#which is guaranteed to suck bc ofc it will suck

[orv-quotes-tournament]

I find it really funny when you reblog something by accident in this blog, because (although I cannot see it because you delete it later) I always am preparing myself mentally for another painful quote before realizing there were no new polls

KJDSHFGKDFHGKJDFHG I THOUGHT I WAS BEING SLICK DELETING MY ACCIDENTAL REBLOGS SO FAST

this made me laugh so much 😭 ive never used a side blog before so i keep tripping up but i'm crying at the idea that i'm making people brace themselves for more angst

[the-cookie-of-doom]

hmm here's a prompt -- and no pressure to do this one if you don't want to!

porsche enlisting kim's help to find a gift for kinn. that's what porsche tells kim, anyway (he just wants to get to know kim a little better).

Anything for you, my friend! I have clinical in like an hour so I'm not going to finish this, so here's part 1 of Five Things Porsche Learns About Kim (bc ofc this is going to be a whole Thing)

When Porsche puts his mind to something, nothing can stop him. He's stubborn that way. Him and Porchay wouldn't have survived if he wasn't. Life has been throwing cheap shots at Porsche for his entire life; he's learned to roll with the punches and come up swinging, grinning all the while.

All that to say, he gets what he wants. And right now, he's decided what he wants, is a relationship with his little brother's boyfriend. Because there's nothing Porsche is more stubborn about than family, and that's what they are, now, whether he likes it or not.

Kimhan Theerapanyakul is about to learn the hard way that the Kittisawats are a package deal.

The first thing Porsche learns about Kim is that he's a squirrely little bastard. He weasels his phone number out of Chay - after finding out that Kinn didn't have it saved in his own phone, which will be a conversation for later - but Kim doesn't any answer any of the flurry of phone calls and texts that Porsche hurls his own way. Apparently, according to Porchay, Kim has memorized all the numbers of everyone important enough to be worth his time, and doesn't bother with anyone else.

What if someone has to borrow a phone? Porsche had asked.

Sucks to be them, Chay replied, with a silly smile that might mean he's kidding, or it might mean he knows exactly how ridiculous Kim is being, but still somehow likes him anyway. Porsche would prefer the former but he's almost certain it's the latter, and he's trying to figure out exactly why Chay would like him so much.

Because as far as Porsche can tell? Kim is more akin to a feral cat than anything else. Keeps his distance, sullenly watches Porsche anytime they happen to be in the same room, looking away only to scan for the nearest exit - which he takes at the earliest opportunity - and Porsche is certain Kim has actually hissed at him once. Probably not.

Since Kim won't answer unknown numbers, Porsche is forced to stoop to his level. Kinn's phone is of course out of the question, which only leaves one other person, at least only one Porsche can easily access, guaranteed to have it.

He's holding a struggling Porchay in a headlock while the phone dials. It only rings once.

"Hello, love," Kim greets, his voice warm and syrupy and so, so fond that Porsche has to gag, just to see the way his brother flushes.

"I'm sorry, Kim!" Porchay shouts. He's still struggling, digging his hands into Porsche's sides. "I tried to stop him!"

"Porsche." And there it is, that flat tone Porsche is used to.

"Hi, Kim, how's it going?" he asks casually.

"Goodbye.

"Wait, wait, wait!" It's no use. The line is already dead. Porsche releases his brother with a groan, and doesn't fight it when Chay snatches back his phone. "Why does he have to be so difficult?"

"Kim doesn't like being cornered, hia," Chay scolds him. "If you just talked to him like a normal person-"

"He won't let me! He keeps running!"

"You're intimidating!" Porsche doesn't believe that for a second. If Kinn wasn't intimated by him, no way his murderous little brother way. "Maybe you're coming on too strong? He probably think you're gonna kill him for, y'know..."

"No, I don't know." Porsche side-eyes Chay, who's no longer making eye contact. "Do I need to kill him?"

"No!"

"Should I want to?"

"Hia, No!" Chay throws his hands up. "See! This is why he won't talk to you! You're embarrassing."

"Good. Also, I don't care. I want to talk to him, and unless he wants me to lock you in your room and forbit you from seeing each other for the rest of your life, he better cooperate."

Chay lets out a sigh like the weight of all the world is bearing down on him. "I'll talk to him," he mumbles, sullen.

[therotatedsock]

Why Temporary Amnesia With Established Relationship Is The Best Fanfic Trope

It's a spectacularly underrated perfect mix of all best tropes. And yet it never seems to make the cut whenever big tropes are being discussed!

While some tropes are just niche and that's part of thier charm, this one has potential to take over one of the top 5 trope spot if given a chance. And I will tell you 10 reasons why:

1. We get angst obviously. Because hello, the love of my life forgot me? (After almost dying in an accident, presumably. a n g s t)

2. We get both established and developing relationship at once!! What other trope allows that? Huh??

3. We might also get enemies to lovers because the one who forgot might not appreciate being forced to live with a stranger to "remember by exposure". Also they might only remember the rocky start. So many possibilities.

4. We also get Hurt/Comfort for the one who remembers. Like what do you mean that you don't remember my favourite food? What do you mean you don't knOW IF YOU WANNA REMEMBER!?!

5. We get a perfect setup for SO MANY tropes without sacrificing logic and reason to the fanfic gods.

Like the one bed trope. Ofc they have one bed, they were married/engaged/together.

6. Fake/pretend relationship? Oh no! We have to attend this family wedding and everyone and thier pet duck knows we love each other! Hurry up and suck my face off!

7. Fluff? Hey babe? See our photos on which you look at me like I hung the stars in the sky? Isn't that amazing? Leave the dishes for later, let's cuddle on the couch and fall asleep so our friends can tease us later.

8. Denial. Do you want to cook now or should we order takeout pretend that you haven't fallen in love with me all over again? Ok, takeout it is then.

9. We get an almost guaranteed angst with a happy ending bc they're already in love, one just forgot temporarily! (bc some authors are just sadistic.)

10. Smut? Add as much or as less as you want. None? A pinch? Vanilla extract? Choose your amount. It makes sense literally all the ways. They're not? Ofc it would be too heartbreaking and weird. They are? Ofc it might help with the memories! (And besides they got together for a reason)

...and much much more!

With this, I conclude my thesis. I hope I have convinced you. And if not, stop lying. The conclusion of this conclusion is that I conclude that Temporary Amnesia with Established Relationship is the best trope. Thus, this conclusion is now fully concluded.

Thankyou for concludin- um reading.

