forsakendevil

[forsakendevil]

If all there is in my life is pain, what is the point of living. I wake up everyday feeling like shit. The smallest things people do to me feel like betrayals. I can’t cope anymore. The pain is too much work.

[forsakendevil]

Why can’t people stay. It’s never their fault they go but I just wish someone could stick by me forever. I just want to know someone won’t leave.

[forsakendevil]

I wish I didn’t love people this hard. I want to let them go but if I do they’ll leave forever. I don’t want to place my faith in others because they have left me every time.

[forsakendevil]

I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp. I don’t want another fp.

This illness is ruining my life.

[forsakendevil]

This is too much. I can’t deal with all of this. Why did they all have to leave.

[forsakendevil]

[forsakendevil]

They’re completely gone now. I don’t know if I even care anymore. Yes, I once loved them with all my heart and they too loved me deeply, but their love has turned into resentment and mine to indifference. I don’t think I deserved this, although I don’t really know if that matters now.

[forsakendevil]

Does anyone love putting themselves in very stressful situations because the adrenaline rush is the only way they can feel anything anymore? Or is it just me?

[forsakendevil]

I hope i go to sleep and don’t wake up

[forsakendevil]

[forsakendevil]

Mood swings are so fucking dramatic. It is exhausting. One minute it’ll be like, life is so good I’m gonna live forever and I can do anything. Then it’ll just change to life is just endless work that isn’t worth doing and I should just end it now.

[forsakendevil]

Do you think about me as much as I think about you?

[forsakendevil]

Tell me, am I right to think that there could be nothing better

Than making you my bride and slowly growing old together?

[forsakendevil]

I’m so alone but I don’t deserve friends after what I’ve done. I didn’t want to but I’ve hurt them irreparably. I wish I could start again, but I would probably make the same mistakes.

[forsakendevil]

I just want to be someone's first choice

[forsakendevil]

No sé qué hacer. No quiero vivir más.

[forsakendevil]

Age check? (Sorry to bother if this is annoying, I'm looking for 19+ mutuals.)

Im 19 :)