#and you can love them AND resent them for that

[winterpeta1s]

i like both for different reasons

Homelander is right in some things. In his universe he is far superior to the people and pretending to be like them is dumb from his pov

in the first season they had him rehearsing the same lines superman would say, pretend to be just like the people, one of them that got lucky

His agency even fabricated him a fake past, with a fake family and fake humble background, literally Superman

But he actually grew up in a lab treated like a test dog and abused. So in adulthood everytime he had to pretend to be normal he just grew more resentful.

Being forced to humble himself for the sake of other people's egos (who in his universe are more flawed and selfish than usual) just made him angrier after everything he went through to be created

Though he is canonically a psychopath so i don't know if there was ever any hope for him to ever be a decent person but-

Some people get raised with love like Clark Kent and some people are Homelander

But at the end of the day it is your decision what path you take despite the abuse, at the end of the day is your decision if you want to continue and hurt others in the way you've been hurt

And that's where Superman is right: you can choose kindness. You can always choose kindness.

Because everything you do, good or bad, causes a domino effect and could become the start of somebody else doing the same

Superman (2025) // The Boys (2019 - )

[galene-gothic]

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⊹ ! ೀ Pile 1 ꒱

I don’t like this energy. Scorpio, Aries and Mars could be significant. Mars square Neptune in the composite chart possibly? They have that intense stare that people associate with scorpio. Possibly Pluto aspects were present too but I’m mostly picking up on Mars energy here. The number 16, the number 7 or the number 6 could be significant for either the connection, or them. There was a falling out that happened and I believe that you’re not in contact with them anymore. This person either caused a lot of chaos in your life or the connection ended suddenly? I’m picking up on a lot of chaos, turmoil and resentment. Like looking back, you likely don’t know where things started, where they ended and there’s no line between different emotions that you were feeling towards them, and in life in general. You know those people who either turn your life upside down or make your life more troublesome than it already is? That could have been them. The energy is such a mess that I’m unable to even explain it properly. Neptune and Mars together reminds me of abuse and manipulation. For some reason, I got the story of the witch feeding Cinderella the poisoned apple. You remember them from a very unstable time of your life. Someone who made you feel really worse when you were at a rock bottom? Honestly, I don’t think that rock bottom is even the right term for it. Every time that something bad happened something worse followed so you were in survival mode, obviously struggling and incredibly unstable. Personality wise, this person is thinking about how cold you’ve become. They seem to be very manipulative, almost delusional and critical. They’re critical mostly of others though 😭. Ignorance is bliss, huh? I’m picking up on an almost cynical nature here. It’s funny that their mind is on how cruel other people can be when they are the one who functions really cruelly. A really pessimistic and bitter person mentally. Now, they’re awakening to or have recently awakened to something being an illusion. They see the truth and think that you must feel really resentful, and bitter towards them.

Some of them have also had a rude awakening and see that they don’t have as many options as they thought they did and are not as desirable as they thought they were. This person functions in emotionally toxic ways. They’re a very horny person and are capable of keeping themself happy by themself but even in connections, they’re like “me, me, me.” They’re thinking about how you’re trying to find fulfilment in life and are trying to live in the present moment after moving away from them - a disappointment. They’re also thinking about how present you tried to be for them and how much you sacrificed for them. They’re aware of how selfishly they acted and are thinking about that. Your history seems to be one of lack of growth. A long term connection without proper commitment possibly. There was naivety present and an openness that led to you being taken advantage of. The audacity is crazy, they were not sorry for anything they were inflicting on you while you let them get away with too much and then dealt with extreme shame throughout, and after everything was said and done. You see them to be someone who you supported during a very lonely time. Also, someone with whom there was a very stagnant connection. You see them as non communicative and impulsive as a communicator. Someone who said many careless words. You think that they only wanted sex, passion or the fun moments and didn’t really want anything serious with you. You do see them as having a very mature and emotionally intelligent side but maybe it was really early on? They feel like your emotional energy to them is blocked now and they might not love you but they’re aware of the overflow of love or whatever positive emotional energy you gave them and they see your value. They feel like you are someone who provides value in the long run but they’re still not a healthy and good person so I suggest that you stay away from them because when they come forward to you, they will come forward in an opportunistic manner, trying to get something from you. I hope that you liked the reading. Thank you for reading, much love and take care.

Random synchronities: Veins, Isis, cheese balls, apple juice, green but the cream kind of shade, bandaid.

⊹ ! ೀ Pile 2 ꒱

Possible signs of this person are Pisces and Virgo or there might be significance of Neptune or Mercury. When it comes to how you can identify them, they seem to get you on a psychic level and vice versa. They might have triggered you a lot and you might trigger them a lot because you cause each other to see yourselves, and it’s like you open up a really sensitive side of the other by exposing their own psyche to them which includes the uglier sides of them. This is mutual by the way. I’m also getting Aquarius energy so possibly Pisces and Aquarius placements. When someone sees you that deeply, you tend to feel naked which makes you uncomfortable but the deepest of intimacy is experienced when people are naked, when they are skin-to-skin. In this case, you guys seem to be heart-to-heart and psyche-to-psyche. This is so beautiful, I feel like crying. Intimacy that makes you feel bare without having to strip yourself off your clothes is true intimacy because when bodies meet, they separate but when souls do, they remain connected. They’re someone who you felt a strange connection with right away. Like, there was just this familiarity. They’re a person who possesses a lot of depth and you have experienced it because you feel as though they touch you quite deeply as well. There could have been fears and obviously a lot of triggers in relation to them. I feel like you both felt things you never felt before causing you to act out in ways you never did before which includes stupid mistakes in how you handled things. They’re someone who wants romance but not too much? Like, at this point, they’re not that romantically inclined anymore. Another confirmation that this is them is that you found out hidden information about them through some outside source but the person who revealed whatever they revealed to you had no clue what they just did. It caused you to gain clarity about them and many of the dots to connect.

The information could have been that during your time apart, they got with someone else? I feel like they are already broken up with whoever this is. They seem to have sabotaged things and missed their opportunity with you. They’re balancing life pretty well and live well. They might be the health conscious kind who enjoys gymming, running, eating well, staying hydrated, getting 8+ hours of sleep, so on and so forth. They’re a pretty balanced person in general and very patient, and understanding. People feel safe and connected to them which is why you might have had unconscious fears regarding them. In fact, some of you know that you felt uncomfortable and acted out in odd ways but might not be aware that it came from a place of fear? Things have become more complicated now that you’re aware of their involvement with someone else or whatever other truth you found out because you know just how safe and connected they can make one feel so the idea of them having made someone else feel that way disgusts you. You also think that someone who loved you would wait for you instead of going around like that. They’re a very kind and charitable person as well, someone who’s service oriented but they seek equality in personal connections. They’re also someone who tries to return to others i.e. whoever gives to them, they try to give back to them. They very much seem to be the kind of person to be grateful and want to give back to their parents, and take care of their own health for not only themself but also their loved ones. You seem to have acted in really disempowering ways in the past like very unstable and they might be thinking about it. If they’ve complicated things through their actions, they might be thinking about that too. They’re especially thinking about how ungrounded you were and how they contributed to that behaviour. I’ll be very honest with you here, you want to devote yourself to your lover and want them to do the same for you so when they used to act out in ways that made you feel unstable.

You used to feel insecure and closed yourself off to them, and when you used to have interactions, mostly you were just uptight but sometimes, they got on your nerves so bad, you used to end up acting really unstable. They’re awakening to it all, thinking about their own actions and your actions in order to form proper judgement, and act accordingly. Your connection and simply even just meeting you caused them to have to confront themself, and the way that they’re living. They were left with no choice but to judge themself evenly. Though unstable, you decided to do what’s best for you so I’ve gotta applaud you on that. The way you were unwilling to engage with them and give to them when they messed up in little, and big ways has them thinking about it all. They are trying to live well and that includes taking accountability, and judging themself, their ways, their habits and their life properly. They’re thinking about all the choices they made and all the ways that they acted in. They’re also thinking about how selfish you were but not in a bad way. They feel like you were choosing yourself and doing what you had to do. The bond that you shared was one of compassion, rawness, hope, idealisation and healing. You were going through a really slow healing and you had been lonely, and in pain for so long, they triggered you and brought out really raw sides of you but they also knew how to firmly tame it, but they were also incredibly compassionate with you. They gave you a lot of hope and helped you heal. You started dreaming of living again is what I just heard. You see them as having made their choice and someone who you felt at home with but either never got to develop a deep connection with or had that stability broken with. You also see them to be fairly realistic and as someone who tries to make good choices for themself so you think that whatever they did, they were choosing to do it. You seem to have been quite disappointed at them and the connection.

