#~ order complete ~ (ask)
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Note
So first question! Can doey actually taste anything?


Gonna take this ask as an opportunity to answer all of these all at once :00 @tallahatchet @sadowmaster (sorry for the tag sjshsjh-)
Yes, Doey CAN taste things. Though I'd assume after years of consuming just uh... meat... That tasting must be kind of dull for him. So when he has the chance to eat anything other than that, it's a whole new world opening up to him. Taste buds explosion kind of situation, you know?
Besides, Matthew knew of the food outside of Playcare (whatever it was that they served there), and Jack lived with it, so the adaptation time of tasting "new" things doesn't take Doey long... But Kevin??? My poor boy's only ever known the food in the orphanage. I think he'd be very emotional about their discoveries.
As for favorite foods, Doey's would be the three boys favorites. Which are as follows for Matthew, Jack and Kevin (in order):
(+ bonus doodle under the cut because I couldn't resist making a silly one)
POV : Doey (re)discovers the tastes of the outside world.
#To be completely honest I never thought that far ahead for Doey or the boys skshskhs#So these are just my impressions of what I think they'd like#I wanted to add that Matthew likes anything with mint in it but I didn't know how to word it lmao#and they all like chocolate obviously#Dark for Matthew and Kevin specifically but they all like Milk chocolate as well#ask#my art#doodle#poppy playtime#poppy playtime chapter 4#ppt#doey#doey the doughman#matthew allard#jack ayers#kevin barnes#headcanons#Edit : I keep having to edit this because for some reasons Tumblr won't let it the pictures be where i ordered theM
476 notes
·
View notes
Note
I cannot wait for this Stan to reconnect with his Ford.


I still haven't figured out HOW exactly they'll meet yet, but I do think that Ford would ATTACH himself to Stanley and talk his ears off forever when they eventually get comfortable :] and Stanley would listen because HOLY SHIT, THAT'S HIS BRO HE HASN'T SEEN FOR 40-ISH YEARS, HE MISSED HIS VOICE. Nonstop certified Yapper & Listener relationship <3
Stanley looks dead faced because of his ingrained poker face, but he's thouroughly enjoying it, even if sometimes he has no idea what the fuck Ford is saying. He never interrupts him though, since he knows people usually ignore or interrupt him mid-talk already. So sometimes Stan gets stuck in awkward situations where he has to leave or do stuff, but also doesn't have it in his heart to stop Ford and extract himself out of a (one-sided) conversation.
#Stanley: that motherfucker just ignored you completely- would you like me to kill him.#Stanford: Who? What are you talking about? Anyways. Have you ever seen gnomes before? Because just yesterday I-#I imagine conversations with Stanford to be very stitled and all over the place.#Since his thoughts are quite literally scattered- he can never really process them fast enough to actually verbalize them.#Or even understand them.#So he often only catch the tail ends of a thought- or cutoff half formed thoughts- or only the beginning half of an idea- memory- or opinio#And when he talks- you can really tell with the amount of tangents he goes off into and how everything he says#are completely disconnected and unrelated from one another.#I think the reason he talks so much is because it's his way of desperately trying to get himself understood by someone- including himself.#He's hoping that maybe- by verbalizing EVERYTHING in his mind all at once into some incomprehensible word vomit- that someday-#those senseless- useless words will one day magically order themselves into the right sentence for him to be finally be able to say what#he actually MEANS.#But because he's ''that crazy Town Kook Ford'' he just never really gets the chance to talk to anyone.#People in town baby him- treat him like a child.#And I mean- it must really hurt. For someone of his former intellect to have lost all ability to express himself eloquently#Not because he's any less smart- but because he just can't talk anymore. At least- not in any way that matters#I think Stanley understands him though. I think Stanley would understand his struggle to not be labeled as just stupid by others#Anyways- that was my ramble <3#my post#asks#sput chatters#stanford pines#ford pines#stanley pines#stan pines#gravity falls#gravity falls au#Town Kook Ford AU#my art
761 notes
·
View notes
Text
so I have just learnt that apparently danmei comes by this particular trope honestly...
