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Chapter 5
Your POV
The morning after our quiet conversation on the tour bus, I woke with a peculiar ache in my chest—not from my ribs, though they still throbbed occasionally, but from something softer, something I couldn’t name. The bus rocked gently beneath me as the sun filtered through the half-closed curtain of the bunk, casting golden light across the narrow space. I blinked slowly, trying to hold on to the remnants of a dream I’d been having—a dream where Chris and I were back at the lake from my childhood, skipping stones, laughing like we’d known each other forever.
When I finally pulled back the curtain and climbed out, the bus was mostly quiet. A few of the crew members were still asleep in their bunks, and the faint scent of coffee told me someone had been up before me. I found Chris in the small kitchenette, his hoodie pulled up over his head, headphones in. He was hunched over his laptop, probably editing footage or going through setlists.
I didn’t say anything at first. I just watched him from the threshold, letting myself absorb the peace of the moment. He looked different in the morning—softer, more human. Not the version of himself he showed the world on stage, but the real one. The one who carried my bag when I winced. The one who touched my wrist like it was something fragile and sacred.
Eventually, he looked up and pulled one earbud out, offering me a sleepy smile. “Morning.”
“Morning,” I echoed, moving to pour myself some coffee. He watched me for a second, as if he wasn’t quite sure I was real. Then, with the same quiet certainty he’d shown since the accident, he stood and came to me, placing a hand gently on the small of my back. “Sleep okay?” I nodded, sipping my coffee to hide how flustered his touch made me. “I dreamt about skipping stones.”
His brow lifted, amused. “That’s oddly specific.” I smiled. “You were there.” A beat passed. His hand stayed where it was, warm and grounding. “Was I any good?” he asked, trying for lightness. “You kept missing,” I teased. “But you didn’t seem to mind.” He chuckled, a low, intimate sound that curled in my stomach. “Sounds like me.”
Before either of us could say anything else, the rest of the crew began stirring, the soft hum of bus life returning. The moment faded, but the warmth stayed. I carried it with me the rest of the day.
Chris’s POV
I had always thought being on tour meant you didn’t have space for anything real. It was a whirlwind of cities and shows, soundchecks and sleepless nights. It didn’t leave room for stillness, for emotions that ran deeper than adrenaline and applause. But being with her changed that.
She had become the calm at the center of the storm.
Watching her adapt to this chaotic life had been nothing short of incredible. She never complained, not even when the bruises made her breath catch or when the long hours left her exhausted. She just… existed beside me, quietly making everything feel less exhausting.
I found myself seeking her out between sets, during rehearsals, even in the silence of the bus when everyone else was asleep. I needed her there like I needed to breathe. It was terrifying.
One night, after a particularly high-energy show, I spotted her in the wings, tucked into a chair with a blanket around her shoulders and a grin that warmed something inside me. I walked straight off stage, still sweaty and wired, and went to her. Without thinking, I bent down and pressed a kiss to her hair.
She froze, just for a second. I pulled back, surprised at myself—but she tilted her head up, eyes wide and searching. “You okay?” she asked softly. I nodded. “I just needed to touch you.” She didn’t say anything, but her hand found mine and squeezed. It was the first time I felt like I could fall and someone would catch me.
Your POV
Things between us changed after that night. Not in a big, dramatic way, but in the quiet, constant way that made me feel like I was standing on the edge of something huge.
Chris started lingering longer during our conversations. He’d walk me to my bunk each night, sometimes brushing his fingers over my hand, sometimes not saying anything at all. He had this way of looking at me like he could see right through every wall I’d ever built. I didn’t know what we were yet—maybe we didn’t need to label it—but I knew what it felt like.
Safe. Electric. Like home.
But even in the midst of all that warmth, doubt had a way of creeping in. We were two people from very different worlds. He was a musician, always moving, always in the spotlight. And me? I was just… trying to heal. Trying to find my footing again. What if this was just a moment? A beautiful, fleeting illusion?
The thoughts haunted me during the long drives and quiet hotel nights. I didn’t bring them up. I didn’t want to ruin the fragile thing we were building.
But Chris, of course, noticed.
Chris’s POV
I could tell something had shifted. She smiled just the same, touched me just the same—but something in her eyes was different. Guarded. I gave her space, hoping it was just exhaustion, but one night, as we sat on a rooftop in Denver, the stars low and the city buzzing softly below us, I couldn’t stay quiet. “Talk to me,” I said, voice low. She looked at me, startled. “I am.”
“Not like you were,” I said gently. “What’s going on in that head of yours?” She hesitated, then exhaled slowly. “I just… I don’t want to be something you look back on and regret. Some sweet memory you had while on tour.” I stared at her, stunned. “Is that what you think this is?” She looked away, but I reached for her hand, tugging gently until her eyes met mine. “This isn’t temporary for me,” I said. “I don’t care about the tour, or the music, or anything else the way I care about you.”
She looked like she wanted to believe me, but the fear in her gaze was raw. I leaned closer, pressing my forehead to hers. “I’m not going anywhere. Not unless you ask me to.” Her breath caught. “I don’t want you to,” she whispered. And just like that, the wall between us crumbled.
Your POV
The days that followed felt different—not because of anything Chris said or did, but because I finally let myself believe it.
Believe him.
We kissed for the first time on a Tuesday. It was raining, soft and cold, and we were stranded in a small roadside diner waiting for the bus to be fixed. Chris was rambling about some weird dream he’d had, his hands moving animatedly as he told the story. I was laughing, not even thinking, when suddenly he stopped mid-sentence, his eyes locked on mine. “What?” I asked, breathless. “I’m gonna kiss you,” he said simply.
And then he did.
His mouth was warm and soft and sure, and everything else—rain, diner, tour, doubt—faded. When we pulled apart, I couldn’t stop smiling. “Took you long enough.” He grinned. “Yeah. Worth the wait.”
Chris’s POV
I didn’t care about anything else.
Not the setlists. Not the crowds. Not the pressure from my manager to post more, tour more, be more. All I cared about was the way her hand fit in mine, the way she curled into me at night, the way her laughter made everything else quieter. For the first time in years, I felt like I was exactly where I was meant to be.
And I wasn’t letting go.
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#romance#chris motionless#motionless in white fanfic#chris motionless fanfiction#chris cerulli#motionless in white#eventual smut#first kiss
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Summary: This is a story about, Chris, Ronnie, Andy, Vessel and Noah. The reader gets pulled to do a tour with MIW for the anniversary of Reincarnate. As she goes on, she meets the other artists, and they all end up falling for her, and she for them. They have to navigate a relationship and how they will all get along for her sake. But as always life has other plans.
!! All of this is pure fiction! I do not own any of these artists or lyrics and yes, some things will not be accurate as it is in real life, BECAUSE it is fiction. Some lyrics will be AI generated (original lyrics for the FMC)!!
xo- Note: the FMC's character "Death" has nothing to do with the page or me at all. I just felt it would fit. Please do not copy my work, you are welcome to repost and share a much as you want. Comment if you want. -ox
WARNINGS:
painful past, self-doubt, language, mentions of divorce, rough past, tattoos, Sleep the deity. Will update as I go on with the chapters.
Chapter 4
Your POV
The days go by very quickly and before I know it, I am on the bus, with the guys, on our way to the festival. We’ll be there 2 days early, to figure out everything, and to settle in for the next two weeks. I am still halfway asleep as the bus slowly pulls away. Sleep pulls me under, wrapping me in a blanket of darkness.
