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talkorsomething · 5 months

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I can't really believe the season is over... weirdly enough it was the song about uhm ... [redacted] that made me feel like crying about it. It is only the first day back, though...

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Well, there's another big change now, too. That doesn't really help...

Everyone said we're going to make plans for the summer. I really hope that happens, because, well, these are my only irl 'friends'. (in quotes because i love* most of them so much but i really feel like i didn't connect with ANYONE over the season :( )

*? appreciate? I Wish To Be Friends With Them

#100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ #winterguard #winter guard #by redacted i just mean . i don't want to put that in the guard tag but it might be obvious by actially looking at my blog #it was a good week at championships but it was also just ............ i dunno.#the people i was rooming with i haven't really talked to talked to all season #and apparently they've been friends for ..... a while #and came to every practice together #AND they do not talk nearly as much as the group of people i've stuck with all season #so it was kind of just ... me trying to find someone to hang out with/play something with #and even that didn't really work out so well...#like! i had fun! i had a good time! ...but also it was hard to not feel left out of what was going on.#and I know for a fact i tried coming out to all 3 of them and yet.......#i think i'm just going through it again idk #who even knows how i'll feel tomorrow...

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front-facing-pokemon · 1 year

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#manectric #i woke up at like noon today y'all i'm queuing this after work. i forgot about it all day and i was about to hop on totk #but i got the reminder to do it. so here i am. with manectric #el woowoo‚ if you will #a lot happened. yesterday. it was not a very good day. which is why i woke up so late. it was a little bit rough. but i guess it's a new day #so. it'll get better. planning on Not Doing Shit today or tomorrow to compensate for all the Bullshit that happened yesterday #hoping you all are doing well. one week from today (friday june sixteenth) i'll be hopping on a flight for the first time in 10 years #looks like according to the queue this will actually go up the day before we leave. so‚ to you guys‚ i'll be heading out tomorrow #which is scary a little bit. last time i flew i had no idea i was autistic‚ but now that i've come up with a lot of better accommodations #for myself and i understand myself a lot better and my needs‚ i'm realizing a lot of my accommodations just aren't gonna make it through TSA #plus it's a lot of unfamilarity with unfamiliar people and an unfamiliar environment which i feel like is gonna lend itself to sensory #overload like Immediately and i'm probably gonna get a headache bc that's how it manifests for me #so when we get there i'm probably gonna have to run to the nearest pharmacy. and grab some shit. which is annoying! so. i'm a little #worried. about the trip. NONE OF HTIS IS ABOUT MANECTRIC SORRY #this is a pokémon i have a hard time caring about outside of its involvement as the leader of the electrike in amp plains #that's about it #any tips from frequent flyers who are autistic would be greatly appreciated. not even just about flying but about like. going to unfamiliar #places on the other end of the country and stuff. i feel like that's what i'm most worried about even though i'm worried abt all of it #also hi i'm writing these tags from day-of. like the actual day this is going to post. me from a week ago sure did know what she was talking #about! anyway. i'm. gonna like. take my meds now goodBye see you all when this Posts in a few hours

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perilegs · 4 months

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being homesick and changing as a person so much the place you grew up in isn't your home anymore is such a core part of ati and upon further inspection i think i was projecting a little

