#undisclosed desires

[nothatsmi]

2/4

One wears a "drug" mask and the other a "safe" mask. Pills and contatcts. Pipe dreams and hidden scars.

Then they played hide and seek, and I'm not sure if any of them won or lost the game. Anyway did I say I love Muse-

Midly unrelated stuff: I am falling back into The Raven Cycle I think. I want to draw them so bad. I also want to draw Percy Jackson stuff (I began the second book hehe)! And I need to finish these. Also I started an aftg animatic jkclvqlh why can't I be normal for once-

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[justporo]

Undisclosed Desires

Have you listened to "Undisclosed Desires" by Muse lately? No? Well, let me enlighten you to why I think it's the perfect song about Astarion... and Tav pledging herself to do everything in her power to help him heal. Bear with me for this one, I swear, it'll break your heart as much as it will mine.

"I know you've suffered, but I don't want you to hide. It's cold and loveless, I won't let you be denied."

Tav will fight for him and help him to find himself. To make sure he can be finally himself - free of fear and of other people's will.

"Soothing, I'll make you feel pure. And trust me, you can be sure."

For as long as Tav is breathing, she'll be there for him, ensuring he'll always have at least one person he can trust without doubt.

"I want to reconcile the violence in your heart. I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask. I want to exorcise the demons from your past. I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart."

She wants to help him break the cycle of power and suffering, showing him another way of breaking free. Giving him a safe space to open up. Making him slowly heal until he hopefully someday even forgets about even his scars - both physically and mentally. She'll help him learn how to accept love and intimacy, to just be held without darker intentions and find out what it truly is he wants in life.

"You trick your lovers. That you're wicked and divine. You may be a sinner. But your innocence is mine."

Tav knows he had to perform love, intimacy and being with someone for the longest time. Being the perfect lover was not a choice for him but a necessity to survive, but there's no need for that anymore. She sees him - all of him, with all his pain and mistakes and bad sides - and accepts him. But she'll help him bring out his softer side, his better side - so the world can see who he really is, beneath all the pain, suffering, facade and violence.

There you go, I'm done. This song is my anthem for my Tav and Astarion; I'll happily die on this hill.

I would die for someone making aesthetic gifs out of this or something. I can't do it myself, I already spend so much time writing and playing - I have day job - have mercy on me, Astarion!

I really need some sleep now, I'm so tired...

[justify-my-reasons]

Hey, found this photo outside Tumblr. Undisclosed Desires music vídeo my beloved

[sunburnacoustic]

Muse - Undisclosed Desires

Got bored and made something. That One Scene with Matt plugging in his shoe in the Undisclosed Desires music video, at gradually slowing speeds.

I'm queueing this post, so I know for a fact that by the time this gets posted I will be so thoroughly confused by how this exists. It's a post with a target audience of one: me. I got bored :P

[starlight-bread-blog]

"I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask"

—Matthew James Bellamy, Undisclosed Desires.

[longtallglasses]

my niche internet famous will and fanboy mike mid ‘00s au wip XD

very little miwip wednesday - my little babies i love them in this

[she-is-not-there]

binge listening Muse (and melting)

[ranfused4ever]

You cannot tell me that Muse didn't have MDZS in mind when they wrote Undisclosed Desires...

I mean, this has lan zhan's pining written all over it.

I know you've suffered

But I don't want you to hide

It's cold and loveless

I won't let you be denied

Soothing

I'll make you feel pure

And trust me

You can be sure

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart

I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask

I want to exorcise the demons from your past

I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

[glass-needles-and-futurisms]

Chris and Dom being wholesome during Undisclosed Desires, with bonus Matt leading the crowd (via DoritoMt on reddit)

[nothatsmi]

3/4

Please

This shit impacted me dearly. Lets say Andrew and I share some demons. I absolutely love the slow way Andrew manages to let his guard fall around Neil, how the trust grows between them, how Neil listens and care for him so much. It makes all the difference.

Here's the Museless version, cause I honestly like both..

[dystopiandramaqueen]

Tough one but… favorite line from any fic you’ve written 💅

*Seated in a leather armchair by a crackling fire, I flip to Chapter 10 of Undisclosed Desires*

"“You should spank me.”

My sexuality was a secret, hidden thing for most of my life. I picked up a copy of 50 shades of Grey to see what the fuss was about. It was my first experience with smut. With women talking about their sexual fantasies. I learned 50 Shades started as fanfic. That is how I got into writing. It was the most liberating, healing experience of my adult life.

