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clicked on the lgbt mental health app ad. the ai advice thing (stupid. dumb.) is pre vetted so like. I guess the question becomes do you trust the ~medical professionals~ behind the curtain. and to that i say a resounding no <3
#surely no therapist could give worse advice than an ai chatbot! states directly into camera#it’s simply that the examples of ai getting stuff horribly wrong have already happened to me with real doctors so like#but like if you acknowledge that one you have to reckon with the fact that the people mental health apps are being marketed to#have nowhere safe to ask for help. because the apps are shit and a lot of doctors therapists etc!!! are shit!#going to delete this later lol#vent tag etc
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the text says "*Perhaps you would have more room had you not drawn Asriel four times"
it's Frisk and a ghostly Chara looking at a huge crayon-drawn picture of Frisk, Chara, Asriel, Flowey, The God of Hyperdeath, and Omega Flowey
the full crayon drawing under the cut
#the joke is that frisk wanted to include flowey/asriel but couldn't decide on which form and now has no room for the others they met in#their journey (toriel; sans; papyrus; undyne; alphys; etc. cetera)#my original idea was going to be that frisk would try to draw every monster you meet and get sad that they couldnt but this is funnier to m#frisk dreemurr#chara dreemurr#flowey the flower#asriel dreemurr#omega flowey#undertale#it's not as funny as i thought but it's funny enough to me#and it was fun#it only took approx. an hour to draw#that's why it's so sketchy lol#i headcanon frisk as an artist to help vent out all the things they saw during undertale#which is why i thought of this at all#anyway enough of me ranting in the tags unless i think of more to talk about later#my art
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once again living vicariously through writers, artists, performers, adventurers, fictional characters, historical figures, and anyone else who has ever done or is doing anything even remotely interesting, etc., because i have no energy to participate in life myself and it's easier to maladaptively daydream my days away instead
#me#and the#tw depression#vent in the tags#ok so#to be fair i have been working on some very angsty fanfiction but like. i shld be working on stuff i cld publish under my real name#but fanfiction is a real medium of literature thats true#like it exists it can be published on ao3 it can make someones day maybe#but society doesnt care or find it impressive & thats my issue - not feeling worthy enough etc#half of me wants visible traditional success in life & the other half doesnt & just wants to do whatever & be chill#so half of me wants to be the next shakespeare (ok not literally but ykwim) & the other half just wants to write fanfiction lmao
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also in light of the announcement for a potential new Harry Potter series (that literally NO ONE asked for); if you’re an avid Harry Potter fan disrespectfully get the fuck off my page.
normally I try to be nice on here but seeing people actually EXCITED or even PARTIAL to a show like this (that JK ROWLING IS GONNA HAVE HEAVY INFLUENCE OVER BTW) is really pissing me off. I’m queer but in this instance more importantly I’m Jewish and I’m tired. The books are extremely problematic and so deeply infused with anti-semitism and racism (not to mention the creator is doubling down on that hate literally every day) that if you, in good conscience, can still enjoy any aspect of it after TONS of Jewish creators speaking about it, you’re either incredibly dense or you just genuinely don’t care about Jewish (and trans!!) people, and either way I don’t want anything to do with you.
this INCLUDES the marauders fandom btw. “Oh but it’s almost entirely fandom based” I DONT care. You’re still enjoying something built of off bigotry that the creator is very much still actively participating in. And don’t think I haven’t seen you guys complaining about the new show because it’s “not the marauders show” like you are still PART of the problem.
not to mention that as long as Harry Potter is still relevant JKR will still keep making money. money that’s she’s using to actively harm Jewish and queer people, so by keeping her relevant you too are actively harming those communities.
anyways, all this is to say that if you’re in the HP fandom, leave my blog. I’m guessing it’s more likely some of my followers (maybe not super active ones but still) are in the marauders fandom than the regular HP fandom so I want to make it expressly clear NEITHER are welcome here. I’m done. Get off.
