#web vulnerability

[lucidloving]

David Foster Wallace // Marya Hornbacher, Waiting // Albert Camus, A Happy Death // Kai Cheng Thom, A Place Called No Homeland // Brené Brown, Dancing Greatly // @danielcalmdown // Anna White, Mended: Thoughts on Life, Love and Leaps of Faith // Marya Hornbacher, Waiting // Sleeping At Last—Neptune

[greghatecrimes]

House M.D. & Hands

5x24 "Both Sides Now", 4x15 "House's Head", 4x16 "Wilson's Heart", 3x15 "Half Wit", 1x11 "Detox", 1x21 "Three Stories", 5x20 "Simple Explanation", 8x19 "The C Word"

[littlest-bugz]

Did I tell you that I miss you?

About the want for love and affection, but being deeply afraid of it.

[no poetry or quotes belong to be - would love help for the uncredited quotes!]

[cadaverousdecay]

the merging and separation of souls

sources under the cut

thought.is article title / the acoustic mirror by kaja silverman / post by @cadaverousdecay / hedwig and the angry inch by john cameron mitchell / post by @death-lies-dead / wuthering heights by emily brontë / post by @the-messenger-of-the-gods / surrounded by spies by placebo

[fumifooms]

What if we were both magic prodigies and it otherized us in different ways and we devoted ourselves to protecting a family member who has general other goals & priorities. What if we both did self-sacrifical devotion in opposite ways.

What if we were dark mirrors of each other and where I've grown overcontrolling you've grown complacent. What if, bought as a servant into a pretty loving home, ownership and control is what love looks like to me, and to you neglected and lonely growing up, love is gratefully taking any scraps of it you’re lent.

By belonging to someone, even if she comes back injured or fails at finding Delgal, she feels like she belongs and is cherished, by owning someone he feels safe in them not leaving him.

She’s what’s tethering him do you see… And he’s the only thing giving her direction and purpose in her state. She needs a compass and he needs a support.

They’re both so out of it 😭 It’s the weirdly intense and unearned mutual trust and reliance on each other?? They’re each other’s weird little comfort codependent teddy bear. Or at least they were headed towards that before SHE DIED THEN HE DIED THEN THEY BOTH FORGOT ABOUT EACH OTHER AND NEVER MET EVER AGAIN. Though she’s also the guard attack hound keeping him safe… And vice versa he heals her and can rewrite her very being with just one wave of his hand. They’re both so so mentally and physically vulnerable both but they cling onto each other. They can’t perceive things accurately but despite it all someway somehow they stumble into something closer to resembling companionship just before they both die. Falin is just that kind and Thistle is just that lonely. Overworked.

We both haven’t lived for ourselves in a very long time, haven’t we.

They both have a similar devotion to the people they love but again the difference is that Thistle starts overtsepping while Falin is self-effacing. The other difference between them is that people care about Falin <3 People have given up on Thistle long ago, and he has given people reasons to, while people refuse to give up on Falin. Yaad has a mini arc about it dw about it it’s ok he’s not all alone in the end 😭😭 He reached out for Marcille’s hand but they already all wanted to help him, they just had to be given the chance to, Yaad just had to be given the chance to, it’s okay I’m okay

Hey what if we learned to get in touch with our own identity and the world around us and living in the present again through being in the worst codependent situationship ever.

Falin and Thistle sitting in a tree, sucking on flowers together because they’re h-u-n-g-r-y 💕💕💕

I bet he’s only ever thought of flowers as useless ornaments. Weak weeds. But she shows him they’re tasty and useful and good and pretty in their own right too and deserve existing without proving their worth and waaa <33 Thistles…... Did you know thistles taste sweet if you remove the thorns and eat them?

"Even as a chimera, her kind nature remains" you can’t suppress her in the way that matters. You can’t soothe him in the way that matters. It’s doomed. You’re doomed. It’s all doomed. Save me.

[franzkafkagf]

normal people (2020) / spiracle - flower face (2022)

[stagefoureddiediaz]

If this scene shows me Medic Eddie tending Bucks wounds whilst standing between his legs - I will promptly expire

[ceaselessims]

the fact that martin still loved jon after the woman came in and made a statement about jon eating her fear is just something fucking else man

martin is under no delusions about jon. he loves jon wholly including (and maybe even bc of) his monstrosity. he sees jon and sees someone who needs support, needs a person to rely on, and this motherfucker dives head first into the deepest part of the lake.

and in the end he is the one, the only one, who can take jon down. he can take the monster at the end of the book into his arms, and kiss him as he drives the ending home and takes his last breaths.

alexa play euthanasia by will wood

[riverscamander]

i think everybody should make web weavings about their ancestry. i think it would be fun and cathartic.