THT is a very vanilla fandom bc the ship are rape victims.

It took me a very very long time to get those characters into a setting where June could ask Nick to spank her just because she wanted him to. Not because she was age regressed or confused or a masochist- but because being manhandled is fucking hot.

I beta'd this story with so many people, getting the vibes right.

But this line?

I got to the point in the story where the chessboard was set.

She had to just fucking say it.

It's the hardest thing I've ever written, and looking at it now it still feels like- I climbed Everest or something.

That's the delay with Indulgences too I have a literal mental block about finishing my fantasies and making them real.

And I'm just learning to proceed and ignore all the doubt.

My goal is to have written enough smut to keep myself entertained when I no longer want to write. I want to finish this shit. And thank you for this ask- bc its reminding me like- just fucking write it.

below is the scene in context! Enjoy!

June goes to leave but Nick blocks her. She’s caged between his arms, his palms flat on the wall next to her shoulders. She catches her breath and looks at him.

Something’s changed. His body language is primal. Possessive. Chest rising and falling quickly. He licks his lower lip. Voice a low growl.

“You’re getting fucked. Hard. But not until we discuss your behavior.”

June’s stomach twists with excitement and embarrassment.

Nick grabs her wrists and pins them to the wall above her head.

He kisses up her neck, mouthing over her ear. Voice low. Dominant. “You. Are in BIG trouble.”

June’s heart races. Oh my god, it’s happening.

“You have been very, very bad. Making me watch while other men touch you...Getting me so hard for you.” He moves her hand down, so she can feel his huge erection straining through his gym shorts. She gasps. It feels so good. Jesus.

He continues, dark eyes locked on hers. Expression humorless. “You did that. Wasn’t very nice was it?”

Her eyes squeeze closed and she shakes her head. It’s too good. Too hot.

“And worst of all. You’ve been keeping secrets from me.”

June drags her dazed eyes to his.

Nick raises his eyebrows, nodding at the severity of this infracion. “Should you keep secrets from your husband?”

She shakes her head, eyes shimmering with mischief.

“No. You shouldn’t. How am I supposed to fuck you right if you won’t tell me everything you need. EVERYTHING you want me to do to you.”

Oh jesus, it’s happening.

“You’ve been dropping hints for weeks. But I want you to own it. You’d better fess up or you’re gonna be in worse trouble than you already are. You’re already getting punished for getting my cock so hard for you. Do we have to add secrets to the list?”

June’s breaths are coming hard now. Body on fire. Too turned on to move or respond. Heart beating entirely too fast. Everything hurts. Throbbing down there. Aching. She needs him so badly.

Nick’s lips ghost over her mouth, leaving sparks when they brush against hers. Whispering.

“You’ve... been... So...Fucking... Bad. What should I do about that?”

The words tumble out before she can stop them. A breathy whisper.

“You should spank me.”

“Fucking Christ.” Nick whispers under his breath. Eyes clenching shut. He swallows thickly. He presses his lips together for a few beats. He blows out a slow breath to center himself. She feels goosebumps rise on his arms. “Very good.” He whispers. “That was very good. I know that wasn’t easy.”

A smirk grows on his gorgeous mouth. He’s so fucking into it. Into her. She remembers what he said. That his ultimate kink is giving her what she wants. Her embarrassment vanishes.

She leans forward to kiss him. He moans into it.

Then suddenly he’s pulling her across the room. Sitting on the bench in the middle of the room. Pulling her across his lap, like he used to pull her into bed in his apartment.

Oh my god it’s happening.

Continue reading on A03

[my-chaos-radio]

Release: November 16, 2009

Lyrics:

I know you've suffered

But I don't want you to hide

It's cold and loveless

I won't let you be denied

Soothing

I'll make you feel pure

And trust me

You can be sure

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart

I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask

I want to exorcise the demons from your past

I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

You trick your lovers

That you're wicked and divine

You may be a sinner

But your innocence is mine

Please me

Show me how it's done

Tease me

You are the one

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart

I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask

I want to exorcise the demons from your past

I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

Please me

Show me how it's done

Trust me

You are the one

Songwriter: Matthew James Bellamy

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart

I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask

I want to exorcise the demons from your past

I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

SongFacts:

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[ideemthatsheyetlives]

Carl Greenwood fan edit

[ayamari-no-goshi]

“Undisclosed Desires” was also something I wasn’t expecting on the set list.