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nothing to smile about in my life.

“tua should end with all the siblings dying together” “it should end with them realizing there’s nothing they can do” you’re all cowards have you never heard of hope???? of healing against all odds??? you’re weak

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steve blackman in an interview saying “and aidan was 19 or 20 when it happened” “five isn’t ACTUALLY a thirteen year old boy” and then aidan in a seperate interview asking ritu “do you really think they had it planned for that long?” (aka since he was a MINOR) clearly put off by the whole thing nah…. steve needs to DIE

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the problem with tua's ending is that it was IMPOSSIBLE to do without retconning and defacing the themes and characterizations that have been central to the story since the very first episode. if you had to end it that way, if it really was "the plan all along," then fine. there ARE good ways to do that -- so the execution should have been much different here if that was the case. take a look at "the good place," for example. everyone ceased to exist at the end of that story as well, but it was beautifully done because it ADDED to the show's core themes rather than take away from them. tua's ending was hollow and unavailing. at some point i have to commend the precision with which someone can desecrate an entire series and certain characters (looking at five, diego and lila especially) like this.

it made no sense. diego and lila formed a beautiful (albeit chaotic) relationship built upon mutual trust and authentic love that neither of them had ever experienced before. it was something they were teaching each other and learning together. that was a new beginning to them, and it was painted as such by the narrative. at no point were there hints that things would go sideways, no build up. every time they stumbled in the past it was still right back into each other's arms. at no point did their chaos look like an ending until it was shoved in our faces for... shock value? to shake things up? i fail to understand where it came from. they were relentlessly devoted to each other and the only two people who could stand each other for long. and so what became of them was very jarring. very messy.

five's ENTIRE character has been focused on and motivated by one thing: saving the people he loves. to the point that he was willing to let his own humanity become a forgone ideal, a renounced concept, as many times as it took. to the point that he essentially INVENTED TIME TRAVEL and INVENTED THE COMMISSION TO REGULATE IT. five's stoic exterior only barely concealed the claw-grip he had on every single family member, so why forget it now? why choose to go back on that? and in what world would five hargreeves willingly wait MONTHS to return to his family? because he was SUDDENLY in love with lila, no less? forgetting the very apparent fact that his age and body are not in alignment, five had never shown any interest in romance. especially not towards lila. but they do have very similar backgrounds, and so this was a chance to enrich the mutual understanding five and lila have with each other, expand the familial connections they have, especially seeing as how both of them -- in their own ways -- spent most of their life without that sort of connection.

ben's entire arc felt so, so out of place. completely and very ironically isolated from the entire rest of the series. nothing about it was fulfilling, nothing about it offered any sense of closure or even development. jennifer made no sense even as a plot device, much less as her own character. these two brought out nothing in each other.

klaus had the foundations of a good arc, but too much was introduced in too small an amount of time and none of it really went anywhere. i can say roughly the same for allison and viktor. THAT being said, of most of the scenes i did find myself genuinely enjoying this season, THOSE three were usually at the center! in fact, i really did love the scenes with klaus, allison, and claire. so that's cool. i guess. luther? he was just kind of... there?

and ray just fucked off with no explanation? okay. and reginald? until this point he had all the qualities of a potentially VERY GOOD and nuanced villain. his arc fell flat. and let's not forget all the other loose ends, but, you know, we've been here long enough. so. onto the next point.

none of these characters got to heal. none of them ever got to revel in anything meaningful, or, rather, the things that WERE meaningful across the whole series were rendered worthless because... none of it exists anymore! none of it ever existed! this is like an "it was all a dream" ending but much worse. and these characters are so, so incredible. i can only name a few other stories that have had characters i've connected to this deeply. and despite everything i could never really stop loving them. that makes it hurt more though tbh

anyways. i know i'm about to sound incredibly dramatic but the ending made me sob my lungs out. this show was really important to me. it led me to incredible people, other incredible stories, helped me live, etc. but i honestly found myself wishing i'd just never watched this series at all. the ending was eviscerating and Just Fucking Pointless. i don't think i'm ever going to be able to rewatch it. it's still hard for me to conceptualize that it was even real, that this is all we get. there's a lot more i could say about everything, but again, i've said a lot already and i'm not trying to write a fucking novel. i'll say more of what i want to in sporadic bursts i guess.

