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[itslyranow]

Girl Too Hot (It was 27c)

⬆ I feel like my body is more in a place I want, I know its not the hormones yet- but I can push up my chest (with padding) and just kinda rock it. 💃

⬆ 6 laser sessions down. I'm half way through (in theory). I just need this stubble to be gone yesterday. Can't wait to go out without makeup x

⬆ I put my hair in a ponytail and it was a wild euphoria moment 💕

⬆ Thift shopping haul was great, got like 10 items for under £20 👗

⬇ Stubble Saturday. Day after laser, stubble was mega mega visible even under makeup... it was such a distraction. 🧔

⬇ Sunday was a TRAIL. I thought it would get easier after being able to tell the kids about my new name... but its gotten worse. There was so much mis-gendering, sparse corrections on pronouns and as always my parents were the worst offenders. I am sick of being called "Uncle Liam". If the adults don't get it right the kids never will. 😐

⬇ I need think I need to mention my parents that I've been on E for nearly 6 months... I've just been selling it as weight loss so far. Its gonna be awkward 😖

Progress

Week 25 of Lyra, Week 20 of hormones

Weight: 19stone 4lbs (2.5lbs/ 1kg off)

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Busy Weekend- I'm exhausted 💤

Hi Again- This week is a photo dump x I was out a lot 😂😂😂

Day 1: Meal Out

Day 2: Pride

Day 3: Date Night

The Ups and Downs

⬆ Loved my outfits this weekend- felt cute x

⬆ Done sooo much in a short space of time it feels like a blur, but I was constantly surround by the best people- love ya all x

⬆ Pride as always was worth while- great to see so many queer people and allies x

⬆ I was on local news at pride 😁 Not many people saw and comments on the official post had to be turned off due to hate- but I got to speak my mind x

⬆ Too much tasty food!

⬆ Weight loss is slowing but is still in the right direction.

⬆ Parents and friends were worried about me being safe while dating, that didn't happen before- was very fem coded.

⬆ I'm an inch shorter than when I started 🤯

⬇ The big one 😭 Someone walked into the bathroom when I was fixing my hair, they nearly walked into a stall before noticing me and running out looking afraid.

⬇ Messed up paperwork for my drivers licence had to re-apply.

⬇ Had some pretty bad dysphoria days- but I guess that's just being trans.

⬇ Tried to explain why the situation for trans stuff sucks in the UK- got hit with just a "thumbs up" react from my mum.

Progress

Week 24 of Lyra, Week 19 of hormones

Weight: 19stone 6.5lbs (1.5lbs/ 0.5kg off)

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I think I might like myself 💕

Girl is more and more herself everyday.

The Ups and Downs

⬆ I'm feeling more confident in my self- maybe a lil sexy too, still got body issues but its strange not to be ALL body issues.

⬆ I put myself out there to start chatting with strangers- and sure some creeps tired to get in touch but some lovely people did too, and I'm soo glad I did it.

⬆ Went over dressed just to hang with my friends but enjoyed it

⬆ Facial hair is so much more reduced than it used to be- thank you laser

⬆ MP listened to me- I doubt it will mean anything but we need MPs on side

⬆ Got a date this week? 😲 Will report back on it

⬇ Mum still avoids female pronouns? but gets the name right.

⬇ Dating kinda wild makes me feel anxious- dating in the female role is different, feels weird being the one to let other people down and to have options x

⬇ I'm anxious about what will happen when I get private prescriptions for gender stuff- how much it will cost, can I get the NHS to do shared care, will they try to reduce my dose... so many questions.

Progress

Week 23 of Lyra, Week 18 of hormones

Weight: 19stone 8lbs (5lbs/2kg off)

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Defeated The Hot Girl Summer Accusations

We got rain for like two whole days 😭 Hot girl summer is over I guess- lets try again next year. Happy Pride people!!! Remember pride is a protest- so make sure you are heard. In the UK we gotta fight to get our rights back- don't stop emailing your MPs and pushing for change.

So weird question if anyone reads this- other trans girls do you feel uncomfy wearing dresses/skirts. I love how I look in a dress but I think it invites more scrutiny of me and it makes me uncomfortable in public...

