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[kiwi-channn]

Little talks

John Price × fem reader

(his pov)

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I never thought I would meet anyone and for them to stay that long .... Is she really good in her small head?!... like is she okay?!... I don't mean iam a bad guy but my job is kinda... Let's say Not so appealing...

And god!.. just Talking about anything in this world together... And seeing Her excited gaze... Her happy face... Her beautiful soul... I really love her spirit... Her eagerness... Sometimes she is short-tempered, especially on her period....Getting angry at small things... But that's the spice of her pretty soul...

I will walk all earth to her... No matter where she is.. I will always get to her ... Her gorgeous heart... Always so kind, helping people... And she does Eat a lot, whining whenever she isn't fed the "proper" amount... Still Working hard in anything she does... And Trying her best to make me happy...

Always understanding me... Keeping my hat clean all the time... Always hides my cigars trying to make me quit smoking... Always saying "it's not good for your health".. I know her like I know myself... All her small movements... The way she wakes up, hating everything... The way she beams whenever she sees her favorite novel in a store... Her eyes sparkling whenever she talks about something she likes...

The way she holds my arm tight, close to her chest... Making me a bit flustered... How clingy she gets whenever we are close.... The way I come home to find her making me a big meal with my favourite food...

And We sit down and talk... Talk until we are tired... Talk about our dreams, memories, past, interests... Just nothing and everything...and luckily it's The first time I date someone for more than a year... And I want it to be longer... Two years.. five years... Even forever...

Put a beautiful ring around your finger .. tying us together... For a lifetime... Loving forever... Seeing you every night beside me in bed... So I can just hold you close .. feeling your small hot breaths on my face .. your warm body in my arms... What a dream!... A beautiful dream...

It's just... I belong with you and baby, you belong with me...

[kiwi-channn]

Angeles like you, love

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Alert! Alert!...it goes on and on as everyone runs around... The sirens are wailing so loudly... and I still can't wrap my head around the situation... I was supposed to do experiments on some new vaccines.. then go home... Right!...

I see people running frantically around.. trying to save their lives... Assisting each other to get out alive of this chaos... Fire burning everywhere... Bumps and bullets against the building... All of this yellow and black makes me unable to move a muscle of my tired rigid body... I remember how I planned to go home after this and eat some pizza and listen to my favourite drama then go to sleep... I planned it and it seemed so good in my head...

And I feel someone running past me and they just pushed me... But I'm too weak and shocked to not fall to the floor on my knees... Still trying to stable my breathing... The smoke squeezing my lungs... Filling them until i got a headache...

Then I feel strong hands holding me up... And his strong, demanding voice reaches my ears, so strong and a bit worried too...

"y/n! Get up... Move move.." and he literally drags me to get out ... My legs are too heavy to hold up my body properly...

I can see black, yellow and .. red now... Not everybody is still alive... A few couldn't handle the smoke and died... Or some were shot ... My heart gets heavier upon seeing this... What did I expect from working with the army?!...

And The only thing keeping me sane and collected is him... The lieutenant who always respects me ... always secretly Helping me ... The man that I didn't expect to get along with in here... But slowly I got to see a first layer of him and it made me yearn for more... I wanna peel off all his layers... Getting to learn more about him... But I don't know if I will be able to now?!...

We reach the out of the on-fire building and I see about three helicopters ... And some people are getting on them... And it's obvious that the priority is for people who aren't in the army really.. like me .. just helping in certain missions or for certain times...

He drags me to one of the helicopters and I don't know why but I felt him pushing me inside, me alone.. without him!...

So I refuse to get on it and stand up .. looking at him... And I didn't realise that I was crying until he reached his hand and wiped off my tears...

I shake my head.. and cry more... Feeling a nasty feeling down my throat... Like I am gonna throw up...

"aren't you getting on?..." I say in a bit of a loud voice to make him hear me clearly..

He looks at me for a moment and I feel that I know the answer without him saying anything

"the priority is for the medics.. y/n... Get on.." he orders me in a stern voice.. trying to be firm and strict .. he knows that I don't wanna go without him...

"no!... I won't get on without you... Please..." I say in a worried broken voice... I didn't plan for my voice to sound like this but I can't help it...

"The helicopter won't be able to carry more people... Y/n.. just f-ing get on it!..." He yells the last part in my face... Making me shed more tears... I can't just go!... Not without him... So I hold tight onto his forearm with both of my hands... Refusing to let go .. shaking my head a bit too much.... My tongue is tied up and I can't say a word...

A look of sadness and tenderness flashes in his beautiful brown eyes ... And I can feel him smiling a bit under his mask... Staring into my eyes... And I feel his hand on my left cheek .. so gentle... So soft...

"angels like you can't fall down hell with me..love"

he says gently with his deep raspy British voice... Making my eyes open wide for a second... Before he pushes me to another doctor in the helicopter... That doctor grabs my arms tightly as I try to free myself... I don't wanna leave without him!.. no! I don't wanna let go like this!... There is still so much I wanna know.. so much I wanna say... Why didn't I say them before?!... Why did I wait?!...

And the helicopters set off ... Rising up .. away from him ... Away from his deep sad eyes... And I sob more but it's unheard in all this chaos.... And with that, we fly away from the base and... boom!... An explosion.. and I can only see yellow from my blurry-from-tears vision.. I lost him.

[kiwi-channn]

just a drawing

(Part 4 the last part)

Older Simon Riley × fem reader (artist)

∆ artist reader sees ghost while he is patrolling her city and she wanna draw ghost but he refuses ∆

Part1 - part2 - part3

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In the base ... Ghost was in the training area... He just finished his regular exercises ... His shirt reeked with sweat smell and gun powder.... And he sat down and started cleaning his knives....

And Soap was lifting some weights near him....

"Hey.. pass me some water.. l.t"

Ghost looks beside him to pick his water bottle... And his phone starts going on and on with many new messages....

Soap takes the water bottle from ghost as he looks at him with a stupid smile... Ghost just looks at him with an unmoved expression...

"What?... Why the stupid smile?.." ghost says calmly in a tired voice..

"Nothing.. l.t... it's just that... You have someone waiting at home?.." soap says as he gives him a look of "I know it"...

"No ... It's just a friend..." He affirms ... As he ignores her texts.. he knows that it's her ...