You remember them as being non committal and think that they chose someone else over you. You also think that they have a sacrificing and service oriented side to them, and have done a lot for you but you’ve snapped out of it now and see things more clearly so you think that you both share different values, and that commitment and a stable relationship is simply not possible especially given the choices that they’ve made. They feel like you shared a beautiful connection but are incompatible and disconnected right now, and also that you’d be cold, rude, mean, blunt and avoidant of them if they were to ever talk to you again. They feel like you must feel bitterly towards them and have their own set of resentments against you as well. You’ve hurt their feelings too and they’re aware that you both share different values, and are so different at times that you’re simply not compatible but they can’t help but hold onto you. They’re not even sure how to feel, they feel like maybe it was all one sided at times and especially since time has passed, they feel like even if you felt something back then, you likely don’t anymore and that you are closed off to them but there’re unresolved issues that they’re still grappling with. They’re confused, have mixed feelings and emotional turmoil, and have moments when they feel bitter but they also miss you. There’s just so much going on, I’m not even sure how to explain it. I just pulled cards for what they want for you and they don’t want you to be done with them, they don’t want you to move on. The connection has ended but they want to revive it. They want to do better this time around and lead the connection well, move it into a better direction, and they want you to be honest about your feelings for them instead of being so closed off and stingy with your energy. I hope that you liked the reading. Thank you for reading, much love and take care.

I was picking up on two songs heavily:

i) Birds of a feather by Billie Eilish

ii) About you by The 1975

⊹ ! ೀ Pile 3 ꒱

Jupiter in Libra might be significant or Jupiter, Venus or the 7th house. Possibly other Libra or Aries placements. I pulled this card to help you identify them but I feel like you might be the one with these placements. To help you recognise them, this is someone who caused you a lot of stress. All of you are in different stages here but for those of you who are still hurting over them and believe that it was ‘love’, it was not. If you are not over this illusionary phase yet, nothing I tell you will change your mind because you’re simply too deep into it. No matter what stage you’re in - illusionary, awakening or awakened, this was something that had you isolating, feeling lonely, not knowing what to do, being overwhelmed with thoughts, contemplating too much but being unable to think clearly, feeling too much, trying to connect but being unable to and healing came about very slowly. I believe that it took you at least 4-5 years to have healed enough to be fairly mentally stable. If you’re not there yet, you are still not in the right mind. I’m so sorry but you seem to have been driven to a point of insanity and mental instability by whoever this was. This is someone who you believed you’d love forever. “I’ll never find love like this again” kind of energy. However, none of it was real. You were drunk in what you thought was love until you finally sobered and started feeling bitter about everything that happened. They were at crossroads at some point and had a decision to make, they definitely didn’t choose you, be it actively or through indecision. They love love and are capable of deep love, and were seeking fulfilment at that time, they wanted to be happy but they didn’t act out in loving ways with you. They could have gone from love bombing you and overwhelming you with emotions to giving you nothing, overwhelming you further. They’re a really passionate person who’s action oriented as well. However, there is a tendency towards impulsiveness and anger. ‘Enough for you’ by Olivia Rodrigo is the energy that I’m getting for you.

The whole sour album actually, including ‘traitor’. These two songs just came through the strongest. What seems to have happened is that they had a choice to make and made the wrong one, and you both just got caught up in illusions. You held on believing that the love was real even though they had already given up because they got caught up in the illusion of options. There was a lot of anger between the two of you and uncontrolled, and chaotic expression of it. You waited for a very long time though, you were not willing to give up because you genuinely couldn’t accept that they didn’t love you. One of you was too determined to make things work while the other had already given up and didn’t have enough strength to try, and do so. I just heard that there were many moments when you felt overwhelmed and might have thought maybe it’s better to separate so you may have expressed that causing them stress, and turmoil so when they left you, you felt as though you deserved it and that they were just angry at you, they were just hurting :,(. If not, you felt like you did something that was causing them to act like this but there was just a lot going on because you were angry at them for hurting you and giving up as well. They’re thinking about how you used to fight with them but also fight for them. Whenever they think about you, they think about your fights. As to why they’re thinking about you, they acted recklessly back then. They jumped into things and ended them prematurely, acting as though they owed nothing to you even though you were doing just fine before they entered your life. They came into your life and ruined everything is the feeling that I’m getting. In a way, it was good for growth but you didn’t deserve to go through all that. You must’ve felt really taken advantage of and they’re aware of that. When the connection ended, they weren’t giving you much to work with even though they had put you in that mess. They know that they got you deeply attached to them just to let you, not communicate things properly and leave you confused. There was also some sort of a third party situation that could have happened for many of you.

“I knew from the start this is exactly how you’d leave, you found someone more exciting, the next second you were gone and you left me there crying, wondering what I did wrong. You say I’m never satisfied but I don’t think that’s true cause all I ever wanted was to be enough for you. Maybe I’m just not as interesting as the girls you’ve had before but god, you couldn’t have cared less about someone who loved you more.” “Don’t you think I loved you too much to be used and discarded? Don’t you think I loved you too much to think I deserve nothing?” There was an involvement of a third party here. For those who are over them, they’re aware of it so they just look back sometimes because you did make them feel like they belonged. However, the way they treated you in the past, the lack of consideration and the disrespect was wild. If you’re over them, you see them as someone who turned your world upside down but also caused you to learn a lot. You think that you are better at accepting the ups and downs of life now thanks to them, and the chaos they brought in. The connection felt really fated to you at some point but they caused you to feel connected and less lonely temporarily just to push you to be more isolated. I’m literally getting a bitter taste in my mouth while reading for you. You see them to be someone who has a side to them that is more internal but you think that they’re not on the right path and try to distract themself through connections, and that they lack the ability to be alone, the comfortability for it. For those of you who are not over them yet, you make excuses for them and genuinely believe that they’re a worthy, a good guy/man or girl/woman. You are being delusional and think that it is fate, and might hope that someday, someway, you’ll be together again. You deserve so much better trust me. You’re a loss and they’re aware of it especially if you’ve gotten over them. If not, they are just hesitant to further invest in you. If you’re over them though, they know everything that they put you through and know that they can’t come forward to you in any way.

You’ve also grown beautifully since then and become a hopeful, inspiring, and loving person and they still have romantic feelings for you, they haven’t moved on because you brought about a lot of healing, and love for them just for them to wound you but you still rose above it all. They sometimes feel lonely but know that they can’t talk to you about it because they’ve already hurt you enough. They feel like they failed you terribly but it’s funny because while they can’t move on and feel a romantic bond with you, they resent you deeply. Whatever I’ve said is only true for those of you who have moved on. For those who haven’t, they feel like you’re not being able to move on from them and yearn for them, and they hold a lot of anger towards you. Everything is so chaotic and out of control, I’m not even sure what is going on but again, regardless of whether it’s happening, has happened recently, and you’re struggling to move on, happened a long time ago and you’re still struggling to move on or happened a long time ago, and you’ve moved on, you’re still not sure as to what happened there. It feels like an illusion to you if you’ve moved on, something one sided that stripped you off your power even though the other party was the one lacking in that department. You feel quite scorned, screwed and wounded by whatever happened. There’s a lot of rightful anger but you feel defeated, you know? Many of you who have moved on do not even care anymore, you’re just done. If nothing like this has happened yet and you’re involved with someone, something like this could happen. You are especially being warned if someone new enters your life and sweeps you off your feet. You seem quite gullible to love bombing unless you’ve already experienced it before and gotten over it. Don’t stress about it, I could be wrong but I’m just giving a heads up to those who this is meant for. This reading pissed me off so bad. You deserved so much better than all this crap. A determined lover and fighter like you deserves an equal. Don’t ever settle for less. Thank you for reading, much love and take care 🖤💋.