#jttw#journey to the west#dtbpf#li yu#tripitaka#tang sanzang#zhu bajie#disabled tyrant's beloved pet fish#apparently mpreg is an ancient and noble tradition!#absolutely wild!#truly this book is an unparalleled work of the highest order#can you believe i had to waste my time reading the likes of james joyce for my lit degree when i could have been reading stuff like THIS#how many of you saw how i answered that one anon ask and laughed?#there must be at least one person out there who saw this collision course coming#seriously these pilgrims are a band of complete clowns#i am now honestly heartbroken that tripitaka and pigsie didn't get into that mpreg poll going on right now#my art
401 notes
·
View notes
Note
14 for obikin pretty please?
here you go!
[from this list of prompts]
[5. 'are you jealous' - 27. 'i'm pregnant' - 32. 'i think i'm in love with you and i'm terrified' (LATEST) 44. 'if you die, i'm gonna kill you' - 41. 'you did all of this for me?' - 46. 'hey, have you seen...? oh']
14. 'hey, i'm with you, okay? always.'
The first time Anakin visits, he's so angry that he cannot speak for the first two hours. Obi-Wan sits against the wall of his cell, on the floor even though the Jedi have provided him a perfectly comfortable bed and chair. The Force collar around his neck looks wrong. His master sitting on the floor, dressed in the dull orange of a prisoner's jumpsuit looks wrong.
Anakin is so angry that he can't speak. He can only look and tremble until he is told he must leave.
Obi-Wan does not speak either. He does not even look at him.
Maybe that's what makes his anger harder to bear. Anakin knows that Obi-Wan has met with countless other Jedi. Visitors, friends, allies, people who are working with him on his defense case. He knows that the other man talks to them, has sliced into security holo footage to see it for himself, though no one will tell him what is said. Everyone always leaves looking frustrated, but at least Obi-Wan talks to them.
But not Anakin. Even though it is Anakin that Obi-Wan has hurt the most. Anakin, who deserves to know why from Obi-Wan's mouth.
After all--
"He was like a father to me," Anakin spits at him on his second visit, only a few days later. Going to see Obi-Wan in the Coruscanti prison cell where he is awaiting trial is like an itch. Scratched once, Anakin finds he cannot help himself from digging his claws in.
Obi-Wan is still against the wall. His beard has grown slightly longer. His head is tilted back against the wall, though when Anakin speaks, his eyes slide down from the ceiling to rest on him.
"I'm starting to think you say that to all the boys," his former master who is a murderer says in that lilting familiar drawl.
"You killed him."
"Yes," Obi-Wan agrees, because apparently part of his defense case is not to plead not guilty to the murder of the Supreme Chancellor of the Republic. Anakin would say that may be problematic, but then--there are security holos, soundless and slightly blurred, of the event. Of Jedi Master Obi-Wan Kenobi taking tea with Chancellor Palpatine. Talking in civil gestures for thirty minutes. Requesting, as far as anyone can tell, for the Chancellor to fetch him a pot of sugar. Lighting his saber and beheading him the moment the old man's back was turned. "Yes, I did."
"Why?" Anakin yells, voice cracking on the word. He doesn't understand. He thinks the not-knowing will drive him to madness. He thinks maybe it already has. It has been two weeks since the Chancellor's murder. Half the Senate is seeking Obi-Wan's execution.
The war, theoretically, has paused, like even the Separatists are holding their breath. Waiting. Wondering.
Obi-Wan looks at him quietly for a moment. For five. His face is stoic, resolved. Beloved, even after this.
Then--for a singular second--the mask cracks, and his master stares at him as if he needs to see him in order to survive. He looks hungry and exhausted and relieved, down to the bones.
"How have your nightmares been lately, padawan?" he asks him, and Anakin is so disgusted by the word--by the title that Obi-Wan doesn't get to say after killing the Chancellor, killing Anakin's friend--that he turns and leaves without another thought.
He is back a day later. He has never known how to keep his distance from things that can hurt him, that's what his mother always said. Too curious by half. Too sure of his own invincibility. That's what his master always said.
Anakin isn't sure of anything anymore.
"Why did you kill him?" Anakin asks. Obi-Wan's beard is longer. He is still on the floor. It rankles, the sight of him brought so low. "Did someone tell you to?"