"Just a friend?... And who is it?... you never had any friends that text you so much like this..."

"It's none of your business..." Ghost snarls.. hoping to shut him up and to shut his mind too...

"Aww... L.t is in love~..." soap teases him more...

As he heard this sentence... He felt so angry all of a sudden... He doesn't wanna hear this... And he stands up and looks at soap... His brown eyes are getting too dark...

"I said it's nothing... So don't talk too much.. shut it" he says with a so cold voice...

Soap didn't expect him to get so mad... He felt sorry for his friend who never reveal his true feelings..

"Okay okay... Calm down.. l.t..." then soap shut up and went back to lifting his weights...

And ghost just sits back down... Then opens his phone...

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She was waiting for him to text her back... And her phone buzzed with an upcoming new text... So she quickly opens her phone to see it ....

"Don't text me again." That's the only message she got after sending him three messages.... She doesn't understand what happened all of a sudden...

"Why?.. Did I do something wrong?.." texts him back... But he didn't even read it.... She just waits and waits .. but no response... Which made her feel so sad and embarrassed at the same time... Sad because she thought they were getting closer... And embarrassed because he just acted so rudely and coldly like it's nothing... So she closed her phone and decided to leave it for now... Maybe he had a bad day ... She tells herself with a tired sigh...

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It has been a couple of days and he hasn't responded yet... She looks at their texts so much... And she went yesterday to the place they first met.. but he wasn't there either... She curses herself because she doesn't know anything about him ...

She finished her art classes for the day... And she chooses to walk for a bit to ease her mind... She can't stop thinking about him....

...: y/n...

She heard her name and looked behind her... And finds a classmate of hers ... Dexter...

"Hey... It has been a while... How have you been, Dexter?.." says kindly, smiling a bit... Trying to get that lieutenant out of her head...

"Yeah... where are you heading to?..." He asks her with a cold smile... Which made you uncomfortable... Something is wrong...

"Um.. nowhere.. just going home... And you?"

She tries to be as kind as she can.. Maybe she is just thinking too much...

"Me too... Let's go together..."

"No no..." She refused immediately which was a bit off... But she can't shake off the feeling of uncomfortably... "I mean... I am gonna go to the store too.. to buy some stuff... So no need to... See you..." She quickly said then walked away from him... And she feels his gaze burning on her back...

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After about a few hours... It was already midnight...

He was laying down on his couch at his small apartment....he can't stop wondering what she is doing right now?.... And his phone starts buzzing with a call .. he looks and finds it... But he doesn't respond...

And she calls him again and again... And he finally responded for the third time...

"What is it?!.." he says angrily when he opens the call...

But to his surprise comes shaking and so quiet like she is trying to hide...

"Simon... Please.. help me..."

He sits up and gets so freaking worried...

"What happened?... Are you okay?.."

"Hurry up... I don't know what to do..." Whispers quietly as she starts crying which makes his heart stop for a moment...

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(An hour ago...)

She was making herself some noodles... And suddenly she hears some weird sounds at the door.. like someone is trying to open it with a screwdriver... Which made all the color run out of her face...

And she slowly walks up to the living room and turns off the light... And the sounds stopped....

A few minutes went by without any sound ... And she huffs ... thinking whoever was there gave up and left...

And she texts a few friends to tell them about what happened... But again she hears some sounds at the door .. but this time it's someone knocking on the door... Light knocks ...

She didn't dare to answer at all... Her heart is pumping loudly as she doesn't know what to do....

And the knocking became more violent...

"Open up!... I know you are in there... Y/n.." she hears an angry yell out ... She doesn't know who it is.. but it seems familiar.... And she steps back away from the door...

She doesn't respond at all... Hoping he will think nobody is here and leave... But he didn't stop...

"Y/n.... Open the door... Or I will break it..." That person yelled and kept on yelling... While he knocks violently on the door...

She gets inside her bedroom... And locks the door ... Pushing her nightstand against the door to block it... And she calls the police... But she doesn't know if they will come on time... So she starts calling ghost .... And he told her that he will come right away...

And that man broke her door and rushed inside calling for her... And after a few minutes.. he starts pushing her bedroom door...

"Open the door.. y/n... I just wanna talk... Okay... Just open it..." He tries to talk calmly to make her open the door...

"No!... Leave me alone... You crazy meniac..." She screams angrily....

"y/n please.. open for me... It's me .. Dexter.." he says in romantic way ... Showing how crazy he is...

She feels so surprised... She knew that something was off with him... He always acts in a creepy way for months... But to break down into her home?!... She just stays silent... Hearing him yell ... And she covers her ears with her hands...

Suddenly she hears some fighting outside... And that man yelling at someone else... She feels scared to open the door... So she just gets closer to the door and listens carefully...

After about 10 minutes... The fighting sounds stop and it becomes so quiet... Playing with her nerves... making her more anxious...

"Y/n.. open the door... It's me.." she hears his calm deep voice and she feels so relieved... More tears filling up her eyes... And she quickly opens the door but she has no power to push the nightstand away from the door... All power left her body...

She sees his tall figure roaming over the door ... Her heart skipped another beat to see him... She can't believe that he really came to save her ... And he pushes the nightstand back... And gets inside...

She tries to speak but her voice isn't coming out... It's just tears that are falling more... And she buries herself in him... Holding onto him with shaky hands...

He doesn't say anything... He just holds her close... Squeezing your body so tight... Like he wanna put you inside his heart... Closing his eyes ... He can't stop thinking about what would have happened if he didn't come before he breaks the other door... His heart breaks as he hears her gasps as she cries... Soaking his shirt ...

The police came and took him... And she wasn't so surprised when she found it it was Dexter... Her weird classmate... She felt something was off with him... But she still didn't expect him to try and break into her apartment... She can't stop thinking about what he wanted to do with her if he got her...

She was standing out of her apartment as the police took Dexter away... And you were just looking at him... And then feels ghost holding your hand gently.. telling you that he is here... Making your heart race ...

Then he holds her hand and pulls her down the stairs with him..

"Um.. Simon?... Where are you taking me?.." she says quietly...

"Somewhere safe... You can't stay here tonight..." His calm voice comes so gentle to her... Making her want to cry again... But she holds herself together...

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And after some time... They reach his apartment and he lets her in ... And tells her to take a nice shower to calm her nerves...