Like a few months ago I could only dress in dresses anything else felt too masc but now when I wear a dress I feel like I'm performing gender rather than living gender as no other girls I see really wear dresses or skirts day to day. It's just not common in the UK. Like I want to pass and maybe I've internalised some self image stuff due to wanting to emulate what I see in women around me.

The Ups and Downs

⬆ New Passport Obtained, provisional filed for, out to most of my clients

⬆ Was in the city all weekend, being in the city just feels better. Went to a lil queer board game café with a friend. Wish I was brave enough to talk to people.

⬆ Went bowling with my boys 💕 I got my ass kicked but had a great time

⬆ Met up with some friends I haven't seen in a while to get cocktails... It turns out I'm a lightweight now 🤯

⬆ Meeting with my MP and MSP on Friday- time to do some POLITICS. Going to go in with the perspective of educating them on trans issues and proving that the attitude against trans people is unfounded.

⬇ Dysphoria truck be truckin' this week, did not feel super fem all weekend and was quite self critical... Thank filters for existing

⬇ Not much weight loss progress this week, but I didn't eat/drink great so I just need to be better this week

⬇ Need to get my house back on track. t h e m e s s is returning, this usually is not a great sign. Just need to take some time to fix it.

Progress

Week 22 of Lyra, Week 17 of hormones

Weight: 19st 13lbs (1lbs off) Total weight loss for May! 10.5 lbs or 4.5kg Grand Total: 108.5lbs off or 7st 10.5lbs or 49KG or 28% of my starting weight 😁 BMI from 53 -> 37.8 Really low progress this month compared to all previous months.

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This Week In Lyra.

Hiii People, another week another update.

4th time writing this 😂 it gets worse every time... Stupid tumblr wouldn't save drafts or let me post.

The Ups and Downs:

⬆️ I hit my next weight loss goal. It's been great seeing progress. Life is change ✨✨

⬆️ I worked with my hairdresser to get better quality wigs also got advice for wig care 😘 spent a day unknotting some of my favourite wigs. 🪮

⬆️ I got some well fitting bras 🥰 I feel so supported. Sitting on C cups (Mostly man boob but I'll convince myself hormones are making a difference)

⬆️ Big week for trans paperwork. NHS know I'm a girl now. Passport has been approved. Ready to update provisional. 📝

⬆️ Had my psych appointment, we spent an hour talking about the state of the UK and agree I'm a woman- so next up is getting off DIY and onto actual medical care ⚕️

⬇️ I thought things would be easier dressing as myself and still being called "Uncle Liam" when the kids are around... Its still really hard. Hearing my family refer to me as a man to "protect" the kids. There is only a week or two left at least 😭

⬇️ The state of the UK is terrible. Like they are trying to segregate us from society and there are very few ways to even try to fight back. The people making the rules literally said they will ignore all responses except about how "clear" their guidance is. I DONT CARE HOW WELL WRITTEN MY SEGREGATION IS, I CARE THAT IM NOT SEGREGATED. This is making me a mess 🤬

⬇️ Had a massive fight with a good friend. Hope it is resolved soon as just thinking about it makes me really sad. 😭

Current Stats:

Week 21 of Lyra, Week 16 on hormones.

Weight: 20 stone/127kg (4.5lbs/2kg off)

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20 WEEKS OF LYRA!

Ups and Downs

⬆ As always having a great time with friends, loving being open as myself and enjoying the sun. A year ago I would of just avoided going out.

⬆ I cut new bangs into one of my wigs and it looks MEGA cute 😎 omg straight bangs are magic, gives me that alt girl look that I was missing.

⬆ My brother has told the kids and I can dress more openly around them, still not able to use my name yet but that is coming very soon 🥰

⬆ I am starting to come out to my clients at work!! No more hiding 💕 Lyra is out nearly everywhere.

⬆ I can really see my progress on weight loss 😲 Comparison images at the bottom of the post (only 4 months apart)

⬇ Finally comfortable enough to use woman's bathrooms, but thanks to the UK political climate I'm terrified to pee.

⬇ Still spend too long doom scrolling on anti trans stuff- I need a way to break free.

⬇ I'm awful at paperwork, thanks ✨ Dyslexia ✨ I failed to put in all the right stuff for my new passport AND I messed up forms to change gender with NHS- hopefully I've sorted it now.

⬇ Despite my brother letting me be more open around the kids- I still feel a lot of hesitance like he thinks I'm a freak. I hope it gets better with time.