When I wake up, I find that my head is on a lap. I jump up, checking who it was. It was Ricky. “Sorry, I couldn’t let you sprain your neck on the couch, so I became your pillow”. I sit up a little more, rubbing my eyes, “Thanks”. I get up stretching my legs, before heading to the small bathroom to empty my very full bladder. The bus is anything but smooth on the road. After peeing, I made my way back to where Ricky was sitting. “Where is everyone?” He chuckles softly, “They all had the same idea you did, only they actually made it to their bunks”. I giggle at that, as I move to sit down on the couch again. A comfortable silence falls between us. For several minutes we just sit in silence, letting the quiet envelop us. Suddenly, Ricky spoke, “ Y/N”, he turns to face me properly, I follow his movements, facing him, “Are you a good person?". I blink, trying to process his words and at the same time trying to figure out where it’s coming from. “Yes, I believe, I am a good person.” My face must’ve given away my confusion, because he sighs before speaking again. “What I mean is…..I noticed Chris has formed an attachment to you, and he is my best friend. He has gotten hurt before, and while it is great seeing him this happy, I need to know, are you a good person and will you hurt him?”
Now that was a mouthful, but I get it, I would do the same thing for Nica and Amy. “Ricky, I know where you’re coming from ad I respect that. I promise you, I will never intentionally hurt any of the guys, least of all Chris. I may not have known you guys all that long, but I care about everyone very deeply”. I can visibly see him relaxing at my words. I know how Chris got hurt, it wasn’t pretty. I would still keep things slow, and let fate play out. In the last few days, talking with Chris, I have fallen even more for him, than I did, only knowing him from a distance. Another comfortable silence falls between us, I take it he was satisfied by my response, because he didn’t say anything else. One by one, the guys woke up, making their way to the main area of the bus. We are about an hour away from the festival grounds and I can feel the excitement bubbling in my tummy.
“Get ready, guys. We’re 5 minutes out!”, the driver shouts from his seat. What! I thought we were an hour away, I quickly look at my phone to double check the location. Oh, yeah, now it makes sense. It was only a four hours drive, we all must’ve slept the whole drive. Soon, I start seeing all the other busses and trailers from various artists parked in random places, behind the main festival spot. Everyone is getting their stuff ready for once we are parked. “Guys, I want to do something”. They all turn to face me. “Yes, sweetheart?’ Chris’s voice fills the space, as they all look at me expectantly. “Well, I want to keep up the mask thing, I want to keep my face out of the media for as long as I can. Will you guys please, play along with it if anyone asks, you guys don’t know my identity.” I notice Chris and Ricky smiling. “What?”. Chris takes my hand in his, “Sweetheart, we would’ve kept quiet anyway, you don’t need to ask us for that. Do you want to get ready, or do you need help?” Relief washes over me, glad they guys are all on board with it. “I could use some help painting the back of my arms”. Chris nods, motioning to the very cramped bathroom, and I nod.
He lets me get dressed in private, simple black jeans and a black tank-top. Once I am done, I pass him the paint. He hums a tune, I haven’t heard, as he applies the paint in soft dabs with the sponge. Ever so often, his fingers would brush my arm, sending shivers down my spine. If he notices, he doesn’t say anything about it. After he’s done, I turn to thank him, but the words never leave my mouth, as we make eye contact. It feels like an eternity where we are just staring into each other’s eyes. I can’t get myself to pull away. “Ready?”, comes Justin’s voice, breaking the trance. “Yeah, we’re done”, Chris says over his shoulder. I smile politely at Justin, before moving to grab the mask and the cloak.
Chris’s POV:
It was just me helping her, but damn it felt intimate. I didn’t want to look away or to have the moment end, when Justin spoke. I watch as she moves, putting the mask and cloak on. I am in awe of this woman. I felt her tugging at my heart in the few days that I have known her. I am still scared to try dating again, but something about her, makes my worries go away, whenever she’s near me. I think I might be slowly falling for her, but I do not want to rush any of this.
I walk behind her, following her out the bus. Outside people are busy unloading and setting up and as if she’s a magnet, everyone’s eyes fall on her. I don’t like it one bit, it feels like they are ogling what’s mine. Wait….what…she’s not mine, not yet anyway, so why do I feel this. I wipe my face with my hand, moving to stand next to her. “Welcome to the madness”, I say to her and she lets out a laugh, a joyful and genuine laugh. I can’t help smiling at the sound. Man! That is a sound I want to hear again and again and again. She looks absolutely badass. She must’ve noticed people staring at her, because she turn to them, “What are you looking at?”. They all turn away, as if they’ve been electrocuted. I let out an involuntary snort at that. I put my arm around her, over her shoulder. “You’re gonna be perfectly fine”. We walk like that to the stage, checking out the size and position of everything. I glance to my left, seeing Ronnie Radke also looking at the stage. Feeling the familiar hatred bubbling in my chest, I look away. The things he said and still says about us, about me…that is something I struggle to forgive to this day. We didn’t do anything wrong. We made sure of our facts before taking action. Turning my back to him, I walk closer to the stage. Making mental notes of where Y/N and I would be positioned on stage. Tomorrow we’ll have the whole day for our sound check and figuring out who is where, during what song.
I turn to find her, only to see her looking at the area and the stage. It seems she is making the same mental notes as I am, with the way she is turning and moving her hands. A smile tugs at my lips, feeling the previous hatred fading away. It’s like she calms the demons inside my soul, just by existing. “This is going to be FUCKING amazing!”, Vinny exclaims as he runs to her, picking her up, and spinning. Oddly enough, I don’t feel the urge to chase him and bash his face in, I guess I really trust him then. Again, the sound of her laughter graces my ears and the remaining hatred, disappears. I smile fully now, joining them. “Fuck, yeah!” This year, it seems we have a bigger stage, which means there is so much more we can actually do.
We spend the rest of the day, checking out the grounds and the setlists for the events. Vinny and Justin, went to schedule our sound check for each day. I had to leave her alone, to discuss things with our back-up dancers. They arrived around 2pm. She went back to the bus, hanging out there, probably reading or planning her days ahead. After talking with the dancers, I make my way back to the bus, to see if she wants something to eat. I enter the bus, but she is not sitting by her book. I can’t help a glance at the open page, I notice that she’s writing lyrics, a song. She is creating her own stuff. The words, tug at my heart, bringing tears to my eyes. It is incredible and carries a lot of emotion. “Hey”, she says and I instantly drop the book whirling around to face her. “Sorry…I-I shouldn’t have read it.”. She has a small smile on her lips as she walks over to me. “Don’t worry about it, I was going to show you once I was finished with it. It’s not like it is my diary, it is just some lyrics that pop up in my head”. Relief washes over me and I feel my heart swell, she was going to share it with me, anyway. She thought about sharing something so personal with me, her lyrics, the words that generally speak an artist’s deepest thoughts, words they can’t say out loud, but through a song. I pick up the book again, opening on the first song, and I read the lyrics out loud.
[Verse 1] I begged you to come, I needed your hand But you cursed the road, chose the same old land I packed my dreams in a silent scream While you stayed stuck inside your faded routine
[Pre-Chorus] I stood at the gate with tears and a map You let go, too afraid to collapse You said love was roots, I said love should fly So I turned away, but I never said goodbye
[Chorus] Now I burn like fire through the sky alone You left me shattered, but I built a throne From the ashes of what we used to know I learned how to bleed and still let go You stayed. I rose. I fly with wings of my own.
Your POV:
As he reads, I struggle to keep all those painful feelings from the past, locked away. I never wrote past the chorus, because I am stuck. I don’t know what else to write, or what will work. At the same time, it feels like I can’t write other songs, until this one is finished. I’ll keep working on it, I suppose. “I haven’t gotten further than the first chorus, I am stuck”. He looks up at me with a giant smile on his face. “This is really good, very emotional. I this from your personal experiences?” I physically feel how my heart sinks en though I knew this question was coming. “Yeah, it is from my past, but I would really prefer not to end tonight on a sad note”.
