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“Where We Left Off” 21. Parent
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“Oh damn it we’re already late!” Chris yelled as he ran out of his and Sofia Elizabeth’s room at his Boston apartment and down the hall. “shoes, shoes, shoes,” Chris mumbled as he looked over the couch and coffee table, “where are your shoes?” He asked his 9 month-old daughter who he felt shrug her arms, “Well, you’re not walking anywhere” he shrugged. He looked over at her “Ah!” He jumped when he saw her crazy bedhead. “Baby comb-overs are in right?” He asked aloud to Scott and Daniel as he combed over Sofia Elizabeth’s hair over. 
She had thick blond hair like her mother. 
It was thicker on top and thinner on the sides, which is why the signature style for the baby was a comb-over. 
“Okay, breakfast!” He looked around and in the kitchen and found a box of Chinese food. “Well, now’s a good time to find out if you like kung-pao chicken or not” Chris said as he grabbed the box and hurried out the door with Sofia Elizabeth on his hip.
“You know, I really enjoyed yesterday’s episode of them forgetting their shoes.” Daniel said. 
“That was a good one” Scott laughed, “but today seems to be a good episode as well” Scott watched the door, waiting for Chris to come back through it. 
“I put on my sock and shoes, but failed to notice other than that I’m only wearing boxers!” Chris ranted as he walked back to his room. 
“Looking good Chris!” Scott yelled as he drank his coffee,
“Shut up!” 
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“Well there you are!” Grace yelled as Chris came in the house. 
“Yeah, we were running a little late,” Chris groaned as he put Sofia Elizabeth on the floor with her younger cousin Michael, Diego and Ruby’s son. 
“What’s with the Chinese?” Diego asked, Chris looked down at the box in his hand, 
“Uh, we were trying new foods” 
“At least you’re wearing shoes” Ruby commented. 
“Yeah, parenting tough” he sighed. 
“You’ll get the hang of it” Grace soothed, 
“Are you sure about that? It’s been 9 months and it’s still like it’s week one. Ma isn’t too impressed on that part.” He looked back at his daughter playing with her 5-month-old cousin. 
He was playing with one of those toys with the lid with different cut-outs for different shapes that you had to match the shape with it’s cut-out. He kept hitting the star block against the triangle cut-out. 
Sofia Elizabeth grabbed the triangle block, took the cut-out top off of the box, put the triangle block in, and put the lid back on. 
Chris snorted at his daughter’s actions and everyone else laughed. 
“Think smarter, not harder huh?” Diego laughed. 
Chris’ watch then beeped, “I gotta go, sorry” 
“Go! Go! I’ll watch her” Grace shooed, “I love Mamaw (ma’am-maw) and Beth time!” 
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Later that evening... “Come on guys!” Chris whined to Scott and Daniel, “I gotta do this for work! And everyone else is busy!” 
“Well we got things too!” Daniel argued, “you said that you were free this evening so we didn’t have to worry about watching her”
“I was, but then this came up, and this would really help me out guys!”
“Sorry dude,” Scott said, “we’ve been doing a lot this last couple months, we just want personal time too” 
“Come on guys! Am I the only one that Sofia Elizabeth’s....father...!? Damn it!” 
“Later dude” Daniel said, as he slipped on his black leather jacket about to walk out the door, 
“I’ll babysit for a month!”
“She’s YOUR baby!” 
“She’s YOUR niece!” Chris argued, “She’s your Eliza! She’s one of your favorite ladies”
“Yeah, and right now I would like to see if I can find another favorite lady” Daniel said trying to push past Chris. 
“Do you love her?” 
“Of course I do!”
“Would you protect her with your life?”
“Yes!” Daniel yelled exasperated, 
“What about you?” Chris asked Scott
“Yes, of course! Why are you asking this?” Scott asked confused. 
“Because I just want your confirmation” Chris than ran out the door and away with Scott and Daniel yelling after him. 
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“You know she’s starting to look like Sofia Alexandrina more and more” Daniel commented as he watched Scott feed her. 
“You think she’ll be military?”
Daniel scoffed, “not if Chris has anything to say about it. He doesn’t like leaving her. He gets this anxiety is seems” 
“Well, Sofia Alexandrina went missing almost a year ago, it only makes sense that he doesn’t like to be apart from her. but he has to” 
“It’s crazy that they have no leads and there’s nothing new! Are they even trying?”
“Have you ever considered...” Scott started gently, “that maybe because there’s nothing new because she’s not around to find anymore--”
“Of course she is!” Daniel said upset and offended that Scott would suggest that, “we’re family, and if something had happened to her...” He struggled to say the words, “I would know. I know that she’s still out there, I have faith.” Sofia Elizabeth soon finished he bottle and Scott but her to bed in Chris’ room while they went to their own rooms. 
An hour later.... “Hey Scott,” Daniel yelled walking into the living room, “I was thinking, It’s not necessary to blow off both of our plans, so I’m going to go-” Daniel than ran out of the apartment. 
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“Chris honey, we need to talk!” Lisa yelled when she walked into the apartment, to find it quiet “Chris?” Lisa pushed the cracked door open further to find Sofia Elizabeth laying in her crib, kicking her legs at the sight of Nana Evans, which made her smile, “hey princess, are you taking a nap?” Lisa cooed, shutting the door. 
Scott then walked out into the kitchen dancing to a song coming through his earbuds. He took one out and looked around. “Hey Danny, Sofia Elizabeth can’t be left alone without an adult because apparently people frown at that, only one of us have to stay with her. So...bye!” He yelled and ran out of the apartment. 
“Hello?” Lisa asked as she walked back out of Chris’ room, “is anyone here!? Chris!? Scott!? The other one!?” She looked around once more before she concluded that no one was home, “oh this is going to be the mother of all ‘I told you so’ ‘s” 
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“Hey Danny how’s----wait where are you!?” Chris asked confused when he heard music in the background. 
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“Hey man! I’m out with some friends!”
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“Where’s Sofia Elizabeth!?”
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“Relax! She’s out like a light, besides, Scott has it handled.”
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Chris hung up the phone grumbling and began to call his brother, “hey, Scott---are you bowling!?” He interrogated when he heard the knocking of bowling pins “Where’s Sofia Elizabeth!?”
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“Relax she’s at home with Danny”
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“No she’s not! Danny said that she’s at home with you!” 
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“But she’s not with me...” 
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Chris hung up and began to freak out, “I’m so sorry I have to go!” 
Later... “Fifi it’s okay, Daddy’s here!” Chris said as he ran through his apartment and opened his door with a smile only for it to be replaced with a look of horror when he saw his baby girl wasn’t there. “Oh my God” He said bringing his fist up to his mouth, his voice cracking, “oh my God, Sofia Elizabeth where are you?” He asked again, his voice breaking again, “oh my God this can’t be happening” He freaked out, his hands running through his hair, on the verge of tears as he goes to get his phone out. 
“Looking for someone?” Lisa asked, walking through the door with Sofia Elizabeth on her hip. 
“Sofia Elizabeth! Oh thank God you’re okay” he cried as he rushed to take his daughter in his arms, “I’m so sorry baby, I will never let you out of my sigh again.” He kissed her head, caressing it with his hand as she layed her head on his shoulder. “I am the worst father in the world” He looked up to his Mom to meet her angry yet sympathetic gaze. He put Sofia Elizabeth in her swing before facing his Mom. “okay,” he sighed, “give it to me. Let me have it. But let me tell you now, nothing you tell me can possibly be worse than what I am telling myself right now.” 
“Actually, Chris, I want you to know, that I’m proud of you” she said softly, 
“Seriously?” He asked confused, “did you just miss the part where I left my baby alone?” 
“I once left Carly at Walmart when she was two” She sighed, 
“Oh my God what happened?” 
“She was never seen again!” She said sarcastically before shaking her head, “look, the point it we all make mistakes, it’s part of life and being human. But that feeling that you just had, that gut wrenching, heart stopping, if anything happens to my child I think I might die feeling that you just had. That’s when you know that your a parent! And I can guarantee that you will do everything you can to never feel that feeling again. So congratulations.” Lisa said, placing a hand on her son’s shoulder, “you’re officially a parent. And I have a feeling you’re going to be a really great one too”
“Eliza!!!” Daniel yelled panicked, throwing the door open with Scott in a similar state behind him. He dropped to his knees in front of her worriedly, Scott doing the same, “is she alright?” He asked aloud, 
“Well she has a three boys fawning over her, works for most girls” Said Lisa. 
“I’m so sorry Elizabeth” Scott apologized. 
“We made a mistake” Chris said, “and it won’t happen again” Chris said looking at his mom, “I’m sorry Mom” he began to walk towards her with open arms, “I need help. I need you.” 
