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yay new anamanaguchi song

(new album dropping soon)

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FINALLY, YOU ARE MINE MCQUEEN

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and its gone again

was like permeating contentment and earnestness for 4 days straight, nearly fell apart on thursday, and the same thing for 5 days before that

one bad event that disgruntles me and it’s straight back to the loop

one of the worse parts is i hate how i can basically sense it, when im pretty close to the edge of hitting that limit again, and i could tell last night, or i was accidentally confirming my own doubt

then again it’s my body that feels that sensation, rather than the mental, so it’s very disorienting to be able to tell which feeling is separately coming from somewhere

i get anxious about it, but I’d rather be honest to myself about how anxious i am than go “no, this is too embarrassing and brings me shame becus it shows I have issues”

like i need to maintain this image of “we be funny out here”, and don’t get it twisted, thats my lifeblood, my bread and butter

but it makes me too scared to interface with everything when it’s so bouncy

like i wanna post more under the context of the “self” things, without feeling the need to recontextualise it everytime because i don wanna make others uncomfortable

but also im me, and this page is me, and what i interact with is also me, and i have desires and expressions that make me, me

as much my anxiety begs to think otherwise (that guy’s doing his best, even if it’s in the wrong places sometimes)

now i gotta wait this out man

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bakushin bakushin bakushin

bakushin bakushin bakushin

bakushin bakushin

bakushinshiiiiin

bakushin bakushin bakushin

bakushin bakushin bakushin

bakushin bakushin

bakushinshiiiin

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michael vsauce has yet to fail in giving me the state of cerebral cognition and awareness of existentialism and the soul of life itself

also new video

what it’s about? pseudo-baked semi-interpretation time!!

what we, as people, were designed to do, and how we do exactly as we intended to do

what we, as people, will not be, and forever be

what we, as people, consider to be the future of our choices and whether any of it matters

in the end, have faith in yourself and live for what you want while you can

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slowly becoming radicalised into disliking quotes

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ALSO GET MY GOAT MR. BEATS GAMES UP TO 200K

HE’S RIGHT THERE

HE’S SO CLOSE

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I KNOW IM A BIT LATE TO THE PARTY, BUT AHHHHHHHHHHHH, I THOUGHT IT WAS TOMW

I CANT WAIT TO WATCH, I CANT WAIT, I CANT WAIT

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scare face century

a dynasty where scare faces rule the world

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AHHHHHHHH going through my old reddit account is giving me mental whiplash and a wave of regret

i didn’t even KNOW about some of the stuff i posted years ago, cus theres NO SHOT, id EVER post about some of the stuff there now (location concerns, the most personal/embarrassing stuff)

it’s like a recoil of dissatisfaction, that pit in your stomach like effervescently growing, that horrible icky regret of anxiety and having to be reminded of its existence

thank you years of self-help and months of counselling for helping the cycle pull itself back a bit

i CANT even like scroll back down to view the older posts (okay i can, but like no)

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omg wako

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im so sick right now, it’s awesome

heavy headache, runny nose, eyes are strained

could probably stub my toe and collapse in on myself to an infinitesimal size

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*ksshhhhzzz*

> “Sir, he’s boarding the ship. What do we do? Over.”

> “Fire at Will. I repeat. Fire. At. Will.”

> “Oh- un… understood?”

‘Sorry, Will. It has to be this way.’

*racks pistol*

‘W-wait man, you don’t-‘

*BANG*

don’t name your kids ‘Will’, folks

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this game so good, i think ive fallen for just the exact vibe it’s captured with the art style and the theme of the world (ty aggrocrab and landfall)

then the music, oh god it’s so relaxing and sometimes unsettling like BOTW going in and out, and the mechanics feeling off is near perfectly jank

AND LOOK AT THE GAME, IT CAN BE SO PRETTY

then finding JERM PLAYED IT WITH THE CREW TOO

god ster and poke are fucking funny together

i feel so bad for Vinny when he tries a bit and gets stonewalled by ster over and over

my man deserves better

can’t get enough of these guys

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roger moore pencil style

he looks likes he’s about string me up and hang me by my legs with a chain, and hover me over a pit of lava

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everytime I try to think of a post that just sounds like I’m freeballing it, I end up overthinking the heck out of it and psyche myself out

I be seeing like 30 different users a day on this platform and BK (Burger King) and go “holy shit that’s exactly how I wanna write stuff as a post”

and then I check how many posts they have and it’s like 5k and I go “well, I don’t really wanna put that investment in putting everything down… or do I?” AND I also don’t have that developed skill in being so nonchalantly human through words

so it’s this constant frustrated enigma that wants to over expand with thoughts, but be succinct enough that’s it’s like a tidbit of information

being concise isn’t exactly my strong suit too, and I would kinda aim to be more of the “Brevity is the soul of wit”

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they really be slammin’ YouTube with the 1 minute unskippable and 30 minute forever goin’

can’t even take a shower and let a video run anymore these days