[sunlightandsuffering]

lys, hi. this video randomly popped up on my fb -- yes, it's the most accessible socmed platform where im from - feed (a friend shared it), and i just got so sad again.

https://www.facebook.com/share/v/neA4nN4tMTANdAwo/?mibextid=uSdriS

obviously, this is fiction, right? and i usually am so good at releasing it all out once im done internalizing it in my head. it's very stressful lol but i think it makes media content enjoyable, at least for this sort of media. the song isn't really something i've given a second listen - or even a full listen - but oh it works so well for this scene.

but i just get so sad, so incredibly sad whenever i think about canon eremika. as a sucker for well-meaning (lol) angst, their story was so beautifully written, but damn. i think i said this in an ask years ago...that i read your work as some sort of escapism, like 'oh it ends well for both of them' kind of thing. i dont ever do that with other anime/manga/fandom-centric entertainment etc; thinking about them just hurts a bit too much for an irl feeling. i need to think of them happy and flirty and cranky and just alive in that silly little place in my head reserved for media consumption. little nico doesnt hurt too

tbh, we cant really ask for canonical representations right? most writers dont write them that way anyway, but i feel like i could see canon eremika in your works, if they were ever given the chance to live out different lives in different worlds, haha. ig that's what happens when the emotional range has been fleshed out in canon material (tho at what cost??).

until know, i still cant laugh at those memes of mikasa developing an attachment to birds and whatnot because it's just really sad. lol like the dark humor doesn't work for me here.

anyway, that's all! i hope you're doing ok. maybe im just feeling blue because i just had a session of root canal treatment and the cost + post-session pain make me want to sob too. considering a dental implant after all this because if im going to go thru this, might as well do it for something that's guaranteed to last lifetime (with good bones & proper care ofc)

sending you my love, in the most non-weird way, if that's possible haha

AWW ANON SENDING U MY LOVE RIGHT BACK !!! I have never had a root canal but I think both my parents have and they fucking suck from the sounds of it, so wishing you a speedy recovery!!

oh god the fucking song tho 😂😭 i don't think ur alone, that song kind of hits different, I feel like I saw it on insta reels or something recently and I was definitely crying. I ALSO JUST CRY A LOT THO !! I was crying bc I watched the fast and the furious the other day , like who am I?? Media has the ability to bring it out in you!! Especialyl AOT!! ACTUALLY U KNOW WHAT THO IT WAS ANGEL BEATS THAT WAS MAKING ME SOB THE OTHER DAY, I ABSOLUTELTY SOBBED!!

I think I have emotionally removed myself enough from canon eremika that it doesn't phase me anymore, like I have not and likely will not rewatch AOT ever or any time soon at the very least because I just have no desire to put myself thru it bc I am simply too attached!

As far as me writing canon eremika goes, as I always say, never say never! So far, captain Eren is the closest I'm getting LOL! Altho I think i do have a few canon EM drabbles somewhere in the depths of my blog! I would like to write canon EM, but i don't know how i'd do it tbh. Like how I could spin a happy ending for them other than cabin EM which I did attempt but didn't finish as usual!! you never know what type of garbage I'll cook up tho 😂

[solaaresque]

hi hi reze i started playing arknights for u 🫶 i’m kinda obsessed with the gameplay bc its like one of those ads where you can’t let the enemy break your wall (?? i hope you know what i mean 😭). it would be so slay of you to give me ur friend tag 😚

also did not know it was a gacha so now it’s another game for me to suffer through 👍 though i did get two 6-stars on the beginner banner on my first ten pull but i have no idea what the rate is so yuh!

um i’m tired but i really need to turn in this assignment (on a movie i didn’t watch 😭 and i’m just procrastinating so hard rn) but make sure you don’t go to bed too late, drink water, and practice self-love 💗🫶😛 (that emoji is so weird but it’s funny to me)

hi hi lee !! oh my god i am so honoured <3 and yes yes the gameplay is sooo fun but it kinda sucks cause you have to think ?? about strats ?? (and yeah i get what you mean) AND YES YES OFC !! gimme a sec to find it on my phone and i'll add it here hehe :3

OH OH THAT'S GREAT which two did you get?? i also got two but it was a dupe so now i have pot1 hoshiguma lol (not that i'm complaining!!) the gacha rates for ak are kinda shitty though fair warning cause you aren't guaranteed until 300 pulls and only your first 10 pull on every banner guarantees you a 5* or higher which means every pull after your first 10 could literally just be all 3*-4*s :(

NOOO omg i hope you can finish your assignment on time !! and try not to stay up too late?? and ofc i will !! but same to you okay?? <3

[seelestia]

oh goodness. i apologize this is late my brain has been VERY SCRAMBLED AS OF LATE 🫠🫠 anywayss tyy,,im still suffering from social stress actually so :/ not much i can do abt it. also i hope ayato ended up pampering u after all that as well shfjwjjdw (he did right-) but yes! i do prefer more quiet and intimate just to be with bedo tbh,,i just love how observant and attentive he is to my needs. gosh he's so sweet. i gib him all the kithes. ~Lycoris

NOOO, LY, YOUR BRAIN ISN'T EGGS! DON'T LET THE WORLD SCRAMBLE IT D; (yk bcs scrambled eggs?? fjkskfs, cyno told me it'd "guarantee" cheering you up a little 🫂 /lh)

social stress sucks, especially if the source is school since you're surrounded by people most of the time there <//3 is there any routines that you can do to help ease the stress out when you're there?? like having some 'me time' during recess, etc. i hope it gets better soon for you, ly! :(

here's some modern!au at school with your selfships that i thought of. wishing this can help lift your spirits for a bit! <3

albedo who offers you his hand and leads you to the rooftop so the two of you can take some time away from the crowds together. sometimes, he even locks the door to the rooftop from the outside to prevent people from intruding. it's fine, they'd probably just think that the rooftop is "closed for the day" (when it really is just him /lh). don't worry, according to albedo's words, "this is completely legal and it guarantees privacy."

(bonus: albedo who always reserves a corner in every piece of paper he has to sketch you. when you flip through his notebook, there's just a doodle of you on the bottom right of each page. "i'm afraid it's become a habit i don't wish to get rid of," he admits. how can he say that with such a pretty smile on his face.)

cyno who likes putting your hands into his pockets or his hands in your pockets. as long as he can hold your hands and there's pockets, he doesn't mind either. cyno says that he does this "because it feels nice", but it's probably so he can bury his face on your shoulder and fall asleep. if people send you weird looks, he'll shoot those back tenfolds. this guy is a loyal bodyguard!

