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Currently I'm at 548th episode of One Piece.

I've decided at this point that I'll write about my favourite moments but save them as drafts because I am extremely terrified of Spoilers. I am worried that some reviews/spoilers coated with how people feel about a future scene might affect my view of the art presented infront of me. Which is extremely annoying to me because I want to express my opinion and reviews free from any type of thing influencing me. And it's not like I'm a blogger or something, it's for me, my review and opinion and my true feelings and emotions after watching a piece of something the artist poured their all into, it affects me and makes me think and I want it to be the way it is.

I want to be surprised when the artist wanted me to be surprised. It fucks up the process when someone comes out and tells me 'ohhh so he dies, it's tragic... ' or major spoilers or even just 'its awful, ITS AMAZING', I umm, I consider them as spoilers too. Only because they raise or lower your expectations of the content you are going to watch. Which, well, affects the process again.

Anyways, my whole point of this was that I'll start saving drafts of whatever i feel about One Piece while i am watching it.

And once I'm at a stage where I feel like I can post it without worrying about spoilers, I'll start posting them day by day.

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Starting today I'll post some drafts randomly because I feel like I can post them without worrying about spoilers🤝

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I think I've accidentally trained my smol cousins to high-five me when they hear the sound of me successfully completing a Duolingo exercise

If they hear it, they immediately put their hand up for a high five and it's really cute

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Also I must say

Taking a twist on the tale of Cinderella

I loved the way these two Anime depicted it

The play from Kamigami no Asobi, where Thoth(?) gave a spin on the narrative and the glass slipper ended up breaking. I don't remember exactly everything but I remember loving their own twist to the play.

I remembered this one because I saw the second one today

School Babysitters, where the granny asks the mirror who is the person who studies the most, and so on, it wasn't a play play, but it was, the dwarves were the cutest though.

But the part I love is that we've atleast in some sense transcended from the stereotypes of the original stories. Not that the original stories were bad, they were/may have been good and relatable in their own times, but the world has been changing and every generation, for good or for bad, needs their own spin off, their own original, the one they relate to and the one that makes us move closer towards the changing world, relate to it

So I love seeing different depictions of original stories.

Having said what I did, I do understand though how people before us have felt watching the cartoons we did when we were kids, because when I see kids today watch the cartoons they do, I irk so hard. It's sad but it's okay, can't do much about it. My mom loved watching duck tales, I never heard about them or watched them because it stopped running by then. I loved/still love watching Shinchan, Phineas and Ferb, Dragon ball Z, Tom and Jerry, Ben10, and so on. But my uncle's kids watch YouTube and Cocomelon on Netflix and it's kinda sad. One of them watches anime with me though, so that's nice (only kid friendly anime dw)

I know it's weird but watching cartoons on tv and waiting for it to be back after the Ad breaks, and having set times for the cartoons so you'd watch your favourite cartoon at this time. It was its own sort of fun.

So as I said, with each generation, for better or for worse, they'll have their own spin off, their own thing. And we can complain about it, but the world keeps changing and so we must move ahead with happy memories. We can still form our own traditions though.

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Completed Gakuen Babysitters/School babysitters

And as I mentioned previously

I felt just like Usaida kun did🥹🥹🥹🔽

Usaida was sick and took a leave, Saikawa san looked after babies and gave him a call for emergency diapers, but the call had a bad connection and all Usaida heard was that Midori... emergency...and cut. And when he called back, the phone was unable to reach because Saikawa's phone was thrown into water by accident. So Usaida came by to check and the kids said all of this, I've only included three but all of them said something 🥹🥹, and that was his reaction, and then Kamitani teased him that he's too old for crying and he got embarassed😂

Also Midori said his name before mama or papa and it was also v cute :3

AYO LOOK AT KAMITANI😭😭😂😂😂🔽

This made me really warm and happy🫶🔽

Also the part where they made Ushimaru familiar with the kids was really really good. It's accurate and so real. The kids become individuals and you get used to them, and you love them. The acceptance and understanding and them just talking about it rather than her being shamed for it. I wish more adults would tackle situations in this way. It's really really needed. It was really one of the sweetest part.