#like yea that is a very common basic thing that happens to a lot if not most adults #but also i think i get homesick a bit too easy #when i moved away from home i moved to the closest big city that's only an hour away and i was already deeply familiar with it #but i was so sad despite knowing i personally could never thrive in my hometown #i wanted to experience the big city but it was so scary and it still is and i miss the comforts of my hometown but it's not just me that #has changed #dont get me wrong i wouldnt move back bc i have hobbies and friends and a job and most likely a career in the city i live in #and this truly is a place i don't think i could ever move away from. unless it is to a neighboring city #it's so hard for me to imagine there are people who move not just across the country but a completely different country and they just. adap #i could never. i was visiting my hometown every week for like the first year i lived here #i eventually want to move to a bigger apartment and ive been looking at places already even tho i need to graduate before doing that #and i'm. getting homesick just thinking about moving to a different part of the city.#i like the area i live in. i like the cornerstore and the distance to the closest grocery stores and parks #i like how my grandma used to live in this area when she was around my age #i'm not good with change and i know it but there are several things about moving that make me miserable #like yeah obviously i will move out from my single bedroom apartment when i can and i'll be so happy and it'll be good for me #but despite having lived here for only a bit more than 4 years i'll miss this apartment. i have so many good memories from here and i'll #never be able to visit it again and have it feel the same #but that's the least sad thing imo. i dread being in a different area more lmao #but it's fine i know i'll adapt as long as i don't have to move to a different city ever again gfsahgak #idk ive had a long day and im feeling a bit melancholic #i'll sleep in tomorrow >:3c #leevi talks

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slightlytoastedbagel · 18 days

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with how hard the total drama train has hit me this time I'm doing a tier list on every character tomorrow (guygirlthing who has not even watched Pahkitew Island) (or The Ridonculous Race)

#everyday ridonculous race tempts me further. however i know there is ONE GUY from pahkitew and i feel like in order to know his deal #i need to watch pahkitew. and i don't exactly want to because i know how much people hate it #even then. more owen and noah. more GEOFF. i wouldn't have expected geoff of all characters to make a comeback but i'm not complaining #geoff is great. kinda sad bridgette isn't with him but then again. she probably is less willing to go back to reality tv compared to him #also this hypothetical tierlist is happening tomorrow since. the sleepy. it's late #i know like. 2 people who care about total drama but still ffmeofnep #(and if i do watch pahkitew and ridonculous i'll make an updated one)

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menshusband · 5 months

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What does a man have to do not to live in constant dread

#this is about school #mostly #i hate it here chat #what am i to do #someone.....if you have any advice... please #i have an oral test tomorrow i have to learn by heart two texts in chinese and learn 100 new vocabulary words #help. drowning #literally #can no longer keep it up #for the record I'm demotivated because my efforts never take me to satisfactory results #and yea sure nothing changes overnight #but like. I've been trying for at least 8 years now? aren't things supposed to get better after a while I'm trying?#I've tried changing methods eh #anyways. unsatisfactory results. and it gets frustrating because I feel so disappointing because I know before starting that I won't be abl #to do The Thing. get to complete homework? memorise something? BE ABLE TO FUCKING TALK LIKE A NORMAL PERSON WHO KNOWS HOW TO TALK???#you name it. i just can't do it #in school specifically but outside too #only outside of school i don't whip my ass about it because who fucking cares #but this is something that will influence my future chances of getting jobs too #like i cant talk the way i do in a job interview nobody's going to think i have basic communication skills or even basic human skills at al #ah nevermind it's fine #I'll find a way #some day #i guess #the unsilly

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autumnrory · 2 months

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woooo my niece took 5 of my 13 lego sets, one of which was one of the three larger ones, so that's one huge box out of the way and i'm just glad she wanted them because like they ARE twenty years old and they look fine ofc but sometimes kids aren't gonna want stuff that isn't new and shiny ya know, but she did seem to want everything which would've been fine with me but i knew there was no way they would take all that with them, and at least i still have stuff of my own to sell, plus should get at least a cut of my brother's stuff for doing the inventory and putting together that stuff that wasn't already done