Songs that I picked up on:

i) Enough for you by Olivia Rodrigo

ii) Traitor by Olivia Rodrigo

iii) Lose you to love me by Selena Gomez

iv) The way I loved you by Taylor Swift

[queen-of-signs]

📷Astro Observations - 9 🌌

Note: These are all my personal observations and patterns I've noticed over the years. Take what resonates with you more and leave the rest. Lemme know in the comments if it hits home! A single placement or aspect isn't enough to conclude and the whole chart has to be analyzed! Look at your Vedic chart!

12th lord in 11th house -> You are the kind of person to leave a group chat after helping everyone organize something, and no one even notices you’re gone. Others may use your idea(s) and can be praised for it. People would msg you only when they need something. Sometimes, your loved ones may forget your birthdays, but you still remember theirs. When you're gone, no one notices right away. Your people make plans for a hangout, and you find out after it happens.

11th lord in 10th house -> You act chill at work or in public, but you’re always watching who’s trying to one-up you. You share less than you know, because people twist your words later. You’re okay with people winning, but it bugs you when they don’t earn it. You don’t like asking for help because it feels like they may take advantage of you. You even downplay your goals, so no one tries to sabotage them. You always have a Plan B, even for hanging out with friends. You’ve faked confidence to survive situations where you felt small. You def faked your smile too at times. You’ve left groups quietly and no one even noticed, just how you wanted it.

10th lord in 9th house -> You don’t like people touching your stuff, even if it's a pen. You may give advice like a philosopher but live like a burnt-out delivery driver. I don't understand you all, you believe in destiny, but still try to control every step of the path. You may hold on to old notebooks, expired ID cards, or empty containers because “they might be useful someday.” You’ve stayed in boring routines because change feels more dangerous than misery. You go solo just to prove you don’t need help, then resent that no one's helping!? Either you are a prepper, or you can pack things for emergencies wherever you go.

9th lord in 8th house -> When you're researching obsessively about something, you may even forget to eat or pee. Seriously, you may overshare at the wrong times and go silent when people actually care. You get into weird spiritual phases, purge your room, then miss the old stuff you threw out. You want someone to see the real you, but you change your personality around everyone. You say, “I’m not into drama,” but your curiosity always pulls you in. You help others transform but secretly resist your own. You have stayed in relationships past their expiration date. Tough but you learn life lessons the hard way, then forget them during the next wave of problems. You know something's wrong before it happens. You hide parts of yourself bcoz you're scared people will misuse what they know.

8th lord in 7th house -> Once your partners get what they need from you, they may call you clingy. You ghost emotionally before you ever walk away physically. People trauma-bond with you, then blame you for the mess they brought in. You don’t fight dirty, you just disappear with dignity. You test your partners to see if they're real. You never fully unpack when you visit someone’s place, just in case you need to leave early. Lol, you may say “I get it” a lot, even when you don’t, just to keep things moving. You always sit facing the door at cafés or restaurants, just in case. You might carry tissues, lip balm, or an emergency kit wherever you go. You may leave a little bit of water in the glass, never finish it completely.

7th lord in 6th house -> You def know who's cheating on whom, even though you don't know them personally. You give great advice to people but judge them if they don't take it. You get randomly irritable when someone moves your stuff, even slightly. You’d rather handle things yourself than explain them twice/multiple times. You text back with one-word answers when you're done with the conversation but don’t want to be rude. You may not like being touched when you're tired or sweaty at all.

6th lord in 5th house -> You might overexplain your ideas to friends, just so they won’t misunderstand your intention. You edit your playlist so the songs “flow” even if you’re the only one listening. You may carry a pen wherever you go. You might pick one booth at your favorite café and sit there every time. You like explaining things to people but act like it’s no big deal. You feel off when your outfit doesn’t match your vibe. You may peel your fruits perfectly, cut veggies and fruits neatly or fold your clothes a certain way, just to feel you have control over something. You may do little dance moves or stretch while waiting for food to microwave.

5th lord in 4th house -> You might face the wall or corner when you’re trying to focus at home. You may stare at your phone without unlocking it, just vibing with the silence. You daydream entire fake conversations just to process a mood. You may like to talk to pets (yours or not) like they understand emotional context. You may secretly prefer rainy days because the pressure to be “on” disappears. You wipe crumbs or spills with your sleeve if you’re too emotionally distracted to care. If you have plants, you name them and assign them backstories (directed by you). You time chores to specific songs like it's a private soundtrack moment.

4th lord in 3rd house -> You re-read your own texts before sending them, even the "ok" ones. You whisper-talk to yourself while typing or cooking. You may zone out mid-convo and forget you were supposed to respond. You open chat windows just to stare at them, no intention of messaging. You might talk to your reflection when trying to “get yourself together.” You def rehearse jokes before dropping them casually. You carry a notebook/journal you never write in, just in case the “feeling” hits. You may forget basic words when emotions spike and just say “thing” or “that.” You start telling someone a story, then stop halfway and say “never mind” like it’s no big deal.

3rd lord in 2nd house -> You trail off when talking, waiting to see if someone’s still listening. Sometimes, you may raise your eyebrows instead of finishing a sentence. You answer with “hmm” or “yeah, maybe” when you really mean no. You whisper “that’s crazy” when you don’t want to share your real reaction. You touch your necklace, collar, or ring when you're trying to stay polite. You say “I was just thinking…” even though you’ve been obsessing for days. You say “I don’t know though” even when you’re 90% sure. You overexplain basic preferences like “I like iced coffee but only in this weather.” You rewatch old videos of yourself to study your tone or old images of yourself to observe changes in your body.

2nd lord in 1st house -> You feel personally betrayed when a store discontinues a product you liked. You always keep one backup of everything: lotion, charger, etc. You may stare at your closet for 15 minutes and wear the same 3 things anyway. You hate being rushed so you purposely slow down when people get impatient. You may even buy the same brand of something for years out of pure loyalty. You instinctively sit in the same seat every time and get quietly thrown off if someone takes it. You hate when someone walks into your room and leaves the door slightly open. You open apps, stare, then close them without doing anything, like a digital sigh. You always know how much money is in your account. You give people “the look” instead of repeating yourself.

1st lord in 12th house -> You put something “in a safe place” then forget where that place is for 2 weeks. You stare out windows/ walls/ ceiling for way too long, then blink like you forgot time exists. You may use headphones with no music just to avoid interaction. You do full conversations in your head, playing both sides. You change your entire routine for a week just to reset your identity. You might listen to the same song for 3 days straight, then suddenly can’t stand it. You fake-scroll when you’re overwhelmed in public. You say “I’ll do it tomorrow” and then forget what “it” even was. You change your walking route randomly just because the old one felt too “predictable.” You second-guess your own memories and ask people “wait, did that really happen?”

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[threadedtrinket]

Man, when freeloder partner was living with MC, the one thing that crossed their minds the most of times was "Damn, I could treat them so much better😞"

For those who haven't read the first part, you can read it here – it'll make much more sense if you read that beforehand!

They all thought your partner was a good likeable person at first – they had paid for the first few dates, bought you various gifts and flowers and made you happy and outgoing overall – the only household objects that had their reservations was Dorian, Curt and Rod, and Wyndolyn, who noticed how they would act differently when you weren't around.

Front Dorian would hear your partner mutter "What's taking them so goddamn long to get ready, they nearly always wear the same outfit anyway..." when they pick you up for the fifth date, while Curt and Rod see how they practically drag their feet on the pavement to get to your house, and Wyndolyn also makes it known that all their gifts and flowers are cheap and low quality.

Mac then becomes concerned when you start looking into cryptocurrency and NFTs on your desktop, but Phoenicia informs them that it's not you who's planning to invest in them – it's your partner. It doesn't take long for Mac to look into your partner more to see what else they can find.

