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Lost and delirious

I had a writers block and even I was surprised that there are some lesbian moves with such beautiful writing and story that they inspired me to continue writing poems.

Some of the movies that were the most inspiring:

Vita & Virginia

Portrait of a lady on fire

Elisa y Marcela

The world to come

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I'm tired of waiting. Of spending vast amounts of time on nothing that could've been something worth living.

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Just a lil something I cooked up last night

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You know that feeling when you start to be comfortable with your name, the name you choose for yourself, and then someone you love makes fun of it? And then it doesn't feel right to use that name? Well fuck them. I won't give them the satisfaction of changing it just for them. That's me. That name is me. And you won't make me change my mind

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I Miss the kid me. The one with only happiness in their heart. The one who didn't yet care about what or who they are, and was just happy to be.

I miss the me I was before it all.

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unempathetic positivity post! reblog if you:

have low/no empathy

support people who have low/no empathy

have ever gone to the zoo and stood on one leg while looking at flamingos

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How ironic is it , that you're gifted with the power of speech yet you cannot find the words to describe what you feel

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Me: I think I'm sad..

Alexithymia: Are you?

Me:.. am I?

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hey fellow people who have alexithymia; has any form of journalling ever worked for you?

i've tried a few times, but i just end up writing physical sensations (usually the same vague ones) and concrete thoughts (in the event that i can actually put it into words outside my head). being consistent with it is difficult bc of uni, but i've been journalling on and off for the past eight/nine years and i dont think ive gotten any closer to making sense of anything or learning to recognize my emotions. idk if maybe i'm doing it 'wrong', but i'd love to hear other people's experiences

(sidenote; i cant answer replies as this is a sideblog, but i'll read them!)

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I feel like I'm a failure.

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sorry for throwing my hands in the air and yelling “yipee” when you leaned in to kiss me. can i still hit?

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I'm a simp for Bess Till

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So I'm rewatching Warrior Nun for the hundredth time. An it's still a banger

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YOU MEAN WE GET TO SEE THESE TWO IN LOVE AGAIN????

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Did I just experience the biggest gay panic ever? Yes. I'm still shaking, and the only thing she sent was her smiling! I'M SO FRICKING GAY!!!

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So.. they laughed at my new name. My friends laughed at the name I finally felt comfortable using. Now I feel stupid and humiliated and I'm not sure I made the right choice.