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warlordfelwinter · 7 days

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i did it

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faceup was done by the person i bought the doll from, i just added freckles and painted his nails. i swapped his eyes, styled the wig, and made his outfit, apart from the metal embellishments which i stole off of the outfit the doll came with or found in my basement.

things i have learned about myself during this process: i do no enjoy customizing dolls. this was an entirely frustrating process and i disliked 90% of it, especially making the clothes. which is why they're not as finished as they could be. however now i have a doll of my dnd character so it was worth it. he can sit by my computer and judge my performance of him on dnd nights

things i learned about celeste during this process: he has claws. the doll came with clawed nails on the feet which i didn't realize when i bought it but i kind of dig it so i'm incorporating that into his character. there are celestials with claws i'm sure. he has inexplicably sharp toenails now it's canon

i will probably go buy more of the anklet rings for his wrists as well and swap those out but the store only had two packs of those so i couldn't get enough. i will probably also change the pendant, that was just some little pre-wrapped bead i found in a box in the basement that was Good Enough lol. but for the moment he's done.

#the flash pic is to show off his eyes cause the lashes sort of shadow them to the point of not being able to see the sparkly gold #anyway i AM proud of him and i am also never doing this again #he cost like $400 all together with materials and what not and so so so so so much frustration and also blood #bc i stabbed myself with sewing needles more than once #personal #fel's ttrpgs #dnd: tales from the dancing sea dragon #oc: celeste #dnd #i don't. have a crafts tag i don't think #fel's crafts #there #and yes that one pant leg Did come un-rouched and no i'm not going to fix it right now

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estrogenism · 10 months

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idk i wish people would talk more about papua when it comes to occupied nations.

free papua.

#we exist too. our villages are getting bombed. we get thrown in prisons for no reason. we're not allowed to fly our flag.#and the whole world ignores it because the grasberg mine is there and they care more about gold than they do about human lives.#and like. we've been begging people to acknowledge our genocide but nobody fucking listens #the death toll is estimated to be around 100k to 300k and still we get ignored #nobody fucking cares about us. i wonder if they'd care if our skin was lighter.#it makes me so fucking sick to think that we're dying and we still never get mentioned in discussions of occupied nations #and the un is so fucking useless when it comes to the conflict. they make half-assed attempts for brownie points if at all.#then they go back to letting the indonesian military bomb our homes.#i wish i could go home but i don't think i ever will be able to when it's been 50+ years of genocide and people still ignore us.#genocide cw

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easilyentertained99 · 2 months

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chat, i need to be honest. that was not good

#the umbrella academy #i don't get it #there's a lot of shit going on and I'm pretty sure it doesn't make sense #my main thing is if viktor claims to be able to pull the marigold out of people (which he didn't fucking with harlan in the end did he?)#how come he couldn't have pulled it out of the others #like i didn't want viktor to die but come on #and also like #idk wasn't the point of the first season that that whole dysfunctional relationship between viktor and the others caused the apocalypse #i thought that was it #nope turns out the whole point is that they never should've been born and being erased out of existence is the only option #i kinda don't like that message?#hurr hurr self sacrifice but like... what you can't try to fix things? you can't grow and change? guess not. that other shit doesn't matter #your worst crime was being born #but like... was it?#if they didn't drink the marigold they would have been fine no?#i have a lot more thoughts on this but tbh my head is still kinda spinning this shows all over the place #and tbh i kinda don't give a shit that dottie or the un-yassified handler or diego and lila's insta-family are all chilling somewhere #speaking of lila don't even get me started omg #cause for what? what was the point? what was the point of any of this?#the umbrella academy spoilers

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the-worms-in-your-bones · 9 months

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Anyone else constantly think about the inherent loneliness of being a renegade time lord? No, just me, okay