They eventually find that your partner follows a lot of crypto and alpha male podcasts, and their 'well-paying job' was really working as an office temp because they couldn't stay in one place for long, mainly because they couldn't be relied on to do more than data entry and refilling the printer.

When news gets out that your partner has made themselves broke and jobless and was begging to move in with you, the house becomes divided – some objects think that they've learned a harsh lesson and will make a turnaround, while others think that things will only get worse from here on out – the latter turned out to be right.

Daisuke could only frown when you walked in the kitchen to see his dishes and cutlery soaking in the sink for the nth time before you looked to the living room, but no matter how tired you were you'd make sure to handle all of him with care when you washed and dried everything.

Dirk and Harper can't bring themselves to bicker as much when they see your partner pull Dirk out of her hamper to replace him with their own dirty clothes – and their clothes act similar to their wearer – they're completely full of themselves and act high and mighty despite their high polyester and nylon count.

Cam doesn't really care at first considering that your partner entertains him with multiple tickets and fines, but then your partner starts to throw out the food you'd make – they'd wait for you to leave before dumping it, sometimes even spitting on it for dramatics – not to mention when they would stuff things in the garbage can instead of emptying it out, they starting feeling sorry for you when you'd take out the garbage bag only for it to rip and leak garbage juice all over the floor.

It doesn't take long for the whole house to resent your partner, especially when they see how exhausted you become – Betty would try to give you as much comfort as possible even though your partner hoards the pillows and blankets, while Hector made sure the bedroom was at the right temperature to help you sleep – Johnny, Bathsheba and River also give you muscle relaxing showers and baths when they see how tense you've become.

Dorian ends up blaming himself the most for all of this happening – he sees how your partner wears you down as the weeks pass, and how you'd spend more time in your office with the door closed as you tried to compromise on your small list of groceries in order to pay all the bills on time.

"Can you do anything other than be a fucking pain in my ass–"

The whole house listens in when your partner screams at you – they all want to intervene, but how could they?

"I've been nothing but loving and caring–"

What love and care? If anything, the house has been the ones loving and caring for you while your partner does next to nothing for you in return! Mac has seen what they do on their phone and laptop now that they're connected to your internet – they do nothing productive, all those claims of working on CVs and cover letters was really them looking up new cryptocurrencies to invest in.

"You don't even make that much, and you can't even cook or clean for shit– I can't believe I've been putting up with this for so long!"

When your partner leaves you to cry on Koa your face is buried in Mateo, the house is all up in arms. How dare they scream and shout at you as if you were nothing but a common nuisance and measly servant – you had welcomed them into your home and done all that you could to make sure they were loved and cared for, but it was all for nothing.

But now? Now they were going to step in – they may be household objects, but that wasn't going to stop them – they'd make sure that your partner would leave, one way or another.

[batsandbirdbrains]

So, it's probably been thought of before, but like...

Slade kidnaps Dick

Bruce searches and never finds him -> Slade fakes Dick's death (without Dick knowing)

Dick escapes after a 1 1/2 or 2 years

He's been replaced by Jason

Depressed Dick with just enough stockholm syndrome to count for something

Returns to Slade because he doesn't know what else to do with his life

This was NOT Slade's master plan, but he'll probably lie and say it was so that he could show Dick how replaceable Bruce saw him as

Dick and Slade are as close to toxic besties as they can get

!!! Love this idea. Slade would absolutely capitalize on Dick feeling betrayed and lost and replaceable.

“Ahh yes this was all part of my master plan,” he says, his voice grandiose and self-assured. “I knew you needed to see it for yourself, of course. I couldn’t just tell you he got a new kid. You needed to see it, apprentice.”

Slade had no fucking clue because once he got his little bird, he stopped giving a shit about what the Bat was up to.

But Dick, having a total meltdown and identity crisis, doesn’t even notice how full of shit Slade is being right now. But Slade is offering him comfort and a home and a place to be himself, and he caves. This is what breaks him. Knowing Bruce replaced him so quickly, so easily. But Slade only wants him, doesn’t care about this new Robin.

Slade’s arms are open and welcoming, but once Dick falls into them, it’s going to be impossible to make Slade let go.

And from then on, Renegade is a force to be reckoned with. He has no mercy, doesn’t hold back. He follows Slade’s orders to the letter. And eventually, he even has fun doing it.

And when half his mask gets blown off in a fight with the Justice League a couple years later, and the face of the boy they all thought was dead stares back at them with nothing but hatred and anger and resentment? They falter. Just enough for him to escape back to Slade.

[everwalldigan]

every time i see an opinion about dick hating bruce i roll my eyes because i know they dont understand how devoted and loving this man is to him. Regarding Jason, I don't think there is hatred here, but there is anger and resentment. I think about how hard it is for traumatized characters to love "correctly" and how the fandom tries to look through the prism of only good or bad

it makes me giggle when people actually full on believe any of Bruce’s kids hate him. You have actually fundamentally misunderstood them as characters. as if they wouldn’t hesitate to give their lives for him at a moments notice but it’s ESPECIALLY funny when people think dick hates him. Right. The number one Bruce Wayne defender that makes me feel inadequate like whenever I think I’m defending Bruce a lil too much I remember how Dick was cussing Tim out for even believing for a second Bruce could kill someone even when all the evidence was pointing towards it. That man has such a blind and deep loyalty to his father it actually makes him delusional like please be fr. And people who think Jason hates Bruce as if he isn’t glazing him to anyone who’ll listen😭? Yeah the great Batman the best vigilante in the world you think YOU can beat the Batman? Like if Bruce were ever to be discovered with a metagene its effect will be the blind loyalty he evokes in people. Like I think a lot of the fandom underestimates the sheer amount of people that would follow Bruce blindly into battle like they trust this man with their LIVES. And this doesn’t only apply to his family, it applies to most and various of his teammates like none of them hate him that’s literally their paranoid well meaning guy

[borderlinereminders]

Boundaries are valid. Whether they’re physical, emotional, sexual, intellectual, financial, or something else. Setting a boundary doesn’t mean you don’t love someone. In fact, healthy boundaries are what keep relationships strong.

People might tell you that “if you really loved someone, you’d do anything for them.” This belief usually comes from poor boundaries or past experiences, not necessarily from intentional manipulation. This is also an extremely romanticized notion. You can deeply love someone and still have boundaries. (You should have boundaries!)

Why Boundaries Matter

They protect your mental and emotional health.

They reduce stress and prevent burnout.

They prevent resentment from quietly building in relationships.

They create trust and stability because everyone knows where they stand.

If you struggle with boundaries, it’s often because:

You survived trauma.

People in your past reacted badly to your boundaries.

You’ve been taught that boundaries are selfish.

Here’s the truth. Boundaries are not selfish. They’re an act of self-respect.

Noticing When Boundaries Are Needed

If you’re feeling uncomfortable, anxious, resentful, or drained, it’s often a sign that:

Someone is crossing a boundary.

Or you’re crossing your own by overextending yourself.

Example: If you say “yes” to things but later feel exhausted or resentful, that’s your signal that a boundary needs to be set.

How to Set Boundaries

Start by asking yourself:

What are my current limits?

Do they change depending on the person or situation?

Then communicate clearly:

Gentle option: “This isn’t about you, but I feel uncomfortable when you hug me. Could we fist bump instead?”

Direct option: “I feel anxious when you vent without asking. I need you to check first.”

Remember:

“No” is a complete sentence.

You don’t have to justify your boundaries if you don’t want to.

Enforcing Boundaries

Setting a boundary can be scary because people may react poorly. Ideally, a healthy person will respond with understanding, even if it takes them some time to process.

If someone:

Accidentally slips up: Remind them gently but firmly.

Doesn’t take it seriously: Reassert your boundary.

Refuses to respect it: Consider limiting or ending contact.

You are not responsible for how someone reacts to your boundaries.

Boundaries in Romantic Relationships

Even in love:

You’re allowed to want alone time.

You don’t owe anyone your passwords or full access to your privacy.