Y/n comes out of the shower... Wearing Simon's white shirt because she didn't bring any clothes with her... His shirt was big on her... Almost reaching her knees...

He couldn't not check her out as she came out like this... Making his heart move again... But he quickly looks away from her..

"Thanks for letting me borrow your shirt... It's so comfy..." You say quietly...

"No problem.." says calmly..."come.. sit down..." He pats the place beside him on the couch

So she moves and sits down beside him... And for some reason she feels so nervous... And she jumps a bit when he gently touches her hand... Putting his hand over hers...

"Do you know that guy?.." he asks her gently...

She still can't get used to his gentleness... And she blushes a bit ...

"Yes ... He was my classmate... But we weren't so close or anything ..."

"I see... You gotta be careful who you trust..."

She looks at him... She finds him looking at her and she can't look away...

"Should I be careful around you too?.." you ask him so quietly... Your body is still trembling.. you can't get that out of your head...

He feels your trembling hands... And he gets a bit close to you... Staring into your eyes ... Searching for any sign of refusal of worry ... He doesn't wanna do something you don't want...

"You can't trust anyone... People you know can hurt you the most... Y/n..." He whispers softly... Getting a bit more close to her... Looking over her face... Taking in your features... And he stops at your lips... Can't look away from them...

"I don't think you will hurt me... Will you?..."

You whisper back to him... Your heart is pounding more as he gets closer to you... He is wearing his balaclava.. so all you can see is his eyes... The way he looks at you makes you shiver...

And he gets closer and closer until he is just a few inches away from your lips...

"Never hurt you..." He whispers so softly... Under your trance...

And he pressed his lips on yours... You just feel the fabric of his balaclava... But it still makes your heart so warm...

After a moment... He gets his head back away from your lips... And without a word, he raises his balaclava above his lips... And you could see his thin-shapped lips... His strong sharp jaw... And before you could look more at this part of his face that he revealed... He pressed his lips against yours again... Kissing you so gently... So you close your eyes and kiss him back.. taking in his taste... And it seems that he drank tea before... Then he deepens the kiss more, and holds your arms tightly... Pushing you down on the couch... And you two go to your special world... A world with only you two... And you never expected it but he is so gentle and kind... And all you can both see is each other... He felt so in love after many years... He hasn't felt like this for so long... Like he can't think about anything else .. just you..

Will he let you draw him now?

[kiwi-channn]

Me writing details in a story:

[kiwi-channn]

just a drawing

(part 3)

Older Simon Riley × fem reader (artist)

∆ artist reader sees ghost while he is patrolling her city and she wanna draw ghost but he refuses ∆

Part 1 - part 2 - part4

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It was a beautiful calm night in that restaurant... Simon was wearing a nice black classic shirt... He feels so stupid, thinking he dressed too nicely ... He really wanna leave now .. it is just that she has a way with words ... Since he met her or she got stuck with him... She always makes him go wherever she wants... He thinks that she is really convincing...but He still doesn't know why he is complying with her?!...

and since that day at the beach, he has been thinking about her a lot.. it is intriguing... he needs to stop it before he gets too stuck..

He looks at his watch and sighs ...

...: hey..

He looks beside him and sees her finally coming to sit across from him on this elegant table...

"how you're doing?"... y/n Says with a soft smile... And you are wearing a pretty cute dress, as classic as him... The dress shows your soft feminine frame...

Simon just looks at her from her head to her toes before she sits down... And luckily y/n didn't notice he just checked her out...

He clears his throat and puts on a stoic face...

"Iam good... And you?.."

"I am okay... You won't believe what happened when I was waiting for my upper!... Listen listen..." And she just starts talking about whatever... She likes how he listens to her...

At first when she talked to him, she thought he didn't listen nor focus on her at all... So she stops talking suddenly in the middle of her little story ... And she discovered that he really has been listening.. he is just too calm because he asked her about a detail... Since then... She felt so comfortable with him... But she really still wanna convince him to let her draw him... she won't give up at all...

So they had dinner.. a nice meal...

At the end of their good "time" ... Y/n takes out her purse to get out her credit card to pay for her meal...

Simon just just looks at her in a certain way ... And she looks back at him and chuckles...

Y/n: "what?... Did I do something?..."

"No... Just... I didn't expect you to pay for yourself..."

"Ohh ...  No no... We are friends so we split the bill... That's the rule"

"Hmm... Yeah... Well... That's convenient for me..."

Then they get out and walk out a bit ... It was a chilly night ....

"So I went on and turned off the computer... You know.. because.. like she could have asked me before using it... She is just dump...having a sister is tiring.."

"I never expected you had a sister..."

"Yeah... Why?..."

"Just thought you are an only child..."

"No I'm not...."

Then they both just walk in silence....

"What do you call a fish with no eyes?"

She feels a bit weird...she didn't expect that out-of-nowhere question ... Is he telling a joke?!...

"Um... Don't know... What do you call them?.."

He glances at her with a smug look on his face... And that's a first for her...

"FSH...f. s. h."

She couldn't believe that he just said the lamest joke ever... She just stares at him for a moment and laughs ... Not because it's funny.. but because it was unexpected...

"Nooo..." says as she puts her hand over her face.

"Yes..." says with a smug expression on his face.. as he side eyes her

She takes a deep breath to not giggle more... "Okay... let me think of one too.."

"Go on.."

she thinks a bit... Then gets one ... her eyes are sparkling a bit ...

"Oh oh... I got one .. so... What did one ocean say to the other ocean?..."

He shrugs..."what?.."

"Nothing.. it just waved..." Then she laughs at her own joke....

And he chuckles a little bit and raises an eyebrow as he looks at her..."really?... That was lame.."

She opens her mouth, surprised at his comment... "What?... And your joke was funny?..."

"Yeah.. it was funny... You laughed.."

"Barely ... And because I was surprised... My joke is better..."

"No .. mine better... Love"

She gives him a side eye annoyed look and shakes her head slightly... Chuckling at his confidence... And she lets it go for now...

She stays silent again for a bit and sighs in relief...

"But... Jokes aside ... Today was really nice .. thanks for accepting my request... I didn't expect you to accept... so thanks..."

He doesn't understand it himself...

"No problem..."

She smiles kindly... Looking ahead as she realizes that they almost reached her apartment...