I got my consult with a psychiatrist this week- wish me luck x

Gotta prove to them I'm a girl, wonder if I can just show them me writing a weekly diary 😂

Current stats:

Week 20 of Lyra Week 15 on hormones. Weight: 20st 4.5lbs (3 lbs off/ 1kg off)

Look at these process photos 😅 life is changeeeee

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Girl living her life- not much to report

Ups and Downs

⬆ Been feeling myself- just existing as my self in public 💃

⬆ I feel fine just talking to people in public now- I don't think my voice is fem but I feel like I can survive 👄

⬆ Makeup gets easier all the time 💄

⬆ My parents actually correctly named/gendered me for a whole visit

⬆ I've sorted a lot of the "trans bureaucracy"- getting my name changed in public places 📒 Still got more to go but most require original documents so I can only do them one at a time.

⬆ Girl can thrift shop now 😈 I lost enough weight that I can go into thrift shops and expect to find at least some clothes! It's sooo fun 💕

⬇ Today I feel awful 😂 I boy mode for work stuff still AND i forgot I was on an all day meeting today, I didn't have time to shave, use foundation to cover stubble OR EVEN shower 🤢 omg. Once work is over I think I can recover.

⬇ Misgendered in public a few times while presenting VERY fem 😡

⬇ I'm now very worried that any improvement on the trans rights situation in the UK will open the door to a Reform party sweep of the country. If the EU steps in to protect trans human rights- this is exactly what reform needs to rally more support, get power and pull us out of the EU human rights and trash all trans rights. I hate that I need to think like this.

Current stats:

Week 19 of Lyra Week 14 on hormones. Weight: 20st 7.5lbs (2 lbs off/ 1kg off)

🥳 🎉100 LBS lost in total, 50% to my goal weight!🎉🥳

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Girl back on her bullshit- reports claim she is unstoppable.

The UK is trying to control trans bodies and make us scared- bigots are pressuring them to over step their power and step on our human rights. I'm trying my best to not let them steal our joy- I am me, I am valid, I am loved and I love myself. The opposite of bigotry is love- and eventually love always wins- stay safe and keep fighting my siblings x

A tale of 3 outfits and 3 hair colours, if I'm going to be in wigs I might as well embrace variety 😈 Ups and Downs this week ⬆ As always my friends are amazing 💕 Spent a day in the sun with them on Saturday (outfit in second picture) and went to the cinema (3rd outfit), any time with my friends makes my life so much more enriched. ⬆ Had my gran and Auntie round for dinner, they were cute and affirming 😁 My auntie really wanted to try on my wigs, she has had issues growing hair herself. I got asked the most affirming question yet- "So when are you gonna have kids", I mean no immediate plans but it feels good to get the pressure to have kids like a cis girl 😂 ⬆ I am making amazing progress on myself, I feel more fem, I feel more comfortable being casual, I feel less need for HUGE amounts of makeup and over dressing ♥ progress is happening. ⬇ The political situation remains fucked, there is a chance passports etc might start getting handed out with birth sex listed separately for trans people- a potential amendment to an "information security" bill, they are attacking us in every way they can. In response I'm now rushing to update passport etc, hopefully I'm just over reacting but I'd rather have it than not. ⬇ I need to talk to my brother again about stopping boy mode around the kids, I'm so tired of being "uncle liam". Its been a few months but very little actual progress has been made. There is now a time limit I want to set- a big family party for my mums anniversary and I am refusing to show if I have to boy mode. So I want the kids to know and be comfortable with it before then. Hopefully my brother will understand and not be a dick about it.

Current stats: Week 18 of Lyra Week 13 on hormones. Weight: 20st 9.5lbs (5.5 lbs off/ 2.5kg off)

Total weight loss for April! 26 Lbs or 1 Stone 12lbs or 12KG Grand Total: 98lbs off or 7 stone or 44KG or 25% of my starting weight 😁 BMI from 53 -> 39.5 (I don't personally agree with BMI but its used to gatekeep medical are in the UK so I gotta keep track of it) Thanks for reading 💕 hug your local trans/NBi person- they deserve it.

