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algolagniaa · 3 days

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ok we (Oscar Jess and me) have peer reviewed the knife vs pig fetish study and determined it needs a new poll with added context and controlling for actual variables

fetish scenario 1: you get fucked with a knife in the context of a loving consensual and healthy relationship. it is normal loving sex only a knife is involved. you are being fucked with the pointy end and there is a danger of you dying but it’s only a slight danger.

fetish scenario 2: women who are married to manly beefcake dudes get transformed (probably by a witch or some other woman) into a pig and/or a goblin. the women are unhappy about this and so are their husbands. everyone is generally miserable. the husbands still kind of love their goblin pig wives but are also disgusted by them, and in order to cope with the emotional trauma of being married to a pig goblin they abuse their wives a lot

the question is not which one you would rather do or which one is more dangerous or morally good or w/e. it is purely about which is the weirder more embarrassing fetish to have

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fish-bowl-2 · 9 months

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Gonna put these two asks together because...yeah, I may end up repeating myself XD. I love all the Eds, but it would be a flat-out lie to say Double Dee is NOT my favorite.

I like how his good and bad qualities play out with his personality. I agree that this makes him feel very real and a lot like an actual kid his age. This is shared by all the Eds, but Double Dee's pretentiousness, anxiety, and fragility are aspects of characters I am especially drawn to. If I were to line up all my favorite fictional characters together with Double Dee, you would most definitely see a pattern.

I like as well how he does not fit neatly in the cookie-cutter role of the "smart friend". He is definitely a huge nerd, but he doesn't "look" like one based on first impressions and design alone (barring season 5 where his dorky cardigans kind of give it away lmao). He also does not feel like a complete know-it-all, nor does it set him above what his friends are doing. He is still a kid, after all, and like a lot of nerdy kids, his knowledge is specific to his particular interests and does not make him immediately more mature than anyone else. Like I stated earlier, it all just makes him more believable.

On a way more personal note, I favor him a lot because, as cheesy as it sounds, he kind of reminds me of myself. Especially at the age of 12-13. Not exactly, but in enough ways that I can still see myself in him. I was also a nerdy kid super into my niche subjects like animals. I would spend recess watching ant hills and read nonfiction books cover to back. I was admittedly rather haughty and a know-it-all, too. I would regularly correct people on inconsequential things and make a huge fuss about it. I still vividly remember getting into fights when other kids could not tell the difference between cheetah and jaguar spots. I was (and kind of still am) an academic over-achiever, as well, that sets my personal standards way too high for any functioning human. Simply put: when I watch Edd, I see a lot of my own qualities when I was a preteen, both the good and the bad, which makes him especially entertaining to me.

#sorry if this is a little long #thank you anon for letting me go off about my fav guy I could talk about edd all day every day #which is kind of embarrassing but it is ok #happy new year happy 2024!!#asks #squack

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st4rstudent · 6 months

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i may be cringe but i am free

#clemart #macthinker #this is a treat....for me.........#i had to get up at 6 in the morning to do bloodwork at 8 and i didnt pass out which is a new record #i also had a dentist appointment afterwards but thats whatever anyways this is a celebration drawing #its just a colored sketch. i think ive hit a little art block BUT WE WILL POWER THROUGH #for some reason im embarrassed posting this . but its ok. i know you all will be kind and beautiful souls. right. right.

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youremyonlyhope · 10 months

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Living with Body Focused Repetitive Behaviors

Me: *Is super stressed over life.*

Trichotillomania: Time to pull some hair! C'mon. You won't even notice you're doing it. It'll make you feel better.

Me: NO. *Spends 4 days putting hair in a mini twist protective style* There.

Dermatillomania: Hey. Your hands are free. And restless. And dry... Pick your skin. Bleed. Bleed.

Me: Stop! *Starts up a new crochet project to keep hands busy.* Ok cool.

Onychophagia: Hi hi. Your nails are.... perfect biting length... you should do that.

Me: Noooooooooooo *Paints nails.*

Dermatillomania: Oh look, you got some nail polish on your skin. Pick it off... now pick some more...