Me / Gustavo Perez Firmat / Hozier / me / Luis Alberto Urrea / Maria Melendez Kelson / me / family photos / Fatimah Ashgar / Alice Notley / Nicole Dollanganger

[magentasnoodle]

please not again

[thensson]

You opened me up

Helene Delmaire || Memorial to a Marriage, Patricia Cronin || At Swim, Two Boys, Jamie O'Neill

[ethelcainsfreezer]

where do i put it all down?

[rickybaby]

Daniels archiving posts again, and he’s also taking away individual photos on dumps. His post with the captions “bisous” used to include a photo of him kissing Josh but that’s not there anymore 🙃

It’s night time in Perth …

[araekni]

gentle.earth

The Boys (2019-), 3x03: Barbary Coast

House of the Dragon (2022-), 1x06: The Lord of the Tides

Cloud Nothings, Wasted Days

Audre Lorde, From the House of Yemanjá

Hanif Abdurraqib, When I Say Loving Me Is Like Being A Chicago Bulls Fan

Holly Black, The Cruel Prince

Geloy Concepcion (x)

Dead Like Me (2003–2004), 1x01: Pilot

[murdocs-sweetheart]

Also like. The way Matty tells him she knows he’s more human than he’d have us believe. The way that you can tell it makes him SO uncomfortable and yea he does a decent job of hiding it but you can see it in his body language, the tension- he hates being reminded that he has all the same human failings as the rest of us. Those failings being compassion and altruism and the like lol

He’s got this carefully crafted persona (among others, each to fit an alias of his own creation) that he manages to keep up for most everyone around him.

He wants to be seen as a threat and so he is. Partially because he actually IS but also bc he leans so heavily into the unfeeling, cruel killer vibe.

He does this on purpose. And yea, some of it is just how he is, but a lot of it is him playing into everyone’s existing assumptions about him.

I do think that Murdoc is simultaneously both aware of the way he uses other peoples beliefs about him to construct his personality and also somehow oblivious to the fact that he does this just like how everyone else is a sum of their interactions with other people.

I think even he doesn’t realize how human he is sometimes, having denied that narrative of existence for so long. He forgets that he is just as human as the rest of us and he’s not happy about being reminded of it-

But like with every emotion he expresses, it’s done through several intricate layers of deceit.

He doesn’t really know if he remembers the last time he was open and earnest about any of his feelings-

Prior to me, anyway…

Something about me just.. made it easy to talk to me. Too easy. At first, he thought perhaps it was the anonymity of a computer screen between us. But as time went on and we learned more about each other (him finding out waaaayy more about me,at first, than I did about him) he realized that it was something about me specifically.

He couldn’t quite put his finger on it but something about me was just enrapturing to him. He found himself baring his feelings to me about stupid, mundane stuff that he wouldn’t have to anyone else, in a million years.

It really was little things but those little things were so earnest in comparison to his usual deceptive behavior. He would tell me about how his day was, on the days when he didn’t have a hit to carry out, so he didn’t have to lie to me. He wanted to be able to be as honest as possible with me. That feeling in and of itself baffled him beyond comprehension.

And yet he kept doing it. Murdoc kept giving me little bits and pieces of his truth and I kept them with great care.

When we finally did meet up in person, it struck him, how much of an effect I had on him. How vulnerable I made him feel in some ways. And many months ago, before he’d encountered me, this feeling would’ve probably caused him to kill me- eliminating the source of his vulnerability.

But he was in too deep now. There was no way he could bring himself to kill me. Absolutely no way.

And it hit him, Matty had been right-

he was far more human than he’d ever let anyone know.

[angelofviscera]

on self sacrifice as love

I will mitski / love and pain (also known as vampire) edvard munch / snow and dirty rain richard siken / the kiss eva claessens / garden song phoebe bridgers / in blackwater woods mary oliver / the prodigal returns karen swenholt / rest energy marina abramović / red door julien baker / poems from an email exchange hanif abdurraqib