He nods, showing me he understands. “Well then, let’s go get dinner and we’ll have fun, before the real work starts tomorrow?” Knowing he didn’t push for met to explain, makes me feel 10 times lighter. I smile at him, grabbing his hand, leading him outside. He has to throw the book onto the couch as I keep pulling him. He laughs at my attempt to drag him, it’s not my fault this man is so tall and heavy for a skinny guy. “Would you, please…I am hungry”. This makes him laugh harder, while he finally moves his lanky legs.
The rest of the night, goes smoothly, we had fun, we got some pizza and drinks. After collecting everything, we headed back to the bus, where the others were already waiting, sprawled out all over the bus. We all ate and chatted, until we could not keep our eyes open. After taking a shower, I made my way to the couch. “You’re seriously going to sleep on the couch?” I look up to see Chris and Ricky looking at me with raised eyebrows. “Well…I…I”, the words won’t leave my mouth. Ricky motions for me to follow him. He walks me over to a bunk, “If you don’t mind, you and Chris can share a bunk, he actually suggested it.” I turn to look a Chris, who is now bright red. I giggle at the sight of him, and it makes him even redder, so much so, his ears are now bright red. “I’m fine with it and thank you, really.” His eyes sparkle at that and we squeeze in on the bunk, with him wrapping his arm around my wait. “Is this fine?” I just hum in response, not trusting my words. Silently, I feel sleep washing over me. Chris’ warmth making feel extra comfy and safe.
#romance#chris cerulli#chris motionless#andy black#ronnie radke#motionless in white fanfic#fanfic#vessel sleep token#sleep token#eventual smut#andy biersack bvb#bvb#black veil brides#falling in reverse#noah sebastian#bad omens band#noah bad omens#lyrics#own lyrics
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Beneath the weight
In shadows deep, I lose my way,
Each step I take begins to sway.
The world spins on, but I stand still,
A ghost adrift against my will.
My thoughts, a storm I cannot tame,
Each one a whisper laced with shame.
I wear regret like heavy chains,
And bleed in silence through the pain.
The crowd surrounds, yet I’m alone,
A stranger carved from skin and bone.
Their voices blur into a hum,
While I just pray for sleep to come.
Anxieties, like smoke, arise,
They blur my breath, they cloud my skies.
I fake a smile, play my part,
While panic claws beneath my heart.
What’s wrong with me? I want to scream—
But silence drowns my every dream.
I long for peace, for some escape,
To feel I’m more than my mistakes.
Yet here I stay, beneath the weight,
Still hoping it’s not all too late.
That maybe one day, light will find
This broken soul, this aching mind.
#lonliness#original poem#poems and poetry#poem#poetry#poets on tumblr#shameful#im hurtin#alone with my thoughts#anxiety
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A love, you can't have
How strange, this love that haunts without a face,
A fire that burns where no warm hands have been.
I trace your name in thoughts I can't erase,
Yet know our worlds will never knit or spin.
No voice of yours has danced upon my ear,
No glance exchanged, no stolen breath, no sigh—
Still, in the quiet, you are always near,
A dream that lingers though it must deny.
What cruel design, to love a ghost so true,
To crave a soul untouched by time or place.
No path can lead me through to reach to you,
No hope to bloom within this silent space.
Yet if I must, I’ll love you from afar—
Unseen, unmet, my never-falling star.
#original poem#romance#in love#canthaveyou#noahsebastian#bad omens band#noah bad omens#i love him#I can't have him#but I want him#noah sebastian#love#poetry
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Summary: This is a story about, Chris, Ronnie, Andy, Vessel and Noah. The reader gets pulled to do a tour with MIW for the anniversary of Reincarnate. As she goes on, she meets the other artists, and they all end up falling for her, and she for them. They have to navigate a relationship and how they will all get along for her sake. But as always life has other plans.
!! All of this is pure fiction! I do not own any of these artists or lyrics and yes, some things will not be accurate as it is in real life, BECAUSE it is fiction. Some lyrics will be AI generated (original lyrics for the FMC)!!
xo- Note: the FMC's character "Death" has nothing to do with the page or me at all. I just felt it would fit. Please do not copy my work, you are welcome to repost and share a much as you want. Comment if you want. -ox
WARNINGS:
painful past, self-doubt, language, mentions of divorce, rough past, tattoos, Sleep the deity. Will update as I go on with the chapters.
Chapter 3
Your POV
I am staring at my closet right now, trying to figure out what to wear. Amy and Nica are chilling on the bed, trying to help calm my raging nerves. “Why don’t you play the game, go in the mask and the robe thingy,” Amy suggests. I wip around, looking at her as if she just grew another head. “Yeah, think about it. “Death” is your stage name, the mask and outfit is just better. Besides that way you can hide the insane blush you’re gonna have when you meet him.” As I listen to what he is saying, I realise that they are right. The whole outfit is like my brand, my persona coming to life. “Then it is settled, I will wear the whole thing. I am still doing my make-up though, who knows who’ll see me without the mask afterwards”. I carefully lay everything out on the chair near my desk, before turning and heading for the shower. My hair will be down and I am not going to wear the hood inside, so, fresh hair is a must. I get in the shower, letting the water fall over my face, relaxing every muscle in my body. I wash and shave. After getting out and drying off, I dry my hair. Pitch black hair, curling in various directions. Messy, yet hot. I start applying my make-up, making surprisingly no mistakes with the eyeliner. Once I am done, it is already 09:30. I get dressed and kiss each of the girls on the cheek, before heading out the front door.
The drive there is short, So now I am here at least 20 mintues early. Sighing, I put on the mask, and head into the coffee shop. Immediately I see people staring, I can feel their eyes on me. I feel a type rush, a sense of satisfaction rising in my chest. Like, yes, look at me, I am not what you call normal. Feel uncomfortable. I don’t know, this is a new experience for me. A blonde waitress approaches me, asking where I would want to sit. She seems nice enough. I tell her, that I am waiting for someone, so a table for two people. She smiles and leads the way to a small table, in the corner. Perfect, a little privacy is good, no prying eyes or the chance of people taking pictures. I sit down, and quickly decide on black coffee. I give her my order and she scurries off.
After a few short minutes she returns with my coffee and some sugar. I can’t help but think of Sleep Token every time I see sugar now. I laugh internally at my brain for conjuring the lyrics to Sugar at the sight of sugar. Thanking the waitress, I put two teaspoons of sugar in, stirring the black liquid. I lift my mask a little, taking a sip, careful not to show my face. Just as I put down, the cup, a hand catches my attention. It is unmistakable whose hand it was, because I only know one person who has a Halloween pumpkin tatted on their hands. “Death, I should’ve figured you were going to wear the mask.” I raise my head, smiling under the mask. Then I remember, oh yeah, he can’t see it. “Please, you get to call me, Y/N.” I nearly faint at the smile he gives me, but before that can happen he moves to sit down across from me. The waitress rushes over and quickly takes his order, a normal coffee with oat milk. “Why oat milk and not almond milk?”, I ask. The question seem to have caught him off guard, because his mouth opens and closes again, then opens and closes again. I laugh at this. “I, uh, I guess I just prefer oat milk over almond or any of the others”. He finally answers just as my laughter dies down. I know he can’t see my eyes, but he is staring right at them. There is something flashing in them, admiration, or something similar.