Obi-Wan lets his head fall forward, a puppet with its strings cut. "Do you think me so biddable, Anakin?"
Anakin today. Not padawan. As if Obi-Wan has learned his lesson. As if he is as desperate for Anakin to linger in his presence as Anakin is hopelessly addicted to returning.
Padmé had tried to stop him this morning. Had tried to tell him it would do no good to see him, that the justice system would do its work, that Anakin was only hurting himself by returning over and over again. She pointed out that he had nightmares last night, for the first time since the news of the Chancellor's death reached them.
He hadn't had the heart to tell her that his nightmares were not about the Chancellor dying, but about Obi-Wan facing down an execution squad. About Anakin, standing on the deck of the Invisible Hand, Palpatine's voice in his ear, telling him to do it, do it. Cut off the traitor's head, only to look down and find that the two sabers he is holding are familiar to him, and person on his knees before him is his master.
Anakin had woken with a yell around one in the morning, sweat soaked and shaking. He hadn't been able to sleep again.
Maybe that's why he feels so alive now, slightly manic and still trembling as he paces in front of the Force barrier of Obi-Wan's cell. Did someone tell Obi-Wan to cut him down? he'd had the thought somewhere around five in the morning. Had it been someone Obi-Wan trusted? Someone he loved?
Who stood to gain from the death of the Chancellor? Who had the Chancellor ever hurt or threatened?
Anakin walks as close as he dares to get to the cell. "Master," he says, coaxes really, pushing forward until he can hear the hum of the force field.
Obi-Wan's head thumps back against the wall and he watches him from under his eyelashes.
"Master, I'm with you, alright? Hey, I'm with you, always, alright, always, so if someone told you, manipulated you, just tell me please. I'll find them. I'll get them to turn themselves in, master. Just tell me. Why did you kill him?"
Obi-Wan closes his eyes. He looks for all the world as if he is meditating, save for that collar around his neck. The prison garb. He doesn't look like a murderer, but he is. He is. He killed the Chancellor. He is going to face execution. Anakin is going to have to watch him die too and all he can think is that he knows that Obi-Wan doesn't even kriffing like sugar in his karking tea.
"Answer me!" Anakin yells, lifting his fist and forgetting himself for just long enough that he slams it against the barrier. He pulls it back with a curse as the force field short-circuits his mech arm and the prison alarm blares out a warning siren.
This time, he is led away from the cell by a Coruscanti guard. He is advised to not return for a standard week. The entire time he is exiled from the prison, the only thing he can think about is the expression on Obi-Wan's face as he watches him leave: eyes wide open and forehead wrinkled with concern, as if worried that Anakin had hurt himself.
The day after he is allowed to return, he does. He does not want to seem too eager or desperate, so he waits until it's early in the evening before pointing his speeder towards the prison unit.
"It had to have been someone you loved," Anakin announces as he stops in front of Obi-Wan's cell. He's in his bed this time, lying on his back and looking at the ceiling. He does not twitch at Anakin's voice, though Anakin can tell that he's not asleep, though his eyes are closed. He can tell just from the minute lines of tension he's holding in his shoulders, his neck.
How can Anakin know him so well and not know that he is capable of this? Of murder on this scale?
"Hm?" Obi-Wan finally says, when the silence drags on and it becomes clear that Anakin will not say more until he has engaged. Anakin watches this war play out in the subtle movements of Obi-Wan's facial muscles as well. He knows him so well. He knows him better than he knows anyone else in the galaxy.
"The person you killed him for. You had to have loved him more than anything else in the entire galaxy to kill a man the way you did. Defenseless. Over sugar. You don't--you don't even take sugar in your tea! It was a coward's way of killing--and it doesn't--you would never. Not unless it was for someone you loved."
Obi-Wan's eyes blink open, but he doesn't look away from the ceiling. He doesn't look at Anakin.
"I don't--I don't know what harm you think Sheev Palpatine could cause to anyone, but that has to be it. Nothing else makes sense. You loved someone enough to kill for them, and you killed the Chancellor."
The words come out easily. Anakin has practiced them for a week now; it is the only thing that makes sense. Nothing else makes sense. Nothing else but love could make a man like Obi-Wan do what he did. He must have loved someone a lot. He must love them more than the Republic. More than his own freedom.