"So... We are almost here.... I live in that building...." and she points at her balcony...

Then they stop in front of the building's entrance...

"So... Still no portrait?..."

"No..." He says firmly.. looking down at y/n..

She groans a bit loudly...

"Come on... Why not?..."

He doesn't answer that ... He just smiles a little calm smile... Which made her heart skips a beat .. she always feels that his smile is so pretty... Even if it was not that happy....it Makes her ... Like.. greedy?... She isn't sure... But... It feels so good... Slowly getting closer to him... she reallyWanna see more...

"Hey... You okay?..." He says gently... As he noticed how spacy she got....

She snaps out of it... Getting a bit nervous...

"Uhh... Yes.. yes... So okay.... And you sir?..."

He raises his an eyebrow at her... Looking down into her eyes.... Making her more nervous... Like he is looking into her soul ....

(Is that from his military experience or something??...)

"I am doing fine ..." says calmly as he just follows her flow...

She smiles softly as she feels a bit shy....

"Okay.. can I like.. text you? You know.... Maybe meet up again..."

He just looks a bit too calm suddenly... That she thought he will refuse...

"You can... It's okay..." he can`t believe he agreed.. he wanted this to be the last time..

She feels happy and her face lights up...

"Okay... Then be ready... Bye... the portrait offer is still on.."

He nods his head slightly and watches her walk inside the complex ... Making sure she is safe... then He leaves...

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In the opposite building... Someone with Binoculars standing in a barely open window..... Watching y/n with that huge man... And he almost broke the Binoculars..

....: "so you were out?!... You shouldn't see anyone... Y/n... You can't do that ... I will show you...and I think your time came..."

Then he punches the wall with so much hate.... Feeling blood rushing into his veins....

[kiwi-channn]

Wait do you have the photo of the like butterfly bubble thing from your lastest work? It's so aesthetic I want to use it as my background on Twitter.😭

Yeah I made it my background for a while too on social media 😂

Here it's

[kiwi-channn]

Just a drawing

(Part 2)

Older Simon Riley × fem reader(artist)

∆ Artist reader sees Ghost while he is patrolling her city and she wanna draw Ghost but he refuses ∆

Part 1 - part 3 - part4

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I just thought that he looked like a great drawing reference... That rough aura... With a strong body... The look in his eyes is something I never saw before... So cold and alone... Interesting it was...

I wanted to capture that man on my canvas... I will use black and blue as a palette for him with a tiny string of red... It is gonna be amazing...

But! No matter how much I try, he refuses to let me draw him... The thing is he doesn't know me yet.. I never give up... Especially when it's something I wanna draw... I will try and try and try until it works.... Just perfect results are accepted...

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So for the next week, I stalked him.... He crosses this area every Saturday at 10 pm... Luckily I live here ... So I can easily see him every Saturday when he patrols the area...

He looks so grumpy... Wonder if he has other layers.. wonder if he has other colors under those dark basic colors...

Will he let me draw him?... How should I convince a scary soldier to let me draw him?...

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"don't you give up!..." Ghost said with an annoyed tone... He is so done with this little college girl who is after him...

She doesn't answer and pretends to be behind the tree...

"you know I can see you right?... Do you call that a hiding spot?..."

She sighs tiredly and moves away from behind the tree...

"I just wanna talk to you sir" said so innocently like she wasn't stalking him for the last week like a prey...

"really?.. so you stalk me from behind the trees..." He isn't even surprised... He now is sure that this girl is out of her mind...

"no no... I was just taking a little peak.. not stalking or anything..."

He can't understand that girl at all... Is she even okay?!... Why is she so consisting on drawing him when he refused her many times?...

(is it really just a drawing?!)

Ghost can't stop but think that this girl is suspicious... He doesn't trust her consist...

"why are you looking at me like that?" She is looking at him like a creeped rabbit in headlights...

"what?" He says confused at her looks ...

"like a wolf..." She says quietly with a calm look of some fear... She is in her own little world now.. imagining other stuff...

"huh?.. bloody hell.. you crazy?... You really have a problem.."

She chuckles and looks up at him... Her gaze going through his soul not just his gaze... She is really analyzing him ...

"just get lost.. little girl" he snarls at her... Trying to be more rude so she gets away from him...

"you think I will give up with just that?... Iam not that easy lieutenant..."

"what do you want?..." huffing with cold tired heart... He wanna get straight to the point now .. he doesn't have time to chat especially with this weird girl...

She didn't expect him to ask her that and she thinks a bit...

"will you come with me to somewhere..."

"do you think iam easy too?... Why will I go with you anywhere?..."

She smiles a bit and leans her head to the side slightly ... "Do you think I can hurt you, lieutenant?..." Said so calmly with a gentle tone ....

He stays silent for a few moments... Just looking at her... He doesn't get her at all...

"fine... I can squash you if you ever tried anything funny anyway.."

She feels a bit shocked at the way he speaks... But she pays no mind and laughs it off....

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And after ten minutes... They were both in her car... She is driving... And he is sitting on the passenger seat beside her... He doesn't fit at all beside her... With her small pink car... And her calm oblivious aura... He looks out of place...

"where are we going?.."

"don't worry.. I won't eat you..."

He gives her a side eye... He knows for sure whom can truly eat the other ...

"brave little minx ..."

"well I understand little minx.. but brave?.. me?..."

"you are more stupid than brave..."

"ugh.. can't you be nice for a moment..."

"no..."

She shakes her head a bit... And she stays silent for the rest of the road...

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They reach the sea and he feels a bit confused that she brought him here...

This city has a beautiful sea, that's what he heard but he never came to see it... And it's indeed pretty... The sea water are so blue like the sky... The shore's sand is a bit dark colored but still matches the sea so much.... With a nice breeze... So refreshing and smells like salty water... That special aroma...

He just stands beside the car not moving a muscle... And she takes off her shoes and walks on the sand softly like walking on sharp glass...

She then stops midway and looks back at him... Giving him a look of inviting ...

"what?" He says

"what!" She says back

"aren't you coming?... Are you gonna just stand there like a statue?..."

He feels a bit offended and steps on the sand...

"aren't you taking off your boots?... It will fill up with sand.."

He doesn't answer her and she gives up and just walks with him closer to the sea .... Then she sits down in front of the sea... And he just sits beside her ...