Lisa held her son tightly, 
“Wait for it” Scott said, 
“I told you so” 
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“Where We Left Off” 20. Baby pt.2
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WARNINGS: Mentions of abduction, child abandonment, hospitals, Social Services (if that’s a trigger for you) swearing
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Chris then heard a loud boom outside and tires screeching. He furrowed his brows and got up and looked out the window and listened intensely, he swears he heard something that sounds like…crying?
“What the hell?” He murmured, he put on his slippers and robe, he quietly sneaked out of the house and outside, he listened over the now blizzarding snow and could hear the crying come by the street, he walked down the driveway and the crying got louder, he furrowed his brows and stood next to the garbage cans where it sound like the crying was coming from.
Chris opened the garbage can and came face to face with a crying garbage bag.
He jumped when he saw the crying garbage bag move, he quickly yet cautiously open the bag and found a scream-crying baby loosely swaddled in a crochet sunflower blanket.
“Oh my god!” Chris exclaimed. 
He threw back the lid causing another loud ‘boom’ as the lid hit the back of the can. He picked up the baby still in the garbage bag, and cradled her close to his chest. 
“Chris? What is going on!?” Called Lisa, Chris turned to face his mother with a scared and shocked expression, Lisa gasped, her hands covering her mouth, “is that a baby!?” Chris nodded his head, “well get them inside before they freeze to death!” Chris nodded again and ran back into the house. Lisa shut the door and locked it. She then began to turn on lights as she walked through the main level of the house. “Give them here” Lisa said as she stretched out her arms, taking the baby, “Chris, go turn on the fire and call the police” Lisa said sitting by the fireplace and taking the baby out of the garbage bag and swaddling the baby tighter. She looked inside the bag and saw a matching hat and toy, “oh,” Lisa cooed, looking at the crocheted work for this abandoned baby. 
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She placed the hat on the baby’s head rocked them back and forth, cooing at them, in an attempt to soothe their cries. 
“What’s going on?” Shanna drowsily asked, while rubbing her eyes, 
“I found a baby in the garbage can outside” Chris said as he began to call 911. 
“What?” Shanna asked more awake now as she move into further into the house and saw her mother cradling a baby whose cries are now subsiding. 
Soon the police and an ambulance showed up, the police road asked Lisa, Chris, and Shanna questions and then the three road to the hospital. Not without alerting the other family members of their whereabouts in case the woke up and they were gone. 
They sat in the waiting room waiting to hear about the baby, a doctor came out and looked around the room, “Evans and Myers”
“Myers?” Asked Shanna, They looked over and saw Grace and Will walk in
“What are you guys doing here?” Asked Chris
“I can ask the same of you” Will said
“We were told to come here as soon as possible,” Grace informed, 
“Yes, follow me.” Said the doctor, “all of you” she said looking between the two families. 
She pulled them into a private waiting room and looked over her notes and sighed, “I’m Dr.Jones, we ran tests on the infant, including a maternity test in hopes of finding a genetic match”
“Did you?” Asked Grace, 
“Yes, that’s why I called you guys here”  
“I don’t understand, what do we have to do with this baby?”
“It’s about your daughter Sofia Alexandrina,” she said cautiously, “due to the missing case her DNA is in the national database and it matched the baby at 99.99%. She’s the mother.” 
“What?” Grace asked in disbelief, “there must’ve been some mix up or mistake or something” Grace insisted, “she’s only been missing six months, if that’s her baby then she would’ve gotten pregnant BEFORE she went missing. Or the baby is three months premature.” 
Chris suddenly jumped in his seat, clutched the arms of his chair, his eyes wide as realization washed over him. “Oh my God!” He said horrified. 
“What?” Will asked, “why are you acting like that?” He eyed Chris, “what did do you?” He squinted. 
“In my defense we got carried away and we used something” He said quietly 
“Oh” Grace said quiet yet surprised, 
“What. Did. You. Do?” Will asked again, “I want to hear you directly say it” 
“Sofia and I slept together. It was only one time!”
“You had sex with my daughter!?” Will yelled standing up. 
“William, now is not the time” Grace said annoyed. 
“So you’re the father?” The Dr.Jones asked, for confirmation 
“I’m pretty sure” Chris sighed, rubbing his hands over face, 
“Well, we’d like to run a blood test just to be sure, I’m assuming based on what I heard, if this is a match then she is Sofia’s baby” She eyed him and he nodded. 
“So what happens if he is the father?” Lisa asked, 
“Well, then we’ll call in social services and discuss custody and parental arrangements. The police will be informed as well due to this being a lead in the case.” 
“Discuss custody and parental arrangements?” Chris questioned. 
“Well due to the situation if you choose not to father the infant you can surrender your rights and give her up without fault thanks to the safe surrender law” 
“Her?” Chris questioned looking up Dr.Jones who smiled sympathetically at him, 
“It’s a girl. If you follow me when can get that blood work done” She said as she opened the door. 
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2 hours later... 
“We have your results back from the lab” Dr.Jones said to the family, “Christoper Robert Evans, you ARE the father.” Dr.Jones informed. Chris sat back in his chair and felt as if a ton of bricks has landed on his chest, knocking the air out of him. “You’re the father to a estimated 6 hours old baby girl who is perfectly healthy, just born a couple weeks early.” She smiled, “Congratulations!” 
“Thank you” he said in a breathy shock, 
“The police and social services will be informed and you have about 72 hours to decide whether or not she’s going home with you or a family” She informed, “if any of you would like to see her she’s in the nesting ward, room 237 B” 
Chris nodded taking in the news, “Do you want to go see her?” Lisa asked gently, and Chris slowly nodded, “okay, sweetheart lets go” Lisa said as she helped Chris stand up and take him towards the room where his baby daughter awaits.
He opened the door and saw a nurse sitting in a chair next to a bassinet with a bundle of pink blankets in them. “Hi” she smiled, I’m Jenna, I’m Baby Girl’s nurse.” She shook Chris and Lisa’s hands, “I’ll give you guys some privacy, please buzz me if you guys need anything” 
“Thank you” Lisa smiled as she left. 
Chris gingerly walked over to the bassinet and looked to see a little baby wrapped in a bundle of pink blankets, wearing a pink hat, and was sucking on a newborn pacifier. He just stood there and stared at her and she looked up at him and began to stare back at him. They stayed in that moment for a while until baby girl gave her Daddy a quizzically look. Chris began to smile, “she’s Sofia Alexandrina’s alright” he laughed, “the attitude and looks” He reached down and began to gently stroke her plump, soft cheek with his finger. “she has her nose and eyes too” he said softly. 
Lisa came up and looked over her eldest son’s shoulder and smiled, “she’s a beautiful baby” 
“Yeah she is” Chris smiled, “Ma? Can I hold her?” He asked quietly, 
“Of course you can! She’s YOUR baby you don’t need to ask!” 
Chris gingerly picked up the little baby and sat down in the chair next to the bassinet. Baby Girl looked up with Chris with those all to familiar deep brown eyes, she softly cooed up at him and he smiled even bigger if it was possible. Chris gently pulled on the pink hat and revealed a head full of blonde hair. 
“She’s Sofia’s clone” He laughed, “same hair, eyes, nose, and who know what else when she gets older” 
“Sweetheart,” Lisa said gently, “I hate to have to ruin this moment but you need to think about what you’re going to do, your time for the safe haven law expires. They only allow so many hours for you to do it without questions or prosecution” 
“I don’t know what to do Ma” Chris sighed, “do I want to keep her? Yes, she’s ones of the only things I have left of Sofia Alexandrina, and I feel like I owe it to her to take care of our baby when she can’t. But I don’t want to be selfish in keeping her, I want to do what’s best for her. If that means giving her up then I’m going to give her, her best chance.”
“How would keeping her be selfish?”
“Because I’m not in a good place to be taking care of a baby Ma. I’m still hung up on Sofia Alexandrina, I’m living back and forth between Boston and your house, I’m still trying to get my career started, and I’m working part time as a bartender. Mom, that doesn’t exactly say father material. Besides, if I keep her I’m more than likely gonna been dumping her on your or other family.” 
“As long as you’re completely present, give her a life of love and joy, and can provide for her. You’ll be father material” Lisa said as she cupped her son’s cheek. “If you really want to do this you’ll have people who would be more than happy to help. You just got to ask for it and look past your fear.”
“I don’t know if I’m ready to be a parent Mom” 
“No one is really ever to be a parent Chris,” 
“Can I just think about it Mom?” He asked
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48 hours later... 
“So what are you thinking about doing?” Andrea “Nonna” Palo asked quietly as she held Baby Girl in her arms. 