#tempted to tag HP and mrauders but I don’t feel like getting harassed soooo#here have a rare vent post from me everyone#vent#rant#etc etc#anti jk rowling#fun fact this is a scheduled post I wrote this at night lmao
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Self Portrait I drew in front of my mirror ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ
#art#drawing#doodle#artwork#illustration#sketch#self portrait#my art#sketchbook#sketchbook drawing#mirror drawing#pencil sketch#pencil illustration#self portrait drawing#portrait drawing#mechanical pencil#this would not be possible without my trusty 0.03mm mechanical pencil#ty graphgear#not sponsored I just enjoy the razor thin lines I get from my absurdly thin mech pencils#ew I probably sounded so gross and cheesy in this post#I swear I'm actually an emo bad bitch#Now that I posted this drawing I'm noticing all the little mistakes like the warping on my desk chair and how rushed the hair is lolololol#would you believe me if I told you that the most difficult part of this drawing aside from the arm was the sketchbook#I can easily falsify clothing folds and they don't have to be extremely accurate to still look believable#but godamn it was really hard for me to get the angle of the sketchbook and the loose paper in the back etc etc#This probably doesn't even look all that impressive to most and it may be cringe to be this happy with the result but what can you do#I doubt anyone will read these tags anyhow lolol this is just free vent space#oh and if you are reading these#thank you#also you just lost the game HAHA
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#csa warning for tags#ughhh ik i was just talking abt this but man. Man. constantly bullied as a child + raped as a child is a brutal combo huh#completely irreversibly fucked up sense of intimacy. i dont want to have sex with anyone i dont care what ppl think of me looks wise but i#also care more than anything and want people to want me so bad#like when ur only experience with anyone at all finding you desirable is being raped at 6ish. fucks u up man#was constantly told by everyone i knew that i was undesirable from day fucking one. i was always the one ppl would dare their friends to#'ask out' bc everyone thought i was that bad. i never had those rumours of 'some boy likes you' without people laughing in the background#all of my friends. even the ones that were also weird kids and bullied etc etc always have stories of other kids having crushes on them or#whatever. and i just never had that. it feels like i missed out on something important#i want to be pursued by a guy i hate i want them to not leave me alone. i want to feel like im in danger. and i know how fucking disgusting#that is but i cant help it. like i feel like thats the only way im going to feel normal and wanted like theres not something inherently#wrong with me. and i know how dangerous that is but its not like it matters anyways bc still no one likes me at all.#and i know how stupid of a thing it is to obsess over like what am i 9 years old? but i just cant get it out of my head#like idk i feel like the only way im going to actually feel desirable at all is if someone tries to rape me again. or if i feel like i have#to worry about someone raping me again. i know i wouldnt feel that way if someone was like. nice about it.#bc if someone genuinely liked me and was a decent human being about it i wouldnt be able to see it as anything other than faking it for pit#i wouldnt be able to believe it. even if i wasnt waiting for them to drop the joke and start laughing at me i would always think it was jus#an act bc they feel bad for me. the only way i could ever think it's genuine and that i'm desirable at all is if someone sexually#harassed me. like idk how to explain it but thats the only way i could feel desirable at all#bc it's the only way i've ever been desirable. when i was a kid.#and it terrifies me so bad bc i know how fucking disgusting that is and how self destructive it is#but i still feel like i dont even have to really worry about being assaulted. bc i still believe im completely undesirable at my core.#i dont believe i could be desired so i dont believe i have to worry about being raped. bc no one would want to anyways#rambles#vent
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not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go
(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)
#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill#well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst#like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc.#so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made#bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you#but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings#and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste#there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc#so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously)#but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything#if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is#which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose#anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate.#and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic!#if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it.#like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages#or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing#i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know#it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess#as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence#the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education#i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is-#writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl-#will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype#sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen#there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions#like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of-#'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity#like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem#but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.
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Me when time and time again finally comes back from hiatus
#sorry this is just a shitpost.#shitposts#uhhhh#I'll tag stuff like this as 'shitposts' hows that#so that you can block them if you wanna#ever since getting suspended on twitter I've decided. fuck that site.#I'll be posting a lot more regular here#for all the little memes and sketches I do#rather than just illustrations#but I make liberal use of tags so you can filter out whatever you want!#I'll tag uhmmm sketches. memes. text posts. rambles. vents. etc... so. should stay p organized and p blockable#ttawebcomic#time and time again