#because like I can see why someone would leave gallifrey their society is stuck in its ways and un accepting of change and difference #but it also means leaving everyone and everything you know behind and not being able to come back #and it’s hard to find people outside of gallifrey to fill the loneliness because time lords love for so long #and have so much power over the universe that most species don’t #doctor who #time lords #dw #I maybe think about this too much

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likeafantasy · 1 year

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#aaron rodgers #nfl #nfledit #nfl hard knocks #green bay packers #packers #ny jets #jets #i looooove when he trash talks #it's so funny #UN COME BACK WITH ABLE #sir WHAT

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halfdeadhalfpaniced · 11 months

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I’ve seen a lot of stuff where macaque choses to go by six eared macaque instead of Liu Er Mihou when he comes back to life but I think there’s a lot of angst potential in him just not remembering his name anymore after being brought back( completely wiped from his memory). Through the years of torture and suffering combined with the lack of use of it or some underworld magic he just can’t remember his old name. He starts going by macaque either because they called him that in hell as a form of insult, lbd called him that, in the stress and rush of every just going by his appearance or directly from reading jttw. LBD could have even “stolen” his name as some form of control or as a trophy/for fun because she’s a bitch like that.

#It could even have been an insulting nickname during the brotherhood re #re used #imagine your bestie platonic guy pal coming back and using a name he found insulting #un able to respond or remember his real one #monkie kid #lego monkie kid #monkie kid macaque #lmk macaque #lady bone demon

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musical-chick-13 · 1 month

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#when you don't belong anywhere because people tell you that you don't deserve to belong anywhere so if you're going to be #isolated from the rest of humanity forever because there's Something Wrong With You then maybe you can at least be the one #in charge of that isolation. people can't reject you if you actively REFUSE to belong anywhere right. you can't be denied community if #you actively avoid it. yeah sure making yourself into a husk of a person so that you don't have to think about belonging anywhere makes you #miserable and self-hating but you know what at least it's manageable this time at least it's coming from stuff YOU do and not from #other people deciding you're not worth it. sure you WANT community you WANT to belong somewhere but that's impossible and not happening #and you gotta learn to work around it just like you do with everything else we can't always get what we want and you need to be #prepared to face that. yeah that requires lying to yourself and making yourself inscrutable and all these other things you don't actually #like doing but this is the price you pay for other people not hurting you anymore. for not having to confront the fact that you're innately #unlikable and un-want-able and meaningless and alien and disgusting and all the other things you've never been able to de-internalize.#you can't start thinking it's not worth it because remember what it was like being rejected by everything all the time? you're not going to #survive that again. all the options suck and you still need to make your choice. good luck :) :) :)#I think. perhaps. after I post the event ficlets. I go on full blog hiatus again. I can't.#I can't be around the discussions that keep happening on this website. and they're so prevalent that no amount of muting/blocking/filtering #can ever be enough to totally avoid them.#In the Vents

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mars-ipan · 2 months

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i do love my family very dearly but the internalized ableism the men in here struggle with is. so much