“You wanted to talk about the next tour, or a possible collab?” I say, breaking the silence, my voice sounding less confident than it is supposed to. He clears his throat before taking the coffee from the waitress. She bats her eyelashes at him, and immediately I feel a surge of jealousy rumble within. I don’t know why, because this is not a date, and he is not even mine. I shove those thoughts away, as quickly as they came, but it seems Chris noticed a shift in me. He remains polite to the waitress, but not taking his eyes off me. It feels like he is seeing me unmasked, it makes me shiver slightly. I can’t help the nervous feeling of the unasked question he is burning to ask. After the waitress left, I notice a devilish smirk on his lips, but as quickly as it appeared, it vanishes. “The guys and I, are in awe of your sound. The way you sang, it…it is…I actually don’t have the words for it. Point is, we are joining Hellfest soon, while working on an album”. He stops, maintaining eye contact. I take in his words, and I have to stop myself from just making assumptions, but I get the feeling that he wants me to tag along. “Where do I fit in exactly?” He smiles, a genuine smile, not one reserved for cameras and I swear my heart melts. “We, want you to join us for Hellfest, but also feature on a song or two for the album.”
Thank God for the mask, or he would have seen my eyes almost jumping out of their sockets and my jaw on the floor. “Wow, uh…I, uh”. I struggle to form words, as his request has left me in shock.
Chris’ POV:
She is staring at me, for a moment there is no sound coming from her and I feel my stomach flip uncomfortably. I mean, her saying no to being on tour for Hellfest, is gnawing at my insides. I guess she sensed my worry, because she reached out, and placed her gloved hand over mine. I look up at her, I can’t see her eyes but I know she is looking into mine. “Shall we discuss specifics about the tour?” Hearing those words sounded like something from heaven. If I believed in heaven. I feel a giant weight lift off my shoulders and huff out a breath. She tilts her head slightly, reminding me that she is expecting an answer. “Y-yes, we can discuss everything, as time goes on, as the tour will only start in a few weeks”. (Why the fuck would I stutter? It is not like me to get nervous about an up an coming artist. I have asked Marina and I have never felt this anxiety of rejection, ever.)
“I will share the details with you. I have everything in email. Also, if it is alright, would you mind coming home with me…to meet everyone?” I had to pause mid sentence, as the stubborn lump in my throat got bigger for a second. (Goddammit, Chris, get it together, she is just a woman, with the voice of an angel, no, a siren.). “Sure, I don’t see why not, but I am taking my car. I will follow you”. Again, the relief of her saying yes, washes over me. I smile and nod, “That’s fine. Should we get the check?” She looks down at her cup, then back up at me and nods.
After we paid, as we were walking out of the coffee shop, I couldn’t help but stare at her in awe. Cloak wrapped around her, mask perfectly in place, no skin except small parts of her neck – fuck, I want to wrap my hand around her throat, and leave so many marks on that delicate skin – (what is wrong with me…I just met her.) We walk side by side to her car, a classic – a ’67 Impala – she continues to surprise me. “This is me”, she says reaching for a pocket, I didn’t even notice, and pulls out her keys. ”Beautiful ride”. She opens the car, putting the key in the ignition before turning back to me. “Thank you… for noticing me”, she says as she takes my hand in hers. Even though her hands a gloved, I still feel the coldness of her hands. I frown slightly, quickly restoring my expression. She brings her and my hand to her mouth, kissing the knuckles softly. The mask is cold against my skin, but still the act made my breath hitch, sending my heart into overdrive. I feel a loss as she pulls back and lets go of my hand. I smile at her, “You were worth noticing”. It is all I say as I turn on my heel and head for my car.
She follows me to my house, I already know the guys are there, because before I called a meeting, we had agreed to hang today. Once we parked and got out, I had to warn her about the million questions the guys might ask. I move for the door handle, but it seems Justin had already sensed our presence or something. The door swings open and then before us is Justin, mouth gaping, frozen. "Move you idiot!”, comes Ricky’s voice, appearing next to Justin. “Uh…come in”. I hold back my laughter as Justin comes around, closing the door. “How the fuck, did you manage that?” Justin motions to her, his eyes still wide. I go to reply, but before the words can form, she answers. “He just asked”. Now this made Justin’s mouth drop even more. Now I laugh out loud. I move past her, putting the keys in the key-bowl. I grab her hand, not realizing it. I pull her, not saying anything to Ricky or Justin, they will follow. We end up in the kitchen, exactly where Vinny and Matt are. As soon as they spot her, their mouths drop as well. “ Alright, everyone… this is Death.” She gives a small wave and the next thing I know she speaks, “Hi, guys. I feel like this would be better, if you could actually see me.” There is a moment of silence, as I try to process what she said. She takes of the cloak first, then moves to her mask. As if in slow motion, her face reveals itself. Holy fuck, she is beautiful, like a goddess. Now it is my jaw’s turn to lay on the floor. I hear audible gasps coming from everyone else. “Fuck”, Justin silently mutters. I can’t stop staring. I notice how she is turning bright red, so I pick up my jaw from the floor and extend my hand to her. “Hi”. Such a simple word, yet I struggle to get the word out without sounding like an idiot. “Hi, I am Y/N”. She shakes my hand and my jaw almost drops again, at the sound of her name. It is such a beautiful name. “Y/N”, her name flows over my tongue.
She moves to greet everyone else, a huge smile plastered on her face. “I just want to say, how honoured I am that you asked me to join you guys. I have been a fan for such a long time. I mean, more like I am in awe of how you portray yourselves.” My cheeks heat up and I swear I can see the others’ turn pink. We get compliments all the time, but something about this one, makes me feel warm inside. Ricky interrupts the sweet moment of silence, “Thank you. Well if you’re going to join us, we should discuss the details, yeah?” Nodding she reaches into her cloak, pocket again, on the other side, pulling out a small notebook and then she takes out her earring.. It is one of those literal pocket size notebooks and her earring was a pen, a fucking pen!. She continues to surprise me, and I have the feeling she will be doing that for a very long time.
We all sit down at the table, as Ricky pulls up the email and the details on his phone. I notice how she fidgets with her fingers, as some of the black polish is starting to chip off.
Your POV:
I noticed how Chris’ jaw was on the floor, when I removed my mask. I don’t know how to feel about that. Was I not what he was expecting? Probably not, but it still kind of stings. Maybe he thought I am pretty, or maybe he thought I am average looking and he blushed out of shock? Pushing those thoughts down, I look at Ricky, he was about to give me the detail of the tour. I have my notebook and my earring - pen ready. “We are planning on leaving early, like around 04:00 the 7th. So you might have to come sleep over the night before”, he pauses, giving me a moment to write it down.,” You should also pack light, but enough clothes for a week, unless you plan on staying for the new album tour., he pauses again, looking at me, I nod at him once I finished writing. “The bus does not have a spare bunk, so I will switch out with you, you take my bunk and I take the couch. Also, you might want to restock you make-up or paint, it will not last through the whole week. During the shows, you will be backstage, we’ll get you fitted at the location, for in-ears and lastly, if you have a specific microphone you want to use, then you should bring it. If not, then we’ll provide you with one.” I scribble short versions of the details on my notepad, I glance up at him, “Anything else?”, I ask, ready to write. “Yes, uh, you will need to be added to our group chat. So we’ll need your number and if you have any medical stuff that the crew needs to know about, please send it on the chat, so everyone has it.
“Alright, then. Uh Chris, will you add me, here”, I turn a page in the notebook, and write down my number for him. “That’s everything you need to know for now, as time goes on we’ll discuss the recording of the tracks you feature in, as well as the videos and the tour thereof”. I smile at how quickly Chris types my number in his phone, I almost miss when Ricky says the last bit about the video and tour. “Perfect, I am so excited!”.
