moon-wolf

[moon-wolf]

I hate my acne, it makes me so miserable. It has been making me miserable for 6 years, I can't even remember what it felt like having clear, healthy skin. CeraVe is the only thing that really truly helps but it's so expensive, I can't use it regularly. I need the blemish control cleanser and gel but I'm only 16 and 20€ for the pack of those two is too much for my parents. I have pocket money from my granny but I spent half of it on a swimsuit and I want to buy a book also, and I want to buy small gifts for my two best friends.

I hate money as a concept, why do I need so much of it to live normally?

[moon-wolf]

Time could kill us all, but it maddens me, seeing such great injustice go unpunished. And so, before time can even get the chance, I will be the one to kill you.

[moon-wolf]

I feel so many things and need to write about them but it's so difficult to put them into words. Either the words for what I think and have to say are not enough for me to express myself, or my vocabulary is limited. What I know, though, is that some things are better illustrated through different languages, because I often find myself struggling to convey the full message in English. As I'm writing this, words flicker through my mind and they're gone before I can even consider using them, and that is when I have to resort to using words that don't feel quite right.

[moon-wolf]

I love my best friend. I've known him since we were 7. He has grown and changed so much as a person, in a very good way. I don't see him as much anymore, but we play Minecraft and send each other texts frequently. I hope we'll hang out more this summer. Maybe not, if the friend group has decided they don't like me anymore.

[moon-wolf]

SUMMER GOALS!!!!

1. Get rid of acne ASAP (I don't even know what clear skin feels like anymore, I've had acne for like 6 years i can't do this anymore)

2. Grow hair down to my ARSE! (it's mid back rn... but I have layers so it's not all equal,,,,,)

3. Get really ripped and strong and sprint a lot and do cartwheels

4. Stop forgetting to drink water

5. Read even more books

6. Hang out with friends a bit more and socialize with relatives/family a lot

7. Be outside a lot

8. PLEASE PLEASE LEARN TO PLAY GUITAR BRO UGHH

9. Minecraft!!!!

10. Actually learn to swim properly (💔)

11. Maybe meet new people (if they are nice)

12. Learn to put together better outfits (i actually suck!)

[moon-wolf]

Dry skin that cracks to the point of tearing apart and bleeding is what winter brings to me. My lungs are brought to exhaustion from inhaling the cold, polluted air circling through my city. I look at the people smoking as I walk and I wonder how can they withstand it, although I know they are addicted. The short daylight hours keep me feeling confused and tired, longing for the light like a sun-deprived succulent. I feel weighed down, as if I were suffocating, each time I wear my winter jacket. Layers upon layers, I can barely move my arms, it's tiring.

Spring finally comes and I excitedly watch the leaves on the tree outside my window slowly grow day by day. The Sun sticks around for longer now and I feel a bit more alive. The pollution in the air clears out and I can finally breathe, without a jacket to drown in. My skin doesn't bleed anymore, but it's still about as white as a sheet of paper. The grass in the parks shines a lively green and the fruit trees flower. It is like I'm seeing colours again for the first time in a while.

I am wide awake, running and moving as much as my body allows me to. Now it's almost summer, I am sweating and I smell horrible despite showering two times per day. There is no sea, I will have to visit a different country before I can breathe in the salty, humid air. I desperately long for a different environment, yet find it uncomfortable to be so far from home.

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No matter how hard I try, no matter how much I am not doing anything, people at school will sometimes tell me "you're kinda weird" in the middle of a conversation, or just out of nowhere. And I know they don't mean it in a bad way, but whenever I ask why they think that, they don't give me a straight answer. Usually just "I don't know", "your eyes are really big", "you just are". But I'm really so curious, what makes them think of me as weird, even though I'm not doing anything out of the ordinary??? It doesn't offend me really. I just wish somebody could tell me exactly what makes people think of me as weird. Is it my posture? I don't think I slouch a lot anymore honestly. Is it my eyes? I get lots of comments on how they're huge and I sometimes don't blink if I'm lost in thought, but that happens to everybody, I've seen it, it can't be that. Is it the way i dress? My style is pretty normal, I think. The way I talk, the things I say, the way I interact with people, the way I react to things, the way I look? Why has everybody I've ever met labeled me as weird?

[moon-wolf]

The world is doomed, or maybe it isn't. Give power to a wicked mind and everything you've ever known and loved is bound to become dust. Recognize danger, react. Overthrow the dictator, throw him into a chamber for good because no sane person would ever let innocent people be killed, would never participate in, let alone initiate, a war. Mad people should not be allowed to have political power, every leader and politician should be regularly evaluated by an unbiased psychologist.

It seems nearly impossible, utopian, I know. But isn't it the most simple, most logical solution? What's stopping us is that nobody wants to react, because the majority of presidents, ministers, and whoever else there is, are blinded by the obsession over political power and money, the two least important values in life. In other words, they're mostly all far too gone and those who aren't, can be counted on one hand. Yet I still believe it's not too late.

[moon-wolf]

They don't like you because you don't fit their expectations, because you're not a carbon copy of them and the way they act. They don't like you, because it makes them uncomfortable how you're not trying to be someone else in order to be likeable. They don't like you because they're jealous, they wish they could stop pretending, drop the act, but they're afraid and insecure. They will never admit it, but they're jealous of you.