tighnari who lends you his notes without even needing you to ask for them. strangely enough, you're surprised to find out that he drew smiley faces and adorable flowers as decorations. tighnari claims it's "to make the notes more immersive", but the unspoken truth is that he looks forward to see the way you smile when you see those doodles. you and only you get to see these notes, after all <3

gorou who likes preparing packed lunches or homemade bentos for you. it's no hassle at all, he really enjoys preparing these for you! knowing that he is doing something for you fills his chest with pride and affection. no, no, he definitely doesn't try his hardest to make sure the tiny whiskers on the bunny-shaped onigiris look good. not at all! (/lh)

ofc, your vibes are super wholesome! OH AND now that i think abt it, you also remind me of collei! it's most likely because of the recent windblume event where collei visited mondstadt and both she + sucrose were the representatives of us introverts 😭 oh, idk if you're a genshin player, but do tell me! if you do tho, which five-stars do you currently have?? is— is albedo one of them. (/lh) and if you don't play genshin, that's totally A-okay, dw! ;D

aaaa, ty! i find that i channel a lot of bubbly puppy energy, hehe. it kinda fits because i'm like a puppy who loves nudging my f/o's how with ayato as a spoiled fox / cat, and scara is a grumpy and hissy cat. i'm actually torn abt heizou but i think he might be an energetic chinchilla or smth. (/lh)

i couldn't find a sophibedo art but i found a pretty one for HOWLBEDO. HEHEHHE >:3c

sophibedo may not be as feisty as sophie, but he just can be stubbornly curious and humble at the same time !! just imagine sophibedo being stubborn and staring at you unrelentingly... yk, when someone is trying to be intimidating but they just end up looking cute instead, jfjejkdkkwek.

AWWW, THANK YOU, LY! it always makes me super happy to know that others enjoy my works, especially you (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠) (/g) i love writing banters with scara because he's so annoying it makes me wanna throw a pillow at him (/aff) and heh, i hope you can feel the liddol serotonin boost rushing thru you when you look at bobas and get reminded of me and 'yato! ;D

dw, tighnari flicks you just to pull you closer the next second. what an underhanded trick (/lh)

eating popcorn as i watch a bunny trying to provoke a fennec fox and gets gently flicked with the poofy tail. (/lh) which reminds me that tighnari canonically takes care and grooms his tail really well! does he let you lay your head on it sometimes?? maybe, even snuggle it??? that sounds like the softest makeshift pillow you'll ever get 🤭

and i can see that the general mahamatra is a clingy one, judging by how he's hanging off of your arm rn. (/lh) A SMOL BUNNY THAT DOESN'T NOM NOM ON CARROTS... what a fascinating little floof! would you eat cookies if they're carrot-shaped. (/j) also, random but why do i have the feeling that cyno dislikes veggies and tries to avoid them sneakily at the dinner table—

"oh?" the expression on tighnari's face was nothing short of amused. he placed a hand on top of your head, an act that would've been considered offensive if done to a species with animalistic ears on their head like the forest ranger himself — but he knew you were an exception. and so, with gloved fingers, tighnari ruffled your hair gently as he huffed an affectionate sigh, "i didn't think you'd admit to being a brat so quickly."

("you're going to keep this up, aren't you? oh, i can tell my sanity is in danger already," he facepalms. but you have the feeling that he doesn't sound as serious as he makes himself out to be.)

i feel like tighnari can be so cheeky in private and i fear for you, ly. what if you turn to goo again, no— (/lh) JFKSKSKS BOTH YOU AND GOROU ARE SO WHOLESOME. like so cute scara tells me he's gonna puke just looking at the two of you scara, be nice. (don't mind his analogy, that just means your cuteness as a couple is thru the roof /aff) 🤭

dw, heizou gave me compensation in the form of hanging from my arm the whole day and treating me to stuff. i'm more amused by it tho, in a "now ik you talk to animals like a reporter and i'm never gonna live it down" way, hehehe. yeahhh! we're all just a bunch of nerds having drinks and checking out the books we bought. it's a book club atp (/j)

i personally think scara would be sorta interested in going to a lego store for some reason LMAOAOAO

oooo, somewhere artsy! any specific places in mind? my first thought is pottery classes for some reason fjkekdkk. oh, how chaotic that'd be! i think cyno might get frustrated when his clay plops and he just goes, "this is just a minor obstacle in my path to making the best pottery ever." he starts going there everyday afterwards. cyno can be childishly competitive like that. tcg??? no, pottery. (/j)

AWW, THAT'S SO CUTE. let me tell you this right here and now, cyno would be so proud of that apron! like super proud, the 'i'm gonna make excuses just to wear this' type of proud. embarrassed? what do you mean, embarrassed? the general mahamatra doesn't know the definition of shame, it's something his bunny made him and he's gonna cherish it till the end of time. people who disagree can file their complaints to the akademiya, smh. (/lh)

as long as you and cyno don't start a flour fight and the kitchen is all right in the end, it's all good. i'm sure tighnari and albedo agree with me (/j) btw, ly, how would you rank your boys in the kitchen?? >:3c

if it were me, i'd rank mine like this (hehe):

1. scara !! surprised or not, he's canonically good at cooking and i find that funny in a cute way he gets so offended when others look so shocked like since when does people with an attitude can't cook?? (/lh). more civil in the kitchen too because "there're places to pick a fight and it's not here, you idiot."

2. heizou !! his cooking skills may not be as impressive as scara's, but i'd say sufficient enough <3 he makes good sandwiches for a quick picnic break! but likes whining that his arms are 'sore' so his 'knight in shining armor (me)' to help him out, hmph. (/aff)

3. ayato !! he can't cook and should not be allowed in the kitchen. i swear, 'yato views the kitchen as a laboratory because instead of making edible food, he puts stuff into the pot like a witch brewing potions 😭 banned from the kitchen forever. (/j)

and dw abt chonking off the brainrot! you can even take a break in the middle of it >:) my inbox is here to stay and i don't want you to feel like you have to answer all of them in one sitting. take your time! ;D 🫂 (/gen)

heheee, good! i'm glad to see you feeling a bit better after a break (⁠ʃ⁠ƪ⁠＾o＾) oooo, boba and cookies 'n cream! why is it so cute that boba and oreos happen to be round-shaped, hdjjejfke. ayato added that he thinks you're cultured for your likes 🤭 also, idk why but i always feel like snickerdoodles are the face of cookies?? like when people say cookies, they just come to my mind first! (/pos) + maybe snickerdoodles are a comfort food/pastry for you?? that's really cute, it reminds me of hot chocolate and resting by the hearth during winter (>_<) what's your fav season btw, ly?? >:3c

blueberry muffins and ice cream croissants make my taste sound too fancy for some reason, i swear, i'm a simple gal because desserts aside, sandwiches with extra chicken slices in them make me vv happy too— (/lh)

DON'T WORRY, i can fix the inbox's door right back up with ayato's money !! (/lh)

PINKBEDO FOR THE WINNNN. ly, instead of albedo, let's just call him strawbedo 🤭 atp, his pretty blonde hair is just a canvas for anyone to put any colors on. it's just too paintable for its own good (/aff)

i bet klee will love strawbedo sm she'll start telling him to lean down so she can give him a pat!! this is so cute. klee and ly 🤝 strawbedo lovers <3

[fbfh]

ricky bowen oral hcs

As per ushe all characters are aged 18+ for nsfw content!!! Minors obviously dni this is not for you!!!!

