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New lore.

More like rant, but yeah

So, i started working at a new place, and the place is fine, things are okay. Except there are some people who are just really really stupid, and don't have the basic decency to be called anything at all, because calling them names would be disrespectful to the names.

The lore here is, this particular woman in question, is so stupid. Having existed in the legal realm of work, you have the basic knowledge of how to address people and everything else. But no. She doesn't. She addresses people by their skin colour. Then going further, back bitches about anyone who's not in the room. Then, goes on to teach you wrongly, and further tells you it's wrong, when she clearly taught you wrong. Then goes on to blabber shit ALL DAY LONG about God knows what. Then goes on to tell people that she doesn't want to listen to their side when resolving a dispute. Also furthermore, when assigns work to someone who by the way is in their first week, tells right in front of that person that you're slow, within probably 20 minutes, and assigns the same work to someone else, so basically no good mentorship, only knows how to demotivate people and talk shit, adding on to the toxic atmosphere like a goddamn poisonous mushroom. Honestly poisonous mushrooms might still help in research, this woman solely exists to bring nothing to anyone in any way. It's like there are no words i can use to disrespect her, for any words I shall use, is an insult to those very words.

All this was context. This is all I have been observing happen to people around me, and to an extent to me as well.

However, I also have a very expressive face, so my disgust is quite visible. And when she tries to make me participate in her back bitching, i simply refuse and rather defend others.

Now, what i really want to say is

At first, I used to get so pissed off, so irritated, and my friends would tell me to not bring work home, to not bring that energy home and i realised, yeah. That's right. No point in bringing that irritation home.

Today, something more happened, where she addresses one of the interns directly, and told her that she has a problem with her. And for some reason, i somehow without saying a word had gotten swept in their crossfire and she told me as well, that she has a problem with me too.

I said okay, and shrugged. What else am I to do?

The whole thing went on, honestly I zoned out, i didn't take that personally because i don't value her, her words don't sting.

But sometimes, there's this calm detached energy building up within me from having witnessed her idiocy from day one, that calm detached energy is very much like Gojo's when he fought Toji. Like, i would say things which are so haunting and daunting to even myself.

This other day i said something like : I would make her cry with my words if I ever so find her speak anything that belittles me in the most wrong way. If i ever find myself to be the topic of her gossip, I will make her cry in front of the whole of the office, and even when she cries, I'll coldly ask her if she's done crying? Since I have a lot more to speak of. So shut up and sit and weep and listen. I will ensure that you have trauma that outmatches number of therapists. (I said that and I was like WOAH, WHAT THE FUCK)

And the problem is, that If push comes to shove, I do believe i have the capability to do that. And I'm afraid of doing that. Because she might be the most stupid person, but i don't want to become a story of pain for someone else. Even when they deserve nothing but a slap across, no wait, 20-30 slaps across their face. Honestly violence doesn't appease me, I'd rather scar you mentally and watch it sting. (This stupid job is turning me into a goddamn sadist, I'm not😭😭😭)

Anyways, today this thing that had happened, I'm simply sitting in my room, chilling, and before this I was speaking to a colleague and we were talking about what had happened. And i thought of a few things, like how when I leave this place i'd write her a letter and it would be constructive criticism wrapped up in a bundle of amazingly constructed words that lists every stupid thing she has spoken. My gift to her would be awareness that she doesn't have. Maybe I'll read that letter to her.

Anyways, my energy these days really has been like this :

It varies from here to that Toji fight scene haha.

But today it was this. No kidding.

But all this to really say

I am kinda worried about these thoughts, its not nice you know? Yes they deserve that, but i don't want to turn into a pile of shit of a person. I don't approve of their toxicity, i don't approve of them even existing tbh, but, i don't want to become a toxic sadistic wishing hate on people type of person.

Even this person, i dislike them, i don't hate them. Like Vinland saga has taught us, You have no enemies, no one has any enemies. There is no one that you should hurt. I wish to enforce it properly on my mind, but my survival mechanism can't help but think of every possibility that may arise which might need a defense that makes you feel safe and enlightened in the sense that no hurt can be caused to you that may outreach the defense. I don't know if you get it, I tend to do ramble a bit someyimes.

But I need to slowly detach a lot, it's not my responsibility that they're literate illiterate assholes, I need to understand that and let go. Not everyone is morally good. Doesn't mean I have to become immoral.

It's a dilemma.