We spend the most of the day, chatting, getting to know each other. I mean that is kind of necessary, considering we’ll be stuck with each other for the next few months. Once it was time for me to leave, I place my mask back on and greet everyone, following Chris out the front door. He holds the door for me, shutting it softly once I made it inside. He gets in and immediately I can’t help but stare a little, it should be illegal for a man to be this hot. I am glad for my mask, because I am pretty sure he would see my eyes making hearts at him, like in a cartoon. I feel my cheeks warm up, when I feel his hand resting on my thigh. He is warm, almost too warm, and my body wants more of that warmth. His hand feels huge on my thigh, how would it feel to have that hand around my throat. My breath hitches, but my brain resets quickly and I hear him saying that we are at my place, thanking him again for everything, We get out and say our goodbyes, he's going to catch an uber back. I make my way inside the flat, making my way straight to the bedroom, then the bathroom. I am so sweaty after today, the cloak and everything, I just needed a hot shower. I start washing myself, but as I feel my loofa graze my nipples, the thought of Chris’ hand around my throat pop back into my mind. I trail my hands all over my body, imagining it is his hands. My cunt throbs as the thought of him thrusting his fingers inside me. A whimper passes my lips as I imagine how good his tongue would be. Trailing my hands over my breasts, pinching my nipples, before sliding lower, and lower. I let my hand wander down, until I reach my slit. I stretch my lips apart, before bringing my middle finger to rub soft circles on my clit. I gasp as soon as my finger makes contact. Feeling the fire stirring in my lower belly, I add more pressure on my clit, bringing myself closer to that edge, that explosion of pleasure.
I let out the most pornographic moan, feeling myself building and building, just as I reach the peak, I slip two of my fingers into me, pumping them in and out, feeling the fire burning more and more. Fuck just a little more, at one precise curl of my fingers, I moan louder, doing the movement again and again, to the mental image of Chris’ fingers doing it, until the fire inside me explodes, pleasure washes over me, as I come undone. I lean against the shower wall for support, as my legs shake from the aftershocks. God, I don’t think I ever came that hard in my life. I slowly remove my fingers from my now very sensitive cunt. I clean up and on unsteady legs make my way to the bed. I fall asleep quickly, dreaming about being on the stage.
#chris cerulli#chris motionless#motionless in white fanfic#chris motionless fanfiction#ricky olsen#ricky horror olson#justin morrow#vinny mauro#miw band
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Hear me out... Put Caramel and Emergence out if your thoughts AND go listen to Provider.
It is a song worth tearing up over, especially if you have a special person or if you found your soulmate in your life. It puts things in perspective of how you feel about them and how they feel about you.
I cried like a baby because the lyrics are just so pure and so honest. You can even hear the emotion in his voice. It is like he isxsinging this to someone specific. If that is the case..then I hope to god that he/she/they whoever it is, hears this song and realises it is for them.
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I thought I'd share this... I was in high school when I did these. For some years now I haven't felt very creative, so I haven't drawn ot sketched in a while.
And that's okay. We all go through dips where our creativity is just not creativity-ing. So I guess, what I'm trying to say is: Don't feel bad if your creative side is taking a break from the crazy life we all are living.
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Summary: This is a story about, Chris, Ronnie, Andy, Vessel and Noah. The reader gets pulled to do a feature with MIW for the anniversary of Reincarnate. As she goes on she meets the other artists, and they all end up falling for her, and she for them. They have to navigate a relationship and how they will all get along for her sake. But as always life has other plans.
!! All of this is pure fiction! I do not own any of these artists or lyrics and yes, some things will not be accurate as it is in real life, BECAUSE it is fiction. Some lyrics will be AI generated (original lyrics for the FMM) !!
xo-Please do not copy my work, you are welcome to repost and share a much as you want. Comment if you want. -ox
Warnings: language.
This chapter is solely Chris' POV, the other member feature and chime in regarding the woman known as "Death".
Chapter 2: Need to meet her
Chris' POV:
We're currently on a break, trying to come up with a new album. The previous one was fucking amazing. But we need something better than the last.
I am losing my mind here, trying to find the right sound for this album. These past few months have been rough with touring and performing and the 10th anniversary of Reincarnate coming up, it was chaos. In a good way. Before we kick of the anniversary tour, we decided to take a break, so everyone is with the partners or wives or girlfriends and I am alone.
It has been 2 weeks since the last tour. I have been feeling the loneliness more prominent, as all the guys have their forever person. I yearn for that connection with someone, but I am terrified to put myself out there again. I mean, anyone would be if they found the person they thought were their soulmate, cheating on them with a random guy from a bar.
Regarding this album, I feel I want to put a lot more emotion into it, along with maybe a little horniness imbedded there somewhere. I know there are many upcoming artists all over social media, maybe I should try to gain some inspiration from them. Reaching over to grab my phone, I start scrolling through YouTube shorts.
Nothing interesting or worth my time comes up, but it helps to pass the time. As I am scrolling a text from Ricky pops up. I open the text and all it says is "DUDE! Listen to this woman". And a YouTube link to follow it. Curious now, I open up the link. A woman, dressed in a black cloak with a skull mask and black painted hands appear. I turn up the volume and recognize the song from Bad Omens. Her voice fills the space, and I am instantly drawn. It is eerie but beautiful. I can feel what she is singing, the emotions flowing straight through the phone. I listen closely, as she sings. Fuck... that operatic note near the end, has me in a frenzy as I exit and find Matt's contact.
The phone rings a few times but he does not answer. Shit, I guess I will call again later. In the group chat, I tell the guys that we should meet and discuss a few things regarding the upcoming tour and the mystery woman behind the skull mask. Within minutes everyone except Matt, replies. We set up to meet tomorrow around noon.
Feeling satisfied with the outcome of the chat, I get up, heading to the kitchen and grab a glass of water. I can't get her voice out of my head. I pull up the video once again and listen to her voice. I notice her name, "Death". Now that is just something else that piques my interest. I go to check her channel, she has about 5 videos uploaded. One that grabs my attention is titled Porcelain. That's one of our songs, but it could be a totally different artist's as well. It is late, I should sleep, I can watch this one tomorrow or maybe play it to the whole group. Reluctantly, I get up, taking my water with me, reaching my room I feel the loneliness even more. Knowing there is no one to have great sex with or to just hold in my arms. I shake my head, head to the bathroom to brush my teeth and shower.
After a good shower, I get into bed, putting my phone on charge. I struggle to fall asleep, so I decide to play Death's version of "Limits" once more. I download and like the video, to make sure it's never lost. Her voice is calming, softly lulling me to sleep. At the end of the song, I can barely keep my eyes open. Locking my phone and turning over, to be consumed by the peacefulness that is sleep.
The next day.
I wake up with Ricky and Justin bursting through the door, Ricky tugging at my feet. "Wake up, you idiot!" With a very audible groan I flip him off and reluctantly sit up in bed. "You must be seriously fascinated by this woman to have all of us meet way before the actual meeting date". I get up, moving towards the kitchen, motioning for them to follow me. "Where's Vinny and Ryan?", I ask, just to be met with both of them raiding my fridge, bickering about whether they should do juice or soda. "Nevermind..."
"Rick, Justin, you guys want anything?" Both agreeing to juice before we start. "I will say this, I am still very much asleep, so excuse any rambling that may happen, or if I do not make sense".
I notice them all nodding. While Ricky is motioning, waving his hand for me to continue. "Alright, you guys know about the woman known as 'Death', right. I am pretty sure you all saw her video yesterday, if not, I am going to show you now." I open my phone, clicking on her video, everyone huddled together to watch the screen. Once more, her hauntingly beautiful voice fills the space, and I find myself even more in a trance than before.
Noticing how Vinny's mouth slightly hangs open, Ricky's brows knit together, Justin swaying slightly to the sound and Ryan, looks like he might cry. I know that I am not the only one captured by this mystery woman's voice, and the emotion that she lets flow through her.