“I’m kinda leaning towards giving her up” Chris said softly, 
“Really?” she gasped, “you’re thinking about giving up this little girl?” Chris nodded, “oh good!” She laughed relived, 
“Good? What do you mean good?” Chris asked confused, 
“Chris, kid I love you, but you can’t take care of a baby! You don’t have any stable work, or living place, you’re barely paying your bills, boy, I’ve been buying your pants” Will side-eyed him and he looked away embarrassed, “she needs a good and stable home. I’m sorry but you need to sign those papers”
“So what are you thinking about doing?” The social worker asked as she walked in the room to check in on things. 
“I’m probably doing to be signing those papers” 
“Oh! That’s a relief” 
“What do you mean?” Chris asked 
“Well, I mean most young single-parent homes tend to be more at risk for violence and other things”
“You think that if I kept her that I would abuse her? You believe that I would abuse my child? You think a two-parents home would be better than a single dad!? What if the people that adopt her are horrible!? Did you ever think about that!?” 
“Yeah!” Andrea agreed, “who are you to say that my granddaughter’s dumbass fiance would be a bad parent when you don’t even know him!? So I suggest you stick to your job and keep your unwanted thoughts to yourself. Because all it’s going to do is make you look bad and hurt my potential grandson!” Andrea snapped, 
“Nonna you just bitched out,” Chris said in shock, “I love it!” 
“Weren’t you just saying that he can’t do it?” Will asked confused, “now you’re defending him?” 
“Just because I’m saying he can’t do it, doesn’t mean other people should be saying it. My reasoning are things that are true about him, her reasoning are things that I’m absolutely positive that will never be true about him. Besides, if anyone is going to poke at my familia, it’s going to be me!”
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65 hours later... 
“Mom she won’t stop crying!” Chris cried into the phone, “you gotta help me!...What do you mean you can’ right now!? Everyone is doing the same! Even that Nurse Jenna isn’t coming when I buzz her! She just says ‘I’ll be there when I can’ it’s been going on for hours!” Chris groaned when his mom hung up. 
He looked scared down at the little baby who looked up at him with her big tear-filled eyes as her lip quivered. “Okay,” he breathed out and gingery picked her up out of the bassinet and blanket, she let out a few more cries, “shhhh, it’s okay baby. It’s okay, Daddy’s got you” He let out a deep breath he didn’t know he’s been holding and laid her down on the diaper mat on the bed, “okay,” He unbuttoned the onesie and pulled it up her body and out of the way. he peeled back the tabs and then the front of diaper, “oh!” he yelled as he turned his head away, “oh! God! That stinks!” He looked back at his baby daughter, “how can something so small make something smell so bad!?” 
He gingerly grabbed her legs and began to clean her up, he left the dirty wipes in the diaper. He grabbed a fresh new diaper and began to put it on. He pressed the tabs down, put the onesie back on and then buttoned it up. He threw out the diaper and thoroughly washing his hands. He then sighed and looked down at the little baby on the bed who was looking up at him and making cooing noises. 
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“So this is it? I sign this and she has a new Daddy?” Chris asked Grace.
“That’s how it works” Grace sighed, “they say that they already have a new family lined up” 
“Chris, you don’t have to do this if you don’t want to” Grace said softly, 
“If I do this, I don’t want to talk about it ever again.” He said, “I don’t want anyone to talk about it.” 
“Of course.” Grace nodded. 
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“I assure you Mr.Evans, the baby will be in good hands” Said the social worker, 
“I know. I’m just upset that this couldn’t work out.” 
“She’ll be fine” She smiled, as Chris looked longingly at the little blonde-haired brown-eyed baby. “Why don’t I give you a minute?” Ms.Blackwood then got up and left the room. 
“Oh baby,” Chris sighed as he picked up the baby and held her in his arms, “I’m so sorry this happening, I just want to give you our best chance and I don’t think that’ll be with me.” Chis sighed and shook his head as tears rolled down his face, “you’ve only been in the world for about three days and you’ve already been given up--abandoned twice.” 
He held the baby up and placed a long, loving kiss to her cheek and she placed her hands on his the sides of his face. Chris pulled away and looked at the baby’s peaceful and beautiful face. 
“Would you like me to hold her so I can get your last couple signatures?” 
“No, that won’t be necessary.” Chris said, placing the baby in her car seat provided for her, buckled her up, wiped away his tears, picked up the diaper bag and the carrier and looked at Ms.Blackwood. “She is MY daughter. And she needs to be with someone who loves her and will never let her go. EVER AGAIN.” 
With that Chris walked Ms.Blackwood with his new baby daughter. 
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WARNINGS: Child birth, blood, tearing, parent-child seperation, hand gun, swearing
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December 24, 2002 11:46 p.m.... 
“AHHHHHHH!!!” Sofia screamed as another contraction took over her body, she was sweating heavily, hair matted to her face and neck. 
The white t-shirt that she is wearing that barley covered her bottom, clung to her hot, wet skin. 
“Stop screaming!” Adrian yelled waving his hand gun around, 
“She can’t help it!” Yelled Kristy, a girl that he abducted a couple months ago, “she’s in pain!” 
The man looked between her and Sofia and ran out of the room, down the stairs, and outside on to the porch, Sofia Alexandrina’s screams and cries of agony echoed throughout the snowy dark sky. 
He looked around in horror as the fear being found out and his new family being taken away from him, he noticed a lights in a couple houses turn on and he ran back inside and began to play rap music to drown out the screams. 
“AHHHHHH!!!” Sofia screamed as she tossed her head back in agony as she pulled the sheets that were tied from a hook on the ceiling for support. She say in a kitty pool on the floor, she began to babble a bunch of nonsense as she cried and whined. 
“What the hell did you do to her!?” Adrian interrogated Kristy as he watch Sofia loose it. 
“Nothing! It’s just a lot for her!” 
“Well she better suck it up, it’s not my fault she got knocked up by that Evans boy!” 
“Sofia, Sofia look at me,” Kristy said in a calm and soothing voice, Sofia peered her eyes open and looked at her with eyes filled with tears and marks of hot tears streaming down her face, “I need you to breathe okay?” Sofia nodded her head, “Great!” Kristy smiled as she began to take in deep breaths though her nose and out through her mouth. Sofia copied her breathing, she took a deep breath in though her nose and it shakily came out through her mouth. “You’re doing amazing Sofia, so so amazing” Kristy praised as she comfortably rubbed her calf and checked for any sight of a baby. 
12:16 a.m.... 
Kristy had Sofia change out of the sweat-soaked t-shirt and sports bra, and had her change into a fresh clean sports bra, making her feel more comfortable. 
Sofia groaned at the new sensation, she felt like she needed to poop. Which means it’s time to push!
“Okay, Sofia,” Kristy said, grabbing bringing towels and the buckets of water closer, “on the next pain I want you to take a deep breath in and push okay? Push with the pains” Sofia nodded, began to bear down, she took in a deep breath and began to push. 
“Good job Sofia! You’re doing amazing!” Kristy encouraged. 
40 minutes later... 
“Okay, Sofia I can see a head” Kristy informed, “baby’s crowning” 
Sofia began to yell out, she felt like her pelvis was on fire and an immense pressure was putting on a strain and she felt like she was about to tear. 
She began to push once she was given the clear to do so, she began to push and then screamed as she felt herself tear. 
Kristy’s eyes popped out of her head and her mouth fell open, “oh shit” she mumbled. She looked up at Sofia with shock and fear, but Sofia was too focused and filled with pain to pay attention to Kristy’s face, he number one priority was to get the angry baby out of her. “The head is born” Kristy said as she cupped the head in her hands, “come on Mama you got this!” Sofia began to push even harder and screamed again as she felt her begin to tear even more, “oh no” Kristy murmured as she noticed and Sofia began to bleed heavily. “Here comes the shoulders!” Kristy announced, “amazing job! Almost there Sofia!” Kristy moved her hands to help guide the baby out, “Shoulders are out Sofia, one more push!” Sofia pushed and yelled out and soon felt the infant leaving her body. 
ACTIVE LABOR IS OVER
Everything seemed to happen in slow motion for Sofia, the final push, the baby appearing in a very startled yet happy Kristy’s arms, her turning the baby over an smiling. “It’s a girl!” Kristy smiled, “you have a daughter!” Kristy tied off the cord at two parts and cut it. 
December 25, 2002 12:56 a.m.
Sofia’s trance came to a close as she felt a weight on her chest, she looked down and saw a small pink baby curled up and her chest crying. Sofia’s tears of pain were replaced with tears of joy, “hey,” she said breathy, “hi mi amor” she began to lightly laugh, “it’s okay mi amor, it’s okay” she soothed as she rubbed the baby’s back through the towel that covered the two of them and pressed a kiss to her head. “I know that was stressful,” she cooed, as she continued to rub her baby’s back and her cries began to settle. 
