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Another plot bunny to let into the wild:

In some legends, grief can be powerful enough to reanimate the dead, making them something of a revenant. Bruce's grief over Jason's death is what ended up somehow bringing him back.

Years later, during the events of Under the Red Hood, Bruce has realized what he's done to his son and decides he needs to lay his son back to rest.

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Doing emergency work on the roof because I apparently got scammed when my roof was replaced, and boy was it leaking.

But my cats do not like the noise, to the point they are actively stressing. Addy is particularly bad. He keeps going back and forth between being right next to his brother or next to/behind me.

Though he did take a break when I had to talk to one of the workers to scream at the person so they’d pet him. Buddy isn’t happy

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Had the idea for an AU the other day.

So, what if Jason was not brought back to life when he was? Instead, he’s somehow brought back after Damian was.

(My head had it where Bruce somehow got it in his head that if he was able to bring one son back, then maybe he could do it again).

Now you have a 15 year old Jason back when he would have been 19-21 if he hadn’t died. You also have it where those around him considered him a failure, rash, and angry as that is what everyone seemed to tell themselves in order to better rationalize what happened. So his siblings might be tiptoeing around him.

And then there’s the difference with Bruce. Jason and Bruce had been close until the last few months of Jason’s life. And Bruce used to joke with him and give him piggyback rides. And now there’s this man who doesn’t seem to know what fun is.

Nothing is the same.

Just think of the angst potential

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I have officially bought the unsharpened version of that sword. It arrived yesterday! So now I can safely fence with it.

Now there will officially be 4 (fencing) swords and a pocket knife in the car :3

April 19th - the 1 year anniversary of me slicing my finger open on a sword because I accidentally bought live steel instead of the training sword I wanted. Lesson learned: don’t stress buy swords at 2am

Sword in question:

Stitches and healed scar under cut (only needed 6)

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April 19th - the 1 year anniversary of me slicing my finger open on a sword because I accidentally bought live steel instead of the training sword I wanted. Lesson learned: don’t stress buy swords at 2am

Sword in question:

Stitches and healed scar under cut (only needed 6)

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One of my favorite things to do when people come to the house for the first time is to show off the letter opener, which looks like a tanto.

Why is this important to me?

I collect blades. The big ones are on display, and the small ones are hidden throughout the house. Seriously, if you open a drawer you’re likely to find anything from a pocket knife to a hatchet. So, friends get shown where things are as a precaution. And cuz I think they’re pretty.

And while I’m in the middle of pointing things out, I just whip out that letter opener. And it just throws everyone off. :)

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I guess I never did do a proper post for it, but this is my fic written out of Spite™️ for Gotham War. It is a proper Jason leaves the Batfam fic.

Summary:

Jason felt light, untethered. It was a strange feeling, and he didn’t know what to make of it. When was the last time…? The phantom feeling of wind in his hair and ghostly whoops of joy came to mind from the first time he grappled through the sky of Gotham. At that time, he felt free, like he could go anywhere, do anything. Is that what he was feeling? Freedom? “After all the progress you made, you go, and you do this?” Batman had gotten close, and it made him flinch away. Why had he flinched? Bruce was his dad. He wouldn’t hurt him. But Batman… Batman would, and he had in the past. “Are you happy you finally got your revenge?” That snapped him out of his thoughts. “This wasn’t revenge.”

WARNING: This fic mentions the various times Bruce attacked/beat Jason in canon. But the Joker does die

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This is my favorite picture of my cats (still kittens at the time). It shows their personalities so well.

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Once again, this is on my mind.

Another alternative is that the Court, in order to sway Bruce to their side (Bruce not Batman), they show him Talon!Jason, and are like “see what we can give you? We have resurrected him from the grave.”

And Bruce is devestated

Prompt to be released into the wild:

Finally playing Gotham Knights since I now have a gaming system that can support it, but it got me thinking.

It would have been devastating if the Court of Owls managed to get their hands on Jason right after resurrection or even after burial and turned him into a Talon to use against Bruce.

And I just find this idea devestatingly fascinating and angsty

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So, I might have an insight into the protection of the football players. Because I saw this happen in my own school.

High school football is just as big in some areas as college football, and in those areas, that can affect funding. Whether it’s legal or not, the fact that money is on the line will cause teachers to ignore or brush off bad behavior (they might be told that from admin though).

My high school had its own personal Dash Baxter with no redeeming qualities, and he was treated differently because he was the star football player. This guy threatened to kill me in front of a teacher - he just got a stern talking to. He got in to physical fights and was a known bully - no punishment. Rumors said he was allowed to ditch class and/or teachers graded his work differently because they couldn’t risk getting him suspended from play due to his grades. I know for a fact he left school in the afternoon regularly, and he wasn’t enrolled in the technical programs that had some kids leave early for vocational training. Once again, no actions against that.

(Karma did eventually bite him, but that wasn’t until college.)

