#what is jan doing istg

[me-sploh-rada-imas]

jan: does literally anything

nace: 😍

[frikatilhi]

bojan being jealous of jere and joosts friendship, pining and whining and being a petty bitch because they have their own inside jokes now and all and suddenly he’s being forgotten and left behind and what about THEIR inside jokes and jere sharing parts of finland with HIM!! and then jan who’s fucking SICK of having to witness bojan make a complete fool of himself hits him with the ”istg bojan it’s not like theyre in love jfc just STOP for the love of god I AM BEGGING” and bojans brain just stops working and hes like ”why would I care if they were!!!!” and jans like ”😭😭😭 idk WHY WOULD U??? NO FUCKING IDEA WHY!!!!” and then in the time between the interview and their gig bojans like ”oh……oh no……”

Anon you kill me

Just before the gig he corners Jan. "I need to tell you something. It's kinda big. I think... I think I love him."

"Jesus fucking christ!" Jan exclaims and Bojan shushes him and glances around.

"I know you're shocked but--"

"Shocked?" Jan rolls his eyes so far Bojan is surprised they don't fall on the floor. "Bojan, I swear to god, you've been in love with him for a fucking year plus, and now you tell me like it's some big revelation?!"

Bojan ignores him.

"I think I need to tell him."

Jan sighs. "He knows. But yeah, you do."

"He does?!" Bojan can feel panic rising in his throat. "Oh god. Oh god oh god oh god."

"Bojan, everyone knows. Both bands. Managers. Families. Fans. It's not a secret. There's a bet going. I lost months ago." Jan seems annoyed, and Bojan wonders who's going to take the pot tonight. Because it will be tonight. Right now, if he has anything to say about it.

"Where is he?"

Jan shrugs. "He had something to do. He'll be here for the gig though. Talk to him after."

But Bojan doesn't know if he can wait that long. He wants to run, wants to find him, to tell him, beg for forgiveness for being so stupid, for waiting for so long, for being a stubborn ass. But he has to wait.

There's no way to tell him during the gig.

Bojan sighs.

[fandom-hoarder]

https://www.tumblr.com/deansbisexualflannel/761196850237800448/i-adore-him-and-his-kindness-enough-said?source=share

Ahahaha oh yay, another rage bait poll istg 🙃 Thanks, I hate it.

Despite the fact that I don't know Jared personally and have never even met him in person, and further that I'm always preaching about how even actors' public personas are still a character they play for "us," I did of course vote "I love him" because he brings joy to my experience of fandom. I enjoy his commentary on Sam and the way he likes to tell a story when acting; his presence at a convention is always a treat; and fan stories about meeting Jared are always the sweetest.

I don't advise reading the comments, but I did and I'm like: I don't think you're mature enough to say you're wiser now, if your current feelings are hating Jared for something you think he said in the past. 🙄🙄

"Racist or otherwise problematic." Sure, Jan🙄

(WHERE are these racist comments? I've never seen them, but I've seen the accusation a shitton. Is it just another idiotic misunderstanding, like with his tattoos, or did something actually happen. 🤨 I KNOW that Jared has made mistakes, and also that he's owned his mistakes and tried to make amends, while also working on his mental health and mindfulness in general. I also know and accept that we are all imperfect human beings who are doing life for the first time, and what really matters is being willing to learn.)

[worminterface]

thinking about it too much actually makes me nauseous, and so many lib mfs on this website are being so annoying about it, but thinking about it logically and strategically. yes. voting for Harris is most likely the best option. I don't really fault anyone who hates the idea, but think about it. what good would abstaining do. name one real benefit. no that's moral high ground. name one benefit to not voting for the damn cop that is likely and measurable.

istg I am not trying to talk down to anybody. I've noticed most people arguing over this bullshit on Tumblr rn are kinda preachy, condescending, and patronizing, no matter their take, and I'm not trying to do that. I am a sixteen year old on tumblr.com I promise you I do not think I have the intellectual high ground.

also while obviously she's been awful regarding the Gazan genocide same as any other member of the current administration (the "right to defend itself" bullshit & promises of a two-state solution), her intentions do seem better than Trump's for sure. Reuters notes that compared to Biden, she would likely be "harsher" on Israel, and she has called for ceasefire. Trump's two-state peace proposal in Jan 2020 would have had Palestine cede almost everything that they're fighting for, and besides that gave "near-absolute, unconditional support to Israel". He's also more recently said that Israel needs to "finish what they started" without elaborating much further. (sorry for linking to CNN.) please actually click on the links and read the articles.

endorsing her pisses me off to no end but imo as a U.S. citizen you have the responsibility to use your vote with harm reduction in mind, irt both within and without the country. also voting is not close to the end-all be-all of pursuing justice as an American citizen, nor even the most effective, I'd say. that's not a reason to not vote, but it is a reason to do more than vote if you don't like the morals of voting for The Cop. what that means is up to you and don't tell the FBI I said that. it's just annoying when people treat it as a binary

also that's not getting into her domestic policies. Idk it's a lot more nuanced than a lot of people are making it out to be I think. You can't absolve yourself from responsibility by calling the system out for being unethical and not participating. that is still a choice within the system. you are a citizen of one of the most powerful states in the world and must make your decisions accordingly.

anyway vote Hamas and Xi Jinping 2024 (they are running jointly)

[murfpersonalblog]

IWTV S2 Ep2 Musings

I absolutely adore the title cards; the "fangs" reflecting main locations of the episodes/seasons. GOD this show's attention to detail.