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LUFFY IS NOW AN EMPEROR. In one of my very early posts i mentioned a prediction that Law will maybe become an emperor, but I never predicted Luffy because to me it was kinda like, that he'll become the King of the Pirates directly. So yesss, but yeah it makes sense, there's no shortcut to become a king.🔼

HE'S NOW ONE OF THE EMPERORS. YAYYYY. But seriously, what is Buggy doing over there😭

I'm also okay with Buggy, but mannnn I hate Blackbeard with all of my heart. The man is just so evil and so meritless, it annoys the fuck out of me. He is truly the most opposite of what Whitebeard was. Truly.🔼

Look at Kid, I mean yes fine, he came by under the excuse of defeating Luffy right there because of this but come on, we all know, I mean, when you think about it, it seems to me like he was so furious but also excited about that news and wanted Luffy to know. And that is so sweet. (Captain Kid reading this would so not approve, I know)🔼

MAN, I HATE THIS GUY ALREADY. But what a brilliant way of showing the views of how actually politics is. The whole dialogue over here was heavy and deep and it was very accurate of how the actual world is.🔼

When this guy came by first and did this to the Animal kingdom Pirates, I was like. Oy. No. What the fuck is this? Is he a cannibal or what. And I was super creeped out. But then it was made a little clear that the guy takes away water and nutrients from your body. Yeah okay. But I don't like this guy. I like Fujitora a little. I hate Aakainu.🔼

When Luffy says goodbye to Otama, and she sees Ace in Luffy.🔼

Episodes 1080-1085

30th April, 2024

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This conversation between Zoro and Sanji😂😂😂

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Episode 1075 - 1080

29th April, 2024 (evening)

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A little update for anyone who's reading

So, I cleared my final semester and I'm a lawyer now.

I got my results today, 11th June, 2025.

I was at work, and the results were posted then, so someone informed me and I checked and I passed and I knew I'd pass, but I was like, oh okay, yay?

But everyone at the office came by and said Congratulations

And it just didn't feel like that so much

It's like....yeah, okay...hehehaha...haha.

And then i came home and my bestfriend called me and told me he's coming by, so I said okay come.

And he came at my place with a cake.

A cake.

And i was shocked.

Because.

My initial reaction was 'Whaaaat. Whyyyyy. Why would you get a cake?'

And he was like, you became a lawyer.

And i was just so shooketh.

And i felt so happy, not that i completed my degree, it was in the due course of nature to do so. But I was happy that I have people who celebrate me when I don't even understand the point of it.

So I'm happy to have some people who love me. And I'm happy to have someone who goes out of their way to do these things for me.

I am still so speechless, in the sense of wow. You'd do that for me?

I don't know how can I explain this to you, but it's a feeling that is of bewilderment but lowkey. I'm bad at expressing my gratitude feelings because i feel so much, but i don't know how to show that to you. So I just stand there with a heart of profound feelings and utter the words : thank you, but behind them, is a weight of feeling with which I mean them, that can't be visible. And i worry that it's not. And i end up feeling shitty because i can't express my thanks to you, and you might feel taken for granted.

Other than that mini explanation round

Twas a good day, and I'm grateful for the people around me, and my chosen family.

Have a sweet happy day everyone. Sending you cake and flowers, and so much love. And hugs. And head pats. Cuz why not.

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Rest in peace Izo and Ashura. I'm really sad about this.

I'm just so happy seeing them like this🔼

It feels so good to see everyone like this🥹❤️

Looking at Chopper like this feels so naked

Episode 1075-1079

29th April, 2024

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I've forgotten how to talk to people hahahah.

This other day

I was talking to a friend who promised me they won't spoil this show for me

Who immediately proceeded to then spoil it

So i said loudly.

THAT'S BAD. NO.

And he immediately responded, –'What, am I a dog? You're talking to me like a dog

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And I'm just recalling that conversation and it's so hilarious to me.

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So, something random

And something not really fleshed out

But a trail of thought that's in motion:

I was thinking that, you know, trauma, complex ones, when you're so stuck within them, in a sense that you're also not, but you are because you're in a survival mechanism.

It's like, it has been so long, that when you take it away from you.

And you look at yourself

And you find that maybe you are on the starting line somehow.

Because it's like

You were so focused on surviving, and you didn't even realise that you were so focused on that, like on autopilot survival mode.

And when you finally go into manual, you're like, woah? Who am I? Who am I?