Time apart and personal space are valid needs.

Sometimes, a boundary will reveal a compatibility issue. For example, if one partner needs a lot of alone time and the other needs constant quality time, neither is wrong but the relationship may not work long-term.

[calrosebunny]

I’m SUCH a big fan of Kyle being pissed at himself for lowkey liking when Cartman bullies him as they older. Allow me to explain.

imo, Sheila’s smothering helicopter parent behavior will cause Kyle to resent her as a teenager and turn him into a super anal “Type A” kind of person. Honestly, there’s even existing canon evidence for both claims in the show too. He’s just like his Mama lol. Opinionated, passionate, grouchy, controlling, headstrong, snarky, Type A, etc.

He’s also like Gerald too though. The sort of awkwardness, the drive to succeed, more snark, the nastier “skankhunt”-y parts of him (HE’S FRIENDS WITH CARTMAN FOR A REASON), the chubby chasing, etc.

Sheila and Gerald’s relationship model is also constantly exciting, loud, and crass. Because of this, I don’t think Kyle would want to have a very peaceful relationship/life overall. We tend to seek out the relationships that were modeled to us as children, whether healthy or toxic.

So, I think Kyle would grow up to enjoy feeling smothered by his parents on some subconscious level, even if he also hates it a little. It’s a familiarity thing. He would also grow to have a lot of control over his life, being so organized and like his high-achieving parents. He would want a stable relationship that makes him feel loved too — since, all things considered, Sheila and Gerald aren’t that unhealthy of a couple in the end especially compared to other parents in the show lol.

But remember that Kyle would also not want to have a slow/uneventful life. He craves being challenged and pushed back on, like how his parents modeled their relationship to him.

So……who does that CONSTANTLY to him.

Eric Cartman!

Kyle will subconsciously seek out his parents’ dynamic (tailored to who he is, as a mix of both of them) as he gets older, and he would be so embarrassed and irritated at himself for finding it in Eric fucking Cartman lol. He pisses Kyle off like nobody else ever has before, but Kyle enjoys it on the downlow. Which makes Kyle even more angry when he catches himself enjoying it LMAO.

But seeking out that excitement isn’t necessarily a bad thing yknow? Like, you can still be ragebaited by your partner but it doesn’t mean it has to be abusive lol! It’s super possible to have that kind of relationship dynamic without it ending in flames. It’s really just who they are as people. Though there’s definitely a toxicity risk there if boundaries are violated. It would require a lot of mutual growth and communication.

You could even argue that he’s been feeling this way in the show and the specials. Kyle could stop hanging around Eric literally any time he wants, but he STILL chooses to put himself in these situations lmfao.

Chat do you see my vision!

[aphroditelovesu]

Hii! I just wanted to express how much I admire your writing. Ever since I discovered your blog, I've been completely captivated by your work and find myself returning to it again and again. Your talent is truly remarkable! I hope you're doing well. I was wondering if you could consider writing more about Damon Salvatore. Take care, love you 🫶🏾

❝ 🧛‍♂️ — lady l: aww! Thank you so much, seriously, I'm genuinely happy to read this. I made these romantic hcs for him, I hope you like them! ❤️🥰

❝tw: obsessive and possessive behavior, toxic relationship (let's be honest), mention of murder, non-consensual vampire turn.

❝🧛‍♂️pairing: yandere!damon salvatore x gender neutral!reader.

Being in a relationship with the most unpredictable of the Salvatore brothers brings many surprises — some good and some not so much. Damon's complicated behavior is even more pronounced around you, even though he tries to "behave," so to speak.

You can keep Damon's murderous tendencies in check to a certain extent, but in the end, it's his nature and who he is, and that can't be changed so easily, if at all. He wants you to accept him, to love him for who he is, not to try to change him. Damon will resent you if you do, and that never ends well.

Damon is a caring boyfriend, even. He tries to be as attentive and loving as possible with you, even though his murderous impulses are still there and will never go away. He's a vampire, after all. And a vampire who enjoys killing, a sadist.

He always reaffirms with meaningful and affectionate words how much he loves you, how much he adores you, and that he'll keep you with him forever. Sometimes it feels like he's threatening you, but it's all in your head; after all, your boyfriend just loves you very much.

He's more possessive than anything. Damon sees you as his and doesn't like to share what's his. You should almost always be in his presence, as Damon gets slightly paranoid when you're away from him, and a paranoid Damon means an unstable and murderous Damon.

He gets jealous so easily it's ridiculous, and to be completely honest, Damon doesn't trust you that much. He's had bad romantic experiences, and trust is hard for him. He doesn't think you'll cheat on him, but Damon prefers to keep an eye on you and scare off rivals. You know, by killing them.

Still on the subject of jealousy, Damon won't be entirely comfortable if you're too close to his brother. He trusts his brother to a certain extent, but the Salvatore brothers' history speaks volumes, so he'll always keep a close eye on you when you're around Stefan.

If you're human or something other than a vampire or immortal, like a witch/wizard, Damon will want to turn you, and he will. It doesn't matter if you don't want to, he'll turn you anyway because he doesn't want to lose you, and it's his way of showing that he cares for you, that he loves you. You will be together forever.

Damon would love to take you hunting with him. Like a romantic vampire date, the two of you hunting your prey, and when you finally catch it, draining the poor soul of all its blood, you'll have more action at home, with a good drink and just yourselves, if you know what I mean.

Damon likes to surprise you, and this can be both good and bad, depending on your perspective. He likes to buy you gifts at will, after all, money isn't a problem for him. He always notices when you want something, even if you don't say it, and the next day he'll show up with the thing you stared at for five seconds.

Spontaneous trips are a common habit for you as a couple. Sometimes, Damon will simply put you in his car and drive away in silence, with some '80s music playing, as you leave Mystic Falls for somewhere else. It's moments like these that truly show Damon loves you, even without having to say it in words.

Damon has his moments of insecurity, and you're always the one to help him, reminding him that you're his, that you love him, and that you won't leave him. These conversations usually end in sex, but that's because it's a very common way for you to reconcile. Damon is much more into physical touch, like kissing, hugging, and sex, than words, so it's a form of love too.

If you tried to leave him, Damon wouldn't accept it. He's not the good brother, and he's thrilled about it. You're not going anywhere, and he'll make sure of that. Even if Damon has to lock you in his house, you won't leave him. And if you try, it won't end well for you. After all, if he wants to keep you with him, Damon is willing to hurt you to do it.

Nothing is off limits to Damon when it comes to you and he will do anything to keep you with him.

[greencreekwolf]

fuck it friday

hiya howdy hello it has been an age since ive done this but i was hit with an intense vision of a fic, 5 times buck and eddie don't say i love you and 1 time they do, so here we are, yay :)

The little house he and Shannon shared is sometimes blurry in his memory, dim and faded compared to what really shone in that house, his wife and his son and his own absence. It's been so long that, well, he has kinda forgotten what living with Shannon was like. Sort of. He remembers waking up to her in the mornings, after they were married, when she was a few months pregnant and began sleeping like the dead. Eddie would stare at her, brush her hair back from her face, wipe the drool from her mouth with a wrinkled nose and little laugh that would often wake her up. He remembers all the shit she had cluttered on the bathroom sink. He remembers the creaky, warped step on the porch she asked him to fix a million times. Eddie never did. There must be more than that, but it's lost to him. Lost to time spent across the ocean in tents and cramped quarters. Lost to the arguments that seemed to swallow the house whole. Lost to everything he missed and everything she resented him for. Eddie remembers the two of them not ever exactly figuring out how to share space. And now he is doing just that. With Buck. His best friend. His—Eddie's brain sputters, a struggling car engine searching for a spark. A lot of other words could describe Buck and what he is, what he means, to Eddie. None of them land though. None of them ignite. None of them are examined. Best friend. Important. Those are enough. More than enough. Which is why Eddie spends thirty minutes searching for Buck's trail mix, because he can't quite bring himself to come home without it and see Buck's disappointment. He is strangely and worryingly attached to that trail mix. Maybe Eddie should work on changing that. Instead he searches and searches, cursing under his breath in Spanish and nearly running over a sweet old lady short enough that he couldn't see her, until he finds it. There are worse things he could enable. Eddie sets the trail mix down next to the tubs of ice cream. Sighs. Shakes his head. Tries not to smile when he imagines how happy both Buck and Chris will be. His boys.

