A really quick comic I made at 2am based off something that happened while me @aimlessatlas and another friend were playing overcooked 2, when this glitch happened.
Currently imagining Arthur + Gwen + the knights asking someone (maybe druids?) who this famous "Emrys" is and they proceed to do a version of "We Don't Talk About Bruno" while Arthur, Gwen and the knights grow increasingly more distressed with each line and Merlin hyperventilates in the background
i keep thinking about hobbies and how i often spill over myself to pick up new ones. i have adhd, i end up trying something for like a month and then just getting far enough in it that i move on, satisfied.
and that should be fine; but it's never fine.
i am a pretty decent artist; but i can't just make art for my dnd campaign, i should be selling dnd maps and character designs and scene setting pieces. i can't just make my friends matching earrings, i need to get an etsy and ship them internationally and take bulk orders. i make pretty good props and decorations and use them to throw my friends parties - but i should be running a party planning business and start taking paying clients and networking and putting my skills to actual use.
for some reason, i never figured out the specifics of pottery. it was a fun class and i enjoyed myself - and still, i'm embarrassed, years later, that i put in all that useless effort. everything i make has to be stunning. stellar. i should have applied myself more. maybe i'm too lazy. maybe i'm broken and selfish and needy. actually creative people would have kept going; they would be bettering themselves at every possible opportunity.
we find ourselves in this trap, even accidentally: we need to commodify our time, because it is a commodity. if we spend our efforts and our time not earning, isn't that the same thing as burning free money? and god forbid you ever take up a hobby that ends up being more expensive than you thought. you sit in your car and you look at the receipt and in your head you hear a conversation that isn't even happening - your mom or your friend or your partner all saying oh great. not this shit again. it's always something with you, and it never actually means anything.
i have realized this horrible thing, recently - i'll get excited to start a project, pick up a new hobby. and then i just... stop myself. i start thinking about the amount of time it will take, and how it'll look in my monthly budget. what if i can't even produce a good enough final product. sure, it's exciting to think about how i could make my friend her own custom dice. but i'm just polluting the earth if i don't get it right. better not bother. better not try.
restless, i get caught in the negative space. the feeling that oh god, i want to create. and that horrible sense - yeah, but i don't have the time to just put to waste.
reading what julian jones said in an audio commentary about that merlin and gwaine scene in ep 4x07 I'm screaming
[Gwaine is waiting for Merlin in Gaius’s chambers.]
Merlin: I’m busy.
Gwaine: Doing what?
Merlin: What do you think?
RW: So Gwaine wasn’t in this, uh, initially? Not in this scene?
JJ: Well, there was a scene that was in, um, the armoury, from what I remember.
RW: Yeah.
JJ: And, um…Merlin got quite angry that Arthur wasn’t doing anything and was uncharacteristically rude, in fact, and was quite bolshie. And I think that is what motivates, uh, Gwaine to come and offer to help out.
RW: Yeah.
JJ: And so that wasn’t there for Gwaine. And in the end, the scene really wasn’t…wasn’t necessary. It didn’t take us anywhere. This scene’s a lovely scene because it’s a relationship. We know that they have a close relationship.
RW: That they’re close, yeah.
[Agravaine watches Gwaine and Merlin ride off together.]
JJ: Yeah, and you instinctively understand why Gwaine has gone there to help out his friend and, um, Merlin, feeling the whole world’s against him…rejects this. Um, but then, slowly, they form a partnership and um…which is, uh, going to drive us towards, uh, rescuing [Gaius].
Sammon watched the pool scene of kpts episode 14, found it amazing and said "I want to write that in a show, too."
Unfortunately, she never got to watch the post-credit hospital scene.
one of my favorite things about Renegade Nell is that Roxy continues to wear dresses while she and her sisters are outlaws. Nell's default outfit is pants and Georgina tends towards them when they're on the run as well, but there's no implication by the other characters that Roxy's being vain or impractical by continuing to wear dresses. in fact, because she's a common girl and has to do stuff like work in the laundry and in her father's bar, her dresses are cut above the ankle for practical purposes before she goes on the run anyway. she's literally just a girl wearing her usual clothes, and the fact that those are dresses isn't made into a problem in the narrative and I love it.
Me, doing a double take after watching the trailer, spilling coffee all over self and scaring my poor dog off my lap (they're fine by the way):
Me: *ignores burns, breaks out the Twilight Princess Manga, does a second double take after going frame by frame on Link's/Wild's arm, mentally comparing both spirals*
Also Me: So was anyone going to tell us Link's/Wild's Zonai arm matches and looks like the Interlopers/Twili in design, or were we just supposed to find that out ourselves?
There were a LOT of puppies at the Farmer's Market today!
We took and passed our CGC in all this chaos
This was the first meet-up spot. We spent probably 20 minutes just hanging out and letting people get there. I think we got 9 teams in total today. Most of the pups were just here for socialization. Once everyone had arrived, we walked the few blocks to the other end of the Farmer's Market and hung out there.
I was declared The New Apprentice in front of everyone. She really wanted to make it official. This was my first time I was able to give real training advice to someone (I was being observed, of course, but I just got nods and agreements).
The trainer and I have discussed taking the CGC test in the past. Today, she handed me her clipboard with all the paperwork for me to look at. We ended up just going for it and taking the test in the middle of the peak of the Farmer's Market. I am very proud of my Bean for doing a down stay and a recall in a place I never thought I'd have her do something like that.
Jame Somerton is awful but I really wanna say the anger I feel over the flat out lies about the very actively harmful politics of JK R*wling to justify and write off concerns people have about still giving her money. Saying she actually had a very pro trans streak till recently is just flat out erasing the very real harm she pointed towards trans woman all the way back to 2016 that people have been trying to bring awareness to before she flat out said it now with the edge of spreading harmful lies about trans men. These lies are made to make people that still give her money or want to not think about her pass works implications shrug off any self reflection and also the very real pain me and other trans people feel when talking to others about the harm she does to the trans community. When I tell people that it's not ok to be buying licence Harry Pot merch and give money to a video game that lead developer abused a women because there's better things out there that doesn't directly fund the harm of my community a James Somerton ass talking points come out about "who's to really say what's goin' on" and the infantilizing of a grown woman that's asking for me and my friends to disappear not really being that bad when she's very much a hand directing englands politics.
That man does a lot of downplay to lying about the harm other queers face that aren't a gay cis man. This part showed me how much of it was just for his own benefit. He wants to not think and eat up JK garbage so he's gonna lie or believe anything that's saying it's not a big deal.