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She tried to consult on the initial supreme court ruling and got refused- only TERF groups were brought in to consult. This is the sort of advocate we need, a trans woman who can speak to power on their level. I wish her all the best <3 The EU human rights commission are what forced the UK to give us the ability to change our sex and get legal protections in the first place. They are best placed to help up get it back 💕

The UK’s first trans judge, Victoria McCloud, brings action against the UK and has appealed to the ECHR over the Supreme Court ruling.

Source.

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Shout this from the fucking rooftops, the posted this quietly- it's barely had news coverage. They are stealing our access to ALL GENDERED PUBLIC SPACES AND GROUPS.

Be mad, get political, fight for us. 💕

The new EHRC interim guidelines are legally wrong, bigoted and a huge overreach.

Write to your MP (again?!). Expose all this for what it is.

We have updated our thoughts on what you might say to MPs in your email.

KEEP WRITING! KEEP SHARING!

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Now I've done my political rant- time for the actual update <3 its hard out here sweeties.

This week HAS been hard, I'm trying to focus on the positives and keep moving forward- we can't let bigots steal our joy. (link to my political post about what's currently happening in the UK - it has gotten worse)

Ups and Downs this week ⬆ I felt comfortable using a shared woman's bathroom for the first time, its a mile stone. ⬆ I went into a makeup store and got help finding a better matching foundation. ⬆ I had my first appointment at a gender clinic and got a diagnosis- this can open a lot of doors. One step closer to stopping DIY. ⬆ I had a two girls ask me for fashion and make up advice and it was very validating <3 ⬆ I think I'm getting better at holding A voice consistently, Idk if its a passing voice but its something. ⬇ The political situation in the UK is fucked and coping with that is hard. I have spoken to sooo many trans siblings who are struggling. I am taking political action because the only other choice is despair- and I'm not going back. ⬇ A parent behind me on the bus home from seeing my friends was talking to his child about me (child was trying to see my phone and bug me) but the parent says "Stop bugging HIM", "Stop trying to look at HIS", I felt like I was really passing well in that moment. The images this week were how fem I was presenting- asshole clocked me and wanted to make me hurt I guess.

Current stats Week 17 of Lyra, week 12 on hormones

Weight: 295lbs/134kg (5.5lbs/ 2kg off)

Under 300lbs for the first time in a long time 💪

Thanks for reading 💕 hug your local trans/NBi person- they deserve it.

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DRAFT UK EQUALITIES COMMISSION GUIDANCE THREATENS TRANS LIVES

This is not my usual weekly update and talks about potential upcoming law changes that will ban UK trans people from public life- more people need to know about this- I have no idea how to do activism on tumblr but please reblog this. I thought two weeks ago would be a low for trans rights in the UK, being defined out of woman hood really hurt but now to see how the EQUALITIES commission is interpreting it- trans people in the UK can't just sit down anymore we need to fight and that sucks. They tried to keep it low key but the Equalities commission released a draft ruling that will (among other things): BAN ALL TRANS PEOPLE FROM ALL GENDER ALIGNED SPACES EVERYWHERE, Including bathrooms, changing rooms, hospital wards and RAPE CRISIS CENTRES

Will make any facility that does include trans people either: Become a sex neutral facility and loose equality act protections OR be at risk of being sued for breaching the rights of women/men. So if a business does choose to be accepting of trans people- they are opening themselves up to a law suit or they have to make all bathrooms/other gendered facilities gender neutral.

Force any group that has 25 or more people and is intended only for men or women to ban trans people not of that sex or be at risk of lawsuit (unless they make the group include everyone and loose legal protection from the equalities act). This bans trans women from lesbian groups and trans men from gay groups- and means that gender based support groups cannot allow trans people. trans children will be banned from accessing facilities matching their gender in school. It also makes most existing swimming pools etc break the law, as they tend to be mixed changing and currently don't have "lockable rooms (not cubicles)" which means most public facilities would have to be completely rebuilt to meet these crazy standards. This is just a sample of the over reach, this completely destroys freedom of association for trans people, groups and businesses. It forces segregation at threat of legal action and it needs to be fought.

A consultation about this guidance will happen in a few weeks and trans people NEED to speak out in force about how this will hurt them (it will hurt cis people too). This equalities commission is a joke- it stands for bigotry not equality. We are a community, we gotta stick together. This ruling IS illegal and against our EU human rights (we still have those) and can be fought if it goes into effect- but with enough political effort we can stop it before it gets that far. I have contacted my MP about this and encourage ALL UK trans people to do the same. Here is a draft of my letter if it will help 💕

I have decided in all this, that I will fight for my rights. I won't let them be stolen, and if they are stolen- it wont change how I live. I would rather live as a criminal than die a statistic.

