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writing smut in a fancy font pretending I'm writing scripture

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james had an old camcorder. every time something happened he would whip it out and film a video for the future.

"hey kids, it's your dad, and the date is april 14th 1976. your uncle padfoot still hasn't confessed, but i think he will later today!"

slowly this became "hey kids, it's your dad. it's 3am because your uncles won't stop BEING LOUD. one day you'll understand; we can discuss the birds and the bees together."

"hi honey, it's your dad james here. i don't know if i'll ever get to meet you. i haven't been feeling myself lately. it's not fair how your uncle remus has it all figured out."

until one day it was "hey kids, i think i met your dad. say hi regulus!"

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Voldemort: Where's the horcrux, Regulus?

Regulus: woudnt you like to know weatherboy

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no one's doing somnophillia anymore

because of woke

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We have to start by being honest. Being in Harry Potter fandom sustains the visibility of the IP. That’s just the truth. Even if you’re not spending money. Even if you’re just reading fic, or making playlists. You are still part of the reason WB thinks this franchise has cultural power.  We think we’re just vibing in fandom, but they’re watching (and there’s this odd sense that this is somehow an underground movement). The WB marketing execs measure every post, and what they see is market potential. That’s why the official WB TikTok teases Wolfstar (and teasing is the operative word because in places where openly queer relationships are illegal they need to have plausible deniability so they can still flog merch there),  they know there’s a market here, and they want to tap into it.

I say all this as someone who came back to fandom during the pandemic while I was looking in the abyss of my soul via EMDR, and who escaped to the HP universe during some of the worst years of my life. I’ve made friends here, and this space has been so nourishing for me. 

But none of that changes the truth: this is a morally grey space, and pretending it’s not is intellectually dishonest.

Just to add nuance, being here doesn’t make you evil (it doesn’t mean you support JKR’s views), but it does mean you need to hold that discomfort. And that work goes way beyond having “fuck JKR” in your bio or writing x character a wearing  eyeliner (your shipping opinions are not activism and your reimagined canon isn’t a shield). 

Because if you’re still here (and I include myself in this) you need to ask yourself: what am I doing in real life? Not to "offset" the guilt, not as performative atonement, but as a reflection of the values you claim to hold . Are you standing up for trans people in your personal life? Are you donating, sharing resources, pushing back in your workplace or your family? In the UK are you lobbying your MP to challenge the high court decision? There’s a myriad of real-life things you can be doing. 

You don’t have to leave fandom. But you don’t get to pretend it’s harmless, either

i get this but like what do you want me to do

i just love my boys

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Cabin fever chapter 3 when 🥺

these are the questions we’re all asking…

hopefully so soon!!

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Hey star! So I have been reading your Hold My Hand fiv on Ao3

ABSOLUTRLY AMAZING HONESTLY BETTER THAN HARRY POTTER AHSHHDBDHDBGDHN I LOVE IT

Anyway, saw your most recent post from your boyfriend and I hope you’re okay/feeling better! Take the time to get well, and while we’re all hoping for the next chapter, no pressure.

Just wanted to say how amazing it and you are!

hiii!!! honestly your asks and your comments have got me through this little slump i’m in i love you so much! but one thing that bugs me is what should i call you??

AND OMG BETTER THAN HARRY POTTER??? it’s truly an honour tysm

i’m feeling better now my boyfriend has definitely helped and i can’t wait to write the next chapter and get it out!!

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hey I absolutely LOVE "hold my hand" the writing, plot, and little add ons are js so perfect. Can u tag me in updates please?

seeing as i’ve decided my hiatus is over IM FINALLY REPLYING TO ASKS ive seen them and i always feel bad ignoring them :((

first of all THANK YOU!! and of course i can tag you, it would be my pleasure!

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HI GUYS bet you thought i was dead but im not!!

don’t worry i haven’t abandoned you, i just haven’t had much motivation but hopefully hopefully hopefully im gonna be uploading more and potentially writing some chapters….

i really led you guys on with chapter 12 huh :/

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Petition to call Bartylus “Crack” (Crouch + Black)

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hello everyone this is stars boyfriend leo!!

star is having a bit of a break rn (if you can’t tell) so chapter 12 will be a little while

BUT YOU SHOULD STILL BE HYPED FOR IT CUZ I HAD INVOLVEMENT IN THIS CHAPTER

anywayssss

thanks and adios

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okay i really really don’t know what’s up with me but it’s gonna be another week :(

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i'm actually the worst writer in the world i swear

hold my hand chapter 12 is not gonna be out today :( BUT!! i am gonna try to get it out asap, and hopefully it'll be during the week and chapter 13 can be as scheduled (so next sunday)

literally feel so bad i've become so unmotivated

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wolfstaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrr

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on a date rn #literallywolfstar

not strictly marauders but i feel like wolfstar right now because i am so in love with my best friend and i have no idea what to do about it

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red string of fate chapter eleven!

this took two weeks but in reality i only wrote it in two days. why? i don't fuckin know.

in 'elixir of euphoria' we have many jeggie interactions, so it's actually becoming a starchaser fic! finally!! AND A CUTE ONE!

you have this chapter and then the next one of very little angst, because chapter 13 is crazy. it's gonna be wild. so savour the cutesie chapters while they last, cause after chapter 12, you're not gonna get that for a while. apart from maybe one i'm not sure.

also i upload every sunday (this week is not a good example)

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after two weeks of procrastination and love and just life generally- i am writing chapter eleven!!

i also realise there are people who see these update posts and have no idea what i’m referencing, so imma start linking hmh which is right here