This, at least, Eddie can do right.

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[hawkinsschoolcounselor]

Time and Time Again: A repeating theme in Stranger Things

From background references, to soundtrack choices, to story elements, time has been made out to be a significant aspect of Stranger Things. It's led to a lot of theories, some good, some ridiculous, but what is it all leading to?

I have an idea. It's hard to call it a prediction because there's no way to know if it will happen, but it fits within the bounds of the story, I think.

People probably first started to notice the time aspect in season 3 with the prominent inclusion of Back to the Future. It could've passed without significance if not for a drugged Steve and Robin discussing the movie, which brings it to the audience's attention. This led to the earliest speculations that Stranger Things would have a time travel element in the future.

Season 4 brought us the clock imagery, specifically the grandfather clock whose ticking and chimes were used by Vecna while mentally stalking his victims. Again, more time imagery. There's also some possibly significant dialogue, like El's letter discussing how emotions can make time feel like it speeds up or slows down. It's actually the second in-universe letter to mention time, as Hopper's letter at the end of season 3 mentions wanting to "turn back the clock."

El's season 4 arc actually involves her turning back the clock, in a sense. She has to confront her buried past, her trauma, and accept that it happened while letting go of any misplaced guilt. I think how they handled this is a big clue as to how any time-based storyline in season 5 may go down.

Season 4 established that Henry took advantage of people with troubled pasts, things that led to them feeling guilty and wanting to hide their pasts from others. He violently forces them to relive it, complete in a warped, exaggerated manner, seemingly drawing strength from the anguish they experience. It's a clear metaphor for trauma, but the show weaves it into its supernatural elements.

What does this have to do with time, though?

Well...

We know that we're getting flashbacks to 1979, as casting calls were issued for Mike and Will actors who appear 8 years old. They would have been that age in 1979. What else happened in 1979?

Our boy Henry met the Shadow Monster, having been given a first class ticket to Dimension X/The Upside Down/whatever, courtesy of El.

But where did this monster come from?

I think it was Will, not that he knows that. It's his repressed side. His anger, his trauma, his fear, his resentment. It's his literal Shadow, in the Jungian sense. It's been locked away for a long time because Will never dealt with it. He was good at hiding, after all. But this isn't his supernatural trauma. It's a much more real kind.

We know Lonnie is an asshole, even if we don't actually get to see most of it. He's already out of the family's lives by the time the show starts up, only making an appearance because Jonathan goes to his place looking for Will, and then he sticks around to try to cash in on Will's apparent death. It's suggested that Will never truly accepted the fact that Lonnie doesn't love him.

In season 1 flashbacks, Will is still hopeful for Lonnie to come and pick him up, even though it would be for a baseball game. Even though he doesn't like it, he'll take what he can get. We know Lonnie used to call Will gay slurs, hopefully not to his face, but he probably did. Jonathan would also play music to drown out the sounds of Joyce arguing with Lonnie.

What we don't know is when exactly Lonnie left or what the final straw was, but I think I have an idea.

Lonnie left sometime between 1977 and 1982, as he took Jonathan hunting on his 10th birthday and was already living out of the house in the 1982 flashbacks.

Lonnie left in 1979. And he left after a fight about Will.

You may think it's a bit of a stretch, but it fits with what we know. We know that in response to Lonnie leaving, Jonathan and Will went and built Castle Byers. It was a rainy night, they both got sick, and Will could barely hit the nails. They built it exactly the way Will drew it. Will already had this fort planned out. His sanctuary, his hiding spot, was something he thought up before he had ever built it.

I think that the night Lonnie left was the night that Will hid away his pain. He forced it down because facing it was just too much for such a young boy to handle. But it was there. Castle Byers was a time capsule, a museum. It was all of Will's happy memories that he could surround himself with to help mask the pain. It was his hiding spot, both metaphorically, and, in the Upside Down, literally.

Why does the Upside Down look like Hawkins on November 6, 1983? It didn't just happen because El opened a Gate, otherwise it would've looked like Hawkins in September 1979 already from the first time. It's because Will went in there. It became a visual representation of a world full of Will's pain, but devoid of the happiness he could usually find in his friends and family. He was isolated in a world of his trauma, and all he could do was run and hide, again in Castle Byers. However, much like when he tried to do so in season 3, hiding in his carefully curated safe spot wasn't enough. His pain was too great. And Castle Byers would be destroyed both times. You can only hide for so long. The pain will find a way out, sooner or later.

Will has yet to face his past, so the darkness gets stronger and stronger until it can't be contained. Henry is literally wielding Will's dark side, using it against him and his loved ones. It's metaphorical, yes, but, like his Henry's other victims, the show makes it "real" in order to push the supernatural elements of the plot.

In order for the heroes to win this, Will has to take back his pain. And, in order to do that, he has to do what El did. He has to confront those terrible things that happened to him because of his father, everything that made him feel like a mistake. He has to accept it into himself and absolve himself of any wrongdoing. He's not a mistake, regardless of what Lonnie, or anyone else, thinks. Only then will he be able to accept the Shadow Monster into himself, this time as a reintegration instead of a possession, and take back the power he unknowingly gave Henry.

He has to go back to his past, which, while normally a metaphorical phrase, may well be literal within the story of Stranger Things. Be it an induced flashback, a trip through his manifested memories, or some type of literal time travel, Will has to go back, but not to change or "fix" anything. He has to go back to confront and accept what happened and reconcile with the fact that it wasn't his fault.

As for how the show will do this? I have no idea. We know that El can go into people's minds and see their memories, both happy and traumatic. That could be one way. I'm also torn as to whether or not Will needs to go on this journey alone. Stories often depict a hero doing something like this on their own in order to show growth, but having sources of strength on such a journey in real life (metaphorically, of course) is always helpful. For Will, this would be his friends and family, particularly Mike, who he's already described as making him feel like he's not a mistake. But, if this takes place in some type of mind realm, Mike may not be able to accompany him, at least physically. But El could.

So, really, that's what I see as the significance of time imagery, and how it may come into play next season. It's symbolic of people trying to trap painful memories in their past. Henry's clocks symbolize time catching up with them. They can either hide from their pasts, and succumb in the end, or "go back in time" and face it, and come out stronger, and whole, in the end.

Thoughts?

[crinj-central]

While Ida is the only one who's trying to understand why Loki is acting like this, she still hasn't put the pieces together even though technically she should've been able to, even more so than Harald: Because she was actually around when Estridd rallied against her son and made everyone believe that he's cursed. It was literally the reason why Hajrudin and her got attacked in the first place, said attacker even named Loki's curse. That's the real crux of it all, the real reason why Loki is acting the way he does. Because he was hated and rejected and treated with cruelty since the day of his birth. All he's ever craved was love and kindness, but it was withheld from him by force since the moment he opened his eyes.

Ida only got one tiny fragment of Loki's complex feelings right. Despite her good intentions, she doesn't actually understand Loki, and I think that's why he's lashing out on her, too. It all feels fake and superficial to him because nobody on this god damn island has bothered to look at themselves and admit that this is their collective fault. Nobody has bothered to point at the actual source of his suffering and say "hey that's really messed up, why are all of you so cruel to a small child? Why is it so normalised to blame Loki for everything?"

While the original perpetrators of his abuse are dead, it continues on in the hearts of pretty much everyone except Ida and Harald. They literally can't see the forest for its trees, even when the resentment is right in front of them. Yes, Ida got really mad at the fisherman for hesitating to save Loki (as she should), but she failed to realise that this open resentment and hostility is why Loki is this lonely in the first place.