(also reader has coochie)

This is going to be outrageously lemon scented and flavored

Let’s get started cause i’m already out of breath thinking about this

firST OF FUCKING ALL

ORAL SKILLS FOR DAYS

HE LITERALLY CANT GET FAR UP ENOUGH INSIDE YOU

HE WILL NOT BE SATISFIED UNTIL HE IS BRUSHING UP AGAINST YOUR CERVIX

He will shove his face so far into your pussy

Like he wants to be as close and deep as physically possible

He plays to win. Either two fingers n tongue or three fingers and he’s sucking on your clit like hard candy.

He is totally the type to not be satisfied unless you’ve cum at least three times

Usually a few more than that

Yk that tiktok I always reference “everyone wants a big guy who eats a lot until you get one then it’s nooo i’m still sore from last night”

….

It’s cause he’s a service top

Who are we kidding

Have you met him????

By now he probably has a couple tattoos

Most of which were doodles you drew on him that he got tattooed on before it washed off

More on that later

Some of which are on his fingers

He will 100% see how many tattoos deep he can get before you’re a writing mess

(hint: it’s not many he’s very very good at this)

You taste so good

He literally wants you to sit on his face all the time

He has a bunch of those cheesy “if you’re looking for somewhere to sit my face is comfy” “wow your thighs would make great earmuffs” phrases and shit like that

And he’s willing to use them on you

It’s almost part of your banter at this point

Listen to me when I tell you he can eat a fruit by the foot in record time

He puts those skills to use

He loves going down on you so much

He’ll make you cum twice with his mouth and call it prep

Any excuse to eat you out is one he’ll take

Oh my god oh my god

Don’t let him find out about your g spot

If he figures out how to make you squirt he’ll do so as much as possible

(or actually maybe do)

When he feels you ⭕ 💢⭕ 💢

It drives him in fucking sane

Once in a while he’ll have a hard time pulling out bc of your fucking gorilla grip

He’s not going to lie

It’s really really hot

He’s obsessed with the way you taste too

He literally can not get far up enough into or taste too much of your pussy

He has the tongue dexterity of venom at this point

And years of playing guitar have made him very

Very

Good with his hands

Specifically his fingers

He knows exactly what he’s doing

And exactly how much it affects you

And he’ll just keep doing it

He lives for that shit

Literally can not get enough of it

((obviously this is something you’d discuss beforehand but this is after you’ve talked about it))

Will 60000000000% wake you up with oral

Getting to hear your breathy sleepy little pants????

The way you buck your hips up????

You’re so responsive for him and it makes him go feral

Once you’re up he’ll have you tell him about what kind of dream you were having ‘,:)

While he continues to go down on you ofc

He’ll coax details out of you as you get closer

By the time that you’re grabbing at his hair he knows he’s just about done his job

But he wants to do it again

And again and again

He has to exercise a lot of discipline not to call both of you in sick and stay in bed all day together

Cuddling, watching movies, napping together

And making you cum as many times as physically possible ofc

The thing is once y’all start you don’t want to stop

Which can turn it into a huge gamble on days where you’re really busy

The pros are

Aside from the obvious

You get guaranteed quality time together in the morning before your busy day

The con is you might end up being very late to everything

And having a lot of trouble walking

So yeah it’s a gamble

But you know what

If you have ricky bowen tugging at your clothes and sucking hickies into your chest to muffle his moans and rocking his hips into your thigh

I can almost guarantee that’s a gamble you’d be willing to take

I don’t know who wouldn’t tbh

Enjoy this preview for part two of ricky receiving hcs!! (and an unrelated quote that idk why i put here)

Receiving: "he's so overwhelmed by his love for you and your mouth feels so goddamn good around him like that"

"My boyfriends an actor" "whats he been in" "me :)"

@afidiofobia @aliyahsutherland @hopefullhearts

[fanonical]

on the topic of lgbt+ content in cartoons, i do also want to express how sort of…disheartening? it is to see how fast cartoons have evidently progressed but comparatively live action, more adult targeted lgbt+ media seems to have remained stagnant? and like i obviously wouldn’t want it to be like a “we get one or the other” kind of situation especially bc its so important for kids to see this content and see that its normal and okay! but it just sucks being like 20+ sometimes and so many ppl tout shera as like a pinnacle of wlw tv shows if that makes sense? i mean theres some movies ofc like portrait of a lady on fire and fear street but i hope what im saying kinda makes sense

whilst there is definitely a problem with under-representation of LGBT groups in adult television -- it's not as much as you might think! there are still more wlw than you'd think showing up in TV shows all the time, especially if you know where to look (and especially if you look beyond media with big fandoms on tumblr). for example, i've been watching Feel Good (which features a lot of LGBT characters & themes) and Ghosts (a sitcom about living with ghosts that just happens to have some LGBT characters) which are both absurdly fantastic and i've seen barely any mention of them in fandom spaces.

i suggest opening whatever streaming apps you have and just browsing through the LGBT tag. there will be a lot of guff in there, and a lot of stuff you don't really care about, but i guarantee you'll find some gems worth watching that you're surprised seemingly nobody's talking about

followers, can you recommend our dear Anon here some good LGBT content that isn't in the form of a kids show? particularly some TV shows, particularly stuff that feels worthwhile watching beyond just fandom appeal/for the LGBT characters?

ps: i totally TOTALLY recommend Feel Good

[zhuhongs]

Okayyyy besties, so I’m gonna elaborate on the tags of this post now lmao. Also this obvious but like dont rb

SO when I was in high school i had many issues lmao and the notable one's for this story was that i was passive aggressive to a fault and could rarely if ever call ppl out on their bullshit even if it was egregious (i'm better now <3). AND SECOND that i grew up watching anime and made Being A Girl That Liked Anime my personality. SO loser dudes flocked to me bc i was a mostly conventionally attractive but still obviously “not like other girls” weird girl that liked the same anime. And in most cases I knew more than them about anime which they thoguht was cool and also felt threatened bc i was a girl. SO yea needless to say high school was insufferable for me but like, it was mostly my own design bc i had a weird relationship with wanting attention from guys even though i absolutely loathed most of the guys that liked me. Bc they were Rich White Guys That Liked Anime and said slurs and just sucked in general.

But there was one of these men in particular that was such a completely insufferable incel that somehow ended up being apart of my friend group bc we felt bad for him and he seemed like we could make him into a good person. Me and my friends ofc were wrong. SO I spent 3 years of high school being hit on by this guy to no end but bc he was a wimp he would never say it and endlessly drop hints and I knew but he was a bad person so i just evaded. Until senior year he became so bad about it I just Had to Do Something.