#marzi speaks #it’s worse with my brother but he’s doing more to actively work on improving that #my dad however has very subtle internalized ableism that i don’t think he recognizes is there #which is. fun #like earlier. either last night or this morning i don’t remember #i was talking to him about how while ideologically i have nothing against accepting needing help and things like that #in practice it’s very challenging to adjust to being disabled even temporarily. and that if i do end up with a diagnosis that’s gonna be #a lot to handle. both mentally and just with the lifestyle changes i’ll have to make #and he makes a bit of a face and goes ‘i wouldn’t quite call you disabled. i’d just say ‘ill’’#and i just sort of look at him. and i blink. and i go ‘i am physically Un-Able to do things i am normally able to do’#‘i can’t walk long distances at all. i can’t sit in chairs for too long without causing pain’#‘i’ve spent the last 24 hours staring longingly at my computer because i want to draw but am currently Not Able To’#he didn’t argue with me but i can tell he was still unnerved by the idea of picturing his daughter as disabled #also like . illness and disability are not mutually exclusive? several disabilities are or involve chronic illness #i shouldn’t be surprised though. i mentioned considering starting lexapro #and he went on his ‘you’re an adult and it’s your choice in the end but i wouldn’t recommend it’ spiel #(he’s anti-psychiatry bc he doesn’t like the idea of breaking the brain down into smth so purely physical)#(and also doesn’t like the idea of someone being dependent on pills their whole life)#(which i’m giving him some slack on rn bc he is a just-got-clean recovering opoid addict. so)#(btw before any of you say SHIT abt my dad he took his pills legally prescribed for chronic pain and did not abuse them)#(and even if he DID that would give nobody a right to make a moral judgement on him. ok cool)#i then reminded him that my mom takes anti-anxiety meds and they really really helped her #and he just goes ‘true.’ and moves on #king u got some shit to unpack #it’s fine if u didn’t want to start antidepressants when it was recommended to you meds aren’t for everyone #but like come on now. u don’t gotta be so fundamentally against it when literally ur own wife who you adore takes psych meds #anywho my mom handled me making the disability comment much better. she was basically just like ‘ur fear is totally understandable’#‘u have a good support system we’ll help you through it’#which. thanks mom 👍 that was very kind of her to say

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true-blue-sonic · 9 months

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How would Silver deal with a robot designed to defeat him in the same vein Omega did with Shadow in 06?

Hmm, would that have to mean he was on good terms with the robot first before it got reprogrammed to capture him? I'm actually wondering just how Omega managed to defeat and capture Shadow... I know Omega was made specifically by Eggman to keep Shadow contained, but Shadow is the Ultimate Lifeform and insanely strong on top. In a battle between them, I am not sure if Omega can come out as victor. Was that ever touched upon in '06?

That being said, if there's a robot that can defeat Shadow, I think it's not impossible to create one that can defeat Silver. I figure it'd be smart of its creator to make one that directly plays into Silver's PK, either through no-selling or countering it, as that is Silver's main mode of attack in most games. As for what Silver would think of it, I do think he'll take the threat seriously once he sees that this robot can absolutely have a victory over him. For all his black-and-white thinking, I figure even Silver knows that if he's defeated and captured, that is it for the safety of the future. It's not something I can imagine he's willing to risk! Thus, retreating from the battle might be his best choice, though I doubt he'll be happy with that. But better to live to fight another day, I do suppose!

#that being said: Silver is incredibly creative with his PK #so even if the robot works against the conventional ways he uses his powers he might be able to come up with some *un*conventional ways nex #that the robot might not be ready for anyway #silver the hedgehog #the reason why I doubt Omega can win against Shadow is because Shadow is *very* agile compared to Omega #like iirc in the intro cutscene to Heroes' Dark story Omega's main mode of attack is literally just More Dakka while basically stationary #Shadow is the one moving around in the tiny space and avoiding getting hit that way #though I must readily admit I don't know that much about either's abilities to really draw a conclusion for certain

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toomuchdickfort · 10 months

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Vent abt smth that gets on my Nerves