Me: SDJAKFDSJFKLDKAFDJKLAFJDKSAKLFDASL

#is this tmi? oh well. this is the tmi website #trichotillomania #dermatillomania #onychophagia #bfrb #body focused repetitive behavior #ocd #guys guess what? my therapist all but prescribed that i get a manicure to prevent picking at my skin #apparently after a year with this therapist i never mentioned my finger picking until this week #and she was like 'ok since you find it tough to paint them yourself get a manicure. self care and preventative'#because my cuticles are horrific due to me constantly picking at them and the sides of my fingers #so i've always been too embarrassed to go to a nail salon and my therapist was like 'exposure therapy!'#currently my nails are sloppily painted because i can't hold a brush still and they're already chipping after like 5 days #actually they probably started chipping on the second day honestly.#i need to redo my twists a bit which actually satisfies the trich urges since i'll be running my fingers through my hair to do it #but i won't actually be pulling. but also. i will be getting the shed hairs out. so. kind of fulfills that.#but right now my nails are long enough for me to feel them sometimes hit my keyboard. which. isn't normal for me.#and despite the nail polish i feel the urge to bite them shorter ahhhhh #anyway if you're Black with natural hair and have trich i HIGHLY suggest mini twists since it helps deter me from pulling #sure i have to redo it every few weeks but seriously. game changer. harder to find individual hairs to pull.

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orcelito · 2 days

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Several months late, the landlord finally picked up the dehumidifier from my kitchen

Would've been nice had I been told they were coming though 💀 so I could've cleaned up the grocery bags on the floor that I hadn't put away yet 💀💀💀💀💀

#speculation nation #at least i did do the dishes yesterday so the kitchen is in much better shape than it was before. still not great though.#i wonder if i could put in a complaint lol. like Please dont enter my unit unannounced 😭 that's a violation im pretty sure 😭😭😭#actually i might call them. like Hey. can you guys um..not lol #well. the office is closed now so i cant call them. but i wonder if i should email.#i also wonder if it's even worth the fuss. like if they dont bother me about the state of my apartment then like oh well ykno?#except i very much did have a hospital bank statement out in full view which is kinda personal information lol. lmao even.#... actually yknow what i think i will email. bc like. even if they dont complain. it's kind of embarrassing lol.#had i known they were coming i wouldve done that little bit more before leaving. and i shouldve had the option.#this certainly wasnt an emergency. i should have gotten notice. they conducted a violation of tenants rights.#and YEAH ok people might say i should just keep my apartment clean always regardless of if someone is coming.#and while thatd be nice. get this. im a full time student with adhd and ive been having a HELL of a time lately.#so no i hadnt fully put away my groceries. and i left some empty bags on the floor. bc i didnt think itd matter.#so Yeah im going to email them with a friendly 'hey next time could you guys pls give me 24 hour notice? like it says in the law? thanks :)

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feldsparite · 9 months

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as it turns out there is zenkichi content on this wretched site, but i had to dig through the trash like some kind of small animal to find it.

#hasegawa hell #have 136 bookmarks now which is... At Least Some Stuff but also like #most of that shit's from 3....4....years ago.........#and i'm not even sure if the ops want that shit reblogged anymore....it's kind of embarrassing if i do.....#truly felt like i was doing gravedigging... i'd done it before but it's significantly more embarrassing this time around #at least searching for usopp fic on livejournal was ok because everyone there's defo a corpse. these people now are still alive #they just don't have the zenkichi brainworms anymore

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wave-nine · 1 year

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Who does Honey prefer to hangout with for a longer time period, Doggy or Money?

GASP you can't just ask that!! The 3 of them are boyfriends!!!!!!!!!!!! tsk tsk

#w9 inbox #ok this ot3 is actually more like doggy/money + honey/money #doggy and honey aren't that close but they get along well #it's not for lack of interest though...#doggy likes honey #but the thought of doggy being interested in him in that way doesn't cross honey's mind so he's kind of blind to it at first #he's like ha ha we sure are friends!!!!!! doggy is like. not even being subtle about his flirting but he doesn't really mind it #he likes messing with honey because it's amusing #which annoys money to no end because HE can see it. but also he doesn't want to step in so he's stuck watching a pair of clowns #it was first doggy/money and then honey comes along so initially he was like hmmm wonder if doggy doesn't like sharing #meanwhile doggy was like hell yea i get TWO cakes #ALRIGHT stop making me type about them it's embarrassing I can't shut up #putting it in tags is only slightly less embarrassing