I hope they all stay warm and happy, this anime has officially joined the list of my comfort anime, it's so warm and healing and happy. It's really sweet.

I hope to become more like Kashima Ryuuichi, though sometimes I feel like my character resonates a mix of Kamitani and Ryuuichi and Usaida. But they're all really good role models, so I hope to become more like them. They're kind, and sweet and warm.

28th April, 2024

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Started watching School babysitters today and this anime keeps doing something to my heart🥹😭❤️

They made me cry in the first episode itself. The depiction of losing someone and realising it, Ryu losing his parents and realising it in this scene after an urgent situation had lapsed

It really hurt, it really did.⬆️

Kotaro squeezing a lemon to help shaggy ma'am make medicine for Ryu🥹😭😭❤️⬆️

Also when Ryu drinks it, and shaggy ma'am tells him that it's time to go (because she doesn't want Kotaro to get Ryu's cold) and Kotaro says : Nichan... drank...medicine, thinking it works instantly, and Shaggy ma'am tells him it doesn't work so quick and he gets disappointed. It was so cute.

Yo. I cried hard here. Kids are the best okay. They're too much work sometimes but they really do get you through things. Their innocence, their happiness, their sweet random ramblings, their tantrums. They're warm.⬆️

I had fever sometime long ago, and my uncle's kid came to me, and checked up on me like a doctor, asking me if I'm okay, if I took my medicines, and that she'll give me medicines and I'll be super okay. And honestly, that was all I needed. I felt so warm, and so happy that I cried. She was 4 years old then.

Kids understand more than adults is what I feel at times, they're so innocent and they care and they say things and do things and it makes me feel so many feelings. They (my uncle's kids) do make me feel a tad bit better about living. And they really do help you get through difficult things, without even realising.

I've rambled on in a different direction

I've watched only 4 episodes and I already wish that this anime had more than 12 episodes

It keeps making me feel so many feelings, and it's so cute and sad and healing and warm. It's so many things.

Also the baseball guy, Kamitani(?) is really cute🤌. His character just looks so clean, the art style, all of that if I'm making sense.

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I've been watching so many thriller movies lately

So kinda mini short reviews because they were good movies, and yes they contain spoilers :

Red eye : Absolutely amazing, this is the exact type of movie I love to watch. Loved it, watched it twice already. Would love to watch more of this but I can't find any with the exact sense of emotions and wow factor it had. She is so strong and so brilliant. I love it.

The Craigslist killer : Felt like a documentary, even was a documentary?? Didn't like it, but it was eerie and gave me more reasons to be rational when it comes to falling in love w random people and things going fast and etc. But honestly, the whole movie was about him having a weird fetish and him being embarassed of it and fulfilling it in weird ways? And accidentally killing off someone but being a psychopath as he was, him just acting all normalish? Idk, it was eerie, i didn't like like it, but I watched it and it was a little scary. This movie kinda makes way for the psychological analysis of a criminal part and it makes me realise how little I know.

The Talented Mr. Ripley : WHAT THE FUCK. I was so invested and scared. It was all such a big spiral, so much killing, so many twists. I don't know why he killed Peter though. And what happens w him in the end? Does Meredith and her parents tell someone something? Or idk?? Did something happen? Does he ever get caught? I mean in the end we can see that he's tired of it all, but, was that momentary or what? Why does he kill Peter though? But yeah, good movie. I stopped watching in the mid, but I couldn't help but want to know what happens next so I continued.

The Guilty : Intense. When the whole scenario was put in place that Henry was just trying to help Emily, and it was Emily who had done that to Oliver And the whole revelation of the actual scenario. And the whole angle of how people view ex convicts. It was automatically assumed even by the viewers that it was this man with priors who was in the wrong when the actual story was so different. A good movie. Also a cop owning up his guilt. I kinda still wanna know the whole story of what exactly happened with Joe.