"so?.. just brought me here to look at the water!..."

"oh .. sorry to disappoint you sir ... Did you expect more?..." Says softly with a smirk that annoyed him so much....

He just glares at her... She is really weird he thinks...

She looks ahead of her... Listening to the soft waves hit the shore...

"when I was young, my parents had a divorce... At that time I thought that I could fix it... But I was just a kid ..."

He didn't say anything for a few moments...

"why are you telling me that?..."

"maybe I just wanna bribe you... To let me draw you"

He smiles a little behind his balaclava and doesn't say anything back for a nother minute...

"what did you do then?..."

She feels a bit relieved that he chooses not to be rude...

"I just cried... I couldn't imagine my life alone... Without mom and dad ..."

"alone?... Didn't they just get a divorce?.."

"yeah.. but they both didn't want me anymore... They wanted to start new lives ..."

"hmm..." That was his answer... He doesn't know what to say in these situations at all...

She laughs and nudges him...

"it was long ago... It doesn't affect me like it did before..."

He frowns and didn't say anything... And they just sit silently, looking at the sea...

"I still won't let you draw me.."

"come onnnn... I told you something sensitive about me .."

"well I didn't ask you to tell me... You forced me to hear you..."

"forced you?... You are so Stony.."

He chuckles a bit and stops immediately so she won't hear it... "Stony!... That's the weirdest thing I have ever heard..."

She heard him chuckle quietly and she decides not to mention it...

"come on .. just one portrait of you... Just one .."

"no"

"ughhh... Evil..."

"and you are a little baby ..."

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"so you will come again?.."

"come where?.." he acts dump...

She looks so done with how annoying he is...

"to here... The sea... It's my calming place..." She sighs and looks at him...

"so?.. you will?.." she want him to accept so bad... She wanna come here again with him... Maybe that will convince him to let her do a portrait of him...

"without a portrait?..." He breaks all her hopes..

"okay.. just for now..." She had to agree for now... She wanna know that set of colors and complicated emotions for now... For her portrait of course...

"fine ... Maybe another time here won't be a problem..."

"deal!..."says happily and she smiles a bit smile and looks back at the sea.... She can't believe he agreed... Maybe he is indeed easy...

The sun setting down over the sea... The sky isn't totally blue now... It has some orange and a bit splashes of pink...

[kiwi-channn]

falling petals

simon riley × fem reader (wife)

(part 2)

I was gonna make it a break up but I thought I could make it a bit more realistic so don't come at me :⁠-⁠)

Also I wanted to end it in this part but it was gonna be too long if I ended it here so maybe there will be just a part 3

Anyway hope you like this part (⁠^⁠^⁠)

(another little thing: I didn't mention any babies in part 1 but I thought I should give them a baby really to make it more reasoning for this part so reader and Simon have a little baby okay.. but it wasn't necessary before)

part 1 here

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you were folding some of your clothes in the bedroom, it has been four days since that confession, and now y/n is just back here like nothing happened. Yes he has been sleeping on the couch in the living room but she is still back in their house, the house they built together. Every time her gaze falls on any corner in that house, memories rush to her mind, happy moments, sad moments, argument moments… it was home.. But now it feels foreign.. Not the same place she knows, not the same place she felt comfortable in, not the place she wanted to decorate most of the time, to make it look better. Now she just feels so empty like a shell thrown on the shore away from the sea water, the cruel waves kicked her out of the water she loved.

“All men are like this, just live for your kid” that sentence keeps repeating in her head, like a broken record, replaying again and again…

…….

On that confession night at 12:30 after midnight, she locked herself in the bedroom with her small baby, crying and crying until there were no more tears coming out of her eyes, but she still felt so damaged and broken, looking beside her at the roses he sent while on deployment without an occasion, now she understands why he sent them, he was guilty, that is all…

The red petals are dry, so dry, their fresh red color is fading, and they are slowly falling on the surface of the nightstand beside the bed… 

Her little baby daughter is still crying.. Like she feels her mother's broken heart, crying for her sadness, y/n doesnt know how to calm down and stop her heart from bleeding nor how to calm her little girl down… it feels black not even blue… so she just kept crying with her .. Will this horrible night end?!... Is it all a horrible nightmare?...

 (will i wake up now?)

After about half an hour of this bleak time, y/n decides to leave, she can’t take this anymore, she feels so disgusted at her unfaithful husband simon riley..

She gets up, her body feeling heavy, and first before anything feeding her crying baby girl to make her calm down and not cry anymore… and she gathers some of her stuff and holds her baby up in one arm and a small bag in the other hand, taking a deep breath before going out.. hoping that he isn't outside...

Slowly opening the bedroom's door, taking a peek outside to see where simon is, 'cause she doen't wanna see him… she thanks god that he isn't out there, and she doesn't care where he is really, she quickly takes some necessary stuff for the baby and wears her sneakers and leaves that dark house…. 

Takes a taxi to her mom’s house, she really needs her right now, she wants any kind of support, and her mother’s embrace is gonna be the best thing ever to gaher her broken pieces together…. 

 ….

“What happenned?” her mom says softly… “what did he do? Why are you back with your baby and you look horrible?”... “speak to me.. Iam getting more worried..” her mom was so concerned… she knew that something big happened making her daughter come to her this late at night..

Y/n sighs tiryingly, thinking if she should tell her mom about the whole thing… 

“Nothing, I just don't wanna see his face ever again..” says so quietly with a tired heart.. 

“What?... you dont wanna see simon?!... are you for real?..” her mom can't believe her ears… her daughter was always so in love with him.. She is sure that something big happened .. She looks carefully at her dead looking daughter y/n… she sees her puffy red eyes from crying, her pale face…

“He is seeing someone?..” her mom said so calmly like she wasn't even asking, it is a statement…

She can't believe that her mom guessed it so quickly.. She looks at her… confused “how did you know?” .. “did he look so unloyal? Was I so stupid?.. Mom” she couldnt help but shed a few tears.. Her mother felt so sad for seeing her collapsing like this… hugging her tightly..

“I can't, i dont wanna live anymore in this world, i wish i was never even born… i did everything i can, i tried to be good at everything… where did i go wrong?..”

“It is not your fault and you know it… you did nothing wrong, you are the best, you are my daughter..” 

