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[bpderanged]

As someone who's actually been stalked in real life for years, I can't help but assume that anyone romanticizing yandere content has never lived through constant, real-world stalking with real consequences (one of which includes being raped or killed, frankly.)

They've never had to move homes, change numbers, shut down all social media just to feel remotely safe. Because if they had, they wouldn't be calling that shit "hot."

So if you're glorifying that dynamic, I will assume you're either a teenager who doesn't know better, unemployed, or just genuinely unwell.

Please get help. Or a job. Or both. Whichever keeps you too busy to fantasize about ruining someone's life while calling it "love."

[bpderanged]

Good luck trying to guilt trip someone who doesn't feel guilt.

[bpderanged]

I don't have the energy to care, argue, get angry, or over-explain myself anymore.

So you can misunderstand me, judge me, make me the bad guy, and I won't even feel the need to defend myself.

Whatever you think of me, you are absolutely right. Congratulations for having the most correct opinions.

[bpderanged]

I was such a good student but then mental illness happened and all of a sudden I'm a loser

[bpderanged]

To be loved without performing is impossible.

[bpderanged]

I don't need people in the way most do. For me, connection is functional—transactional, even. I interact out of necessity, not emotional desire to bond whatsoever. I need people for what they do for me, and that's the difference. Most want to be irreplaceable, but I see everyone as interchangeable. If one person leaves, another can fill the role. No hard feelings.

[bpderanged]

I can't fake empathy for victims who keep running back to their abusers and continue enabling the abuse. Every time I try to get through them, all I hear are excuses—like they're actively defending the people who treat them like shit. I get that it's a trauma response, but good god they're making it very hard to feel bad for them.

[bpderanged]

My toxic trait is ruining things before they can mean something to me because the moment they do, I'm fucked.

[bpderanged]

I'm really not trying to offend anyone when I say this, but if I'm telling you not to self-diagnose, it's because I'm trying to look out for you, not because I'm trying to invalidate your symptoms. I will, forever and always, be against self-diagnosing. Sorry not sorry.

[bpderanged]

Seeing people my age succeeding in life makes me wanna kill myself.

[bpderanged]

Alcohol

Alcohol

My hidden talent is sleeping for 8 hours straight and still waking up tired

[bpderanged]

I've seen too much shit to still be hopeful.

[bpderanged]

"If you watch triggering media to "relax" then you need to ask yourself why you find comfort in trauma."

[bpderanged]

The sexual tension between me and all of the bad decisions I promised myself I wouldn't repeat

[bpderanged]

Whenever I start catching feelings I'll have to violently remind myself that it's a terrible idea

[bpderanged]

My hidden talent is sleeping for 8 hours straight and still waking up tired

[bpderanged]

Didn't notice this until my doctors were concerned about the inconsistencies in my stories. They obviously kept notes of our sessions and that's how they find out that sometimes the things I said didn't make sense chronologically.

For the love of me I can't remember anything that clearly. It's like I've been living half of my life dissociating so all I'm seeing in my head is just fragments of what happened, but never the full story.

And I know that it's a defense mechanism, but it seems like my brain isn't doing a very good job at forgetting because I'm still traumatized despite not remembering everything that well.

Due to all the trauma my brain just decided to block it all out until everything becomes fuzzy and now I can't even trust my own memory