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Man. It really sucks how well aware I am that I need more social interaction, especially with the state of my life and mental health.
I sure would love to join a craft group! It would be great to just go hang out at a library! Would love to be able to easily visit with friends!
Unfortunately, the government has decided to continue to downplay the continuing pandemic, so no one masks or otherwise takes precautions, and I have to just. Not do anything ever again to keep me and my family safe.
No one has actually said it to my face yet, but I get the feeling more and more every day that a lot of people think I’m like. Doing this to myself, by refusing to lower precautions. And I keep sharing info about how bad COVID is and no one is listening. So. Ya know.
#it sucks bc being able to be more social would be good for me on its own#it would also be good bc I could more easily get out of the house when my shitty dad moves back in#since we can’t afford actually leaving and can’t afford the current separation#but no! I’m stuck!#no baby#please wear a mask#seeing all these posts talking about how important being social is#and it’s like correct! however!#it extra sucks bc I have isolationist tendencies when I’m in crisis#which makes it even harder#wahooo
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When you've got the scene perfectly envisioned in your head but you'll be damned if you can get it from your mind to the page.
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how and why can my cats feel the difference between Petting Without Ulterior Motives and Petting With Intent (To Check For Ticks)???
#I found a tick on one of my cats weeks ago (even tho they never go outside!)a#and i just found one down near my other cats genital area#so im concerned my fatter kitties cant reach down there and are getting ticks#so i want to check the others#but they sense i am not innocently giving affection somehow#also the one I'm real concerned about is a stringent protector of her tummy#HATES having her belly touched#and has negative associations with me looking at her rear end (because she doesnt clean it sometimes and i have to do it for her which#she also hates)#which makes it even harder
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Dog Meshi.
#dungeon meshi#falin touden#marcille donato#laios touden#The foreshadowing of the laios's barking is so funny. It isn't even just Marcille's flashback. It's everywhere.#It's the love of dogs. How he intimidates the basilisk. General fascination with creatures and their behaviours.#This is a man who is would not be a furry per say but would own a fursuit for the fascination of the craft.#Laios is the guy in the forums rating people's hybrid fursonas for nothing but the love of creatures.#Dog Laios would use his powers to go into dog-free restaurants.#That human impression is so good. One might say 'Woah who's that confident hairy guy? Alright boss; in you go.'#He would be the no.1 customer of a New York Deli that has no legal business license but makes the best sandwiches in the city.#“Would Senshi run it?” I think he would also be a dog in this theoretical AU. Which...makes the scene even funnier actually.#A comic in which everyone is dogs was never something I thought I'd make but here we are!#Marcille is a borzoi (elf of dogs). Tolden siblings are golden lab-retrievers.#Senshi is a scottish terrier. Chilchuck is harder; I need to think on that one. Another terrier perhaps.#Happy Thistle Thursday once again. I hope this comic makes someone laugh half as much as I did while drawing it.
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both my ears and my septum are stretched enought now that i should probably buy new jewelry for both but i have no money and cant ask my parents to buy it for me bc they dont know im doing this and would hate it lol. so ig ill just keep taping it forever
#also i can find ear plugs in my city but not stretched septum jewelry#so id have to buy it online#which makes it even harder#augh
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the ninth doctor always goes crazy to me because he wasn't an ambivalent god. he was the benevolent, scarred, and cynical god who cared because he couldn't not. when no one else did. because if he didn't do something, no one else would. he was the one with the power, the responsibility, and it hurt him constantly. every life he watched burn out was a tragedy -- a loss. he kissed a servant girl on the head who no one would remember. he closed the eyes of a dead man. he mourned a pig the military shot. he cared them all, no matter how insignifigant and fleeting their lives could have seemed to his. he was a little mean and a little rude and a lot angry (at everyone at everything) but he also had so much joy. he loved knowing he'd lose. and when he regenerated, he simply looked to rose with that big grin on his face and told her she was fantastic -- and so was he.
#I think even in his last moments he was still displaying such mercy. he wouldn't make this harder on rose which????#the ninth doctor#doctor who#SORRRRRRY#i'm just thinking
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I keep thinking about Merlin’s love for Arthur and how it’s so clearly portrayed in the show to the point that it practically drives the plot of the show. However when it comes to Arthur’s love for Merlin it’s more subtle and sometimes difficult to even grasp, and I started thinking why that was, aside from the obvious fact that Arthur has a lot of trouble expressing his emotions affection or otherwise. I think it also lies in the fact that Merlin knows Arthur intrinsically throughout the show; he is one of the closest people to Arthur, and sees him for who he really is. Arthur admits as much.