“Then why?... why did he do that?... i feel so mad, i don't wanna see his face, i hate him… i don't wanna look at his face again… he fooled me… i was so dumb..” sobbing more..

“Calm down my dear.. Just cry it out… vent it all out.. Lighten your heart… I'm here..”

(i dont remember for how long i cried, i just cried and cried like a baby in my mom's arms… i didnt feel anything after that nor even remember what happened exactly after that……)

………..

She finished folding the clothes … then she got up and went to the kitchen to drink some water and refresh herself… she doen't know what to do anymore… but she can't ignore what her mom said a few days ago..

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“Mom!.. What are you saying?.. Should I just stay with him like nothing happened?... do you-”

“I know… i know it's hard and you feel so mad and disgusted… but… let's be realistic okay?..”

“Realistic!... oh so i should just ignore what happened and stick with him like he didn't do anything…”

“y/n..”

“Like he didn't see someone else.. Like he did touch someone else while I was here alone, taking care of my child alone… he was just doing that thing!... that. he touched someone else.. He .. he just loved someone else….”

“Calm down… i know what iam saying is frustrating , but i dont want you to be like me… i dont your child to not have his parents together… think about your kid��� remember how you felt when your father left…”

“I remember how I felt.. But you know how it feels to be betrayed… how come you are telling me to not get a divorce!.. I dont understand you.. Mom.. I imagine how he was with her.. Was I nothing?... he just kissed her, said the same things to her.. ” tears welling up in her eyes… she feels like a broken faucet… tears driping all the time… 

“Iam telling you to not do it, because i know how it feels… but every time i felt i needed someone with me to take care of you and your sister.. I wished to not be alone at that time…” her mom said..

“But..”

“It is your decision but i think you should give him a chance… give another chance to that home you built… don't just let it all down… for some other woman... Don't let her take your place".... "and at the end of the day it's your choice…”

……..

The front door opening woke her up to the present… she saw simon coming in through the door, she felt like throwing up the moment she looked at his face, and she looked back at the kettle … 

He felt awkward, she used to welcome him every time he came back no matter where he went, even if it was down the street… but it feels strange now, the mood is so gloomy… like he is a guest coming for a short visit and should leave… he wants to make it better.. To solve this… 

“Hey..” he says gently.. Looking at her back… he wants to get closer.. To feel her .. "I went to the store to buy some diapers for lily"

She didnt answer him.. Not even looking his way.. Like he was nothing..

He sighed and approached her a bit.. He stopped at the entrance of the kitchen, he doen't dare to get closer.. To enter her space… she has already closed the door of that unseen space…

“Can you at least answer me.. y/n” his voice was tired.. He couldn’t sleep for the last few days… feeling so grossed at himself.. He doesn't understand what he did himself…

She still doesnt answer.

“At least get mad… dont just be silent..” 

“What do you want me to say?...” .. “I told you I'm only here for my child… I'm not here to fix anything..” she snaps at him… her voice raising a bit.. but her tone is still firm...

“I know that… but since I picked you up from your mom's house, you didnt say anything… and why not fix it… i will-” he is so desperate..

“I don't want anything from you… i don't even wanna see your face…” y/n says angrily…not caring about hurting his feelings like before.. she actually wanna hurt him… she wanna make him feel more horrible.. more desperate..

“I'm sorry..” he just aplogized quietly.. Making her more mad…

“I don't wanna hear it… it won't change anything…”

“Maybe if you talked.. Let it out on me….” he begs her.. he doesn't mind if she even threw anything at him.. he knows that what he did will never be forgiven especially from her.. but he still hopes a bit...

“I said stop talking to me…”

“y/n… I'm not gonna stop, I will try until you talk…” it's like he is provoking her more...

“You want me to talk!... fine.. I hate you and i feel so disgusted every time i see your face… i wish that i take all the years i wasted on you back… i wish i didn't marry you… i wish i didn't have a kid with you… i really will never ever forgive you…. I ..” she snapped again… letting lots of things out of her heart… 

Simon didn't say anything back, he just listened to her.. He knows he made a huge mistake but will do anything to fix this…

And she continues “I gave you everything… all of me.. I tried and tried… I learned how to cook to make a warm meal for you and make you feel at home… I ignored how cold you get sometimes… ignored how lonely and tired i was .. all alone most of the time.. But I stayed loyal… I took care of my kid all alone… I worked hard to make this relationship work… i put my trust in you, told you all my fears ,and even though i told you i don't trust men because of my dad and you just… you..”

“I'm sorry..” he said with a so quiet tone, like he was scared to mess it up more… he doesn't know what to say... Just feeling more ashamed..

“I don't wanna hear your apology…” said quietly as she wiped her tears... she didn't want to cry in front of him...

he tried getting closer to her.. he wanted to hold her close... he really hoped she would forgive him... he really wanted them to go back to how it was.. to how warm she was.. to how happy she was... not like this...

she felt his arms around her... making her feel more broken... but it all fell down already, she can't just accept his hug like before...

he expected it when she pushed his arms away from her... walking out of the kitchen with one last sentence... "Don't get close to me.."

....

with this chaotic encounter, she goes to the bedroom and smacks the door behind her, locking it... she hates it so much... hates seeing his face.. hates his voice.. how did that woman look like.. how could he touch someone else.. this is driving her crazy... and what is driving her crazy more is how she can't cut it all and end it for good... what should she really do?... should she just let go and walk away from him?... or stay and give this a chance?... she does need help.. and needs time too... her emotions and feelings are all over the place...

[kiwi-channn]

When will you post part two of falling petals?🩶

I am working on it these days but iam kinda busy with other stuff 😕

But i am trying to complete it, maybe it will be done by next Friday (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡

[kiwi-channn]

This scene makes me laugh so hard 🤣🤣

[kiwi-channn]

Make sure to not let anyone get to you or put you down 💪 and Always try your best and learn from your mistakes and get better little by little, It's okay if it doesn't work for million times👌

Small message to anyone feeling down at doing something like me🫂

[kiwi-channn]

"There's something very addictive about people pleasing. It's a thought pattern and a habit that feels really, really good until it becomes desperate." [Anne Hathaway]

just thought about things related to that quote :⁠-⁠)

I feel colder... I am getting colder by every passing second... It's true that I get upset when i make someone sad .. but it doesn't matter whoever is sad and whoever is not so much like before...and this makes me feel better.. makes me kinda feel alive and that iam just a human and I can actually be annoying..and can be annoyed too... But why are people around me feeling that iam becoming worse?!.. it's true iam changing.. but I think it's a good change... I feel more independent.. more free... Because no matter what you do .. people will never be satisfied... They will always want more and criticize you .. make you feel bad.. make you feel like trash... But the truth is you shouldn't care about them... Just do what you like as long as you don't hurt someone else..

so be it... Let them think whatever they want....

