Ghost with a Transmasc!S/O
I've been wanting to write this since last week! I'm not exactly happy with how it turned out, but maybe someone else can enjoy it as well!
When you’d approach him, all nervous and fumbling around, he’d just stay quiet. Sure, he’ll tell you that, no matter what, you can tell him anything and he won’t judge you, but he won’t pressure you into telling him what’s wrong either, even if he is pretty curious. If you need an hour until you can tell him, then he’ll wait that hour, reassuring you that it’s alright. Once you tell him that you’re a man, he would only be half surprised. He’s seen how you eye other men. While he may have thought that could have been attraction at first, once you come out to him, all the pieces fall into place. You weren’t in love with them, you were admiring them. However, he won’t judge you in the slightest, but will talk to you about what’s okay for you and what isn’t. Are you alright with him bringing up the past? Are you alright with him referring to certain body parts? If not, then he’ll keep that in mind. He’s never really been dysphoric before, so he doesn’t really know what you’re going through, but he tries his darndest to be supportive of you.
In fact, you coming out to him as a trans man makes him think about his own masculinity. What does it mean to him? How would he define it? What makes him feel masculine? Those are things he never really questioned before since he’s never seen himself as anything but a man, he always took it for granted. Although he may not say it, or even realize it at first, I think he might grow more comfortable in his own masculinity as a result.
But that aside, the first thing he does would be taking you to a clothes store to buy you some new clothes. He doesn’t really have an eye for aesthetics, and menswear being usually rather dark in color doesn’t help that much either, but he’ll pick out some shirts and pants for you that would fit you and that you might like. He’d also pick out some boxer shorts for you, the same brand that he uses since those are of a higher quality and will last a bit longer. If you’re extremely nervous about it, then he’ll even go to the cashier and pay for you. You don’t even need to pay him back. As long as he can help you out somehow, he’ll pay any price. Will also buy you some men’s body wash and deodorant. Probably the same he uses since he’s familiar with it.
If you’re alright with it, then he’ll break anyone’s nose who dares to misgender you. Especially on the days where you’re feeling a bit more dysphoric. Naturally, he won’t out you to people when there’s danger involved or when you tell him not to, but he’s not above getting into a fight for you. Especially when some transphobe decides they need to be mean to you for no reason. He’s a scary man, he can intimidate most people with his resting face alone, which he uses to his advantage.
If you can get the approval for your surgeries and testosterone the regular way, then he’ll congratulate you and celebrate with you even. However, if you were denied such, then he has acquaintances who can get you the permits. Nikolai is a good lad, he can get you just about anything. Ghost will fight for your clinical reports.
Once you start going on T, he’ll actually be overjoyed with you. As silly as it may sound, he wants to record you saying something, anything at all, so he can compare your voice now to how it develops later on. He’s pretty good with faces, he probably has a few pictures of you on his phone, even if they aren’t plenty, so he’s confident he’ll be able to tell you how you’re slowly growing into a body that is yours. If you let him, he’ll even administer your shots or rub the gel onto your shoulders. It actually makes him incredibly happy when you do, it’s a sign of trust to him. He gets to watch you be giddy, he gets to spend time with you, he gets to make you feel good. If it was up to him, then he’d hug you every time afterwards.
If you don’t know already, then he’ll teach you how to fight. He’ll teach you how to beat someone bloody and how to get up with a broken nose. Although he may go easy on you at first, he won’t forever. He’s a top notch soldier, so there’s a good chance you won’t ever be able to beat him properly, but you’ll learn. You’ll be able to defend yourself and you’ll have a pretty nice outlet for your anger as well. If you’re okay with it, then he’ll involve Soap in your fighting sessions as well. It’s absolutely animalistic when he joins, so you really don’t need to worry about any sort of etiquette when he’s around. It’s just beating each other into submission and then patching each other up.
If you don’t already know, then he’ll teach you how to ride a motorcycle. For some reason, motorcycles are very masculine to him, so he thinks it would make you feel good as well. One day, you’ll be riding one together, with him being the one to hold onto you. He’s looking forward to that day.