#tried bringing up to mom like. hey how could I bring up coming out to family. and she was like visibly uncomfortable so I was like dw I’m no #gonna like try to ruin Christmas with it or some shit I’m just. nervous u see. and I’m sat there anxiety rambling abt it because oh my god.#and she pulls out the fucking. ‘can’t you just be a person?’ mom I am a person already. the problem is. the PROBLEM IS. EVERYONE THINKS I AM #AND THUS TREATS ME AS A GIRL. like oh my god.#vent #it’s not a huge vent like if it comes up I’m not gonna Lie moms discomfort abt the matter be damned.#but like. ‘can’t you just be a person’ is what she says every fucking time it comes up. like mom. mother. mi madre. do you realize how much #of an insult that feels like when you say it EVERY TIME I bring up trans anxieties. or dysphoria. or any of the ways my transness affects my #life. like being trans doesn’t make me less of a person oh my god. but also frankly I don’t have the patience to be nice about getting into #things and I don’t have the heart to hurt her about it and even if I did have one of those I don’t have the patience to hold her hand #through all this shit. like I gave up having mom on this journey ages ago do you know how painful it is to un-give up on something that #immense. it’s hard and it hurts and it burns and it’s like. giving up to begin with didn’t hurt too bad- it’s cutting off the festering #wound. but. but then. you find out that. you can in fact work with that. and suddenly you have to try and clean the wound. care for it and #wrap it and do it all over again. and god it hurts. and. I’m not entirely sure I want to un-give up all the way on this? it’s. a lot #like I get and I appreciate that she’s trying to do. something. in theory at least. she avoids the subject when I bring it up and all but #cringed when I brought up coming out to her side of the family. she calls me my deadname and her daughter more than she did before she said #she would try. and I don’t have the energy to uncover that wound enough to start cleaning it. I’m just letting it sit there because frankly #it’ll be such a huge thing because it’s Always a huge thing when I don’t let the subject drop mega fast and I’m. I know she’s not gonna cut #me off for just being trans but GOD I want to keep ONE of my parents in my fucking life when I’m able to stand on my own two feet holy shit #and. man. it appears this is. still more of a thing than I thought it was. thats. annoying and inconvenient

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theheadlessgroom · 1 year

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@beatingheart-bride

"I have no doubt of it," he replied earnestly and honestly, as he leaned up against her in return, smiling from ear to ear at the notion as he added, "I think they'd love you, Emily."

Had they been through a lot as a couple-more than he knew, admittedly, given the life (or something like it) they'd lived in the future? Yes. Would his parents hold that against her? No, he didn't think so. He just couldn't see his parents...blaming her for his death; no, he had a feeling, if Nicholas Pennyworth ever (somehow) wormed his way into heaven, his parents would give him a right good thrashing, knowing he was to blame for the death of not only their son, but their daughter-in-law as well.

"I mean, you...you love me!" Randall went on to say, as he gazed up thoughtfully at the night skies just outside the window. "You were willing to give up everything you'd ever known just to run away and marry me-I know my ma didn't have to give up as much as you do, but she did sacrifice a lot of her relationships with people she'd known forever to be with my pa, people she thought were her friends...knowing everything you were willing to leave behind in order to start a new life with me...I think they'd be very...moved, by that, seeing that you were happier with me; that we made each other so happy...

...and...I think they'd be furious not at you, but at our murderer," he asserted (would-be murderer now, I hope, he thought to himself). "It wasn't your fault, Emily, and I think they'd see that. They'd see that we love each other, all we've done and would do for each other, and...well, I just think they wouldn't see it all as trouble. I know I don't see it as you getting me into trouble."

Why would he? Was it really trouble if it was all for love? No, he didn't feel that way. It wasn't trouble, not to him.

#((it does! they're willing to do it; to risk what some may call eternal damnation))#((if it means they get to be ever-present in the lives of their son; their daughter-in-law))#((and their future family! i could absolutely see them having reservations at the start))#((naturally; vampirism is something not usually smiled upon; seen as a curse; becoming a monster...))#((...but they've also come to know emily and see that she is not a monster; she loves their son))#((and has loved him even in the intervening years between his death and reincarnation))#((and if they can make emily's un-life easier by staying by her side))#((being able to support her and randall? then it's really not a hard choice for them to make!))#((and i could see june doing that! i could imagine none of the paces would be down))#((for what tv tropes calls 'breaking and bloodsucking'; so bags of blood would be the way to go i think!))#((seriously! what a turnaround for emily-going from being alone for ages))#((to being welcomed with open arms into a loving family who will walk eternity with her))#((that's huge; and is gonna mean so much to her!))#outofhatboxes #beatingheart-bride #V:Days of Future Past

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iris-nonsense · 10 months

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