Don't worry, darling : I don't know about this one, I kinda stopped watching after 10-15 minutes ig? Felt a little too in the line of Shutter Island? I like Harry styles, but the movie didn't hook me up, felt a little too round about. Maybe it is a good movie and I need to give it time, but I don't wanna go on the shutter island lane rn.

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I was looking for tissues online

And I suddenly remembered this scene from Kotaro lives alone

Where how there's this particular part suggesting that Kotaro had to eat tissues for sometime, and which is why he still buys high quality expensive nutrients tissues

And then the manga artist guy tells him that he no longer needs to buy those tissues anymore and then his realisation

And my heart just kinda you know? Felt a tinge remembering that.

It's such a minute thing, but it's not.

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WATCH THE MOVIE RED EYE GUYS.

WHAT AN AMAZING MOVIE.

Loved it.

The thrill, and the whole time I was into the movie. Not a single moment where I wandered off. And I haven't slept since yesterday so if it was a boring movie, trust me I would have slept away.

But THIS WAS SO GOOOOD.

Loved it.

THIS WAS MY MOST FAVOURITE PART. Iykyk

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I wish teleportation was real

Kinda the way it is in Saiki

Honestly it would be super cool to have all of Saiki's powers

Yeah

That would be the best

Just add another one, which would kinda be like, unless I choose to tell you my power, no one would ever realise that it's my power

Even if I use it in front of them, their brain would just fill it with some random non embarassing shit

So we're safe

But honestly, every time I watch The disastrous life of Saiki K

He is so relatable in certain aspects and it's so fun to watch it

....

I haven't slept in a day and I'm going home from somewhere and all I could wish amidst these people and stupid traffic around me is that I wish Teleportation was so so so real

But like, only for me

Because this pathetic ass world would capitalise even that or ruin it in a bad weird way

And we don't want that

....

Also, I'm in a cab and I can't figure out if this guy is taking a proper route or fucking around rn because I suck at directions and places and I'm sleepy and I'm annoyed and it's only 3 more hours until I have to leave again so I won't be getting any sleep because I've to take a stupid shower too and then there's this whole discharge process where stupid hospital staff will make me dance from one corner to another and it's so fucking annoying

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Every day I decide I'll go to sleep by 2am

Every day I look at the clock strike 5

Every day I whine about it

It's fucking 6 in the morning, and I'm making a Tumblr post, deciding whether I should even sleep at all

...

It's 6:34

I'm going to sleep *cries in knowing I'll wake up late and every one will wonder why tf do I sleep so much*

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SPOILER ALERT 91 DAYS ANIME

Okay so, for people who have watched 91 days, what do you think of the ending?

Completed watching 91 days

And at first, my thoughts about it are quite simple

Kinda like, okay it was a cool anime, nice.

But when I think about the ending

I have so many different answers and questions

Okay so

Is Angelo alive? Or dead?

I think Angelo's alive, Nero didn't kill him.

I think Nero didn't kill him, because Nero's father always regretted killing the Lagusas, and when he died, he died uttering the words : It was all for nothing. And then, later on, Angelo too says the same thing which triggers a fight between them and Angelo says WHY DIDN'T YOU KILL ME BACK THEN?

And then at some point they're just chilling and all of that

And Nero tells him

That you don't need a reason to live

You just live

So yeah, I don't think Nero killed Angelo

I think he just left him there

And went separate ways

What confuses me more is about that other don, who saved Angelo

And told him to do something

What was all that about (like, is it somehow connected to him suggesting that he should Kill Nero or is it something else? Like you did a good job, go kill one more person for me and you'll be free kinda? But also like, i didn't see any more of their influence? I am doubtful about that place where they got food but nothing other than that)

And also In the end a car stops after looking at Nero's car, What was that

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I feel really bad for : Corteo (poor man didn't deserve all that) and Barbero (smart man but sadly no one trusted his gut)

Also that investigator who was threatened. Man if they had actually taken his family out, I would have lost my heart. When they showed me the car burning and made us assume for those 30 seconds that his wife and daughter were killed. I was sad, mad, and plain disappointed and angry. They were alive, and I felt better. No one should do something like that to anyone. Ever.

