occasions, even when she rocked me to sleep, she kept whispering sweet nothings...Riri, I'm folding." You fold your arms together to keep your knees from buckling. Her voice just did stuff to you.
"No, no, no, no, no, no. Y/N, get a grip of yourself, you're a grown-ass woman. Okay? Look, this is only gonna open up a world of problems, I mean if she was sober, telling you that she loves you?! God..." She looked at you as you bit your lip.
"I got it!" You raised your hands up with a nervous smile. "I'll just ignore her, she probably feels regret like I do so, we just won't speak for a long time till we have to."
And that's exactly what you did for the rest of the day, you ignored her. You went to the lab extra late that day so you blended in with the extra people, making it harder for her to see you. You strictly stayed downstairs even though some of the stuff you needed was on the second floor but you knew she'd be there so you made custom parts. Whenever she came into view, you'd immediately turn around and hide behind something or someone. She even called out your name a few times but you just kept quiet, you really didn't want that awkward after-sex conversation.
And everything was pretty going great with your plan, except for the random flashbacks during the day. It was now lunch time and you were heading over to the cafe where you normally met up with Riri. As you entered the huge place, you scanned the room, immediately noticing Shuri sitting at a table with M'Baku, Nakia and Okoye. Riri was sitting on the other side of the room, headphones in and eating her food.
You sighed. As you looked back at Shuri, you noticed she was already looking at you and you quickly diverted eye contact. Out of your peripheral vision, you noticed her walking towards you and you quickly made your way over to the counter, ordering your food.
You tapped your foot impatiently, waiting for your food, knowing she was getting closer. You looked with a side eye, noticing she had stopped and was distracted by someone. Once your food finally came, you took it and practically sprinted over to Riri, sitting at the table, sighing.
"Oh my God, she was walking over to me.." You start rambling, taking deep breaths to calm yourself down.
"Just take your time Y/N." Riri said, taking off her headphones. "You think she forgot already?"
"Hopefully."
You settle, looking down at your food as you pick up a fork but you freeze when you feel someone's hands on your shoulders.
"Hey," Shuri said, moving her hands over to your waist.
"Heyyyy..." you mutter out as she moved her lips over to your neck. You looked over at Riri who had a shocked face and was motioning with her eyes over to the door.
"Um...actually..." You stopped her before she could start kissing your neck, standing up as she stood up straight, looking at you confused.
"I need to go take care of...stuff." You smile weakly at her and exit the cafe.
"I'll go...check on her with the...stuff." Riri stands up, rushing after you, leaving Shuri lost.
You sigh as you push open the doors to the throne room, sitting down on a chair. You smoothen out your dress, running your hands on your thighs before looking out the large windows to calm yourself down.
"What was that out there?!" Riri says, walking in behind you.
You turn over to Riri, shrugging. "I don't know, she just came up to me and started kissing my neck, I don't know if she thinks we're dating now..."
"I mean you 2 fucked...and she said she loved you, that's like a dating thing right?" Riri asked, sitting in front of you.
"I'm not sure.."
"But do you love her?"
"I do. Of course, I do...surprisingly never stopped."
"Well, then you wanna date her right?"
You paused at this. Did you wanna date her?
"Of...course..." You trailed off, looking to the side, sounding unsure.
"Y/N..?" Shuri asked, opening the doors to the throne room.
"I'll...leave you 2 be." Riri stood up, walking out the room as Shuri walked in, sitting across from you.
It was an awkward silence for a bit before Shuri spoke up. "I'm sorry if what I did in the cafe made you uncomfortable I just thought...-"
"No, no it's fine." You stopped her, giving her a smile.
"Um, about last night." She started, looking at you.
"Oh God.." you muttered under your breath, feeling a wave of embarrassment.
"I want you to know that I wasn't drunk or under the influence when I said all that stuff..I really mean it, I do love you and I know I said that I wasn't gonna ask you to be my girlfriend or anything I just...I really missed you Y/N." She took your hands in hers as she stared you deep in the eye. "I want to explore us again...I want to be your girlfriend Y/N."
Your breath hitched at her declaration of love. You slightly frowned. "And it's not that I don't want that it's just...there are things about me that you don't know."
"So tell me, tell me everything Y/N." Shuri leaned in closer as you bit your lower lip.
"It's not that simple.." You released your hands from her grip, looking down, tears watering in your eyes. Whenever you thought about it, those memories flooded your mind, horribly.