We open with Lou & Claud in Paris bickering about French & money; already shown in the Pix11 preview (I gave my opinions on the full scene, and another post about Claudia specifically.

Then we get Dubai. O_O Omfg. I made a separate post all about Louis & Loumand, cuz those queens were DIABOLICAL this episode.

Skipping ahead a bit! To the coven/theatre! ^0^

Ohhhh....that's a Children of Satan/Darkness nod! 👀 Only thing's that the old guard from the CoS/D actually weren't part of the Coven/Theatre anymore by the time Louis & Claudia arrived (Alessandra, Eleni, and the rest of Rhoshamandes' fledglings Santino indoctrinated & had train Armand).

So Armand is REALLY showing off, tryna impress Louis; cuz none of the members of THAT Theatre troupe are older than Armand, and not even he's as old as Charlemagne. Armand, your yaoi is showing. XD

It's wild how on one hand we have the coven simping over how pretty Louis is (except Santiago, cuz ofc 🙄); while just HATING on Claudia.

Naw, let her stay! Estelle is THIRSTY and I love her for it, bless! XD

Santiago, you shady wench, you're already on my hit list, BUFFOON; but THIS striped heifer, Celeste--

Wench, are all Parisian vampiresses frumpy busted haters like YOU?

Anyways. 🙄 I hate this effing coven already. 😒

Foreshadowing AF, Mr. I Could Not Prevent It.

Sure, Jan. 🙄 But not all violence/abuse/trauma is physical/sexual. By allowing the Theatre to put their hands on Claudia, Armand harmed Louis more than anyone ever could. Claudia was the glue keeping Louis together when he was already falling apart, and he hasn't been right ever since. BOTH of these dudes are living in a fantasy, frikkin la-la-land, as they think they're HELPING e/o, going thru all these theatrical acts & performances. But are they REALLY happy? Esp. cuz we know who's endgame for them in the books. It's bittersweet, cuz their affection's REAL. But this weird codependency just isn't healthy or right. U_U

Eff you, Daniel Hart. tryna make me cry!

Eff you, Daniel Hart, tryna make me laugh!

This scene with the naked lady (Annika) was SO GOOD! I'm glad they tastefully didn't fully show her whole body like they did in the film--if we can't see full frontal nudity for the dudes, then I don't wanna see it on the gals either. 😤 Fair's fair!

But WOAH, the sexckshuhality~!

👻💀⚰️

I don't even have words for this! 😅 Claudia! Let the man win ONCE!?

But I LOVE how candid this show is about everything from sexuality to race--and ofc discrimination.

Oh they're cooking. O_O

THEY ACTUALLY SPOKE ON THE FACT THAT ARMAND'S A BROWN ASIAN DARKER SKINNED THAN REDBONE LDPDL, I'M SHOOK--COLOR CONSCIOUS AWARD GOES TO~~~!

Armand gets to lead the coven through meritocracy, not racial privilege. HOWEVER, we've got bleach-blonde Santiago still waiting in the wings, so.... I can't wait to see more of their dynamics.

We been knew, Louis, it's ok. U_U

Armand clearly been knew, too! Like: Yeah, I'm not surprised he's cruising all the gay parks--I could tell by the way that American walked! ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

I KNOW this bish ain't talking, not Mr. Polynesian Marys! Not Mr. I Did What I Had To Do To SCORE. Not Mr. We Met In A GAY Bar. Not Mr. Black Tar And Heroin! Not Mr. Is Alicia Even REAL!? I KNOW he's not tryna shade Louis for cruising, when his closeted arse can't even handle being in a room with Armand making come-hither eyes!

I love Daniel, how he's written & acted, but ISTG I hate his character.

As opposed to Santiago, who is just--BRUH. WERK.

And this is exactly what Lestat was getting at, too. And why Akasha was wrong when she said men are the problem. Like, don't get me wrong, THEY ARE, but chile, ALL HUMANS are the problem; eff gender. Homegirl sold that old dude down the frikkin river, just to save her own skin, and her family's. COMPLICIT. OFFAL.

Santiago's disgusted by humanity, and Annika proved his point.

As for Lestat, his cold willful detachment stems from his attitude that humans are just The Meat. This version of Lestat is SO dang jaded, that humans are reduced to mere food--just like he called Miss Lily.

He doesn't need the Evil Doer creed, if he thinks ALL humans are evil/irredeemable; only worth living if they can sing & make music or something artistic. Otherwise who cares? (Which makes it VERY interesting to see what AMC!Les would say to Memnoch the Devil....)

Speaking of....

I frikkin knew it. ISTG Lestat must be asleep in 2022--if y'all have him do a Merrick and wake up in the finale, I will pass out and DIE.