So this dude (his name is rhys.. I'm just gonna use his name it doesnt matter) was complaining about how he was lonely and said somevery misogynist and racist things about his ex and I was about to kill him until he said he caved and made a tinder bc he just turned 18 and I hatched a plan. I was gonna catfish him and teach him a lesson in a roundabout and safe way bc i was terrified of conflict. And then I did!!

I took some pictures of myself in a wig that werent very convincing at all and tbh I'm 90 percent sure we had seen that wig on me before but he probably forgot lol. And edited it and wrote a bio that was 100 percent guaranteed to get a swipe from him and worked my magic. It was so funny, esp bc one of my friends who thought it was mean tried to tell him it looked like me and he was like "what!! No they're completely different" ☠☠☠ I was just acting like one of those girls who want to be an anime character and are insufferable and he ate it UP and then after 2 weeks I told him I was a catfish and blocked him and he LOST IT!! He was telling me he was abt to get a plane ticket to his old state and just pack it up he was so upset. He told everyone abt this girl and I saw the whole thing and my friends were all in on it. And to this day he doesnt know it was me. He still messages me sometimes and *#*%&^*$*@ it's so funny. But yea... that's how I got revenge on my bigoted incel irl from high school ♡

And screenshots for fun and me time ♡

My catfishsona and said white guy lmao

Him liveblogging their flirting to me and my friends. There was a lot more but it's so cringe.. I hate this man.. I rlly do. Also the bad crop on one is to show that hed literally lb their flirting while on the next tab I was using tinder to fuck with him... he never ONCE put 2 and 2 together.. embarassing ♡♡

And the reveal!!

LMAOOO... and that's the lore ♡

[onbeinganangel]

okay so @eat-yearn-cry and @tackytigerfic asked for a wee liveblog of me reading capri so i am here to embarrass myself

here are my notes from a five-ish hour reading sesh yesterday (thanks @the-starryknight for witnessing this live and sending me your fav capri art for visual references —read: thirst — as i read along)

if you think there is going to be any clever analysis here, please go somewhere else now, this is pure, unhinged screaming (i’m serious, none of this makes sense, it’s a whole mess and i redacted like 50 ‘oh my god???????’s, 30 ‘jesus/mary/joseph/christ’s and 20 ‘oh fuck’s already)

here we go

- a character list!!!! it’s like they know i have a wasteland for a brain and i’m gonna need to come back to that a million times

- okay so far we are feeling very sorry for damen but he’s fiery (big fan)

- he’s a hardheaded bastard, gimme like half an hour and i’ll probably be willing to die for him lmao

- me reading the character list and wondering why it just says ‘pet’, me three lines into the first chapter like OH PET LIKE PET PET OKAY GOT IT omfg mari

- “an astonishingly lovely face” “arrogant and unpleasant” “self-absorbed and self-serving spoilt” (it’s either a description of me or i’m in love)

- “what’s your name, sweetheart” okay FINE

- “i speak your language better than you speak mine, sweetheart” I SAID FINE (here for the polyglot representation we deserve lol)

- all of this is problematic and i shouldn’t find it hot but hey ho

- “something obscene about someone with a face like that speaking those words” indeed

- oh laurent is only twenty yikes

- boot kissing, thank you gods, mari is v pleased (also just glossing over the /bad/ because double yikes)

- unsure how to feel about Damen going off in his own language which only Laurent (?) understands and then Laurent twisting his words? is Laurent protecting himself? agreeing with Damen? which is it?

- oh

- unlacing

- oh

- flogging but of the bad kind

- okay

- if these two don’t stop calling each other sweetheart i’m calling the police

- AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh 🚨 omfg

- “I was on the field at Marlas” ”It’s your countryman who taught me that. You can thank him for the lesson.” ”Thank who?” ”Damianos, the dead Prince of Akielos” hahahahaha okay

- the regent is back an hes brought back the other two guys, yea? and they’re all conspiring against laurent? but laurent doesn’t like kastor???? THEREFORE, jumping to conclusions like a circus cat through hoops, DAMEN LIKES LAURENT bc if you hate the same people you’re immediately pals that’s how it works

- so we’ve got a hotheaded brunette who’s a bit of a brute with a cause and a clever snarky blonde ready to subtly fuck shit up??? idk why anyone would have thought i’d be into this

- “the aloof, untouched Laurent was at this moment delivering a precise treatise on cocksucking” STUFF JUST ESCALATES OUT OF NOWHERE IN THIS BOOK DUNNIT

- Damen asking Erasmus about how he’s treated and after the other slaves???? ”Tell me everything that has happened to you since you left Akielos” 🥺 this is it, it took me hours, but we are hERE, i am willing to die for Damen

- oh no

- oh nooooo

- i am gonna go off

- NOT ERASMUS

- protect his tiny head and beautiful curls pls i will do anything

- also fuck, not Damen promising obedience in exchange for a guarantee that the other slaves will be treated well 😭😭😭

- Laurent is a scheming little bitch and i love him

- also should have mentioned earlier but Nicaise can get fucked (considering the themes of this book i should probably consider how i express my dislike for characters but you get the point, he’s a dickhead)

- THE FORK

- torveld/erasmus, okay 🥺

- Nicaise is the regent’s pet???? ofc he is jfc the little shit

- damen is talking to torveld, the baby back in akielos is totally his, i’m calling it now

- also torveld told him he looks a bit like kastor !!!! and boy oh boy is damen shitting himself rn

- oooh hunting

- wait LAURENT IS NICE!? tbd

- also damen just admiring how fucking stunning laurent is and he’s just his type but it’s such a shame the good looks are wasted on such an unpleasant person lmao

- when you think about it, without the rape and the slavery and the violence, they just sit about on silk pillows and scheme and eat, it’s a pretty good deal

- DAMEN HAS BEEN SUMMONED TO LAURENT’S BED????? or so they say, i’m unconvinced,

- OH SHIT

- oh shit

- the boys have finally reached third base: committing murder together (first base is when you get sucked off by someone else via your lover’s strict instructions, second base is when you eat off your lover’s fingers, don’t @ me i don’t make the rules)

- so the idiot really decided it was a great idea to try to escape post murder attempt???? even though Laurent told him what would happen AND IT HAPPENED

- he’s saved!!!!!!!!!

