alexisgoingcrazy

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I really really love my best friend. And my other (non queer) friends. But sometimes I wish they were queer to understand it better. Does that make sense?

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Made an aroace crochet garland

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I think they unintentionally made the most aroace inclusive description of love in the Thai series "Cutie Pie":

"I think love is the purest feeling people can have for each other.

Gender, social status, society, skin color, or education don't define you.

For me, love is wanting to take care of [him].

I want [him] to be happy.

I want to see [his] smile.

I want to hear [his] laugh.

I want to hug and wipe away [his] tears when the world is too harsh for [him].

I want to spend my life with [him] until we grow old."

And I think that's pretty aroace inclusive on the most parts (for those who experience anything in that direction).

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do you ever ask yourself "why are humans so dumb"? I do.

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Am I the only aroace person who LOVES to watch/read romance storylines, because I get to "experience" something I wouldn't be able to feel myself?

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me: I have AuDHD

people: you don't act like my kid/sibling/cousin/uncle/tv characters/etc

my AuDHD ass: [unknowingly says something inappropriate & unfitting]

people: you can't say that, that's inappropriate

me: oh really? how unautistic, how unadhd of me to say something socially inappropriate. sorry, my bad

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aroaces ready to come out: let's go gambling

[almost no media representation] aw dang it

["you just need to find the one"] aw dang it

[getting told to get therapy] aw dang it

[less visibility than other queer people] aw dang it

["I couldn't do that, that's such an important part"] aw dang it

[marriage and children being standard/expected] aw dang it

["that's gonna be such a sad life"] aw dang it

["that doesn't exist, quit your bullsh*t"] aw dang it

[alexisgoingcrazy]

average aroace experience: being repulsed by your friends with their partners

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my queer journey in a nutshell:

bi

trans (still bi)

trans, pan

agender, pan, asexual

nonbinary, gay, asexual

gender fluid, gay, aroflux, asexual, poly

trans, gay, asexual, poly

trans, aroace (with microlabels)

And still people try to say we choose this for attention?

dear fellow humans, shut the f*ck up, I would never have chosen this. Do you know how many restless and crying nights that brought? how many mean comments? How often I hated myself and wished to be "normal"? You tell me, someone would choose to be hated and hate themselves because they wish to be like those other people?

Unless you went through that, Karen, you've got nothing to say in this matter

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As an aroace person I would be very interested in people telling their experiences. like I love watching romance storylines and reading them, and I can also imagine ones for myself, but as soon as I imagine myself in a romantic/sexual relationship/situation, I built myself a character as me. like I make a fantasy person as me, like if I would make my own avatar, that doesn't look anything like me and acts nothing like me, but still represents me. also my imagination of the feelings is heavily based on the series and films I watch. or a book I read. I could, for the sake of god, not come up with a very own situation that contains romance. it would be all copied and cut and pasted together of all series/films/books I consumed.

is that an aroace thing, or is that like really common?

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na don't worry. could be, of course, but I just realized that for myself after questioning a lot and never really liking LIKING people romantically and so much more aspects that would take a little too long to put here. I just find it funny as I was in such big denial like I literally told myself na I can't be aroace I do like people not like normal friends, but also completely ignored the aspect of aroace being a spectrum. it's not like you won't like anyone ever automatically. I mean for example if you're grey romantic and ace you're still by terms aroace. you obviously don't have to call you that, but it would be. anygays, long story short, don't worry too much :)

how a conversation with my younger self would go:

me, now: you're aroace

me, then: can't be. I'm panromantic (&asexual) and polyamorous

me, now: and why do you think you're pan and poly?

me, then: *defensive* because I like everybody the sa- *realizing* holyyyyy! okay, nevermind.

me, now: *mildly amused* yeah. you (don't) like everybody the same

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how a conversation with my younger self would go:

me, now: you're aroace

me, then: can't be. I'm panromantic (&asexual) and polyamorous

me, now: and why do you think you're pan and poly?

me, then: *defensive* because I like everybody the sa- *realizing* holyyyyy! okay, nevermind.

me, now: *mildly amused* yeah. you (don't) like everybody the same