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Many people are noting that Nimona isn't very subtle about its message and themes (cue the rainbow breathe weapon). And you know what, I think it's awesome. We're used to thinking subtlety is good, and even queer people frequently agree that queer stories should be "well made" and "not too preachy". That's not wrong in itself, but here's the thing: after spending millennia as "the love that dare not speak its name", we desperately need stuff that isn't subtle, but loudly, blatantly, obnoxiously queer... AND well made, because these are not opposites. Subtlety for its own sake becomes just another closet. After realizing it, I won't be comfortable writing queer subtext anymore -- not until I see queer text become commonplace.

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i am normal and calm and definitely not crying right now

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Trans magic comes in all shapes and sizes for this piece the unicorn represents trans fem individuals with the last unicorn being a big inspiration as it focuses on women hood and transformation. The lavender wolf is meant to represent transmasc folk as wolves are often associated with leadership roles and masculinity(plus I just think their cool lol). And if you look above them you’ll see little white butterflies meant to represent the many identities that fall under the trans umbrella that add to the magic of queer life. I thought the colorful surroundings would be a nice metaphor for the queer community embracing these identities.

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Made a fake fantasy add for a publisher this week and wanted to share

#dnd #dungeonsanddragonsart #dungeonsanddragons #dungeonsanddragonscharacter #fantasy #witch #witchart #spooky #magic

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UP FOR SALE ROTTMNT STICKER’S

I’ve been working on setting up this shop for about a year now and I’m so happy to share my work with you all please be sure to check out my Etsy and see if anything catches your eye :)

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ROTTMNT HUG FRAME SHIRT

A cute screen shot from rottmnt but on a shirt! Shout out to my friend Ari for modeling these they are a real one and absolutely ate this look <333

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ROTTMNT DONNIE SHELL T-SHIRT

Hey everybody, I made these rise of the TMNT T-shirts a while ago but forgot to post them here feel free to check them out. 

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Eyestrain warning!!!

2012 Transmasc don and transfem Leo is so so so important to me they live in my brain all the time,,,,

anyways happy pride 😚😚

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The neurodivergent urge to do this

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“Things have changed for me & that’s okay”

This pride I wanted to regale you with the tales of my journey into discovering my man hood and the truth is I’m still figuring it out, and I’ve realized even cis people are still figuring out what their gender identity and self expression means to them. I’m so proud of this community and what we’ve accomplished this month so far raising money for the black trans advocacy organization, bringing in some kind of camaraderie between my cis and trans community, and not to mention the wonderful art work I’ve seen popping up. This is my final piece in the series being a clear panic at the disco reference from their pretty odd album growing up I listened to panic at the disco so I’m a bit nostalgic for this album when I re listened to it again this year it made me think about my own experience how when you transition you grow as a person you change and evolve becoming a better version of yourself. Personal growth comes in all shapes and sizes but this year has really put me to the test and shown me I am made of tougher things that I know it has show me who my real friends are and what unconditional love really looks like. I honestly wouldn’t change anything about the past six months I think I had to learn these hard fought lessons to become the man I am today and be the person other people might need in their corner. To my younger trans audience I’d like to say I know your troubles well these growing pains that keep you up at night and worries are valid I want you to feel those emotions and find an outlet for them. Remember it’s the little victory’s that make all the difference and you don’t feel pressured to have all these changes at once I want you to take you time and savor the moments that make this life worth living. You are a wonderful creation of the universe and you deserve to be seen and heard you deserve to take up space and be loved and most importantly you deserve to be yourself and love who you see. I hope you all are doing well this pride please be kind to yourself and others and I hope to see you again next year.

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TW FOR BLOOD, GORE, BODY DYSMORPHIA, AND BODY HORROR

“Brutus”

I believe good art is made in the mits of turmoil but better art is made when you can understand why that art was necessary to escape it. When I made this piece It was the end of the semester I was stressed out and overstimulated out of my mind not to mention people were being just cruel to me with my own male peers trying to knock down my masculinity to prop themselves up. That week I was on my period and the heavy smell of blood and tissue was horrific to me as I tried to explain to my support systems how triggering this was for me I was told “nobody likes being on their period”, “if you just got back on birth control (estrogen) it wouldn’t be so bad”, and “your being dramatic”. These comments chipped away at me so I had to show people what it was like for a new trans man to deal with my dysphoria alone and have no way of stoping my body from doing something considered so feminine. It’s not secret I’m a huge horror nut with this piece being inspired by silent hill’s body horror I wanted to make this image feel like the piece was unnaturally breathing oozing from every line. I don’t want to scare my fellow trans masc’s when I made this I was in a bad place but it was necessary for me to realize that my body is not my enemy, like your body and every cell in you is constantly working, dying, and rebirthing for your survival. Every breath you make is a choice a conscientious decision to keep fighting even though it may not feel like it you are a beautiful purposeful decision from the universe you are right where you need to be. I think it’s the most wonderful thing being trans because we are the lucky few who get to actually feel our own creation and explore our own self realization, how wonderful is that.