As the video comes to an end, Vinny speaks first," Fuck". We all nod in agreement. "This woman, I don't know who she is, but she has talent that I haven't seen, only heard of. She makes you feel everything, she has a message, and I want to help get that message out to the world. I think WE can help her do that." I huff out a breath, raising my brows at them, looking for anything really. "You want to reach out to her?", Ricky asks, eyes wide. "I mean this could be really good, or it could go really bad, man. She might not even be legit. It may be all autotune and no talent."
Rubbing my face with my hand, "I know, but if this is raw talent, she needs to share this, she is just too good, not to. I know the risks, if it makes you guys more comfortable, I won't reach out through the band, but personally, meet with her before bringing her in?"
"That could work, when do want to do this?", comes Justin's voice. "I...Uh...today." They all nod, and well now I guess I have to figure out how I am going to message her and exactly what I am going to say.
"We're gonna hang here for a bit, I have an idea stuck in my head. You go do what you gotta do, and find us in the studio after," Ryan chimes. "Alright, I will then see you guys in a bit".
I walk to my room and immediately, start checking Instagram for her page. Finally, I find it, and open up the messages to send her a DM. "How the fuck do I do this?", I mutter to myself. It's not like I have never reached out to artists over DM, but why does this one feel harder. I start typing, "Hey, Death, I saw your video, and I have to say, you have amazing talent. I would love to meet you, and maybe talk about a collab or the next tour."
I hit send before I can overthink it and chicken out. Now all I have to do is wait, and hopefully she responds soon. I start my morning routine, washing my face, brushing my teeth, getting dressed. Making the bed, I hear my phone chime and when I look, I feel my heart leap to my throat. I walk out to the guys, picking my jaw up from the floor, "She's agreed to meet". All of their faces snap to me, their eyes widening as the words sink in. "That was quick. Man, you gotta be careful, alright. She might even be a psycho," Ricky says.
I know, I am going to pick a public place to meet, and I will send you my location, as well as keeping ya'll updated on the group". My brain has yet to catch up to the fact that I am meeting Death....well I guess this is one way of meeting Death, haha. I internally laugh at my silly little joke, shaking my head I plop down on the couch, before typing, "Fantastic! I can't wait to meet you. How about we meet at Urth Caffe for coffee, let's say tomorrow?" I send the message, and I see three dots appearing and then, "Sure, sounds perfect. I will be there around 11 am." I feel myself smiling as I read the chat, she is different. Death you have me intrigued, I think to myself. "11 am is perfect, see you then. :-)"
"We're meeting tomorrow, at Urth Caffe, at 11 am. I will let you guys know how it goes." I get a series of acknowledging sounds from everyone. After some time, the buys are leaving, saying our goodbyes and as I close the door, I can't help the giddy feeling in my chest. I am meeting this mystery woman, my heart feels like it is floating. I get dinner ready, just some simple frozen veggie dumplings. After I ate, I decide to listen to her just one more time, as I am in the shower, finding myself singing along, occasionally humming.
"This will be good", I say out loud. Getting out, drying off and making my way to the closet to fish out boxers. I fall down on the bed drifting off, with excitement bubbling in m veins.
#romance#chris motionless#chris cerulli#motionless in white#ricky olsen#justin morrow#ryan sitkowski#vinny mauro#miw band
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Noah and "This doesn’t mean anything." – "Then why are you holding me like that?"
Please?

CW: protected sex, p in v, friends to lovers, a little angst, a little fluff, and lots of feelings i guess?
🔞 nsfw below the cut, minors please dni.
You and Noah had always been close, right from the very start—laughing too much, leaning a little too close at parties, teasing touches that lingered longer than they should.
Everyone could tell there was something more than friendship between you, but you always denied it, brushing it off with timid smiles and awkward laughter.
That didn't mean it wasn't true, though—both of you knew it was, but neither dared to name or act on it. Maybe you were scared. Maybe it felt easier to pretend.
So when things finally exploded—after one too many late nights, after too many loaded stares—you made a deal.
“Just sex,” you said, already breathless against his lips, aching to be touched. “Doesn’t have to mean anything.”
“Yeah.” Noah agreed, smiling that crooked smile that always made your stomach flip, hands tightening around your waist. “Just friends having fun.”
It should’ve been that easy, that simple.
It wasn’t.
It never was with Noah.
And it kept happening, too—every time you went out with friends, every time you promised yourself you’d behave, you’d keep some distance—he was the one taking you home. Not because you asked him to, but because he wouldn’t let anyone else.
He’d watch you all night, drink in hand, that unreadable look on his face. Every guy that so much as looked your way for too long earned a dark, possessive scowl. Every time you laughed too loudly, leaned too close to someone else, he was right there, at your side—arm around your waist, pulling you into him like he just couldn’t help it.
You didn’t fight it, never stopped him.
And no matter how hard you tried to pretend you could keep it casual, pretend that it didn’t mean anything—your body always betrayed you the second he touched you. It was a dangerous game. Addictive.
So when the night ended, it was always Noah’s hand wrapped around yours, leading you out the door. Always his voice low in your ear, telling you to come with him. Always him pressing you into his bed, driving you crazy without a word, with just a simple look, a possessive touch.
Always him.
Only him.
Now you’re in his bed again—tangled up in messy sheets, gasping into each other’s mouths, your bodies slick and desperate. His hands bruise your hips, holding you down against the mattress like he’s afraid you’ll disappear if he doesn't, and he fucks you slow—too slow—dragging it out, savoring every second, drinking in every broken whimper he pulls from your lips.
Your forehead stays pressed to his, his nose brushing yours, breath hot and ragged, like he needs the connection. Like he needs you.
And you know you’re lying to yourself when you try to say this doesn’t have to be anything—know he is, too. Because there’s no way this is just sex.
Not with the way he moves inside you—deep, reverent, almost painful in his intensity, making sure you feel every inch of him with every delicious thrust. Not with the way his hands tremble when they caress your skin. Not with the way he shudders when you kiss his swollen lips, when you cling to him like you need him just as much.
You rake your nails down his back without thinking, wanting to claim, leaving angry red trails he hisses at—and he only fucks you deeper, like he’s chasing something neither of you can name. Your legs wrap tight around his waist, locking him in, greedy for more—for everything he’ll give you, for everything you’re terrified he won’t.
Noah groans low in his chest, burying his face against your neck, grinding into you so deep you see stars.
“Baby,” he pants, moans, voice wrecked and aching, “fuck, you’re gonna kill me.”
And you just hold him tighter, arms locked around his torso, fingers digging into the skin of his upper back like you can keep both of you from breaking apart if you never let go.
“Noah—” you gasp, overwhelmed, drowning in the way he feels—so hard, so thick, so fucking perfect it almost hurts.
You can barely breathe with how full you are, with how he keeps hitting that devastating spot inside you, rolling and grinding his hips like he’s trying to carve himself into your body permanently.
He curses low under his breath, the sound dark and desperate, and fucks into you harder—angling his thrusts until you’re crying out shamelessly, back arching off the bed, chasing every single wave of pleasure he gives you.
You don’t even realize how hard you’re clinging to him until he suddenly slows down to a stop—freezes there inside you, panting hard against your neck because right now, you’re holding him like he’s everything.
“This doesn’t mean anything,” you whisper before you can think better of it, voice shaking with the lie you don’t even believe yourself.
Noah pulls back just enough to see your face properly, the tip of his nose faintly brushing yours, his breath fanning hot over your lips. You see the flash of hurt in his eyes—feel the way his whole body goes rigid against yours, like you stabbed him right through the heart.
The way he looks at you—eyes wild, glassy, blown black with everything he’s feeling, searching yours like he’s begging you to take it back—almost breaks something inside you.