Shuri didn't say anything and looked at you before sighing and standing up. "It's fine, just forget about last night." She turned around, taking a deep breath as she started her way to the door.
"I can't just forget about last night Shuri.." You choke out, looking up and to the side as she shook her head, not even turning her head to you.
"Just keep things professional..okay?" She opened the door to the throne room as you looked down.
You really didn't want to fuck everything up again but you just didn't like talking about it, talking about her. You choked on your words, blinking back your tears as you fiddled with your fingers.
"It was when I left Wakanda." You made out as you heard the throne room door close.
"You don't have to share if you don't want to..." Shuri turned back around, walking over to you and sitting down.
"No, no, listen..." You look up, wiping away tears, taking a shaky breath in and out. "I was...working with the avengers...recruited by Stark."
Your mind flashed back to 4 years ago when Tony Stark recruited you. You shook hands with him, smiling as he smiled back.
"Gotta make room for new growing minds right?" Tony said.
"Yes sir." You nervously said, pushing up your glasses.
It was the first time you've seen Tony smile when he wasn't with his wife and you really didn't want to get him riled up.
You had your hair in an afro and you were wearing a dark blue suit jacket with a matching skirt, white pumps and white pearls.
As you exited the office in Stark Industries, you bumped into a tall white woman with ginger hair in a black suit.
"Hey, you must be the new recruit, right? I'm Natasha Romanoff" She held out her hand for a handshake and you shook it.
"Y/N Amadi." You say, your Wakandan accent seemingly very strong because she noticed right away.
"Wakandan?" She raised an eyebrow as you nodded your head. "So you're like the smart one, like Shuri right?"
At the mention of her name, you looked down slightly and then nodded again, the sight of her crying and begging you not to go on the floor still fresh in your mind.
"Hey, you okay?"
"Yeah, yeah just had a lot on my mind, what were you saying?" You look back up at the woman as she looked to the side and then back at you.
"Come meet my team, you're going to be working with us for some time anyway." She took your hand, leading you over to a different room.
"Everything was fine for a while until I met her."
You noticed another younger woman, she was ginger as well and you approached her.
"Hi, I'm...Y/N, you?"
She turned around to face you, almost seeming shy before she smiled at you with her green eyes.
"I'm Wanda."
"Wanda was my first friend, she showed me around a lot, we worked together but she could get very emotional and sometimes she scared me when talking about her lover? Vision..a robot. She would have me work on him, even when Tony told us he was off limits."
"Are you sure we're supposed to be here?" Your voice was timid as you jumped the fence with Wanda and she rolled her eyes slightly.
"Yes, come on, Vision is in this building." She led you over to the huge building, government territory.
You scanned a fake card that wanda had you make as you guys entered the territory. She led you through the building and down into some sort of lab where a huge blanket sheet was on a table.
She flipped on the lights and then carefully walked over to the table, taking off the sheet revealing the most beautiful and well crafted robot you've ever seen.
"Oh my Bast...and you say he's like a human?" You walk along the sides of the table as Wanda admired him.
"Yes, Vision can talk, walk, act like one..." She sighed at him before looking up at you. "But the government has kept him here out of unfairness."
"Are you positive, they kept him here because they are unfair?" You raised an eyebrow at Wanda. "Maybe they kept him here for other reasons..-"
"No. I know the government, they want to take my vision from me, which is why you must help me. Please Y/N, I'm your best friend, remember?" She took your hands in hers and you turned to the side, looking away slightly before nodding.
"Alright but I don't want Tony to know, or else I'll lose my job and if the government finds out, I'll be put in a federal prison or executed."
"They won't. We'll start off small, you'll help restore Vision and then when he's good to go, I'll take him away. It'll be safe, I promise."
"And so I agreed. We would go over to the lab, nightly. Every day and we wouldn't leave until the sun shone over. As time passed on though, there was this thing, gem...stone rather in Vision's head and with more work done to him, the more it glowed. I realized soon that it would be dangerous to continue working on him, especially since I didn't know the dangers of this gem."
"You'll be fine Y/N, it's just used to power Vision, continue quickly. They'll soon get here." Wanda rushed you but you shook your head.
"No, it's glowing unnaturally, I can't continue to work on it."
"Y/N, you're just being paranoid, come on. We have to go soon."
"No, Wanda...look." You reached over to touch the stone but that's when your pupils went white and the gemstone turned black.
"Y/N!" was all you heard before footsteps and then you blacked out.