On the days where the dysphoria hits harder than usual, he’ll remind you that you’re a man. You’re the most perfect man in his life, and he wouldn’t want to have it any other way. Holds you close and reminds you that you will become your most ideal self, it just takes time. Either way, he won’t leave you, he won’t think of you as less than a man just because you had to put in the work to get to where you are right now. You’re his most ideal man, and he would go through all the torture he’s gone through once more just to be with you. He’ll support you through your highs and your lows. You’re a man. A darn good one at that, because not anyone can go through what you’re going through and still be standing. He admires you greatly for your strength and will remind you of that fact as well.
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How’s Fields of Mistria? You mentioning it was the second time I heard of it, the first time being in passing, so I’m not too knowledgeable about the game.
AWWW THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ASKING!!
Fields of Mistria is SUPER fun, since there's not much to do in it after you've completed the first year right now, I've dedicated myself to breeding and collecting all the seasonal variants of horses so I can name them after the four Horsemen of the Apocalypse!
I also named all my barns after metamorphised lovers in greek myth because I have exactly one thought running through my head at any given point in time (Currently there's Crocus Coop where I keep my (gorgeous wonderful lovely adorable ouugh I LOVE THEMMM!!) blue chickens
Cypress Barn where I keep my wonderful cows (who have been with me the longest and whom I cherish immensely! I'm not sure if Autumn cows are possible but I'm definitely aiming for a barn of all red and autumnal cows for obvious reasons)
Minthe Barn where I keep all of my other large animals like sheep, alpacas and my very first beloved Chiron (black and white) and Iris (brown with spots) (the foal is Rigel) 🥺
And Hyacinthus Barn where I have a collection of small animals like rabbits, capybaras and my PRIZED DUCKS LEDA (the pretty blue and green duckie) AND CYCNUS (the pure white duck meant to mimic a swan!!) Even though it's technically a coop, I mistakenly labelled it a barn when I was inputting the name and I never changed it LOL
My farm is also named after THE metamorphosized lover, Daphne herself, so it's called Laurel Farm
And I'm planning for my Seasonal Horse barn to be named after the poplar since I quite like Leuke's story and I think she's fitting of housing the horses that will be the steeds of War, Pestilence, Conquest and Famine :)
Bonus: My house is still small and eclectically decorated, but keeping in theme with my farm, I do hope to go for a flower/garden theme
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the recipes for... | track 5 ― fondant au chocolat
Translation: en
Proofreading: aca, dimi, kimi, myun, jay, jelly
"PatiBattle? Are patissiers going to battle...?"
And so, that evening…
After I got home and had some snacks, I happened to glance at the TV that the Robo-Mama had needlessly put on for me.
"PatiBattle? Are patissiers going to battle…?"
I had time to kill, so it was really just by accident that I happened to see the anime that was airing on the TV.
"…Huh?"
I couldn't take my eyes off the screen.
"Wow, this looks cool…"
I'd discovered something.
"This is crazy…!"
I had… discovered something amazing.
PatiBattle. Chiyoda Reito. It was like I'd been crossed by fate and destiny.
"…"
I watched in rapt silence. Something felt like it was clicking into place inside of me.
PatiBattle was everything that I desired from the bottom of my heart: a story packed full of excitement, youth, and friendship.
My heart couldn't stop pounding in pure excitement.
Before my eyes, colour returned to the ashen grey remains of my world after the fire had incinerated everything.
"Aah…"
Seeing the protagonist and his rival compete against each other, and then exchanging praises and hugging each other after a good match brought me almost to the point of tears.
Suddenly, I remembered what Muu-chan had told me earlier.
"I'd like to give you a hug."
It was then that I realised…
I'd thought that I'd hated everything in the world― but there was still one thing I loved dearly: Muu-chan.
I'd regained one thing that I loved.
"…"
In the blink of an eye, the credits were already rolling.