But what I’m getting at is that this type of thing exists. I’d like to hope most of it is teachers feeling pressured into protecting bad apples because of money.

I think there ARE teachers who do that but what bothers me is that it feels so inconsistent with Lancer's character later. He'll protect the football kids but have multiple instances of being the hardass teacher, including losing it over Danny cheating so like. Does he care about academic integrity or not, show!?

Not to mention the inconsistencies with what classes he even teaches.

Like they really made one of their major settings a high school and only wrote one teacher character and when asked what personality and roles in the school he was gonna have they were like "yes".

You know what? That's fair. This is a fair criticism. I accept this.

I think canonically he taught English, History, and was also the Vice Principal????? Bro was an admin and a teacher like lmfao what

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I am dreading today. It’s the St. Patrick’s Day Parade. I openly try avoiding the city this day, but current job is downtown near the parade route

And I’m in a city that has one of the largest parades in the country - the amount of people expected to attend is greater than the amount of people within the city limits.

And everyone will be drunk

I would like to be saved

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IT HAS BEEN FINISHED Quick summary: In the heat of the moment, Jason kills the Joker in order to save someone's life. As the dust settles and he's now faced with Batman's wrath, he wonders just how welcome he really is in his so-called family.

Dick Grayson, on the other hand, is trying to understand what prompted Jason's strange reaction to Bruce and his fiery resignation in the aftermath. WARNING: this fic references Bruce's canon beatdowns of Jason

someone, anyone, please find me a fic where jason fucks off and stops dealing with the batfam entirely, im in the mood for actual soul searching healing over here

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Ideas I’d like to see come up more

So, I’ve seen things before about Robin!Jason being brought to the future for a little and meeting the rest of the family.

But one of the things I never get to see is how Red Hood!Jason gets pushed to the side. Red Hood is the revenant of a child who died and the constant reminder of how they can fail.

I want to see Robin!Jason look at his older counterpart and ask: “why are you treating him… err… me… like a ghost? What did I do to push you away?”

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I've gotten some questions regarding whether or not I've abandoned fics (specifically the DP x DC ones)

I haven't, but please understand that it's a hobby. Sometimes life doesn't allow me to have time or the energy to want to work on my projects.

Let me just explain the BS that I dealt with in 2023 that's caused writing to go on a back burner for multiple reasons. These are in approximate order.

discovering a friendship was super toxic and person had gotten dangerous to be around. I still have to be very careful visiting a friend who still lives in his area because no one knows how he’ll respond (2023 started off great)

Surgery in Feb… I accidentally re-opened my stitches in March and never felt it happen

Harassment at work that eventually resulted in someone being banned… and the cops being called

First ocular migraine, which happened at worked and scared the shit out of me

First emergency at work that required a 911 call. (The officer that responded before the paramedics seriously looked like Dick Grayson. While my tech saw him too, I’m not convinced he was real)

I cut my finger open on a sword and had to get stitches. Don’t worry about it. I don’t

Trying to be emotional support for friends when online stressors kicked into high gear

Surprise DA inspection at work

Surprise FBI visit at work

Nearly getting caught up in a landslide in Scotland while on vacation (weird things like this are not abnormal when I travel. Also saw something weird in Loch Ness that same day. I think it was just a log though)

People saying disparaging things since I don’t particularly fit into the normal mold of one of my fandoms

Massive depressive episode

Probable concussion from sword - don’t worry about it

Set off DA investigation 1 at work

Set off DA investigation 2 at work

Was part of a sting operation at work

Hosted friends from out of state and country (one of the few good things from 2023)

My cat sat on my laptop and damaged it

Harassment and banishment round 2

Family member died and another ended up in the hospital on the same day for unrelated reasons

My fencing studio closed and I’m not adjusting well to the new one

Bullshit from work that’s just been non-stop since I set up and opened a pharmacy for them.

Honorable mention from 2024: a fire sprinkler pipe froze and broke and ended up flooding my pharmacy in Jan

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It’s not finished yet, but I’ve been working on something like this.

Because Gotham War hurt me personally

someone, anyone, please find me a fic where jason fucks off and stops dealing with the batfam entirely, im in the mood for actual soul searching healing over here

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There’s now a running joke that I’d make a good wife for someone in the mob.

I did not help the case against it when it came up that I’ve looked at the legality of owning a rocket launcher in my state.

Don’t worry about the whys.

I can tell you that cheap ones run a little over $1200

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The temporary emotional support spear in question

(Please ignore the cat fur)

The other day, my friend told me to go cuddle with my 'emotional support spear'.

This is not an insult. The guandao (which is technically a pole arm, not specifically a spear) that's currently chilling on the couch has been a constant fixture there for at least a month. It needs to go into the spare bedroom eventually.

This is just life, well, my life anyways.

edit: this is technically the "temporary emotional support spear. Which is not as good, but does the job."