The question is: WHAT put him to sleep? Is he just sad & grieving post-trial? WTF is Raglan James doing in 2022? Are we post-Memnoch? Where are TWMBK? I NEED ANSWERS, AMC! 😭

[coco6420]

HOW ARE YOU FINDING 1670???? DO YOU LOVE IT??? HOW MANY EPS HAVE YOU WATCHED??? WHO IS AN ICON TO YOU??PLEASE TELL ME EVERYTHING

HEY HEY HEY IVE ONLY WATCHED 3 CUZ I REALISED IM BEHIND ON FIC UPDATES AJHHH SO I NEED TO WRITE

not too sure what the plot is about so far but its enjoyable i think jakub is like plotting and gaslighting everyone or smth lmao

its a very self aware show lmao the jokes isometimes istg in the best way possible

not sure what zofia is doing havent formed an opinion or her yet but i love aniela and jan theyre so funny lmao

poor peasants :')

there are soooo many polish culture and history jokes i dont get so after watching each episode i looked up some meanings of stuff snd even the names and tone are joke sometimes apparently lol

unfortunately ofc i cant fully understand alot of jokes bcuz i dont speak polish :(

captions help a little but still some things must be lost in translation which is really sad

i feel like im really not the target audience for this show as someone who doesnt speak the langauge or know anything about the culture which i ssad cuz it seems like alot of people seem to like it.

although sooommee things can be translated and i really wanna see jakub do his thing lol

i dont thik i can comment too much about the show being good or bad itself tho cuz i wouldnt understand alot. sorry

its like joining a fandom w out watching the show - it can be good but you dont understand alot of it.

i got enough motivation to finish it tho so yay!

its very enjoyable to watch although i know i'll never get everything there is.

it seems alot of the themes are very dark and historicals not my thing but the delivery of the jokes are very good.

i like the scenery.

no srsly im intrigued by whatever tf jakub is doing.

[shadowbannedthehedgehog]

AHAHHAHA remember when jan last year? or year b4? mother my hair was getting long n mother tried to twist it she literally came up to me while i was sitting embroiderying or whatever n put her hand in it n i hate having my hair combed like plaits n stuff n i told her no n moved away n she got so mad i think she took away my laptop n then i was pretty angry but also chill went inside to continue embroidery n then i came out my room n her phone was just there as it usually is so i hid it n put it on silence as a spur impulse n then i realized quickly tht i had fucked up this was a sunday she's getting ready to pack her stuff for work the night cant find her phone not worrying at first but then it's obvi i did i refused to back down whatever whatever i went to shower or she locked me in the shower cant remember but me locked in the shower so i took her razor n cut my hair lmao tht was actually my first attempting at cutting my hair myself eheheh ofc i fucked it up badly but truly not as bad as the second time bc i wasnt trying to cut it all off just cut it lower so she cldnt hold it to twist it aljkflkdsjflksd n then it was i think weeks b4 she realized what i had done my gm realized n kept saying she was going to tell her but she didnt i think until weeks after i dont remember but tht was so lmao i think tht was truly one of the last lack of emotional regulation n intelligence outbreaks i had also funny story years b4 we were going w/ her to work n same thing istg this woman is obsessed w/ my hair tht was when it was relaxed i asked her in advance if i cld style my hair x way she said yes in advance i asked in advance bc she's finnicky like tht n she used to like to curl it n i wasnt too fond of tht all the time so yh the night b4 she insists on curling it n im trying to make my point tht i asked in advance she doesnt care whatever makes me bring the curlers n in a moment of teen stupidity i threw the bag at her ... while she was holding n drink a cup of hot tea so yeah ..... i mean thankfully it wasnt like boiling to burn her .... i mean i got to wear my hair how i wanted ajfldsjf;lksdjf i love tht outfit to this day i looked so cute ugh but then i cldnt get pics bc everyone was mad at me lmao but whatever i got the prettiest selfie ever i still hv it it survived the delete all my photos anyways MOST importantly tht day she really only carried me still bc i had a dentist appt at her dentist in the city so yh n on the way she was like she's sorry for what she did n smth abt how she knows she willingly provokes me for ??? fun???? n she shld stop doing tht too lmaooooo psychopaths istg anyways yh im a bad girl ehehehehhehe

[send-up-my-heart-to-you]

theories for chain of thorns

i had these posted on my gr from like december, im just posting them here

- lucie will now be an antagonist lets be honest we all know it. necromancers are NOT good people and thats the path lucie chose for herself by wanting to save jesse

- someone major will die idk who it is yet, but my instincts tell me its matthew or alistair. the second wouldnt make sense tho – if alistair dies, how would the carstairs line continue down to emma??? hopefully itll be tatiana that bitch

- jamie x daisy its inevitable guys, have you seen the snippets? im rooting for them theyre perfect

- thomas and alistair are NOT gonna end up together this was a gut feeling when i wrote it but as of jan 5 i have a legible reason as to why they would not be happy and its the next theory

- IM SCARED THOMAS IS GONNA DIE the “found family tree” says that thomas died TWO YEARS before barbara. i understand cassie has repeatedly stated that its been manipulated (she hinted that it was changed by the silent brothers) and isnt reliable. but isnt that disturbing?? esp considering theres at least part of it thats reliable, and thats the fact that alistair will 100% go on to marry a woman despite being gay. if alistair doesnt have kids, and cordelias children are all herondales, then the carstairs family would die out and emma would not be related to jem (even tho its been stated that they are related by blood). “oH bUt SoNa iS pReGnAnT mAyBe ShEs GoNnA GiVe BiRtH tO a bOy” first of all, theres a chance the baby is born a girl second of all, the baby might die third of all, where is the son on the family tree? fourth of all, SONA IS, ACCORDING TO THE TREE, DEAD BEFORE THOMAS. PLEASE.