"I woke up in prison. Federal prison. We got caught...well, I got caught. Wanda got away and I later found out that she made a town with Vision and...whatever, but still. I was right about that gemstone. You know those dark purple things you saw come out the other day..yeah, we're...getting there."
"Who...who are you..?!" You speak out, sitting on the floor, backing away as a shadowy figure was standing in the center of the room, staring back at you.
Your glasses were broken and you were in federal prison by now, changed into gray and white clothes.
"I am dar, your companion forever. You summoned me, remember?" The figure walked towards you before a disfigured smile formed on it's face and it stretched your mouth out, open wide and then entered inside you, feet first and then the body.
God, it was terrifying and the person watching the surveillance camera was later put in a ward.
"I later found out it was a she and she was tethered to me. She was a virus I apparently created. When I worked with Vision, I was supposed to take out the gem but we didn't and whenever errors were made, I thought I erased them but...it just went into the gem until it became uncontrollable. I basically cursed myself with some magical coding shit, I don't know. I gave myself powers in the WORST wat imaginable and she's really only released with pent-up rage or sadness..."
You looked up at Shuri who was just staring back at you with an unreadable expression. You buried your face in your head, sighing.
"I know..I know, I sound stupid, I know."
"No, no, you don't, it's just that that's a lot. I'm sorry..- thank you for telling me." She reached out to touch your hand and you let her.
"Well, I didn't want it to seem like I was rejecting you...because I'm not."
You two look at each other in comfortable silence as you share a weak smile. She looked like she was about to say something but that's when the doors to the throne room burst open and a dora milaje warrior rushed in.
"Malia...she's gone.!"
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You and Shuri rushed through the hallways with the warrior following you as you entered the infirmary, horrified with what you saw.
The doctor's stomach was gutted open and there was a tear in the vibranium wall, separating the cell from the rest of the palace.
You pressed your hand over your mouth as you looked down at the woman's lifeless body on the ground, her eyes wide open, seeing everything and nothing.
"What happened here?!" Shuri asked, looking over to the warrior.
"Nalaji...she was giving Malia her lunch but as she opened up the barrier to place the food in, Malia suddenly lashed out and attacked her. No weapons were found, none was there a trace of any vibranium used in the crime scene except for the wall."
You look into the cell and there was a plate of food scattered all across the floor.
"THE BORDERS!" Shuri rushed out to the infirmary as a loud alarm went off. It took you some time as you stumbled out of the room, following the sound of Shuri's voice, leading you over to the lab.
"My Queen...your girlfriend, Y/N has entered the lab."
"Thank you Griot." Shuri sounded annoyed as she waved through some work on the top floor, people scurrying around.
Despite all the chaos, it caused some butterflies in your chest that Shuri had programmed Griot to call you her girlfriend and ACTUALLY say your name...it was better than being called "unknown woman" every time you entered the lab.
You rushed over to your working space, and opening your laptop but you were deterred away from the computer as you heard screaming. You looked up at the windows to be met with the horrific sight of some warriors at the water borders completely dead and gutted, a rip made in the borders.
"SECURE ALL THE BORDERS!" Shuri ordered as warriors and people rushed out of the lab as directions were dished out to everyone.
"Are the ships ready for battle?" Shuri asked one of the people at the lab.
"Yes, my queen."
"Good. We're bringing the battle over to them. If they think they can just come and kill my people, they are horribly mistaken."
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"YIMBAMBE!" Shuri shouted out, raising her fist out into the air as the Wakandan warriors repeated.
"YIMBAMBE!" They repeated.
"YIMBAMBE!"
"YIMBAMBE!"
You looked out to the water as Namor and the Talokans emerged and jumped onto the ships, and immediately the fighting began.
"You blue people were better in Avatar..." You scoffed as you grabbed the daggers from your back pockets, ready to face them off.
As a warrior approached you, heading for a punched, you grabbed her fist and threw her down on the floor, slicing her throat open, then you turned around quickly, punching another one coming behind you, throwing them across the ship as the landed hard on the floors. You stepped back, looking at the scene. It had just started and bodies were already dropping.
You fought off more people before noticing Namor. You ran straight for him but he turned around just in time, grabbing your neck, lifting you up in the air.
You gasped for air as you looked down, moving one leg so far back and then kicked him with maximum power, right in the groin and then moving another leg to kick him in the neck.
His grip on you loosened as you fell to the floor, you grabbed a spear slicing at his thigh, causing him to fall over. Your eyes were like slits now as you were looking at him with pure hatred. You wanted to kill him, drive your hand right through his chest and bring out his heart.