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should i kill myself

“tua should end with all the siblings dying together” “it should end with them realizing there’s nothing they can do” you’re all cowards have you never heard of hope???? of healing against all odds??? you’re weak

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at my funeral i hope the umbrella academy lowers my casket into the ground just so it can let me down one last time

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went onto twitter to see that utenanthy are losing a “most influential yuri” poll to brittany and santana from glee………….. open the fucking schools

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asagiri saying This about sigma is interesting to me so i’m gonna share a few thoughts about it

sigma is such a double-edged sword of a character. him being the ultimate stranger to the earth is what lends way to him ALSO being the ultimate display of humanity in an intimate facet. his blank slate is why they’re such a pillar in bsd’s themes of growing & connection. many characters represent these themes in different ways, but sigma is a special case because he has absolutely nothing else to fall back on— he’s been conscious for three years and in that time they’ve only really known cruelty, he’s only known a life that’s anything BUT normal. and that’s precisely why normality is something at the core of what she searches for. i think asagiri saying that in this search for normality, “the more sigma he becomes” is interesting too — bc sigma’s first autonomous choice was the name he gave himself, and that set the wheels in motion for his arc ab forging his own path and gaining a tangible sense of agency

side note: he has a lot in common with chuuya. but that’s another conversation

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love him so bad. he’s just a head. he wants to go to sleep. he’s enthralled by music. he doesn’t really have anything he wants to do or anywhere he wants to go. he’s a vampire. he understands girls

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“the intrusive thoughts won” “that’s psychotic” “i’m so delusional haha” “narcissistic abuse” “the weather is so bipolar” SHUT UP!!!!!! SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!

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“house and wilson drugged each other” this “wilson kidnapped house’s guitar” that “wilson proposed to house in a diner” this. remember when house gave wilson a CHILD. remember when wilson was sad over not being a father so house hired a child actor and told wilson it was his long lost son from one of his failed relationships

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i just listened to the album “preacher’s daughter” by ethel cain and i genuinely don’t think any story told through music has devastated me in the way this one did. the mind this woman has to write like THAT…. i’m going to be thinking about it for a long time. the story is harrowing and it’s so brutally vivid… truly depicts the more haunting side of womanhood, of religious trauma and of abuse, etc etc… yeah. here’s lyrics that stuck out to me. if you need me i’ll be laying down in the middle of a busy highway

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re: prim’s name being a spoiler for her death: also in the victorian flower language primroses say “i can’t live without you.”

so of course katniss had to live without her.

OH I DIDN’T EVEN REALIZE THIS…….. nothing to smile about in my life

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i have two types of favorite character:

1) Tragedy If It Was A Person

2) silly

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i do like the hunger games movies — like, as far as book adaptations go, things were relatively good — but they were WRONG for not including the little bit of haymitch’s backstory in the catching fire movie. the pieces of haymitch’s backstory that the books gave us offered a LOT of insight into his motivations and the way he trusts & understands katniss irrevocably. haymitch’s games were a quarter quell, too. he lost an ally, too. and more importantly, he was the first person to realize that the force fields that surround the arenas are deadly, and he used that to his advantage and won the games as a result. his actions were seen as an act of rebellion by the capitol, and so snow had his family killed. the next, and only other person to ever do this — to use the force field as a weapon — was katniss. she didn’t come up with the idea on her own. she got it from witnessing clips of haymitch’s games. and she knew what it could cost, and she did it anyway. and that was what officially set the wheels of the rebellion into motion. it was a flame that haymitch had sparked years ago, even if it wasn’t a conscious intention. at the time of his own games, the people weren’t ready to unify and rebel as a cohesive unit, but once katniss used his same method, they were. the parallels between haymitch and katniss run deep, and he trusts her irrevocably. he knew exactly what she was about to do when she said “yes” in the tributes meeting, and he stood behind her immediately. haymitch is arguably the one and only person who understands katniss in her entirety. he has felt the same grief, undergone the same tragedies, and held the same passion that begged for a better world.

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and it’s funny to see people say that prim’s death happened for “no reason.” because it’s almost like…… war of any kind inevitably causes the senseless death of thousands. and it doesn’t mean anything. yes, prim died for no reason, and that was the point.

coin only ever cared about power, it was thinly veiled as a pursuit for justice. she was fine with innocent children dying if it meant citizens would think the blood was all on snow’s hands. pair this with gale’s weapon, and the fact that prim happened to be on the front lines, and bam. innocent, senseless deaths.

that’s from an emotional standpoint, though. from a narrative standpoint, prim’s death actually DID make sense. just as rue’s death served as the catalyst that convinced katniss to die by nightlock (the act that began the rebellion), prim’s death was the catalyst that forced katniss to confront coin’s true colors. now, katniss knew that coin was really no different from snow. it all went in a circle. the rebellion started because of katniss’s love for prim, and the rebellion was won because of that same love.

and on a final note: prim’s death was foreshadowed by her name alone. a primrose is a flower that wilts shortly after blooming.

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sometimes the most beautiful relationships you’ll have are the ones you never see coming. the ones you don’t go looking for. you’re laughing with a friend for the millionth time and as you settle into a comfortable silence, you suddenly realize that this is who you’re meant for, and they were right there all along. it’s the relationships where the two of you aren’t a “unit,” you’re not two halves of a whole — you are your own people, you are individuals who value each other’s growth and you choose, deliberately, every single day, to love each other, to grow alongside to each other, to learn from each other. sometimes falling in love isn’t falling at all — it’s just waking up again.

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lesbians with fictional men are just like this is my best friend this is my pet this is my girlfriend this is my science experiment this is my father this is literally me