The first time Anakin had told Padmé his theory, she'd looked at him for ages, until he'd grown angry and defensive. She'd touched his arm, as if that could hold back this hurricane brewing inside his chest, and said, "I don't know if you're right, Ani. I don't know if I think you're wrong either. It's just...you sound so...jealous."
At least Obi-Wan doesn't say the same thing. But what he does say may be even worse. Because he doesn't deny it. He doesn't protest. All he says is, "And who is it that you think I love more than anything else in the galaxy, padawan?"
Anakin has thought about this, too. "Bail Organa," he makes himself say, even though the name curls his lips up into a sneer. Bail Organa, the man who has been voted the interim Supreme Chancellor of the Republic. The man who has gotten everything from this assassination, while Anakin has had his everything taken away.
On his cot, Obi-Wan's eyes slide closed. His mouth quirks up. "Ah," he says, as if he has had something he has long expected to confirmed to him. He says nothing else.
It makes Anakin want to hit the barrier again. It makes him want to scream. It makes him want to be petty, hurt Obi-Wan back in the same way that Anakin feels hurt even though it doesn't make sense, none of this makes sense. But it feels as if Obi-Wan has kept half of himself secret from Anakin, a whole love, his entire capacity to love, and Anakin wants to prove that he has as well.
So he says, voice mean and sharp, "Padmé is pregnant. The med-droid says it is twins."
Everything else remains unspoken, but surely audible. That they are his. That he never stopped seeing Padmé. Perhaps even that she is his wife.
On the cot, behind the Force barrier, in his chains, Obi-Wan opens his eyes and blinks at the ceiling. His lips form a small smile, as he says, still not looking at Anakin, still not looking at Anakin, "I know, dear one. Why do you think the Chancellor had to die?"
#asks#obikin#i mean again theyre not kissing but theyre in love#anakin doesn't realize it but its true#obi-wan realizes it#and literally committed murder about it#and is ready to take the whole blame and go down for it without involving the jedi or anakin#to protect anakin (because he's concerned that the jedi would be wary of anakin if they found sidious' plans for him?#because the jedi order may kick anakin out for having a wife and soon kids? idk obi-wan is just determined to be silent about the whole thn#just to make sure anakin is the safest and happiest lil snap pea#meanwhile anakin is having un-gifted by sidious nightmares about obi-wan dying#and padmé is like baby i think you're forgetting that whoever you think obi-wan is in love with isnt in trouble#like being loved by obi-wan wouldn't be a crime#killing the chancellor - that's a crime#allegedly kissing your master is not a crime#and anakin is like i see NO difference. the interloper must die#(which is at least 10% how obi-wan felt when he killed sidious after#a.figuring out all the weird grooming stuff sidious did with anakin#b. figuring out palpatine is sidious via idk some sort of force vision on the invisible hand or smth#c. reading the intricate plans sidious has for anakin once he becomes his master)#lol so far this is the only ficlet where im like#yeah i could probably write a whole 12k one shot on this#kenobi's trial#that ends the day before the verdict reading because anakin is that worried he'll be executed#so he breaks him out and forces him on the run#completely forgetting about his new family#because he has his Master Obi-Wan goggles on
167 notes
·
View notes
Text
Soulmates AU as playing cards, part two: Copper Crests and Silver Stripes
click for better quality!