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Despite everything it's still you.

Time for another weekly update!

THIS GIRL JUST SPENT THE MAJORITY OF LAST WEEK SPIRALING (ABOUT THE SUPREME COURT RULING)

I'm glad I write these on a Monday as I think I've finally found a decent way to cope with it- I'm not gonna let the government keep me from public life and im not going to let phobes steal my joy. I am a woman, I will use spaces I choose when I'm ready and fuck any and all consequences that may be made up in the future. But I did post a lot of rants over social media and discord and had to help console a lot of other trans people who have lost rights.

We gotta stand together and say- fuck you Joanne you miserable piece of shit. 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️

In less political news- I finally learned how to feel comfy while dressing casual :o which is a win, I can just dress like a normal girl and still feel valid. 💪

I had my 3rd Lazer sessions and progress seems hopeful 💕

I cleaned out my closets and got loads of boy clothes ready to donate to charity. Organised and stated hanging my wigs too.

Had a few days where my makeup was ON POINT (in the pics)

My gran is a sweetie who always gets my name and pronouns right!

I had my first session at the private gender clinic today!!!! So I'm making moves. The clinic did tell me I had to lose another 50lbs (23kg) before they will give me hormones the right way, which was a blow- but I got my DIY to tide me over in the mean time.

So that's about it 💕 such a busy week- I imagine the next will be quiet (I hope)

Current stats

Week 16 of Lyra, week 11 on hormones

Weight: 21 Stone 6.5 lbs (5lbs off/ 2kg)

So close to being under 300lbs, but I'll celebrate that next week 💪

Thanks for reading 💕 hug your local trans/NBi person- they deserve it.

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To my uk trans people and allies out there.

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Life is change and I'm loving it.

Another week down and this one was great! I had my best makeup day of all time 😲 (first photo) I had an amazing weekend hanging out with friends in Glasgow for horror con as myself and I could not stop smiling. All my friends are amazing 💕 I love them. Had my parents round for dinner yesterday- the food was great (I CAN COOOOOK) but my parents are still not doing a good job adjusting- frequently dead naming me and not even attempting to correct. My dad eventually started correcting himself when saying my name wrong and *eventually* called me Lyra twice. I'm just hoping they will get better soon. Low weight loss week, but I did too well last week so not complaining and had some hard moments too- its becoming harder and harder to boy mode around my nieces and nephews. Especially since my youngest niece (just turned 2) only just learned to call me "Uncle Liam" and point at pictures of me in my parents and say my deadname and its heartbreaking. Current Stats

Week 15 of Lyra, week 10 on hormones

Weight 21 stone 11.5lbs (2.5 lbs / 1kg off)

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I nearly forgot to make a post :o

Better get it in quick before it's late.

Had alot of fun with fashion this week, I think I might actually have style 😂

I'm getting more confident in myself every week and though transition stuff is hard and every other day feels like a catastrophe. The journey will get me where I need to go. 💕

Life is change, and I'm living it.

Current Stats

Week 14 of Lyra, week 9 on hormones

Weight 22 stone (7.5 lbs / 3kg off)

Lost 20% of my body weight!

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Happy Trans Day Of Visibility <3

It's Monday and trans day of visibility to I thought I'd be proud of my progress so far 🥰 I trapped myself in a closet for 10 years, it was hell and I destroyed my body. Since accepting myself, I've been able to love myself more and lost over 70lbs of depression weight. Its never to late, you are never to old/ too fat/too anything, you can be happy <3 its hard work but its soo worth it. First photo is me a year ago, next photo is me later in the year before coming out and last four are changes since coming out.

Also went to a pride march at the weekend, was amazing to see so many other queer people at Trans pride Scotland <3 Can't wait for next year to go again and be even more myself!

Current stats: Week 13 of Lyra Week 8 on hormones. Weight: 22st 7.5lbs (6.5 lbs off/ 3kg off)

Total weight loss for March! 19 Lbs or 1 Stone 5lbs or 8.5KG Grand Total: 72lbs off or 5 stone 2Lbs or 32KG or 18.5% of meeeee.