#i mentioned the hp sets and how they had been pretty much left together and he was like '....i had harry potter sets?'#which once he saw them he did think they were familiar which was some of my feeling with mine #like oh YEAH i do remember these i just didn't remember having so many #i mean between 13 sets it's really like 3 categories so i would've played with like the whole ice palace and its related sets #i do just wonder how it'll be at the store like everything is pretty much in fine shape #and probably there are people who want older stuff that's rarer and whatever now #BUT then there might be more of a demand for newer stuff at a better price or whatever idk #anyway 6 sets left in the upstairs and then the bionicles and statue of liberty are still in the attic #i'm still not convinced there couldn't be another box somewhere bc idk how to explain the few sets #that are missing so much that i can't actually do them bc even if we had gotten rid of some why would we not include the huge base or w/e #anyway we'll see! but i'm getting closer! and i did a little one this morning #that seemed to be complete it didn't list some of the pieces as extras but based on the instructions i figure they have to be #so i don't really need them like i'll include them if i find them and they're not needed for something else but yeah #anyway i can go back to fic though these first two at least are short so i may be going back to another one tomorrow #can't wait to have my room back though fr like #it is not the only thing making it feel messy because i have newer jewelry and clothes and stuff that i just have to organize and put away #but man the jewelry situation is just. it's not even having so many pieces it's like big earrings that take up a lot of space or whatever #so i just have not wanted to deal with it but it's kinda out of hand #but i can really think about that after this particular project is done #and do puzzles again oh my god i have 3 puzzles waiting for me at least #plus my mom always has a bunch to be done since everyone knows to buy her puzzles lol but that has also gotten out of hand #i wouldn't mind getting rid of a couple of mine though just bc it is like okay you do it but then you just have it and it takes up space #would be cool to have pretty ones framed tho

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cinnamon-bunni · 26 days

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NOT okay right now im thinking abt pokemon leaving scars on their trainers + everyday, domestic problems.....

#this is abt my top gun au btw <3333 which will forever haunt me even though im less likely to write it everyday </3333 #like.....getting thin scars from rowlet as a kid which have now all basically faded to time #(though the ones gained as a teen from dartrix can still be seen)#while in the other hand always having angry red scratches along both arms because hes always holding up rufflet who fights like no tomorrow #(believe me; its better to hold him up and take the damage than put him down and let rufflet pick a fight with someone)#OR like....getting electrical burns because elekid doesnt know how to control its discharge yet. and the scars that stay bc of that #(which tbh is an ash + pikachu thing i would love to see)#or how one accidental poison jab from toxicroak will leave you utterly sick for days #(like serious he should probably go to a hospital or smth) and toxi just has the biggest saddest puppy dog eyes in existence it feels so ba #(its fine this has happened before he'll be fine. probably)#bruisings on your shins bc pawmot punches your legs to grab your attention or to get smth it wants....#rooms always being like ten to twenty degrees colder (or even more) when he has his ice pokemon out for whatever reason...#the reverse of that with fire types..... ough...#having to BEG flygon not to fly rn bc it starts a sandstorm every fucking time and it does it anyway #(PLEASE i took you out of your ball to eat dinner why cant yiu behave this one time)#and then dragonair fixing it to be clear skies again.....the never ending cycle....#any trainer who have pokemon that start sandstorm needing a pair of safety goggles for when they battle #(maybe even bringing a spare just in case or--if theyre kind enough--for their opponent to wear so they can see too)#dont even get me started on mythical pokemon interacting with the tg characters.....#anyway tried to stay as vague as possible for the characters lolol #bergmite is just a lil guy who wants to be carried around like all the other small 'mons....i am so sorry sweetie you are over 200 pounds #you cannot be perched on your trainers shoulder like someone else's rufflet can #having ice burns bc froslass tried to freeze him.....#anyway. can you tell i love pokemon #sorry to anyone who sees this in the pokemon tag </333 #delete later #i feel like im begging on my knees for someone to ask abt my au....but also if they did id die of embarrassment from answering it...#the pros and cons of having a dumb little au </3 #sigh maybe one day i'll write a fic... (<-keeps saying it but has written nothing for it (yet))

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pumaskulls · 2 months

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having the everything happen to you at once is not fun, can confirm