“Then why are you holding me like that?” He murmurs, voice rough and cracking like he’s barely holding himself together, and not from the pleasure alone anymore.
You open your mouth to answer, your chest aching, your heart pounding out of control, but nothing comes out. You want to deny it—to laugh it off, pretend his question is just a joke, a playful teasing because you're not holding him like anything.
All you manage to let out is a broken, needy whimper as you pull him back in with no hesitation before crushing your mouth to his, tasting your own desperation on his lips. Because that's what you are, both of you: desperate, aching for this, whatever this is, whatever it means.
Noah doesn’t say anything, doesn’t ask again. He doesn’t need to.
He just kisses you—hungry, demanding—before fisting a hand in your hair, anchoring you there while he thrusts into you harder, messier, losing the rhythm completely in favor of raw, frantic need.
He fucks you like he’s trying to fuse your bodies together, like he needs to erase the distance you just tried to create between you.
“Say it again,” he growls, voice wrecked and shaking, mouth dragging hot over your cheek, your jaw. “Tell me this is just sex. Fucking say it.”
But you can’t. You can barely breathe.
You’re so full of him—of this aching, overwhelming thing between you—that all you can do is cling tighter, shaking your head in broken, desperate denial. Because it’s not just sex.
It’s never been just sex, not with him.
Not when he touches you like you’re the only thing in the world that matters, not when he fucks you like it's the one thing he wants to do for the rest of his life.
Your nails scrape down his sides, leaving more red lines he won’t feel until later. Your legs shake around his waist as you moan, helpless against the way your climax is building—so fast, so inevitable—your body betraying you, loving him, needing him.
Noah curses against your skin, a broken, desperate sound, and drives into you even harder—grinding deep, pushing you over that sweet edge whether you want it or not.
You come apart around him with a choked cry, tears rolling down your temple, body shuddering violently with the intensity of it all, nails sinking into his shoulders like you can’t bear to let him go.
And Noah breaks right after you—buries himself as deep as he can, groaning loud and broken against your throat, his body locking tight to yours as he spills inside the condom, shuddering through every heartbeat of it.
Neither of you moves for a long, long moment.
You just stay there, clinging to each other, breathing each other in like it’s the only thing keeping you alive. Noah’s arms wrap around you instinctively, pulling you closer even though you’re already as close as you can get.
He leans in and presses his mouth against your temple, still breathing heavily but kissing you there with a tenderness that makes your chest ache.
A few more tears slip from the corners of your eyes—silent, overwhelmed—and Noah feels them. Without a word, he licks them away, slow and careful, like he’s trying to erase your sadness with his mouth, his touch.
His love.
His breath shudders against your skin as he kisses you again and again, temple to cheek to jaw, as if he still can’t get enough of you. All you can do is hold him back, hold him tighter, heart splitting wide open in your chest, because you know now, you both know—there's no room for denial anymore.
This thing between you, it’s not just sex.
It never was.
#noah x reader#noahsebastian#noah bad omens#noah sebastian smut#smut#friends to lovers#ahhhhhhhhh#i love him#i love it#more of this please
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Happy Monday. Who am I kidding, it's a Monday 🤣
Here is something-something to appreciate and to make your Monday a little better. xoxo
#andy biersack bvb#andy biersack#andy bvb#andy black#bvb army#bvb#black veil andy#andy black is hot#black veil army#black veil brides
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I will be adding my work on Ao3 as well!
https://archiveofourown.org/users/youngshane22
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Summary: This is a story about, Chris, Ronnie, Andy, Vessel and Noah. The reader gets pulled to do a tour with MIW for the anniversary of Reincarnate. As she goes on, she meets the other artists, and they all end up falling for her, and she for them. They have to navigate a relationship and how they will all get along for her sake. But as always life has other plans.
!! All of this is pure fiction! I do not own any of these artists or lyrics and yes, some things will not be accurate as it is in real life, BECAUSE it is fiction. Some lyrics will be AI generated (original lyrics for the FMC)!!
xo- Note: the FMC's character "Death" has nothing to do with the page or me at all. I just felt it would fit. Please do not copy my work, you are welcome to repost and share a much as you want. Comment if you want. -ox
WARNINGS:
painful past, self-doubt, language, mentions of divorce, rough past, tattoos, Sleep the deity. Will update as I go on with the chapters.
CHAPTER 1: The beginning of it all
Mic, camera, lights, soundboard, cloak, mask, paint. Everything is ready and set for your recording. For the last year, your best friends, Amy and Nica, have been pestering you to finally put your at home studio to use. You build the studio with the intention of using it, but you could never get past the voice in your head, telling you that you are never going to be good enough and that you suck.
Nica is brilliant with the soundboard and can mix sounds so well, so she is in control of that. Amy, well she, made your mask, she is some sort of blacksmith, but she'll never admit it. She claims that it is just a hobby and nothing more. But you have seen how excited she gets when she is around fire and metal scraps waiting to be turned into something new and better.
You love these two so much. They were there for you when you came to LA for the first time, after getting divorced. Everything back home went to shit, so you made a run for it. They befriended you at random, in the coffee shop just down the street. They were there for you when you almost died in that accident 2 years ago. They waited until the search party announced that you have been found. Those two, stuck by your side through everything. They are your family. Which is more than what you can say for the people you left back home.
So here you are, in the sound booth, waiting for Nica's signal to start. You glance down at your hands, the blacked-out tattoos over them making it seem like you dipped them in black paint, remembering the deity your saw. The one known as Hypnos or rather Sleep. He came to you as they were hauling you into the hospital after the accident. He said, and you remember those words clearly, "Rest now little one, for you'll need your strength." You have no idea what he meant, but after healing, you just knew you had to do the tats. Your whole body was covered in them, except your arms, neck and face. So, the blacked-out ooze like paint tattoo, is a nice contrast to your clear skin.
Out of the corner of your eye you see Nica giving you the signal to start. You are doing a cover of one of your favorite bands, Bad Omens, "Limits". The song doesn't show off your range, but it means a lot to you. You are not sticking to the original though, you are putting your own twist to it, just to avoid the possibility of getting sued by anyone.
Another signal, telling you to sing, and as you are singing, you can feel the energy in the room shift. Feeling your anger at your ex-husband, pain and tears that you have suppressed for so long, resurfacing. You just keep going, letting the music speak to you, move you and push you forward.
"If you're throwing me to the lions. You should know I am not scared of dying."
The words leave your mouth in a hauntingly beautiful tone, although your inner voice screams out for you to stop. Telling you that you are embarrassing yourself and no one will enjoy this. Through the mesh of the mask, you see Amy and Nica staring at you with their eyes blown wide and their jaws on the floor. Now you are even more conflicted. That voice again telling you that they are doing so in disgust and that they probably never heard someone with such an ugly voice.
"Well everyone's listening. And they know the difference. You're not failing our senses. But you're pushing my limits".
Dragging out the word limits to and operatic high note, before you finish off with the chorus. Reaching under the mask you wipe some of your tears that spilled over. Before you can properly breathe, you have 4 arms around you, embracing you. "What in the name of fuck was that?!" Amy takes your face in her hands, looking at you like you kept some big secret. " W-what do you mean?"
"Oh, don't act stupid, we've heard you sing before, this was... I don't know, I still have goosebumps. That was so raw and fucking beautiful!" Nica grabs your face from Amy's hands and takes of the mask. "You cried... this was pure emotion flowing through you. Sweetie, are you okay?"
"I am fine, I promise. This song just triggered some very deeply buried feelings, and it kind of felt good to let it out, in some way," you say letting out a sigh.
"Alright, I believe you, but now you gotta let me work my magic. This is going to break the internet," Nica says as she lets go of you face and scurries off to edit the video and the sound and upload it.