- grace x christopher i despise grace but she acts like a different person around kit… maybe he can fix her

- anna x ariadne she cant fuck up ALL the gay relationships, now can she?

- the merry thieves are gonna forgive alistair (specifically matthew) bro he literally made out with one of them TWICE. if matthew doesnt think “well shits gonna get awkward if i dont forgive the sorry bastard” istg~ 💀

- this is more of a hope than a theory MATTHEW FAIRCHILD SHALL ACHIEVE THE HAPPINESS HE DESERVES smth tells me he wont get a happy ending tho… i mean, if my above theory abt thomas is correct~

- SO DOES ALISTAIR I MEAN CMON GUYS #justiceforalistair he regrets the shit hes pulled and therefore your hate against him for it is invalid PLUS HE GOT BULLIED BY RACIST PIECES OF SHIT HE DID WHAT HE COULD TO MAKE IT STOP

- matthew will open up abt his secret its like a routine at this point, in every shadowhunters series. a character has a secret that nearly kills them outta despair, they open up to friends, theyre met with love and support. jace loving his “sister”. wills “curse”. emma and jules’ relationship. ty bringing back livvy. alec being gay. you get used to it lol

- either lucie or matthew would have their marks stripped lucie for attempting/committing necromancy, and matthew because sobh said he doesnt have a specified death date (also i think cassie just hates him)

- jesse will be evil bro wouldnt that be cruel… like imagine after lucie brings him back hes like “haha i manipulated you to bring me back i never loved you” and then sHe GETS HER RUNES STRIPPED FOR NECROMANCY and its worse bc the shadowhunters are already out to get the herondales bc they refuse to accept tessa as anything but a warlock no but in that case she would prolly go to live with wills parents OKAY BUT IMAGINE HOW HEARTBROKEN CHARLOTTE WOULD BE WHILE DOING IT WHILE JAMIE IS CRYING AND MATTHEW SCREAMING AT HER NOT TO AND WILL TELLS HIM TO STOP WHILE TEARS ARE GOING DOWN HIS FACE

- a “seven husbands of evelyn hugo” thing with anna x ariadne and thomas x alistair (credit to my good friend wiz/nisha for saying this) maybe cassie is going to have thomas marry ariadne and anna marry alistair so that they could have a good old switcheroo, so they can swap lovers?? obviously it cant be anna and thomas lmao theyre cousins but thomas and ARIADNE…

- matthew and cordelia ARE going to kiss at one point HOL’ UP I DONT SHIP EM, i think its gonna be a climon kinda thing where they kiss and dont like it as much as they thought they would, and end up deciding to stay friends i think thats the best way cassie could deal with matthews crush on her without breaking anyones heart, i hope to god it wont be like him confessing and her rejecting him plz oml

[me-sploh-rada-imas]

joker out in oslo 17/03 gig report time! this is long so under a read more. have some footage from my terrible phone and not very good angle :)

while waiting in the queue we were right next to the door and they all came past us to get in. vita, damon, and a woman i assume is sadie sink (with a big suitcase) got locked out and waited for ages and were joined by nace, bojan, and jure. jan came on his own a few minutes later and was also locked out.

regnvær and hearts were really good! at one point, the lead singer of regnvær started playing a song in the wrong key on his guitar and took three tries to get it right. the lead singer of hearts kept saying "yoker out" in a strong swedish accent. they both knocked over mic stands as well it was very chaotic

the security guard was VIBING to the dj between acts it was so funny! he sang along to barbie girl what an icon

now the actual show:

my first thoughts as they came on stage: holy fuck jan is beautiful. NACE GLASSES! bojan's outfit?!?!?!

the stage was too small for the cool props and i couldn't see jure most of the time sadly

bojan did a whole speech about how he'd learnt how to say hello/good day in norwegian (god dag) and joked about it sounding like good dog, and he patted nace while saying it

at one point, nace was at the front of stage and jan came up behind him and pretended to try to push him off and they had a little mock fight while playing it was adorable!! yeah they janced a lot... every time they looked at each other they couldn't stop grinning or making faces at each other

lots of really good krisjan and krisnace moments tonight as well! kris sidled up to nace in ona and jan got in the way again but this time to play with kris. other than this i didn't really see much of kris though

someone get bojan some glasses because every time he tried to read a sign in the crowd he squinted so hard

before vkv someone had a sign that said they'd ask out their crush if they played padam and bojan said he would as kiki gave him his guitar. then they were like 'oh i've asked them out now' and bojan joked about not needing to play padam anymore. and he played the chorus but doesn't actually know it so got some of the chords wrong and it was awesome and very funny! then he dedicated vkv to them and said 'i hope your date goes better than that'.