[kiwi-channn]

hii:) i just read “falling petals” and i like it pretty much and wanted to ask if you will make this a series?

much love💕💕

Hey ^⁠_⁠^ yeah it will be a series, but I still don't know how many chapters I will make and Thanks for liking it (⁠｡⁠･⁠ω⁠･⁠｡⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠♡

Much love to you too 😘

[kiwi-channn]

falling petals

Simon Riley × fem reader (wife)

∆ Simon cheats on reader while being in deployment and confesses to her ∆

(reader referred to as "she-little lady-y/n -pumpkin-dove)

Part2 here

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She was making dinner for her husband... Wearing her apron and focusing to make a perfect meal for her man ... Simon was in a long deployment... She hasn't seen him for six months... It has been so long... She feels so excited that he is finally gonna be home any minute now....

He texted her telling her that he will be back at around 10 pm... And it's 9:30 now... And she prepared the house for his return... Like rearranging the books in the shelves because he likes it to be in an alphabetical order... And she put on his favorite bedsheets on the bed.... And she bought a lot of his favorite black tea.... Just small things he likes...

She also put on his favorite perfume... He always compliments her whenever he smells it on her... And she wore his hoodie... He loves when she wore his clothes... Whenever he sees her wearing his clothes, he won't be able to keep his hands to himself... He will touch her whenever he had the chance...

She blushes as she thinks about all of this... In her own little world... Daydreaming about her man's return...

More time passes ... And she finally hears the keys in the keyhole... And she beams at that familiar sound... And she puts the spatula down on the counter... And fixes her hair quickly... Then she walks to the doorway to welcome him....

"babe.... Welcome back..." Says happily upon seeing him coming through the door... she feels so excited ... Runs and hugs him tight... Squeezing him as strong as she could... And he smiles calmly and hugs her back... As tired as he feels he can never refuse his little wife's hug...

"getting stronger ha?... My little lady" he jokes lightly as he takes off his balaclava and buries his face into her neck...

She chuckles softly.. "how are you?.. you injured?..." Says worryingly...

"no.. iam fine... Look at me... I am back..." Says calmly with his deep harsh voice...

She smiles happily and looks up at him...

"yes.. I am glad you are safe...".. then she pulls his arm... "Come on... Dinner is ready.. and I prepared the shower too.."

"okay... Little lady" teases her as he follows her inside their house...

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After dinner and a warm shower... He feels the guilt eating his heart... Making him feel heavy ... He wanted to just forget it... Pretend he didn't do anything... But he can't... He tried to act normal ... When he saw her happy warm expression upon seeing him... He felt like he was dying... He feels disgusted at himself...

He looks at his reflection in the mirror and he feels bitter... Will his wife forgive him?... Will this break his house?.. will it end everything they built together in those six years?...

He closes his eyes as he starts shaking from how angry he feels at himself... He feels so mad at his own selfish self... He wasn't using his brain... Not even his heart... It was pure lust and need... He was bent up and lonely... He wanted some warmth... He couldn't resist her seduction... He curses himself... He curses the day he started this sin...

..............

"babe!... You okay in there?... You took so long...."

Her soft voice from the other side of the door snaps him out of his thoughts... And he takes a deep breath to calm himself down..

"iam fine, pumpkin... Gonna be out in a few minutes"

"okay... I will be waiting for you in bed"

She says lastly and she leaves... She heads to the bedroom and tucks herself in bed... As she sighs contently... She will finally beside Simon after those long months...

..............

He comes inside the bedroom... As he is only wearing his robe... And she was reading a novel in bed... And he keeps watching her... And whenever she looks up from her novel.. he will immediately look away... He can't look her in the eyes...

He wears something comfy and he slowly lays beside her in bed... She then closes her novel and puts it on the nightstand beside her... Turning off the light...

Then she gets closer to him and she snuggles into his arms... Her body relaxing in his embrace...

"I really missed you..." She Whispers softly with a relieved huff....

"yeah... Missed you too" answers back in a quiet gentle voice... And he decides not to tell her anything after all... It will break them..."good night... Dove"

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Two weeks passed since then.. and she feels a slight change in him... He is gentler.. and he became nicer too... It's not like he wasn't nice... But he became nicer... Buying her lots of gifts and flowers... Flirting with her so often... Complimenting her whenever.. it's a bit too much... And she starts Wondering if something happened in his previous deployment....

"What are you watching?..." She says softly as she approaches him and sits beside him on the sofa ...

He scoffs a bit to make space for her...

"just an old movie..."

"hmm... I see" mumbles quietly...

He feels her thinking about something and he puts his arm around her shoulders...

"spell it out..."

She chuckles a bit as he always understands her without a word...

"I wanted to talk to you about something... Maybe it's me reading so much into it... But I feel like you are hiding something from me..."

He feels panic... His heart falling down in his stomach...

"what?... Why are you saying that?... I can never hide anything from you" says gently as he tries to push this aside...

She stares at him for a few seconds... Then she smiles softly...

"okay... I trust you..."

He hears this and he couldn't hide it anymore... He stays silent for a few minutes... Just looking at her... He sees how much she loves him and trusts him.. and he can't fool her anymore....

"there's is actually something I need to tell you about..." He says so quietly and looks down... Avoiding her eyes ... "It happened when I was in the last deployment..."

She stays quiet as she waits to hear what happened back then....

"I was seeing someone else in the past 4 months..." He admits bluntly... He has always been straightforward....

She freezes... Her heart sinking... And she can't process what she just heard... Nor open her mouth and talk... She just stays silent... Shocked...

"but I cut everything with her... I don't see her anymore.. nor talk to her anymore.. I swear... It's over... It was a big mistake.." he continues quietly... "I got weak...."

"y/n..." He calls her name and looks up at her... And he was surprised by her reaction... She was just looking at him... Tears filling up her eyes...