The room was quite except for the sounds of the baby girl’s sniffles and adorable breathy shutters as she calmed down, A couple minutes later the baby just started bawling all of a sudden, “Oh sweetheart” Sofia cooed, “you’re okay” Sofia continued to rub her back and kiss her head but soon let out a groan, “okay, ow, ow ow” Sofia said, “Ay that doesn’t feel good” she said,
“It’s probably just the after birth” Kristy said, 
“I don’t think so, it feels like it did with the baby” Sofia groaned as her eyes screwed shut, 
“What?” Kristy questioned as she looked at sure enough, there was a baby, “Oh! Okay! Twins!” Kristy announced as she gently took the baby out of Sofia’s arms, loosely swaddled her, and then placed some of the towels around her to keep her in place. 
“Okay, another baby. At least you know what do now.” Kristy joked trying to lighted up the mood. Sofia beared down and began the tiring cycle of pushing and resting, 
December 25, 2002 1:00 a.m.
The same moment of slow motion happened all over again, the only thing different, “it’s a boy! You have son! One of each!” The baby wailed as he was being held in Kristy’s arms and his cries diminished as he laid on his mother’s chest, feeling the familiar and comforting thumping of her heartbeat. 
“Hey there Papito,” (Papito means “little daddy” is a term of endearment for a special man/boy in someone’s life)  Sofia smiled, “how are you?” she asked as if he could answer, “so are you the one that’s been punching and kicking me or was that your sister?” Sofia laughed, She held him in her arms and cooed over his familiar features and a couple minutes later he opened his eyes to reveal all too familiar ocean blue eyes. Sofia gasped as the sight, and began to smile happily and painfully, then she began to gush and coo over the baby boy he looked a lot like his daddy, with his full head of brown hair and ocean blue eyes. 
Soon the all too familiar pain began again, “are you kidding me!?” Sofia gasped and exclaimed, “either I’m really fertile of Chris has some swimmers!” 
“Didn’t you use protection?” Kristy asked as she took the baby boy and began to set him next to his sister. 
“Yes! We used a condom!”
“Well then I guess it’s okay to say both” Kristy shrugged, “okay, get ready to push”
“But I already did it twice! Now I got to do it a third time!” Sofia exclaimed, 
“Yep, unless you got another one in there.” Kristy half-joked. 
The cycle began once again, only when the baby came out there was no crying or announcement. 
December 25, 2002 1:05 a.m. 
“Why aren’t the crying?” Sofia murmured out of breath, “why isn’t my baby crying!?” She asked louder, she looked up to see she baby perfectly still that had a bluish tinge to their face, “oh no!” Sofia cried horrified, “Kristy please do something!” 
Kristy began to give mouth-to-mouth to the little infant best she could and was relived when the baby began to softly cry and tremble in the cold. “You have another daughter,” Kristy said softly as she placed the little girl on her mother’s chest and placed a towel over her back. 
“Thank you,” Sofia Alexandrina cried, “Thank you so much! I don’t know what would’ve happened without you” 
“Your welcome, I’m just happy to be part of this special moment” She smiled and Sofia smiled back, 
Kristy let Sofia enjoy her moment with her new baby girl and took care of the afterbirth. She then got the diapers and blankets that Sofia crocheted and hand-sewed, 
One-by-one, Sofia began to clean off her children, then would put their diaper on them and then swaddled them nice and snug in their selected baby blanket. 
Kristy helped Sofia get dressed in some gray sweatpants and a white V-neck t-shirt with 3/4 sleeves. Then helped her settle on the bed, Sofia sat with her back against the wall with her knees together and bent. 
Baby boy laid in the middle against her thighs, baby girl laid to his right begin supported her mother’s arm, and baby girl two laid to her brother’s left begin supported by her mother’s other arm. (Think of Phoebe holding the triples from FRIENDS). 
“So I guess I have to call you guys something” Sofia said aloud as she gazed down at her triplets. “But what should I call you?” She said looking between the three babies. 
She looked at baby girl one and smiled at a memory, “Elizabeth” she murmured, “your Daddy said he wanted to have a daughter named Elizabeth. He said it had this old-timey charm yet was classic and somehow timeless. 
Elizabeth Evans Dé Riara
“Speaking of your guys’ Daddy,” Sofia said as she looked her baby boy, “I’ll give you the burden of the double name, Christopher...James.”
Christopher James Evans Dé Riara
“Which only leaves you” Sofia cooed as she looked at her youngest, “I’m gonna give you a name that may be neglected in America but stands tall in Cartily, your brother and sister are named after your Daddy, but I am going to name after something that you do. ‘She who makes one happy/bringer of joy’, Beatrice.” 
Beatrice Evans Dé Riara
The peaceful moment was ruined when Adrian Coredareo opened the door and looked in the room, “what the hell!?” He exclaimed when he saw Sofia holding three babies in her arms, “why the fuck are you holding THREE BABIES!?”
“Because I have three babies” Sofia said in a ‘duh’ tone, “they’re triplets”
“No no no no no no no no no” Adrian said as he strongly shook his head, “I said you could keep the BABY not BABIES!” He looked at her and sighed, “pick two and give me the other one.” He instructed, 
“Wha-what?” Sofia asked, “I’ll let you keep two, so give me the one that you don’t choose,” 
Then left the room and Sofia started down hopelessly at her newborn children, she then began to sing the song that her mother would sing to her before she was called away to work for long periods of time, and the lat song she ever sang to her, ‘Remember Me’
Remember me, 
Though I have to say goodbye,
Remember me,
Don’t let it make you cry,
For even though I’m far away I’ll hold you in my heart, 
I’ll sing this secret song to you each night we are apart, 
Remember me, 
Though I have to travel far, 
Remember me, 
Each time you hear a sad guitar, 
Know that I’m with you the only way that I can be, 
Until you’re in my arms again,
Remember me
Then the sound of loud and heavy footsteps pounded up the stairs, Sofia held her children to her closer, and started at the door with a Mama Bear look, “which one of them am I taking?” He asked
“None of them.” Sofia said, 
“What?”
“None. Of. Them.” She said fiercely, 
“I’m taking ONE of them.”
“Well then you’re going to have to pry them out of my cold dead hands” 
Both Kristy and Adrian looked her with wide eyes, “you remember his right?” Adrian asked smugly as he patted his holster with his hand-gun, “we can do this the easy way or the hard way”
Sofia moved her back away from the wall and intensified her Mama Bear stare, Adrian growled and stomped over to her, while doing this, Sofia rolled back on her tail bone, bent back her leg, and then kicked him right in the groin. 
He yelled and covered his crotch with his hands and lowered himself to his knees. Sofia watched him and when the pain subsided he looked at her with fire in his black souless eyes, she knew he was going to try again so she then kicked him in the face. He cried out and held his bleeding and most likely broken nose in his hands. 
“Sofia Alexandrina!” Kristy exclaimed, “stop it! Don’t do anything else that’s stupid! You don’t want to hurt the babies!” 
“I’m not gonna let him take them!” Sofia argued, 
“Well maybe you should so you don’t get them hurt and/or get in anymore trouble.”
Kristy then grabbed the baby closest to her, and helped stuck her in Adrian’s arms and held Sofia back as she screamed and fought with protests, “Kristy! How could you!?” she sobbed, Adrian went to walk out of the room but before he could close the door Sofia yelled possibly the last words to her daughter Elizabeth, “I love you Elizabeth! I’ll be back for you!” She yelled through the emotion in her voice and the tears in her eyes. 
The moment the door closed Sofia Alexandrina began to scream and cry out in agony at loosing her child. 
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The Evans house... “Sofia” Chris mumbled in his sleep as he reached out his hand next to him, but instead of being met with the body of his fiancee, he was met with an empty space, he felt around for Sofia--still in his delirious post-dream trance, he raised his head and looked over at the empty space on his bed and furrowed his eyebrows in confusion, he looked around the room, “Fia?” He called out, he looked at his bedside table, and there the promise ring he gave Sofia when she was in the Army before she left for London. 
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Then he remembered, and that heart ripping pain filled his chest again. He plopped his head back don on the pillow and picked up the ring, And held it between his pointer finger and thumb. 
‘Six months’ He thought, ‘six months with her missing’ ‘another day that she’ll be missing or a day that she’s found?’
He looked at the clock, ‘3:36 a.m.’ ‘It’s Christmas’ 
“Well, it’s the season for miracles” He mumbled, “am I gonna get one?” He asked rolling onto his back and looking at the promise ring, now being held between his thumbs and pointer fingers. 
Chris then heard a loud boom outside and tires screeching. He furrowed his brows and got up and looked out the window and listened intensely, he swears he heard something that sounds like...crying? 
“What the hell?” He murmured, he put on his slippers and robe, he quietly sneaked out of the house and outside, he listened over the now blizzarding snow and could hear the crying come by the street, he walked down the driveway and the crying got louder, he furrowed his brows and stood next to the garbage cans where it sound like the crying was coming from. 