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syrasenturi · 2 years

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scribbly amphibbies

bonus christmas garfapillar

#amphibia #marcy's journal spoilers #kinda #syrass #im too embarrassed to talk more about my post amphibia anne ideas #but a little bit of it #it's like around when she starts drifting from sasha and marce but also realizing what she wants to do in life #hence the froggies #but she becomes like a local cryptid #there's still lingering effects of her powers but she feels she's grown too distant from the only people she can talk to about it to even br #ing it up so she tries to deal with it on her own #i dont want it to be all angsty but it is a good bit and i dont have all the details but yeah #anyway unrelated but my best marcys are the fucked up ones #which i dont like perpetuating no because i think it's bad but because i think marcy would not react super uhhh sad? idk how to word it #she'd be more avoidant and play it off i think and not so much fall back on depression as just sad melancholy that she'd then turn to #some kind of positivity i think idk she's an excited kid and nd you know #ok thats the most ive talked about anything in a while time to shut up again goodbye #also thanks for everyone who bought garfapillar stickers i hope you like them <3

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crimeronan · 1 year

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i keep habitually opening my email on the off chance i have new ao3 commints even tho it's been several weeks since i uploaded anything & then. remembering.

#ao3 #life hack though. if you never delete any of your emails then you still have your whole constellation of nice ao3 feedback #corkboard-scattered thru there. gotta compile a new document of nice things people have said that make me cry #please know if u have ever left a fic comment u make me warm inside.#sometimes people will be like 'ok it's embarrassing for me to comment weeks after this was uploaded when i shoulda read it right away but-'#NO IT'S NOT YOU'RE SO NICE TO ME. FIC EXISTS TO PERUSE IN UR LEISURE TIME AND COMMENTS WEEKS IN THE FUTURE EXTEND MY LIFESPAN #if you comment weeks after i upload something u have a pretty good chance of catching me mid-flare which is when i need the kindness and #validation the most. so.#anyway. miss u babygirl hope ur back soon god bless our troops (the ao3 volunteers)

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jeonqkooks · 6 months

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i’m really not joking when i say i think about these asks all the time

#i just went through the 💌 tag and i-#man i really needed that #if we’re being honest we haven’t really been ok since december but that is beside the point lol #reading those asks again could make me burst into tears on my lunch break rn #you guys are so kind to me for no reason i love you so much my pocket friends #you guys are always there for me when i feel bad about my writing. which is… often lol #i miss my boos i miss our community i miss how tight we were #i’m aware that it’s silly to get so emo about a tumblr blog lol #but yk you’re my pocket friends and you’ve helped me through a lot of hard times :(#i love you if you’re still sticking around and putting up with me. i love you even if you already left #i have no idea what’s wrong with me lol i’ve been so emotional these past few days and i’m not even pms-ing #anyways i’m all over the place k bye i just needed to word vomit #jen rambles #edit: reading this back 2 hrs later is so embarrassing i’m sorry i forced it on your dash lol

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bl00dw1tch · 1 year

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the way i have absolutely no business being the way i am

#horse.txt #vent //#sort of. too high to be sad abt it im in anthropology mode and listening to music that makes me feel sexy so its fine yk #anyway i typed a whole bunch of other tags talking abt how and why i feel this way by going through a few of the events i can remember #from my childhood that Might explain why im so emotionally guarded and struggle to open up anymore.#bc i Wanted to say they all felt dumb and juvenile esp since ive actually like #made peace with most of the ppl who were involved with them #but the Anthropology mode was just tearing it all down as i typed it bc that Is just a ridiculous way to look at it no matter how you cut it #doesn't matter that nobody involved really Meant to deal that kind of harm and i dont need to hate or blame anyone in order to acknowledge #that it still just Happened. like thats a Memory already babe no do overs.#which is kind of just accidental therapy so sick. love that fir me genuinely!#but also yes theres the bitch part of me that still wants to discredit it bc acknowledging that it happened =/= Fixing My Issues #so im still at square one technically. ive just been pacing in circles on it for a while ig #EVEN WORSE that the Scale of my issues is so incredibly mundane compared to so many of the people i seem to meet.#sitting in bed crying abt not having friends for a few days in elementary school when other ppl have jojos bizarre adventure levels of Lore #i know im not technically invalid for feeling the way i do or anything but god. if it doesn't feel fucking Embarrassing to open up about😭#its impossible NOT to feel stupid and sensitive for having these first world ass problems. And letting them hold me back #bc ppl not liking me for any reason makes me sooooooooo fucking scared So fucking scared its not even funny 😝#at least. ppl in my Circles. im pretty ok about being assertive with randos #still some work to be done on it but its better than whatevers going on with my personal relationships rn #sincerely to my mutuals and loved ones who see this i swear to GOD i love you so so so fucking much and im so. im trying to figure out this #the stuff thats got me so distant and bad at keeping in touch. its a whole slew of feelings about how i see Myself--not yall #i double pinky promise cross my heart im extremely serious #thank you for being patient with me you mean more to me than im capable of putting into words right now #alright theres a shot of tears in the hollow of my collar bone time to wrap up this post #daily reminder that i love body hair. there's some honesty.#😎😎😎💪💪💪#the Quaritch under the cut is just to make me feel better bc i love him and i think hes so pretty. hes like a security blanket

