#tw bpd vent

[rainywhispersblog]

[gh0stgirl-hotline]

Born to love cursed to be unlovable

[h0wt0neverst0pbeingsad]

[youwillleaveme]

sick of feeling bad and not being able to explain why.

like, idek where to start here

[youraverageventblog]

So what if it’s September?? I don’t give a fuck if it’s an awareness month, I’m still just as suicidal as I was in August.

[bunniibpd]

[opium-tears]

imagine having a friend that actually cares when you need them the most.

[pricklymuffinzzzzz]

Jokes I don’t think are funny,

Jokes about when mixed ppl don’t look mixed

Jokes about how “borderline” or manic someone is acting

Jokes about “the voices”

When someone jokes about how they haven’t eaten all day, like okay??

When someone jokes about another persons mental illness when they haven’t gotten permission.

When someone jokes about wanting to go to a mental hospital, saying “I need the vacation” “silly people vacation” etc, treating it like it’s not severely traumatic. Stop joking about that shit.

Oh and stop fucking joking about having ptsd, it’s not fucking funny, shut the fuck up

I can’t stop anyone from making these jokes but can y’all shut the fuck up sometimes? Like unless you’ve experienced it, when you have the trauma it’s funny. But when you just say that shit for fun it’s so fucking annoying.

[kittyobsessionn]

i hate having fps. i hate splitting. i hate having unstable relationships. i hate the fact nobody understands my issues with bpd and assumes im evil. i hate bpd being equated to being evil or incapable of being right or deserving of poor treatment or inherently manipulative. i am not a bad person just because i split. nor because i have mood irregularities, or because i have fps, or because i am easily agitated, or because i seek validation without even meaning to, or because i fuckin hate myself. its not my fault. every day i wish I wasn't like this, i dont like this. i dont fake for attention, i dont like having bpd, i dont use bpd as an excuse to be a shit person, IM JUST ME. im just me. bpd is a part of my life but it doesnt mean im some evil monster who hates everything and manipulates people. i have bpd, and its not going away, and neither am i. i deserve to be treated well, bpd or not.

[rainywhispersblog]

Can I throw myself off a bridge now?

[gh0stgirl-hotline]

It’s an an insane thing to realize you are completely and utterly alone in the world

[h0wt0neverst0pbeingsad]

😘

[youwillleaveme]

wanting to tear my fucking skin apart whenever i feel like they hate me

[youraverageventblog]

It really hurts when you realize you aren’t their closest friend anymore.

[bunniibpd]

[opium-tears]

i wish i could sh without it affecting other people.