Chris opened the garbage can and came face to face with a crying garbage bag. 
He jumped when he saw the crying garbage bag move, he quickly yer cautiously open the bag and found a scream-crying baby loosely swaddled in a crochet sunflower blanket. 
“Oh my god!” Chris exclaimed. 
Elizabeth Evans Dé Riara .... December 25, 2002 12:56 a.m.
Christopher James Evans Dé Riara .... December 25, 2002 1:00 a.m.
Beatrice Evans Dé Riara .... December 25, 2002 1:05 a.m.
What do you guys think about the names?
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your future self loves you. they will look through old photos of you with affection, not disgust, nor embarrassment. they wish they could tell you stories of your future, of how much you’ll change, of the people you’ll meet, of how you’ll eventually learn to accept yourself, then love yourself. they will read your diary entries and poems and favourite lyrics, heart aching, tears in their eyes. if only you knew...
your future self loves you. if only they could show you. they are living proof. you’ll turn out okay after all. they wish they were there to console you, dance with you, and make you write it a hundred times: “I AM LOVED”. they will listen to playlists you made, just to experience you again. they will write you a letter - of forgiveness, longing, reassurance. you will never read it. but you will know.
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“Where We Left Off” 18. One Very Bold Line
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WARNINGS: Mentions of pregnancy, and abduction 
This chapter is like 15 but from a different with more of Chris’ and Sofia’s family’s experience. It also brings in something important to the story line. 
June 25, 2002...
"You think that you're what!?" Chris yelled,
"Shhhh!" Sofia shushed, "keep it down I don't want to cause an alarm if it's nothing." Sofia whispered, her Hispanic accent coming out more.
"But what if it's NOT NOTHING!?"
"Then I don't want people to know from a rumor or eavesdropping."
"Oh my god" Chris breathed outrunning his hands through his hair, "but HOW!? I mean, I KNOW HOW! But we used protection."
"I know, but contraceptives aren't always effective. Condoms only work like 97% of the time."
"WHAT!?" Chris jumped looking at her incredulously.
"You didn't know?"
"NO!! They should put that on the box!"
"They do..."
Chris opened his top dresser drawer and dug around, pulling out a box of condoms, and looking over it, "well they should put it in big bold print!" He exclaimed.
He looked over at Sofia and he relaxed as he looked at her scared brown eyes. Chris sighed as he moved to sit on his bed next to Sofia and took her hand in his. 
"What makes you think that?" He asked softly.
"I'm getting sick, and I'm late by about two months."
"But isn't that normal for you?" He asked, "the period part not the sick one."
"Yeah, how did you know?" Sofia cocked her head to the side.
"Well, I know what you're like when you have it, and I know what you're like when you don't. I've noticed that sometimes you've skipped." He 
shrugged.
"Yeah. But," Sofia sighed, "I have this gut feeling that something is out of the ordinary. I really needed to talk to someone, but I didn't want to talk to my sisters, because they might let it slip. I didn't want to talk to my mom because then she might tell Nonna and Nonno--" She started to freak out so Chris cut her off. 
"So you told me" Chris concluded, Sofia nodded. 
"Look, I know that you're close with your Mom, but can you try to not say anything until we 100% know? And if it turns out we are, can you wait to say anything until we agree it's a good time?" the Latina pleaded, "I don't really want people knowing that we had sex..." She tried to say gently.
"Do you regret it?" Chris asked, "I asked you if you were sure multiple times and you said yes, did I pressure you or something?"
"No," Sofia stated, shaking her head and squeezing his hand, "you didn't do anything. It was me. Besides, it's kinda a personal thing and I don't want a bunch of people knowing."
"But it's just Ma," Chris pouted
"Yeah, but you know how moms tend to keep each other in the loop, and my parents promised to keep my grandparents in the loop of what's happening with me. Then my grandparents are going to get all embarrassed and begin venting it to people, and then they're going to go around telling people. Chris looked at Sofia nervously, "she already knows doesn't she?" Sofia asked, already knowing the answer. Chris nodded. "ay Dios mío '' Sofia muttered, running a hand through her hair, "well, I saw it coming. I'm just glad you have a good relationship with your mom that you feel comfortable talking to her about that stuff." Sofia smiled. 
Chris smiled too and ran his thumb over her knuckles, pressing a kiss to the ring on her finger. "So what do we do?" Chris quietly asked. 
"Take a test I guess?" Sofia shrugged, "multiple tests actually, just to be sure." Chris nodded.
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"This is the longest 5 minutes of my entire life!" Chris groaned, rubbing his face with his hands as he laid on the bed of his Boston apartment. "I mean, how long does it take a piece of plastic to determine whether someone is pregnant or not?" 
Sofia looked over at him with an arched brow and an amused expression, "Same thoughts..." she said quietly. 
"So..." Chris started, sitting up and glancing at Sofia, "you wanna..." 
"Really!?" Sofia gasped, "right now!?" Chris just smirked, "alright" She shrugged and walked over to the area in the room where they kept their instruments; Sofia's keyboard and guitar, and Chris' guitar. She handed Chris his guitar and she sat down at her keyboard. They then began to play the song they wrote together called "Keeping Score". 
When they finished singing the song Sofia looked over at Chris and giggled, "you can sing" He laughed along with her but the moment was cut short when the beeping of the timer sounded throughout the room. 
Sofia and Chris shared a worried look before she got up from her place on the stool and walked towards the bathroom. She turned off the timer and took a deep breath before flipping over the three pregnancy tests. 
On each test, she saw one very bold line. 
"So?" Chris asked from the doorway. 
"One line." She sighed out, holding up the three tests. "They're all negative, it's a false alarm." She then threw the rest in the trash and washed her hands. She sighed again and smiled over at Chris, "Come on, we should get ready so we don't want to be late." 
Chris dressed in his black dress pants, dress shoes, and vest, and his navy blue shirt. Sofia tied his tie and pinned the corsage to his vest. 
Sofia Alexandrina is wearing a navy off-the-shoulder bridesmaid's dress. 
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The wedding is outdoors by a waterfall. The plus side is that its beautiful scenery, the downside is all the bugs. 
One of the most memorable quotes was by the minister at the beginning of the wedding when he said "now if I sniffle, it's not because I'm about to cry, it's because a gnat flew up my nose."
Emma was the flower girl and wore a dress similar to the bridesmaids except the skirt part was white. Due to the skirt part being white, you could see the gnats crawling all around under the see-through layer and on the solid color one. 
Poor Emma was so freaked out and disgusted. Grace had to lift the top layer of her dress every once in a while and sweep out the bugs with the wedding pamphlet. Rose has a fear of bugs, so everyone was relieved, surprised, and proud that she stood up there, still and quietly. 
It also didn't help that it was incredibly hot and humid too. 
But despite all that, it was a lovely ceremony. 
Ruby looked beautiful in her wedding dress, and Diego looked handsome in his Dress Blues.
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And they did get some good pictures in the end.
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They then moved to a simple, yet classy reception. 
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"Who is in charge---" Before Grace could even finish the sentence Diego raised Ruby's shoe in the air. Everyone laughed and told Ruby to turn around, she did and started laughing herself at the sight of her shoe in the air. 
"Who is in charge of the remote?" Grace asked again with laughter in her voice. 
They both raised each other's shoes
"Who is messier?" 
Ruby raised Diego's shoe, Diego raised Ruby's. 
"That is not true!" Ruby exclaimed when she heard that he raised her shoe, "that is a lie from Satan's mouth!" 
"It ain't a lie!" Diego argued, "you're messier than me"
"No I ain't" she argued, southern accent coming out, "to say otherwise is a lie! You're sitting on a throne of lies!"
"Diego's messier and trying to hide it!" Daniel yelled. 
"No, I ain't! I'm a Marine!" 
"Well you may not be now but you sure were before you moved out!" 
"He's right," Grace nodded, "I stopped going in their room when he turned fourteen, for multiple reasons. Once he moved out I moved Daniel's stuff out, tossed a match in there, and let the insurance company handle it!" 
"Seriously?" Sofia asked, 
"Yep," Daniel nodded, 
"What the hell happened when I was off in the Army?"
"A lot of stuff that'll take too long to explain. We had a funeral for a bird" He said walking off,
"What?" Asked confusedly, who looked back at Rose and Lillian who just looked away. She looked back at Chris and he just shrugged. 
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"You okay?" Chris asked, rubbing his thumb over his fiance's knuckles.
"Yeah, I just can't believe one of us got married" she smiled at him, "I mean, I know that my bio-sisters are married but already have kids, but they're a lot older than me. This just hits differently. Diego is only like three years older than me."
"Yeah it is pretty crazy," He agreed, nodding his head, "we grew up" he smiled softly, "and just think, this time in four months, we'll get married."