....

Also that part in the end when they're both just chilling together, hanging out and stuff. I don't know what to think about that, did it represent the despair they both shared.

Because they both did trust each other. Angelo wouldn't accept that, but he never really wanted to kill Nero, as he spoke, at the end.

They were good friends. And when Nero found out everything, he couldn't kill him so easily because Nero wasn't that kind of a guy, and also because of all that I've mentioned above. Also maybe because they both understood each other in having gone through the similar thing, having caused each other in a weird way, the pain they're going through.

So kinda like yeah.

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On the other hand, If Nero did kill Angelo, it might be because Angelo wanted to die. He has no reason to live. And his words to him might signify that you don't need a reason to live, you just live. In the past sense, and maybe more to himself rather than to Angelo.

And maybe killing Angelo somehow gave him a closure regarding that it was his first job, and he felt his dad was disappointed because he didn't kill Angelo. So in that sense, if he killed Angelo at the beach, that was a loop completed, in that he completed the job?

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Wars? Peace?

I don't know what is it that would soothe my heart?

I mean, I can do everything the world does

I can pretend to be an adult, I can pretend to like work, I can pretend to be a normal functioning human

Maybe I can pretend and try to fool myself into becoming one of those people for whom existing comes a little easier.

I pretend to have hope.

But do I even know what hope is?

I can pretend to be everything.

But I suck at most of it.

Sometimes, I have to stop pretending because i cannot carry this heaviness, this heavy weight of my heart.

It aches and it throbs and it pains.

And only when I lie down

I feel just a little better

I wonder if that is the way my heart asks me, to just end it all? Or to take a break? Or to lie down and just be?

The world has gone through many things

And it will continue to do until someday it finally perishes away.

There will be wars, there will be peace.

I can understand how wars bring pain and hurt and unending scars.

But isn't peace just the surface of things?

Yes we aren't killing each other, but, aren't we psychologically torturing the life out of everything?

Yes, we laugh, and we are happy

And yes, some people truly are

And that's good

But

What about the places

Where the blood from the wars, hasn't dried up

What about the places where the war ended years ago, yet there's no bread or water?

What about the places where everything's okay, yet there's this existential sadness gnawing away at their throats?

What about the places, where people are assaulted day and night?

What about the places, where they have to use their body to earn some money to support themselves?

What about so many cruel things, that happen to people?

Peace? Yes, in a way, we are peaceful.

But we're also internally dying.

We've made a pretend game out of this whole world

And we can't stop pretending

Because if we do

We'll all just stare at each other

With eyes and hearts so heavy

And hands so empty

We'd just sit aimlessly

Feeling an abyss which we cannot comprehend

Our feelings are all so....complex, intimate, they're tangled threads, and with each decision we make, we either untangle a thread or tangle it even more

And we won't know what we've done

Because it's so tangled up

That there's no way of knowing

Until we find a proper way

Sometimes I wish

These tangles would disappear

Along with the world

Because

As fun as it is

To see a tangle free life

The tangled threads just bring me pain

And they tangle up even more

And even more

And even more and more and more

I've fallen into the tangled threads

And I've given up

On untangling them

They've now binded me,

And I'm being suffocated

Tied up

Choking

I reach my hands out,

In front of my eyes

And I look at them

They're as empty, as they were

This hope they talk about

The one i pretended to have

I can't see it

All I can see

Are my own hands

And they're empty

I sleep amidst the threads

Slowly suffocating

Resting my hands over my chest

The weight feels a little less

My heart, asks me to lie down.

And I request for it, to stop beating.

Yet I wake up

And yet, it beats

And I feel it's weight

And I walk the streets

With my empty hands

I pretend

To have hope

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Character A : I'm thinking of organising a mud bath too

Character B : What's a mudbath?

