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[lillcancergirl]

Here we go again, another heart break from the one whom i didn’t expect it from. Crazy thing is I still love and care about him. Am I crazy or I am crazy in love ?

[lillcancergirl]

I need a cat

[lillcancergirl]

The urge for me to go off all social media platforms and get lost keeps growing.

[lillcancergirl]

Letting go.

It’s a tricky situation. Sometimes you think you’ve mastered the art of letting go but then you realize that you really haven’t, it’s just an illusion you create in your head. When you face reality and it hits you real hard in the face that’s when you actually realize the pain behind trying to let go.

[lillcancergirl]

i need a hug rn

[lillcancergirl]

“I finally understood what true love meant. Love meant that you cared for another person’s happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face may be.”

— Unknown

[lillcancergirl]

It feels like I’m falling into a deep hole and no one can save me. Darkness is weighing me down and it’s a struggle. Who am I really? And what do I actually want in this life. Why can’t I stand up for myself. I try my possible best to endure my emotions but as a water sign, it overflows. Being a cancer is not an easy one. How do I do it.

[lillcancergirl]

It hurts. He left and it hurts. Trying so hard to hold the pain but I can’t because I still love him. Despite his flaws that pushed me to do the unthinkable, I still love him. I can’t explain to him that it was his flaws that made me to do it because he hates me now. I broke him. He doesn’t deserve it and I’m sorry but he doesn’t believe me. I’m hurting but I deserve it. I’ll miss him so much. But life happened, I need to love myself more and more before I finally decide to be with someone. That’s one lesson I’ve come to realize. The world goes round you just have to be prepared when it comes back to you. It’s a painful but reflective lesson. ✨

[lillcancergirl]

I am starting to feel good with myself. Best feeling ever

[lillcancergirl]

Emotions are what make us human. Make us real. The word ‘emotion’ stands for energy in motion. Be truthful about your emotions, and use your mind and emotions in your favor, not against yourself.

[lillcancergirl]

It’s getting to the point where I can no longer deal with you anymore. Given you so many chances to prove yourself but you’ve already made up your mind. It’s time to choose myself.

[lillcancergirl]

What are mistakes?

I made decisions that I was comfortable with but in the end someway somehow they tend to be mistakes and with some I regret but with others I don’t.

I try not to be so hard on myself, it works sometimes but when the memories hit, the pain worsens. I need to heal. I need to free my mind. I need to find myself. I need to be get out of my comfort zone. I need to stop being afraid. I need to stop being alone and anxious. I need my mind to stop racing. I need to BREATHE 🧘🏾‍♀️

[lillcancergirl]

Currently I think I’m in love with two people. Each person is unique in their own way. I need to put myself first 🤦🏽‍♀️ I try so hard to find my feelings. What do I do now? It’s drainnninnggg

[lillcancergirl]

Sometimes I feel like I try too hard to make things work by constantly explaining myself and trying so hard for you to understand why I do the things I do, my likes and dislikes so you understand me. But you still don’t get it and you do your own things. How are we supposed to make things work between us? Maybe I’m trying too hard but when I stop there’s no turning back. I’m gone.

[lillcancergirl]

The way I love don’t fit with this era

[lillcancergirl]

[lillcancergirl]

I know I can do it. I’ve only got me to motivate myself