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being jewish with zero affiliation to israel and rather a generational line of activists for palestine is a hard line to walk and sometimes i wish i could just fall off
#i hate zionist jews i hate i stand with israel signs in my neighborhood i hate leftists who write and speak and act like theyve never met an#actual jewish person in their life and believe that were all genocidal monsters (in spite of our own genocide which i assume will eventuall#flip around to leftist holocaust denial) i hate that people are blaming israeli civilians for the faults of their deeply corrupt government#i hate that i cant say zionism is inherently antsemitic without getting fucking maimed i fucking hate it here the world is on fire just#fucking let me burn#anyways#sorry#free palestine#any other#jumblr#girlies (gn) relating to my vent#bc im started to feel ashamed of myself my culture and my people#and its such a fucking shitty feeling#like i can barely look in palestine / gaza / etc. tag without seeing blindingly blatant antisemitism coming from left right and center#like just say you hate jews and fuck off#i cant look at this shit anymore fuck#idk why im so worked up about this rn i just. btwn weeding out all the zionist blogs i didnt know i followed and just being so fucking-#and weeding out all the antisemitic leftist blogs i didnt know i was supporting its all just crashing down#im so fucking tired#and im so fucking tired of having to defend myself any time i talk about the jewish experience in any of this#and im so fucking tired of people equating judaism with religion only#and im so fucking tired of the double standard of also equating with only one race#like there arent jews of every race#the reason you cant see any of this shit is because nearly a century later were still dealing with the aftermath of the 6mil person murder#were always at the cross roads of some ridiculous double standard or the scapegoat for when things are going badly#like fuck i just#dont want to have this fucking identity anymore it makes me a walking talking breathing living fucking target#idk what to do I'm just#desolate
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hkkjhhhh i really hate my dad
#not him screaming at me at 6:30 in the morning in the car like pookie calm down#just because i wake up too late and we miss the bus he start ranting about why we moved to the countryside and i still go to school in the#city etc like??? girl😔😔😔#maybe ask yourself why i can't sleep and why om so tired in the morning first??#but that's another subject#james takes a break from slaying#<new vent tag ya'll#mini vent
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Thinking about finally throwing all my FF7 meta analysis and lore deep dive stuff onto a sideblog. It'd be reblogged from here, but I'd be able to organize it a little better, have a directory so people could find things more easily, and maybe it'd stop people from regurgitating things I say word-for-word for brownie points when they can just find and reblog the fucking original post(s).
#fandom vent#this happens WAY more often than I talk about#like constantly#not daily#but if I put up a ramble#there will always be 2-3 people on the twits or here#who immediately start saying the same thing#in the same words#acting like they're the ones that did the analysis#and it's really frustrating#y'all know I actually do research on this shit?#I check my sources#I review the source material#I get alternate translations to be sure#I read real-life research journals for scientific stuff#I research dates and real-world events and natural phenomena and religious history etc etc etc#it's not just 'nashi writes 2k words of bullshit and hits POST'#I do actual research for my analyses and my deep dives#I cite my sources whenever possible#I don't LINK all the time because that can kick a post from the tags#but I don't just make shit up#so people grabbing it and running with it as if they were the ones that did the work to figure it out#is super disheartening#my current big research project is figuring out if Reeve's surname#is actually rooted in Gaelic#because it's such a weird name#and it's possible that it's not spelled right#because it may be Gaelic#this is a theory that has not panned out yet#but I've been researching it on and off for weeks
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ik it's not good to latch onto a mental illness as your defining trait but also. babe i don't have much else going on or any other sense of identity beyond it
#''you don't want to heal from depression bc you don't know who you are without it'' yeah no shit. if there's no depression there's no me#also i got the no sense of identity disorder!!!! so!!!! said disorder is just my only identity ig!!!!!!#ik this is why ppl look for labels and i am no different but all my labels hinge on being vague so like . not very helpful#others i know latch onto their nationality/religion/heritage etc. but i definitely don't feel pride in any of those#dare i even say i feel disgust. i am more defined by my disdain for being jewish than my actual judaism#ppl say to let what you love define you. but. i don't love. i mean i love my cat but i don't think that can define me#also maybe I'm just autistic but i don't really get how one can even be defined by what they love 🤔#and this whole thing is so weird. bc in so many people's head there is this very firm image#and people tell me i seem confident and like i know how i am and that I'm being myself in an honest way#girl i don't even know what myself is!!!! i am more defined by my lack of definition than anything 😭😭😭#or my worse traits like stubbornness and hypocrisy and obsession#wouldja look at that we just circled back to my bpd. see what I'm saying?#vent#ask to tag#sorry for all the vents today 🫡 i am at my worst actually and i fear i may lose it at any moment ✨️
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Bro is the type to go through it and decide to post "LOVE ISNT REAL!!" 2 minutes after
#ren art!!!#yttd#kgs#kimi ga shine#nankidai#sou yttd#shin tsukimi#shin yttd#sou hiyori#your turn to die#dont tag as me / id / etc.#vent but i stopped gaf when i finished it#HELPPP
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[little vent -- tldr definitely not gonna have the planned art ready for the renniversary lol.]