#well I finally got the middle bit to be centered! ....but I completely gave up on making a decent background to the picture#its supposed to be dathomir that's all I got fellas#star wars#jedi fallen order#cal kestis#nightsister merrin#merrical#soulmates au#and they were soulmates (omg they were soulmates)#btw in case you were wondering 'hey jess why does cal look like he's not wearing any shirt under his poncho'... well he's not.#long story short the one shirt he did have got ripped up and since nightbrothers don't seem to wear shirts a lot it never exactly#occurred to merrin that he might WANT another shirt and he was too polite to ask her to find one for him so he just... didn't.#he's glad he stumbled across that poncho though because things were getting a liiiiittle awkward#(merrin was checking him out)#jessica's art
128 notes
·
View notes
Note
is detcon actually good
no <3 hope this helps
#listen. in order to enjoy detective conan you need to either be#1. obsessed with a very specific very japanese brand of detective drama and an equally specific equally japanese brand of slowburn romance#OR 2. a clinically insane fujoshi willing to overlook half-brother incest.#i have an actual literal chart in order to keep track of the character relationships at this point#and i havent even read the manga in a while so im sure its worse now#like half of the cases are either realistically impossible to solve or so fundamentally ridiculous it makes you insane#and another 20% are completely unitelligible to an english audience#because they rely on either codes based on the japanese language or some niche aspect of japanese culture or folklore#that would take several hours of research to fully understand. i know this from experience.#at least one CANONICAL couple are cousins#and it does that shounen manga thing where the author cant lose their steady income stream#so the story is prolonged through increasingly insane and convoluted plot points that only just barely feel coherent.#despite the fact that it's been going for like 30 years now the characters will literally never change or experience growth of any kind#shinichi kudo is an in-universe genius who has been trying and failing to make the same easy decision for THIRTY REAL LIFE YEARS.#i remember when he and ran FINALLY got together. which if i remember correctly was in literally the thousandth chapter#i was completely convinced up until the end of the arc that it was some sort of fakeout#because it is literally the only example in the entire series of those two changing the narrative significantly through their actions#I actually stopped my most recent reread because a major plot twist made so little sense it made me legitimately angry#all that being said. i am the kind of person who enjoys japanese detective dramas and slowburn romance#occasionally the comedy is REALLY good in a ridiculous sort of way#and if you can get yourself to fully buy into the absolutely insane framing circumstances a lot of the major overarching plot is good#but you just. you really have to overlook A LOT to get there. im not sure if i could do it if i hadn't seen the first few seasons as a kid#unfortunately i imprinted on shinichi kudo at a very young age. so. here we are#asks
68 notes
·
View notes
Note
Where is Eddie's watch? He wasn't wearing it.
i definitely remembered eddie having his watch, so i rewatched the holiday special segments prepared to ~debunk~ this, but turns out the answer's a little more complicated (and a lot more interesting): he doesn't have it in the live-action scenes...

...but he does have it in the last illustrated segment right up until this shot.

of course, he then closes his eyes, and when he opens them again...

...it's gone. and even after he comes back down from Whatever That Was, it stays gone.

you know what they say about eldritch madness: the more you see, the harder it is to forget.
#anonymous#ask#welcome home#eddie dear#“all this over a watch?” you don't UNDERSTAND it's what the watch REPRESENTS#normalcy and order and completeness and all that junk#EDIT: or rather. the comforting illusion of normalcy and order and all that junk
471 notes
·
View notes
Text
karasu and coco and their big fat indian wedding.....
#coucou coco!#WOULD YOU ALL COME IF I INVITED YOU 🥺#i would order you the perfect lehengas / sarees to wear .... i would make sure your f/os are all fitted in the best sherwanis I WILL MAKE#THEM THE MOST HANDSOME AND BEAUTIFUL FOR YOU!!!!!!!! ;A;#oh my gosh i could do your henna!!!!! coco lorebit: i used to do henna for the ladies at the women's shelter when i was in first yr uni >v<#i was quite good -- i have limited confidence in my capabilities currently but if I PRACTICE HARD ENOUGH 🥺🥺🥺 do you trust me#AAAAAAA I WANT TO MAKE YOU ALL LOOK SO PRETTY :C#i will give you all waistchains to wear and your f/os will go completely cuckoo bananas 🙈#pre-pleating my saree for next week’s wedding I AM THINKING ABOUT KARASU VERY MUCH ☹️#what if i did an ask game and assign you and your f/o outfits wahhh…..#gosh i love weddings!!!!! TAT 💞
62 notes
·
View notes
Note
What’s Kata doing now that’s she’s grown? Did she get into space college or is she helping greez run his diners?
gasp space college is a good idea!!!!! she's very interested in the garden, maybe she could go into botany or biology!!! and confuse the hell out of her family
(commission info // kofi support!)
#also i think kata being a trained nightsister-jedi at a completely normal college would be so funny#kata akuna#cal kestis#star wars#jedi survivor#jedi survivor spoilers#jedi fallen order#jfo#my doods#thanks for the ask!