- ”You must be the fuck of a lifetime” sir they have barely touched

- i am Nervous

- this is a fucking trip

- oh no the regent is bad and trying to fuck it all up who could have seen that coming 🙄

- okay alright so — fuck — first damen tries to escape but laurent gets him back and then they still want to arrest/kill damen but laurent defends him and then laurent wants damen to be stuck in his room for months while he’s away but then he sends for him and they’re off to war together?????? my brain isn’t here anymore sorry

- “He was dressed in Laurent’s colours, and bearing his insignia” hhhhhh i’m stupidly into this

- also Nicaise and the earring and whatvs? i’m sure there’s something there, more than Nicaise simply being an arsewipe but i can’t figure it out rn, thoughts later but he’s a shit stirring cunt i can tell you that

- SO THAT’S JUST IT!?

and this is where i messaged Starry and asked her to stop me from starting the second book at 10 to midnight, thank you Starry lmao

off to ignore my responsibilities and start the second book now

[possibilistfanfiction]

thank u for being p much the only sane person in the olys discourse lmao and yeah i do agree this looks like ideological differences within the team bc tbh they seemed a bit off even before the olympics especially with some players speaking up more on issues these days. i cant even imagine how horrible it must be for poc players to play with ppl like c*rli and on top of that have ppl tell them anything less than gold is a failure. no wonder the whole team played like this

yah 100% !! even if no one ever says anything it’s absolutely clear from interviews, social, etc that there’s deep divides. & those probably existed in 2019 but discussions of Everything in 2019 were different; the world was different. ofc in 2020 too we saw a pretty stark difference in yt ppl who wanted to learn vs yt ppl who didn’t. personally i would not be able to have anywhere near even the partial cohesion the players seem to have, i guarantee i’d lose it on abt half of them every day lmao. & that’s not to say that players who politically suck played terribly & players that i generally align with played well; it affected everyone.

& yes i can’t imagine what it would feel like to be a Black woman essentially forced to fuck w carl* et al & also be told that you’ve disappointed an entire nation (that, systemically, already doesn’t think your life is worthwhile) & still just … perform? especially w tactical choices that don’t help or give u a chance to show the skill u have (which has never Not been a problem but is just becoming more & more clear).

i think the lack of cohesion also has to do with the clear split among white players as well. like on the one hand u have carl* & kelley, on the other hand u have tobin & pinoe. if they’ve rly had convos they’ve definitely disagreed; if they haven’t, that’s another problem. it’s funny in a way bc the uswnt is just a job ? & they’re colleagues ? lol

on a personal note (& not in a weird ‘i’m not racist bc i have [x] relationship w a poc thing) but my wife is a brown Muslim immigrant & i cannot IMAGINE having to pretend to vibe with abt half or more of that team, i would absolutely not be able to do it, esp if she was Right There with me?? there’s no way. even if i tried to it would affect me negatively, there’s rly no way it couldn’t. i don’t even vibe w neoliberal teachers at work who are not fully engaging in a radical politic lol so i truly just …. yah cannot imagine lol

& ofc tactics & overall player performance affected our results (it’s sport lol) but i think that just generally there’s an underlying uneasiness bc of The World that has to be affecting at least some players who have definitely shown through actions to have pretty strong beliefs one way or the other. i don’t think anyone playing currently is rly going to name it (maybe when someone retires — write the book cp!) but yah at the end of the day being in a system of harm/loving someone Right There who is blatantly being harmed has got to take its toll. in a different context of course it does for me but yah … idk. lol

which is also why i’m like hey if cp & tobin wanna retire we just gotta be happy for them. it doesn’t seem like the uswnt has been good for mental health for a while; we can see that sport in general isn’t good for mental health (& a) health is a made up concept; b) physical health too?! tobin has been chronically injured for like 5 years), especially for Black women & femmes (+ trans ppl in general). so if ppl are like u know i’m out… love that for them, truly & deeply

[thingsandtrichotillomania]

Week 4

School

I honestly just didn’t feel like doing daily updates. Classes have been good, I haven’t dropped any of them. I can tolerate the work load. Most of the instruction is online. I’ve opted to go to my Sociology class on Mondays and Wednesdays when I can, and Japanese is only hosted in class on Wednesday. The rest of it is online discussion boards. I don’t have to show up for any video calls other than Japanese on Fridays. 

The dorm is okay. My sister and I think that our roommate is fake though. She got super upset about dishes or something, but didn’t tell us an issue. I over herd her complaining to her boyfriend before she slammed the door as she left and didn’t come back for like a whole ass day. I’m over it though. I really don’t care. We do our dishes, at least they are clean. Though we do know now to not forget to then put them away, but it’s not like its 10+ dishes, mostly 5 or less. Our roommate though will leave dishes in there overnight or through the whole day so like, she has the bigger issue. ANYWAYS.

I honestly haven’t stayed at the dorm much. I’ve come home pretty much every weekend except for move in weekend. Meaning I sleep there maybe 3 nights before going home. I was going to go back after labor day weekend and then stay the whole week (8 days) before coming back but my little brother’s birthday party is later this month and it “messed up” my hypothetical plan.

Job w/School

A few days ago, Eric suggested since I’m most likely going to be coming home every weekend, why not go back to work. I’ve been talking about going back to work since my funds have pretty much dried out already and who knows when my school money will get here. I had already applied to a store 6 minutes from where I’m staying at campus but I haven’t heard back. And I know at the store I used to work, it’s a guaranteed job.

So on Friday (two days ago) I went there and asked Anthony for my job and ofc he said yes. They’ve been struggling with having enough of people so I’m very much needed right now. 

The plan is to work Thursday - Saturday, about 6 hours each day. I’ll go back to campus on Sunday and then be there until Wednesday evening or Thursday morning before coming back home to work. I’m glad to be going back to work.

Labor day messed up going back this week though. I’ve only really got one class this week and it’s Sociology on Wednesday, I don’t even have to go to that though, I can do that online. So I’ve opted to just drop my sister off at the dorm on Monday evening and get my clothes to do laundry, and then come back. Then I’ll work Tuesday - Saturday just to rack up some hours before going back to campus on Sunday evening. Then we go to the schedule mentioned above.

I think it’ll be a good plan? That way I’m going to school, but also having a purpose to come home and won’t feel too guilty for doing so. And this doesn’t even have to be an all school year thing. I could just do this this semester and then next semester, be more on campus, with more in person classes. Boom plan.

Therapy

Therapy has been okay. We have moved slightly away from anxiety and I’m trying to push it more of in a gender direction. Don’t get me wrong, I still suffer from anxiety and it sucks, but right now gender has been screaming at me just a bit more, so I’m going to finally pay attention to it. It’s been ignored for long enough and it’s about time I figure out who I am. 

I do feel guilty for not using my coping strategies I’ve been taught. I should use them more. The worry tree, my popsical sticks, what I can and can’t control, etc. But I am so so focused on my gender issues that I kind of forget to, either that or my anxiety is just swept under and it’s going to manifest again and get worse.

She had to cancel our last session. I figured it was because last time she told me that she was going on a trip this weekend for labor day and that I was her last scheduled for Friday morning. I guess something came up and I wasn’t able to be seen. That’s fine though. I just don’t know when my next appointment is, which is a bit scary because it seems to be that every time I go to schedule one, she’s almost all booked for the next week. 