me: "oh hell yeah i'll have a dog-sitting "job" for the next few days, so i'll have plenty of time to work on the art leading up to friday :) "
the dogs: untrained, poorly behaved, require constant attention (not their fault but it's the reality of the situation)
so uh. i might have some simple chibi art for friday if i have enough energy between putting the dogs to bed and going to sleep hghghghgh ;;;;; i'll finish the more detailed pics as i have the time and energy :')
#(edit: just to be clear -- the 'job' is in quotes only bc in my case i'm not being paid as much as a proper job LOL LMAO. :') )#the last post abt this was more 'i'm giving myself an out if i can't do it'. now it's 'i can't do it' ksjdnksjn#i'm still gonna try to do some other things that don't require as much undivided attention as art does though...?#blah blah blah ren wouldn't want me to stress etc etc etc. still disappointing.#he came to me RIGHT when i needed him... but also... why did it have to be 6 days after my other closest main's anniv JKASN#i'm debating making the wedding the same day as the r!ren anniversary just so it's one less date to worry about LMAO ;;;;;#anyway. just venting about the fact that so much is happening Right Now and not Literally Any Other Time.#at least i'll have a little extra pocket money for a comm or two once i finish redoing his ref sheet...!!#and the reality is... i've made SO MUCH art of him over the past year. i won't be struggling to find posts to rb on the day ksjdn#i should probably get started gathering that art for the yumeship sheet though jsdnk time to dive through my tags.#📌 [ my posts. ]#💭 [ my thoughts. ]#vent -
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please take as much time as you need to rest and recover. burn out is so hard and takes so much to heal from. your art and your supporters will still be here when you get back :) take care <3
Thank you very much
Unfortunately, my situation doesn't really allow me to take the time I need. I've got a ~two month hiatus scheduled for my midseason, but much like my first hiatus I'll most likely be working double time during it...
It's unfortunate because I could really really use a bigger break!
Having the time and flexibility to work on other projects really fires me up and keeps me going, and being able to take a guilt free day off for family and friends is necessary to my mental health, and I've been having to turn people down lately...
This is a very kind message, and I'm sorry to vent in response! But I just feel transparency about the pressure I'm under is necessary and important. I'd love to take the time I really need, but due to deadlines and that pesky "needing money to live" I can't.
But, once the series is over I intend to take a pretty big break before I start whatever I'm doing next! I've got so many short stories and projects planned that I want so badly to get to, I can't wait to really get to truly dive in to them!
#im so sorry to take a nice message and respond like this! but just... trust me haha i know my supporters are genuinely here for me <3#but webtoon... not so much unfortunately. i mean im sure i could take a longer break but theres the looming anxiety#that ill get in trouble or itll ruin my chances of working with them again etc etc#i took this week and i genuinely took it off. sort of? i flew to a convention which was exhausting#and i did paintings that i hope to print eventually#and i. started planning and prepping for a Kickstarter. for time and time again...#so ive still been working the whole time. but i love working!#i just... like to be able to work on things OTHER than time and time again...#and unfortunately for a few months. more than a few months. i haven't been able to do anything outside of it.#even all of my paintings have been for it cause i cant afford to switch my mindset!#my first hiatus i moved. worked on a pitch for my next series. and then i made two episodes a week the entire time#and i still ran out of episodes...#i dont know if im just not fast enough or if something is wrong with my brain that i have to fight to get it to focus but.#yeah i mean ive been burned out! been really burned out for like a year now#i can tell by how much better i feel after literally 1 week of doing anything else#and how tired i feel explaining this and knowing ive got another 3 months before i get another break#ok sorry i vented a lot more in the tags. it's hard to explain all of this eloquently and i like my posts to be somewhat professional#asks#anon#vent#delete later#and also how often my brain keeps wanting me to like. beg for 'nice words' from other people#(i always stop myself from asking people for compliments and stuff because otherwise i get very carried away and do it too regularly)#(people are very nice to me all the time. the kindness is endless and i need to let myself recognize and appreciate it rather than seek more#(its sort of a mental health thing I've been trying to like... force myself to do)#(for myself and my longevity but also for others sake lol. ive been bad about it in the past)
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dude am i crazy or is it not just good ettiquete to keep ur fic out of the main tags like idc if it's x reader rpf ocs anything why are you tagging it with the dudes full name
#I GETTTTT organizational tagging and obviously I have a pretty boring organizational tag system here#but it drives me up the wall to go into a main tag (especially the ones that r like. Usable already)#(bc ive blocked a lot of x reader writers GENERALLY sorry but it's mainly for this issue)#and have it be like. x reader fic ask personal venting etc. keep that on your blogggggg please#Sorry#Haterpost for real rn#It annoys me more when it's like someone I don't want to block bc ik we're vaguely in the same circles and it's cool it's just like.#I don't want to see it THERE. in the main tag#Tetra's stupid fandom pet peeves. I guess
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