And it's so overwhelming because you don't know who you are. And it's just so, woah. And woah good and woah bad and woah weird and woah sad and all types of woah and you just don't know what to do.

I'm rambling, it's a train of thought, but does it make sense to you?

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God I hate the work culture timings so much

I loathe them

So STUPID

SO GODDAMN STUPID

What? Was I fucking born for working!???

What in the fucking rotten hell is this shithole?

And why is no one doing anything about this shit

It's not the work i hate

But the fucking timings

And I DON'T EVEN HAVE IT THAT BAD, PEOPLE HAVE IT WORSE THAN ME.

HOW ARE YOU GUYS SURVIVING.

My timings are morning 10 to Evening 7:30/almost 8.

And I am like ????

Where is my me time?

I WANT MY ME TIME.

I feel like an adult toddler.

But whatever.

AND THEY DON'T HAVE SATURDAYS OFF????

No one told me adulting was so fucking bad.

It was only my second day at work and I am so tired, I wished a car ran over me or something.

BECAUSE UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Guys, what, why is this?

If we were in a medieval era, we would've successfully carried out a revolt or something. I'm so tired i don't even know if I'm right.

Also why stupendous word = impressive, when it sounds like an exaggerated form of expressing AGH SO GODDAMN STUPID.

Okay well, I'm done with my mini rant.

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Y'all ever feel like

You're a penguin who has collected all these pebbles, and you want to present them to someone. And as soon as you find someone, and you present them some pebbles, but

But they're not penguins, so they don't understand the significance of those pebbles

Like, to them they're just pebbles

And to you, they're pebbles

And then, things just don't go that way, and you're left with your pebbles and you want to present them to someone. But you don't know where your penguin is.

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Snippets of Gear five Luffy✨🔼

The wishes of everyone reached up🥹

Idk what but I laughed at this representation. The old emperors of the sea are now sinked into the ground🔼

FINALLY OROCHI IS DEAD. FINALLY. Kyoshiro killed him🔼

Law and Bepo, Law's representation of card isss very accurate😂😂❤️🔼

Luffy and Zoro🥹❤️🔼

Episodes 1075 - 1079

29th April, 2024

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Their reactions to Luffy's giant head popping in from the ceiling plus looking at him in all white for the first time👌😂😂😂🔼

COOL SNIPPET🔼

YESSSSS🔼

DUDE I WENT :0

Also when he held lightning :O🔼

Context : Luffy tells this to Momo, who's trying his best to stop Onigashima from falling on Capital🔼

Episodes 1070-1074

29th April, 2024

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GEAR FIVE GEAR FIVE GEAR FIVE GEAR FIVE GEAR FIVE

AHHHHH THE AWAKENING, I'M LOSING IT

THE BEATS ARE SO COOL, THE ANIMATION IS SO GOOD, THE APPROACH IS SO CREATIVE, THE MOVES ARE SO FUNNY, THE BREAKING OF FOURTH WALL IS ALSO SO FUNNY (when Kaido says, this feels like a comic strip), ALSO JOY BOY??? MAN I'M PUMPED AND EXCITED.

Ayo i cracked up hard here. Loved it.🔼

I SO WANTED HIM TO DO JUMP ROPE WHEN HE HELD KAIDO LIKE THAT👌

Episodes 1070-1074

29th April, 2024

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The introduction to Luffy's fruit, WHO WOULD'VE THOUGHT. FUCK I'M SO EXCITED.

The Zoan, Human-Human fruit, Mythical type, Model....Nika

He does make people smile, so much :3

Episodes 1070-1074

29th April, 2024

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THE GEAR FIVE, THE AWAKENING, THE JOY BOY, WHATTTTT!!!!!!

THE EPISODES I'VE BEEN YEARNING FOR.

Do you know how many times I've diverted my eyes from this one spoiler I've always gotten. And it was all worth it. The excitement I've felt as much as I am feeling after watching these current episodes is out of bounds.

I'm smiling and I'm laughing and I'm so happy. Because wow. This is so how I didn't expect this, it's SO much better, SO MUCH brilliant.

I'm loving this.

The awakening 1070 (near the end)

The proper introduction to the awakening plus fight (1071 onwards)

Episodes 1070-1074

29th April, 2024

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Sudden realisation but

The only place I've bowed down to without it being an automated reaction which was partly empty, not in the sense of it being empty in a bad sense, but rather just empty in meaning how it's been sort of inscribed within you.