Tbh I’m a bit nervous. I hope that the notification doesn’t bother her. I’m sorry. I forgot I could request an appointment so I just did for Thursday at 4:30, which means I might just ask for Thursday off so I can go to campus and get Sabrina and do Eric’s thing and have therapy online. Either that or I can just request to go in at 6. I need to figure out something soon though bc it’s Sunday. Hmmmm. I think I’ll just go in at six.

Gender

The last topic I wanted to rant about today, honestly the thing that made me come here. I keep saying I don’t know but like, I know some things. I right now am between non-binary and trans.

Non-binary describes the moments where I just don’t give a fuck about my gender. It’s like, something in the back of my mind. I still don’t like female pronouns or body bits and things, but it’s not “important”. I tend to aim towards an androgyny look, but at the same time, shorts don’t really bother me, I see it as a necessity bc it’s hot.

Trans describes mainly what I’m feeling right now. Where I really don’t like body bits or how I’m viewed socially. I get dysphoria over my chest, and bottom bits. I want to bind or chop off my tits. I want to appear as male and start Testosterone. The issue with that is I really don’t want all of the extra body hair or a super deep voice. Also Eric said he didn’t really know how to feel about it either. He expressed dislike for the extra body hair and changing of lower body bits. And I love him more than anything in the world, but I also just want to feel comfortable.

I can’t argue with him right now, because I really don’t know what I EXACTLY want with myself either. I can’t fight to start T and express how happy it’ll make me because I just don’t know. I feel like the only thing I do know right now is that I want my boobs out of here and to be seen as male. It’s just so hard because family, and I don’t even know where to begin with telling them.

I came out to my sister, I don’t know if I’ve mentioned that. She still doesn’t call me Skylar or use male pronouns. I don’t really correct her though, so it’s my fault. 

September 6th, 2020

[wheretogofrmhere]

The timing hurt the album for sure. But It's not all of the problem. HW wasn't set up to be a hit because he didn't have a hit single and he can't seem to get a foothold in steaming. Promo would have helped him ofc but other artists are still doing okay rn, just less good. I'm not one of those 'experts' lol and I have no idea what his team or label are doing or should do. I'm just saying this era has been iffy from the start and album promo would have helped but not guaranteed success.

idt HW wasnt set up to be a hit just bc he didnt have a hit single. it wasnt intentional. and you dont HAVE to have a hit single to have a decent selling album. and his album didnt do horrible or anything, i think ppl have this number in mind and if he didnt hit that number than that means he “flopped” or did “bad” and thats really not the case. he did well CONSIDERING he got scraped of all his promo and the week he dropped was the SAME week that this corona shit escalated and ppl were panicking and worrying about that (as they should) then his album. there wasnt anything he could do about it. 

streaming is his issue. but he didnt really HAVE that issue with SH/flicker bc he was able to promote as was planned and radio really took off with SH. it sucks that they werent anticipating this and thus saved promo for the album instead of putting more forth with NTMY, but....thats what happened. they had no idea this would happen and they were counting on building around the album to hopefully get the singles moving. 

but i dont think the era has been iffy. i think they had a very set plan and that plan was to focus around the album/tour which in turn would push the singles. that didnt happen. so he was left with singles that only got a handful of promo with the intention of the album getting the FULL works and then an album that barely got any at the end of the day. so.....yeah, i fully believe had the gp (in the US) been introduced to his album via TV promo it would have definitely upped his sales and streams. he was less than 10k away from the #2 spot here. like...he could have EASILY taken it had the promo been done. 

[sunsetsover]

tbh i didn’t want angst bc i thought ben wouldn’t hesitate to help his dad with this or try this hard to keep his nose clean but seeing how conflicted ben is already has completely changed my mind, like he clearly really does want to keep his promise to callum and had every intention of staying out of dodgy shit, but phil still has this hold over him. so as much as ben might not want to get involved now, he’s obviously still going to bc this is phil. and ben has always been at phil’s beck and call. and even tho phil might not deserve it, ben loves his dad and will want to help him in the only way he knows how.

and ofc callum is gonna find out, and is going to be hurt bc he really thought ben was serious. and ofc ben WAS serious and he’ll probably argue that, but this is his dad. phil is always gonna have that hold over him. and that’s why it’s going to hurt so much - because he doesn’t WANT to do this. he had no intentions of breaking his promise. but he also doesn’t know how else to help his dad.

now i kind of hope we get a massive bust up. i want to see a big, vulnerable argument come out of this. callum being hurt because it almost seems like ben was just saying what he wanted to hear when he was just gonna turn back to his old ways at the first opportunity (ofc we know that’s not the case, but callum doesn’t), ben trying to make callum understand that he had meant what he said, but this is his dad, and this is family, and this is just how his family deals with these kinds of things. that he doesn’t know what else what he’s supposed to have done. callum saying that he should have said no. ben telling him that that wasn’t an option. the heartbreak of realizing they’re not going to see eye to eye on this. that the damage is done. 

and tbh i hope callum see ben’s conflict and realizes he was being sincere, and realizes how much of a hold phil has over ben. like i think that’s something callum needs to understand, u know? because i think if he understands that, he’ll understand ben a lot better.

idk this is gonna suck but at least it doesn’t seem like they’re just doing it for the sake of doing it, which i was worried about. now it feels like no matter how this plays out between them, it’ll make sense. there’ll be a point to it. and hopefully it’ll help them in the long run (bc even if they do break up over this, i almost guarantee it won’t be for long lmao)

[ciucalata]

Oh dear Ciuucalata (I'd like to call you Elena or Ellie but I'm not sure you are comfortable with strangers doing so) won't you divulged the sacred knowledge of how to write a fic and be able to finish it?

Ooh dw i love it when people call me by my name, or ellie, but ciuucalata is okay too i don’t mind!!

Finishing fics is really hard, my dude. And i say this as i look at my 18 wips, some of which will never be finished unfortunately. Maybe I am not the best person to answer this but I will try to help however i can. At least you will learn fron my mistakes and know what not to do lmao

First, i think it’s important to focus on one project at a time. This is mainly my biggest problem, i start a fic and somehow along the way i get an idea for another fic. I start the new fic, then i get a new idea and so on. One project at a time is a totally reachable goal. If you get a new idea, just write down the main things you already have for it so you don’t lose it and you can return to it once your current project is finished. Of course, this depends from one person to another, some people work better when they have more than one work in progress, but I do think it’s important to not have too many. Two of three are an okay number, but more than that can be overwhelming, in my opinion.

Second, try writing the parts you are excited for, whether they are in cronological order or not (or in a different chapter if we’re talking about a multichap). Write down every bit of dialogue or narration or description that come to your mind. Write outlines if that is your thing, write only the dialogue to keep it flowing, write whatever you want first be it the beginning, some random part in the middle or the end. That’s the beauty of writing: it has no set rules and you can do whatever you want. Unfortunately, once you have those parts down, there is still the hard bit where you have to go back and write the in-between parts to connect them. But just keep in mind that once you have those finished, your fic will be ready too. And wow, isn’t that amazing??