"You took my dad from me." You spat at him, bringing your foot to his neck, pressing harder.
"DAD!" You heard a familiar voice shriek as you look up, brought face to face with Malia. She was in a warrior outfit and she looked at you with anger burning in her eyes.
You quickly looked down, grabbing Namor by the hair, pulling him up.
"Y/N...unhand my father now." Malia said, hissing at you as you scoffed.
"You can say that about your dad but guess what, can't say that about my dad now can I? Where was this attitude when your father over here drowned his grave..hm?" You looked over at Namor, stepping on one of his wings as you held a dagger up to his throat.
You looked straight at Malia, your eyebrows furrowed as you narrowed your eyes in on her.
"A father...for a father. A life, for a life."
You sliced his neck open before throwing him across the ship. His body fell into a ship that flew up nearby. The dehydration tank.
As much as you wished you did slice his neck open...you didn't. You cut deep enough to bleed but shallow enough not to hit a nerve.
"NO!" Malia cried out as she watched it all unfold in front of her. She turned to you, her eyes burning with rage but yours was burning just the same, maybe even harder.
"AH!" She rushed towards you with a punch but you quickly dodged her, spears in hands as you made a fist.
"YOU WANNA DANCE BITCH?! COME ON!" You shouted at her as you stood your ground. She stood in her fighting stance, across from you.
You both circled each other until she finally rushed up to you with a kick but you caught it with your hands, turning around and swiftly kicking her square in the tummy, sending her flying across the ship.
You watch as she sharply hit the edge, banging her head and her back hardly.
You stood up straight and paid attention to her body movement. She stood up slowly, eyes wide as she looked down to her legs.
Confused, your eyes followed hers before your eyes widened. Blood slowly dripped down her legs as she muttered out..
"My baby.."
"Fuck."
Although you didn't like her, you know how it feels to have a miscarriage and you felt an extreme wave of guilt knowing you caused it too.
You rushed over to her side as she fell to her knees, clutching her tummy. Her head lowered as you got on your knees, next to her.
"Oh my...shit..are you okay?" You panic, looking at her.
"No...but I will be."
Was all you heard again before your mouth opened, wide, blood trickling out. You looked down to see she had plunged a spear straight through your stomach...your own spear.
"Fuck...you.." was all you could mutter out till you saw Shuri and Namor on a flying ship...and then you blacked out.
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You woke up about 2 weeks later in the lab. Your eyes darted open as you looked up at everything. Shuri was at your side, holding your hand and as you immediately woke up, she grabbed you, hugging you tightly.
"Don't ever scare me like that, ever again.." She said, choking on her words.
You hugged her back but immediately felt guilt. You pull back from Shuri and look at her. "Malia is no longer pregnant.." You bite your lip as she stays silent before nodding.
"She was on the battlefield when she lost the baby...the cause is unknown but it's..tragic."
You knew that Shuri wants kids..or well at least she used to when you guys were together. She would often talk about raising her own family but that was years ago. It would explain why she wanted Malia to keep the baby so bad.
"Do you...have a lead on who did it?" You ask, your voice raising as Shuri shook her head.
"No..but when we find out who did it, I'll kill them."
You gulp. Okay, then.
"Sorry, it's just..I saw this child as a way to get the family I always wanted back..yknow?"
"Yeah...I'm sorry for your loss.." You looked down as Shuri sighed.
"It's not your fault."
But it was..
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You paced around the room, biting your nail frantically and impatiently. You were currently trying to add up the dates because today, as well as yesterday and the days before, you've been waking up terribly sick.
You just thought it was a side effect from almost dying so many times, blacking out and all, and also a side effect from dar but that wasn't it. It didn't add up..at all. So..you decided to take a pregnancy test. But not just one, multiple.
3 American ones and 4 Wakandan ones, just to be sure. Beeping filled the bathroom as you turned off the timer, looking at the pregnancy tests, your eyes wide.
Positive...positive...positive....positive...positive...positive...positive.
"FUCK." You sit down on the closed-lid toilet burying your face in your hands. It's been around 3 weeks since you and Shuri were intimate and you hadn't even realized when you missed your period because of the drama going on at the palace.
"Y/N! You in here?" Shuri entered your apartment as she walked around then into the bathroom, looking down at you, raising an eyebrow. "You okay?"
You look up to her, worry in your face as take a deep sigh.
"I'm pregnant."
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