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Girl

There was once a girl, a girl so beautiful and genuine. A girl who never lied and only cared. This girl is a person I couldn’t help but fall in love with. Every inch every part of her would be perfect to me. She shakes her head at me constantly saying she couldn’t be perfect. She has flaws like every other person but her smile and the way she holds herself. This girl will always be my perfect other half. This girl is the one in which I will love for all of eternity. This girl is my soulmate.

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Some people, as far as your senses are concerned, just feel like home.

Nick Hornby, High Fidelity (via books-n-quotes)

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Everyday is a new day to start new. This is something i often forget. Just because yesterday was a bad doesn’t mean this new day also has to be bad. Everyday brings new decisions, new choices. Go to a new coffee shop, wear clothes that make you feel comfortable. Tell someone a secret that you thought you would never say out loud. Make decisions about your life and take control. Nothing can stop you except for yourself. As I write this I do know I know I stop myself from doing many of the things I want to do. I let others control how I act how I dress and how I present myself. I am and never will be what everyone wants me to be. I will never be the amazing daughter that my parents want, I can’t be the girl that wears dresses and does their make up and wants to be pretty. That is not me and it will never be me. I may not know who I am or where I am going or what the future looks like but I will do everything in my power to know that everyday is a new day to make new choices and decisions. Don’t let a 5 second moment decide the next five days. Live a life with no regrets because in the end none of it is worth it. Life is short. Live it right.

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Love

Love is such a complicated thing. If it is easy it is not love. It's a simple word with a deep meaning behind it. Everyone feels love in different ways. Whether it be sexual or emotional or physical. But every type is valid. I believe everyone deserves love. Everyone deserves that happiness in their heart. It takes some people longer to find that than others. But that is okay because i promise you that feeling is worth the wait. The feeling of loving and being loved is a feeling you will never tire of. Love is smiling even when your angry. Love is bickering over small things but realizing its dumb in the end. Love is staying by one another through thick and thin. Love is caring no matter what happens. Love is not being afraid of change because you can get through anything with that love. Love is so much more than just 4 letters. Love is trusting someone with your heart. Love is rare. Love is you.

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"Never let a bump in the road end the jouney"

-unknown

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Step by step

You can't get discouraged if you dont get to your goal right away. It takes baby steps and every step is a step closer to that big goal

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"A journey of a thousand miles begins with one step"

-Lao Tzu

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Dieting

It is the hardest part of losing weight. I mean I freaking love food. Food is life. Ask anyone I know. Food gives me life. I will be honest I have honestly just started doing better with my diet for the past week. It is hard. But once you start It becomes natural. My .appetite is now smaller which makes it so much easier to diet. I also drink a llllooot of water. Side note: I have tried the gallon of water for a month thing and it really does help. Not just with weight loss. It helps a lot of things. I don’t have as much acne. I feel healthier. And eventually you need to drink that water and it also becomes natural. Everything can be natural if you start it first. Water also fills me up so I don’t want to have snacks through out the day. I won’t deny it. I still get cravings and want chocolate every once in awhile and that is okay. In moderation is okay. Dieting is the most important part in the weight loss journey. It is a learning experience and it will grow on you eventually. Get rid of that junk food say no to those cookies. Eat a carrot instead. Carrots are delicious. And when you get to your first goal reward yourself with a small things so you want to keep going. Love yourself. Keep going and never give up. 

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Why do I workout?

I know I have not posted in awhile. I started school again and kinda got caught up it all and getting used to working and going to school. I started massage therapy school 3 weeks ago and it has been completely fantastic. I love every second of it. They have taught us that yes our main job is to take care of others but we also have to make sure ourselves are taken care of. Self care is the most important thing. If you don’t take care of yourself than how can you take care of others? The answer is simple. You don’t. Now as most of my small amount of viewers and readers know I work full time as a shift supervisor at starbucks during most days and 4 days a week I have school for 4 hours a night. Now how in heck do I find time for “self care”. It’s honestly not as hard as many think. I at least get two days off of work. I have a full weekend without school. With that time I go to the gym and work out and relax as much as I can. As of right now I have a 3 day regimen. I am slowly trying to move it up to a 5 day regimen. Of course I am not in good enough shape for that quite yet, but I will get there. So why do I use my small amount of free time at the gym? Because honestly it is the best feeling to me. After dieting all week working those muscles out is just a wonderful feeling. The sweat going down my forehead and back is what makes it worth it. Knowing that I am doing something good for my body is enough to make me breathe. A year ago I was over 200 pounds and now I as I look into the mirror I am surprised everyday when I see how much better my body looks. And the feeling of being proud of myself makes it all worth it. I know I have a long way to go but I also know I am capable of doing it. And so is every other person out there that struggles with obesity. It is possible. I know not everyone loves working out like I do but I promise you once you feel and see yourself gaining progress you will began loving it. That is why I do it. The feeling of proudness and love for myself growing is enough for me to keep going. 

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This is Me

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This is one of my before and after pictures I have. It may not seem like much but to me this means a lot. Yes I know I do not have the most attractive faces especially in these pics. I apologize for my ugly face

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The First of Many

With no follows I hope I can start something amazing. Something that help many. You may not be interested and obviously that is fine. But for those of you who do, thank you for being my beginning. Now that you have started reading the beginning I am sure your thoughts are “well okay how can I be interested when I do not know what the hell this blog is about.” Well let me explain. During my senior year of high school I went through a lot and well that is something I can get into later but due to everything I began gaining a bunch of weight. Not only that I just wasn’t sure who I as a person was. Maybe 3 or 4 blocks away there was a Burger King. Well lets just say that was basically the only thing that went into my system. Eventually I realized, Holy Crap I have gained so much weight and it made me even more unhappy about myself. In March of 2017 I set out with a goal. To become happy with myself. Almost a year later I am still not the happiest but I am on my way. This blog is my Journey. I want to share this to help others. Help discover who they are. Or to help people try to be happy with themselves. I will be explaining how I lost my first 30 pounds. My regimen. Who I am as a person. Maybe others feel the same way I do and don’t realize they do and that is my goal. It is still the beginning but I would love to continue with you. This is the first of Many and I hope everyone enjoys