Third, if you don’t know how to start it, don’t just stare at the blank document. I know how hella frustrating that can be and trust me, it doesn’t help anyone no matter how hard you glare at it. Instead, before you open the doc, try to imagine the first scene and then translate it into words in your mind. I found that this helps me a lot and once i have the first sentence, or at least a few words in mind for the beginning, the rest just come on their own. I once wrote more than 1k in a sitting like this.

Fourth, I think it’s really important to keep being excited about your wip. Personally, i like talking with my friends about it or share parts with them so they can read it and then we can just start screaming about it (man i love my friends they’re too good for me @friends i love and appreciate u guys thanks for being in my life even if i suck sometimes). If you don’t like sharing your writing before it’s done, then just ask them if they can help you brainstorm for the fic. Two(or more) heads at work are better than one.

Fifth, and the most important i think, don’t beat yourself over the fic if you reach a part that’s blocking you. Accept that sometimes that can happen, no one is a writing machine, and let it be for a while. Maybe try writing a little for another wip if you have more inspiration for it, or just take a break from writing, they’re honestly the best thing ever. It helps a lot, trust me. While writing a lot and being in the zone is an amazing feeling and you wanna keep going no matter what, breaks can be just as great and helpful. Live your life a little, socialize with friends/family, go to a coffeeshop and treat yourself to your favorite thing there bc you deserve it damn it, or read a book. Reading helps you with your writing, too. Whatever you do, enjoy yourself (and yeah, you can keep thinking about your writing if you want, but no negativity here!! I will personally materialize wherever you are and beat that negativity for you with love ofc) and you’ll find that when you go back to writing after the break, however long or short it is, the words come easier or you’ll realize why you couldn’t get past that scene. Oh, and about this, I remember once reading a post here somewhere on tumblr that if you’re stumped with your writing, the problem is 10 sentences before (and damn that’s hella true i can guarantee you that).

Sixth(god this is already so long i’m sorry), don’t be afraid to delete stuff, even if it’s a super long part or something that you really like. Sacrifices must be made so that you can keep moving forward. It’s hard, i know, and it will break your heart a little everytime bc all the words you write are important to you, but you have to kill them(joking just save them in a different doc bc who knows? maybe you’ll need them later or for something else). Sometimes you have to take a step backwards so that you can keep going.

And lastly, but not least, have fun!!!! Write stuff you want to read about, write stuff that only you care about(although the internet is such a big place there will be a lot of people who care about the same stuff you care about), write that au that has been already written for thousand of times (there’s a reason it’s such a popular au after all). Just love what you do and create, and don’t forget to take breaks when you think it’s too much. Also it’s normal to have negative thoughts about your writing, we all have them, just don’t let them control you. Talk to someone about it and you’ll feel a lot better both about yourself and your writing. Oh, and take your time!! We all have different writing speeds (and while comparing yourself with other writers is inevitable, don’t dwell too much on it, you are you, they are they and we’re all just doing our best here) so don’t rush things. The fandom you’re writing for will still be there when you’re done and you’ll still have people who will read your writing.

I’m sure i’ll come up with more stuff after i post this, but it’s already too long so i’ll stop here. I really really hope this helped you in some way, and hey if you need some cheerleading along the way, I’m here for ya 💕

[persona-rrau]

hypothetically what if minato got captured successfully by an enemy nation (bonus points if its by the nation that invaded them in tnt's version)?

TNT: There would be hell to pay.

If this happens before Akechi becomes retainer, it’s Akira that saves him along with Junpei and a couple of other military members. Not to imply Minato would be defenseless… because he’d definitely give his captors hell and make himself easily traceable, but he’d be physically restrained and can’t really punch his way out as easily as Akira for example. He has tiny bod disadvantage. Very cute. But very easy to pick up and slam against nearest wall or sword.

Akira would see this as a personal matter, definitely. He wouldn’t be able to get revenge entirely but the least he could do is save Minato from them when he failed to do it the first time. Though, I also think he’d think letting Minato get captured in the first place would count as another failure to make up for.

However, if this happens during the time both Akechi and Akira are retainers, Akira’s first suspect would be fucking Goro Akechi hey what did you do now you little shit? Of course Akechi did nothing and he has to stare Akira down bc, do you honestly think I’d still be here if I took Minato away, you absolute fucking idiot. Akechi was there when Minato was stabbed and wounded during the invasion, so Akechi would also take it personally, but more in a… “I couldn’t do anything back then because of my rank, so now, I’ll do everything I can to make up for it.” etc. (That, and “Kurusu I will bury you and do this better than you” lol) Both of them would clash so hard despite having the same goal. They wouldn’t clash because they disagree but they’d clash because it was both very personal to them for different reasons. To Akira, it’s a matter of making up for his past mistakes, for Akechi, it’s to bury his past self and embrace his new title- become a person that’s able to do things that were otherwise restricted because of rank.

They’d have to work together to save Minato, which implies they both share the burden and the success. It’d tick Akira off honestly. He’d insist on doing it alone because he’s still not convinced Akechi is innocent. Ofcs Akechi wouldn’t give him the satisfaction, and he’d be one step ahead every time Akira tries to track Minato down, until he finally just concedes that yes, if they work together, it’d be better for Minato. So, even if it stings, I think he’d suck it up and work together with Akechi if Akechi proved to be onto something, a lead of some sorts or anything that guaranteed Minato’s safety. Thanking him tho… he gets no thanks. Akira will honestly never give thanks because Akechi signed up for this so he should be prepared to be ordered around and to do things like this if it comes up because it’s not optional and it’s demanded of him as a retainer.

Straylize: Akira has two priorities:

Save Minato ASAP

Make sure as few people know as possible, as to avoid a panic.

And because of that? Akira would take as few people on a mission to save Minato as possible. Even some of the A-Rank soldiers would not be clued in to the situation beyond what’s necessary; Junpei has too big of a mouth, and he literally would never trust or tell Akechi anything, since in my vers, Akechi has done not a single thing to earn Akira’s trust, and there’s. A lot to unpack with their situation that would make it 100% not feasible.

Seeing as Akira would pretty much entirely take the guilt and responsibility for letting it happen, he would be more likely to fudge the details with everyone in the kingdom’s inner circle so he could just shoulder the burden himself. There are a few people he’d tell—Futaba, with her informants working to get any extra intel, and whatever soldiers he deems worthy enough to go in his stead if he were to fall in battle. But that would probably be a max of maybe five people total

It’s definitely more reckless, but considering something like that is something that would make Akira absolutely beside himself with guilt and fury... well, that’s just how it is. Really, whoever managed to pull that off wouldn’t even have time to regret their actions before he killed them for the sake of saving Minato, anyway.