in behind those eyes, jan and nace did a super slow version of their mating dance circling each other. i had wanted bluza but you can tell they really love playing behind those eyes so i still really enjoyed it

bojan dedicated omamljeno telo to a friend from primary school who'd flown from slovenia and had been a fan before joker out actually formed!

nace's glasses flew off in the middle of omamljeno telo right before jan's solo and bojan put them back on for him agdjafhkl

bojan couldn't keep his hands off nace in plastika as usual

bojan did the kakaka in carpe diem like he used to! but jure didn't come out at the end of it and they didn't do the hearts! it was very sad

it was someone's birthday and bojan sang a cute improvised happy birthday to them during umazane misli

literally the whole first half of umazane misli was jan and nace messing around - jan put a tiny fake hand on one of his guitar's tuning pegs and nace high fived it twice. he was turning in to nace to show him the hand and nace turned his bass upright and started playing it like that?

nace and jan just. lay down. in the um karaoke??? and started playing from the floor? NACE FLOWER CROWN! when he sat up and i could see him again i nearly had a heart attack istg.

the tiny fake hands made another appearance while bojan was introducing novi val and jure, nace, and jan all took turns stroking each other's faces with them it was so funny! nace stroked kris with one at one point. jan and nace did a high five with them too!

no pijano tonight sadly. but holy shit jan looks ethereal playing guitar i totally get why nace looks at him all the time lmao

anyway it was awesome and i had an amazing time!!

[taechnological]

anything you want from the new year? or want to do? i dont feel too excited but im kinda just needing it to end just to say its over lol

oh that reminds me i always drop a "what i wanna see bts do this year" list on jan 1st every year haha but outside of that..... yeah same i also wanna just get this over with shsjjsj jokes apart, i'm hoping for a promotion at work this year. i'll also move away sometime in 2023 so i hope it goes by smoothly. and tbh i'm not the type to make new year resolutions but istg i better try and improve my irl socializing skills in 2023 🔪 lmaooo i just wish for a year full of mental peace tbh ♡

[kpophubb]

STOP IT.

I WAS DRIVING AROUND AT NIGHT ADMIRING THE CHRISTMAS DECORATIONS IN MY NEIGHBOURHOOD. WHEN I REALISED SOMETHING. AND I STOPPED RIGHT THERE AND STOOD STILL FOR A MINUTE BEFORE I SAW ID SPILT MY DRINK OVER MY PANTS BUT THATS NOT THE POINT☹️💔

MIA BABE. ITS TIME. FOR CHRISTMAS FICS SMDMKDLELMDKXMGLEPPWLWLLDLPPQPQPWLDXKNCN AHAHAHAJAAK X LFLRLELELFKFKOOGE I CANT CHRISTMAS THEMED FICS GET TO ME EVERY TIME I CANT MIAOAISIISISIAIAIAOAAIAIAIAIAISSI 😣💞💞💞❤️‍🔥💖💕💕

ARE YOU DOING ANYTHING FOR CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR? 💞💞 IM THINKING OF STAYING IN AND MAKING CAKE AAAAH I LOVE CHRISTMAS 😡 🫶

but ily more 😏

Pls pia Christmas decorations are my favourite too 🎄🎅❤️ if you happen to take pictures of Christmas decorations please drop some on my ask🥹 I love to see the beautiful Christmas time festive mood sm!! AND CAKE YOU BAKE?! HELLO? What a wifey you are IM DIALING JUNGWON’S NO. TO PICK YOU UP RN ☎️

WHY CANNOT YOU SEND SOME FOR ME😭 istg if I could spend Christmas w you I’d run over w matchy jungwon pcs for the both of us and get so mushy mushy w you🥰 bc ugh ily?! You’re SAURRRR ADORABLEEEE!!

Christmas fic?🤭 mhm a kissing under the mistletoe jungwon fic doesn’t sound bad aye?👀 I’m not sure if I’ll be writing one but if I do it will be late or before (cause I’m leaving for a trip on the 21st and coming back home on jan 1st or sth T-T) anyway, ima share my fav Christmas fics w you for sure and make a Recs list as soon as I get back 🥹🫶🏻 we also need to scream over any new enhypen content that might drop during the holidays?😍😳 since I can’t dress up that day and be active I already wore my Santa Claus sweater and dressed up the other day and made sure to take selfies Bahaha

[boyfhee]

soo, jan 2020 i was addicted to watching funny videos on youtube, like a compilation of them. then i discovered bts funny videos or bts on cracka nd then they were so funny istg i still remember even laughing to them in my sleep.

then feb 2020 i actually search up who bts were since i have been watching their funny videos. for a month i thought they were comedians 😆 who make a living. and i actually see they a kpop group.

