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unclefungusthegoat · 5 months

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#just ignore #it's not about me at all #but i want to cry #e*rovision is usually my favourite week of the year #i'm not watching it this year - something that is proving extremely difficult for me because of my intense fixation normally #and I gave it up this year in the hope that there would be a united front against i*rael's participation #... that hope is gone now #not only have I learned that they qualified for the final tonight #and no major protest took place in the arena #but italy seems to have published their televote results #and they seemed to have given them almost 40% of the vote #if that is a pattern across all participating countries #that's likely an i*raeli win #which makes me feel sick to my stomach #why is evil being applauded and rewarded #it seems there was no hope either way #either watch and provide views/money to the ebu who support i*rael #or boycott - leaving only masses of i*rael supporters to vote and get them to do well

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icewindandboringhorror · 9 months

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Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below)#My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm..#pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread...#I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever.#And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

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outlying-hyppocrate · 1 month

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well. did you fucking miss me.

#random thoughts #apologies for sounding in such a sour mood. life is fucked as of late.#scheduled post. i made this on 10.08.2024.#everything has just gone to shit. so far i've been eating less than ever. feels like my stomach is eating itself augh (':#(technically the so-called relapse started on 24.12.2023. but we are not unpacking that today or ever.)#and i am filled with this desperate urge to cut myself. really really deep. not sure how to cope with it #i also?? hate how i look??#and yet i spend all my time?? in this dark dark room?? taking pictures of my face?????#i'm not killing myself off just yet don't worry. i considered it but it won't be happening any time soon.#i originally planned on disappearing for twelve days. partly to make my friends feel bad because i'm awful #which. obviously didn't work. as i don't think anyone noticed or cared particularly.#but mostly because i can't fucking handle it. it being everything. my future feels so uncertain #i am barely alive. i love all the people in my life. but they're too far away physically and emotionally.#but yeah. back finally. although ciel disappears for a lot longer than me and if you know hym my absence would be a small stint.#ciel if you're here when i post this i love you please come back. ):#this place is so scary to come back to. i'm not sure why. i'm just. scared.#i'm not even sure if i want to return really. i'm having second thoughts now. i haven't gotten worse enough #and i can't say what that means. because in theory there's nothing wrong with me that's been speculated upon. so.#i don't think anyone would care if i disappeared for longer than this.#but being away is torture. and then again being here also sort of is. it's scary #fuck.#i can't get out of bed without feeling like shit. i don't know if i can come back. i'm so sick of everything.#if you're seeing this i'm so sorry.#I NEED TO CUT MYSELF I NEED TO CUT MYSELF NOW. I NEED TO. I MADE SO MANY PROMISES BUT I NEED TO DO IT NOW #I'VE GOT THE SCISSORS I NEED TO DO IT #I NEED TO DO IT RIGHT THE FUCK NOW #(<- tags canceled for now)

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robertsbarbie · 5 months

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i’m gonna be so real with yall that was a really hard album to listen to and not like in a bad way it just, it’s so raw and human and beautiful and ultimately devastating. there was so much love and trying and in the end it wasn’t enough, but that love is never lost and it can’t be defined from one place, the torture it causes can’t be defined, it’s a letter filled with loss. and it’s just yeah it’s hard to listen to.

#and the underlying message too it’s just yeah it’s just #and it’ll make me sick to my stomach to see jokes about this album which is so silly but like #it’s so beautiful and haunting and probably objectively her best but it feels like #not her diary but a painting you keep hidden because of how personal it is #anywya i’m done now #eris: listening #music: taylor swift #lb: ttpd

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nabaath-areng · 3 months

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I get so shocked everytime I get sweet and enthusiastic comments/tags on screenshots I post of Ieeha, cause this is the guy on whom I would regularly receive both anons and ingame tells saying shit like "your midlander looks weird", "he'd be so much cuter as a miqo'te" and "your character is ugly you should buy a fantasia" for YEARS

#WHICH IVE NEVER AGREED WITH #sure my confidence in him took a nosedive and i had to put him on the shelf for 2 years #before i could even stand to look at him before feeling sick to my stomach with shame #especially since id adjusted him in ways i didnt like to make him ''palatable'' in rp #and i mean. tumblr had a weird sense of hostility at male midlanders for some reason up until shb #but it still sucked!!!! like... i hate how i let that ruin ieeha for me #and it took a good while after i revamped him to truly feel comfortable #but now im happier than ever with him hes EXACTLY how i want him to be #and i am thriving and making that everyone elses problem <3333 #anyway all this to say i appreciate that people are so sweet here now #because it means a lot to hear for ieeha specifically #silvi talks

