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sansxfuckyou · 2 years

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Fuck are you looking at?!

Summary: The Troll and human societies have merged, and Karkat gets her grubby little mitts on some hormones, her long time Troll friends don't react ideally though, and the rest of the kids in school are sure to pick on her daily.

Warnings: Bullying, school, swearing, needle mention, gym class, blood, bad friends are actually good friends, gore, Kanaya cuts someone in half, check tags for further warnings.

Authors Note: transfem Karkat writing slump has been abolished, I'm still gonna write more though, definitely, and @octobergothyc, while I was writing this, I was using the transfem Karkat edit you made as reference, kind of, also I have no clue how gender changing hormones work so bear with inaccuracy.

Her steps were soft as she walked, it took a lot of self control to keep it that way. Her hair was constantly falling in her eyes as well, even though it was pinned up. Her breathing was shaky, a light quaver underneath the steadiness.

And she felt claustrophobic, maybe it was the body paint she wore, a tanned tone.

A hand and her shoulder brought her back to reality, she snapped to look at whoever placed it there. She could feel the body paint crackle as she did so, did she bring a spare bottle?

She found John, a heavy sigh of relief shot through her systems.

"You good Karkat?" John asked her gently, she nodded slightly, her hood almost coming off, she propped it back up again.

"Yeah, fine, just disappointed that the doctors couldn't give me stronger hormones," Karkat said with a bit of a huff, crossing her arms sharply, she kicked the ground a bit, "and that said hormones make me feel nauseated unless I pop a pill."

"Trolls work differently than humans," John said as though it would be a comfort to Karkat, she furrowed her brows a bit, John quickly tried to rebound, "of course, I'm sure that one of your friends could make it work better, probably."

"They're all dumb as bricks John, nothing in their pan." Karkat said, she seemed a bit apprehensive at the topic of her friends, sure, Vriskas finally getting some hormones opposite to Karkats to help make her a bit more butch, but other than that, she doesn't really keep in touch with anyone.

They all say shes bitching when she complains about feeling nauseated, or that she just needs a break. Her body still hasn't fully acclimated to the chromosome reformation and the injections, her friends just don't get it. Except for Vriska, and even though she despises Vriska after the big fight, that's the only one who gets it.

"Right, sorry, forgot," John said right before an ear piercing bell rang, it had Karkat hissing and covering her ears, John looked up instinctively before checking his schedule, "I have chemistry, you?"

Karkat looked down at the list in her hands, claws filed down. She went from last to first, muttering the name of each subject. It took her a second before she reached the first class.

And her eyes widened in horror.

"Gym..." Karkat uttered quietly, she would have to take off her jacket, her horns, no one can know, she'll be totaled.

She'll get decked in the schnoz if anyone finds out, she'll get curb stomped to death if anyone finds out. Her grip on the list tightens until her blunt claws tear it, tears welling up in her glossy eyes. She stuffed the list back in her pocket, John had already left not wanting to be late, the torrent of people around her caused the claustrophobia to intensify.

She gripped her hood tightly, pulling it down as she made her way to the gymnasium. The rim of her socks started to feel tight, and the shirt on her chest she always wore was constricting. The skirt felt like it clenched her waist like a bear trap, and the bracelet she wore was constricting around her wrist.

Karkat gave a yelp as she hit the floor, some ass shouldered her to the ground. She snarled to herself as she picked herself up from the floor into a sitting position. A chorus of gasps had her freezing, she felt her tail twitch as it coiled around her waist, she released a gasp of breath as well. Her eyes were locked on the ground as she reached to feel for her hood, finding it had been knocked off her head. Instead of being normal and freaking out, going to hide her horns like a normal Troll would, she felt around them, a fake look of shock on her face.

Tears of disbelief streaming down her face and spreading cracks between body paint further apart proved her attempt to fit in faulty.

"Weirdo!" One kid shouted from the back, that had Karkat not even angry, just fucking done.