that's how i came across kpop, i wouldnt say my first comeback was on because the day i started bts, on era started. my first cb with them was dynamite and i never thought bts would become a world wide sensation :0 like how??? i love them

and my first kdrama, obviously TRUE BEAUTY!!! are team seojun or team suho ??? i am team seojun!! and then i saw 2521 and business proposal in 2022 after watching true beauty in 2020. such a long gap ;-;

my first bias is kim namjoon and then later in june when iland profiles were released, i knew that my 02z were my babes and jayhoon is my one and only unit. but in iland pt2, i inclined emotionally more towards jay </3 he is my heartbreaker :(

my first anime would be jjk, my friend forced me to watch anime so i started like sept 2023, so recently. megumi is my fav but gonna hate sukuna, stupid bitch :( and i live for studio ghibli films, makota shinkai movies too :( they are comffort 🫶🏼

sadly, i don't collect any kpop merch or albums but i have spy x family manga volumes till the last recent one 😁😁 my mom challenged me that if i secure first rank in my college semi finals, she said she would buy me as my bday gift :] and guess what,?? i was the only one who scored 75/75 in maths A and B 😤

these are my firsts btw. do you have anymore firsts rather than these, like love??? 😊

— lover club anon <33

bts as comedians TT these idols can very well be comedians cause they are so effortlessly funny lmfao .. also me too ^^ i became an engene in dimension : answer era but only a few days in or around the comeback, my first was manifesto :O and with bts .. i don't remember :'>

i've never watched true beauty O_O i started it but got bored and dropped it .. but i've seen seojun clips and i definitely support them, also because i lowkey am familiar with the storyline since i've read the webtoon + it's a bit predictable. but, i LOVED 2521, made me cry so much .. and 20th century girl too TT my heart was in pieces, i wrote so much angst during that time hehe and since you've watched business proposal, PLEASE READ THE MANHWA 🙏🙏🙏🙏 it's 100 cuter, better, funnier >< they even have kids omfg .. the drama is no doubt amazing but it can never top the manhwa for me

speaking for manhwas .. do you read them? or webtoons? i was a huge fan of them even before getting into kpop and all but my interest has been wavering lately .. trying to get back into them !

i don't think i had a bias in exo / nct at first because i wasn't really familiar with all this stuff ?? besides, i only listened to their music and didn't watch their other vids .. but now, my bias in nct is renjun TT love him sm, can we just free him from the sasaengs :/ and bias in enhypen is jay, obviously TT i have so many reason, but it's mostly because i like his mindset ( also he's hot as well i feel like i need to be lobotomized whenever i look at him )

my first anime was haikyuu, and of course cause my friends forced me as well .. then i watched jjk which i absolutely love, sk8 to infinity, ohshc, free!, assassination classroom— then i sort of lost interest and switched to studio ghibli and other movies. forest of fireflies is still my favourite and broke my heart a million times TT i took a break from all that too before getting into spy x family and my most recent one is my happy marriage and romantic killer, that i'm planning to watch

i don't have kpop merch either .. i had the option to buy the orange blood album last year but my smartass said she'd rather buy crime and punishment and a few other books that i haven't read yet, mind you.

also my first love erm ... i don't think i've had anything so serious for it to be 'love' ( i don't play around when it comes to that word ) but i've had two boyfriends and one of them was exhibit a for why men suck !!! bro had no sense of personal space and violated my privacy SO MANY TIMES. 10/10 not recommended. although my first bf was sweet and it was lowkey dream come true type of relationship, i'm sad we moved to different cities and don't talk anymore despite being in touch TT do you have a first love or something?

[rottnstrwberriez]

ok so i will just start by saying i do not mean to insult, make fun of or disrespect the person behind this, this is also the reason why i won’t say what account i am talking about but i just found the funniest fucking ASMR ever.

actually i didn’t ‘just’ find it, this story goes way back to like jan 2023 or something.

me and my cousin were scrolling ok tiktok while at my grandpa’s cause we were bored af and had nothing to do. we stumble across this extremely confusing tiktok live, one of those asmr channels that cleans up those silicone mouths people try makeup looks on.

the live lags a lot so there are times when they quit streaming and we decided to scroll trough his account and BOY OH BOY

this person is my savior

so this whole thing is in italian but i’ll try to explain it and translate everything well. they have this storyline with these two sisters, i remember only the name of one of the two: Nebula. i don’t remember much but there is SO MUCH DRAMA

this could make up a series of 9 books and 5 movies istg

[luxerana]

I'm not sticking to any diet for December except eating/drinking things I know are like lax's for me whenever I feel stopped up (like dude I got my gallbladder out and monster gives me the sh!ts it's so hard to be an alt girly out here) - it's the holidays! 😁 the disorder will still be here in jan. Rn I just tell her be quiet as best as I can and enjoy the little things :) and sh!t my brains out all month 💀

omg anon 😭 I swear I didn’t ignore this I just didn’t get any notification

(also first ask ever!!!!! THANK YOU :D)

December was soooo fucking difficult 😭 and now my body needs to recalibrate and get used to what I was doing before. I definitely feel you we anas all have the same problem right now istg

I don’t really have any lax’s tho :/ recommendations would be great tho!!