Sure, Arthur knows Merlin but the main part of the plot is that he really doesn't know Merlin. Merlin wants him to desperately understand him and “see me for who I am” but he can't yet. And I think this subconsciously creates a barrier in the way in which Arthur can care for Merlin, and how Merlin can let himself be seen by Arthur.
Which is why I think he was also so hurt when the magic reveal happens because more than the betrayal of Merlin having magic, it was the betrayal of Merlin not letting Arthur see him for who he really is and for hiding a main part of himself. Arthur says it himself “why did you never tell me” that’s what hurt him the most.
I think the most damning piece of evidence for this is the fact that while we see snippets of Arthur’s feelings for Merlin thought the show, the biggest signs are in the last episode after the magic reveal; in which he finally gets to understand Merlin, and this time REALLY know Merlin, and as the barriers of what held them back from understanding each other truly fall away, Arthur evidently “falls in love with Merlin all over again”. We see him actually express himself to Merlin.
This is another reason why I think if anyone was ever to create another season of Merlin after Arthur’s return, it’s physically impossible not to make it about Merlin and Arthur acknowledging their feelings for each other. Because there is no way forward without them acknowledging how deeply they care for each other, obviously anyone is free to argue what kind of love that is, but its impossible not to see the deep love there either way.
They always knew they loved each other, just maybe never realising how much and what that means, because its almost second nature to everything that they do.
#merlin meta#bbc merlin#merthur#ignore me im literally just rambling#im not sure this even makes sense but i had to yap it out anyway!!#i think merlins love for Arthur surpasses his destiny in a way#He foresakes himself and his people just to ensure Arthur lives#but that turned out to be the undoing of them all#I cannot stress enough how insane this makes me#its sometimes harder to look at Arthur and understand how his love for merlin takes form#but the way he starts taking small steps to check in on merlin when he's being particularly quiet#or noticing the changes in merlin is a good indicator because it is so completely opposite his nature#and ofc the way in which he trusts merlin so completely#remember this is a man who has constant problems with people he chooses to trust#and he also shows time and time again how far he's willing to go beyond the accepted norms to also protect merlin#I think it was always harder for him to allow himself to open about his emotions#and it was much easier to keep it under lock and key to avoid it being seen as a weakness#Obviously thanks to Uthers A+ parenting which could not have helped#but as the seasons go on he begins to open up and thats no small part in thanks to merlins influence in his life#and when it comes to the finale they are both boiled down to raw emotion having to face each other#merlin emrys#arthur pendragon
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my art style is too simple for this but just know that when i draw post-ttt hunter, in my mind he has central pink-brown heterochromia. like this, kinda:
#just..... so neat to me#i love the brown but sometimes i miss the pink + it being a visible grimwalker feature so THIS is how i cope#also To Me his eyes also absolutely reflect pink in the dark still#the owl house#hunter toh#toh hunter#my art#?#my sketches#my doodles#hunter#my toh talk#headcanon#nicole talks#there's also the quite popular complete heterochromia headcanons where his right eye is brown and left magenta#but i can't FULLY commit to those cuz ig the logistics of it depends on what fully happened and WHY hunter's eye color changed. magic-wise#and we don't knowwww! and i'm not sure what to go with and it's gonna bother me if my headcanon is not Air-Tight XNSKSJK#and even if it's “he gets flapjack's eyes thus only the right one” it also won't let me sleep at night cuz#there's the fact that we've SEEN flapjack's left eye open! which might've been an animation error but AUYGHGHHH.....#also . 2 different eye colors make color palettes harder LMAO i make them slightly different when i draw him with brown eyes vs pink. so!#but central heterochromia....... oh my mind is SET on this. like it's canon To Me
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stop thinking so hard about it dude ur gnna get a headache
#breath of the wild#loz#tloz#link#zelda#in general i dont think of botws story so much as others but i also have this idea in my head of link regaining his memories but never#never quite being able to remember her face or even who exactly she was to him . like he sees how they interact in his memory but#he cant remember his own feelings. and maybe he remembers at the end when he sees her but maybe its more complicated than that#like in botw you can make the most of a wartorn world and have all kind of adventures and sidequests and build a home and a town and meet#new people and you cant do all of that on top of the 100 year sleep without coming out of it a different person.#which isnt bad. but i just imagine some things could get harder and harder to remember#' i dont think of botw's story as much as others ' maybe i do actually#meat art
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here are all the recs I posted for femslash february 2024...! each individual rec post can be found in my femslash feb recs tag. I actually thought I wasn't going to be able to do this because work got super chaotic, but in the end I couldn't bear to skip out on a leap year. that's a whole extra day for yuri.