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wisecrackingeric-2 · 10 months

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More than anything right now I wish I had somebody to turn to. I wish I could cry to my parents about this or get a hug from somebody or just have SOMEONE believe me and he on my side. I really don’t know how to continue on from here

#looking at any re content rn makes me feel so sick #which has been my worst fuckimg nightmare #like I’ve had panic attacks over this idea kinda worst nightmare #my absolutely biggest nightmare has been that skmething horrible will happen in this fandom that’ll make my stupid autistic brain associate #re with that horrible experience #and that’s exactly what’s happening #my biggest fear is coming to fruition and it’s so so fucking awful #Luis has meant more to me than any other autistic special interest of mine evr has. and just the THOUGHT of loosing that love and devotion #makes me sick to my stomach.#why did these people do this to me #why me #what the fuck did I ever do to them #what did I do to deserve this #I want this to be so fucking over #I wanna go back to shaking my friends over Luis and pretend this never happened #I just want a hug from my parents or someyjing man. I wanna be told it’ll be alright and this shit will be done with #just #what the fuck did I do to deserve this man

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foxett · 3 months

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So im pretty sure this is no regular flu im pretty sure I have pertussis 🤯 (I don't have a diagnosis or a doctor but boy am i showing symptoms)

#foxett rambles #WHERE DID I CATCH THIS. I RARELY GO OUTSIDE FOR MORE THAN 20 MINUTES.#no im serious where did i get this.#il get out of this eventually. the medicine is only making me feel worse so far so im just improvising with whatever.#im coughing less so thats good!! probably because coughing hurts my stomach (i coughed so much that my stomach muscles are hurting)#i might go to the doctor tomorrow!!! keyword might #i promise ill draw art soon again i just think the sickness isn't helping my artblock or whatever i obtained #sickness #??? tagging idk #i have tried and failed to draw for 3 days i feel like sunny from the hit rpg game omori because all i do is lay in bed all day #im sunny fr (I've been distracting myself from real life since school ended and ive gone outside once which was to buy mineral water)

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amber-isnt-a-precious-stone · 10 months

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#just curious #just had a chocolate which i was suprised was mint and i don't like it :C #makes me feel a bit sick tbh x.x #tumblr #tumblr polls #polls #my posts #mint #my stomach goes brrr and my brain goes ew toothpaste flavoured food

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protosstar · 4 months

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#tw suicide #tw overdose #tw suicide attempt #a close friend of mine overdosed for the 4th time in as many weeks last night and i just dont know what to feel anymore #she was sent home from the emergencies the 1st time and was staying with me for the 2nd which i still feel guilty about #how i was an idiot for not hiding any meds while i was in the shower #spent the full day at the hospital with her to make sure she was taken into inpatient care and not just dismissed #then yesterday morning shes released from the hospital and winds up in the same place that dismissed her the 1st time in the evening #and now isnt replying to any of my messages #and im just oscillating between feeling sick to my stomach with anxiety and nothing at all #and then feeling guilty when i feel nothing #or guilty that im angry at her because she purposefully did and said thing to hurt me #but shes hurting and i need and want to give her some slack but i just felt that attachment i had to her fade after the last thing she did #and i cant even bring it up with her bc last time i did she spiralled and didnt talk to me for a week #which is fucking worrying when shes so unstable #but ive not been eating or sleeping and just feel awful and anxious #at least now i have xanax for the panic attacks and dont have to rely on alcohol anymore but god #i just want things to get better #vent #delete later

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bugeyedfreaks · 5 months

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You called the RowdyRuff Boys episode a blight on the show, but personally really like the episode. And thought their episodes in the season 5 were among the better ones that season (not that that's a very high bar mind you.)

It's really more the fandoms obsession with them (and shipping) vs. every other supporting character and aspect of the show that I find really aggravating a lot of the time.

(but then, shipping tends to be worst aspect of a lot of fandoms, PPG is just an outlier since the most popular ship includes such minor one dimensional characters, not to mention outside a handful of episodes theirs basically no romance in the show itself)

What is it you don't like about the episode, aside from the fandoms reaction to it?