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axellis-archv-2 · 1 year

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hi ok i saw zhubajie do this so now i wanna because i loveeee love love memes like this

#📗 my post #i treated yellow as like characters i play when i wanna switch things up and not people that i actively want to learn #i did have to look deep within myself and go yeah i kind of main widow which was really embarrassing #if it helps i switch off of her the second im not popping off ok i prommy i dont stick on her all game and go 1-12

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mosnet · 2 years

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that post about eggs and anti-intellectualism makes me mad because if op made it about politics it could be a more potent analogy i think, but people don't know how to cook eggs because of a "lack of curiosity" or laziness that's just repackaging ableism again. sometimes people are just cognitively disabled and can't learn vital life skills thru googling them

#yes that post was triggering i feel better about it now but it's a bad take i think. op needed to either be extremely more clear about #what type of people they were talking about (to avoid fallout harming poor and/or disabled people which is what happened) or they needed to #choose something else people are ''uncurious'' about that wasn't a life skill like cooking for oneself #they opened up so much ableism in the comments. ''cooking is easy just google it'' ''maybe you would feel better if you cooked a snack''#and also shaming people (saying they should be ''embarrassed'') for not knowing how to cook is not revolutionary or progressive #it is in fact the most normie shit imaginable #kind of analogous to that post thats like ''thinking that being mean to someone outside of an axis of oppression is ok is freak behavior''#when the people being targeted with that behavior Are the freaks in question and it is actually very extremely normalized to act like that #whatever. i love you freaks i love you disabled and/or poor people who only eat fast food i love you everyone who can't or won't cook

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purgetrooperfox · 2 years

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thought y'all might enjoy knowing that my Waking From General Anesthesia story includes

immediately crying when I re-acquired consciousness

thanking everyone in the room profusely. p r o f u s e l y.

holding one nurse's hand for either ~10 seconds or the entire time she was in the vicinity idr

"I'm sorry I keep crying but um . pain scale?" <- said once finally Not crying

#they were very kind and assured me that anesthesia makes some people weepy. which I've never heard before but ok #i'm sure it was ridiculous #realistically i was like. pretty lucid pretty quickly so it all had to happen rapid fire #my bf was a little disappointed that I wasn’t more embarrassing jsdbdjdh #leo.txt #might delete later just thought it was funny and oversharing is good for healing #would you believe me if i told you i'm really not Usually a crier?#anyway. ouch.#can we talk about the pain scale too please because that shit is sooooooo subjective. the worst pain I've ever felt #????#what does that even mean. worst pain of my life. you wish you could hurt me that bad LMAO #it's been a long day