"Someday" she smiled,
"Someday." He smiled back, "which is October 15," He said, kissing the wedding ring on her finger.
She smiled at him and the thought, "October 15th" she murmured, "you promise? You're not gonna run away?" She asked
"I'm not going anywhere," He said looking at her, his voice becoming low and husky, "I found my girl. Besides, I scored a point when you said yes, I'm not getting rid of it"
Sofia laughed, "Oh really!? You're only going to marry me because you scored a point and don't want to lose it!?"
"Yep," he said, popping the p
"You're such a dork"
"But I'm your dork"
"Yes you are" she smiled softly, leaning in to kiss him,
"Oh, good grief! Get a room you two!" Daniel exclaimed
"Aren't you normally the one that loves romance?" Shanna questioned
"Yeah, the no PDA and lovey-dovey one is Diego" Carly added.
"Yeah, well, he's not here so I'm filling in." He stated in a duh tone, "get a room!" He yelled back at his big sister and her fiance.
"We have one" Sofia said
"We have two" Chris added, talking about their bedrooms.
"Then use them!"
"No!" Will exclaimed, "there will be no using of the rooms!"
"Why can't they use the rooms?" Eight-year-old Emma asked,
"Hush child!" Daniel exclaimed, "drink your juice!"
"I'm doing it because I want to, not because you told me to" Emma grumbled.
"Well, I need to go process everything and get some fresh air," Sofia said, Getting off the barstool at the counter and grabbing her purse.
"Want me to come with you?" Chris asked getting up,
"No, I just wanna go for a walk myself" Dakota's head perked at the word 'walk' Sofia laughed, "sorry Dakota, by myself." She crouched down to scratch behind her ears, "Maybe another time, I promise I'll be back. It's just a walk"
Chris watched as Sofia walked towards the door, she smiled back at Chris before she left the house. 
Chris smiled back at her and looked down at the counter, "So, you and Sofia Alexandrina huh?" Scott asked as he slipped into the barstool next to him. 
"Yeah, it's been going on for like four years, where have you been?" He asked his brother. 
Scott rolled his eyes, "I mean you and Sofia Alexandrina getting married. I can't see I didn't see it coming, you guys are soulmates. Yet I'm surprised and not surprised that you are getting married so young." He eyed Chris, "is she pregnant?" he whispered, 
Chris choked on his drink, "What!? No!" He looked at Scott incredulously, "we got engaged months ago, if she was pregnant she would already be showing and she wouldn't be getting deployed." 
"Yeah, you have a point," Scott nodded, "just be prepared to have some jealous people going after you."
"Jealous? Who would be jealous of Sofia Alexandrina and me?" Chris asked confusedly. 
"Anyone that doesn't have what you guys have," He shrugged, "a true love, a best friend, a soulmate, all rolled into one. That and those crazy fanboys and fangirls that simp for Sofia and eventually you." Chris laughed at his last statement. 
"I would be jealous too" Chris nodded, 
"I'm happy for you two though, you finally got over yourselves and got together, even if it was hard with the careers and long-distance. Now you guys are getting married, you have an apartment in Boston. I'm assuming she's partly moved into that she will move into once you guys get married. Which means I get to be Uncle Scott soon..." He trailed off looking over at Chris, 
He nodded smiling, "someday"
"So you guys have talked about it?"
"Yeah, we're both on the same page, we want a simple domestic life." 
"So Chris wants to be a Daddy someday?" 
"Chris does want to be a Daddy"
"Big Boston family?"
"Yeah, why not!" He laughed, 
"Sofia wants a family, what about a big Boston family?"
"She grew up in a big family, both adoptive and bio, she said she wouldn't mind as long as we can afford it, have enough time, love, and attention for each kid, have the space, and she's not doing all the work and I'm present" 
Scott chuckled at the last part, "we all know you would do that"
"Yeah, I feel that she's afraid of ending up like her Mamma"
"Famous, successful, heroic, loving, beautiful inside and out, funny, and intelligent?"
"Forgotten, abandoned, stripped of everything she has, and having an untimely death."
"Well there's that," Scott nodded, "she's afraid of having a marriage like her bio-parents had."
"Yeah, it was perfect and once they got married and after a couple of kids, it was like a switch went off and he just became awful. Did you know that her bio-dad had been cheating on her Mamma for five years before he confessed, thus turning them into the Tyveras, who took them to the work camps. Then he took his favorite kid and ran off to the U.S. when she was six and married his mistress, now Sofia's step-mom."
"Yeah, I met him a couple of times, and heard stories, he's a twisted man. At least we don't have to deal with him for another....15 years?" 
"Yeah, he's five years into his prison sentence." 
"Geez," 
"Yeah" Chris nodded, he then noticed that it had gotten dark and it's raining really hard. "I should call Sofia, see where she is," Chris said, pulling out his phone and dialing her number.
"Aww, and the protective husband state has begun!"
"It's not protective, it's just raining and I want to know where she is and that she's safe" Chris countered, 
"Okay..." Scott mumbled as he took a sip of his drink, 
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"Where is she and why isn't she answering her phone!?" Chris interrogated after the 5th try as he stomped down the hall and back to Scott. 
"I don't know man, maybe she can't hear it over the storm? Maybe it's silent because of the wedding?" 
"But she turned it back on before she left."
Chris dialed the number once again and worriedly brought the phone up to his ear. 
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Hello?
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"Sofia Alexandrina! Oh, thank God you finally answered!" He exclaimed.
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"Sorry, I was lost in thought"
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"Where are you!? It's raining cats and dogs out there!"
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"I'm on my way back right now,"
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"You're running through this?"
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"No, I got a ride. I'll be back in a minute"
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"Oh, okay"
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"I'll see you soon, I love you"
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"Okay, see you" Chris responded confused, 'ride? What ride?' he kept thinking, Sofia then hung up and Chris went back to the living room where some of the other people are.
15 minutes have now passed and ​Sofia had still not come home yet. Chris was worried, he was pacing up and down the hall, peering out the windows, frantically calling her, and even going outside in the storm and looking around for her. "It's a 2-minute car ride!" He harshly whispered, "where the hell is she!?" 
Maybe she somehow managed to come home and he didn't notice it?
Chris made his way upstairs to the girls' room, the sound of giggles meeting his ears. "Sofia Alexandrina?" he called softly, opening the door a bit 
and peeking in the room.
"What about her?" Lillian asked, looking at him confused,
"She's not in here?" He asked worriedly, looking around the room with Lillian, Rose, Shanna, and Carly in it.
"Not unless I haven't noticed her in here," Lillian said looking around, "she would've managed to not talk at all though"
"And we know Sofia would contribute to that conversation" Carly laughed.
"Oh, okay," Chris said disappointedly,
He tried calling her one last time as he walked down the stairs and looked out the windows of the front door.
"Damn it Sofia!" He whispered incredulously as he heard the sound of her recorded voice. "Hey, Mrs.Myers!" Chris called
"Yes, sweetheart?" She replied in a Southern accent.
"Ya' know where Sofia Alexandrina is?" He heard glass breaking and then a rush of footsteps and she looked at him from the end of the hallway.
"She's not here!?"
"No, I keep calling her but she isn't answering"
"WILL!!!" She yelled panicking into the living room where he, Scott, and Daniel were sitting.
"What?"
"Do you know where Sofia is?"
They all perked up, "She's not here!?" The man asked, standing up, "Is she not upstairs with the girls?"
"No, I've looked all over and she's not answering her phone" informed Chris.
"But she always answers her phone" Daniel stated, "and if she can't she always calls right back" 
"Will something's wrong." Grace looked at her husband desperately as her voice choked up, "I can feel it in my gut"
"I know, I'll go out there and look," He said, placing a hand on her bicep and pressing a quick but sweet kiss to her cheek, "you stay here with Lisa and the girls, I'll go out and look" 
"You boys go help him," Lisa said to Chris, Scott, and Daniel as she came up behind Grace and wrapped her in a side hug, and soothingly rubbed her hand up the brunette's bicep. 
The guys followed Will to the coat rack, they pulled their coats on and opened the door, the earth boomed and the sky flashed with light so suddenly and quickly that you weren't even sure if you saw it. 
They then marched down the porch steps and into the storm, in search of Sofia Alexandrina. 
"Chris you head north, Scott head south, Daniel go east, and I'll head West" Will instructed and pointed in different directions, "you find her or anything call me and I'll call the rest of you" The boys nodded and they went their separate ways. 
Chris walked across the street and to the two houses across from theirs that were back to back. Chris stopped between the houses and called for Sofia, he listened carefully and looked around before he repeated this action two other times, and continued his search north.
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"Sofia!!!" 
Sofia quickly looked outside the window, the best she could with being tied up and hanging from the ceiling. There is an orange extension cord tied around her neck, ankles, and wrists, bounding them together behind her back, as her body hung parallel to the floor. 