Eh, I was just being (as I usually am, haha) hyperbolic. It’s honestly a pretty okay episode (I do like the montage of the girls beating up Mojo and his fun adventures in prison mixing things in a toilet to create the “perfect” little boys… perfectly evil, anyway), but the fandom’s just irreparably soured me on the characters that I can’t really get through it anymore without being like… blech.

#every year I feel like I hate them more and more #not only are they like the weird popular thing (whereas I guess I just gravitate towards the stupid unpopular things…. lol)#i’ve just come across too much fandom drama that has somehow included them in some way #enough for me to just get sick to my stomach if I watch an episode with them nowadays #which obvs didn’t happen when i initially watched the show but yeah #sometimes fandom just makes things not fun :/#or enjoyable #also as usual no offense to anyone who likes them because clearly they are very popular and idc it’s been this way for 25+ years

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shittygothbitch · 12 days

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#i think i know part of whats bothering me about it #so like. my ex Knows Knows that i Can Not accept food from others #idrk why thats the case but #accepting food as a gift makes me feel sick to my stomach #and especially from my ex's friend like #he should have told them not to #and like maybe he did and they just didnt listen and bulldozed thru it cause thats the type of person that they are #which is a big thing about them that i dont like #but idk #i think I'm overthinking this #I'm stressed #I'm So Fucking Stressed

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curly-cottage-girl · 1 month

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what do you MEAN I have to face old wounds and fears in order to achieve things in life and grow as a person in those specific areas that’s where I’m sensitive!!

#I’m gonna thrup #took tomorrow off to get totally better from being sick #and my brain decided to speed run all my nebulous anxieties about certain things in the future #and how I need to be doing MORE right NOW #and how it’s all gonna be completely TERRIBLE if I don’t do everything now and perfectly and it makes me a pathetic person #and then I look under the surface and it’s like #hmm I remember this issue what are you doing here #which like #HELPS to see that that’s what it is #and as I get older and wiser I feel more capable of dealing with stuff every time #but still!!!!#I need to focus on relaxing but apparently the closest I can get to that is rotting #before it turns into full blown vague panic #ughhghhhhhhhhhh now my stomach hurts

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icewindandboringhorror · 2 months

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#OUghh... I've been really sick the past few days like not able to keep food down and had to go to the hospital #to get iv fluids and etc. to stay hydrated lol...#perhaps some sort of stomach virus or something. but still very grrrr for it to happen in the middle of the evil summer of #course #when everything is hot and uncomfortable anyway.. I really wanted to get a sims video and costume pictures finished this week and keep #up writing like 1000 ish words a day for my game. but.. alas... the universe was like... I Think Not #I at least have been able to have some tea and juice and applesauce and like 4 saltine crackers today so #I always think it's funny when you're ill what sort of little things count as successes #like on any normal day eating a few crackers would just be something you don't even give a second thought #to . But when you're really sick it's like .. WOW.. I ate TWO crackers.. amazing.. huzzah... I should get an award certainly #call the press and alert them. I should be in the newspaper headlines for this harrowing feat. etc. lol #I still feel very shaky and weak though.. but am like... hhhhh... when can I work on my projects again...#Also I literaly never leave the house or have contact with anyone so maybe it's not a virus and was more food poisioning or something #since I'm not sure where I'd get a virus even but... regardless... stinky #just complaining since I suppose that is what personal blogs are for lol. I'm a private person in the sense of wanting to proect my identi #ty and like.. I dont want an alexa in my house listening to me all the time and I dont tag my real location on social media or share photos #that could reveal the front of my house or etc. etc. But in all other senses I really don't beleive in holding stuff in. Because it will #just fester. especially when it has to do with other people (like relationship issues or something) but even when its just stuff that only #has to do with you. If something annoys me then I shall let it be openly known. if I'm bothered it will be clear. etc.#Which I guess makes me seem like a Hater And Complainer but I guess I just feel like its better over all to explain and express openly #than to just silently stew and hold everything in and then probably feel worse for it later or something.#Expressing annoyance is kind of like casting the concept off from yourself and releasing it into the wild so that you're not harboring it #anymore. all grievances must be aired eventually. etc. this is a Pro complaining zone lol #If you feel like shit dont hide it. just go 'man I feel like shit'. etc. etc. Cast it off into the universe. be free #ANYWAY... aughhh......... the wizard has fallen ill in his stinky little tower.. pacing the stone floors in tattered robes. hair disheveled #. carefully sipping a single cup of tea over the course of an hour lest drinking too fast upset his fragile stomachs againe..