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pepprs · 2 years

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idk how to reconcile my new self with my old self. also i fucking hate waiting. GRAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#delete later #im getting a taste of my own medicine bc when im overwhelmed depressed etc i don’t even open emails or dms or whatever and then ifeel guilty #and let them build up and run away from them and literally do not reply for years. but ive been waiting for like 5 different but related #replies for 3ish days at this point and im soooooo impatient omg i want to bash my head into the wall.. and afaik no one i messaged has #opened the message despite being active online elsewhere which is EXACTLY what i do so i have no right to complain at all. but still. omggg #i just have a simple question (me and the ps5 voice) reply to my message boy #purrs #also.. ok yeah im gonna be honest about it even if there are consequences lol. idk why im on such a mission to get back all my old #characters but if i don’t i can and will go crazy. i don’t even do that kind of thing anymore and d*viantart is an irreversibly warped #landscape due in part to capitalism and in part to own mistakes and selfish actions. and i truly feel like my tumblr mutuals are the only #ones who understand me and feel safe and cozy on here. but i miss my old internet home. and i really miss my old internet friends and seeing #all the jokes we had and how we were all like interconnected w the same adopt groups and stuff and now we don’t even talk… it makes me so #sad and i feel weird messaging them just for the purpose of asking if they can give me back characters i gave them 4 years ago like a) you j #just don’t do that kind of thing i don’t think but b) it feels so transactional and would make the part of saying hey our friendship was #important to me when i was a teenager and even though we don’t talk anymore i think of you fondly and wish you well. like lollllll. and i #feel cringe even tracking them down / messaging them bc we are all jn our 20s now… embarrassing. but i am so mad at myself for letting those #friendships wither (not that i have the spoons to sustain them these days anyway but still) and for not keeping bettr track of my characters #when i sold them and for giving them up in the first place and for letting my old internet life just fall apart due to neglect bc it puts me #in a bind to try to piece it together again no matter how i try it and i shouldn’t try anyway. but i am so tempted to rn. lol #* itd make saying stuff abt appreciating friendship weird bc there’s a transaction tied in (source: i did this and feel weird and bad)#like the way i want to SCREAM seeing that dA ate all of the journals i made when i was a 14 year old and turned them into glitched polls. th #the way the wayback machine has terrible unreliable records of everything and i can never get some stuff back / track some stuff down. pain #anyways it’s stupid bc i feel cozy and listened to and as connected as i have the energy to be to all of u guys so why am i doing this. but #i miss the dA stuff too and i wish it wasn’t cringe and i wish i could have everything that’s ever been part of me all in one place. lol #also this doesn’t even take into account my poetry community on dA on my other account who i also felt so safe and cozy with and i abandoned #that too and lost touch with basically everyone even though we all knew each others deepest secrets for years.. the heartsickness of it all #anyways mutuals who knew me on deviantart i am clutching both your hands with impassioned urgency and kissing u on the cheeks. that’s all

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wrecking · 1 year

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edit: i ended up just ranting abt like the current vibe™ in the tags... sorry abt that but like also whatever i don't care anymore

#d #my food therapist really said the most real thing on planet earth when she said i'm meeting me at the same time everyone else is #i feel like a cringey overzealous emotionally dumb teenager who's a total embarrassment to everyone around me while i'm trying 2 say fuck i #cuz like this is the first time in my entire life i feel like i get to actually explore my identity and do like normal young people things #and i feel just. so so exposed in the sense that everyone is watching me make a fool of myself without a single shred of self-awareness #and it makes me so fucking mad cuz like i'm finally happy with myself!! i'm finally starting to feel like a fully formed person #instead of a 2d projection or an object or something monstrous hiding in the shadows because that's how i've spent until now imo #and like. it's hard to emotionally make peace with the fact things in my social life are changing because like. there's some part of me #that thinks that maybe if i stayed in that miserable place that maybe i wouldn't have any of the problems i have now #and like my life is a lot better. and i know that and i wouldn't change a thing. but like emotionally i guess i'm just #processing it as a fault of mine to have changed bc it's changing my relationships to others #and this isn't about any one specific thing like i've been having lots of small growing pains with a lot of ppl in my life rn i just am lik #there's a lot happening to me rn emotionally so i feel like everything i do is a fuckup and i'm just bracing for more people to go ig #which might happen or it might not and tbh either is ok at this point. i need to do this in order to live i think #idk why i'm even rambling about this i just have a lot of thoughts and i want to share them i guess. not like it does anything but like #what else is this app for at this point lmfao i barely even want to talk on here anymore because i feel like everything i say on here is #just pointless. i'm thankful i have a strong support system rn cuz genuinely i don't know what i'd do if i didn't like #i feel like everything is so much more emotionally Big to me on E and it's kind of hard trying to figure out how to manage it #like i'm basically finally getting to be me. for worse AND for better. and i just am like. insecure on some level i guess #not even over my appearance tbh i've kinda made peace with that. moreso my personality and what things i share with others #this whole post is so wholly unnecessary but i feel like i'm going to go insane if i don't get this out of my head #i've genuinely been avoiding talking about my emotions or my private life on here because i don't exactly feel safe on here anymore #which is like great. love it when my primary outlet for like. socially interacting with people casually gets compromised i love it #i literally softblocked like 30 ppl off of here so i could talk abt my weird sex stuff and my body and my deeper thoughts with ppl i trust #and then i still am too conscious about it! this always happens when i make a blog for myself to talk on #maybe i'm just not meant for talking abt things

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