cherrypiehoneymoon

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☁️ night clouds ☁️

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kiss me in the sprinklers

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I truly feel this

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"What's been going on in your life?"

Well I fell in love with a boy I'd only known for 3 hours and then I completely lost sight of everything and spiraled and cried in the parking lot of a bowling alley and stopped eating and couldn't sleep and crashed out again when I saw him in an alley and now my sad boy aesthetic is back and I'm tired

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I want them back,

The feelings we had

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Take me back to a time when I didn't daydream about leaving my hometown.

Because now, all I want to do is leave it.

Take me back to a time when midnight drives in the summer meant plans and friendship.

Because now, my midnight drives mean sad songs and heartbreak.

Take me back to a time when life was simple, knotted with a pretty bow.

Because now, the bow has been torn, and everything has come undone.

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Throwing myself into hazy daydreams of you because it's the only place we share time. Wallpaper of you line my thoughts because it's the only way I can study your face and long at the way your smile could melt a glacier.

Our time together was brief, more brief than I would have liked. I wish I had enough time to count your eyelashes and memorize your tattoos. I wish you had more time to see me for me.

If our short encounter taught me anything, it was that I don't know how to properly feel. Perhaps the issue is that I feel too strong. I find myself enveloped in fantasies and false narratives until it bleeds into an internal obsession.

It's exhausting. I long for the day where someone meets me and wants me for me, the day where my looks aren't just what matters. The day someone will look at me and feel complete.

My issue? I feel this way every time I fall for someone. And it hurts.

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A world on fire

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txt me u miss me

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I thought my dreams were done with you. I thought you were done with my dreams. But I still wake up with you on my mind, emerging from rosy dreams of soft kisses and a sweet reunion.

I've spent the last year and a half in a chaotic daydream that has left me in the clouds. My hair has changed. My perception has changed. I have changed. There's a part of me that so badly wants to give up the control in my grasp so I can behave the way I'm itching to behave. I want to end the silence between us and pull you back into my life the way I used to pull you in for a kiss. I want to obsess over your texts to me and tell you how much I love your face.

The old me is still somewhere inside, trying to break free for plot purposes and unrequited feelings. I'll keep him under the surface. Despite my chaos, I've still managed to grow. It's just a matter of reminding myself that I don't need you to grow with me.

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come over and we can swim and u can carry me around the pool and we can kiss under water and share a towel and then eat popsicles

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love me lots, not only on our honeymoon

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Just like the moon, I will always find you

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Need a large man with strong arms to pull me into his lap and let me just sit there and complain a little bit while he lightly tickles my back and sides

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I want a life without responsibility. A life where I can wake from my beauty sleep without a job to go to. A life where I can slowly drink coffee on a balcony after blowing my husband. A life where my scenic views are in constant rotation. A life where societal norms fail to exist. I want a life where I can be young forever.

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Boy brat

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Thankful for the trees, the sun, the sky, the clouds, and the grass