#my art #doodles #my persona #it me #vent post #i dont think im gonna get anymore attacks done this year 😭#family drama w/ my cousin and his fiancée that stresses me out despite not being involved #bc i love them both dearly and theyre Going Thru It #having to mourn a friendship thats apparently been over for a year w/o my knowledge #and feeling like utter shit bc i considered them one of my best friends #and work barely giving me hours so stressing about all my medical expenses if this keeps up #AND to top it off. starting yet another new medication tomorrow #so who knows how thats gonna interact w all my other ones #im just tired. and sad. and feeling utterly worthless #trying to stay positive despite it all tho so Maybe i WILL get an art done before this years fight is over #cant discount the possibility of suddenly having all my motivation to be productive return #sometime in the next 24 hours #or maybe i'll just draw stuff for myself to cheer myself up! who knows!#i will not let this consume me. even tho ive let it consume me for several days. im fighting!#im gonna find a way to be positive thru this even if it kills me

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bangcakes · 10 months

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#JDJJDJDJDJD weve been messaging so much.... i havent seen him in a week tho #we see each other tomorrow so im excited but nervous JDJJFJFJFJFJFJFMMFMFMDMDM #IDKKKK. im pretty sure my feelings are reciprocated bc why else is he randomly messaging me and replying super fast #when ik for a fact that he doesnt really talk to ppl or answer back... not to mention showing up to class when he doesnt need to #and usually wouldnt. im just... HMMMMMMMMM the common denominator is meeeee #and even if its just friendship.... (it doesnt feel like it tho LMAO) i'll be ok with it idk. i just want him in my life JXJXJJDKDKFKFKF #SUCH A SCARY THING TO SAY. GOD. i just like him so much #im a broken record LMAO........#given how i always went crazy over sj n jb who i like... dont even know... i really should have seen this comin for a guy id actually know.#ohhhh man......#n e way JDJFJFJJFJFJFJFJFJ #gotta get this out........#personal

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imflyingfish · 2 months

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Sigh

#having to organise 5hings and stuff tomorrow #im actually a liytle miffed im not sure why #im planned to hangout with my sister in town tmmr but then my friend is also in town and i need to go out with my mum to #do something and oh my godddd can people just tell me what time theyre doing stuff and then i can match that #sigh #also can my new boss tell me when to come in to work please. girl u CALLED me at 8am and yet you cant even #tell me when im busy this week who do u think i am #anyway.#and ive gone to bed too late and i dont know why #so im going to wake up late and make myself even more time pressured for nothing #oh i jsut realised how i can combine 2 things maybe #hopefully #yeah i feel bad bc like. i want to hang out with my sister AND my friend #but i feel like my sister wont want to hang out with me and my friend #even though i did the same thing last week with her friends #so IDK.#i'll see in the morning

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dontmeanyoudontmissit · 5 months

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So anyways my plan for the next two months is to kickass at work while I get another job and then leave their asses.

#I'm so mad about this #I've been at this company for 6 years and for the most part everyone I've worked with has been great #Easy to get along with. Smart. Caring.#I've had some not so great bosses and every once in a while I've encountered problem people #But repeatedly one person (not in my vertical but a key person in my org)#Has repeatedly made me feel like shit. Even if she claims to mean well or whatever #I absolutely never feel like we're ok the same team. It always feels like it's her team or death #Which is not an environment I thrive in #And then her boss (who is also my bosses boss) either feeds into that or exacerbates it #I wish I had had the words during our engagement survey because I'm not the only one who feels this way #So many people go into a meeting with her expecting to talk about one thing and instead she asks for something else entirely #It consistently feels like she has no trust in her team and she does not want to foster a culture of 'we're in the same team'#She is fostering a culture of 'im the boss so I'll dictate exactly what I want and I am free to change it at any time'#So. Anyways. If you know of companies hiring in their product or portfolio space hit me up.#I spent 10 hours trying not to cry at work today and then had three separate little cries #Going to going with my boss a little about taking a week off soon #He's going to be alarmed and concerned but like. He should be.#(my boss is generally great my only complaint is that he hasn't figure out how to work with his boss yet so that's compounding my issues.#But that is not all on him. And he has never once made me feel like we're not on the same team)#Blah blah ok. Tomorrow I work and then do the life shit I didn't do today #The day after that I do a second pass at my resume #And use a working block at work to figure out what I want (and sketch out my teams pain points and potential solutions)

