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The ultimate couple quiz! Which couple was triumphant?? Watch my latest video collaboration with Larson Smit and Jamie Tecson! Subscribe! 💕

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Been wanting to try Mastermind Theatrical Escape Rooms - Manila? Here's my review of my experience! Watch the full video and subscribe to my channel!

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Get your sneakers on! Interested in knowing more about Sneakerfest 2016? Watch my video now and subscribe to my channel so be one of the first to watch my Sneakerfest vlog! (via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8HKCvMH5FL0)

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What was your message to your mom last Mother's Day? Here's mine! Watch it now and subscribe to my channel!

(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ccnQJS31jKM)

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Feeling Dejected

I’ve been feeling terrible since last week. Probably since Mercury is in retrograde. Or maybe because my body needs a break. Whatever it is, it gets me worked up especially for someone who desperately needs to be productive 24/7. 😂 (Says the yogi lol)

Because of this, I end up sitting with my thoughts, overthinking nonstop. Small things unnecessarily blow up to big things in my head and consume me. To the point that I can’t get out of bed. I hate that feeling of being weighed down by my emotions.

I think the biggest thing stressing me out right now is being judged or hated by people I know. It’s like I’m back to high school again.

Because of the person I am, my self esteem issues and my anxiety up to this day make me crave for validation and acceptance in unhealthy ways. Add the lovely social media world, it’s just disaster. I am unhappy that I am the way I am, but this is who I am and there’s only so much I can do at this point to help myself.

I hate that the opinions of others bother me so much. The mere fact that I even care about it gets on my nerves. In another world, I would have no fucks to give, but I am not in that world. 😔

All I’ve been doing to help myself get through this phase is remembering a few quotes which I hope can help you too.

・”Small minds talk about people. Big minds talk about events. Great minds talk about ideas.” - The reason why I share this is because there are times I want to be accepted into groups even when it goes against my values. Damned if I do, damned if I don’t kind of feeling. That’s why when this quote popped in my head recently, it was perfect. I felt slightly relieved to know that my intuition was right and it’s better to continue on my own path and avoid toxic situations.

・”Hurt people, hurt people.”- This quote helps me replace feelings of anger with compassion knowing that there is always a reason behind people’s actions and words.

・”Be the change you wish to see in the world.”- Always a favorite of mine. This reminds me that my actions, words, and thoughts should always remain kind and loving. Treat everyone how I wish to be treated.

・”Work smart, not hard.”- Helps me feel better to not be working 24/7. I can take breaks and rest every now and then and it’s okay.

・”In 5 years, it won’t even matter to you. You might even forget about it.”- This is another big one. In 5 years, I might not even remember this person. I might not even care about this situation anymore. When you’re in any crisis, just ask yourself, in 5 years, will you still feel the same way about it? If not, then just let it go.

Lastly, just reminding myself to trust the universe and what it has in store for me. Sometimes these events unfold out of my control. The best thing I can do is to process what I’m going through right now and I’m pretty sure in a few weeks, I’ll be feeling brand new again.

“Once you learn how to be happy, you won’t tolerate being around people who make you feel anything less.” 

Kate ❤︎

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Have you seen my last video? I shared all my favorites for the month of April! Go watch it now and subscribe to my channel because I've got a NEW VIDEO going live in less than an hour!!

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Which superhero am I?? Marvel? DC? Or a completely different one?? Think you know what I got, watch my video right now! Make sure to subscribe to my channel if you want to see more!

(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5d9VytVr6Vs)

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Since I wasn’t able to post yesterday, here’s a really quick update! Squeezed in  bit of inspiration incase you needed it today. Don’t worry, I’ve got a new video dropping this Thursday just in time for all the Marvel madness!

(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bXt1N84LNSU)

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My first fashion lookbook and it’s for SUMMER! What do you think?

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Now that it's summer, some of you may start feeling unhappy because of your body or because you're not doing much. Whatever the reason is, if you're not feeling that great about yourself, watch my latest video to make yourself feel a lot better!

(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=slpYYgkHV5g)

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I am so excited to go Trampoline Park! This is definitely a GREAT summer activity you can do with friends and family!

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(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tDnUMc-cGk4)

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**NEW VIDEO**

NEVERLAND x RAVEOLUTION 2016

WATCH ALL THE MADNESS GO DOWN AT MY FIRST RAVE PARTY!!

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(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=riEuLmfzVn0)

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MENTAL HEALTH BREAK

I took 2 weeks off from my usual internet routine to figure out some things and what to do next. So I started a 21-Day Challenge for myself. 

My ultimate goal for this chapter in my life is to regain control over my thoughts, emotions, and most importantly my depression and anxiety. 

I plan to do this by lessening my time online and only posting when it has to do with the Flawed Project. 

A ton of meditation and reading. Taking meditation breaks throughout the day to check in with myself will help me stay centered and calm no matter how stressful a situation can get. Finding the time to read more will be an important tool for me as I continue the Flawed Project(both on and off the mat).

Lastly, more mental health days where I don’t worry about teaching or work or the channel. Just taking a day off, no gadgets, just yoga, light reading, relaxation, and peace.

Each time a problem arises or when I feel like one of my demons are about to reappear, I have to pause and get to the root of it right away. Understanding the different sides of each situation and resolving it before it gets worse. Making sure to work on each aspect of my life, keeping it balanced for my own well-being.

Not only will there be changes in my daily routine, but also with The Flawed Project. I will no longer do the usual daily posts here. I’ll be moving all of that on to my Facebook Page. Over there you’ll get the same content, Music Mondays, Tube Tuesdays, Website Wednesdays, etc. I will post entries like this one here on Tumblr.

Hopefully I can keep doing 3 videos a week on my channel especially when December comes since I have a new project to take on. I will try my best to do so ‘cause the flow works for me that way.

During this 21-Day Challenge, it may be about control, but also of not resisting change. Relinquishing any effort and just trusting the unknown.

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Nobody knows. Nobody understands. I don't know whats right for me. I don't know what to do to make things better and to end this torture I put myself through. How do I not feel anything anymore? How do I numb myself until my depression finally goes away?

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Breaking down her body and self-esteem issues in the realest and most honest way. Go read her story right now.

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Happiness does not depend on what you have or who you are. It soley relies on what you think.

Buddah (via selenemooneffe)