last year I focused on official releases, so this year I wanted to focus on series that aren't technically officially available (plus a french-japanese film). fan translations are always a dicey for artists/translators/publishers/etc because obviously they need to get paid... but yuri's already such an overlooked genre that—in an official capacity—we end up with a couple drops from what's already a pretty small pool. I read hana to hoshi about a decade ago, and I keep submitting it to the seven seas survey for licensure! and yet!! no dice. and even when there are official releases, sometimes they just... disappear!? wish you were gone was licensed and then taken down, so for a while the only way to read it (if you missed out on buying it) was the fan translation. I think it's important to support artists and official releases, and also, to appreciate the thankless endeavor(/crime) of scanlation.
hope yall find something you like!
#femslash february#femslash feb recs#ff recs#recs#rambled a lot for this one lol#but like. yeah. honey & honey is imo a pretty culturally significant work#but I can't see any publishers picking it up for licensure#maybe for a recent autobio manga but certainly not one from 20 years ago#and from a marketing standpoint. it's 'hard' to push yuri as a genre.#bl has an obvious and profitable demographic (women)#m/f has an obvious and profitable demographic (women)#but--if you make a distinction between yuri and H (I do)--yuri doesn't really have an obvious and profitable demographic#so it's a lot harder to pitch yuri... which means it's a lot harder to even introduce yuri to a broader audience...#and thus the cycle continues...#plus there's the whole systemic misogyny embeded into a patriarchal society which devalues stories centered around women etc#anyway the POINT is. commit to yuri duty. be a yuri warrior. write femslash. hype femslash.
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all the yt film snobs were kinda right about saltburn being a tumblr movie since apparently everyone on all other platforms thinks it's an "eat the rich" movie?? like girl did we watch the same movie
#“upper middle class eating the upper class” is not a satisfying movie premise why would you think that's what it is#like it's not perfect but the imperfections are gonna be blinding when you try to see it as something it so clearly isn't#how the fuck did so many people miss the point so hard like the message isn't even that hidden#(just for clarification- i believe one of the messages/themes of the movie is about sore losers who invent a new narrative that portrays#themselves as the winner. that makes it seem like they're some sort of mastermind when in reality they're a sad freak who are willing to do#everything to become one with the elite- to achieve the unachievable)#someone on here posted once that in the UK the gap between the upper class and the middle class is even bigger and harder to close which de#adds to the longing to be a part of the Cattons#saltburn#saltburn 2023
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Thinking about how I used to go to the movie theater with my ex and they'd finger fuck me until I'd soaked through my underwear AND jeans. I'd beg for them to let me cum and they'd slap my pussy, put their other hand around my neck, and tell me to be a good girl and wait until we got home...
#sometimes they'd fuck me harder so that people a couple rows in front could hear how wet i was#then theyd make fun of how easy it was to turn me on#which just made me even wetter#im easy#sapphic#wlw#wlw bd/sm#men dni#wlw concepts#wlw ns/fw#lesbian smut#lesbians#masc lesbian#wlw blog#lesbian daddy kink#brat taming#bd/sm sadist#bd/sm brat#wlw domme#wlw smut#praise and degradation#daddy k!nk#bratty#cnc brat#nsft brat#d/s brat#domme mommy#overstim kink#lesbian concepts
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If only there was essentially a dating site explicitly to get dragged into a pretty girl's basement and made into a cute and adorable girl...
If there’s nothing like it yet, make do with what you have!!! Where do you live cutie? I’m sure we can set something up :3
#Make TumblrDotCom the forcefem victim site!#.#forcefem#i-like-talking#asks open!#..#wasn’t planning to do two posts today#but this anon just came in and was too good to ignore#thanks cutie!#you sparked some inspiration which is making me ignore my bedtime even harder x3#( but seriously thanks! you do half the posting for me and I really appreciate that!!!)