[brothalynchhung]

2023 overview

im such a loyal person man LMAOOO i still specfically come back here to do this lool anyways this year was fucking insane like FUCKING insane and long as hell... grniguehrsi

i think i started the year a lil depressed cuz i was working that fuckass job

lets seee

i think jan 2023 was nothing but me suffering through that fuck ass job, gyming, etc.,

that old apt ahahah i mean tbh it was nice but too big and TOO SECLUDED omg

actually the way i spent a whole year so isolated from society was crazy what the fawk

i dont even think i got much out of it like self improvement wise

maybe japanese? guitar? but that came only at the end

i guess playing ps5... lol -_-

i gained so much weight cuz of depression and that stressful ass job

the way i think majority of that weight was just the AMOUNT OF CORTISOL BUILD UP I HAD

anyways jan was whatever

then i went to umrah in feb which was stressful cuz the amount of ppl and the BUGS man god

this whole time i thought my prayers werent answers but they were tbh i had a good year even if there was struggles

i didnt get gl yet but APPARENTLY thats too much to ask for

whatever

then barcelona lMAOOO which was okay!! i think i would have obv enjoyed it more if i wasnt there for work but i mean still it was just another european city

my spanish was ass

i was too paranoid about someone jacking my phone lol

survived tho

ate some GOOD ASS FOOD. omg best food ever

and the sangriaasss omg

it was worth it being the canon event of me getting fired LMAO

hoenstly was a lil ugly ass bitch that co founder was fuck him fr

loser highkey

anywho

so spain barcelona and saudi 2 countries down within the first 3months of the year

tbh basically up until june majority of my year was this stupid ass job travelling here and there complaining about that ugly ass bitch

omg what a shaytan that man was holyshit and not like a powerful shaytan more like a whiny weak insecure life sucking pitiful pathetic piece of shit shaytan the one that lowers the energies of everything around it

pitiful ass human fr im so happy that shit got out of my life

that was the best thing to happen to me this year like not exclusively him but the whole job too LOL

like thanks for the pay and travel finessed the fuck out all tbh BYE

chaper closed thank god

and whats crazy is that the SECOND after that meeting i forgot about it all lMFAOOOO LIKE I WAS READYY

march was cool i finally got to go back to america

actually march lowkey changed my life

texas was so much fun omg i miss america man americans are nice just h8 their govt

sxsw!!! DUDE ive always wanted to go and GOT TO ALL under someone elses coin LMFAOOOOOO

met cool ppl ig, saw cool things, film and tv industry - coool cool cool

and i didnt rlly have to do shit there LMAO

anyways then went to houston where nadas friend HELD IT DOWNNNNN

like finally omg i got to get hiiii FINALLY

RODEO HIGH VEGAN SOUL FOOD HIGH

THE FOOD WAS SO GOOD THE RECORD SHOPPING WAS SEXY

so good

then i came back and i was mad depressed cuz i should be out there working and learning from ppl who like the shit as me not stuck out the middle of FUCK ASS NOWHERE DOING NOTHING

which yeah i think that like lit the fire out of my ass about how much i hated the job and place and cuz ad was like quarantine istg

thennn hmm april..OH YEAH JAPAN

BASICALLY ONCE I GOT BACK IT WAS HELL DEALING WITH THAT FUCK ASS JOB CUZ OF THE STUPID ASS.

i dont even remember waht the bullshit ass term is

uhhh i forget lMAOOO that stupid bullshit where i was PERFORMANCE PLANNN

stupid as fuck what kind of corporate fake working society term is that omfg

AND FOR NOTHING BUT THAT THING IN BARCELONA WHERE I DIDNT GO TO SOME BULLSHIT

i dont care was worth it like fuck yeah bitch!! i really am using yall to fuck around and travel cuz THIS STUPID ASS JOB IS NOT MY FUTURE

and it isint omg its like it never exsited LMFAO

anyways that stressed me out but thank god i had edibles lmao

DUHA HELD IT DOWNN

mmm then i survived to japan

I WENT TO JAPAN THIS YEAR OMFG AFTER YEARS!!! YEARSSSS!!! OF DREAMING ABOUT JAPAN!!! I GOT TO GO

honestly me going to japan was what made this year like this def had to be one of the best years of my life just for that on its own

actually like yeah this def was oddly enough one of the best years of my life?

emotionally hell yes but everything else was good

jsut stupid self-inflicted stress (minus that fuck ass job)

anyways japan was amazing left it wanting to learn the language and AM

i cant wait to go back

and the fact i hit tokyo kyoto and osaka all at once omg amazing

nintendo world 😭 shibuya 😭 just kyoto in general 😭

i bought so much omg

THE FOOD OMG THEIUEHGSEIUH

i had so much good food this year lmao barcelona, japan, texas 🤪

anywhoo after that i basically dont remember much of may like it was just tryna get through the shit and deal with that stupid ass plan and talking to that dumb bitch

which i punked off and he didnt like like fuck u u ugly untalented waste of life ? im not talking nice to u or respecting your bitch ass

and he think getting rid of me was a slap in the face as if that wasnt exactly what i wanted LMFAOOO

3 months leave with pay ??? and i scammed yall w the ticket price?? LOOOOOL oKAYYY THANKS!!!