811 notes
·
View notes
Note
Miriam as well to complete the set?
Miriam from Wandersong in Minecraft!
Vanilla Skin PNG:
#making you in minecraft#wandersong#miriam wandersong#vanilla download included#decided to just get this one out of the way!#i am going to try and keep these in order of when im sent the ask#but this one was completing the set & 2 people asked so! here u go#her wink isnt theeee best but i tried!
82 notes
·
View notes
Text
last thing imma say before i go to bed… i’ve been looking over the radio transcripts and yes, passing the back markers was the primary reason for the hold position call and it was only in place for a few laps BUT it’s so important to realize that in a race with unpredictable weather, a few laps can make all the difference in the world. first of all, oscar isn’t fucking stupid. he’s really good at knowing when to commit to an overtake and when to back out, and he definitely wouldn’t go for a risky move and risk getting knocked out when he’s trying so hard to get this win. second, it wasn’t like the back markers were all bunched up. iirc there was like at least 6 seconds btwn ollie and estie. third, and i will reiterate, every single lap is crucial in a race where the weather is that unpredictable. from the transcript it looks like the safety car came out almost immediately after they were told they were free to race. like it had to have occurred to the engineers that every single lap in a race like this has a risk of a safety car and that every safety car (which causes laps to be slower) increases the risk of running into tricky weather later on. this wasn’t some normal sunny race where having 25 laps left means there’s plenty of time to overtake later because LITERALLY ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN. they were asking him to give up a really crucial overtaking opportunity after he had done so much work to catch up to lando in the first place. fourth, you can 100% tell that oscar was trying so hard to respect papaya rules because he had no problem closing the gap to lando in the first half of the race and no problem CHARGING through the field to unlap himself and recover to 9th. mclaren need to be careful with what exactly they ask him to give up going forward because one day he is going to run out of patience. fifth, mindset is such an important part of getting the maximum performance out of the car. when oscar was focused this race, he was an absolute beast. the only time he made mistakes were in the middle of the race when he was given the team orders and then had to deal with the uncertainty of the weather. and yes, being able to stay focused in the face of uncertainty is the mark of an excellent driver, so that is something that oscar can definitely work on. but the team’s attitude and environment is also such a crucial part of driver confidence because if a driver has to be worried that their team could issue orders that could compromise their efforts at any moment or if a driver knows that their team isn’t even confident in their own strategy calls then how can they possibly operate the car at peak performance? sixth, the lack of support during his HOME RACE is astounding, especially since last year they invoked team orders telling oscar to give up his p3 spot to lando (it was to reverse oscar jumping lando in the pit lane so im not really salty about it but it still must’ve sucked so much for oscar being asked to give up his home podium).
and honestly, it’s just the lack of support in general that’s doing it for me. a lot of the time it feels like the team function more as babysitters than partners, only worrying about keeping the boys from getting too close to each other on track instead of actually helping them maximize their performance and achieve their best possible result. and that just doesn’t work when you have two drivers that are as ambitious as oscar and lando. the engineers can’t just be a crisis management team. they have to be more supportive of the drivers in their ambitions to perform well individually as well as on a team level.
all of this is to say that yes, the call to hold wasn’t completely baseless, and it definitely wouldn’t make it to the list of mclaren’s worst strategy calls, but that doesn’t mean that it was handled completely well and it absolutely fucked with oscar’s race. there is a delicate balance between doing what is best for the team and doing what is best for the drivers individually and mclaren have GOT to get better at finding that balance otherwise this whole “two WDC-class drivers” thing they’re trying to do is going to seriously backfire
#also this is nothing against lando or the way he raced today#like literally it has nothing to do with lando#it’s about mclaren and their complete inability to look at things from the driver’s perspective#like before you give team orders please consider exactly what kind of situation you will be creating#and what exactly you are asking your driver to give up#okay i need to go to bed#but fuck mclaren#and let oscar be the absolute badass he was born to be#oscar piastri#formula 1#f1#op81#australian gp 2025
53 notes
·
View notes
Text
I had a shrink appointment today and while I could not see it I knew my doc was going through the five stages of grief while I explained my fool proof strategy for doing my t shots despite a crippling fear of needles: By abusing my vastly more crippling fear of being an inconvenience.