[moon-wolf]

Is anybody actually ugly? Or is it a bad habit some people have to put down other people? What even are beauty standards? Do these standards make us percieve some people as ugly even if we don't actually think they are? I never thought anybody was ugly when I was a small child. I know I'm not ugly. I know you're not ugly. Have you ever seen an ugly tiger, an ugly horse, an ugly bird? And I'm not talking about thinking a species in general is ugly, I'm talking about individuals. Because I haven't.

[moon-wolf]

I wish humans were kinder to each other so that we could go out and admire the moonlight like we enjoy the sun during the day without the fear that there's some wicked mind lurking in shadows waiting for the perfect moment to catch you off-guard and strike.

[moon-wolf]

help how do I use bobby pins in a way that gets the front pieces of my hair out of my face but doesn't pull every single hair out from my skin and also doesn't scrape my goddamn scalp and doesn't fall out after 2 seconds? I'm asking because tying my hair hurts my scalp for some reason (even if it's just a low ponytail), but I hate having it fly in my face, regular hair clips fall out immediately and also break and pull out my hair, and headbands give me headaches.

[moon-wolf]

Oh wow....

super moon born nightwings

“the phenomenon whereby the moon appears particularly large in the sky owing to the coincidence of its closest approach to the earth (the perigee) with a full (or new) moon.”

they can project false experiences onto any dragons. Now image a villain who drives a seer into looking insane because their ‘visions’ aren’t coming true, but it’s just the supermoon born nightwing causing them to lose their sense of reality. They have little moon markings on their head

[moon-wolf]

psst. "feminist" retelling writers. yes, i'm talking to you. i have a gift for you: here are some interesting women from greek mythology that you can write about that are NOT medusa, persephone or clytemnestra! there ARE other women, shocking i know!

-medea: she literally killed her brother and her children, i thought "female rage" girlies would be all over her

-danae: her life is so crazy, imagine being imprisoned by you father, getting impregnated by a god, being locked in a box and left to die at sea and then basically becoming a hostage to a king while your son is sent to kill a monster. and she's one of the only ones who, to my knowledge, actually gets a happy ending!

-atalanta: basically the only female hero in greek mythology!! and she was an argonaut!! c'mon now there is so much potential here, why does nobody care for atalanta

-the amazons: penthesilea! hippolyta! literally any of them! you're telling me there is a whole society of female warriors and so called feminist writers aren't jumping at the opportunity??

-hecuba: such a tragic and interesting figure, being the queen of troy, she lost her whole family in the war, i wish more people explored her relationship with her children (especially paris) and apollo

-andromache: i'm shocked andromache isn't more popular with the "tragic female characters" people, she literally lost everything basically because of men

-cassandra: i know cassandra is fairly popular, but i love her so much and i want more people to explore her relationship with her family, every dynamic has the possibility to be SO interesting

-electra: this whole family is a MESS and yet i see people mainly focusing on clytemnestra (with iphigenia), but not exploring the relationship between electra and clytemnestra is such a missed opportunity

-helen: i just want the focus of her story to be shifted from paris to the other people in her life, like her daughter hermione! how did they rebuild their relationship after troy? or her sister clytemnestra! what happened to her bond after the murder of agamemnon? or her brothers, castor and pollux! there is so much untapped potential

-demeter: there is a story about a mother's grief for her daughter, her journey looking for her, her anger, and yet every retelling of the homeric hymn to DEMETER focuses HADES to make him a dark romance mafia boss?? come on

and more!

conclusion: i'm tired of seeing the same stories being retold over and over again when there are so many characters to explore

[moon-wolf]

just so that I can find it later sorry I'm new to tumblr

a quick psa to anyone recently getting into greek mythology and is a victim of tumblr and/or tiktok misconceptions:

-there is no shame in being introduced to mytholgy from something like percy jackson, epic the musical or anything like that, but keep in mind that actual myths are going to be VERY different from modern retellings

-the myth of medusa you probably know (her being a victim of poseidon and being cursed by athena) isn't 100% accurate to GREEK mythology (look up ovid)

-there is no version of persephone's abduction in which persephone willingly stays with hades, that's a tumblr invention (look up homeric hymn to demeter)

-as much as i would like it, no, cerberus' name does not mean "spot" (probably a misunderstanding from this wikipedia article)

-zeus isn't the only god who does terrible things to women, your fav male god probably has done the same

-on that note, your fav greek hero has probably done some heinous shit as well

-gods are more complicated than simply being "god of [insert thing]", many titles overlap between gods and some may even change depending on where they were worshipped

-also, apollo and artemis being the gods of the sun and the moon isn't 100% accurate, their main aspects as deities originally were music and the hunt

-titans and gods aren't two wholly different concepts, titan is just the word used to decribe the generation of gods before the olympians

-hector isn't the villain some people make him out to be

-hephaestus WAS married to aphrodite. they divorced. yes, divorce was a thing in ancient greece. hephaestus' wife is aglaia

-ancient greek society didn't have the same concepts of sexuality that we have now, it's incorrect to describe virgin goddesses like artemis and athena as lesbians, BUT it's also not wholly accurate to describe them as aromantic/asexual, it's more complex than that

-you can never fully understand certain myths if you don't understand the societal context in which they were told

-myths have lots and lots of retellings, there isn't one singular "canon", but we can try to distinguish between older and newer versions and bewteen greek and roman versions

-most of what you know about sparta is probably incorrect

-reading/waching retellings is not a substitute to reading the original myths, read the iliad! read the odyssey! i know they may seem intimidating, but they're much more entertaining than you may think

greek mythology is so complex and interesting, don't go into it with preconcieved notions! try to be open to learn!