CHAPTER CLOSED

so basically june they let me gooo true freedom then had the best month of my life in thailand which was FUCKKINGGG MAAZINGGG

omg thailand was so much fun i felt so free

the most free and most happy i ever felt in my life

krabi .. rayleh beach omg the weed and shrooms on the beach 😭

seriously i had no one in my face, no bitches, no work, money, freedom, time, no problems NOTHING

i seriously think those few days in krabi were the happiest moments of my life ever

like pure freedom and security and happiness in ever sense of each word

soooo grateful

and i deserved it after all the stupid ass stress that stupid ass job put me through

and the whole time i was there i was just so grateful i never felt that much gratitude in my life ever

thailand in general was fun omg i bought so much stuff i loved bangkok

i just love travelling man seriously im just built to travel around discover and learn about the world i love connected with the world and exploring and adventuring i hate being stuck in a place

all i ever want to do is travel and live like really LIVE

hate work

anywho right after i came back to my freedom then basically just chilled until i had to go to canada

which was 🙄

listen - ottawa was surprisingly okay actually i enjoyed it, i smoked, i walked around listening to y2k music, stayed at home all cozy, appreciated the nature and the nostalgia lmaoo even chilling w lina and her cousins was fun

but toronto -_- listen im never going to forgive that bitch for throwing me out and those other hoes for not being there for me

shout out to p tho lol

all i wanted to do was leave istg

toronto was a lil boring but i was also just mad cuz all my friends were all

CUT OFFFFF ill never see yall again except maybe nadine and p

for once ottawa was better than toronto

anyways i think im 1000% done w toronto

CHAPTER CLOSED

thank god finally

oh yeah i started a youtube account that im trying to take seriously i guess LOL

i still need to keep going and working on it but its fun

OH YEAH CHICAGOO

LOLLAAPALOOZAAA

yeah thank god that crazy bitch didnt come but omg what a waste of a ticket but anyways her L not mine

just thankful that i had the money for all of this -_- shout out that fuck ass job i guess lmao

part 2... ?

[maxxieal]

Day 1

[ 1/1/2023 ]

Today is a new me, changing my personality i didn't like. Like being too loud, laughing too much and chatting too much, i wanna be so quiet for a while.

Somehow, i feel off about them and i don't know why. This feeling is same as what happened last December 2021 too like staying away from everyone and stay to that special friend who's been there for you all those times. I wanna be with her too, i wanna enjoy those times we can't do due to pandemic. I ain't comfortable with my "friends" right now, it's just i can't vibe with them. Sometimes they rely on me which is tiring too, why always me? I really regret to be with you guys when we became a trio like my life become hell. Why the fuck i helped you for that? WHY THE FUCK NA TINULUNGAN KITA, IPAGTANGGOL KITA? FUCK THIS SHIT , WHY IM WITH YOU GUYS ? I WISH I WILL HAVE A CHSNCE TO GO BACK IN TIME SO I CAN RESTART EVERYTING I MADE A MISTAKES.

Im a type of friend who gets tired with all of your shit.. too:(

I kept overthinking.. mostly of him.. Im being uncomfortable and annoyed for some reason. Istg, if i didn't answer him i'll never be in relationship again. ITS TOO ANNOYING TO UPDATE EVERY SINGLE THING IM DOING, CAN YOU JUST FUCKING TRUST ME? CANT YOU SEE IM TRYING TO HAVE FUN WITH MY RELATIVES AND MYSELF TOO!? HOW IMMATURE YOU ARE WHEN YOU ARE OLDER THAN US? Bro you aew almost 2 years away from being an 18 years old yet you still act like a fucking child. All i want for this vacation is to enjoy my life alone without any classmates of mine in this school. All i want is my old friend and my family in this break. And not all the time i have time with y'all shits so get the fuck outta here and let me have my peace.

Anyways so, i still want to drink but wala ng beer 🥲 This was the beer btw, it taste like a softdrink. Inubos ko isang bottle but this bubbles there? I accidentally did smthng i didnt know, i was quietly enjoying it lmao

About Kpop, PLEASE LMAO GALAW GALAW NAMAN JAN KASI PUTCHA NA DRA-DRY AKO . Please bring back the old me na super addict sa phase na to even sa Anime lmaossosiso

But is this the sign na.. am i getting older? Like... there's a time na i wanna.. nvmd

I also finished Alice in the borderland S1 so in S2 , im already on ep 3 or 4 ig? I forgot cause i feel like im gonna throw out in any minute rn 😭 Btw, bye. HWHAHAHAH

Edit :

So i already finished the whole series right after 4pm , Its was so good! I cried at the end though, the only thing i could say is every person cards is so damn insane! unlike the number cards. ITS FUCKING INSANE THOUGH, Thanks god to Usagi , she's the best! She knew Mira manipulating Arisu to quit the game so she did her best to tell him na don't listen to her. Bitch this Mira is getting on my nerve like SHE SO ARTE WHEN SPEAKING AND SHE EVEN PINAHAHABA UNG KWENTO DI PA DIRECT TO THE POINT. I WANNA STUB HER TO DEATH LMAOEJSIWBJSJA.

After i finished the whole series, lets move to the other point. I opened up to my mother earth since i really don't want to feel nervous eh, i wanna end everything to the both of my friends hahaha, but need ko talaga makisama 'til the end hahahhaa.

I also tell that na he is courting me, but i don't want though. I find something i don't like haha, it feels like he can't do anything what i wanted to achive for life. So i'll be independent and not leaning to others though, men is shit btw hwhauwhwh.

I realize its not worthy to be in relationship so fast, its so kadiri na somehow. Im making him hate me for that shit