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“Easier to be angry than patient”

When I was making this I found myself angry that I couldn’t find any gender therapist or doctor that would respond to my emails for care in all of my city. I would shower looking up telling myself “it’s just like heights don’t look down and you’ll be fine” only to sink into bed and feel icky that I could see my cleavage those nights were the hardest. I found it difficult that I couldn’t depend on my support system to talk about these things with me about starting a fight and couldn’t find adequate Trans healthcare to alleviate this dysphoria. I thought if only I looks like a boy if I sounded like a guy people would not miss gender me so much people would be kinder if I could just blend in with cis gender society, this was a course a delusional fantasy but one that kept me up at night. I would tell myself it’s easier to be angry then patient because transition takes time not only for yourself but the people around you, still I found this “I have no enemies” approach failed me time after time. This piece represents the pinnacle of the fight against my dysphoria that I know now would grow into a festering depression and resentment for myself and others. I’ve now learned to be kinder to myself that my body does not dictate my being or brain “I think therefore I am” type attitude. For my fellow trans brothers and sisters, I feel you and I hear you this dysphoria thing blows but do not let it determine your day you are not your thoughts. You deserve to be loved and acknowledged for all you are even if you’re still questioning your gender identity you deserve to be loved so love the kid you used to be, love the person you will become, and love the person that you are today. Because you are one in a million a precious jewel hand sculpted and chiseled by the universe itself do not treat yourself as any lesser regardless of your physiology, your biology, or your spirit you belong here just like the rest of us and you deserve to take up space and be cherished.

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“Bathtub testosterone”

This piece was kinda my magnum opus being the climax of my SI I wanted to depict all of the tinkering that goes into transition by showing some of my and other trans mens insecurities. I Displayed this through my gushing love of horror and Frankenstein literally becoming a self made man by stitching my own top surgery, sewing on a mustache, and plucking out eyelashes because “I look like a Disney princess”. This piece came to me when me and my trans sister were talking about places I could get hrt and at the end she brought up “bathtub testosterone” this word come from the old process trans women used to do where they would make their own estrogen in a bathtub. The idea intrigued me with this mad scientist angle I could take showing me physically changing my body being that trans health care is extremely inaccessible where I’m from. Im hoping to get a job, set up my own business, or get some commissions soon so I can afford to start saving up for hrt with the idea of being able to go through with this and medically transition one day all the more exciting. btw I’ve been submitting my old portfolio to competitions so hopefully my actions have no consequences haha

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“Michael”

You know one of the best things about being trans is that you get to pick your own name I chose Michael because one it’s a proper Mexican man name in honor of gods strongest soldier an angel meant to protect and defend those who need it (and two I chose it because of fnaf but that’s not the point). When I came out as Michael two weeks in I had a gender identity crisis that forced me to call my manliest guy friend I know/ honorary big brother, and when I told him my plight he explained to me “changing your gender isn’t something you do on a whim but if it feels right to you go for it”. I asked how will I know this is positively what I want he told me “it’s just a leap of faith that’s all it is” the idea of trusting my instincts lead my gut to the decision that this was something I wanted to go through with. Little over six months later and I’m still a guy I’ve been through the worst of it and I’ll get through to the best of it too I ain’t gonna lie it gets hard out here with all these folks testing me but when I remember I’ve got homies in my corner who look out for me I feel safe. I don’t know where I’m gonna be in 10-20 years hell I don’t know where ima be in 3 months but I know I’m trying my hardest and doing what I can in the now and that’s enough for me happy pride month gamers. ✌🏾

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“Regardless of what the papers say”

When I came out as trans to my peers and teachers back in December I don’t think anything could’ve prepared me for how cruel people could really be I think when I came out I just knew that I was in mental anguish and I needed something to change. I don’t expect for teachers to say to the class after fights “it doesn’t matter if a girl says their a boy you don’t hit women” while looking straight at me and for kids on my bus to ask “is it a boy with a p**sy or a girl with a c*ck”. On top of all this I was dealing with my own issues and insecurities with my masculinity like it’s kinda hard to feel like a man when your a curvy Latino on their period with limited resources to men’s clothing. Kids are cruel and teachers are worse and for a long while I was dealing with this on my own so when the art fair incident happened and my teacher put my legal name over my visibly trans art work I was devastated. I realized that no matter how much I corrected people on my name no matter how I presented or how I behaved I was never gonna be man enough for them. I had to come to the conclusion that I was never gonna let anyone define my masculinity for me ever again I was gonna do my own thing.