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katierosefun · 1 year

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in my crowley era (receiving copious amount of wine)

#caroline talks #ie. wine shipment supposed to come in tomorrow. i feel so fancy bc i now also officially have wine glasses #they're stemless ofc but y'know! i'll take what i can get!#tw alcohol #i unfortunately might not be able to enjoy the wine right away though bc i am just. unfortunately so BUSY this week #how is law school week 2 already so BUSYYYY #but like. y'know. it's fine. maybe if i get my work done i can have a cheeky lil' drink by saturday evening. WHO KNOWS.

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elytrafemme · 8 months

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oh also very promising life update the close friend of mine who i have a massive crush on i no longer seem to really care about? they've been frustrating to me. they said they miss me earlier but like. we're around each other almost every day. we don't talk like that much. but this is a fixable issue. told them about the concert though. and honestly i don't really give a shit about the other minor stuff we did past that. it doesn't matter. they will survive.

#nightmare.personal #this person has more friends than literally anyone i have known in my entire life #i am not even remotely one of their closest though i am in their close friends college circle obviously #and yes we have one massive plan together and i will stick with it #but like. they don't miss me. it's not even a why it's somewhat a how but mostly just factual #whatever. i don't really care. they have a lot of friends #and i'm busy. i don't know if this is like a massive fucking issue or something but i do have shit to do #whatever. i'll see them tomorrow. and we won't talk #i don't feel much of anything about it anymore #like they're the person who is always down to do something with me #but that honestly like. i don't know. i don't really care is the thing #their heart is elsewhere forever. and i'm busy

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misfit-among-the-angels · 1 year

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If i wouldn't be as tired I'd relapse.

#maybe i will who knows #I mean i feel miserable and can't handle anything especially thoughts about how my “allergy” won't go away and that tomorrow #It might be even worse and that it actually means that I'll have to go through another loss of tooth with lots of pain #But also i don't have money so....#personal

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asiananeurysm · 2 years

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#lmao me working constantly at a job where i can't be on my phone means I'm never online anymore #work update again: boss must have realized get expectations were unrealistic bc she was much better today #my usual trainer was back and i really like her #i am still a ball of anxiety constantly scared i am messing up but I'm trying to overcome it #i just feel like i got so frazzled yesterday that it is seeping into me even today #i feel like i almost certainly forgot to do a very simple thing and messed up a pile of stuff from the crappiness of yesterday #but really today was much better than yesterday and hopefully tomorrow will be much better than today and on and on #my coworker who got me this job keeps reassuring me that she saw how well i did at my old job and she knows without a doubt I'll succeed #my former coworker says the same. really anyone that's ever worked with me says I'm made for this kinda thing #but I can't quite make my brain shut up #one more day then the weekend. i can do this. i can i can i can #personal

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noxianwilled · 1 year

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hm. it's almost 1am I'm having the urge to make another blog and i'll just leave this here and go to bed but

#» out of character — ⌜main sup irl.⌟#tell me not to #i keep arguing with myself my brain is currently stuck on kat channel either way and I'll end up here most of the time #but still #me posting this when shyvanas sideblog is abandoned shame shame shame #i did save a url for cass #..... but then again i wish there was one for me to interact eith jshdsjudishd #with #idk how to write I'm this close 🤏 to falling asleep #i might not even make anything at all o. the end but #in #idk i can't type #anyway #vote the write in the blogs you already have option so #tomorrow when i opened this #i can be like 'yeah that's fair'#alternatively suggest champions and who knows maybe there's sb i feel i could write

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