So as I was saying, the only places where I've bowed down without it being an automated reaction might be infront of the books, infront of a beautiful book shelf, on my knees, looking at each one of those books, in awe.

And I'm cool with it.

To be on your knees for anyone, to bow down is for me, the highest form of respect and intimacy. So I think I'm happy to be doing that for books, because they deserve it.

They deserve all my love.

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So I was on a binge reading vibe for sometime, and there was a lot of medieval era vibe and then i wished to write a letter in that fashion. So i wrote one for my bestfriend.

Her name is redacted for privacy purpose haha.

But here it is :

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To ––––

I was reading a medieval era tale, and since I've been reading quite a lot of those, the linguistic manner of the same has rubbed off on me.

But rather, I choose not to complain, for this manner excites me. The language is rich and full of emotions, emotions which carry a certain weight that can only be expressed through letters and in such way.

It got me thinking. The tale I was reading from had this particular scene, in which a friend of the main character embodies her love in warmth, protection and getting angry on her behalf. And seeing such warmth and the energy in that person for her friend, reminded me of my own. And who other than you can be the person i so speak of.

It reminded me of how it has been a while since we've spoken

And it reminded me of how it has been a while since I expressed my gratitude and contentment of how I'm glad you exist within this realm at the same time as I.

Well, I never express it in such a theatrical manner, but in ways that may be subtle, or not, or simply an express way of our mini jokes and rituals that only hold meaning to us.

But once in a while, this type of thing Isn't so bad, won't you agree?

I remember once having this particular thought.

It went like "Telling someone you love them is easy, ofcourse as family, it's implied you love me, but even within family, expressing love is important, even if you love me, even if you'd rescue me before death befalls me, wouldn't it be nice if everyday in simple ways, you reached out to me to just pat my head and simply ask me if I've eaten something?"

This was a passing thought I had about expressions of love.

And this very thought reminded me of how even though you might be aware of how much iloveyou and how much imissyou, and how high i regard you, even though you're aware of how much you mean to me, i should still reach out and tell you.

So here I am, telling you.

That you're my chosen family, and my bestfriend, my sister, and your warmth is so exuding, it has often saved me.

It has often become a source of shade in the scorching sun.

I may have become a little too dramatic haha, but i couldn't help it.

Even writing this letter, in this manner of language, the medieval type, if I'm not wrong about the era and the words, even writing such a letter, I would never dare to write one to any random soul.

i would rather only send it to someone like you, who means so much to me.

You make me feel safe enough to be vulnerable around you

And I am eternally grateful for that.

Before i end this letter

I want to tell you this one particular thing

And this thing, it's very important.

It's really really really important.

So read this and engrave it within your soul

I'm proud of you.

This may seem out of the blue.

Or even maybe an empty praise.

But believe me when I say, that it's not.

I mean this from the depths of my heart.

I see you, and I really see you. Even on days you might not see yourself, I see you. And since I see you, and I know how hard you work, and every word and silent thoughts we exchange, and even on days when we don't, remember that I am proud of you.

My dearest ____

The only one I can put a dear against without feeling like it shouldn't be there.

Iloveyou, and once again, Imissyou.

Let's meet each other soon?

I can't wait to talk about our trivial pursuits and speak of things that go from one end of the world to another, and even out of it haha.

And you better be taking care of yourself properly, or when I see you, i would have no other choice but to be harsh upon the way you're tending to yourself.

Once again, let's meet soon.

And once again, Imissyousoverymuch.

Your very bestfriend,

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Some favourite happy moments that happened :

One day, the universe presented me with flowers, and i gratefully accepted. I was walking around, spotted a flower graffiti, loved it, I was standing at the station and a flower fell on my head in the most elegant manner, I was waiting for the train and i spotted a beautiful flower sitting on the tracks, it was so serene.

So to me, the universe presented me with flowers and i fell in love and awe because it was the most beautiful form of love.

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I have smol cousins at my place, all under 10, so one of them was watching demon slayer (I swear i didn't show her demon slayer), but while she was watching it, Rengoku came up, and i clutched my heart and said, oh god it hurts (in a little dramatic fashion but also meaning it because man i cannot watch that arc). So while I did that, the youngest one came up to me, and pressed at my heart and said...it hurts? And then proceeds to touch my head to check if I had fever. And i swear to god, i felt so warm from happiness i would have cried.

Kids are chaos, but god I love the energy they bring, and this subtle kind of warmth which they embrace you with is so so so sweet.