My mother and I play phasmophobia together every week. she usually has a pretty limited time to do this bc she's like. a doctor and a college professor whos always busy. So I asked her to just. hold me to doing them. We don't start playing until the shot is done. so my needle fear doesn't matter because now it's Wasting™ her time and I have to do it quick. Using one neurosis to defeat another.
It's a horrible coping mechanism because it's feeding the inconvenience fear, but it is definitionally a coping mechanism.
#im a 'has a panic attack during every injection or iv theyve ever gotten' type of scared of needles#no it genuinely has nothing to do with pain the needle itself is the fear not the using of it#like i told this story before but i have these sewing pins with lil bow ties on them and i had to get my dad to take all the blue ones out#because they were triggering the same part of my brain iv needles do#just the sight of them with the rest of my cute sewing pins was a problem#And the fear of being an inconvenience is so bad i cant eat around people or be in crowded spaces or talk at get togethers#without being paralyzed by fear of Being In The Way. its so bad ive been avoiding using my power chair bc it makes me take up#slightly more space than i would just standing. and i never took my manual out and about because i moved too slowly in it#and i dont take my crutches on planes despite using them everyday bc they cant fold up like my cane can and so are In The Way#one of the big reasons i dont use the chairs in stores is they have back up alarms. and i hate making noises in public#Yes this is part of the reason i want a Rottweiler for my service dog because i want people to look at the doggie Not Me.#I like people! i like being friendly and talking and making little connections with strangers!!! But i cant be the one to initiate or#be In The Way of a peaceful moment#dont look at me#this is also a big issue i have with making friends or changing the nature of a relationship because like. im autistic#I have Rules for social interactions memorized that i will follow. but moving people from one category to another#is difficult. It is too the point i had problems for litteral years talking to my boyfriend as though#he was a person i knew well and cared deeply for because i kept using the 'rando guy im flirting with on the Internet' script#I have commissioners i want to be friendlier with but my brain says No Stop that is an Impolite and Overly informal way to talk to#a customer™ despite them not being customers when they arnt in the commission process#im like thise huskies who are scared of carpet because its Different than the floor they're currently standing on#its Too different:(#and to be clear i am Completely aware of how none of this makes logical sense and is in fact deeply self destructive#That does not fix it. it is so ingrained in my head that im certain i could convince my brain to let me bite off my own fingers#before i could convince it to let me talk to someone at a help desk or ask my order be corrected at a restaurant
107 notes
·
View notes
Text
When your oldest brother dies on a religious crusade just as you feared he would and your father refuses to deal with his grief just as he refused to deal with it when your mother died (you were a baby btw) and then again when your other brother left home (because your dad was impossible to live with) and in spite of feeling entirely abandoned by your dad you use your newfound higher status to put yourself out on a limb in order to downgrade his punishment and that of your close friend despite grieving their involvement with the queen who led your brother to his death but instead of your father acknowledging your pain and your attempts to do what you believe will bring justice he lashes out at you by comparing your current position to the horrific way your mother died…just Eärien things
#I straight up will not tolerate Eärien hate on this post you will be blocked!!!!!!#I am not asking everyone to love her the way I do ofc but like...maybe attempt to see things from her point of view#I have seen people say the show hasn't given us enough reasons to sympathize with her and I find that pretty fucking unbelievable#given how much emotional investment I've seen fucking waldreg get (for example)#I also love Elendil!!! but he has from the start been a subpar father to her and that is simply textually a fact#Earien does not have the knowledge we have about where Númenor is headed#moreover she does not have insight into Miriel's leadership in the way Elendil and Valandil do/did#the expedition to the Southlands was a straight up disaster that Míriel herself turned course in order to embark on#I love Míriel but I can't blame Eärien for losing complete confidence in her leadership#and for wanting justice for Isildur's death#earien#rings of power#rop spoilers#Elendil critical#to be clear I think these writing choices are great and super juicy and the characterization of Elendil and his family gives me life#but the fandom reaction is NOT IT#Eärien defense squad#rop op
