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Hard life lesson #1

Life can, in spite of insight and awareness, offer no justice.

Despite brilliance and talent, doors can not relent no matter how much nibbling and sipping you do. You can be denied Wonderland’s garden, and offered no way through.

Truth does not set you free. It just makes you see, and can be harder to bear when you come to accept life is not fair.

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Why?

Every few years or so, I make serious attempts to leave New York. And it doesn’t let me go.

Can you and a city be antagonistically destined for each other, should I just not bother, or do I need to try harder?

~ Camille U. Adams

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Thank the pain - as a source of direction as a form of freedom as guidance for elimination as incentive for actualisation as your soul's communication. ~ Camille U. Adams

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we have the memories of our ancestors, the effects of residual trauma but the strength always to fight our oppressors now and forever: #BlackLivesMatter ~ Camille U. Adams

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forgiveness is dangerous you have the right to your outrage

the soul that protects you should take umbrage.

~ Camille U. Adams

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Keep calm & build a firm foundation

I’m trying not to be reactionary I’m trying to do what’s best for me and that’s to stay steady make calm decisions set up my future with stability and precision not just escape and hazardously jump to leap into a situation that involves more compromise and complication because I just wanted to get away and didn’t take time to take flight in the right way

right way, I have to remember that my mantra build a foundation don’t let anybody have perilous control over your actions and your future life you’re creating what you want don’t mar it with strife make sure to leave that to the past, a place rife with situations you don’t want go into this soundly make it so nothing will haunt your next phase. read this again the next time you want to blindly escape.

~Camille U. Adams

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Introvert Awareness #5

Yes, convenience, location, financial situation but public transportation cannot be an option it is not a viable lifestyle choice the noise, the noise, the noise!

~ Camille U. Adams

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battling fear. but love's needs can't remain ensnared.

Try. ~ Camille U. Adams

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Truth speaking

I see now, with clarity what you used to do to preserve your sanity seeing both sides in Gemini empathy duality but in actuality ascribing to scum morality considering always where my wrongs could be taken advantage of by scapegoat 'family' condemning my shields against their abuse as coldness an inherent flaw, an inability of mine to love or form close bonds when the reality remains they stood to gain by my lack of surety they helped me maintain.

but I'm sure now the truth lies in how I feel it is determined immediately my introversion need not play a role for analysis and mental control over a toxic situation, no cerebral or empathic justification.

there are those who are evil with ugly souls nothing in your actions determines, influences their poisoned dysfunction.

trust yourself and continue your march to freedom.

~ Camille U. Adams

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days when you can't but you do

days when your body's in pain but you push through

- women, our strength is boundless -

~ Camille U. Adams

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you wanted friends who could understand but if they've been unloved, too how could they love you. actually, that's an excuse there is just no love in some people you've learnt this truth. ~ Camille U. Adams

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Introvert Awareness #4

practicality says, 'I have the requirements for that role your belly churns, 'but that would betray your soul.' ~ Camille U. Adams

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placed virtue on austerity now learning: listen to my body, my mind, sensibilities. they say "feed! being filled up is your need." ~ Camille U. Adams

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soul-settled

my heart is lighter in Self-knowledge lays answers ~ Camille U. Adams

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Introvert Awareness #3

look at the guest list oh, that person's going to be there nope, sorry, *changes clothes* not going anywhere.

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Introvert Awareness #2

We don't argue, debate, or engage in a back and forth with you. your ignorance drains. we seek exchange with the enlightened those who have a clue.

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Yes.