Her heart swelled and more tears flooded her eyes and streamed down her face at the sight of Christopher Robert Evans. 
She began to scream for him, but the sock in her mouth and the thunder muffled it even more so than it already is. 
She watched as Chris hung his head and shoulders slump as he began to walk away, she screamed out even harder for him and cried even harder as he did not hear her. 
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An hour later... 
"Where could she be!? Why isn't she back yet!?" Grace said exasperatedly as she paced around the living room, 
"Relax Grace," Lisa soothed, "it's going to be okay"
"Easy for you to say! Your baby isn't lost out in this horrible storm with God knows who and God knows what happening to them!" She snapped, as 
she looked at Lisa with glossy red eyes, "I'm sorry, I know you're just trying to help" she said softly
"No, you're right" Lisa nodded, "I know where my babies are, and yours is missing. I don't know what is happening, nor can I imagine how you're feeling"
"Lisa if anything happens to Sofia Alexandrina---" She stopped talking, due to more tears flooding her eyes and it became difficult to speak due to the lump in her throat. 
"We'll take this one day at a time," She said, as she rested her hands on Grace's biceps and looked her in the eyes, "Sofia will be found" 
Grace smiled gently as she rested a hand on her arm, "your lips to God's ears" 
The door then opened and the men walked inside, the only part of themselves that was not soaking wet from the storm is their torso. Their coats had water dripping all over the floor. 
"Did you find her!?" Lisa asked worriedly, "or anything!?"
"No," He said, looking at her with sad, broken eyes, "we can't find a trace of her."
"It's like she disappeared," Daniel muttered.
"That's it, I'm calling the police!" Grace exclaimed, she got her phone and began to dial 911, "Hello, I'd like to file a missing person's report" Grace 
said, as more tears flooded her eyes, causing the tears to stream down her face, Her voice was choked up and she held her hand to her heart. 
Lisa looked worriedly over at Chris and was met with bloodshot, puffy, teary eyes, with tear-stained cheeks, she quickly came over to him and wrapped him in a big loving hug, as she rubbed her hand up and down his back and whispered sweet nothings into his ear. As he cried on her shoulder.
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Lisa drove Chris back to his apartment, she didn't want him to stay by himself, so she took him back for him to get what he needed so he could stay back with her for a while. Chris was getting what he needed from the bathroom when he accidentally knocked over the trash bin, he let out a defeated sigh and knelt down to clean it up. 
As he was picking up the trash he noticed the plastic stick with the one very bold line. He picked it up and stared at it as all these thoughts filled his head. 
That one very bold line taunted him, presenting itself in its smugness, reminding Chris of the life we wanted, the life he wanted with Sofia and the life he may now not get with her. 
He was relieved when the test came back negative, they weren't ready to have a baby---he isn't ready to have a baby. But he had to admit, the thought of Sofia pregnant with his kid made him smile. A part of him and a part of her. He imagined the cutest baby girl that looked a lot like Sofia Alexandrina. She had her blonde hair, brown eyes, and dimples. 
He looked at the plastic stick more intensely and noticed something next to that one very bold line. 
One very faint line. 
His heart dropped to his stomach and he blinked really hard, 
One very faint line.
One very bold line, and one very faint line. 
Two lines.
Two lines!
Chris searched for the other two tests, 
One very faint line.
One very faint line.
One very bold line, and one very faint line.
She's pregnant. 
Okay please don't hate me! I'm SO SORRY it took so long to have this come out! I've had a lot of things going on and I wasn't really sure how I wanted to write this. This was originally going to be Sofia being pregnant and giving birth. But I'm going to save it for the next chapter which I'll hope to get out within the week. 
So, any suggestions for baby?
Or should it be babies? 
Boy or Girl?
Names?
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The Black Widow movie comes out today!!!
Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!! I’m so excited!!!
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Prompt List
Masterlist
Requests are open! 
Choose a character/group (or don’t, that’s fine). If there is a character not on the list but they’re from the same fandom, you can request them, but I may or may not write them. 
Choose a prompt/prompts and I’ll try my best to get it out and posted. 
You can choose a quote and come up with a plot to go with it.
Or you can request your own unique plot and/or quote. 
Characters:
Steve Rogers 
Chris Evans
Peter Parker
Sebastian Stan
Bucky Barnes
Tony Stark
Tom Holland
Avengers (as a group)
Henry Hart (Henry Danger)
Ray Manchester (Henry Danger)
Henry Danger (as a group)
Ben Wheeler (Baby Daddy)
Baby Daddy (as a group) 
Killian Jones (OUAT)
Emma Swan (OUAT)
Once Upon a Time (as a group)
Jack Thornton (WCTH)
Elizabeth Thornton (née. Thatcher) (WCTH)
Nathan Grant (WCTH)
When Calls the Heart (as a group)
Matthew Crawley (Downton Abbey)
Mary Crawley (Downton Abbey)
Downtown Abbey (as a group)
Doctor Mike
Bones (as a group)
Seeley Booth
Sonny Carisi
Rafael Barba
Mike Dodds
SVU (as a group)
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Quote Prompts:
1. “I’m a figment, but not the purple dragon kind”
2. “Nobody wants me”
3. “I missed my shot, it’s gone now, and there’s no going back”
4. “How do you know how it works?”
5. “Stop putting words in my mouth!”
6. “They’re like koalas, they look all cute and cuddly, then you regret the moment you met them”
7. I want to strongly stress that I am adopted”
8. “Can you ask me that question again, but let me take longer to answer it?”
9. “Sometimes a fake name is all a person has”
10. “I get married all the time but you don’t see me or anyone else making a fuss over it”
11. “I am officially divorced!...again...”
12. “Oh! I always knew I was going to die young!”
13. “I strapped my baby to my chest, grabbed my bag, and walked to a train station.” 
14. “They call me Auntie Mama/I call(ed) her Auntie Mama”
15. “What the hell are you looking at me for?”
16. “She sent me here to be safe, until it was safe for me to return and come live with her”
17. “He is more of a man than you have ever been!”
18. “Family isn’t always about blood, it’s about the people that love and support you for who you are”
19. “We may be blood related, but they’re not my family. My real family is right here”
20. “I guess it all started when my Dad refused to acknowledge my presence until I was four.”
21. “Why is there a corn dog in the dishwasher?”
22. “Oh thank God your apartment is a mess!”
23. “Why would you not want them around? They clean when they’re upset!”
24. “You’re lucky your mom is still here and that she’s good. Take my advice, cherish it while it lasts.”
25. “Moms are great! I love Moms! Where will we be without Moms? Mine’s dead!”
26. “My dad is a terrible person and is living freely, yet my mom was an amazing person and she had to die.”
27. “When I was a kid, I had a barrel instead of a doll house.”
28. “My brother would sell his blood to buy us food.”
29. “When my dad would lash out at me it was bitter sweet. Bitter because he hurt me in many ways, sweet because he was finally acknowledging me.”
30. “...my mom’s dead *awkwardly laughs to hide inner pain*”
31. “You’re right, that woman is not okay”
32. “I didn’t know who else to turn too.”
33. “My therapist told me to listen to a recording of myself, would you listen to it with me?”
34. “You were in therapy?” “No, I was on a date with a woman!”
35. “I need help”
36. “It’s so loud in my head and it won’t become quiet”
37. “Well I still have a brother”
39. “I don’t remember how I met you” “I don’t remember how I met you either”
40. “I am his youngest daughter with his first wife. He gave his youngest daughter with his second wife the name I was given when I was born because she’s everything he ever wanted in his baby daughter.”
41. “You don’t have these in America?” “Christmas explosives? No, we don’t”
42. “Did she show up?” “Yeah she showed up!”
43. “His favorite game is/was ‘lets choke my pregnant wife until she wakes up covered in shit’”
44. “Are things alright at home?” 
45. “How do people deal with death then!?”
46. “I’m never going to get to see them again”
47. “Okay, so apparently they had a mix up on people”
48. “What I wanted!? It was never what I wanted!”
49. “my grandpa just died...”
50. “My life was so dark and filled with pain, and you helped calmed the storm”
51. “It used to be white!”
52. “Don’t tell your Mom”
53. “I didn’t exactly tell them that, because I wanted to go out with them too. So I told them you were seeing the other person that wanted to go out with them.”
54. “Me? What do you see boobs and instantly think Mommy?”
55. “I don’t babysit demonic babies....Laugh all you want, but just wait till their head starts spinning.”
56. “Okay who gave (OC) benadryl!?”
57. “Oh my gosh! That’s exactly what my dad said to me before he left me when I was four!”
58. “Stop trying to kill me with flowers!”
59. “You schedule times for you to cry?”