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fvckednddistvrbed · 2 months

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i ate a lot today, not as much as other days, but still im disappointed with myself and starting to feel sick. why cant i be good at restriction? god this makes me wanna sh so fucking bad

#tw s3lf harm #i dont even feel sick from eating too much like usual #its like the feeling of food in my stomach is making my throat feel tight and its activating my gag reflex a bit so i feel like im gonna tu #tw 3d shit #tw 3d vent #3d ana #not exactly pro a*a but not anti either.. :/#i want to post more in this community and get mutuals and get help with navigating this whole thing but im scared cause ive seen #so many people have their whole accounts deleted and i think i would actually kms if that happened since ive had my main for like 8 years #and to be clear im very pro recovery #which i know i know conflicts with the whole wanting mutuals to *help* me with an ed and not help me to *not* have an ed #i think everyone deserves to recover and i hope i do but right now is just not fucking it for me #so for not its a whole lotta #male thinpo #slef harm #right and i definitely cant talk about being b p d uncensored or ill get reported cause the b*d community is super toxic but in the way that #slef harm and scars are chillin but eds are actually a real struggle™️ and you should have it in secret like everyone else #not to generalize all pw b*pd obviously many and probably most arent like this #but tumblr is a very concentrated dose of that kinda person and its sad for us pw b*pd that are both kinds of toxic LMAO #i joke of course #anyway yeah pro recovery for sure but not currently in recovery #ana moots #body chex #someone who could help with that maybe idk im also kinda shy so maybe just someone to help me with restrictions and staying accountable #at least for now #also if you sh all the better cause i will wanna talk about that too #also to clarify my earlier statement 'not pro a*a' means i dont think and 3d is a lifestyle and i recognize that im sick #but 'not exactly anti' means im not going to avoid these communities or report people in them for being pro #because thats about as effective as throwing out an addicts stash or hiding sharp objects from a chronic sh'r- theyll still find a way #and probably way easier and faster than you think and theyll feel even more alienated and less inclined to seek help

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thethingything · 7 months

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I used the prescription toothpaste and managed to not end up dry heaving for several minutes while brushing my teeth. within about 5 minutes of finishing brushing I start to feel like I'm gonna throw up regardless. I feel shaky and nauseous and I've also almost thrown up so many times while brushing my teeth lately that the act of brushing them now seems to activate our fight or flight respose and I feel like I'm about to start crying. awesome /s.

I really don't know what to do about any of this because I can mention it to our dentist on Thursday but I don't think there are any alternatives that won't just do the same thing

#thoughts #personal #🍬 post #vent post #emetophobia tw #I feel like I've talked about the toothpaste a lot but unfortunately this is a big deal because of how fucked our teeth are #but I genuinely don't think I can handle using this on a regular basis #I feel so unbelievably sick and if we use it every day we start feeling sick all the time and that also makes it hard to eat #which is really triggering now after that 10 months of being ill where our appetite was fucked and we struggled to eat anything #my stomach actually kind of hurts a little bit on top of me feeling really sick #like the food poisoning kind of sensation we had yesterday so I think that was from the toothpaste after all #we try very hard not to swallow any but like it's in your mouth so you can't exactly avoid that fully #my throat feels irritated and weird too actually and I've just realised this might be why we've had a sore throat over the last few days

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mercymaker · 7 months

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i just want to sleep and rest and not have all this tummy pain

#life #i'm just... going through it fam #on top of that i'm also getting sick #been coughing and woke up with a sore throat today #doesn't help that waltz is screaming crying at our bedroom door every morning at like 7am #and i'm such a light sleeper that it just wakes me the fuck up #and i can't fall back asleep #so i'm just constantly tired and sleep deprived and can never rest #which in turn makes my stomach hurt more #which ruins my quality of sleep #and it's just this endless cycle of feeling like shit #anyway... i also downloaded don't starve together and tried playing a little #and i fear this might become a problem #i'm really bad at the game though lmao #but i can survive winter so there's that on that

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