70 notes
·
View notes
Text
IN SEARCH OF: KAMUKOMA CHARM

Hi! If anyone is re-selling this kamukoma charm I would love to purchase it! I just found out after waiting for 4 months (after being given an expected 1-4 week processing time on an purchase that wasnt a pre-order...........) that I can't get the one I bought directly from the artist and already paid for 😔☹️😟😢😭 so the next best thing I can do is find a second-hand re-seller unfortunately
#kamukoma#izuru kamukura#nagito komaeda#komaeda nagito#kamukura izuru#danganronpa sdr2#komahina#danganronpa merch#danganronpa fanmerch#normally im adamantly against re-selling fan merch but the seller is really forcing my hand here by failing to deliver on what i paid for#and like what i paid for 4 (!!!!) months ago!!!!!!!!!! and this wasnt a pre-order just a regular order!!!!!! like jfc they could have got a#new batch in the time i waited so the fact that the first update is Yea I Sold You Something That Doesnt Exist No Full Refunds like jfc#and they still are grossly underestimating processing time in their shops faq like its listed as 1-2 months there even tho its#really 3-5 months or like 4-6 months#and they have a completely bs policy that you can only do full refunds within 48 hours but sure ya its okay if they spend 3 extra MONTHS#not fulfilling orders that are already paid for so um shrug idc i will make an exception given the circumstances i am given#and ya not going to name names unless asked but um if u recognize this artist im gonna really strongly recommend not to buy from them#waaaaaaaaay more hassle than what its worth unfortunately :(
38 notes
·
View notes
Text
I'll either succeed or I'll learn trying
#I wanna REMEMBER THIS!!!!!!!!#its helpful for me to keep in mind#not failing. learning#learning. learning makes failures into something worthwhile#grimacing as I repeat this to myself#text post#delete later#idk saying it cause it made me be like heh. nice#so idk might make someone else be like hm... nice#so LAMGOMSAGKLSAJGALKGJASLKGMSALKGJ#there is not much thought behind the things I post there's just not really much thought in general#honestly that is not true#I overthing everything. on account of the anxiety#but it's all good#speaking of the doc gave me an anti anxiety med on top of the adhd thing#so that's cool#seems to be working though..#she told me I could up the dose and I might do that in like a week if it feels like hrmm#I asked for all the instructions about starting stopping upping lowering or changing the time I take things#cause yknow. those things matter and I like to experiment to figure out whats best for me#this has nothing to do with the post#also they messed up my order again#i only got 180 books#bro theres 120 more#where are they#give me my books!!! please!!!!!!!1#I'll wait til tomorrow#its possible they just didnt fit on the truck. thats completely reasonable
129 notes
·
View notes
Text
Update; I got back into working on charms today!
I had a busy last week or two and hadn’t really had a chance or the energy to start drawing this once since i finished Ayda, for reasons that frankly are a bit boring to go into detail about here, but I’m excited to get back into the swing of things now!
I’m really quite happy with his wings so far, i think i figured out a good method for drawing them >:3
#My art#my charms#my wips#wip#Grian#grian fanart#grian hermitcraft#not tagging more than that I’m too lazy and it’s a wip anyways#But my point!! Is that the hermitcraft and life series grian designs are in the works and i hope to finish them in the next few days; if-#-not then some time next week#Then that’ll be the first 10 complete! I was planning to order the first batch of stock then#I still probably will but I also haven’t entirely figured out what to do in regards to international shipping; haven’t had a chance to go-#-to the post office and ask and the USPS website is IMPOSSIBLE to fucking navigate or find answers on and there’s no fucking email where-#-you can ask questions it drives me NUTS#But anyways. After the grians are done it’s a BIG MILESTONE!!! And I’m excited!!#Afterwords I’m gonna do Mary Ann Scuttle and then Pearl (and the other Joels); I’m gonna keep following ‘most requested’ for MCYTs but-#-after Mary Ann I’m gonna finish out the Bad Kids set before moving on to other NPCs#Just because i want to put them under the same listing so i can sell the whole set discounted :]#EVENTUALLY the lifers and hermits will probably end up in two big groups like that too so i can offer other discount sets for them#I’d love to have Imp and Skizz as a set discounted; I’ll prolly do some others too#But yeah :} I’m excited!! The ball is rolling again!!
40 notes
·
View notes