She slowly stood up, pulling off her hoodie and tying it around her waist. She nudged the pins in her hair further back to try and force it in place, pointed ears now visible. Another voice shouted weirdo, another voice shouted freak, she wasn't listening.

"Fuck are you looking?!" Karkat barked, the venom in her tone had a few kids facing her front quivering.

"You, Alternian bitch!" A different kid shouted, she snapped to stare at him, as she walked over, her steps were heavy, but it felt completely natural for her frame and it had the kids scared.

"What did you just call me?" Karkat asked as she pressed a blunt claw to the kids chest, she could feel his heart race and bang against his rib cage.

"An, an Alternian bitch! Cause that's exactly what you are-!" The kid tried to exclaim, before he could go any further in his speech, Karkat slammed a fist into his face.

He stumbled back groaning, he fell to the floor with a broken nose, crimson spilling across his face and Karkats fist. She grinned a toothy grin, her teeth that were once dull had sharpened with hormones, she looked like a shark. She heard a murmur as the crowd got larger, she cracked her neck to the sides, turning to the group behind her.

"Who else wants to call me a bitch?" Karkat asked, everyone seemed to inch a step back as she pushed a step forward until a jock decided to step forward.

"I do, bitch," the jock said, Karkats demeanor went from balls and bitches to wusses and whips, both equally shitty euphemisms she thought of once.

"Ah fuck," was all she could get out before a fist was slammer into her sternum sending her stumbling, she still held her ground.

As she tried to catch her breath, the jock advanced, throwing yet another punch at her face. She felt a tooth come loose, she spat it into her hand with a mouthful of candy red. A chant of 'fight, fight, fight' began and another punch met her abdomen, she screamed on this one as it hit all her sensitive organs and broke her tail.

She went staggering back, forcing her balance as blood trickled from under her shirt where her tail was broken. Her tactile tail fell loose, it hung under her skirt, the tip barbed and poisonous. The jock flinched for a second at the tail, it whipped furiously despite the gash, it halted momentarily. Her energy was draining, she would surely die here if gravity kept forcing blood to her tail, it poured onto the floor.

"Do it, or are you scared of knocking out a girl," Karkat said, the jock raised his fist and stepped closer, unable to throw it at Karkat despite the chanting, she quirked a brow, "it looks like I was right."

That must've been the final straw.

As one second she was grinning and the next a fist was flying at her face. She flinched and pressed her eyes painfully shut, and she heard it make contact, but didn't feel it. She opened her eyes and saw two kids in hoodies, they one wore masks and hats, one had long, black hair, while the other was more of a choppy bob.

"Who the fuck," the one with long hair started, gripping the jocks fist until a crack sounded off, the jock cried, "do you think you are," they released the jocks fist before winding up for a punch, "hitting a girl!"

When the punch landed, it sent the jock fucking flying, he hit a few kids as he skidded on the ground.

This all had Karkat, very, very confused.

And then they turned to Karkat, and she could tell who they were right away.

Equius and Terezi, blowing their cover just for her. Terezi, pulled the mask from her face, her skin was a bit clammy and her red shades still stood out, she was grinning. Equius removed his mask as well, although he wasn't grinning, he seemed rather nervous and was starting to sweat as well.

"How did you even, why would you," Karkat began, impossibly confused as she spoke, Terezi started.

"We're in gym together and heard your name, he didn't want you getting lost, so we came running," Terezi explained, the crowd only stared in wonderment, Equius was wiping blood on his Indigo hoodie, he seemed uncomfortable, "and we saw you here, kicking absolute ass until that guy decided to hit a girl."

"Its not the right thing to hit anyone really," Equius stated in his defense, it had Karkat smiling a little bit as he had just sent someone flying.

"As Equius demonstrated by sending someone flying across the room, hitting isn't right," Terezi said sarcastically, Equius only stared at the ground, "but, really, we're gonna miss gym, I don't want my friend late on the first day."