You smile softly at her joy. But the remnants of those feeling are still swirling inside of you. You need nicotine. So, you head up to the living room where your vape is. Deciding to watch something to distract yourself further, you take a drag from the vape and settle on the couch. Putting on Chucky, you feel yourself relax, the movie always makes you giggle, because of how unhinged the doll really is.
About 2 hours pass and finally Nica has uploaded the video to your channel, people will know you as "Death", you don't know why the name, but it just felt right. Amy plops down next to you, "Hey imagine one of your favorite bands reach out for a collab or a tour."
"Ha! Don't be ridiculous, but it would be really cool though." I your head you hear the voice laughing, telling you that it will never happen. "That will probably not happen, like ever." Right? There is a small part of you that hopes one of them at least sees it and the other massive part is absolutely terrified that they might.
Over the next couple of day, we recorded at least one song, and edited the video, posting it on all the relevant platforms. I was beginning to feel a little discouraged, as the videos didn't get many views. But Amy and Nica, kept telling me to be patient and to just continue to upload.
I woke up, Friday, with two very loud women screaming in my ears. "What the fuck, guys? It is .... 5 AM, fucking 5 AM!" Both of them jump on the bed, pushing the phone into my face. "Chris Motionless liked and downloaded your video of Limits!!", they both say in unison. No fucking way, that can't be. It has to be a fake account, right? Grabbing the phone, I check the page, and I'll be damned, it is his actual account. My breath gets caught in my throat as I start to set into panic. What if he hated it and decided to just fuck with me. No, he is too nice of a person to do that. But then again so is everyone when in front of millions of people. "Hold on, sweetie. This is good. You might finally get your big break that you deserve. Breathe, woman. This is good," Nica says trying to calm me.
I try breathing in deep and out slowly. Gradually calming down. I hand her the phone, falling back down onto the bed. "This feels weird, maybe I am just sleep deprived, but it feels unreal". They both cuddle up on either side of me. "This is real, and yes we should get some more sleep, but this was just too good to miss", Amy whispers to me. Nodding the three of us drift off once more.
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CHAPTER INDEX

This is going to be a long one! I will try and update as this as often as I can, because well, I am obsessed with this idea. I have no idea how the whole story is gonna go, but I think it will turn out good. Get ready for a rollercoaster of emotions as we go through the story.
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Chapter 1: The beginning of it all (You)
Chapter 2: Need to meet her (Chris)
Chapter 3: Meeting and plans (MIW boys)
Chapter 4: Arrival
Chapter 5:
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After the show
WARNINGS!!! - romance, implied smut, implied fingering, mentions of making you beg, sensual touches.
Noah’s POV
The moment she walked into the dimly lit backstage lounge, I felt it. That slow-burning anticipation, the kind that curled in my stomach like smoke from a lingering cigarette. She wasn’t supposed to be here—not tonight, not when my head was already a mess from the set. But there she was, standing near the door, eyes scanning the room until they locked onto mine.
I leaned back against the worn-out leather couch, dragging my fingers through sweat-dampened hair. The bass from the club floor still thumped faintly beneath us, a heartbeat to the night. She hesitated for a moment, then moved closer, her lips parting like she wanted to say something, but the words never came.
She didn’t need them. The way her breath hitched when I tilted my head told me everything I needed to know.
“You shouldn’t be here,” I murmured, voice rough from the show, from the adrenaline still running through me.
She stepped between my knees, her thighs brushing mine, the scent of her—sweet, dark, addictive—wrapping around me like a goddamn noose. “You don’t want me here?” she challenged, voice soft but daring.
I exhaled sharply. “You already know the answer to that.” My hands found her hips, fingers pressing just hard enough to make her shiver. Slowly, I dragged my palms up, feeling the heat of her skin through the thin fabric of her dress. “But you should know better than to walk into the lion’s den.”
She smirked, her hands grazing over my chest before sliding lower, nails scratching lightly over my abs. “What if I like the danger?” she teased, dipping her head to whisper against my jaw.
I growled low in my throat, my grip tightening as I pulled her fully onto my lap. The contact sent a sharp pulse of need through me, her body molding against mine, her breath hitching when I dragged my hands up the back of her thighs. My fingers toyed with the hem of her dress before slipping beneath, mapping the curve of her ass, feeling the way she shivered at my touch.
“You’re playing with fire,” I muttered, nipping at her bottom lip, my hands exploring every inch of her like I was trying to memorize her. My fingers slid higher, teasing, gripping, pulling her closer until there was no space left between us. The heat of her pressed against me, sending a desperate pulse of tension straight through my veins.
I dragged my lips down her throat, my teeth grazing over the sensitive skin. “You’re always so defiant,” I murmured, my voice a low rasp against her pulse. “But I know exactly how to make you behave.”
Her sharp intake of breath sent a wicked smirk curling at my lips. I tightened my grip, my fingers sliding between her thighs, teasing, pressing just enough to make her whimper. “You love this, don’t you?” I taunted, my breath hot against her ear. “You love when I take my time.”
Reader’s POV
He was intoxicating—Noah Sebastian, the man who set a room on fire just by breathing. The raw, untamed energy from his performance still clung to him, making every glance, every touch feel electric. I knew better than to come here, to put myself within reach of his gravity again. But self-control had never been my strong suit when it came to him.
His grip on my waist tightened as I leaned in, my lips hovering just above his. “You’re still in that stage high, aren’t you?” I teased, my voice barely audible over the music creeping in from outside. “Still buzzing?”
He smirked, his hands sliding lower, fingers skimming the curve of my hips before gripping my thighs with bruising force. “You have no idea.”
His mouth met mine in a kiss that wasn’t gentle. It was hunger, pure and unfiltered, the kind that stole the air from my lungs and made my knees weak. His hands roamed possessively, slipping under my dress, fingertips pressing into bare skin. A gasp left my lips as his palms kneaded my thighs, creeping higher, his grip firm, teasing.
My fingers curled into his hair as he pulled me against him, his teeth grazing along my jaw, down my throat. I arched into him, desperate for more, the ache between us undeniable. His breath was hot against my ear as he whispered, “Tell me to stop.”
I didn’t. I couldn’t.
His fingers traced the edge of my underwear, teasing, testing my limits. My breath hitched, a shiver rolling down my spine as he pressed his lips to the hollow of my throat, sucking just hard enough to leave a mark. “You like pushing me, don’t you?” he murmured against my skin, his voice low, dangerous.
I let out a shaky exhale, tilting my head to give him more access. “Maybe,” I admitted, my voice barely above a whisper.
He chuckled darkly, his hands tightening on me as he dragged his teeth over my collarbone. “Then let’s see how far you’re willing to go.”
Before I could answer, he gripped my wrists and pinned them above my head, his dark eyes locked onto mine. “Stay still,” he ordered, his voice a rough command. I bit my lip, heat pooling low in my belly as he dragged his mouth down my chest, hands roaming possessively over my curves.
Every touch, every slow, agonizing caress was a promise—a test of control, a deliberate reminder that I was completely at his mercy. He took his time, reveling in every little gasp, every tremor he coaxed from me, pushing me to the edge without giving me what I wanted.
“Noah,” I breathed, barely able to form words under the sheer intensity of his touch.
“Not yet,” he whispered, his lips brushing against my skin. “You’re not ready to beg me. But you will.”
Noah had always been a storm—wild, relentless, impossible to resist. And just like every time before, I let myself be swept away.
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Sorry I am late 🙈
Here is something-something to appreciate.
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xx- He's not acid nor alkaline. Caught between black and white, not quite either day or night. He's perfectly misaligned. I'm caught up in his design and how it connects to mine. I see in a different light, the objects of my desire. -xx
Have a little something-something to truly appreciate.
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