"I.. iam so sorry... Forgive me.. please... Y/n" says softly as he slowly approaches her and he hugs her tight... He just wanna comfort her right now... He hates seeing her like this.. broken and devestated...

"don't cry..."

[kiwi-channn]

stubborn love

Older Simon Riley × fem reader

∆ because of valentine, I just thought about a little Simon's pov when he falls in love with reader ∆

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It was like fireworks... The day you confessed to me .. I lost hope in everything... I was just living for my job... Knowing that someday it will take my life... I never thought of that desire... I didn't let it enter my mind... I closed that door... I even locked it... So that desire stays out ...

The desire to be with someone... The desire to share life with someone who loves me and I love back... The desire to feel someone else's warmth and comfort...

The way you look up at me with those big pretty eyes... Looking so deep into my soul... Your face is kind and beautiful... With a little cute smile... Blushing beautifully because of me...

Your soft body ... So soft and warm... Pulling me in... The closer we get, the more the desire grows... You are the reason he tries harder to live... He doesn't throw himself in danger like before... He feels how precious his life is now... Someone lovely waiting for him every day...

His heart pounding loudly in his chest... As he sees you... He can't explain these emotions anymore... He doesn't care anymore... He only wanna be close... So close... Taking you in his arms... Squeezing you in his embrace...  Loving you... How beautiful it is... These deep desires and feelings...

He wanna be nice to you... Treat you right ... So right... Give you his all... Maybe he can never really be totally fixed ... But he knows that you will never let go... And he also won't let go of your hand... Always so close...

This stubborn love... He will make sure that it stays stubborn and unending for the rest of his life...

[kiwi-channn]

scared to love

(part 2)

John price × fem reader(nurse)

∆ reader has trust issues and doesn't wanna admit her feelings for price ∆

(reader referred to as "she - y/n")

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"so why am I here again?" she says calmly.. with a little frown...

"you are here to have fun..." John says shortly like it is nothing...

she clicks her tongue and pouts.... as she looks ahead at the big party thrown for the military figures...

"have fun here?!" huffs tiredly as she gives him a side look...

he chuckles a bit... he always finds how grumpy she is amusing and a little cute too... "darling just smile a bit, yeah?"

she frowns more and just glares at him... "I can't smile when I am stuck in here, captain!"

he smirks and gets closer, roaming over her... looking into her eyes... she gets nervous at how close he is... but she won't show him that she is shy or nervous... so she looks back into his eyes...

and they just stay like this staring at each other , having a staring competition....

but Laswell cuts their little game .. approaching them...

"What are you two doing?.... stop playing around... John, some people wanna talk to you.." Laswell says quietly, trying not to attract attention... and she glances at a few old men standing together...

john looks at Laswell and nods his head slightly... y/n feels so embarrassed by Laswell comment... looks away from John...

"Sorry kid, I need to go and have a boring talk..." John says sarcastically.... "but I will come back to you... okay?"

she crosses her arms and looks at the opposite direction, away from him...

"like i care... it is none of my business what you do..." snarls firmly...

john chuckles quietly and shakes his head... he knows that she will be upset without him around in this party, but she wont admit it...

and he just moves away from her and goes to a small group of men, Laswell with them too...

...............

she stands close to the buffet as she puts a few pieces of food in her plate... and sighs tiredly... she hates this stupid party... why did she even come?!... yeah, because he told her to come... how can she just do whatever he wants...

"hey... from earth to y/n.."

his gruff voice gets her out of her thoughts and she looks at the man beside her.. feeling a bit relieved that there is someone she knows in this party...

"soap!... what are you doing here?..." she is confused by his presence in this speacial party...

"to party perhaps .." he says mocking her..

she glares at him and smacks his shoulder lightly..

"haha.. so funny!.... you that this freaking party is for the higher-up and people who the higher-up brings... so you nut head, what I mean is... did you come with the captain too?... cause he didn't tell me.."

"no, I didn't come with Price..." he says briefly making her narrow her eyes in confusion...

"then who did you come with?" asks curiously...

he just looks away from her... and she looks at the same direction... and she sees a blonde lady probably in her early forties, she is with another small group of men and women...

she takes a few minutes to process and she finally gets it and holds back her laughter...

"oh god, you really went for her... you are trouble, she is about 15 years older than you... I can't.." mumbles quietly as she can't hold back and she starts laughing hard...

"yeah so what?... stop laughing already!.... the heart wants what it wants okay?.." he frowns at her...

and she takes a deep breath and clears her throat... "okay okay.. don't get upset...."

...............

after some time at this boring party... she was now sitting down on a table that had soap, his girlfriend, y/n, and two other women..

she wasnt really engaged in their conversation... her eyes start searching for john... and she sees him standing with laswell alone as they chat and laugh....

the more she keeps watching John and Laswell getting along, she feels a sting in her heart... she knows that Laswell is just a really close friend to John... but she can't stop feeling upset and she doesn't know why... why would she care who price is with?... or who is he having fun with?...

.............

soap notices how annoyed y/n looks and he tabs her shoulder lightly to grab her attention...

"you okay, lass?"

"yeah yeah.. I am okay. I just... I think I should go home now..."

"what? you sure?.."

"yes.. I am sure..." says calmly as she stands up from her chair and grabs her purse...

"wait.. wont you tell the captain that you are leaving?"

she stays silent a bit as she thinks... but she feels so upset at John for no obvious reason really... but still, she doesn't wanna talk to him now...

"no need to.. and he seems busy anyway" says calmly as she waves goodbye to soap and she walks towards the door to leave...

she walks out of the hotel, and she looks ahead... feeling the cool air on the bare parts of her skin.... she hugs herself and walks down the stairs into the street... and he takes a taxi back home...

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john glances at the table that y/n was sitting in and he doesnt see her... he looks around a bit but he doesnt find her... so he tells laswell that he needs to do something and he heads to where soap is

"soap... where is y/n?.."

soap looks back st price, his mouth full of food as he speaks..

"she left" soap mumbles as he chews on his food..

price feels surpried to know that she left whithout telling him..

"what? left?... "

"yeah... she seemed upset about something and she told me she would leave... I told her to tell you but she said there is no need to tell you"

john frowns and sighs tiredly... he wonders what happened and makes her leave without even telling him...

[kiwi-channn]