The three decided to turn to leave the room, only be frozen at a stare that bore into their souls. Karkat snapped back first, only to be greeted by the same jock, a broken nose in place. Said jock was furious and coming at Karkat fast, even Equius flinched that time, Terezi simply placed the handle of her cane to the jocks chest. He flinched as the wood was pressed against his chest, she shot a blind glare from her behind her glasses before speaking.

"You smell scared, and I bet you taste like a wimp, for a jock you sure are a weakling," Terezi stated, a grin revealing her shark like teeth, now, instead of leaving as the secrets were exposed, this time the jock pushed the handle to the side and stepped forward as Terezi retracted her cane, pulling the sheath on the blade off, this time the jock flinched.

"You wouldn't..." He stammered out as Terezi held up the hidden blade, she leaned on her shoulder.

"I don't know, would I, wouldn't I, that is the question," Terezi said, the crowd started an uproar of murmurs, she turned to see what the problem was, ah, Kanaya, wielding her lipstick with a big splash of red on her dress and her disguise simply shredded, "but she will."

Kanaya slowly walked up to the jock, she was furious, she pressed her lipstick to the small of his back, painting small black increments across his waistline. The jock was frozen at the boldness Kanaya had, an Alternian, just up and painting lipstick onto him, what the fuck is up with these weirdos? She closed the tube before pressing it to his sternum, her glare was sharp, like a hundred serrated edges tearing into him.

"Alright, you either stop bullying my friend or stop containing your organs," Kanaya threatened pulling her lipstick tube closer to her own form as the jock formed an answer.

"Things like you don't deserve to go without being bullied," the jock stated firmly, that had Karkats ears drooping, that had Kanayas grip tightening.

"Fine," Kanaya said, closing her eyes and twisting the tube in her grasp slowly, "be that way then."

And in a flash the jock was in two and Kanaya had yet another splash of crimson on her outfit. Organs spilled from between the slice as his torso fell to the floor, legs collapsing next. The lipstick in her grip was only a chainsaw for a second, but the crowd dispersed in the second they saw it.

After taking a few deep breaths she turned to Karkat before pulling her in close for a tight hug. Kanaya was shaking slightly, and the damp splash of crimson on her shirt was sure to ruin it, but she didn't care. Her friend was alive and that was all that mattered in that moment, Karkat on the other hand was having a hard time understanding all the affection.

"What the fuck Kanaya?" Karkat asked as she gently pushed Kanaya away.

"What?" Kanaya asked gently.

"You just cut someone in half!" Karkat exclaimed, gesturing to corpse on the ground, it twitched weakly as organs pulsed, he had to be alive partially.

"I didn't want my friend getting hurt, so I did what I had to," Kanaya said, sniffling a little bit, "I wish I was in gym so I could make sure you don't get hurt?"

"Kanaya, you cut someone in half, in a school, in front of a hundred kids, Kanaya, you're getting expelled," Karkat said after taking a deep breath, she was unsure how fucked her friends were, but this bumped it up.

"I don't care, and I'm sure Equius and Terezi will vouch for me, right guys?" Kanaya asked, turning to Equius and Terezi.

"Absolutely," Equius said, wiping the sweat from his brow.

"For sure,"Terezi said, returning the blade to its sheath.

"But I thought you guys hated me," Karkat asked, Terezi, Equius and Kanaya all shared glances.

"We never hated you, we just need some time to, get used to it, its different," Equius explained, Terezi elbowed him lightly.

"But how come you stopped talking to me for a bit?" Karkat asked, very concerned about that fact.

"Principal confiscated my PDA," Equius said.

"I lost my laptop," Terezi said.

"I broke mine in a bar fight," Kanaya said, everyone stared at her.

"But, I, what about the others?" Karkat asked, trying her very damndest to piece it together.

"Want to talk about it after school?" Terezi asked gently, sighing a bit, her entire form easing as she did so.

"Yeah," Karkat replied with.

"We'll meet up at Roses then," Kanaya said, everyone gave a prompt nod before leaving to their designated class.

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