The sad part is that Loki would never confide about his early life experiences to anyone because by doing so, it'd mean he'd have to confront and unpack all of his trauma, and that's simply too much for a child to deal with. At most, I can only see him do that during a complete mental breakdown where he's laying his soul bare because he can't take it anymore. Personally, I believe it's imminent at either the final rejection of Rocks and/or his death.

[pixelated-homunculus]

I saw somebody say earlier that Andrew didn’t actually care about Aaron because he didn’t treat him properly (in the books and after Andrew found out about him) so I’m gonna talk about Andrew and Aaron for a bit.

For starters, we have to get it out there that Andrew absolutely did not treat Aaron right. Of course. If you look at them through the eyes of someone who’s had a vaguely normal relationship with love, that’s extremely obvious, but Andrew hasn’t had that. People can talk about how horrible a person is to friends and family, but you also have to try and see why they act that way. Andrew grew up in foster care. He never had a permanent family. And he was mistreated in a lot of those places. Both sexually and emotionally. This is very, very obvious. It’s literally stated in the books. But you can also see it in his relationships with people after. When he was with Cass, he was quite literally willing to pretend Drake wasn’t abusing him so that he could stay there. Because Cass was one of the few people who wanted and loved him. She was going to keep him. She wanted to adopt him. And Andrew was okay with dealing with Drake if it meant he got to keep having her.

So why didn’t he? Aaron.

Andrew finds out all of the sudden that he has a brother- a twin brother- and everything changes. He tries to hide him from Drake. To keep another child away from what’s happening to him, but Drake finds out. And suddenly the danger is so much more present. Suddenly it is not a “what if he finds out” it’s a “he knows and he going to get him too.” That’s the world Andrew was living in before Aaron. A world of sacrifices. So he sacrifices a relationship with his biological family to protect a boy he’s never even met from his abuser. But it’s still not enough. Drake is pushing and he wants both of them. So Andrew makes another sacrifice. And this time he sacrifices the only motherly figure he’s ever had in order to protect Aaron. He knows Cass might not keep him anymore. Understands that’s a very real possibility. But it’s alright, because Aaron is safe.

And then he’s in juvie. But it’s okay, because Aaron’s safe from Drake. But he’s not safe. Not yet, at least. Because Andrew soon realizes that Aaron has his own demons. Because Tilda’s abusive and his friends are horrible influences. And suddenly he’s not safe again. Safe from the abuse Andrew suffered, sure, but not safe. So he plans and he plans. And when he gets out he ties Aaron down with promises and deals, because Andrew can’t understand why he’d want to stay otherwise. Still can’t comprehend that people want and love him. And he slowly pushes the bad out of Aaron’s life. Until Tilda’s dead. Until Aaron’s “friends” are out of his life. Until Aaron’s clean. And he knows that Aaron will resent him for it. Knows that once Aaron finds out Tilda’s “accident” wasn’t so accidental he’ll hate him. But Aaron’s finally safe. There’s no one left to hurt him. He’s getting good grades. He’s rebuilding his life. And even if he hates Andrew, he’s alive, and that’s all Andrew’s ever really been concerned about.

I think that last part is part of the issue though. Andrew’s always been so concerned about surviving, he’s never cared enough to push for anything more. It’s hard to treat people properly when you’ve only ever worked towards them surviving. Andrew himself is still trying to figure out how to do anything more than survive. And by the time the first book begins, he really is working towards it. He’s in therapy. He’s making an effort. But he hasn’t figured it out just yet. I don’t think he can treat anyone properly until he figures that out for himself.

[instigatorjosten]

tonight’s obsession: Andrew stepping over every single boundary someone might have unless it’s sexual

Andrew does not give a fuck if he hurts someone, emotionally or physically. this man will pull a knife on you if you say the wrong thing. he genuinely does not give a FUCK about you ever. he is capable of murder, there is truly no length this man will not go to.

I don’t think it’s that Andrew sees nothing wrong with what he does, i believe he does. he just simply Does Not Care. He puts actions and consequences on a scale, and as long as Andrew thinks his actions serve a greater purpose, they are justified no matter the extreme. and he won’t feel guilty about doing what he deems the necessary thing. he does not think of himself as a monster like other people do, and if he didn’t have so much apathy and lack of care for what his public perception is he would resent the nickname.

But! when it comes to sex, he’s been on the other side of things, he has been a victim. he knows the price of crossing that boundary, what it takes from someone, and nothing in the world can even out the scales enough to justify that to himself. crossing that line is where he would agree to calling himself a monster, like Them. and that’s something he will never allow.

is he correct in any of this? fuck no and i’m not saying he is. but Andrew’s character flaw is not being able to put himself in someone else’s shoes emotionally. he only understands the gravity of rape because he has suffered through it. he isn’t stupid, he knows what physical attacks do to people and what death means and he knows they’re terrible things people fear just as much as SA. but in his mind, by his standards, it’s always possible to find something worthy enough to justify doing so.

he also will not do something truly insane without a purpose, which i feel like we often forget to bring up. nobody has argued against it as far as I’ve seen but i feel like it’s so important to clarify specifically. Andrew gains no satisfaction from his actions, they are a matter of efficiency. at most, he will be glad he achieved his goals but he takes no pleasure in someone suffering. it is not a love for pain, it’s a lack of sympathy for it

[constellama]

guess who’s thinking about the parallels between jarthur and arkayne after that last episode !!! ME so prepare for a long ramble

So I already made a post about how I think John killing every version of Arthur in the dark world was out of resentment. To me, it very much parallels my interpretation of Kayne killing and torturing other living version of Arthur out of love.

Both John and Kayne have complicated feelings about Arthur. Personally I don’t think it’s something we can understand because I don’t think their emotions are fully human. Kayne kills Arthur out of love because that’s just how he shows his affection. He’s obsessed. He spends so much of his time centered around Arthur, finding ways to make him his or call him home, that it gets pushed to a uh, rather gory extreme. And then there’s John. John can already call Arthur a home. He can call him a friend. But without Arthur, with it being partially Arthur’s fault he was sent back to the dark world, I think part of his way of showing affection was by mirroring Kayne’s. Sure he was still killing Arthur out of hatred and resentment, but eventually there must have been that longing to see him again. I mean the bone cathedral is proof of that !! He used parts of Arthur to mimic the feeling of sharing a body with him again !! That longing for Arthur again, it’s the reason why he asked for Kayne’s help in the first place.

I’ve always seen jarthur and arkayne separately kind of as foils. John and Arthur are narrative foils in their own way, and Arthur and Kayne are narrative foils in their own way. But with the reveal of what John did in the dark world, I think John and Kayne can also be narrative foils. They’ve both killed countless Arthur’s, but while Kayne does it out of love or some reason that’s arbitrary, John did it out of hate and a very calculated reason. They’re two sides of the same coin, in a way.

Additionally: I think it might’ve been during the interview, but it was mentioned that the butcher is a character who parallels Arthur in the way that Arthur is afraid of ending up like him. I think this is the case for John and Kayne. The both of them are very similar, but I think John looks at Kayne and hopes he never ends up like him, because that would be like being the king again, like falling back and losing his humanity again. But now because of what he did in the dark world, and especially because Kayne knows about it, he’s a lot more similar to Kayne than he wants to be.

And then there’s the orchestra. The greatest show of Kayne’s love, the greatest show of John’s guilt, and the greatest way for Kayne to taunt John. Obviously the orchestra was meant to disconcert both Arthur and John, but honestly I think it was meant to horrify John way more. It was like Kayne throwing John’s sins back in his face, a choir of flesh made entirely of Arthur, a direct compliment to John’s own cathedral of bone. In a way, it could have been Kayne saying “you’re just like me. you’re love for Arthur is just like mine.”

What is the most crazy to me now is that everything Kayne said in intermezzo was partly referring to THIS. Remember when he said that him and Arthur are alike? That’s because he knows that in the vast infinity of the universe, Arthur is, in a way, unique. The only one of his kind, just like him. Obviously him being “special” to Kayne is in part the Manager’s doing, but Kayne doesn’t know that. To Kayne, it could be fate that they’re both the only one of their kind, the same kind of special. John practically did him a favor. Even if it’s not the same as every living version of Arthur being dead, they still parallel each other in some twisted way.