A : It's like, you dig a hole and put people in it

B : That's something I think about doing everyday, but I don't think that's legal

A : (absent mindedly)What... NO- WHat

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The more I grow, the more I understand that the simple things are sometimes not obvious.

People assume to understand the small and the simplest of things, but they don't. They forget. They run on the assumption that they do understand it.

But the most obvious things in life are simple, which we make complex because we don't understand them, or because we don't understand the simplicity of them.

Maybe life as a grownup throws enough hurdles at you, that something which is simple doesn't make sense anymore

It makes you look at it with complexity, when in actuality, it was really simple.

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I've always had this one song on my playlist

And it always made me feel

Just too many things

Warm, sad, happy, and things....I can only identify emotions at their face, I fail to identify them in depth

So

I'd always feel so many things

And I found out it's from the movie

Howl's moving castle

And I watched the movie today

And....i loved it.

I'll watch it again after sometime to understand it even better

But

My first thoughts are

When I looked at Howl first, in that scene where he helps Sophie, I thought he was perfect(always strong, not vulnerable), more like : I wanted him to be perfect

Throughout the movie, we see different versions of Howl, and through the end, I realise that, what makes someone perfect really is the fact that they can be vulnerable.

I know it's an obvious thing.

But call me a fool, or the world one, because we humans simply forget the most simple obvious things.

Vulnerability. To admit to things. To showcase your feelings. To feel weak. To feel strong. To feel hurt. To feel lonely. To showcase those feelings. This mold of a human would just be a statue if it were always to be strong and to stay still. But the countless expressions, the flow of feelings, the heaviness of the heart, the soft spoken eyes, the warmth of your feelings. This vulnerability. It's what makes you perfect.

So cry, and when you get scared, or lonely, or hurt, I'll be there. Always holding you, and loving you. No matter whatever expression you wear. No matter what. I'll always, ever, be there.

I really really liked it, you know. Howl's moving castle. And Howl. And you know it's a little silly, but I was feeling very down, and when I watched it, and that particular scene where they first met and he saved her from those guards and they floated in the sky walking in the air. I really really liked it. I wished I could walk away from the troubles or life that way. It wasn't the bit of him saving her, but rather the impromptu exciting exchange of it. The harmony of it and the moment they shared. And more so the smooth elegance of their movements, their emotions.

There was warmth in that moment. And I hold that scene, very close to me.

Along with this melody. Which has always soothed me.

I also love Calcifer a lot😤❤️

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Also currently watching 'Mr Villain's day off' and I gotta tell you, I'm enjoying it more than I thought I would. It's also a little relatable in certain aspects.

Like this part here,

"It's profoundly cold. But if I stay like this, my precious day off will pass me by." This line was a simple one, but I interpreted it in a different way, to me, it felt like when life feels cold and it often does, all I wanna do is snuggle away within my blanket and sleep off everything. But a gentle reminder after that line – But if I stay like this, my precious day off will pass me by. It felt like, you know? An encouragement of sorts, like, we need to go on.

It was a simple line, and maybe I thought too much. But when I read it, it just felt worth thinking about. And I'm glad i did.

Also these panels were very cute and super relatable lol

(This was when his coworker kept calling him on his day off)

(This was when he finally picked up his 10th call maybe? And talked to him about why he's calling him on his day off)

And his love for Pandas is just too adorable

And when he makes another snow bunny next to one snow bunny, I related so much🥲 because you don't want that one snow bunny to be lonely. Make two of them.

And also the part of not eating things because they're too cute🥲😂

Also something random that crossed my mind when I saw the first snow ball fall onto the ground and melt away : The first snow, that falls onto the ground, melts away, ever so fleetingly.

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For people who need to hear it

Anime : Wolf dog and the black prince

I don't know if I like this anime or not, I haven't completed watching it, but this particular dialogue between them was good. Because it's also understandable and relatable.

The love that you experience in that state is just self delusion. There's no point in getting depressed over love like that.