60. “I am amazing at not forgetting things” “you left me in a parking lot once” 
61. “No that was on purpose, you were being an annoying little shit”
62. “I had to beg people for money who were already begging people for money”
63. “Add a ponytail, denim jacket, self-loathing, and antidepressants and that was me in the 90s/2000s”
64. “Monkey see, monkey do. Monkey pee all over you”
65. “Nobody fucking cares about what you do with the damn lemons”
66. “That’s how I met a porn star, but that’s a whole other story”
67. “You once had an elf at the mall hit on you”
68. “That’s the best offer I’ve had all week”
69. “Why are you still doing that? You know they don’t have that”
70. “I got shot in the face” “A tequila shot! Stop saying it like that!”
72. “Don’t be offended. I don’t even remember what I had for breakfast this morning.”
73. “I loved you in ‘A Christmas Story’ by the way”
74. “That boy went from a squeaky voice to a smoker”
75. “Boy voice change is funny until they finish going through it and you hear the sound of a strange man in your home only to realize that it’s your son.”
76. “I’m living a lie” “just one? I’m living like twenty”
77. “I’m going to name them muffin!”
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Plot Prompts: 
1. OC talks about their poor relationship with their bio-dad
2. OC talks about their run with relationships
3. OC is having a break down and records herself talking out loud about her feelings openly. She goes to a friend for comfort to listen to the recording with her. 
4. OC talks about where she’s from
5. OC talks to their kid about their bio-dad (dead/out of life) 
6. OC talks about her dead mom
7. OC confesses that things aren’t exactly okay at home.
8. OC confronts their toxic ex-husband after he tries to weasel his way back into the the new life they made.
9. OC confronts their toxic father
10. OC grandfather who practically raised them dies and (character/group) comforts them
11. OC is pregnant
12. OC gives birth
13. OC has a knack for wanting things clean and to keep things the way they were. 
14. OC little son dies of cancer
15. OC dies
16. OC is kidnapped
17. OC fakes death
18. OC is in the hospital
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“The Night of the Endless Booms” Bucky Barnes
Masterlist
Jennifer Morrison as Mickella “Micky” Stables (Bucky’s Girlfriend)
Happy Birthday Steve Rogers!
Happy Independence Day to my American readers!
A/N: Remember, even though fireworks tend to represent celebration, and they are pretty and fun to watch, doesn’t mean that everyone likes fireworks.
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"Okay, let's get ready for the fireworks!" Tony yelled, waving a bottle of beer in his hand. 
Fireworks
Just the thought of the name made Bucky feel a twinge of panic. After the war and Hydra, they weren't the same as they used to be. 
He liked the pretty colors and shapes that they made, but it was the undeniable sounds that came with them that were the problem. 
The booms and the pops triggered something in his mind and everything became upside down, the flashbacks came, and the noise in his head became loud. 
Even though the sessions with Dr. Raynor, as well as Steve and his girlfriend Micky's support, did help him. There will always be a small part of his mind that will find its way back to the war and Hydra. Once the part of his mind made it there, it was a ripple effect. The memories came back and began to spread like wildfire, the memories taking over his mind. 
He didn't want to bother anyone with his PTSD and risk stopping the fireworks so he just didn't say anything. He just hoped and prayed that no one will notice and that it will be over soon. 
BOOM 
Bucky's heart rate began to pick up as his head snapped up towards the sky, seeing the dazzling red lights illuminate the dark sky.
BOOM
Sparks of purple fading into orange filled the sky, and Bucky felt the panic attack creep upon him as his breathing became ragged and his shoulder started to shake. 
He was pulled out of his thoughts when he felt soft hands cover his ears and a person behind his back. He felt the person place a kiss on the top of their head and he looked up to see his girlfriend Micky. She looked down at him and smiled warmly, her eyes filled with love and worry. 
He smiled up at her and pressed a kiss to her lips. He pulled her over to sit in his lap, she sat down and placed the earplugs that she grabbed in his ears. 
He smiled and kissed her once again as he looked back at the sky filled with fireworks. She looked back at the sky, her arms wrapped around his neck and his hand resting on her waist, and the other one resting on her thigh. 
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Fourth of July was one of those holidays that had things going on leading up to the grand event, and things going on through the night and into the next morning. 
It wouldn't be too out of the ordinary to hear the boom, pop, or whistle throughout the night or into the morning. 
It is 1:30 a.m...
Bucky and Micky are peacefully sleeping when all of a sudden, a bunch of fireworks went off. 
Bucky began to stir in his sleep as he heard the booms and pops. They began to affect his dreams---and not in a positive way. 
The whistle of flares brought it in for the ripple effect of memories. 
Bucky began to toss and turn in his sleep, as the memories came flooding back to him. 
He then let out a scream, waking him up in a cold sweat, he sat up in bed and placed his head in his hands as a few tears ran down his cheeks. 
"Hey" He heard a soft voice say next to him. He felt a small soft hand rub his shoulders, and then a trail of soft kisses against it. "It's okay," she stated calmly and softly, "you're okay." She then kissed his shoulder as she was able to wrap an arm around his shoulder and the other one across his chest. A feeling that made him feel safe and secure. He closed his eyes and leaned back against Micky, putting his weight against her. She pressed a kiss to his temple as she began to rock him back and forth. "You're not at war. You're not with Hydra." She placed a kiss between each sentence, "you're home. You're safe." 
Fireworks aren't for everybody...
I swear this is the night of endless booms! It's almost two in the morning and my neighbors are still setting off fireworks and flares. Not that I'm surprised, they set fireworks off the week before and after the fourth.
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“Fireworks v.s. Drones” Chris Evans
Masterlist
Sofia Vergara as Sofia Dé Riara
Taytum and Oakley Fisher as Luna and Dawn Evans
Happy Independence Day to my American Readers!
Happy Birthday Steve Rogers!
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Sofia Vergara as Sofia Dé Riara
Taytum and Oakley Fisher as Luna and Dawn Evans
Happy Independence Day to my Ameican readers!
Happy Birthday Steve Rogers!
"Oh! That one changed colors!" Luna yelled, pointing at the sky where the firework went off, "it went from purple to orange!" the four-year-old exclaimed. 
"Oh! That one had baby fireworks!" Dawn pointed from where she was sitting on her mother's lap. "it exploded and then there were little fireworks!" 
Chris and each other looked down at the twin girls in their laps with smiles and back at each other. 
"Oh! That one was really loud!" Luna yelled, "but it's pretty!"
"That one went boom! Then made sizzling sounds!" Dawn giggled. 
Chris and Sofia looked back up at the night sky when a red and green flashing light caught the woman's eye. 
"There's a drone over there, watching the fireworks" Sofia pointed out. The twins gasped as they looked over to where their mother had pointed. 
"A drone!?" Dawn questioned. 
"They're watching the fireworks from the cameras" Sofia explained. 
"You see the drone, Lulu?" Dawn asked, as her eyes were fixated on the green and red flashing lights
"I see it DD" Luna nodded, focused on the drone as well. 
"Are you guys going to watch the drone or the fireworks?" Chris asked amused, as his daughters have seemed to completely forget about the fireworks. 
"But it's not like we get to see drones every day Daddy" Dawn said as she shrugged her shoulders, looking up at him with a scrunched-up face. 
"It's not like you get to see fireworks every day either Dawn." Chris countered. 
The girls then went back to watching the fireworks, commenting on them every once in a while, and letting out choruses of 'ooooo' and 'ahhhhh' as they admired the bright, loud lights. 
"Where did the drone go!?" Dawn exclaimed,
"It's over there!" Luna shouted, pointing in the opposite direction where a drone is actively flying behind them and moving closer towards the display. 
Chris looked shook his head at his little girls as they intently watch the drone fly. Sofia looked at her husband and kids and smirked. 
"Actually that's a different drone." Sofia informed, "the first one is behind the tree, see" she pointed to the tree where you can see the red and green lights through the tree branches. 
"Three drones!" Luna exclaimed pointing up at another light. 
"No Lulu, that's an airplane," Dawn stated plainly. 
"Oh." She said as she looked at the plane for a little while more. "two drones!" Luna exclaimed, raising her fists in the air. 
"Two drones!" Dawn yelled, copying her sister's motions. 
"Oh my gosh!" Chris laughed at his daughters' actions. 
The finale of the fireworks began to come to an end when the second drone began to fly towards the fireworks. 
"It's moving towards the fireworks!" Dawn gasped. 
The girls began to yell about the drone moving to the fireworks as they watched it move closer and closer as the fireworks continued to go off. 
"It's so close!" Luna screamed as a firework went off right as the drone was flying through the middle of it. 
They watched intently and continued to shout as the drone flew to the other side of the display and away.
"Were you two cheering for the drone to get hit by the firework?" Sofia asked, looking down at her daughters. 
"No," Dawn said. 
"I was" stated Luna.
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