In short, the bone cathedral is like the final bridge between jarthur and arkayne to me and I’m absolutely losing my mind about it. Thank you for coming to my Ted talk <3

[unityawareness]

This is why.

to the people that just simply want better for themselves or are confused about loa and shifting or the people that know their god but dont always feel like it or the people that are just so over with life that this is their last resort of some type of liberation, the reason you are not getting what you want or seeing your intention instantly or even seeing it at all in the present moment... because you lack intention or because you have turned your intention into an identity.

people think them manifesting their little sp, manifested seeing a butterfly, brought in a good opportunity, changed a situation,seeing red cars everywhere, changing peoples fucking views of them and their moods, a whole brand new house or SHIFTING FUCKING REALITYS to fucking hogwarts, is just a cute little hobby they have as a small little tiny human with a cute little belief and capability they hold for themselves, that they are a cute little tiny peice of controll in such a big vast universe.

no. you are bigger than the universe itself, you are what the THOUGHT of an existence of a universre arises in, to where YOU are now aware of.

I see all these pages and posts of people that are taking their desires or their accomplishments and turning it into an idenity, a dream, something they arent right now. or a hobby. something they like to fantasize about. a comforting idea. for some people, one they bring to "life" but dont own in its entirety.

there are 3 reoccurring, most common people that seek loa or shifting.

the first group of people are:

"i have questions about what i want"

"i am going to post/read tumblr with intention to uplift me"

"i seek motavation"

"im watching it happen"

"im becoming"

"im on a journey"

"im manifesting"

"im shifting"

"i am doing blank"

-from the person who implys "not yet" instead of "right now"

that is what you identify with if you do any of those things with intention to GET.

then theres the people that are like:

"i am a shifter"

"i manifested blank"

"i follow law of assumtion"

"i have a good mentality and thats why things are right for me"

"im a good manifester"

"i manifested this"

"i shifted here"

-from the person who has taken their truth, their essence and turned it into a human identity. and look, i know it can be hard to accept and understand, what we are truly, when learning about all of this through a language. a made up language by the way. but lets not undermine what we really are. we arent the human in essence. it is just one of the infinite experiences of ourselves as awareness.

then there are the tramatized, sad, or just overall disrespected in their existance or autonomy.

"why do bad things always happen to me"

"im never enough for anything"

"why cant i be like them"

"i wish blank"

"i never get it right"

"im unlucky"

"im delusional"

"i give up"

"im jealous"

"i hold resentment"

"i wish i could do what they do, but i dont belive in myself to be able to do it so im just going to hate on them and make them feel low because thats how i feel. they deserve it to feel bad about themselves because thats what happened to me. even if they dont deserve it, it dont care, because no one cared when it happened to me... and i didnt deserve it."

-from the person who never got to be seen and loved unconditonally, there was always conditions to things that were supposed to be birth right. these people are hurt, at a fundemental level. these are the people coming to loa and shifting because they want an outlet, liberation, meaning, purpose, vision. they are accostumed to lack mindset and want to feel free in some aspect.

there are also the haters, who just want to hate, they are also hurt, and though, yes they can be annoying, they are valid in the sense that they are trying to do the same thing others are doing, but in a way they are more used to: negitivity, unfairness, belittling, denial and self depravation. which are all just things they have been accustomed to their whole life. and, if you are that person, you dont have to be what your past has made you, you get to chose to be someone you can be thankfull for. the friend or parent or sibling you needed when nobody was there for you. you can look in the mirror and see yourself, every single age since birth, ask yourself if this was ever what you truly wanted to be. as your present self that and ask that little boy or little girl you once were. the pause in between the question and the answer you said... is the true answer. and what does it take to be somoone you would like to be? choice and presence.

ive learned so much knowlege from the stillness and acceptence of this truth over the past 2 days than most people would only accept after 2 years. because it not about how long it takes the mind to get used to it, or when the mind accepts it enough for the result of that effort to show up infront of you physically.

its about how stern are YOU going to be as the one aware with the knowlege of the FACT that the mind you think is you, is the mind that does whatever you tell it to from your awareness of it.now.

it doesnt take time, it takes presence. and in that presence is a choice. what is YOUR choice?

also ask yourself: who is it that feels like they need to be something to have something?

the answer is the human, not awareness.

ask yourself: who is it that needs to have an identity?

the answer is the human, not awareness.

once you understand you are the one that sees more so than you are the one being seen, effort vanishes.

journeys dont exist unless that is what you choose. take what you think a journey is right now and look at it. you think you have to learn and remind yourself and really repeat it to yourself to let yourself fully experencie it. but no, if you see what you want why would it take a journey to experience it? the real journey was everything you did up untill you became aware of what you wanted.

so when people say "you have it now" its not some grand thing, its nuetral like everything else you have in your life you see around you. you have everything now.

its like if you know and are aware of having bananas in the kitchen. do you have to say "i am a banana eater" to be the person that eats bananas? did you have to say "im going to look at banana posts on tumblr to feel motavated to go get and eat the banana? did you have to ruminate and fantasize about what your kitchen looks like and in which angle the bananas are placed to go get the banana? did you remind yourself the entire day up untill you chose to go to the kitchen and get a banana.... that you already have bananas? like hell no. same applies for the thing you have illusioned you dont already have, or the dr you think your not in. or life you think you dont yet amount to. nobody was anything or had anything before the thought of the existence of that thing. all that was ever left to do, was to go get the damn banana.

and to the people that are scared they wont get what they want. when you became aware of that banana and thought to go eat it, were you worried that you might accidently eat an apple instead because they are placed right next to the bananas in the kitchen? like seriously? do you look at the damn banana anxious that somehow... someway.... you might intend and chose the eat the banana but the UNIVERSE might have you taste and feel an apple when your biting into the damn banana. hell no. its silly.

stop trying to identify everything.

what you "do" now, is stop. be still for a moment and look around at everything that was once a thought. your phone that was made because of someones thought, the fact that you have this phone, which was also a thought before you had it. the fact that you have tumblr open right now, which was a thought before you opened the app. the house or building your in that was made from someones thought. even your own throught you had however long ago that brought you to the exact location you are in right now, reading this from. the thought of being here before you actually were, like the thoughts your parents had to concive you through the act that creates human life, before you existed as a fetus, how your mom thought of being pregnant before she took the pregnacy test, how you were a thought of life and birth before you were actually birthed. if you think of this long enough and go back far enough to where you are met with the ONE. the singular point we are all sourced from. the banana that was sliced and diced and controrted into humans, animals, planets, galaxies, human minds, ideas, philosophy, science, physics, fantasies, evil, good, religion, communities, DUALITY. it expanded infinitely and now, all exists in the present moment but.... even tho all of those things have happened to the banana... does that mean it isnt a banana anymore? well to that question i ask you this. if you reversed all of that, and saw it like a movie in reverse... what would the end scene be? the one and only....banana. i know using a banana as an example is unserious but you get the point of the analogy.

there is no moment other that whats right infront of you, so what do you select, NOW. with no past, no future, no memory, no ruminating about the future.

who are you now that you are present in the choice of that decision?

if you had who you have been being as a person, written down on paper... and someone else read it and saw you for who you are in reality, is that the person you say you have chosen to be? if not, choose now through presence, not hope.

i know all of what im saying is basicly just non-duality, but even that keeps you limited in language for someone who is just discorveing all of this information. saying its non-duality as a term with a definition makes it feel like a journey, something you have to embody or learn, not something you already are. If you are trying to learn or accept or practice non-duality, you are doing it for the mind, the human. not you. the one that already is. the one aware of the human that is trying to be. aware of the human who is in self depravation of itself. all that is left to do, is to experience. what do YOU select?

if you read to this point, you know the truth. i am now in your awareness because you thought of "clarity" in some form before this moment. and now, here it is. are the the confused one? are you still the seeker? are you the one in denial? all are you as the one aware of them all. but... WHAT. DO. YOU. SELECT. reguardless what you think, this truth remains. are you going to claim it FULLY?