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The Queen in White
The Lord in Black
More than rulers, they are the living Black and White itself, unable to ever fully rid themselves of the other.
Wanted to add some more Yog-Sothoth “knows the gate, is the gate, is the key and guardian of the gate” and Azathoth “our reality is his mindless dream” flavor to Wiggly and Webby in my headcanon in a few ways, and also an idea on why gods have a 5-v-1 stalemate.
#Wiggly Starkid#wiggly#wiggly Lord in black#wiggog y'wrath#webby starkid#webby lib#webby nightmare time#webby hatchetfield#hatchetfield#hatchetverse#nightmare time#Black Friday starkid#nightmare time starkid#Lords in Black#Lords in Black starkid#Queen in White starkid#lib starkid#This also kind of is my headcanon as to why they needed a doll to make the portal work#because for Wiggly to leave the Black and White he needs to be able to open the door from both sides#It's much harder for him to leave than any of his siblings because he's tied so closely with it#Webby is the only one who creates new reality and she's the one who split the timelines#doing so she was essentially mutilating herself which adds another layer of outrage to her actions#she'd butcher herself to spite her brothers and it pisses Wiggly off even more than usual#yes I realize the composition is fucked but only after I'd finished and I'd have to basically start over to get it to look right sorry
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the truth
#blue lock#blue lock fanart#alexis ness#ブルーロック#art#fanart#blue lock manga#my art#michael kaiser#in spirit#i think about scenarios where ness leaves kaiser#whether just to pass to isagi or for good#and i believe this is the key to kaiser's awakening#given that his “identity”/ego first appeared not out of malice but out of the desperation to protect the one thing he cared about (the ball#and of course his monologue in 260 about how he treats the ball explicitly parallels how he treats ness#which makes me believe losing ness or the risk of losing ness is instrumental in kaiser's reawakening#BUT.#kaiser is a deeply sad angry person and he cannot let the world know he's weak#so i fear that ness leaves him and instead of admitting oh maybe i do care kaiser snaps#because ness can't leave him if he pushes ness away harder right?#kaiser telling ness exactly what he was to him#exactly why he approached him in the first place#you're nothing but a dog#an experiment#because fury covers up the hurt (hurt that kaiser is even angrier that he *has*) and so the damage is done#so that's what this doodle is based on el oh el#and ness is left reevaluating every moment they've ever shared and wondering if it was real at all#(because even if kaiser did care he doesn't have the capacity to realize he did-- i do believe his behavior in 243 was genuine and proof he#-cares for ness in the only way he can he just does not understand that yet because he fundamentally does not understand kindness)#and he won't before it's almost too late
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maybe if i just put these screenshots together youll understand why i think their relationship just Works so well as it pertains to the characters and themes of S4 in general
neither of them know what theyre doing, but theyre figuring it out Together. the old ways are dead. and together theyll build a new future thats worth fighting for
#twdg#violentine#clems “i dont know” paired with violets “lets figure it out together”. screaming crying throwing up#clem never knew what she was doing!! she was just trying her best!! and now shes tired as SHIT!!! she wants a break 😭!!!#vi helps take that weight off by supporting her as much as she does (which is A LOT!! and clem supports her in return. they grow together)#that bit in the woods where instead of getting grossed out by the guts vi crouches down to ajs level and keeps the situation calm#and she looks up to clem and gives her a little smile. and clem just relaxes and smiles back !! DO YOU UNDERSTAND !!!#clem being anxious about her reaction. violet putting her at ease. clem getting to Relax for 2 seconds. they help each other CHILL 😭#ALSO why their walk home talking about ericson and renaming it and imagining what they could add to it is just so good narratively#they turned that prison into their HOME!! a place worth fighting for!!!#tenn wanting to help rebuild. vi saying Everyone will :') its a home for ALL OF THEM 😭 its about the COMMUNITY !!!#this is also why i think the friends route still works but theres just even more Juice with the romance. even ignoring minnie#violets “you better not disappear on me”. friended clems “ok” to romanced clems “i promise”#in a season about building a home and a family that second one just hits harder you know? and like above with the learning to dance#i just feel like their romantic relationship specifically fits into the overall themes of the game the strongest and elevates it#me talking at the wall (tumblr drafts)#all of my friends who have played twdg are too normie so i gotta make posts like this instead. or i'll die#wont somebody analyze narrative with me#it speaks
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