The original author's name was shown in the credits, so I supposed it must have originally been a manga. Following my curiosity, I found myself ordering the volumes online before I could think better.
While I was madly typing away on my phone, Robo-Mama aimlessly peered at my screen.
"…Hey."
"…"
"Recently, you've been turning on the lights while you do chores, and you turn on the TV now, too."
"…, …"
"Are you… looking out for me?"
"This is just between you and me, but… I don't really hate you that much."
"…"
"Do you want me to try and get you a part that lets you talk? If there even are mouthpieces that can be installed onto older models…"
"…"
At that point in time, it was natural that Robo-Mama couldn't talk.
All she could do was blink her sensor eye.
Besides, her barrel-like cylindrical model meant that she didn't even have a neck, but…
"…"
…But it really did seem like she was nodding in reply.
"Okay, got it."
I thought, maybe I could ask someone at the robotics factory nearby.
"Maybe I could try making sweets, too."
Not only did I regain something I loved that day, I had also found new things to love.
I started to think things like I could try this, or I could try that.
"Since this Reito guy seems cool and he's good with chocolate… let's try making chocolate desserts."
I was able to meet Reito, the character who I love above all others.
I was able to find the ultimate hobby in baking sweets.
And all of it is thanks to PatiBattle.
"…Every time I look at him, my chest feels fluttery… What could that mean…?"
…That was the sort of childhood I had.
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I was back in my room, decked to the nines with all of the nuis and merch that I could never put in my dorm room.
As I closed my copy of Shounen Dive, I let myself sink into a million fantasies.
"It's still so good no matter how many times I read it… Even though I got spoiled by those annoying idiots, it didn't take away all the fun…! Besides, Reito and Minoru partnering up really is a genius move for the story! Even though Ouji will definitely get jealous…"
The freshly made fondant au chocolat resting on the table beside me was giving off a wonderful aroma.
I had taste-tested some crumbs earlier, so naturally, I was quite pleased with the fact that I had made such exquisite sweets.
Tomorrow, I'll give some to Muu-chan and his sister.[1]
I couldn't wait to see their happy faces.
Just like that, my bad day from overhearing those spoilers had turned into a wonderful day, thanks to my daily sweets-making.
"I've got high hopes for all the fanfiction writers… May there be tons of fic about Reito gently consoling a depressed, jealous Ouji…"
Honestly, I prefer spicy food, and I don't like sweet foods that much at all.
But I still want to keep baking sweets.
"Aah… I can't wait for Sanseiu-sensei's newest work…! I hate the crowds at conventions, but if I could meet them and shake their hand… or not. At the very least, I've got to give them sweets as a gift…"
Even despite everything, I want to be able to touch, too. I want to be able to hug someone else, and be hugged by them back…
…But I can't do that.
"Now then, time to see what new posts there are today… Ugh, there's already ReiMino here? And… blocked."
Instead, I'll make the most delicious, satisfyingly sweet desserts so that one day, I can give them to the people I care about.
"What? They're rerunning that pair tapestry from last time!? And you can't even pre-order? It's like they want to see a fucking bloodbath out here!"
If they like my desserts, then it'll be like touching their hearts instead. Isn't that already the same as a hug?
"Crane game limited nuis… Alright, guess I'll have to just rescue each and every Reito from the grasp of those claws."
That's why I'll keep making the sweetest, most delicious chocolates.
A few hours later, I wrapped up the fondant au chocolat and stuck a sticky note on it with instructions: Just heat it up in the microwave when you want to eat it.
Now that my work was done, I decided to return for PatiBattle seconds, but just as I settled in, something flashed before my eyes.
"Huh? What?"
Right before my eyes…
[ PatiBattle! Hiatus Announcement ]
…A sentence straight from the depths of Hell.
"Huh…? Huh? Hah??"
The sound of every single cell in my body simultaneously being annihilated echoed in my ears.
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[1] Ushio specifies Muneuji and 姫 hime, which means 'princess'. Muneuji calls his little sister by this nickname, so it's very likely that Ushio is referring to her!
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